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- 1869
- LITTLE WOMEN
- by Louisa May Alcott
-
-
- PREFACE
-
- GO THEN, my little Book, and show to all
- That entertain and bid thee welcome shall,
- What thou dost keep close shut up in thy breast;
- And wish what thou dost show them may be blest
- To them for good, may make them choose to be
- Pilgrims better, by far, than thee or me.
- Tell them of Mercy; she is one
- Who early hath her pilgrimage begun.
- Yea, let young damsels learn of her to prize
- The world which is to come, and so be wise;
- For little tripping maids may follow God
- Along the ways which saintly feet have trod.
-
- Adapted from JOHN BUNYAN.
- 1
- Playing Pilgrims
-
- CHRISTMAS won't be Christmas without any presents," grumbled Jo,
- lying on the rug.
- "It's so dreadful to be poor!" sighed Meg, looking down at her old
- dress.
- "I don't think it's fair for some girls to have plenty of pretty
- things, and other girls nothing at all," added little Amy, with an
- injured sniff.
- "We've got father and mother and each other," said Beth contentedly,
- from her corner.
- The four young faces on which the firelight shone brightened at
- the cheerful words, but darkened again as Jo said sadly-
- "We haven't got father, and shall not have him for a long time." She
- didn't say "perhaps never," but each silently added it, thinking of
- father far away, where the fighting was.
- Nobody spoke for a minute; then Meg said in an altered tone-
- "You know the reason mother proposed not having any presents this
- Christmas was because it is going to be a hard winter for every one;
- and she thinks we ought not to spend money for pleasure, when our
- men are suffering so in the army. We can't do much, but we can make
- our little sacrifices, and ought to do it gladly. But I am afraid I
- don't"; and Meg shook her head, as she thought regretfully of all
- the pretty things she wanted.
- "But I don't think the little we should spend would do any good.
- We've each got a dollar, and the army wouldn't be much helped by our
- giving that. I agree not to expect anything from mother or you, but
- I do want to buy Undine and Sintram for myself; I've wanted it so
- long," said Jo, who was a bookworm.
- "I planned to spend mine in new music," said Beth, with a little
- sigh, which no one heard but the hearth-brush and kettle-holder.
- "I shall get a nice box of Faber's drawing-pencils; I really need
- them," said Amy decidedly.
- "Mother didn't say anything about our money, and she won't wish us
- to give up everything. Let's each buy what we want, and have a
- little fun; I'm sure we work hard enough to earn it," cried Jo,
- examining the heels of her shoes in a gentlemanly manner.
- "I know I do- teaching those tiresome children nearly all day,
- when I'm longing to enjoy myself at home," began Meg, in the
- complaining tone again.
- "You don't have half such a hard time as I do," said Jo. "How
- would you like to be shut up for hours with a nervous, fussy old lady,
- who keeps you trotting, is never satisfied, and worries you till
- you're ready to fly out of the window or cry?"
- "It's naughty to fret; but I do think washing dishes and keeping
- things tidy is the worst work in the world. It makes me cross; and
- my hands get so stiff, I can't practise well at all"; and Beth
- looked at her rough hands with a sigh that any one could hear that
- time.
- "I don't believe any of you suffer as I do," cried Amy; "for you
- don't have to go to school with impertinent girls, who plague you if
- you don't know your lessons, and laugh at your dresses, and label your
- father if he isn't rich, and insult you when your nose isn't nice."
- "If you mean libel, I'd say so, and not talk about labels, as if
- papa was a pickle-bottle," advised Jo laughing.
- "I know what I mean, and you needn't be statirical about it. It's
- proper to use good words, and improve your vocabilary," returned
- Amy, with dignity.
- "Don't peck at one another, children. Don't you wish we had the
- money papa lost when we were little, Jo? Dear me! how happy and good
- we'd be, if we had no worries!" said Meg, who could remember better
- times.
- "You said, the other day, you thought we were a deal happier than
- the King children, for they were fighting and fretting all the time,
- in spite of their money."
- "So I did, Beth. Well, I think we are; for, though we do have to
- work, we make fun for ourselves, and are a pretty jolly set, as Jo
- would say."
- "Jo does use such slang words!" observed Amy, with a reproving
- look at the long figure stretched on the rug. Jo immediately sat up,
- put her hands in her pockets, and began to whistle.
- "Don't, Jo; it's so boyish!"
- "That's why I do it."
- "I detest rude, unlady-like girls!"
- "I hate affected, niminy-piminy chits!"
- "'Birds in their little nests agree,'" sang Beth, the peace-maker,
- with such a funny face that both sharp voices softened to a laugh, and
- the "pecking" ended for that time.
- "Really, girls, you are both to be blamed," said Meg, beginning to
- lecture in her elder-sisterly fashion. "You are old enough to leave
- off boyish tricks, and to behave better, Josephine. It didn't matter
- so much when you were a little girl; but now you are so tall, and turn
- up your hair, you should remember that you are a young lady."
- "I'm not! and if turning up my hair makes me one, I'll wear it in
- two tails till I'm twenty," cried Jo, pulling off her net, and shaking
- down a chestnut mane. "I hate to think I've got to grow up, and be
- Miss March, and wear long gowns, and look as prim as a China-aster!
- It's bad enough to be a girl, anyway, when I like boys' games and work
- and manners! I can't get over my disappointment in not being a boy;
- and it's worse than ever now, for I'm dying to go and fight with papa,
- and I can only stay at home and knit, like a poky old woman!" And Jo
- shook the blue army-sock till the needles rattled like castanets,
- and her ball bounded across the room.
- "Poor Jo! It's too bad, but it can't be helped; so you must try to
- be contented with making your name boyish, and playing brother to us
- girls," said Beth, stroking the rough head at her knee with a hand
- that all the dishwashing and dusting in the world could not make
- ungentle in its touch.
- "As for you, Amy," continued Meg, "you are altogether too particular
- and prim. Your airs are funny now; but you'll grow up an affected
- little goose, if you don't take care. I like your nice manners and
- refined ways of speaking, when you don't try to be elegant; but your
- absurd words are as bad as Jo's slang."
- "If Jo is a tom-boy and Amy a goose, what am I, please?" asked Beth,
- ready to share the lecture.
- "You're a dear, and nothing else," answered Meg warmly; and no one
- contradicted her, for the "Mouse" was the pet of the family.
- As young readers like to know "how people look," we will take this
- moment to give them a little sketch of the four sisters, who sat
- knitting away in the twilight, while the December snow fell quietly
- without, and the fire crackled cheerfully within. It was a comfortable
- old room, though the carpet was faded and the furniture very plain;
- for a good picture or two hung on the walls, books filled the
- recesses, chrysanthemums and Christmas roses bloomed in the windows,
- and a pleasant atmosphere of home-peace pervaded it.
- Margaret, the eldest of the four, was sixteen, and very pretty,
- being plump and fair, with large eyes, plenty of soft, brown hair, a
- sweet mouth, and white hands, of which she was rather vain.
- Fifteen-year-old Jo was very tall, thin, and brown, and reminded one
- of a colt; for she never seemed to know what to do with her long
- limbs, which were very much in her way. She had a decided mouth, a
- comical nose, and sharp, gray eyes, which appeared to see
- everything, and were by turns fierce, funny, or thoughtful. Her
- long, thick hair was her one beauty; but it was usually bundled into a
- net, to be out of her way. Round shoulders had Jo, big hands and feet,
- a fly-away look to her clothes, and the uncomfortable appearance of
- a girl who was rapidly shooting up into a woman, and didn't like it.
- Elizabeth- or Beth, as every one called her- was a rosy,
- smooth-haired, bright-eyed girl of thirteen, with a shy manner, a
- timid voice, and a peaceful expression, which was seldom disturbed.
- Her father called her "Little Tranquillity," and the name suited her
- excellently; for she seemed to live in a happy world of her own,
- only venturing out to meet the few whom she trusted and loved. Amy,
- though the youngest, was a most important person- in her own opinion
- at least. A regular snow-maiden, with blue eyes, and yellow hair,
- curling on her shoulders, pale and slender, and always carrying
- herself like a young lady mindful of her manners. What the
- characters of the four sisters were we will leave to be found out.
- The clock struck six; and, having swept up the hearth, Beth put a
- pair of slippers down to warm. Somehow the sight of the old shoes
- had a good effect upon the girls; for mother was coming, and every one
- brightened to welcome her. Meg stopped lecturing, and lighted the
- lamp, Amy got out of the easy-chair without being asked, and Jo forgot
- how tired she was as she sat up to hold the slippers nearer to the
- blaze.
- "They are quite worn out; Marmee must have a new pair."
- "I thought I'd get her some with my dollar," said Beth.
- "No, I shall!" cried Amy.
- "I'm the oldest," began Meg, but Jo cut in with a decided-
- "I'm the man of the family now papa is away, and I shall provide the
- slippers, for he told me to take special care of mother while he was
- gone."
- "I'll tell you what we'll do," said Beth; "Let's each get her
- something for Christmas, and not get anything for ourselves."
- "That's like you, dear! What will we get?" exclaimed Jo.
- Every one thought soberly for a minute; then Meg announced, as if
- the idea was suggested by the sight of her own pretty hands, "I
- shall give her a nice pair of gloves."
- "Army shoes, best to be had," cried Jo.
- "Some handkerchiefs, all hemmed," said Beth.
- "I'll get a little bottle of cologne; she likes it, and it won't
- cost much, so I'll have some left to buy my pencils," added Amy.
- "How will we give the things?" asked Meg.
- "Put them on the table, and bring her in and see her open the
- bundles. Don't you remember how we used to do on our birthdays?"
- answered Jo.
- "I used to be so frightened when it was my turn to sit in the big
- chair with the crown on, and see you all come marching round to give
- the presents, with a kiss. I liked the things and the kisses, but it
- was dreadful to have you sit looking at me while I opened the
- bundles," said Beth, who was toasting her face and the bread for
- tea, at the same time.
- "Let Marmee think we are getting things for ourselves, and then
- surprise her. We must go shopping to-morrow afternoon, Meg; there is
- so much to do about the play for Christmas night," said Jo, marching
- up and down, with her hands behind her back and her nose in the air.
- "I don't mean to act any more after this time; I'm getting too old
- for such things," observed Meg, who was as much a child as ever
- about "dressing-up" frolics.
- "You won't stop, I know, as long as you can trail round in a white
- gown with your hair down, and wear gold-paper jewelry. You are the
- best actress we've got, and there'll be an end of everything if you
- quit the boards," said Jo. "We ought to rehearse to-night. Come
- here, Amy, and do the fainting scene, for you are as stiff as a
- poker in that."
- "I can't help it; I never saw any one faint, and I don't choose to
- make myself all black and blue, tumbling flat as you do. If I can go
- down easily, I'll drop; if I can't, I shall fall into a chair and be
- graceful; I don't care if Hugo does come at me with a pistol,"
- returned Amy, who was not gifted with dramatic power, but was chosen
- because she was small enough to be borne out shrieking by the
- villain of the piece.
- "Do it this way; clasp your hands so, and stagger across the room,
- crying frantically, 'Roderigo! save me! save me!'" and away went Jo,
- with a melodramatic scream which was truly thrilling.
- Amy followed, but she poked her hands out stiffly before her, and
- jerked herself along as if she went by machinery; and her "Ow!" was
- more suggestive of pins being run into her than of fear and anguish.
- Jo gave a despairing groan, and Meg laughed outright, while Beth let
- her bread burn as she watched the fun, with interest.
- "It's no use! Do the best you can when the time comes, and if the
- audience laugh, don't blame me. Come on, Meg."
- Then things went smoothly, for Don Pedro defied the world in a
- speech of two pages without a single break; Hagar, the witch,
- chanted an awful incantation over her kettleful of simmering toads,
- with weird effect; Roderigo rent his chains asunder manfully, and Hugo
- died in agonies of remorse and arsenic, with a wild "Ha! ha!"
- "It's the best we've had yet," said Meg, as the dead villain sat
- up and rubbed his elbows.
- "I don't see how you can write and act such splendid things, Jo.
- You're a regular Shakespeare!" exclaimed Beth, who firmly believed
- that her sisters were gifted with wonderful genius in all things.
- "Not quite," replied Jo modestly. "I do think, 'The Witch's Curse,
- an Operatic Tragedy,' is rather a nice thing; but I'd like to try
- Macbeth, if we only had a trapdoor for Banquo. I always wanted to do
- the killing part. 'Is that a dagger that I see before me?'" muttered
- Jo, rolling her eyes and clutching at the air, as she had seen a
- famous tragedian do.
- "No, it's the toasting fork, with mother's shoe on it instead of the
- bread. Beth's stage-struck!" cried Meg, and the rehearsal ended in a
- general burst of laughter.
- "Glad to find you so merry, my girls," said a cheery voice at the
- door, and actors and audience turned to welcome a tall, motherly lady,
- with a "can-I-help-you" look about her which was truly delightful. She
- was not elegantly dressed, but a noble-looking woman, and the girls
- thought the gray cloak and unfashionable bonnet covered the most
- splendid mother in the world.
- "Well, dearies, how have you got on to-day? There was so much to do,
- getting the boxes ready to go to-morrow, that I didn't come home to
- dinner. Has any one called, Beth? How is your cold, Meg? Jo, you
- look tired to death. Come and kiss me, baby."
- While making these maternal inquiries Mrs. March got her wet
- things off, her warm slippers on, and sitting down in the
- easy-chair, drew Amy to her lap, preparing to enjoy the happiest
- hour of her busy day. The girls flew about, trying to make things
- comfortable, each in her own way. Meg arranged the tea-table; Jo
- brought wood and set chairs, dropping, overturning, and clattering
- everything she touched; Beth trotted to and fro between parlor and
- kitchen, quiet and busy; while Amy gave directions to every one, as
- she sat with her hands folded.
- As they gathered about the table, Mrs. March said, with a
- particularly happy face, "I've got a treat for you after supper."
- A quick, bright smile went round like a streak of sunshine. Beth
- clapped her hands, regardless of the biscuit she held, and Jo tossed
- up her napkin, crying, "A letter! a letter! Three cheers for father!"
- "Yes, a nice long letter. He is well, and thinks he shall get
- through the cold season better than we feared. He sends all sorts of
- loving wishes for Christmas, and an especial message to you girls,"
- said Mrs. March, patting her pocket as if she had got a treasure
- there.
- "Hurry and get done! Don't stop to quirk your little finger, and
- simper over your plate, Amy," cried Jo, choking in her tea, and
- dropping her bread, butter side down, on the carpet, in her haste to
- get at the treat.
- Beth ate no more but crept away, to sit in her shadowy corner and
- brood over the delight to come, till the others were ready.
- "I think it was so splendid in father to go as a chaplain when he
- was too old to be drafted, and not strong enough for a soldier,"
- said Meg warmly.
- "Don't I wish I could go as a drummer, a vivan- what's its name?
- or a nurse, so I could be near him and help him," exclaimed Jo, with a
- groan.
- "It must be very disagreeable to sleep in a tent, and eat all
- sorts of bad-tasting things, and drink out of a tin mug," sighed Amy.
- "When will he come home, Marmee?" asked Beth, with a little quiver
- in her voice.
- "Not for many months, dear, unless he is sick. He will stay and do
- his work faithfully as long as he can, and we won't ask for him back a
- minute sooner than he can be spared. Now come and hear the letter."
- They all drew to the fire, mother in the big chair with Beth at
- her feet, Meg and Amy perched on either arm of the chair, and Jo
- leaning on the back, where no one would see any sign of emotion if the
- letter should happen to be touching. Very few letters were written
- in those hard times that were not touching, especially those which
- fathers sent home. In this one little was said of the hardships
- endured, the dangers faced, or the homesickness conquered; it was a
- cheerful, hopeful letter, full of lively descriptions of camp life,
- marches, and military news; and only at the end did the writer's heart
- overflow with fatherly love and longing for the little girls at home.
- "Give them all my dear love and a kiss. Tell them I think of them by
- day, pray for them by night, and find my best comfort in their
- affection at all times. A year seems very long to wait before I see
- them, but remind them that while we wait we may all work, so that
- these hard days need not be wasted. I know they will remember all I
- said to them, that they will be loving children to you, will do
- their duty faithfully, fight their bosom enemies bravely, and
- conquer themselves so beautifully, that when I come back to them I may
- be fonder and prouder than ever of my little women.
- Everybody sniffed when they came to that part; Jo wasn't ashamed
- of the great tear that dropped off the end of her nose, and Amy
- never minded the rumpling of her curls as she hid her face on her
- mother's shoulder and sobbed out:
- "I am a selfish girl! but I'll truly try to be better, so he
- mayn't be disappointed in me by and by."
- "We all will!" cried Meg. "I think too much of my looks, and hate to
- work, but won't any more, if I can help it."
- "I'll try and be what he loves to call me, 'a little woman,' and not
- be rough and wild; but do my duty here instead of wanting to be
- somewhere else," said Jo, thinking that keeping her temper at home was
- a much harder task than facing a rebel or two down South.
- Beth said nothing, but wiped away her tears with the blue army-sock,
- and began to knit with all her might, losing no time in doing the duty
- that lay nearest her, while she resolved in her quiet little soul to
- be all that father hoped to find her when the year brought round the
- happy coming home.
- Mrs. March broke the silence that followed Jo's words, by saying
- in her cheery voice, "Do you remember how you used to play Pilgrim's
- Progress when you were little things? Nothing delighted you more
- than to have me tie my piece-bags on your backs for burdens, give
- you hats and sticks and rolls of paper, and let you travel through the
- house from the cellar, which was the City of Destruction, up, up, to
- the house-top, where you had all the lovely things you could collect
- to make a Celestial City."
- "What fun it was, especially going by the lions, fighting
- Apollyon, and passing through the Valley where the hobgoblins were!"
- said Jo.
- "I liked the place where the bundles fell off and tumbled
- downstairs," said Meg.
- "My favorite part was when we came out on the flat roof where our
- flowers and arbors and pretty things were, and all stood and sung
- for joy up there in the sunshine," said Beth, smiling, as if that
- pleasant moment had come back to her.
- "I don't remember much about it, except that I was afraid of the
- cellar and the dark entry, and always liked the cake and milk we had
- up at the top. If I wasn't too old for such things, I'd rather like to
- play it over again," said Amy, who began to talk of renouncing
- childish things at the mature age of twelve.
- "We never are too old for this, my dear, because it is a play we are
- playing all the time in one way or another. Our burdens are here,
- our road is before us, and the longing for goodness and happiness is
- the guide that leads us through many troubles and mistakes to the
- peace which is a true Celestial City. Now, my little pilgrims, suppose
- you begin again, not in play, but in earnest, and see how far on you
- can get before father comes home."
- "Really, mother? Where are our bundles?" asked Amy, who was a very
- literal young lady.
- "Each of you told what your burden was just now, except Beth; I
- rather think she hasn't got any," said her mother.
- "Yes, I have; mine is dishes and dusters, and envying girls with
- nice pianos, and being afraid of people."
- Beth's bundle was such a funny one that everybody wanted to laugh;
- but nobody did, for it would have hurt her feelings very much.
- "Let us do it," said Meg thoughtfully. "It is only another name
- for trying to be good, and the story may help us; for though we do
- want to be good, it's hard work, and we forget, and don't do our
- best."
- "We were in the Slough of Despond to-night, and mother came and
- pulled us out as Help did in the book. We ought to have our roll of
- directions, like Christian. What shall we do about that?" asked Jo,
- delighted with the fancy which lent a little romance to the very
- dull task of doing her duty.
- "Look under your pillows, Christmas morning, and you will find
- your guide-book," replied Mrs. March.
- They talked over the new plan while old Hannah cleared the table;
- then out came the four little work-baskets, and the needles flew as
- the girls made sheets for Aunt March. It was uninteresting sewing, but
- to-night no one grumbled. They adopted Jo's plan of dividing the
- long seams into four parts, and calling the quarters Europe, Asia,
- Africa, and America, and in that way got on capitally, especially when
- they talked about the different countries as they stitched their way
- through them.
- At nine they stopped work, and sung, as usual, before they went to
- bed. No one but Beth could get much music out of the old piano; but
- she had a way of softly touching the yellow keys, and making a
- pleasant accompaniment to the simple songs they sung. Meg had a
- voice like a flute, and she and her mother led the little choir. Amy
- chirped like a cricket, and Jo wandered through the airs at her own
- sweet will, always coming out at the wrong place with a croak or a
- quaver that spoilt the most pensive tune. They had always done this
- from the time they could lisp
-
- "Crinkle, crinkle, 'ittle 'tar,"
-
- and it had become a household custom, for the mother was a born
- singer. The first sound in the morning was her voice, as she went
- about the house singing like a lark; and the last sound at night was
- the same cheery sound, for the girls never grew too old for that
- familiar lullaby.
- 2
- A Merry Christmas
-
- JO was the first to wake in the gray dawn of Christmas morning. No
- stockings hung at the fireplace, and for a moment she felt as much
- disappointed as she did long ago, when her little sock fell down
- because it was so crammed with goodies. Then she remembered her
- mother's promise, and, slipping her hand under her pillow, drew out
- a little crimson-covered book. She knew it very well, for it was
- that beautiful old story of the best life ever lived, and Jo felt that
- it was a true guide-book for any pilgrim going the long journey. She
- woke Meg with a "Merry Christmas," and bade her see what was under her
- pillow. A green-covered book appeared, with the same picture inside,
- and a few words written by their mother, which made their one
- present very precious in their eyes. Presently Beth and Amy woke, to
- rummage and find their little books also- one dove-colored, the
- other blue; and all sat looking at and talking about them, while the
- east grew rosy with the coming day.
- In spite of her small vanities, Margaret had a sweet and pious
- nature, which unconsciously influenced her sisters, especially Jo, who
- loved her very tenderly, and obeyed her because her advice was so
- gently given.
- "Girls," said Meg seriously, looking from the tumbled head beside
- her to the two little night-capped ones in the room beyond, "mother
- wants us to read and love and mind these books, and we must begin at
- once. We used to be faithful about it; but since father went away, and
- all this war trouble unsettled us, we have neglected many things.
- You can do as you please; but I shall keep my book on the table
- here, and read a little every morning as soon as I wake, for I know it
- will do me good, and help me through the day."
- Then she opened her new book and began to read. Jo put her arm round
- her, and, leaning cheek to cheek, read also, with the quiet expression
- so seldom seen on her restless face.
- "How good Meg is! Come, Amy, let's do as they do. I'll help you with
- the hard words, and they'll explain things if we don't understand,"
- whispered Beth, very much impressed by the pretty books and her
- sisters' example.
- "I'm glad mine is blue," said Amy; and then the rooms were very
- still while the pages were softly turned, and the winter sunshine
- crept in to touch the bright heads and serious faces with a
- Christmas greeting.
- "Where is mother?" asked Meg, as she and Jo ran down to thank her
- for their gifts, half an hour later.
- "Goodness only knows. Some poor creeter come a-beggin, and your ma
- went straight off to see what was needed. There never was such a woman
- for givin' away vittles and drink, clothes and firin'," replied
- Hannah, who had lived with the family since Meg was born, and was
- considered by them all more as a friend than a servant.
- "She will be back soon, I think; so fry your cakes, and have
- everything ready," said Meg, looking over the presents which were
- collected in a basket and kept under the sofa, ready to be produced at
- the proper time. "Why, where is Amy's bottle of cologne?" she added,
- as the little flask did not appear.
- "She took it out a minute ago, and went off with it to put a
- ribbon on it, or some such notion," replied Jo, dancing about the room
- to take the first stiffness off the new army-slippers.
- "How nice my handkerchiefs look, don't they? Hannah washed and
- ironed them for me, and I marked them all myself," said Beth,
- looking proudly at the somewhat uneven letters which had cost her such
- labor.
- "Bless the child! she's gone and put 'Mother' on them instead of 'M.
- March.' How funny!" cried Jo, taking up one.
- "Isn't it right? I thought it was better to do it so, because
- Meg's initials are 'M. M.,' and I don't want any one to use these
- but Marmee," said Beth, looking troubled.
- "It's all right, dear, and a very pretty idea- quite sensible,
- too, for no one can ever mistake now. It will please her very much,
- I know," said Meg, with a frown for Jo and a smile for Beth.
- "There's mother. Hide the basket, quick!" cried Jo, as a door
- slammed, and steps sounded in the hall.
- Amy came in hastily, and looked rather abashed when she saw her
- sisters all waiting for her.
- "Where have you been, and what are you hiding behind you?" asked
- Meg, surprised to see, by her hood and cloak, that lazy Amy had been
- out so early.
- "Don't laugh at me, Jo! I didn't mean any one should know till the
- time came. I only meant to change the little bottle for a big one, and
- I gave all my money to get it, and I'm truly trying not to be
- selfish any more."
- As she spoke, Amy showed the handsome flask which replaced the cheap
- one; and looked so earnest and humble in her little effort to forget
- herself that Meg hugged her on the spot, and Jo pronounced her "a
- trump," while Beth ran to the window, and picked her finest rose to
- ornament the stately bottle.
- "You see I felt ashamed of my present, after reading and talking
- about being good this morning, so I ran round the corner and changed
- it the minute I was up: and I'm so glad, for mine is the handsomest
- now."
- Another bang of the street-door sent the basket under the sofa,
- and the girls to the table, eager for breakfast.
- "Merry Christmas, Marmee! Many of them! Thank you for our books;
- we read some, and mean to every day," they cried, in chorus.
- "Merry Christmas, little daughters! I'm glad you began at once,
- and hope you will keep on. But I want to say one word before we sit
- down. Not far away from here lies a poor woman with a little
- new-born baby. Six children are huddled into one bed to keep from
- freezing, for they have no fire. There is nothing to eat over there;
- and the oldest boy came to tell me they were suffering hunger and
- cold. My girls, will you give them your breakfast as a Christmas
- present?"
- They were all unusually hungry, having waited nearly an hour, and
- for a minute no one spoke; only a minute, for Jo exclaimed
- impetuously-
- "I'm so glad you came before we began!"
- "May I go and help carry the things to the poor little children?"
- asked Beth eagerly.
- "I shall take the cream and the muffins," added Amy, heroically
- giving up the articles she most liked.
- Meg was already covering the buckwheats, and piling the bread into
- one big plate.
- "I thought you'd do it," said Mrs. March, smiling as if satisfied.
- "You shall all go and help me, and when we come back we will have
- bread and milk for breakfast, and make it up at dinner-time."
- They were soon ready, and the procession set out. Fortunately it was
- early, and they went through back streets, so few people saw them, and
- no one laughed at the queer party.
- A poor, bare, miserable room it was, with broken windows, no fire,
- ragged bed-clothes, a sick mother, wailing baby, and a group of
- pale, hungry children cuddled under one old quilt, trying to keep
- warm.
- How the big eyes stared and the blue lips smiled as the girls went
- in!
- "Ach, mein Gott! it is good angels come to us!" said the poor woman,
- crying for joy.
- "Funny angels in hoods and mittens," said Jo, and set them laughing.
- In a few minutes it really did seem as if kind spirits had been at
- work there. Hannah, who had carried wood, made a fire, and stopped
- up the broken panes with old hats and her own cloak. Mrs. March gave
- the mother tea and gruel, and comforted her with promises of help,
- while she dressed the little baby as tenderly as if it had been her
- own. The girls, meantime, spread the table, set the children round the
- fire, and fed them like so many hungry birds- laughing, talking, and
- trying to understand the funny broken English.
- "Das ist gut!" "Die Engel-kinder!" cried the poor things, as they
- ate, and warmed their purple hands at the comfortable blaze.
- The girls had never been called angel children before, and thought
- it very agreeable, especially Jo, who had been considered a "Sancho"
- ever since she was born. That was a very happy breakfast, though
- they didn't get any of it; and when they went away, leaving comfort
- behind, I think there were not in all the city four merrier people
- than the hungry little girls who gave away their breakfasts and
- contented themselves with bread and milk on Christmas morning.
- "That's loving our neighbor better than ourselves, and I like it,"
- said Meg, as they set out their presents, while their mother was
- upstairs collecting clothes for the poor Hummels.
- Not a very splendid show, but there was a great deal of love done up
- in the few little bundles; and the tall vase of red roses, white
- chrysanthemums, and trailing vines, which stood in the middle, gave
- quite an elegant air to the table.
- "She's coming! Strike up, Beth! Open the door, Amy! Three cheers for
- Marmee!" cried Jo, prancing about, while Meg went to conduct mother to
- the seat of honor.
- Beth played her gayest march, Amy threw open the door, and Meg
- enacted escort with great dignity. Mrs. March was both surprised and
- touched; and smiled with her eyes full as she examined her presents,
- and read the little notes which accompanied them. The slippers went on
- at once, a new handkerchief was slipped into her pocket, well
- scented with Amy's cologne, the rose was fastened in her bosom, and
- the nice gloves were pronounced a "perfect fit."
- There was a good deal of laughing and kissing and explaining, in the
- simple, loving fashion which makes these home-festivals so pleasant at
- the time, so sweet to remember long afterward, and then all fell to
- work.
- The morning charities and ceremonies took so much time that the rest
- of the day was devoted to preparations for the evening festivities.
- Being still too young to go often to the theater, and not rich
- enough to afford any great outlay for private performances, the
- girls put their wits to work, and- necessity being the mother of
- invention- made whatever they needed. Very clever were some of their
- productions- pasteboard guitars, antique lamps made of old-fashioned
- butter-boats covered with silver paper, gorgeous robes of old
- cotton, glittering with tin spangles from a pickle factory, and
- armor covered with the same useful diamond-shaped bits, left in sheets
- when the lids of tin preserve-pots were cut out. The furniture was
- used to being turned topsy-turvy, and the big chamber was the scene of
- many innocent revels.
- No gentlemen were admitted; so Jo played male parts to her heart's
- content, and took immense satisfaction in a pair of russet-leather
- boots given her by a friend, who knew a lady who knew an actor.
- These boots, an old foil, and a slashed doublet once used by an artist
- for some picture, were Jo's chief treasures, and appeared on all
- occasions. The smallness of the company made it necessary for the
- two principal actors to take several parts apiece; and they
- certainly deserved some credit for the hard work they did in
- learning three or four different parts, whisking in and out of various
- costumes, and managing the stage besides. It was excellent drill for
- their memories, a harmless amusement, and employed many hours which
- otherwise would have been idle, lonely, or spent in less profitable
- society.
- On Christmas night, a dozen girls piled onto the bed which was the
- dress-circle, and sat before the blue and yellow chintz curtains in
- a most flattering state of expectancy. There was a good deal of
- rustling and whispering behind the curtain, a trifle of lamp-smoke,
- and an occasional giggle from Amy, who was apt to get hysterical in
- the excitement of the moment. Presently a bell sounded, the curtains
- flew apart, and the Operatic Tragedy began.
- "A gloomy wood," according to the one play-bill, was represented
- by a few shrubs in pots, green baize on the floor, and a cave in the
- distance. This cave was made with a clothes-horse for a roof,
- bureaus for walls; and in it was a small furnace in full blast, with a
- black pot on it, and an old witch bending over it. The stage was dark,
- and the glow of the furnace had a fine effect, especially as real
- steam issued from the kettle when the witch took off the cover. A
- moment was allowed for the first thrill to subside; then Hugo, the
- villain, stalked in with a clanking sword at his side, a slouched hat,
- black beard, mysterious cloak, and the boots. After pacing to and
- fro in much agitation, he struck his forehead, and burst out in a wild
- strain, singing of his hatred to Roderigo, his love for Zara, and
- his pleasing resolution to kill the one and win the other. The gruff
- tones of Hugo's voice, with an occasional shout when his feelings
- overcame him, were very impressive, and the audience applauded the
- moment he paused for breath. Bowing with the air of one accustomed
- to public praise, he stole to the cavern, and ordered Hagar to come
- forth with a commanding "What ho, minion! I need thee!"
- Out came Meg, with gray horse-hair hanging about her face, a red and
- black robe, a staff, and cabalistic signs upon her cloak. Hugo
- demanded a potion to make Zara adore him, and one to destroy Roderigo.
- Hagar, in a fine dramatic melody, promised both, and proceeded to call
- up the spirit who would bring the love philter:
-
- "Hither, hither, from thy home,
- Airy sprite, I bid thee come!
- Born of roses, fed on dew,
- Charms and potions canst thou brew?
- Bring me here, with elfin speed,
- The fragrant philter which I need;
- Make it sweet and swift and strong,
- Spirit, answer now my song!"
-
- A soft strain of music sounded, and then at the back of the cave
- appeared a little figure in cloudy white, with glittering wings,
- golden hair, and a garland of roses on its head. Waving a wand, it
- sang-
-
- "Hither I come,
- From my airy home,
- Afar in the silver moon.
- Take the magic spell,
- And use it well,
- Or its power will vanish soon!"
-
- And, dropping a small, gilded bottle at the witch's feet, the spirit
- vanished. Another chant from Hagar produced another apparition- not
- a lovely one; for, with a bang, an ugly black imp appeared, and,
- having croaked a reply, tossed a dark bottle at Hugo, and
- disappeared with a mocking laugh. Having warbled his thanks and put
- the potions in his boots, Hugo departed; and Hagar informed the
- audience that, as he had killed a few of her friends in times past,
- she has cursed him, and intends to thwart his plans, and be revenged
- on him. Then the curtain fell, and the audience reposed and ate
- candy while discussing the merits of the play.
- A good deal of hammering went on before the curtain rose again;
- but when it became evident what a masterpiece of stage-carpentering
- had been got up, no one murmured at the delay. It was truly superb!
- A tower rose to the ceiling; half-way up appeared a window, with a
- lamp burning at it, and behind the white curtain appeared Zara in a
- lovely blue and silver dress, waiting for Roderigo. He came in
- gorgeous array, with plumed cap, red cloak, chestnut love-locks, a
- guitar, and the boots, of course. Kneeling at the foot of the tower,
- he sang a serenade in melting tones. Zara replied, and after a musical
- dialogue, consented to fly. Then came the grand effect of the play.
- Roderigo produced a rope-ladder, with five steps to it, threw up one
- end, and invited Zara to descend. Timidly she crept from her
- lattice, put her hand on Roderigo's shoulder, and was about to leap
- gracefully down, when, "Alas! alas for Zara!" she forgot her train- it
- caught in the window; the tower tottered, leaned forward, fell with
- a crash, and buried the unhappy lovers in the ruins!
- A universal shriek arose as the russet boots waved wildly from the
- wreck, and a golden head emerged, exclaiming, "I told you so! I told
- you so!" With wonderful presence of mind, Don Pedro, the cruel sire,
- rushed in, dragged out his daughter, with a hasty aside-
- "Don't laugh! Act as if it was all right!"- and, ordering Roderigo
- up, banished him from the kingdom with wrath and scorn. Though
- decidedly shaken by the fall of the tower upon him, Roderigo defied
- the old gentleman, and refused to stir. This dauntless example fired
- Zara: she also defied her sire, and he ordered them both to the
- deepest dungeons of the castle. A stout little retainer came in with
- chains, and led them away, looking very much frightened, and evidently
- forgetting the speech he ought to have made.
- Act third was the castle hall; and here Hagar appeared, having
- come to free the lovers and finish Hugo. She hears him coming, and
- hides; sees him put the potions into two cups of wine, and bid the
- timid little servant "Bear them to the captives in their cells, and
- tell them I shall come anon." The servant takes Hugo aside to tell him
- something, and Hagar changes the cups for two others which are
- harmless. Ferdinando, the "minion," carries them away, and Hagar
- puts back the cup which holds the poison meant for Roderigo. Hugo,
- getting thirsty after a long warble, drinks it, loses his wits, and,
- after a good deal of clutching and stamping, falls flat and dies;
- while Hagar informs him what she has done in a song of exquisite power
- and melody.
- This was a truly thrilling scene, though some persons might have
- thought that the sudden tumbling down of a quantity of long hair
- rather marred the effect of the villain's death. He was called
- before the curtain, and with great propriety appeared, leading
- Hagar, whose singing was considered more wonderful than all the rest
- of the performance put together.
- Act fourth displayed the despairing Roderigo on the point
- of-stabbing himself, because he has been told that Zara has deserted
- him. Just as the dagger is at his heart, a lovely song is sung under
- his window, informing him that Zara is true, but in danger, and he can
- save her, if he will. A key is thrown in, which unlocks the door,
- and in a spasm of rapture he tears off his chains, and rushes away
- to find and rescue his lady-love.
- Act fifth opened with a stormy scene between Zara and Don Pedro.
- He wishes her to go into a convent, but she won't hear of it; and,
- after a touching appeal, is about to faint, when Roderigo dashes in
- and demands her hand. Don Pedro refuses, because he is not rich.
- They shout and gesticulate tremendously, but cannot agree, and
- Roderigo is about to bear away the exhausted Zara, when the timid
- servant enters with a letter and a bag from Hagar, who has
- mysteriously disappeared. The latter informs the party that she
- bequeaths untold wealth to the young pair, and an awful doom to Don
- Pedro, if he doesn't make them happy. The bag is opened, and several
- quarts of tin money shower down upon the stage, till it is quite
- glorified with the glitter. This entirely softens the "stern sire": he
- consents without a murmur, all join in a joyful chorus, and the
- curtain falls upon the lovers kneeling to receive Don Pedro's blessing
- in attitudes of the most romantic grace.
- Tumultuous applause followed, but received an unexpected check;
- for the cot-bed, on which the "dress circle" was built, suddenly
- shut up, and extinguished the enthusiastic audience. Roderigo and
- Don Pedro flew to the rescue, and all were taken out unhurt, though
- many were speechless with laughter. The excitement had hardly
- subsided, when Hannah appeared, with "Mrs. March's compliments, and
- would the ladies walk down to supper."
- This was a surprise, even to the actors; and, when they saw the
- table, they looked at one another in rapturous amazement. It was
- like Marmee to get up a little treat for them; but anything so fine as
- this was unheard-of since the departed days of plenty. There was
- ice-cream- actually two dishes of it, pink and white- and cake and
- fruit and distracting French bonbons, and, in the middle of the table,
- four great bouquets of hothouse flowers!
- It quite took their breath away; and they stared first at the
- table and then at their mother, who looked as if she enjoyed it
- immensely.
- "Is it fairies?" asked Amy.
- "It's Santa Claus," said Beth.
- "Mother did it"; and Meg smiled her sweetest, in spite of her gray
- beard and white eyebrows.
- "Aunt March had a good fit, and sent the supper," cried Jo, with a
- sudden inspiration.
- "All wrong. Old Mr. Laurence sent it," replied Mrs. March.
- "The Laurence boy's grandfather! What in the world put such a
- thing into his head? We don't know him!" exclaimed Meg.
- "Hannah told one of his servants about your breakfast party. He is
- an odd old gentleman, but that pleased him. He knew my father, years
- ago; and he sent me a polite note this afternoon, saying he hoped I
- would allow him to express his friendly feeling toward my children
- by sending them a few trifles in honor of the day. I could not refuse;
- and so you have a little feast at night to make up for the
- bread-and-milk breakfast."
- "That boy put it into his head, I know he did! He's a capital
- fellow, and I wish we could get acquainted. He looks as if he'd like
- to know us; but he's bashful, and Meg is so prim she won't let me
- speak to him when we pass," said Jo, as the plates went round, and the
- ice began to melt out of sight, with "Ohs!" and "Ahs!" of
- satisfaction.
- "You mean the people who live in the big house next door, don't
- you?" asked one of the girls. "My mother knows old Mr. Laurence; but
- says he's very proud, and doesn't like to mix with his neighbors. He
- keeps his grandson shut up, when he isn't riding or walking with his
- tutor, and makes him study very hard. We invited him to our party, but
- he didn't come. Mother says he's very nice, though he never speaks
- to us girls."
- "Our cat ran away once, and he brought her back, and we talked
- over the fence, and were getting on capitally- all about cricket,
- and so on- when he saw Meg coming, and walked off. I mean to know
- him some day; for he needs fun, I'm sure he does," said Jo decidedly.
- "I like his manners, and he looks like a little gentleman; so I've
- no objection to your knowing him, if a proper opportunity comes. He
- brought the flowers himself; and I should have asked him in, if I
- had been sure what was going on upstairs. He looked so wistful as he
- went away, hearing the frolic, and evidently having none of his own."
- "It's a mercy you didn't, mother!" laughed Jo, looking at her boots.
- "But we'll have another play, some time, that he can see. Perhaps
- he'll help act; wouldn't that be jolly?"
- "I never had such a fine bouquet before! How pretty it is!" And
- Meg examined her flowers with great interest.
- "They are lovely! But Beth's roses are sweeter to me," said Mrs.
- March, smelling the half-dead posy in her belt.
- Beth nestled up to her, and whispered softly, "I wish I could send
- my bunch to father. I'm afraid he isn't having such a merry
- Christmas as we are."
- 3
- The Laurence Boy
-
- "JO! Jo! where are you?" cried Meg, at the foot of the garret
- stairs.
- "Here!" answered a husky voice from above; and, running up, Meg
- found her sister eating apples and crying over the "Heir of
- Redclyffe," wrapped up in a comforter on an old three-legged sofa by
- the sunny window. This was Jo's favorite refuge; and here she loved to
- retire with a half a dozen russets and a nice book, to enjoy the quiet
- and the society of a pet rat who lived near by, and didn't mind her
- a particle. As Meg appeared, Scrabble whisked into his hole. Jo
- shook the tears off her cheeks, and waited to hear the news.
- "Such fun! only see! a regular note of invitation from Mrs. Gardiner
- for to-morrow night!" cried Meg, waving the precious paper, and then
- proceeding to read it, with girlish delight.
- "'Mrs. Gardiner would be happy to see Miss March and Miss
- Josephine at a little dance on New-Year's Eve.' Marmee is willing we
- should go; now what shall we wear?"
- "What's the use of asking that, when you know we shall wear our
- poplins, because we haven't got anything else?" answered Jo, with
- her mouth full.
- "If I only had a silk!" sighed Meg. "Mother says I may when I'm
- eighteen, perhaps; but two years is an everlasting time to wait."
- "I'm sure our pops look like silk, and they are nice enough for
- us. Yours is as good as new, but I forgot the burn and the tear in
- mine. Whatever shall I do? the burn shows badly, and I can't take
- any out."
- "You must sit still all you can, and keep your back out of sight;
- the front is all right. I shall have a new ribbon for my hair, and
- Marmee will lend me her little pearl pin, and my new slippers are
- lovely, and my gloves will do, though they aren't as nice as I'd
- like."
- "Mine are spoilt with lemonade, and I can't get any new ones, so I
- shall have to go without," said Jo, who never troubled herself much
- about dress.
- "You must have gloves, or I won't go," cried Meg decidedly.
- "Gloves are more important than anything else; you can't dance without
- them, and if you don't I should be so mortified."
- "Then I'll stay still. I don't care much for company dancing; it's
- no fun to go sailing round; I like to fly about and cut capers."
- "You can't ask mother for new ones, they are so expensive, and you
- are so careless. She said, when you spoilt the others, that she
- shouldn't get you any more this winter. Can't you make them do?" asked
- Meg anxiously.
- "I can hold them crumpled up in my hand, so no one will know how
- stained they are; that's all I can do. No! I'll tell you how we can
- manage- each wear one good one and carry a bad one; don't you see?"
- "Your hands are bigger than mine, and you will stretch my glove
- dreadfully," began Meg, whose gloves were a tender point with her.
- "Then I'll go without. I don't care what people say!" cried Jo,
- taking up her book.
- "You may have it, you may! only don't stain it, and do behave
- nicely."
- "Don't put your hands behind you, or stare, or say 'Christopher
- Columbus!' will you?"
- "Don't worry about me; I'll be as prim as I can, and not get into
- any scrapes, if I can help it. Now go and answer your note, and let me
- finish this splendid story."
- So Meg went away to "accept with thanks," look over her dress, and
- sing blithely as she did up her one real lace frill; while Jo finished
- her story, her four apples, and had a game of romps with Scrabble.
- On New-Year's Eve the parlor was deserted, for the two younger girls
- played dressing-maids, and the two elder were absorbed in the
- all-important business of "getting ready for the party." Simple as the
- toilets were, there was a great deal of running up and down,
- laughing and talking, and at one time a strong smell of burnt hair
- pervaded the house. Meg wanted a few curls about her face, and Jo
- undertook to pinch the papered locks with a pair of hot tongs.
- "Ought they to smoke like that?" asked Beth, from her perch on the
- bed.
- "It's the dampness drying," replied Jo.
- "What a queer smell! it's like burnt feathers," observed Amy,
- smoothing her own pretty curls with a superior air.
- "There, now I'll take off the papers and you'll see a cloud of
- little ringlets," said Jo, putting down the tongs.
- She did take off the papers, but no cloud of ringlets appeared,
- for the hair came with the papers, and the horrified hair-dresser laid
- a row of little scorched bundles on the bureau before her victim.
- "Oh, oh, oh! what have you done? I'm spoilt! I can't go! My hair,
- oh, my hair!" wailed Meg, looking with despair at the uneven frizzle
- on her forehead.
- "Just my luck! you shouldn't have asked me to do it; I always
- spoil everything. I'm so sorry, but the tongs were too hot, and so
- I've made a mess," groaned poor Jo, regarding the black pancakes
- with tears of regret.
- "It isn't spoilt; just frizzle it, and tie your ribbon so the ends
- come on your forehead a bit, and it will look like the last fashion.
- I've seen many girls do it so," said Amy consolingly.
- "Serves me right for trying to be fine. I wish I'd let my hair
- alone," cried Meg petulantly.
- "So do I, it was so smooth and pretty. But it will soon grow out
- again," said Beth, coming to kiss and comfort the shorn sheep.
- After various lesser mishaps, Meg was finished at last, and by the
- united exertions of the family Jo's hair was got up and her dress
- on. They looked very well in their simple suits- Meg in silvery
- drab, with a blue velvet snood, lace frills, and the pearl pin; Jo
- in maroon, with a stiff, gentlemanly collar, and a white chrysanthemum
- or two for her only ornament. Each put on one nice light glove, and
- carried one soiled one, and all pronounced the effect "quite easy
- and fine." Meg's high-heeled slippers were very tight, and hurt her,
- though she would not own it, and Jo's nineteen hairpins all seemed
- stuck straight into her head, which was not exactly comfortable;
- but, dear me, let us be elegant or die!
- "Have a good time, dearies!" said Mrs. March, as the sisters went
- daintily down the walk. "Don't eat much supper, and come away at
- eleven, when I send Hannah for you." As the gate clashed behind
- them, a voice cried from a window-
- "Girls, girls! have you both got nice pocket-handkerchiefs?"
- "Yes, yes, spandy nice, and Meg has cologne on hers," cried Jo,
- adding, with a laugh, as they went on, "I do believe Marmee would
- ask that if we were all running away from an earthquake."
- "It is one of her aristocratic tastes, and quite proper, for a
- real lady is always known by neat boots, gloves, and handkerchief,"
- replied Meg, who had a good many little "aristocratic tastes" of her
- own.
- "Now don't forget to keep the bad breadth out of sight, Jo. Is my
- sash right? and does my hair look very bad?" said Meg, as she turned
- from the glass in Mrs. Gardiner's dressing-room, after a prolonged
- prink.
- "I know I shall forget. If you see me doing anything wrong, just
- remind me by a wink, will you?" returned Jo, giving her collar a
- twitch and her head a hasty brush.
- "No, winking isn't lady-like; I'll lift my eyebrows if anything is
- wrong, and nod if you are all right. Now hold your shoulders straight,
- and take short steps, and don't shake hands if you are introduced to
- any one: it isn't the thing."
- "How do you learn all the proper ways? I never can. Isn't that music
- gay?"
- Down they went, feeling a trifle timid, for they seldom went to
- parties, and, informal as this little gathering was, it was an event
- to them. Mrs. Gardiner, a stately old lady, greeted them kindly, and
- handed them over to the eldest of her six daughters. Meg knew
- Sallie, and was at her ease very soon; but Jo, who didn't care much
- for girls or girlish gossip, stood about, with her back carefully
- against the wall, and felt as much out of place as a colt in a
- flower-garden. Half a dozen jovial lads were talking about skates in
- another part of the room, and she longed to go and join them, for
- skating was one of the joys of her life. She telegraphed her wish to
- Meg, but the eyebrows went up so alarmingly that she dared not stir.
- No one came to talk to her, and one by one the group near her dwindled
- away, till she was left alone. She could not roam about and amuse
- herself, for the burnt breadth would show, so she stared at people
- rather forlornly till the dancing began. Meg was asked at once, and
- the tight slippers tripped about so briskly that none would have
- guessed the pain their wearer suffered smilingly. Jo saw a big
- red-headed youth approaching her corner, and fearing he meant to
- engage her, she slipped into a curtained recess, intending to peep and
- enjoy herself in peace. Unfortunately, another bashful person had
- chosen the same refuge; for, as the curtain fell behind her, she found
- herself face to face with the "Laurence boy."
- "Dear me, I didn't know any one was here!" stammered Jo, preparing
- to back out as speedily as she had bounced in.
- But the boy laughed, and said pleasantly, though he looked a
- little startled-
- "Don't mind me; stay, if you like."
- "Shan't I disturb you?"
- "Not a bit; I only came here because I don't know many people, and
- felt rather strange at first, you know."
- "So did I. Don't go away, please, unless you'd rather."
- The boy sat down again and looked at his pumps, till Jo said, trying
- to be polite and easy-
- "I think I've had the pleasure of seeing you before; you live near
- us, don't you?"
- "Next door"; and he looked up and laughed outright, for Jo's prim
- manner was rather funny when he remembered how they had chatted
- about cricket when he brought the cat home.
- That put Jo at her ease; and she laughed too, as she said, in her
- heartiest way, "We did have such a good time over your nice
- Christmas present."
- "Grandpa sent it."
- "But you put it into his head, didn't you, now?"
- "How is your cat, Miss March?" asked the boy, trying to look
- sober, while his black eyes shone with fun.
- "Nicely, thank you, Mr. Laurence; but I am not Miss March, I'm
- only Jo," returned the young lady.
- "I'm not Mr. Laurence, I'm only Laurie."
- "Laurie Laurence- what an odd name!"
- "My first name is Theodore, but I don't like it, for the fellows
- called me Dora, so I made them say Laurie instead."
- "I hate my name, too- so sentimental! I wish every one would say Jo,
- instead of Josephine. How did you make the boys stop calling you
- Dora?"
- "I thrashed 'em."
- "I can't thrash Aunt March, so I suppose I shall have to bear it";
- and Jo resigned herself with a sigh.
- "Don't you like to dance, Miss Jo?" asked Laurie, looking as if he
- thought the name suited her.
- "I like it well enough if there is plenty of room, and every one
- is lively. In a place like this I'm sure to upset something, tread
- on people's toes, or do something dreadful, so I keep out of mischief,
- and let Meg sail about. Don't you dance?"
- "Sometimes; you see I've been abroad a good many years, and
- haven't been into company enough yet to know how you do things here."
- "Abroad!" cried Jo. "Oh, tell me about it! I love dearly to hear
- people describe their travels."
- Laurie didn't seem to know where to begin; but Jo's eager
- questions soon set him going, and he told her how he had been at
- school in Vevey, where the boys never wore hats, and had a fleet of
- boats on the lake, and for holiday fun went walking trips about
- Switzerland with their teachers.
- "Don't I wish I'd been there!" cried Jo. "Did you go to Paris?"
- "We spent last winter there."
- "Can you talk French?"
- "We were not allowed to speak anything else at Vevey."
- "Do say some! I can read it, but can't pronounce."
- "Quel nom a cette jeune demoiselle en les pantoufles jolis?" said
- Laurie good-naturedly.
- "How nicely you do it! Let me see- you said, 'Who is the young
- lady in the pretty slippers,' didn't you?"
- "Oui, mademoiselle."
- "It's my sister Margaret, and you knew it was! Do you think she is
- pretty?"
- "Yes; she makes me think of the German girls, she looks so fresh and
- quiet, and dances like a lady."
- Jo quite glowed with pleasure at this boyish praise of her sister,
- and stored it up to repeat to Meg. Both peeped and criticized and
- chatted, till they felt like old acquaintances. Laurie's bashfulness
- soon wore off; for Jo's gentlemanly demeanor amused and set him at his
- ease, and Jo was her merry self again, because her dress was
- forgotten, and nobody lifted their eyebrows at her. She liked the
- "Laurence boy" better than ever, and took several good looks at him,
- so that she might describe him to the girls; for they had no brothers,
- very few male cousins, and boys were almost unknown creatures to them.
- "Curly black hair; brown skin; big, black eyes; handsome nose;
- fine teeth; small hands and feet; taller than I am; very polite, for a
- boy, and altogether jolly. Wonder how old he is?"
- It was on the tip of Jo's tongue to ask; but she checked herself
- in time, and, with unusual tact, tried to find out in a roundabout
- way.
- "I suppose you are going to college soon? I see you pegging away
- at your books- no, I mean studying hard"; and Jo blushed at the
- dreadful "pegging" which had escaped her.
- Laurie smiled, but didn't seem shocked, and answered, with a shrug-
- "Not for a year or two; I won't go before seventeen, anyway."
- "Aren't you but fifteen?" asked Jo, looking at the tall lad, whom
- she had imagined seventeen already.
- "Sixteen, next month."
- "How I wish I was going to college! You don't look as if you liked
- it."
- "I hate it! Nothing but grinding or skylarking. And I don't like the
- way fellows do either, in this country."
- "What do you like?"
- "To live in Italy, and to enjoy myself in my own way."
- Jo wanted very much to ask what his own way was; but his black brows
- looked rather threatening as he knit them; so she changed the
- subject by saying, as her foot kept time, "That's a splendid polka!
- Why don't you go and try it?"
- "If you will come too," he answered, with a gallant little bow.
- "I can't; for I told Meg I wouldn't, because-" There Jo stopped, and
- looked undecided whether to tell or to laugh.
- "Because what?" asked Laurie curiously.
- "You won't tell?"
- "Never!"
- "Well, I have a bad trick of standing before the fire, and so I burn
- my frocks, and I scorched this one; and, though it's nicely mended, it
- shows, and Meg told me to keep still, so no one would see it. You
- may laugh, if you want to; it is funny, I know."
- But Laurie didn't laugh; he only looked down a minute, and the
- expression of his face puzzled Jo, when he said very gently-
- "Never mind that; I'll tell you how we can manage: there's a long
- hall out there, and we can dance grandly, and no one will see us.
- Please come?"
- Jo thanked him, and gladly went, wishing she had two neat gloves,
- when she saw the nice, pearl-colored ones her partner wore. The hall
- was empty, and they had a grand polka; for Laurie danced well, and
- taught her the German step, which delighted Jo, being full of swing
- and spring. When the music stopped, they sat down on the stairs to get
- their breath; and Laurie was in the midst of an account of a students'
- festival at Heidelberg, when Meg appeared in search of her sister. She
- beckoned, and Jo reluctantly followed her into a side room, where
- she found her on a sofa, holding her foot, and looking pale.
- "I've sprained my ankle. That stupid high heel turned, and gave me a
- sad wrench. It aches so, I can hardly stand, and I don't know how
- I'm ever going to get home," she said, rocking to and fro in pain.
- "I knew you'd hurt your feet with those silly shoes. I'm sorry.
- But I don't see what you can do, except get a carriage, or stay here
- all night," answered Jo, softly rubbing the poor ankle as she spoke.
- "I can't have a carriage, without its costing ever so much. I dare
- say I can't get one at all; for most people come in their own, and
- it's a long way to the stable, and no one to send."
- "No, indeed! It's past nine, and dark as Egypt. I can't stop here,
- for the house is full. Sallie has some girls staying with her. I'll
- rest till Hannah comes, and then do the best I can."
- "I'll ask Laurie; he will go," said Jo, looking relieved as the idea
- occurred to her.
- "Mercy, no! Don't ask or tell any one. Get me my rubbers, and put
- these slippers with our things. I can't dance any more; but as soon as
- supper is over, watch for Hannah, and tell me the minute she comes."
- "They are going out to supper now. I'll stay with you; I'd rather."
- "No, dear, run along, and bring me some coffee. I'm so tired, I
- can't stir!"
- So Meg reclined, with rubbers well hidden, and Jo went blundering
- away to the dining-room, which she found after going into a
- china-closet, and opening the door of a room where old Mr. Gardiner
- was taking a little private refreshment. Making a dart at the table,
- she secured the coffee, which she immediately spilt, thereby making
- the front of her dress as bad as the back.
- "Oh, dear, what a blunderbuss I am!" exclaimed Jo, finishing Meg's
- glove by scrubbing her gown with it.
- "Can I help you?" said a friendly voice; and there was Laurie,
- with a full cup in one hand and a plate of ice in the other.
- "I was trying to get something for Meg, who is very tired, and
- some one shook me; and here I am, in a nice state," answered Jo,
- glancing dismally from the stained skirt to the coffee-colored glove.
- "Too bad! I was looking for some one to give this to. May I take
- it to your sister?"
- "Oh, thank you! I'll show you where she is. I don't offer to take it
- myself, for I should only get into another scrape if I did."
- Jo led the way; and, as if used to waiting on ladies, Laurie drew up
- a little table, brought a second instalment of coffee and ice for
- Jo, and was so obliging that even particular Meg pronounced him a
- "nice boy." They had a merry time over the bonbons and mottoes, and
- were in the midst of a quiet game of "Buzz," with two or three other
- young people who had strayed in, when Hannah appeared. Meg forgot
- her foot, and rose so quickly that she was forced to catch hold of Jo,
- with an exclamation of pain.
- "Hush! Don't say anything," she whispered, adding aloud, "It's
- nothing. I turned my foot a little, that's all"; and limped upstairs
- to put her things on.
- Hannah scolded, Meg cried, and Jo was at her wits' end, till she
- decided to take things into her own hands. Slipping out, she ran down,
- and, finding a servant, asked if he could get her a carriage. It
- happened to be a hired waiter, who knew nothing about the
- neighborhood; and Jo was looking round for help, when Laurie, who
- had heard what she said, came up, and offered his grandfather's
- carriage, which had just come for him, he said.
- "It's so early! You can't mean to go yet?" began Jo, looking
- relieved, but hesitating to accept the offer.
- "I always go early- I do, truly! Please let me take you home? It's
- all on my way, you know, and it rains, they say."
- That settled it; and, telling him of Meg's mishap, Jo gratefully
- accepted, and rushed up to bring down the rest of the party. Hannah
- hated rain as much as a cat does; so she made no trouble, and they
- rolled away in the luxurious close carriage, feeling very festive
- and elegant. Laurie went on the box; so Meg could keep her foot up,
- and the girls talked over their party in freedom.
- "I had a capital time. Did you?" asked Jo, rumpling up her hair, and
- making herself comfortable.
- "Yes, till I hurt myself. Sallie's friend, Annie Moffat, took a
- fancy to me, and asked me to come and spend a week with her, when
- Sallie does. She is going in the spring, when the opera comes; and
- it will be perfectly splendid, if mother only lets me go," answered
- Meg, cheering up at the thought.
- "I saw you dancing with the red-headed man I ran away from. Was he
- nice?"
- "Oh, very! His hair is auburn, not red; and he was very polite,
- and I had a delicious redowa with him."
- "He looked like a grasshopper in a fit, when he did the new step.
- Laurie and I couldn't help laughing. Did you hear us?"
- "No; but it was very rude. What were you about all that time, hidden
- away there?"
- Jo told her adventures, and, by the time she had finished, they were
- at home. With many thanks, they said "Good-night," and crept in,
- hoping to disturb no one; but the instant their door creaked, two
- little night-caps bobbed up, and two sleepy but eager voices cried
- out-
- "Tell about the party! tell about the party!"
- With what Meg called "a great want of manners," Jo had saved some
- bonbons for the little girls; and they soon subsided, after hearing
- the most thrilling events of the evening.
- "I declare, it really seems like being a fine young lady, to come
- home from the party in a carriage, and sit in my dressing-gown, with a
- maid to wait on me," said Meg, as Jo bound up her foot with arnica,
- and brushed her hair.
- "I don't believe fine young ladies enjoy themselves a bit more
- than we do, in spite of our burnt hair, old gowns, one glove apiece,
- and tight slippers that sprain our ankles when we are silly enough
- to wear them." And I think Jo was quite right.
- 4
- Burdens
-
- "OH dear, how hard it does seem to take up our packs and go on,"
- sighed Meg, the morning after the party; for, now the holidays were
- over, the week of merry-making did not fit her for going on easily
- with the task she never liked.
- "I wish it was Christmas or New-Year all the time; wouldn't it be
- fun?" answered Jo, yawning dismally.
- "We shouldn't enjoy ourselves half so much as we do now. But it does
- seem so nice to have little suppers and bouquets, and go to parties,
- and drive home, and read and rest, and not work. It's like other
- people, you know, and I always envy girls who do such things; I'm so
- fond of luxury," said Meg, trying to decide which of two shabby
- gowns was the least shabby.
- "Well, we can't have it, so don't let us grumble, but shoulder our
- bundles and trudge along as cheerfully as Marmee does. I'm sure Aunt
- March is a regular Old Man of the Sea to me, but I suppose when I've
- learned to carry her without complaining, she will tumble off, or
- get so light that I shan't mind her."
- This idea tickled Jo's fancy, and put her in good spirits; but Meg
- didn't brighten, for her burden, consisting of four spoilt children,
- seemed heavier than ever. She hadn't heart enough even to make herself
- pretty, as usual, by putting on a blue neck-ribbon, and dressing her
- hair in the most becoming way.
- "Where's the use of looking nice, when no one sees me but those
- cross midgets, and no one cares whether I'm pretty or not?" she
- muttered, shutting her drawer with a jerk. "I shall have to toil and
- moil all my days, with only little bits of fun now and then, and get
- old and ugly and sour, because I'm poor, and can't enjoy my life as
- other girls do. It's a shame!"
- So Meg went down, wearing an injured look, and wasn't at all
- agreeable at breakfast-time. Every one seemed rather out of sorts, and
- inclined to croak. Beth had a headache, and lay on the sofa, trying to
- comfort herself with the cat and three kittens; Amy was fretting
- because her lessons were not learned, and she couldn't find her
- rubbers; Jo would whistle and make a great racket getting ready;
- Mrs. March was very busy trying to finish a letter which must go at
- once; and Hannah had the grumps, for being up late didn't suit her.
- "There never was such a cross family!" cried Jo, losing her temper
- when she had upset an inkstand, broken both boot-lacings, and sat down
- upon her hat.
- "You're the crossest person in it!" returned Amy, washing out the
- sum, that was all wrong, with the tears that had fallen on her slate.
- "Beth, if you don't keep these horrid cats down cellar I'll have
- them drowned," exclaimed Meg angrily, as she tried to get rid of the
- kitten, which had scrambled up her back, and stuck like a burr just
- out of reach.
- Jo laughed, Meg scolded, Beth implored, and Amy wailed, because
- she couldn't remember how much nine times twelve was.
- "Girls, girls, do be quiet one minute! I must get this off by the
- early mail, and you drive me distracted with your worry," cried Mrs.
- March, crossing out the third spoilt sentence in her letter.
- There was a momentary lull, broken by Hannah, who stalked in, laid
- two hot turn-overs on the table, and stalked out again. These
- turn-overs were an institution; and the girls called them "muffs," for
- they had no others, and found the hot pies very comforting to their
- hands on cold mornings. Hannah never forgot to make them, no matter
- how busy or grumpy she might be, for the walk was long and bleak;
- the poor things got no other lunch, and were seldom home before two.
- "Cuddle your cats, and get over your headache, Bethy. Good-by,
- Marmee; we are a set of rascals this morning, but we'll come home
- regular angels. Now then, Meg!" and Jo tramped away, feeling that
- the pilgrims were not setting out as they ought to do.
- They always looked back before turning the corner, for their
- mother was always at the window, to nod and smile, and wave her hand
- to them. Somehow it seemed as if they couldn't have got through the
- day without that; for, whatever their mood might be, the last
- glimpse of that motherly face was sure to affect them like sunshine.
- "If Marmee shook her fist instead of kissing her hand to us, it
- would serve us right, for more ungrateful wretches than we are were
- never seen," cried Jo, taking a remorseful satisfaction in the snowy
- walk and bitter wind.
- "Don't use such dreadful expressions," said Meg, from the depths
- of the veil in which she had shrouded herself like a nun sick of the
- world.
- "I like good strong words, that mean something," replied Jo,
- catching her hat as it took a leap off her head, preparatory to flying
- away altogether.
- "Call yourself any names you like; but I am neither a rascal nor a
- wretch, and I don't choose to be called so."
- "You're a blighted being, and decidedly cross to-day because you
- can't sit in the lap of luxury all the time. Poor dear, just wait till
- I make my fortune, and you shall revel in carriages and ice-cream
- and high-heeled slippers and posies and red-headed boys to dance
- with."
- "How ridiculous you are, Jo!" but Meg laughed at the nonsense, and
- felt better in spite of herself.
- "Lucky for you I am; for if I put on crushed airs, and tried to be
- dismal, as you do, we should be in a nice state. Thank goodness, I can
- always find something funny to keep me up. Don't croak any more, but
- come home jolly, there's a dear."
- Jo gave her sister an encouraging pat on the shoulder as they parted
- for the day, each going a different way, each hugging her little
- warm turn-over, and each trying to be cheerful in spite of wintry
- weather, hard work, and the unsatisfied desires of pleasure-loving
- youth.
- When Mr. March lost his property in trying to help an unfortunate
- friend, the two oldest girls begged to be allowed to do something
- toward their own support, at least. Believing that they could not
- begin too early to cultivate energy, industry, and independence, their
- parents consented, and both fell to work with the hearty good-will
- which, in spite of all obstacles, is sure to succeed at last. Margaret
- found a place as nursery governess, and felt rich with her small
- salary. As she said, she was "fond of luxury," and her chief trouble
- was poverty. She found it harder to bear than the others, because
- she could remember a time when home was beautiful, life full of ease
- and pleasure, and want of any kind unknown. She tried not to be
- envious or discontented, but it was very natural that the young girl
- should long for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments, and a
- happy life. At the Kings' she daily saw all she wanted, for the
- children's older sisters were just out, and Meg caught frequent
- glimpses of dainty ball-dresses and bouquets, heard lively gossip
- about theaters, concerts, sleighing parties, and merry-makings of
- all kinds, and saw money lavished on trifles which would have been
- so precious to her. Poor Meg seldom complained, but a sense of
- injustice made her feel bitter toward every one sometimes, for she had
- not yet learned to know how rich she was in the blessings which
- alone can make life happy.
- Jo happened to suit Aunt March, who was lame, and needed an active
- person to wait upon her. The childless old lady had offered to adopt
- one of the girls when the troubles came, and was much offended because
- her offer was declined. Other friends told the Marches that they had
- lost all chance of being remembered in the rich old lady's will; but
- the unworldly Marches only said-
- "We can't give up our girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich or poor, we
- will keep together and be happy in one another."
- The old lady wouldn't speak to them for a time, but happening to
- meet Jo at a friend's, something in her comical face and blunt manners
- struck the old lady's fancy, and she proposed to take her for a
- companion. This did not suit Jo at all; but she accepted the place
- since nothing better appeared, and, to every one's surprise, got on
- remarkably well with her irascible relative. There was an occasional
- tempest, and once Jo had marched home, declaring she couldn't bear
- it any longer; but Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and sent
- for her back again with such urgency that she could not refuse, for in
- her heart she rather liked the peppery old lady.
- I suspect that the real attraction was a large library of fine
- books, which was left to dust and spiders since Uncle March died. Jo
- remembered the kind old gentleman, who used to let her build railroads
- and bridges with his big dictionaries, tell her stories about the
- queer pictures in his Latin books, and buy her cards of gingerbread
- whenever he met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with the busts
- staring down from the tall book-cases, the cosy chairs, the globes,
- and, best of all, the wilderness of books, in which she could wander
- where she liked, made the library a region of bliss to her. The moment
- Aunt March took her nap, or was busy with company, Jo hurried to
- this quiet place, and, curling herself up in the easy-chair,
- devoured poetry, romance, history, travels, and pictures, like a
- regular book-worm. But, like all happiness, it did not last long;
- for as sure as she had just reached the heart of the story, the
- sweetest verse of the song, or the most perilous adventure of her
- traveller, a shrill voice called, "Josy-phine! Josy-phine!" and she
- had to leave her paradise to wind yarn, wash the poodle, or read
- Belsham's Essays by the hour together.
- Jo's ambition was to do something very splendid; what it was she had
- no idea as yet, but left it for time to tell her; and, meanwhile,
- found her greatest affliction in the fact that she couldn't read, run,
- and ride as much as she liked. A quick temper, sharp tongue, and
- restless spirit were always getting her into scrapes, and her life was
- a series of ups and downs, which were both comic and pathetic. But the
- training she received at Aunt March's was just what she needed; and
- the thought that she was doing something to support herself made her
- happy, in spite of the perpetual "Josy-phine!"
- Beth was too bashful to go to school; it had been tried, but she
- suffered so much that it was given up, and she did her lessons at
- home, with her father. Even when he went away, and her mother was
- called to devote her skill and energy to Soldiers' Aid Societies, Beth
- went faithfully on by herself, and did the best she could. She was a
- housewifely little creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and
- comfortable for the workers, never thinking of any reward but to be
- loved. Long, quiet days she spent, not lonely nor idle, for her little
- world was peopled with imaginary friends, and she was by nature a busy
- bee. There were six dolls to be taken up and dressed every morning,
- for Beth was a child still, and loved her pets as well as ever. Not
- one whole or handsome one among them; all were outcasts till Beth took
- them in; for, when her sisters outgrew these idols, they passed to
- her, because Amy would have nothing old or ugly. Beth cherished them
- all the more tenderly for that very reason, and set up a hospital
- for infirm dolls. No pins were ever stuck into their cotton vitals; no
- harsh words or blows were ever given them; no neglect ever saddened
- the heart of the most repulsive: but all were fed and clothed,
- nursed and caressed, with an affection which never failed. One forlorn
- fragment of dollanity had belonged to Jo; and, having led a
- tempestuous life, was left a wreck in the ragbag, from which dreary
- poorhouse it was rescued by Beth, and taken to her refuge. Having no
- top to its head, she tied on a neat little cap, and, as both arms
- and legs were gone, she hid these deficiencies by folding it in a
- blanket, and devoting her best bed to this chronic invalid. If any one
- had known the care lavished on that dolly, I think it would have
- touched their hearts, even while they laughed. She brought it bits
- of bouquets; she read to it, took it out to breathe the air, hidden
- under her coat; she sung it lullabys, and never went to bed without
- kissing its dirty face, and whispering tenderly, "I hope you'll have a
- good night, my poor dear."
- Beth had her troubles as well as the others; and not being an angel,
- but a very human little girl, she often "wept a little weep," as Jo
- said, because she couldn't take music lessons and have a fine piano.
- She loved music so dearly, tried so hard to learn, and practised
- away so patiently at the jingling old instrument, that it did seem
- as if some one (not to hint Aunt March) ought to help her. Nobody did,
- however, and nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow keys,
- that wouldn't keep in tune, when she was all alone. She sang like a
- little lark about her work, never was too tired to play for Marmee and
- the girls, and day after day said hopefully to herself, "I know I'll
- get my music some time, if I'm good."
- There are many Beths in the world, shy and quiet, sitting in corners
- till needed, and living for others so cheerfully that no one sees
- the sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops chirping,
- and the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes, leaving silence and
- shadow behind.
- If anybody had asked Amy what the greatest trial of her life was,
- she would have answered at once, "My nose." When she was a baby, Jo
- had accidentally dropped her into the coal-hod, and Amy insisted
- that the fall had ruined her nose forever. It was not big, nor red,
- like poor "Petrea's"; it was only rather flat, and all the pinching in
- the world could not give it an aristocratic point. No one minded it
- but herself, and it was doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply
- the want of a Grecian nose, and drew whole sheets of handsome ones
- to console herself.
- "Little Raphael," as her sisters called her, had a decided talent
- for drawing, and was never so happy as when copying flowers, designing
- fairies, or illustrating stories with queer specimens of art. Her
- teachers complained that, instead of doing her sums, she covered her
- slate with animals; the blank pages of her atlas were used to copy
- maps on; and caricatures of the most ludicrous description came
- fluttering out of all her books at unlucky moments. She got through
- her lessons as well as she could, and managed to escape reprimands
- by being a model of deportment. She was a great favorite with her
- mates, being good-tempered, and possessing the happy art of pleasing
- without effort. Her little airs and graces were much admired, so
- were her accomplishments; for beside her drawing, she could play
- twelve tunes, crochet, and read French without mispronouncing more
- than two thirds of the words.
- She had a plaintive way of saying, "When papa was rich we did
- so-and-so," which was very touching; and her long words were
- considered "perfectly elegant" by the girls.
- Amy was in a fair way to be spoilt; for every one petted her, and
- her small vanities and selfishnesses were growing nicely. One thing,
- however, rather quenched the vanities; she had to wear her cousin's
- clothes. Now Florence's mamma hadn't a particle of taste, and Amy
- suffered deeply at having to wear a red instead of a blue bonnet,
- unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not fit. Everything was
- good, well made, and little worn; but Amy's artistic eyes were much
- afflicted, especially this winter, when her school dress was a dull
- purple, with yellow dots, and no trimming.
- "My only comfort," she said to Meg, with tears in her eyes, "is,
- that mother don't take tucks in my dresses whenever I'm naughty, as
- Maria Park's mother does. My dear, it's really dreadful; for sometimes
- she is so bad, her frock is up to her knees, and she can't come to
- school. When I think of this deggerredation, I feel that I can bear
- even my flat nose and purple gown, with yellow sky-rockets on it."
- Meg was Amy's confidant and monitor, and, by some strange attraction
- of opposites, Jo was gentle Beth's. To Jo alone did the shy child tell
- her thoughts; and over her big, harum-scarum sister, Beth
- unconsciously exercised more influence than any one in the family. The
- two older girls were a great deal to one another, but each took one of
- the younger into her keeping, and watched over her in her own way;
- "playing mother" they called it, and put their sisters in the places
- of discarded dolls, with the maternal instinct of little women.
- "Has anybody got anything to tell? It's been such a dismal day I'm
- really dying for some amusement," said Meg, as they sat sewing
- together that evening.
- "I had a queer time with aunt to-day, and, as I got the best of
- it, I'll tell you about it," began Jo, who dearly loved to tell
- stories. "I was reading that everlasting Belsham, and droning away
- as I always do, for aunt soon drops off, and then I take out some nice
- book, and read like fury till she wakes up. I actually made myself
- sleepy; and, before she began to nod, I gave such a gape that she
- asked me what I meant by opening my mouth wide enough to take the
- whole book in at once.
- "'I wish I could, and be done with it,' said I, trying not to be
- saucy.
- "Then she gave me a long lecture on my sins, and told me to sit
- and think them over while she just 'lost' herself for a moment. She
- never finds herself very soon; so the minute her cap began to bob,
- like a top-heavy dahlia, I whipped the 'Vicar of Wakefield' out of
- my pocket, and read away, with one eye on him, and one on aunt. I'd
- just got to where they all tumbled into the water, when I forgot,
- and laughed out loud. Aunt woke up; and, being more good-natured after
- her nap, told me to read a bit, and show what frivolous work I
- preferred to the worthy and instructive Belsham. I did my very best,
- and she liked it, though she only said-
- "'I don't understand what it's all about. Go back and begin it,
- child.'
- "Back I went, and made the Primroses as interesting as ever I could.
- Once I was wicked enough to stop in a thrilling place, and say meekly,
- 'I'm afraid it tires you, ma'am; shan't I stop now?'
- "She caught up her knitting, which had dropped out of her hands,
- gave me a sharp look through her specs, and said, in her short way-
- "'Finish the chapter, and don't be impertinent, miss.'"
- "Did she own she liked it?" asked Meg.
- "Oh, bless you, no! but she let old Belsham rest; and, when I ran
- back after my gloves this afternoon, there she was, so hard at the
- Vicar that she didn't hear me laugh as I danced a jig in the hall,
- because of the good time coming. What a pleasant life she might
- have, if she only chose. I don't envy her much, in spite of her money,
- for after all rich people have about as many worries as poor ones, I
- think," added Jo.
- "That reminds me," said Meg, "that I've got something to tell. It
- isn't funny, like Jo's story, but I thought about it a good deal as
- I came home. At the Kings' to-day I found everybody in a flurry, and
- one of the children said that her oldest brother had done something
- dreadful, and papa had sent him away. I heard Mrs. King crying and Mr.
- King talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned away their faces
- when they passed me, so I shouldn't see how red their eyes were. I
- didn't ask any questions, of course; but I felt so sorry for them, and
- was rather glad I hadn't any wild brothers to do wicked things and
- disgrace the family."
- "I think being disgraced in school is a great deal tryinger than
- anything bad boys can do," said Amy, shaking her head, as if her
- experience of life had been a deep one. "Susie Perkins came to
- school to-day with a lovely red carnelian ring; I wanted it
- dreadfully, and wished I was her with all my might. Well, she drew a
- picture of Mr. Davis, with a monstrous nose and a hump, and the words,
- 'Young ladies, my eye is upon you!' coming out of his mouth in a
- balloon thing. We were laughing over it, when all of a sudden his
- eye was on us, and he ordered Susie to bring up her slate. She was
- parrylized with fright, but she went, and oh, what do you think he
- did? He took her by the ear- the ear! just fancy how horrid!- and
- led her to the recitation platform, and made her stand there half an
- hour, holding that slate so every one could see."
- "Didn't the girls laugh at the picture?" asked Jo, who relished
- the scrape.
- "Laugh? Not one! They sat as still as mice; and Susie cried
- quarts, I know she did. I didn't envy her then; for I felt that
- millions of carnelian rings wouldn't have made me happy, after that. I
- never, never should have got over such a agonizing mortification." And
- Amy went on with her work, in the proud consciousness of virtue, and
- the successful utterance of two long words in a breath.
- "I saw something that I liked this morning, and I meant to tell it
- at dinner, but I forgot," said Beth, putting Jo's topsy-turvy basket
- in order as she talked. "When I went to get some oysters for Hannah,
- Mr. Laurence was in the fish-shop; but he didn't see me, for I kept
- behind a barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter, the fish-man. A poor
- woman came in, with a pail and a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he would
- let her do some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she hadn't any
- dinner for her children, and had been disappointed of a day's work.
- Mr. Cutter was in a hurry, and said 'No,' rather crossly; so she was
- going away, looking hungry and sorry, when Mr. Laurence hooked up a
- big fish with the crooked end of his cane, and held it out to her. She
- was so glad and surprised, she took it right in her arms, and
- thanked him over and over. He told her to 'go along and cook it,'
- and she hurried off, so happy! Wasn't it good of him? Oh, she did look
- so funny, hugging the big, slippery fish, and hoping Mr. Laurence's
- bed in heaven would be 'aisy.'"
- When they had laughed at Beth's story, they asked their mother for
- one; and, after a moment's thought, she said soberly-
- "As I sat cutting out blue flannel jackets to-day, at the rooms, I
- felt very anxious about father, and thought how lonely and helpless we
- should be, if anything happened to him. It was not a wise thing to do;
- but I kept on worrying, till an old man came in, with an order for
- some clothes. He sat down near me, and I began to talk to him; for
- he looked poor and tired and anxious.
- "'Have you sons in the army?' I asked; for the note he brought was
- not to me.
- "'Yes, ma'am. I had four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner,
- and I'm going to the other, who is very sick in a Washington
- hospital,' he answered quietly.
- "'You have done a great deal for your country, sir,' I said, feeling
- respect now, instead of pity.
- "'Not a mite more than I ought, ma'am. I'd go myself, if I was any
- use; as I ain't, I give my boys, and give 'em free.'
- "He spoke so cheerfully, looked so sincere, and seemed so glad to
- give his all, that I was ashamed of myself. I'd given one man, and
- thought it too much, while he gave four, without grudging them. I
- had all my girls to comfort me at home; and his last son was
- waiting, miles away, to say 'good-by' to him, perhaps! I felt so rich,
- so happy, thinking of my blessings, that I made him a nice bundle,
- gave him some money, and thanked him heartily for the lesson he had
- taught me."
- "Tell another story, mother- one with a moral to it, like this. I
- like to think about them afterwards, if they are real, and not too
- preachy," said Jo, after a minute's silence.
- Mrs. March smiled, and began at once; for she had told stories to
- this little audience for many years, and knew how to please them.
- "Once upon a time, there were four girls, who had enough to eat
- and drink and wear, a good many comforts and pleasures, kind friends
- and parents, who loved them dearly, and yet they were not
- contented." (Here the listeners stole sly looks at one another, and
- began to sew diligently.) "These girls were anxious to be good, and
- made many excellent resolutions; but they did not keep them very well,
- and were constantly saying, 'If we only had this,' or 'If we could
- only do that,' quite forgetting how much they already had, and how
- many pleasant things they actually could do. So they asked an old
- woman what spell they could use to make them happy, and she said,
- 'When you feel discontented, think over your blessings, and be
- grateful.'" (Here Jo looked up quickly, as if about to speak, but
- changed her mind, seeing that the story was not done yet.)
- "Being sensible girls, they decided to try her advice, and soon were
- surprised to see how well off they were. One discovered that money
- couldn't keep shame and sorrow out of rich people's houses; another
- that, though she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with her
- youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful, feeble old
- lady, who couldn't enjoy her comforts; a third that, disagreeable as
- it was to help get dinner, it was harder still to have to go begging
- for it; and the fourth, that even carnelian rings were not so valuable
- as good behavior. So they agreed to stop complaining, to enjoy the
- blessings already possessed, and try to deserve them, lest they should
- be taken away entirely, instead of increased; and I believe they
- were never disappointed, or sorry that they took the old woman's
- advice."
- "Now, Marmee, that is very cunning of you to turn our own stories
- against us, and give us a sermon instead of a romance!" cried Meg.
- "I like that kind of sermon. It's the sort father used to tell
- us," said Beth thoughtfully, putting the needles straight on Jo's
- cushion.
- "I don't complain near as much as the others do, and I shall be more
- careful than ever now; for I've had warning from Susie's downfall,"
- said Amy morally.
- "We needed that lesson, and we won't forget it. If we do, you just
- say to us, as old Chloe did in 'Uncle Tom,' 'Tink ob yer marcies,
- chillen! tink ob yer marcies!'" added Jo, who could not, for the
- life of her, help getting a morsel of fun out of the little sermon,
- though she took it to heart as much as any of them.
- 5
- Being Neighborly
-
- "WHAT in the world are you going to do now, Jo?" asked Meg, one
- snowy afternoon, as her sister came tramping through the hall, in
- rubber boots, old sack and hood, with a broom in one hand and a shovel
- in the other.
- "Going out for exercise," answered Jo, with a mischievous twinkle in
- her eyes.
- "I should think two long walks this morning would have been
- enough! It's cold and dull out; and I advise you to stay, warm and
- dry, by the fire, as I do," said Meg, with a shiver.
- "Never take advice! Can't keep still all day, and, not being a
- pussy-cat, I don't like to doze by the fire. I like adventures, and
- I'm going to find some."
- Meg went back to toast her feet and read "Ivanhoe"; and Jo began
- to dig paths with great energy. The snow was light, and with her broom
- she soon swept a path all round the garden, for Beth to walk in when
- the sun came out; and the invalid dolls needed air. Now, the garden
- separated the Marches' house from that of Mr. Laurence. Both stood
- in a suburb of the city, which was still country-like, with groves and
- lawns, large gardens, and quiet streets. A low hedge parted the two
- estates. On one side was an old, brown house, looking rather bare
- and shabby, robbed of the vines that in summer covered its walls,
- and the flowers which then surrounded it. On the other side was a
- stately stone mansion, plainly betokening every sort of comfort and
- luxury, from the big coach-house and well-kept grounds to the
- conservatory and the glimpses of lovely things one caught between
- the rich curtains. Yet it seemed a lonely, lifeless sort of house; for
- no children frolicked on the lawn, no motherly face ever smiled at the
- windows, and few people went in and out, except the old gentleman
- and his grandson.
- To Jo's lively fancy, this fine house seemed a kind of enchanted
- palace, full of splendors and delights, which no one enjoyed. She
- had long wanted to behold these hidden glories, and to know the
- "Laurence boy," who looked as if he would like to be known, if he only
- knew how to begin. Since the party, she had been more eager than ever,
- and had planned many ways of making friends with him; but he had not
- been seen lately, and Jo began to think he had gone away, when she one
- day spied a brown face at an upper window, looking wistfully down into
- their garden, where Beth and Amy were snowballing one another.
- "That boy is suffering for society and fun," she said to herself.
- "His grandpa does not know what's good for him, and keeps him shut
- up all alone. He needs a party of jolly boys to play with, or somebody
- young and lively. I've a great mind to go over and tell the old
- gentleman so!"
- The idea amused Jo, who liked to do daring things, and was always
- scandalizing Meg by her queer performances. The plan of "going over"
- was not forgotten; and when the snowy afternoon came, Jo resolved to
- try what could be done. She saw Mr. Laurence drive off, and then
- sallied out to dig her way down to the hedge, where she paused, and
- took a survey. All quiet- curtains down at the lower windows; servants
- out of sight, and nothing human visible but a curly black head leaning
- on a thin hand at the upper window.
- "There he is," thought Jo, "poor boy! all alone and sick this dismal
- day. It's a shame! I'll toss up a snowball, and make him look out, and
- then say a kind word to him."
- Up went a handful of soft snow, and the head turned at once, showing
- a face which lost its listless look in a minute, as the big eyes
- brightened and the mouth began to smile. Jo nodded and laughed, and
- flourished her broom as she called out-
- "How do you do? Are you sick?"
- Laurie opened the window, and croaked out as hoarsely as a raven-
- "Better, thank you. I've had a bad cold, and been shut up a week."
- "I'm sorry. What do you amuse yourself with?"
- "Nothing; it's as dull as tombs up here."
- "Don't you read?"
- "Not much; they won't let me."
- "Can't somebody read to you?"
- "Grandpa does, sometimes; but my books don't interest him, and I
- hate to ask Brooke all the time."
- "Have some one come and see you, then."
- "There isn't any one I'd like to see. Boys make such a row, and my
- head is weak."
- "Isn't there some nice girl who'd read and amuse you? Girls are
- quiet, and like to play nurse."
- "Don't know any."
- "You know us," began Jo, then laughed, and stopped.
- "So I do! Will you come, please?" cried Laurie.
- "I'm not quiet and nice; but I'll come, if mother will let me.
- I'll go ask her. Shut that window, like a good boy, and wait till I
- come."
- With that, Jo shouldered her broom and marched into the house,
- wondering what they would all say to her. Laurie was in a flutter of
- excitement at the idea of having company, and flew about to get ready;
- for, as Mrs. March said, he was "a little gentleman," and did honor to
- the coming guest by brushing his curly pate, putting on a fresh
- collar, and trying to tidy up the room, which, in spite of half a
- dozen servants, was anything but neat. Presently there came a loud
- ring, then a decided voice, asking for "Mr. Laurie," and a
- surprised-looking servant came running up to announce a young lady.
- "All right, show her up, it's Miss Jo," said Laurie, going to the
- door of his little parlor to meet Jo, who appeared, looking rosy and
- kind and quite at her ease, with a covered dish in one hand and Beth's
- three kittens in the other.
- "Here I am, bag and baggage," she said briskly. "Mother sent her
- love, and was glad if I could do anything for you. Meg wanted me to
- bring some of her blanc-mange; she makes it very nicely, and Beth
- thought her cats would be comforting. I knew you'd laugh at them,
- but I couldn't refuse, she was so anxious to do something."
- It so happened that Beth's funny loan was just the thing; for, in
- laughing over the kits, Laurie forgot his bashfulness, and grew
- sociable at once.
- "That looks too pretty to eat," he said, smiling with pleasure, as
- Jo uncovered the dish, and showed the blanc-mange, surrounded by a
- garland of green leaves, and the scarlet flowers of Amy's pet
- geranium.
- "It isn't anything, only they all felt kindly, and wanted to show
- it. Tell the girl to put it away for your tea: it's so simple, you can
- eat it; and, being soft, it will slip down without hurting your sore
- throat. What a cosy room this is!"
- "It might be if it was kept nice; but the maids are lazy, and I
- don't know how to make them mind. It worries me, though."
- "I'll right it up in two minutes; for it only needs to have the
- hearth brushed, so- and the things made straight on the
- mantel-piece, so- and the books put here, and the bottles there, and
- your sofa turned from the light, and the pillows plumped up a bit.
- Now, then, you're fixed."
- And so he was; for, as she laughed and talked, Jo had whisked things
- into place, and given quite a different air to the room. Laurie
- watched her in respectful silence; and when she beckoned him to his
- sofa, he sat down with a sigh of satisfaction, saying gratefully-
- "How kind you are! Yes, that's what it wanted. Now please take the
- big chair, and let me do something to amuse my company."
- "No; I came to amuse you. Shall I read aloud?" and Jo looked
- affectionately toward some inviting books near by.
- "Thank you; I've read all those, and if you don't mind, I'd rather
- talk," answered Laurie.
- "Not a bit; I'll talk all day if you'll only set me going. Beth says
- I never know when to stop."
- "Is Beth the rosy one, who stays at home a good deal, and
- sometimes goes out with a little basket?" asked Laurie, with interest.
- "Yes, that's Beth; she's my girl, and a regular good one she is,
- too."
- "The pretty one is Meg, and the curly-haired one is Amy, I believe?"
- "How did you find that out?"
- Laurie colored up, but answered frankly, "Why, you see, I often hear
- you calling to one another, and when I'm alone up here, I can't help
- looking over at your house, you always seem to be having such good
- times. I beg your pardon for being so rude, but sometimes you forget
- to put down the curtain at the window where the flowers are; and
- when the lamps are lighted, it's like looking at a picture to see
- the fire, and you all round the table with your mother; her face is
- right opposite, and it looks so sweet behind the flowers, I can't help
- watching it. I haven't got any mother, you know"; and Laurie poked the
- fire to hide a little twitching of the lips that he could not control.
- The solitary, hungry look in his eyes went straight to Jo's warm
- heart. She had been so simply taught that there was no nonsense in her
- head, and at fifteen she was as innocent and frank as any child.
- Laurie was sick and lonely; and, feeling how rich she was in home-love
- and happiness, she gladly tried to share it with him. Her face was
- very friendly and her sharp voice unusually gentle as she said-
- "We'll never draw that curtain any more, and I give you leave to
- look as much as you like. I just wish, though, instead of peeping,
- you'd come over and see us. Mother is so splendid, she'd do you
- heaps of good, and Beth would sing to you if I begged her to, and
- Amy would dance; Meg and I would make you laugh over our funny stage
- properties, and we'd have jolly times. Wouldn't your grandpa let you?"
- "I think he would, if your mother asked him. He's very kind,
- though he does not look so; and he lets me do what I like, pretty
- much, only he's afraid I might be a bother to strangers," began
- Laurie, brightening more and more.
- "We are not strangers, we are neighbors, and you needn't think you'd
- be a bother. We want to know you, and I've been trying to do this ever
- so long. We haven't been here a great while, you know, but we have got
- acquainted with all our neighbors but you."
- "You see grandpa lives among his books, and doesn't mind much what
- happens outside. Mr. Brooke, my tutor, doesn't stay here, you know,
- and I have no one to go about with me, so I just stop at home and
- get on as I can."
- "That's bad. You ought to make an effort, and go visiting everywhere
- you are asked; then you'll have plenty of friends, and pleasant places
- to go to. Never mind being bashful; it won't last long if you keep
- going."
- Laurie turned red again, but wasn't offended at being accused of
- bashfulness; for there was so much good-will in Jo, it was
- impossible not to take her blunt speeches as kindly as they were
- meant.
- "Do you like your school?" asked the boy, changing the subject,
- after a little pause, during which he stared at the fire, and Jo
- looked about her, well pleased.
- "Don't go to school; I'm a business man- girl, I mean. I go to
- wait on my great-aunt, and a dear, cross old soul she is, too,"
- answered Jo.
- Laurie opened his mouth to ask another question; but remembering
- just in time that it wasn't manners to make too many inquiries into
- people's affairs, he shut it again, and looked uncomfortable. Jo liked
- his good breeding, and didn't mind having a laugh at Aunt March, so
- she gave him a lively description of the fidgety old lady, her fat
- poodle, the parrot that talked Spanish, and the library where she
- revelled. Laurie enjoyed that immensely; and when she told about the
- prim old gentleman who came once to woo Aunt March, and, in the middle
- of a fine speech, how Poll had tweaked his wig off to his great
- dismay, the boy lay back and laughed till the tears ran down his
- cheeks, and a maid popped her head in to see what was the matter.
- "Oh! that does me no end of good. Tell on, please," he said,
- taking his face out of the sofa-cushion, red and shining with
- merriment.
- Much elated with her success, Jo did "tell on," all about their
- plays and plans, their hopes and fears for father, and the most
- interesting events of the little world in which the sisters lived.
- Then they got to talking about books; and to Jo's delight, she found
- that Laurie loved them as well as she did, and had read even more than
- herself.
- "If you like them so much, come down and see ours. Grandpa is out,
- so you needn't be afraid," said Laurie, getting up.
- "I'm not afraid of anything," returned Jo, with a toss of the head.
- "I don't believe you are!" exclaimed the boy, looking at her with
- much admiration, though he privately thought she would have good
- reason to be a trifle afraid of the old gentleman, if she met him in
- some of his moods.
- The atmosphere of the whole house being summer-like, Laurie led
- the way from room to room, letting Jo stop to examine whatever
- struck her fancy; and so at last they came to the library, where she
- clapped her hands, and pranced, as she always did when especially
- delighted. It was lined with books, and there were pictures and
- statues, and distracting little cabinets full of coins and
- curiosities, and sleepy-hollow chairs, and queer tables, and
- bronzes; and, best of all, a great open fireplace, with quaint tiles
- all round it.
- "What richness!" sighed Jo, sinking into the depth of a velvet
- chair, and gazing about her with an air of intense satisfaction.
- "Theodore Laurence, you ought to be the happiest boy in the world,"
- she added impressively.
- "A fellow can't live on books," said Laurie, shaking his head, as he
- perched on a table opposite.
- Before he could say more, a bell rung, and Jo flew up, exclaiming
- with alarm, "Mercy me! it's your grandpa!"
- "Well, what if it is? You are not afraid of anything, you know,"
- returned the boy, looking wicked.
- "I think I am a little bit afraid of him, but I don't know why I
- should be. Marmee said I might come, and I don't think you're any
- the worse for it," said Jo, composing herself, though she kept her
- eyes on the door.
- "I'm a great deal better for it, and ever so much obliged. I'm
- only afraid you are very tired talking to me; it was so pleasant, I
- couldn't bear to stop," said Laurie gratefully.
- "The doctor to see you, sir," and the maid beckoned as she spoke.
- "Would you mind if I left you for a minute? I suppose I must see
- him," said Laurie.
- "Don't mind me. I'm as happy as a cricket here," answered Jo.
- Laurie went away, and his guest amused herself in her own way. She
- was standing before a fine portrait of the old gentleman, when the
- door opened again, and, without turning, she said decidedly, "I'm sure
- now that I shouldn't be afraid of him, for he's got kind eyes,
- though his mouth is grim, and he looks as if he had a tremendous
- will of his own. He isn't as handsome as my grandfather, but I like
- him."
- "Thank you, ma'am," said a gruff voice behind her; and there, to her
- great dismay, stood old Mr. Laurence.
- Poor Jo blushed till she couldn't blush any redder, and her heart
- began to beat uncomfortably fast as she thought what she had said. For
- a minute a wild desire to run away possessed her; but that was
- cowardly, and the girls would laugh at her: so she resolved to stay,
- and get out of the scrape as she could. A second look showed her
- that the living eyes, under the bushy gray eyebrows, were kinder
- even than the painted ones; and there was a sly twinkle in them, which
- lessened her fear a good deal. The gruff voice was gruffer than
- ever, as the old gentleman said abruptly, after that dreadful pause:
- "So you're not afraid of me, hey?"
- "Not much, sir."
- "And you don't think me as handsome as your grandfather?"
- "Not quite, sir."
- "And I've got a tremendous will, have I?"
- "I only said I thought so."
- "But you like me, in spite of it?"
- "Yes, I do, sir."
- That answer pleased the old gentleman; he gave a short laugh,
- shook hands with her, and, putting his finger under her chin, turned
- up her face, examined it gravely, and let it go, saying, with a nod,
- "You've got your grandfather's spirit, if you haven't his face. He was
- a fine man, my dear; but, what is better, he was a brave and an honest
- one, and I was proud to be his friend."
- "Thank you, sir"; and Jo was quite comfortable after that, for it
- suited her exactly.
- "What have you been doing to this boy of mine, hey?" was the next
- question, sharply put.
- "Only trying to be neighborly, sir"; and Jo told how her visit
- came about.
- "You think he needs cheering up a bit, do you?"
- "Yes, sir; he seems a little lonely, and young folks would do him
- good perhaps. We are only girls, but we should be glad to help if we
- could, for we don't forget the splendid Christmas present you sent
- us," said Jo eagerly.
- "Tut, tut, tut! that was the boy's affair. How is the poor woman?"
- "Doing nicely, sir"; and off went Jo, talking very fast, as she told
- all about the Hummels, in whom her mother had interested richer
- friends than they were.
- "Just her father's way of doing good. I shall come and see your
- mother some fine day. Tell her so. There's the tea-bell; we have it
- early, on the boy's account. Come down, and go on being neighborly."
- "If you'd like to have me, sir."
- "Shouldn't ask you, if I didn't"; and Mr. Laurence offered her his
- arm with old-fashioned courtesy.
- "What would Meg say to this?" thought Jo, as she was marched away,
- while her eyes danced with fun as she imagined herself telling the
- story at home.
- "Hey! Why, what the dickens has come to the fellow?" said the old
- gentleman, as Laurie came running down stairs, and brought up with a
- start of surprise at the astonishing sight of Jo arm-in-arm with his
- redoubtable grandfather.
- "I didn't know you'd come, sir," he began, as Jo gave him a
- triumphant little glance.
- "That's evident, by the way you racket down stairs. Come to your
- tea, sir, and behave like a gentleman"; and having pulled the boy's
- hair by way of a caress, Mr. Laurence walked on, while Laurie went
- through a series of comic evolutions behind their backs, which
- nearly produced an explosion of laughter from Jo.
- The old gentleman did not say much as he drank his four cups of tea,
- but he watched the young people, who soon chatted away like old
- friends, and the change in his grandson did not escape him. There
- was color, light, and life in the boy's face now, vivacity in his
- manner, and genuine merriment in his laugh.
- "She's right; the lad is lonely. I'll see what these little girls
- can do for him," thought Mr. Laurence, as he looked and listened. He
- liked Jo, for her odd, blunt ways suited him; and she seemed to
- understand the boy almost as well as if she had been one herself.
- If the Laurences had been what Jo called "prim and poky," she
- would not have got on at all, for such people always made her shy
- and awkward; but finding them free and easy, she was so herself, and
- made a good impression. When they rose she proposed to go, but
- Laurie said he had something more to show her, and took her away to
- the conservatory, which had been lighted for her benefit. It seemed
- quite fairy-like to Jo, as she went up and down the walks, enjoying
- the blooming walls on either side, the soft light, the damp sweet air,
- and the wonderful vines and trees that hung above her- while her new
- friend cut the finest flowers till his hands were full; then he tied
- them up, saying, with the happy look Jo liked to see, "Please give
- these to your mother, and tell her I like the medicine she sent me
- very much."
- They found Mr. Laurence standing before the fire in the great
- drawing-room, but Jo's attention was entirely absorbed by a grand
- piano, which stood open.
- "Do you play?" she asked, turning to Laurie with a respectful
- expression.
- "Sometimes," he answered modestly.
- "Please do now. I want to hear it, so I can tell Beth."
- "Won't you first?"
- "Don't know how; too stupid to learn, but I love music dearly."
- So Laurie played, and Jo listened, with her nose luxuriously
- buried in heliotrope and tea-roses. Her respect and regard for the
- "Laurence boy" increased very much, for he played remarkably well, and
- didn't put on any airs. She wished Beth could hear him, but she did
- not say so; only praised him till he was quite abashed, and his
- grandfather came to the rescue. "That will do, that will do, young
- lady. Too many sugar-plums are not good for him. His music isn't
- bad, but I hope he will do as well in more important things. Going?
- Well, I'm much obliged to you, and I hope you'll come again. My
- respects to your mother. Good-night, Doctor Jo."
- He shook hands kindly, but looked as if something did not please
- him. When they got into the hall, Jo asked Laurie if she had said
- anything amiss. He shook his head.
- "No, it was me; he doesn't like to hear me play."
- "Why not?"
- "I'll tell you some day. John is going home with you, as I can't."
- "No need of that; I am not a young lady, and it's only a step.
- Take care of yourself, won't you?"
- "Yes; but you will come again, I hope?"
- "If you promise to come and see us after you are well."
- "I will."
- "Good-night, Laurie!"
- "Good-night, Jo, good-night!"
- When all the afternoon's adventures had been told, the family felt
- inclined to go visiting in a body, for each found something very
- attractive in the big house on the other side of the hedge. Mrs. March
- wanted to talk of her father with the old man who had not forgotten
- him; Meg longed to walk in the conservatory; Beth sighed for the grand
- piano; and Amy was eager to see the fine pictures and statues.
- "Mother, why didn't Mr. Laurence like to have Laurie play?" asked
- Jo, who was of an inquiring disposition.
- "I'm not sure, but I think it was because his son, Laurie's
- father, married an Italian lady, a musician, which displeased the
- old man, who is very proud. The lady was good and lovely and
- accomplished, but he did not like her, and never saw his son after
- he married. They both died when Laurie was a little child, and then
- his grandfather took him home. I fancy the boy, who was born in Italy,
- is not very strong, and the old man is afraid of losing him, which
- makes him so careful. Laurie comes naturally by his love of music, for
- he is like his mother, and I dare say his grandfather fears that he
- may want to be a musician; at any rate, his skill reminds him of the
- woman he did not like, and so he 'glowered,' as Jo said."
- "Dear me, how romantic!" exclaimed Meg.
- "How silly!" said Jo. "Let him be a musician, if he wants to, and
- not plague his life out sending him to college, when he hates to go."
- "That's why he has such handsome black eyes and pretty manners, I
- suppose. Italians are always nice," said Meg, who was a little
- sentimental.
- "What do you know about his eyes and his manners? You never spoke to
- him hardly," cried Jo, who was not sentimental.
- "I saw him at the party, and what you tell shows that he knows how
- to behave. That was a nice little speech about the medicine mother
- sent him."
- "He meant the blanc-mange, I suppose."
- "How stupid you are, child! He meant you, of course."
- "Did he?" and Jo opened her eyes as if it had never occurred to
- her before.
- "I never saw such a girl! You don't know a compliment when you get
- it," said Meg, with the air of a young lady who knew all about the
- matter.
- "I think they are great nonsense, and I'll thank you not to be
- silly, and spoil my fun. Laurie's a nice boy, and I like him, and I
- won't have any sentimental stuff about compliments and such rubbish.
- We'll all be good to him, because he hasn't got any mother, and he may
- come over and see us, mayn't he, Marmee?"
- "Yes, Jo, your little friend is very welcome, and I hope Meg will
- remember that children should be children as long as they can."
- "I don't call myself a child, and I'm not in my teens yet," observed
- Amy. "What do you say, Beth?"
- "I was thinking about our 'Pilgrim's Progress,'" answered Beth,
- who had not heard a word. "How we got out of the Slough and through
- the Wicket Gate by resolving to be good, and up the steep hill by
- trying; and that maybe the house over there, full of splendid
- things, is going to be our Palace Beautiful."
- "We have got to get by the lions, first," said Jo, as if she
- rather liked the prospect.
- 6
- Beth Finds the Palace Beautiful
-
- THE big house did prove a Palace Beautiful, though it took some time
- for all to get in, and Beth found it very hard to pass the lions.
- Old Mr. Laurence was the biggest one; but after he had called, said
- something funny or kind to each one of the girls, and talked over
- old times with their mother, nobody felt much afraid of him, except
- timid Beth. The other lion was the fact that they were poor and Laurie
- rich; for this made them shy of accepting favors which they could
- not return. But, after a while, they found that he considered them the
- benefactors, and could not do enough to show how grateful he was for
- Mrs. March's motherly welcome, their cheerful society, and the comfort
- he took in that humble home of theirs. So they soon forgot their
- pride, and interchanged kindnesses without stopping to think which was
- the greater.
- All sorts of pleasant things happened about that time; for the new
- friendship flourished like grass in spring. Every one liked Laurie,
- and he privately informed his tutor that "the Marches were regularly
- splendid girls." With the delightful enthusiasm of youth, they took
- the solitary boy into their midst, and made much of him, and he
- found something very charming in the innocent companionship of these
- simple-hearted girls. Never having known mother or sisters, he was
- quick to feel the influences they brought about him; and their busy,
- lively ways made him ashamed of the indolent life he led. He was tired
- of books, and found people so interesting now that Mr. Brooke was
- obliged to make very unsatisfactory reports; for Laurie was always
- playing truant, and running over to the Marches'.
- "Never mind; let him take a holiday, and make it up afterwards,"
- said the old gentleman. "The good lady next door says he is studying
- too hard, and needs young society, amusement, and exercise. I
- suspect she is right, and that I've been coddling the fellow as if I'd
- been his grandmother. Let him do what he likes, as long as he is
- happy. He can't get into mischief in that little nunnery over there;
- and Mrs. March is doing more for him than we can."
- What good times they had, to be sure! Such plays and tableaux,
- such sleigh-rides and skating frolics, such pleasant evenings in the
- old parlor, and now and then such gay little parties at the great
- house. Meg could walk in the conservatory whenever she liked, and
- revel in bouquets; Jo browsed over the new library voraciously, and
- convulsed the old gentleman with her criticisms; Amy copied
- pictures, and enjoyed beauty to her heart's content; and Laurie played
- "lord of the manor" in the most delightful style.
- But Beth, though yearning for the grand piano, could not pluck up
- courage to go to the "Mansion of Bliss," as Meg called it. She went
- once with Jo; but the old gentleman, not being aware of her infirmity,
- stared at her so hard from under his heavy eyebrows, and said "Hey!"
- so loud, that he frightened her so much her "feet chattered on the
- floor," she told her mother; and she ran away, declaring she would
- never go there any more, not even for the dear piano. No persuasions
- or enticements could overcome her fear, till, the fact coming to Mr.
- Laurence's ear in some mysterious way, he set about mending matters.
- During one of the brief calls he made, he artfully led the
- conversation to music, and talked away about great singers whom he had
- seen, fine organs he had heard, and told such charming anecdotes
- that Beth found it impossible to stay in her distant corner, but crept
- nearer and nearer, as if fascinated. At the back of his chair she
- stopped, and stood listening, with her great eyes wide open, and her
- cheeks red with the excitement of this unusual performance. Taking
- no more notice of her than if she had been a fly, Mr. Laurence
- talked on about Laurie's lessons and teachers; and presently, as if
- the idea had just occurred to him, he said to Mrs. March-
- "The boy neglects his music now, and I'm glad of it, for he was
- getting too fond of it. But the piano suffers for want of use.
- Wouldn't some of your girls like to run over, and practise on it now
- and then, just to keep it in tune, you know, ma'am?"
- Beth took a step forward, and pressed her hands tightly together
- to keep from clapping them, for this was an irresistible temptation;
- and the thought of practising on that splendid instrument quite took
- her breath away. Before Mrs. March could reply, Mr. Laurence went on
- with an odd little nod and smile-
- "They needn't see or speak to any one, but run in at any time; for
- I'm shut up in my study at the other end of the house, Laurie is out a
- great deal, and the servants are never near the drawing-room after
- nine o'clock."
- Here he rose, as if going, and Beth made up her mind to speak, for
- that last arrangement left nothing to be desired. "Please tell the
- young ladies what I say; and if they don't care to come, why, never
- mind." Here a little hand slipped into his, and Beth looked up at
- him with a face full of gratitude, as she said, in her earnest yet
- timid way-
- "O sir, they do care, very, very much!"
- "Are you the musical girl?" he asked, without any startling "Hey!"
- as he looked down at her very kindly.
- "I'm Beth. I love it dearly, and I'll come, if you are quite sure
- nobody will hear me- and be disturbed," she added, fearing to be rude,
- and trembling at her own boldness as she spoke.
- "Not a soul, my dear. The house is empty half the day; so come,
- and drum away as much as you like, and I shall be obliged to you."
- "How kind you are, sir!"
- Beth blushed like a rose under the friendly look he wore; but she
- was not frightened now, and gave the big hand a grateful squeeze,
- because she had no words to thank him for the precious gift he had
- given her. The old gentleman softly stroked the hair off her forehead,
- and, stooping down, he kissed her, saying, in a tone few people ever
- heard-
- "I had a little girl once, with eyes like these. God bless you, my
- dear! Good day, madam"; and away he went, in a great hurry.
- Beth had a rapture with her mother, and then rushed up to impart the
- glorious news to her family of invalids, as the girls were not at
- home. How blithely she sung that evening, and how they all laughed
- at her, because she woke Amy in the night by playing the piano on
- her face in her sleep. Next day, having seen both the old and young
- gentleman out of the house, Beth, after two or three retreats,
- fairly got in at the side-door, and made her way, as noiselessly as
- any mouse, to the drawing-room, where her idol stood. Quite by
- accident, of course, some pretty, easy music lay on the piano; and,
- with trembling fingers, and frequent stops to listen and look about,
- Beth at last touched the great instrument, and straightway forgot
- her fear, herself, and everything else but the unspeakable delight
- which the music gave her, for it was like the voice of a beloved
- friend.
- She stayed till Hannah came to take her home to dinner; but she
- had no appetite, and could only sit and smile upon every one in a
- general state of beatitude.
- After that, the little brown hood slipped through the hedge nearly
- every day, and the great drawing-room was haunted by a tuneful
- spirit that came and went unseen. She never knew that Mr. Laurence
- often opened his study-door to hear the old-fashioned airs he liked;
- she never saw Laurie mount guard in the hall to warn the servants
- away; she never suspected that the exercise-books and new songs
- which she found in the rack were put there for her especial benefit;
- and when he talked to her about music at home, she only thought how
- kind he was to tell things that helped her so much. So she enjoyed
- herself heartily, and found, what isn't always the case, that her
- granted wish was all she had hoped. Perhaps it was because she was
- so grateful for this blessing that a greater was given her; at any
- rate, she deserved both.
- "Mother, I'm going to work Mr. Laurence a pair of slippers. He is so
- kind to me, I must thank him, and I don't know any other way. Can I do
- it?" asked Beth, a few weeks after that eventful call of his.
- "Yes, dear. It will please him very much, and be a nice way of
- thanking him. The girls will help you about them, and I will pay for
- the making up," replied Mrs. March, who took peculiar pleasure in
- granting Beth's requests, because she so seldom asked anything for
- herself. After many serious discussions with Meg and Jo, the pattern
- was chosen, the materials bought, and the slippers begun. A cluster of
- grave yet cheerful pansies, on a deeper purple ground, was
- pronounced very appropriate and pretty; and Beth worked away early and
- late, with occasional lifts over hard parts. She was a nimble little
- needle-woman, and they were finished before any one got tired of them.
- Then she wrote a very short, simple note, and, with Laurie's help, got
- them smuggled on to the study-table one morning before the old
- gentleman was up.
- When this excitement was over, Beth waited to see what would happen.
- All that day passed, and a part of the next, before any acknowledgment
- arrived, and she was beginning to fear she had offended her
- crotchety friend. On the afternoon of the second day, she went out
- to do an errand, and give poor Joanna, the invalid doll, her daily
- exercise. As she came up the street, on her return, she saw three,
- yes, four, heads popping in and out of the parlor windows, and the
- moment they saw her, several hands were waved, and several joyful
- voices screamed-
- "Here's a letter from the old gentleman! Come quick, and read it!"
- "O Beth, he's sent you-" began Amy, gesticulating with unseemly
- energy; but she got no further, for Jo quenched her by slamming down
- the window.
- Beth hurried on in a flutter of suspense. At the door, her sisters
- seized and bore her to the parlor in a triumphal procession, all
- pointing, and all saying at once, "Look there! look there!" Beth did
- look, and turned pale with delight and surprise; for there stood a
- little cabinet-piano, with a letter lying on the glossy lid, directed,
- like a sign-board, to "Miss Elizabeth March."
- "For me?" gasped Beth, holding on to Jo, and feeling as if she
- should tumble down, it was such an overwhelming thing altogether.
- "Yes; all for you, my precious! Isn't it splendid of him? Don't
- you think he's the dearest old man in the world? Here's the key in the
- letter. We didn't open it, but we are dying to know what he says,"
- cried Jo, hugging her sister, and offering the note.
- "You read it! I can't, I feel so queer! Oh, it is too lovely!" and
- Beth hid her face in Jo's apron, quite upset by her present.
- Jo opened the paper, and began to laugh, for the first words she saw
- were-
-
- "MISS MARCH:
- "Dear Madam-"
-
- "How nice it sounds! I wish some one would write to me so!" said
- Amy, who thought the old-fashioned address very elegant.
-
- "'I have had many pairs of slippers in my life, but I never had
- any that suited me so well as yours,'" continued Jo. "'Heart's-ease is
- my favorite flower, and these will always remind me of the gentle
- giver. I like to pay my debts; so I know you will allow 'the old
- gentleman' to send you something which once belonged to the little
- granddaughter he lost. With hearty thanks and best wishes, I remain.'"
- "'Your grateful friend and humble servant,'"
- "'JAMES LAURENCE.'"
-
- "There, Beth, that's an honor to be proud of, I'm sure! Laurie
- told me how fond Mr. Laurence used to be of the child who died, and
- how he kept all her little things carefully. Just think, he's given
- you her piano. That comes of having big blue eyes and loving music,"
- said Jo, trying to soothe Beth, who trembled, and looked more
- excited than she had ever been before.
- "See the cunning brackets to hold candles, and the nice green
- silk, puckered up, with a gold rose in the middle, and the pretty rack
- and stool all complete," added Meg, opening the instrument and
- displaying its beauties.
- "'Your humble servant, James Laurence'; only think of his writing
- that to you. I'll tell the girls. They'll think it's splendid," said
- Amy, much impressed by the note.
- "Try it, honey. Let's hear the sound of the baby-pianny," said
- Hannah, who always took a share in the family joys and sorrows.
- So Beth tried it; and every one pronounced it the most remarkable
- piano ever heard. It had evidently been newly tuned and put in
- apple-pie order; but, perfect as it was, I think the real charm of
- it lay in the happiest of all happy faces which leaned over it, as
- Beth lovingly touched the beautiful black and white keys and pressed
- the bright pedals.
- "You'll have to go and thank him," said Jo, by way of a joke; for
- the idea of the child's really going never entered her head.
- "Yes, I mean to. I guess I'll go now, before I get frightened
- thinking about it." And, to the utter amazement of the assembled
- family, Beth walked deliberately down the garden, through the hedge,
- and in at the Laurences' door.
- "Well, I wish I may die if it ain't the queerest thing I ever see!
- The pianny has turned her head! She'd never have gone in her right
- mind," cried Hannah, staring after her, while the girls were
- rendered quite speechless by the miracle.
- They would have been still more amazed if they had seen what Beth
- did afterward. If you will believe me, she went and knocked at the
- study-door before she gave herself time to think; and when a gruff
- voice called out, "Come in!" she did go in, right up to Mr.
- Laurence, who looked quite taken aback, and held out her hand, saying,
- with only a small quaver in her voice, "I came to thank you, sir,
- for-" But she didn't finish; for he looked so friendly that she forgot
- her speech, and, only remembering that he had lost the little girl
- he loved, she put both arms round his neck, and kissed him.
- If the roof of the house had suddenly flown off, the old gentleman
- wouldn't have been more astonished; but he liked it- oh, dear, yes, he
- liked it amazingly!- and was so touched and pleased by that
- confiding little kiss that all his crustiness vanished; and he just
- set her on his knee, and laid his wrinkled cheek against her rosy one,
- feeling as if he had got his own little granddaughter back again. Beth
- ceased to fear him from that moment, and sat there talking to him as
- cosily as if she had known him all her life; for love casts out
- fear, and gratitude can conquer pride. When she went home, he walked
- with her to her own gate, shook hands cordially, and touched his hat
- as he marched back again, looking very stately and erect, like a
- handsome, soldierly old gentleman, as he was.
- When the girls saw that performance, Jo began to dance a jig, by way
- of expressing her satisfaction; Amy nearly fell out of the window in
- her surprise; and Meg exclaimed, with uplifted hands, "Well, I do
- believe the world is coming to an end!"
- 7
- Amy's Valley of Humiliation
-
- "THAT boy is a perfect Cyclops, isn't he?" said Amy, one day, as
- Laurie clattered by on horseback, with a flourish of his whip as he
- passed.
- "How dare you say so, when he's got both his eyes? and very handsome
- ones they are, too," cried Jo, who resented any slighting remarks
- about her friend.
- "I didn't say anything about his eyes, and I don't see why you
- need fire up when I admire his riding."
- "Oh, my goodness! that little goose means a centaur, and she
- called him a Cyclops," exclaimed Jo, with a burst of laughter.
- "You needn't be so rude; it's only a 'lapse of lingy,' as Mr.
- Davis says," retorted Amy, finishing Jo with her Latin. "I just wish I
- had a little of the money Laurie spends on that horse," she added,
- as if to herself, yet hoping her sisters would hear.
- "Why?" asked Meg kindly, for Jo had gone off in another laugh at
- Amy's second blunder.
- "I need it so much; I'm dreadfully in debt, and it won't be my
- turn to have the rag-money for a month."
- "In debt, Amy? What do you mean?" and Meg looked sober.
- "Why, I owe at least a dozen pickled limes, and I can't pay them,
- you know, till I have money, for Marmee forbade my having anything
- charged at the shop."
- "Tell me all about it. Are limes the fashion now? It used to be
- pricking bits of rubber to make balls"; and Meg tried to keep her
- countenance, Amy looked so grave and important.
- "Why, you see, the girls are always buying them, and unless you want
- to be thought mean, you must do it, too. It's nothing but limes now,
- for every one is sucking them in their desks in school-time, and
- trading them off for pencils, bead-rings, paper dolls, or something
- else, at recess. If one girl likes another, she gives her a lime; if
- she's mad with her, she eats one before her face, and don't offer even
- a suck. They treat by turns; and I've had ever so many, but haven't
- returned them; and I ought, for they are debts of honor, you know."
- "How much will pay them off, and restore your credit?" asked Meg,
- taking out her purse.
- "A quarter would more than do it, and leave a few cents over for a
- treat for you. Don't you like limes?"
- "Not much; you may have my share. Here's the money. Make it last
- as long as you can, for it isn't very plenty, you know."
- "Oh, thank you! It must be so nice to have pocket-money! I'll have a
- grand feast, for I haven't tasted a lime this week. I felt delicate
- about taking any, as I couldn't return them, and I'm actually
- suffering for one."
- Next day Amy was rather late at school; but could not resist the
- temptation of displaying, with pardonable pride, a moist brown-paper
- parcel, before she consigned it to the inmost recesses of her desk.
- During the next few minutes the rumor that Amy March had got
- twenty-four delicious limes (she ate one on the way), and was going to
- treat, circulated through her "set," and the attentions of her friends
- became quite overwhelming. Katy Brown invited her to her next party on
- the spot; Mary Kingsley insisted on lending her her watch till recess;
- and Jenny Snow, a satirical young lady, who had basely twitted Amy
- upon her limeless state, promptly buried the hatchet, and offered to
- furnish answers to certain appalling sums. But Amy had not forgotten
- Miss Snow's cutting remarks about "some persons whose noses were not
- too flat to smell other people's limes, and stuck-up people, who
- were not too proud to ask for them"; and she instantly crushed "that
- Snow girl's" hopes by the withering telegram, "You needn't be so
- polite all of a sudden, for you won't get any."
- A distinguished personage happened to visit the school that morning,
- and Amy's beautifully drawn maps received praise, which honor to her
- foe rankled in the soul of Miss Snow, and caused Miss March to
- assume the airs of a studious young peacock. But, alas, alas! pride
- goes before a fall, and the revengeful Snow turned the tables with
- disastrous success. No sooner had the guest paid the usual stale
- compliments, and bowed himself out, than Jenny, under pretence of
- asking an important question, informed Mr. Davis, the teacher, that
- Amy March had pickled limes in her desk.
- Now Mr. Davis had declared limes a contraband article, and
- solemnly vowed to publicly ferrule the first person who was found
- breaking the law. This much-enduring man had succeeded in banishing
- chewing-gum after a long and stormy war, had made a bonfire of the
- confiscated novels and newspapers, had suppressed a private
- post-office, had forbidden distortions of the face, nick-names, and
- caricatures, and done all that one man could to keep half a hundred
- rebellious girls in order. Boys are trying enough to human patience,
- goodness knows! but girls are infinitely more so, especially to
- nervous gentlemen, with tyrannical tempers, and no more talent for
- teaching than Dr. Blimber. Mr. Davis knew any quantity of Greek,
- Latin, Algebra, and ologies of all sorts, so he was called a fine
- teacher; and manners, morals, feelings, and examples were not
- considered of any particular importance. It was a most unfortunate
- moment for denouncing Amy, and Jenny knew it. Mr. Davis had
- evidently taken his coffee too strong that morning; there was an
- east wind, which always affected his neuralgia; and his pupils had not
- done him the credit which he felt he deserved: therefore, to use the
- expressive, if not elegant, language of a school-girl, "he was as
- nervous as a witch and as cross as a bear." The word "limes" was
- like fire to powder; his yellow face flushed, and he rapped on his
- desk with an energy which made Jenny skip to her seat with unusual
- rapidity.
- "Young ladies, attention, if you please!"
- At the stern order the buzz ceased, and fifty pairs of blue,
- black, gray, and brown eyes were obediently fixed upon his awful
- countenance.
- "Miss March, come to the desk."
- Amy rose to comply with outward composure, but a secret fear
- oppressed her, for the limes weighed upon her conscience.
- "Bring with you the limes you have in your desk," was the unexpected
- command which arrested her before she got out of her seat.
- "Don't take all," whispered her neighbor, a young lady of great
- presence of mind.
- Amy hastily shook out half a dozen, and laid the rest down before
- Mr. Davis, feeling that any man possessing a human heart would
- relent when that delicious perfume met his nose. Unfortunately, Mr.
- Davis particularly detested the odor of the fashionable pickle, and
- disgust added to his wrath.
- "Is that all?"
- "Not quite," stammered Amy.
- "Bring the rest immediately."
- With a despairing glance at her set, she obeyed.
- "You are sure there are no more?"
- "I never lie, sir."
- "So I see. Now take these disgusting things two by two, and throw
- them out of the window."
- There was a simultaneous sigh, which created quite a little gust, as
- the last hope fled, and the treat was ravished from their longing
- lips. Scarlet with shame and anger, Amy went to and fro six dreadful
- times; and as each doomed couple- looking oh! so plump and juicy- fell
- from her reluctant hands, a shout from the street completed the
- anguish of the girls, for it told them that their feast was being
- exulted over by the little Irish children, who were their sworn
- foes. This- this was too much; all flashed indignant or appealing
- glances at the inexorable Davis, and one passionate lime-lover burst
- into tears.
- As Amy returned from her last trip, Mr. Davis gave a portentous
- "Hem!" and said, in his most impressive manner "Young ladies, you
- remember what I said to you a week ago. I am sorry this has
- happened; but I never allow my rules to be infringed, and I never
- break my word. Miss March, hold out your hand."
- Amy started, and put both hands behind her, turning on him an
- imploring look which pleaded for her better than the words she could
- not utter. She was rather a favorite with "old Davis," as, of
- course, he was called, and it's my private belief that he would have
- broken his word if the indignation of one irrepressible young lady had
- not found vent in a hiss. That hiss, faint as it was, irritated the
- irascible gentleman, and sealed the culprit's fate.
- "Your hand, Miss March!" was the only answer her mute appeal
- received; and, too proud to cry or beseech, Amy set her teeth, threw
- back her head defiantly, and bore without flinching several tingling
- blows on her little palm. They were neither many nor heavy, but that
- made no difference to her. For the first time in her life she had been
- struck; and the disgrace, in her eyes, was as deep as if he had
- knocked her down.
- "You will now stand on the platform till recess," said Mr. Davis,
- resolved to do the thing thoroughly, since he had begun.
- That was dreadful. It would have been bad enough to go to her
- seat, and see the pitying faces of her friends, or the satisfied
- ones of her few enemies; but to face the whole school, with that shame
- fresh upon her, seemed impossible, and for a second she felt as if she
- could only drop down where she stood, and break her heart with crying.
- A bitter sense of wrong, and the thought of Jenny Snow, helped her
- to bear it; and, taking the ignominious place, she fixed her eyes on
- the stove-funnel above what now seemed a sea of faces, and stood
- there, so motionless and white that the girls found it very hard to
- study, with that pathetic figure before them.
- During the fifteen minutes that followed, the proud and sensitive
- little girl suffered a shame and pain which she never forgot. To
- others it might seem a ludicrous or trivial affair, but to her it
- was a hard experience; for during the twelve years of her life she had
- been governed by love alone, and a blow of that sort had never touched
- her before. The smart of her hand and the ache of her heart were
- forgotten in the sting of the thought-
- "I shall have to tell at home, and they will be so disappointed in
- me!"
- The fifteen minutes seemed an hour; but they came to an end at last,
- and the word "Recess!" had never seemed so welcome to her before.
- "You can go, Miss March," said Mr. Davis, looking, as he felt,
- uncomfortable.
- He did not soon forget the reproachful glance Amy gave him, as she
- went, without a word to any one, straight into the ante-room, snatched
- her things, and left the place "forever," as she passionately declared
- to herself. She was in a sad state when she got home; and when the
- older girls arrived, some time later, an indignation meeting was
- held at once. Mrs. March did not say much, but looked disturbed, and
- comforted her afflicted little daughter in her tenderest manner. Meg
- bathed the insulted hand with glycerine and tears; Beth felt that even
- her beloved kittens would fail as a balm for griefs like this; Jo
- wrathfully proposed that Mr. Davis be arrested without delay; and
- Hannah shook her fist at the "villain," and pounded potatoes for
- dinner as if she had him under her pestle.
- No notice was taken of Amy's flight, except by her mates; but the
- sharp-eyed demoiselles discovered that Mr. Davis was quite benignant
- in the afternoon, also unusually nervous. Just before school closed,
- Jo appeared, wearing a grim expression, as she stalked up to the desk,
- and delivered a letter from her mother; then collected Amy's property,
- and departed, carefully scraping the mud from her boots on the
- door-mat, as if she shook the dust of the place off her feet.
- "Yes, you can have a vacation from school, but I want you to study a
- little every day, with Beth," said Mrs. March, that evening. "I
- don't approve of corporal punishment, especially for girls. I
- dislike Mr. Davis's manner of teaching, and don't think the girls
- you associate with are doing you any good, so I shall ask your
- father's advice before I send you anywhere else."
- "That's good! I wish all the girls would leave, and spoil his old
- school. It's perfectly maddening to think of those lovely limes,"
- sighed Amy, with the air of a martyr.
- "I am not sorry you lost them, for you broke the rules, and deserved
- some punishment for disobedience," was the severe reply, which
- rather disappointed the young lady, who expected nothing but sympathy.
- "Do you mean you are glad I was disgraced before the whole
- school?" cried Amy.
- "I should not have chosen that way of mending a fault," replied
- her mother; "but I'm not sure that it won't do you more good than a
- milder method. You are getting to be rather conceited, my dear, and it
- is quite time you set about correcting it. You have a good many little
- gifts and virtues, but there is no need of parading them, for
- conceit spoils the finest genius. There is not much danger that real
- talent or goodness will be overlooked long; even if it is, the
- consciousness of possessing and using it well should satisfy one,
- and the great charm of all power is modesty."
- "So it is!" cried Laurie, who was playing chess in a corner with Jo.
- "I knew a girl, once, who had a really remarkable talent for music,
- and she didn't know it; never guessed what sweet little things she
- composed when she was alone, and wouldn't have believed it if any
- one had told her."
- "I wish I'd known that nice girl; maybe she would have helped me,
- I'm so stupid," said Beth, who stood beside him, listening eagerly.
- "You do know her, and she helps you better than any one else could,"
- answered Laurie, looking at her with such mischievous meaning in his
- merry black eyes, that Beth suddenly turned very red, and hid her face
- in the sofa-cushion, quite overcome by such an unexpected discovery.
- Jo let Laurie win the game, to pay for that praise of her Beth,
- who could not be prevailed upon to play for them after her compliment.
- So Laurie did his best, and sung delightfully, being in a particularly
- lively humor, for to the Marches he seldom showed the moody side of
- his character. When he was gone, Amy, who had been pensive all the
- evening, said suddenly, as if busy over some new idea-
- "Is Laurie an accomplished boy?"
- "Yes; he has had an excellent education, and his much talent; he
- will make a fine man, if not spoilt by petting," replied her mother.
- "And he isn't conceited, is he?" asked Amy.
- "Not in the least; that is why he is so charming, and we all like
- him so much."
- "I see; it's nice to have accomplishments, and be elegant; but not
- to show off, or get perked up," said Amy thoughtfully.
- "These things are always seen and felt in a person's manner and
- conversation, if modestly used; but it is not necessary to display
- them," said Mrs. March.
- "Any more than it's proper to wear all your bonnets and gowns and
- ribbons at once, that folks may know you've got them," added Jo; and
- the lecture ended in a laugh.
- 8
- Jo meets Apollyon
-
- "GIRLS, where are you going?" asked Amy, coming into their room
- one Saturday afternoon, and finding them getting ready to go out, with
- an air of secrecy which excited her curiosity.
- "Never mind; little girls shouldn't ask questions," returned Jo
- sharply.
- Now if there is anything mortifying to our feelings, when we are
- young, it is to be told that; and to be bidden to "run away, dear," is
- still more trying to us. Amy bridled up at this insult, and determined
- to find out the secret, if she teased for an hour. Turning to Meg, who
- never refused her anything very long, she said coaxingly, "Do tell me!
- I should think you might let me go, too; for Beth is fussing over
- her piano, and I haven't got anything to do, and am so lonely."
- "I can't, dear, because you aren't invited," began Meg; but Jo broke
- in impatiently, "Now, Meg, be quiet, or you will spoil it all. You
- can't go, Amy; so don't be a baby, and whine about it."
- "You are going somewhere with Laurie, I know you are; you were
- whispering and laughing together, on the sofa, last night, and you
- stopped when I came in. Aren't you going with him?"
- "Yes, we are; now do be still, and stop bothering."
- Amy held her tongue, but used her eyes, and saw Meg slip a fan
- into her pocket.
- "I know! I know! you're going to the theater to see the 'Seven
- Castles'!" she cried; adding resolutely, "And I shall go, for mother
- said I might see it; and I've got my rag-money, and it was mean not to
- tell me in time."
- "Just listen to me a minute, and be a good child," said Meg
- soothingly. "Mother doesn't wish you to go this week, because your
- eyes are not well enough yet to bear the light of this fairy piece.
- Next week you can go with Beth and Hannah, and have a nice time."
- "I don't like that half as well as going with you and Laurie. Please
- let me; I've been sick with this cold so long, and shut up, I'm
- dying for some fun. Do, Meg! I'll be ever so good," pleaded Amy,
- looking as pathetic as she could.
- "Suppose we take her. I don't believe mother would mind, if we
- bundle her up well," began Meg.
- "If she goes I shan't; and if I don't, Laurie won't like it; and
- it will be very rude, after he invited only us, to go and drag in Amy.
- I should think she'd hate to poke herself where she isn't wanted,"
- said Jo crossly, for she disliked the trouble of overseeing a
- fidgety child, when she wanted to enjoy herself.
- Her tone and manner angered Amy, who began to put her boots on,
- saying, in her most aggravating way, "I shall go; Meg says I may;
- and if I pay for myself, Laurie hasn't anything to do with it."
- "You can't sit with us, for our seats are reserved, and you
- mustn't sit alone; so Laurie will give you his place, and that will
- spoil our pleasure; or he'll get another seat for you, and that
- isn't proper, when you weren't asked. You shan't stir a step; so you
- may just stay where you are," scolded Jo, crosser than ever, having
- just pricked her finger in her hurry.
- Sitting on the floor, with one boot on, Amy began to cry, and Meg to
- reason with her, when Laurie called from below, and the two girls
- hurried down, leaving their sister wailing; for now and then she
- forgot her grownup ways, and acted like a spoilt child. Just as the
- party was setting out, Amy called over the banisters, in a threatening
- tone, "You'll be sorry for this, Jo March; see if you ain't."
- "Fiddlesticks!" returned Jo, slamming the door.
- They had a charming time, for "The Seven Castles of the Diamond
- Lake" were as brilliant and wonderful as heart could wish. But, in
- spite of the comical red imps, sparkling elves, and gorgeous princes
- and princesses, Jo's pleasure had a drop of bitterness in it; the
- fairy queen's yellow curls reminded her of Amy; and between the acts
- she amused herself with wondering what her sister would do to make her
- "sorry for it." She and Amy had had many lively skirmishes in the
- course of their lives, for both had quick tempers, and were apt to
- be violent when fairly roused. Amy teased Jo, and Jo irritated Amy,
- and semi-occasional explosions occurred, of which both were much
- ashamed afterward. Although the oldest, Jo had the least self-control,
- and had hard times trying to curb the fiery spirit which was
- continually getting her into trouble; her anger never lasted long,
- and, having humbly confessed her fault, she sincerely repented, and
- tried to do better. Her sisters used to say that they rather liked
- to get Jo into a fury, because she was such an angel afterward. Poor
- Jo tried desperately to be good, but her bosom enemy was always
- ready to flame up and defeat her; and it took years of patient
- effort to subdue it.
- When they got home, they found Amy reading in the parlor. She
- assumed an injured air as they came in; never lifted her eyes from her
- book, or asked a single question. Perhaps curiosity might have
- conquered resentment, if Beth had not been there to inquire, and
- receive a glowing description of the play. On going up to put away her
- best hat, Jo's first look was toward the bureau; for, in their last
- quarrel, Amy had soothed her feelings by turning Jo's top drawer
- upside down on the floor. Everything was in its place, however; and
- after a hasty glance into her various closets, bags, and boxes, Jo
- decided that Amy had forgiven and forgotten her wrongs.
- There Jo was mistaken; for next day she made a discovery which
- produced a tempest. Meg, Beth, and Amy were sitting together, late
- in the afternoon, when Jo burst into the room, looking excited, and
- demanding breathlessly, "Has any one taken my book?"
- Meg and Beth said "No," at once, and looked surprised; Amy poked the
- fire, and said nothing. Jo saw her color rise, and was down upon her
- in a minute.
- "Amy, you've got it!"
- "No, I haven't."
- "You know where it is, then!"
- "No, I don't."
- "That's a fib!" cried Jo, taking her by the shoulders, and looking
- fierce enough to frighten a much braver child than Amy.
- "It isn't. I haven't got it, don't know where it is now, and don't
- care."
- "You know something about it, and you'd better tell at once, or I'll
- make you," and Jo gave her a slight shake.
- "Scold as much as you like, you'll never see your silly old book
- again," cried Amy, getting excited in her turn.
- "Why not?"
- "I burnt it up."
- "What! my little book I was so fond of, and worked over, and meant
- to finish before father got home? Have you really burnt it?" said
- Jo, turning very pale, while her eyes kindled and her hands clutched
- Amy nervously.
- "Yes, I did! I told you I'd make you pay for being so cross
- yesterday, and I have, so-"
- Amy got no farther, for Jo's hot temper mastered her, and she
- shook Amy till her teeth chattered in her head; crying, in a passion
- of grief and anger-
- "You wicked, wicked girl! I never can write it again, and I'll never
- forgive you as long as I live."
- Meg flew to rescue Amy, and Beth to pacify Jo, but Jo was quite
- beside herself; and, with a parting box on her sister's ear, she
- rushed out of the room up to the old sofa in the garret, and
- finished her fight alone.
- The storm cleared up below, for Mrs. March came home, and, having
- heard the story, soon brought Amy to a sense of the wrong she had done
- her sister. Jo's book was the pride of her heart, and was regarded
- by her family as a literary sprout of great promise. It was only
- half a dozen little fairy tales, but Jo had worked over them
- patiently, putting her whole heart into her work, hoping to make
- something good enough to print. She had just copied them with great
- care, and had destroyed the old manuscript, so that Amy's bonfire
- had consumed the loving work of several years. It seemed a small
- loss to others, but to Jo it was a dreadful calamity, and she felt
- that it never could be made up to her. Beth mourned as for a
- departed kitten, and Meg refused to defend her pet; Mrs. March
- looked grave and grieved, and Amy felt that no one would love her till
- she had asked pardon for the act which she now regretted more than any
- of them.
- When the tea-bell rung, Jo appeared, looking so grim and
- unapproachable that it took all Amy's courage to say meekly-
- "Please forgive me, Jo; I'm very, very sorry."
- "I never shall forgive you," was Jo's stern answer; and, from that
- moment, she ignored Amy entirely.
- No one spoke of the great trouble- not even Mrs. March- for all
- had learned by experience that when Jo was in that mood words were
- wasted; and the wisest course was to wait till some little accident,
- or her own generous nature, softened Jo's resentment, and healed the
- breach. It was not a happy evening; for, though they sewed as usual,
- while their mother read aloud from Bremer, Scott, or Edgeworth,
- something was wanting, and the sweet home-peace was disturbed. They
- felt this most when singing-time came; for Beth could only play, Jo
- stood dumb as a stone, and Amy broke down, so Meg and mother sung
- alone. But, in spite of their efforts to be as cheery as larks, the
- flute-like voices did not seem to chord as well as usual, and all felt
- out of tune.
- As Jo received her good-night kiss, Mrs. March whispered gently-
- "My dear, don't let the sun go down upon your anger; forgive each
- other, help each other, and begin again to-morrow."
- Jo wanted to lay her head down on that motherly bosom and cry her
- grief and anger all away; but tears were an unmanly weakness, and
- she felt so deeply injured that she really couldn't quite forgive yet.
- So she winked hard, shook her head, and said, gruffly because Amy
- was listening-
- "It was an abominable thing, and she don't deserve to be forgiven."
- With that she marched off to bed, and there was no merry or
- confidential gossip that night.
- Amy was much offended that her overtures of peace had been repulsed,
- and began to wish she had not humbled herself, to feel more injured
- than ever, and to plume herself on her superior virtue in a way
- which was particularly exasperating. Jo still looked like a
- thunder-cloud, and nothing went well all day. It was bitter cold in
- the morning; she dropped her precious turn-over in the gutter, Aunt
- March had an attack of fidgets, Meg was pensive, Beth would look
- grieved and wistful when she got home, and Amy kept making remarks
- about people who were always talking about being good, and yet
- wouldn't try, when other people set them a virtuous example.
- "Everybody is so hateful, I'll ask Laurie to go skating. He is
- always kind and jolly, and will put me to rights, I know," said Jo
- to herself, and off she went.
- Amy heard the clash of skates, and looked out with an impatient
- exclamation "There! she promised I should go next time, for this is
- the last ice we shall have. But it's no use to ask such a
- cross-patch to take me."
- "Don't say that; you were very naughty, and it is hard to forgive
- the loss of her precious little book; but I think she might do it now,
- and I guess she will, if you try her at the right minute," said Meg.
- "Go after them; don't say anything till Jo has got good-natured with
- Laurie, then take a quiet minute, and just kiss her, or do some kind
- thing, and I'm sure she'll be friends again, with all her heart."
- "I'll try," said Amy, for the advice suited her; and, after a flurry
- to get ready, she ran after the friends, who were just disappearing
- over the hill.
- It was not far to the river, but both were ready before Amy
- reached them. Jo saw her coming, and turned her back; Laurie did not
- see, for he was carefully skating along the shore, sounding the ice,
- for a warm spell had preceded the cold snap.
- "I'll go on to the first bend, and see if it's all right, before
- we begin to race," Amy heard him say, as he shot away, looking like
- a young Russian, in his fur-trimmed coat and cap.
- Jo heard Amy panting after her run, stamping her feet and blowing
- her fingers, as she tried to put her skates on; but Jo never turned,
- and went slowly zigzagging down the river, taking a bitter, unhappy
- sort of satisfaction in her sister's troubles. She had cherished her
- anger till it grew strong, and took possession of her, as evil
- thoughts and feelings always do, unless cast out at once. As Laurie
- turned the bend, he shouted back-
- "Keep near the shore; it isn't safe in the middle."
- Jo heard, but Amy was just struggling to her feet, and did not catch
- a word. Jo glanced over her shoulder, and the little demon she was
- harboring said in her ear-
- "No matter whether she heard or not, let her take care of herself."
- Laurie had vanished round the bend; Jo was just at the turn, and
- Amy, far behind, striking out toward the smoother ice in the middle of
- the river. For a minute Jo stood still, with a strange feeling at
- her heart; then she resolved to go on, but something held and turned
- her round, just in time to see Amy throw up her hands and go down,
- with the sudden crash of rotten ice, the splash of water, and a cry
- that made Jo's heart stand still with fear. She tried to call
- Laurie, but her voice was gone; she tried to rush forward, but her
- feet seemed to have no strength in them; and, for a second, she
- could only stand motionless, staring, with a terror-stricken face,
- at the little blue hood above the black water. Something rushed
- swiftly by her, and Laurie's voice cried out-
- "Bring a rail; quick, quick!"
- How she did it, she never knew; but for the next few minutes she
- worked as if possessed, blindly obeying Laurie, who was quite
- self-possessed, and, lying flat, held Amy up by his arm and hockey
- till Jo dragged a rail from the fence, and together they got the child
- out, more frightened than hurt.
- "Now then, we must walk her home as fast as we can; pile our
- things on her, while I get off these confounded skates," cried Laurie,
- wrapping his coat round Amy, and tugging away at the straps, which
- never seemed so intricate before.
- Shivering, dripping, and crying, they got Amy home; and, after an
- exciting time of it, she fell asleep, rolled in blankets, before a hot
- fire. During the bustle Jo had scarcely spoken; but flown about,
- looking pale and wild, with her things half off, her dress torn, and
- her hands cut and bruised by ice and rails, and refractory buckles.
- When Amy was comfortably asleep, the house quiet, and Mrs. March
- sitting by the bed, she called Jo to her, and began to bind up the
- hurt hands.
- "Are you sure she is safe?" whispered Jo, looking remorsefully at
- the golden head, which might have been swept away from her sight
- forever under the treacherous ice.
- "Quite safe, dear; she is not hurt, and won't even take cold, I
- think, you were so sensible in covering and getting her home quickly,"
- replied her mother cheerfully.
- "Laurie did it all; I only let her go. Mother, if she should die, it
- would be my fault"; and Jo dropped down beside the bed, in a passion
- of penitent tears, telling all that had happened, bitterly
- condemning her hardness of heart, and sobbing out her gratitude for
- being spared the heavy punishment which might have come upon her.
- "It's my dreadful temper! I try to cure it; I think I have, and then
- it breaks out worse than ever. O mother, what shall I do? what shall I
- do?" cried poor Jo, in despair.
- "Watch and pray, dear; never get tired of trying; and never think it
- is impossible to conquer your fault," said Mrs. March, drawing the
- blowzy head to her shoulder, and kissing the wet cheek so tenderly
- that Jo cried harder than ever.
- "You don't know, you can't guess how bad it is! It seems as if I
- could do anything when I'm in a passion; I get so savage, I could hurt
- any one, and enjoy it. I'm afraid I shall do something dreadful some
- day, and spoil my life, and make everybody hate me. O mother, help me,
- do help me!"
- "I will, my child, I will. Don't cry so bitterly, but remember
- this day, and resolve, with all your soul, that you will never know
- another like it. Jo, dear, we all have our temptations, some far
- greater than yours, and it often takes us all our lives to conquer
- them. You think your temper is the worst in the world; but mine used
- to be just like it."
- "Yours, mother? Why, you are never angry!" and, for the moment, Jo
- forgot remorse in surprise.
- "I've been trying to cure it for forty years, and have only
- succeeded in controlling it. I am angry nearly every day of my life,
- Jo; but I have learned not to show it; and I still hope to learn not
- to feel it, though it may take me another forty years to do so."
- The patience and the humility of the face she loved so well was a
- better lesson to Jo than the wisest lecture, the sharpest reproof. She
- felt comforted at once by the sympathy and confidence given her; the
- knowledge that her mother had a fault like hers, and tried to mend it,
- made her own easier to bear and strengthened her resolution to cure
- it; though forty years seemed rather a long time to watch and pray, to
- a girl of fifteen.
- "Mother, are you angry when you fold your lips tight together, and
- go out of the room sometimes, when Aunt March scolds, or people
- worry you?" asked Jo, feeling nearer and dearer to her mother than
- ever before.
- "Yes, I've learned to check the hasty words that rise to my lips;
- and when I feel that they mean to break out against my will, I just go
- away a minute, and give myself a little shake, for being so weak and
- wicked," answered Mrs. March, with a sigh and a smile, as she smoothed
- and fastened up Jo's dishevelled hair.
- "How did you learn to keep still? That is what troubles me- for
- the sharp words fly out before I know what I'm about; and the more I
- say the worse I get, till it's a pleasure to hurt people's feelings,
- and say dreadful things. Tell me how you do it, Marmee dear."
- "My good mother used to help me-"
- "As you do us-" interrupted Jo, with a grateful kiss.
- "But I lost her when I was a little older than you are, and for
- years had to struggle on alone, for I was too proud to confess my
- weakness to any one else. I had a hard time, Jo, and shed a good
- many bitter tears over my failures; for, in spite of my efforts, I
- never seemed to get on. Then your father came, and I was so happy that
- I found it easy to be good. But by and by, when I had four little
- daughters round me, and we were poor, then the old trouble began
- again; for I am not patient by nature, and it tried me very much to
- see my children wanting anything."
- "Poor mother! what helped you then?"
- "Your father, Jo. He never loses patience- never doubts or
- complains- but always hopes, and works and waits so cheerfully, that
- one is ashamed to do otherwise before him. He helped and comforted me,
- and showed me that I must try to practise all the virtues I would have
- my little girls possess, for I was their example. It was easier to try
- for your sakes than for my own; a startled or surprised look from
- one of you, when I spoke sharply, rebuked me more than any words could
- have done; and the love, respect, and confidence of my children was
- the sweetest reward I could receive for my efforts to be the woman I
- would have them copy."
- "O mother, if I'm ever half as good as you, I shall be satisfied,"
- cried Jo, much touched.
- "I hope you will be a great deal better, dear; but you must keep
- watch over your 'bosom enemy,' as father calls it, or it may sadden,
- if not spoil your life. You have had a warning; remember it, and try
- with heart and soul to master this quick temper, before it brings
- you greater sorrow and regret than you have known to-day."
- "I will try, mother; I truly will. But you must help me, remind
- me, and keep me from flying out. I used to see father sometimes put
- his finger on his lips, and look at you with a very kind, but sober
- face, and you always folded your lips tight or went away: was he
- reminding you then?" asked Jo softly.
- "Yes; I asked him to help me so, and he never forgot it, but saved
- me from many a sharp word by that little gesture and kind look."
- Jo saw that her mother's eyes filled and her lips trembled, as she
- spoke; and, fearing that she had said too much, she whispered
- anxiously, "Was it wrong to watch you, and to speak of it? I didn't
- mean to be rude, but it's so comfortable to say all I think to you,
- and feel so safe and happy here."
- "My Jo, you may say anything to your mother, for it is my greatest
- happiness and pride to feel that my girls confide in me, and know
- how much I love them."
- "I thought I'd grieved you."
- "No, dear; but speaking of father reminded me how much I miss him,
- how much I owe him, and how faithfully I should watch and work to keep
- his little daughters safe and good for him."
- "Yet you told him to go, mother, and didn't cry when he went, and
- never complain now, or seem as if you needed any help," said Jo,
- wondering.
- "I gave my best to the country I love, and kept my tears till he was
- gone. Why should I complain, when we both have merely done our duty
- and will surely be the happier for it in the end? If I don't seem to
- need help, it is because I have a better friend, even than father,
- to comfort and sustain me. My child, the troubles and temptations of
- your life are beginning, and may be many; but you can overcome and
- outlive them all if you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of
- your Heavenly Father as you do that of your earthly one. The more
- you love and trust Him, the nearer you will feel to Him, and the
- less you will depend on human power and wisdom. His love and care
- never tire or change, can never be taken from you, but may become
- the source of life-long peace, happiness, and strength. Believe this
- heartily, and go to God with all your little cares, and hopes, and
- sins, and sorrows, as freely and confidingly as you come to your
- mother."
- Jo's only answer was to hold her mother close, and, in the silence
- which followed, the sincerest prayer she had ever prayed left her
- heart without words; for in that sad, yet happy hour, she had
- learned not only the bitterness of remorse and despair, but the
- sweetness of self-denial and self-control; and, led by her mother's
- hand, she had drawn nearer to the Friend who welcomes every child with
- a love stronger than that of any father, tenderer than that of any
- mother.
- Amy stirred, and sighed in her sleep; and, as if eager to begin at
- once to mend her fault, Jo looked up with an expression on her face
- which it had never worn before.
- "I let the sun go down on my anger; I wouldn't forgive her, and
- to-day, if it hadn't been for Laurie, it might have been too late! How
- could I be so wicked?" said Jo, half aloud, as she leaned over her
- sister, softly stroking the wet hair scattered on the pillow.
- As if she heard, Amy opened her eyes, and held out her arms, with
- a smile that went straight to Jo's heart. Neither said a word, but
- they hugged one another close, in spite of the blankets, and
- everything was forgiven and forgotten in one hearty kiss.
- 9
- Meg Goes to Vanity Fair
-
- "I DO think it was the most fortunate thing in the world that
- those children should have the measles just now," said Meg, one
- April day, as she stood packing the "go abroady" trunk in her room,
- surrounded by her sisters.
- "And so nice of Annie Moffat not to forget her promise. A whole
- fortnight of fun will be regularly splendid," replied Jo, looking like
- a windmill, as she folded skirts with her long arms.
- "And such lovely weather; I'm so glad of that," added Beth, tidily
- sorting neck and hair ribbons in her best box, lent for the great
- occasion.
- "I wish I was going to have a fine time, and wear all these nice
- things," said Amy, with her mouth full of pins, as she artistically
- replenished her sister's cushion.
- "I wish you were all going; but, as you can't, I shall keep my
- adventures to tell you when I come back. I'm sure it's the least I can
- do, when you have been so kind, lending me things, and helping me
- get ready," said Meg, glancing round the room at the very simple
- outfit, which seemed nearly perfect in their eyes.
- "What did mother give you out of the treasure-box?" asked Amy, who
- had not been present at the opening of a certain cedar chest, in which
- Mrs. March kept a few relics of past splendor, as gifts for her
- girls when the proper time came.
- "A pair of silk stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a lovely blue
- sash. I wanted the violet silk; but there isn't time to make it
- over, so I must be contented with my old tarlatan."
- "It will look nicely over my new muslin skirt, and the sash will set
- it off beautifully. I wish I hadn't smashed my coral bracelet, for you
- might have had it," said Jo, who loved to give and lend, but whose
- possessions were usually too dilapidated to be of much use.
- "There is a lovely old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure-box;
- but mother said real flowers were the prettiest ornament for a young
- girl, and Laurie promises to send me all I want," replied Meg. "Now,
- let me see; there's my new gray walking-suit- just curl up the feather
- in my hat, Beth- then my poplin, for Sunday, and the small party- it
- looks heavy for spring, doesn't it? The violet silk would be so
- nice; oh, dear!"
- "Never mind; you've got the tarlatan for the big party, and you
- always look like an angel in white," said Amy, brooding over the
- little store of finery in which her soul delighted.
- "It isn't low-necked, and it doesn't sweep enough, but it will
- have to do. My blue house-dress looks so well, turned and freshly
- trimmed, that I feel as if I'd got a new one. My silk sacque isn't a
- bit the fashion, and my bonnet doesn't look like Sallie's; I didn't
- like to say anything, but I was sadly disappointed in my umbrella, I
- told mother black, with a white handle, but she forgot, and bought a
- green one, with a yellowish handle. It's strong and neat, so I ought
- not to complain, but I know I shall feel ashamed of it beside
- Annie's silk one with a gold top," sighed Meg, surveying the little
- umbrella with great disfavor.
- "Change it," advised Jo.
- "I won't be so silly, or hurt Marmee's feelings, when she took so
- much pains to get my things. It's a nonsensical notion of mine, and
- I'm not going to give up to it. My silk stockings and two pairs of new
- gloves are my comfort. You are a dear, to lend me yours, Jo. I feel so
- rich, and sort of elegant, with two new pairs, and the old ones
- cleaned up for common"; and Meg took a refreshing peep at her
- glove-box.
- "Annie Moffat has blue and pink bows on her nightcaps; would you put
- some on mine?" she asked, as Beth brought up a pile of snowy
- muslins, fresh from Hannah's hands.
- "No, I wouldn't; for the smart caps won't match the plain gowns,
- without any trimming on them. Poor folks shouldn't rig," said Jo
- decidedly.
- "I wonder if I shall ever be happy enough to have real lace on my
- clothes, and bows on my caps?" said Meg impatiently.
- "You said the other day that you'd be perfectly happy if you could
- only go to Annie Moffat's," observed Beth, in her quiet way.
- "So I did! Well, I am happy, and I won't fret; but it does seem as
- if the more one gets the more one wants, doesn't it? There, now, the
- trays are ready, and everything in but my ball-dress, which I shall
- leave for mother to pack," said Meg, cheering up, as she glanced
- from the half-filled trunk to the many-times pressed and mended
- white tarlatan, which she called her "ball-dress," with an important
- air.
- The next day was fine, and Meg departed, in style, for a fortnight
- of novelty and pleasure. Mrs. March had consented to the visit
- rather reluctantly, fearing that Margaret would come back more
- discontented than she went. But she had begged so hard, and Sallie had
- promised to take good care of her, and a little pleasure seemed so
- delightful after a winter of irksome work, that the mother yielded,
- and the daughter went to take her first taste of fashionable life.
- The Moffats were very fashionable, and simple Meg was rather
- daunted, at first, by the splendor of the house and the elegance of
- its occupants. But they were kindly people, in spite of the
- frivolous life they led, and soon put their guest at her ease. Perhaps
- Meg felt, without understanding why, that they were not particularly
- cultivated or intelligent people, and that all their gilding could not
- quite conceal the ordinary material of which they were made. It
- certainly was agreeable to fare sumptuously, drive in a fine carriage,
- wear her best frock every day, and do nothing but enjoy herself. It
- suited her exactly; and soon she began to imitate the manners and
- conversation of those about her; to put on little airs and graces, use
- French phrases, crimp her hair, take in her dresses, and talk about
- the fashions as well as she could. The more she saw of Annie
- Moffat's pretty things, the more she envied her, and sighed to be
- rich. Home now looked bare and dismal as she thought of it, work
- grew harder than ever, and she felt that she was a very destitute
- and much-injured girl, in spite of the new gloves and silk stockings.
- She had not much time for repining, however, for the three young
- girls were busily employed in "having a good time." They shopped,
- walked, rode, and called all day; went to theaters and operas, or
- frolicked at home in the evening; for Annie had many friends, and knew
- how to entertain them. Her older sisters were very fine young
- ladies, and one was engaged, which was extremely interesting and
- romantic, Meg thought. Mr. Moffat was a fat, jolly old gentleman,
- who knew her father; and Mrs. Moffat, a fat, jolly old lady, who
- took as great a fancy to Meg as her daughter had done. Every one
- petted her; and "Daisy," as they called her, was in a fair way to have
- her head turned.
- When the evening for the "small party" came, she found that the
- poplin wouldn't do at all, for the other girls were putting on thin
- dresses, and making themselves very fine indeed; so out came the
- tarlatan, looking older, limper, and shabbier than ever beside
- Sallie's crisp new one. Meg saw the girls glance at it and then at one
- another, and her cheeks began to burn, for, with all her gentleness,
- she was very proud. No one said a word about it, but Sallie offered to
- dress her hair, and Annie to tie her sash, and Belle, the engaged
- sister, praised her white arms; but in their kindness Meg saw only
- pity for her poverty, and her heart felt very heavy as she stood by
- herself, while the others laughed, chattered, and flew about like
- gauzy butterflies. The hard, bitter feeling was getting pretty bad,
- when the maid brought in a box of flowers. Before she could speak,
- Annie had the cover off, and all were exclaiming at the lovely
- roses, heath, and fern within.
- "It's for Belle, of course; George always sends her some, but
- these are altogether ravishing," cried Annie, with a great sniff.
- "They are for Miss March, the man said. And here's a note," put in
- the maid, holding it to Meg.
- "What fun! Who are they from? Didn't know you had a lover," cried
- the girls, fluttering about Meg in a high state of curiosity and
- surprise.
- "The note is from mother, and the flowers from Laurie," said Meg
- simply, yet much gratified that he had not forgotten her.
- "Oh, indeed!" said Annie, with a funny look, as Meg slipped the note
- into her pocket, as a sort of talisman against envy, vanity, and false
- pride; for the few loving words had done her good, and the flowers
- cheered her up by their beauty.
- Feeling almost happy again, she laid by a few ferns and roses for
- herself, and quickly made up the rest in dainty bouquets for the
- breasts, hair, or skirts of her friends, offering them so prettily
- that Clara, the elder sister, told her she was "the sweetest little
- thing she ever saw"; and they looked quite charmed with her small
- attention. Somehow the kind act finished her despondency; and when all
- the rest went to show themselves to Mrs. Moffat, she saw a happy,
- bright-eyed face in the mirror, as she laid her ferns against her
- rippling hair, and fastened the roses in the dress that didn't
- strike her as so very shabby now.
- She enjoyed herself very much that evening, for she danced to her
- heart's content; every one was very kind, and she had three
- compliments. Annie made her sing, and some one said she had a
- remarkably fine voice; Major Lincoln asked who "the fresh little girl,
- with the beautiful eyes," was; and Mr. Moffat insisted on dancing with
- her, because she "didn't dawdle, but had some spring in her," as he
- gracefully expressed it. So, altogether, she had a very nice time,
- till she overheard a bit of a conversation, which disturbed her
- extremely. She was sitting just inside the conservatory, waiting for
- her partner to bring her an ice, when she heard a voice ask, on the
- other side of the flowery wall, "How old is he?"
- "Sixteen or seventeen, I should say," replied another voice.
- "It would be a grand thing for one of those girls, wouldn't it?
- Sallie says they are very intimate now, and the old man quite dotes on
- them."
- "Mrs. M. has made her plans, I dare say, and will play her cards
- well, early as it is. The girl evidently doesn't think of it yet,"
- said Mrs. Moffat.
- "She told that fib about her mamma, as if she did know, and
- colored up when the flowers came, quite prettily. Poor thing! she'd be
- so nice if she was only got up in style. Do you think she'd be
- offended if we offered to lend her a dress for Thursday?" asked
- another voice.
- "She's proud, but I don't believe she'd mind, for that dowdy
- tarlatan is all she has got. She may tear it to-night, and that will
- be a good excuse for offering a decent one."
- "We'll see. I shall ask young Laurence, as a compliment to her,
- and we'll have fun about it afterward."
- Here Meg's partner appeared, to find her looking much flushed and
- rather agitated. She was proud, and her pride was useful just then,
- for it helped her hide her mortification, anger, and disgust at what
- she had just heard; for, innocent and unsuspicious as she was, she
- could not help understanding the gossip of her friends, She tried to
- forget it, but could not, and kept repeating to herself, "Mrs. M.
- has made her plans," "that fib about her mamma," and "dowdy tarlatan,"
- till she was ready to cry, and rush home to tell her troubles and
- ask for advice. As that was impossible, she did her best to seem
- gay; and, being rather excited, she succeeded so well that no one
- dreamed what an effort she was making. She was very glad when it was
- all over, and she was quiet in her bed, where she could think and
- wonder and fume till her head ached and her hot cheeks were cooled
- by a few natural tears. Those foolish, yet well-meant words, had
- opened a new world to Meg, and much disturbed the peace of the old
- one, in which, till now, she had lived as happily as a child. Her
- innocent friendship with Laurie was spoilt by the silly speeches she
- had overheard; her faith in her mother was a little shaken by the
- worldly plans attributed to her by Mrs. Moffat, who judged others by
- herself; and the sensible resolution to be contented with the simple
- wardrobe which suited a poor man's daughter, was weakened by the
- unnecessary pity of girls who thought a shabby dress one of the
- greatest calamities under heaven.
- Poor Meg had a restless night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy,
- half resentful toward her friends, and half ashamed of herself for not
- speaking out frankly, and setting everything right. Everybody
- dawdled that morning, and it was noon before the girls found energy
- enough even to take up their worsted work. Something in the manner
- of her friends struck Meg at once; they treated her with more respect,
- she thought; took quite a tender interest in what she said, and looked
- at her with eyes that plainly betrayed curiosity. All this surprised
- and flattered her, though she did not understand it till Miss Belle
- looked up from her writing, and said, with a sentimental air-
- "Daisy, dear, I've sent an invitation to your friend, Mr.
- Laurence, for Thursday. We should like to know him, and it's only a
- proper compliment to you."
- Meg colored, but a mischievous fancy to tease the girls made her
- reply demurely-
- "You are very kind, but I'm afraid he won't come."
- "Why not, cherie?" asked Miss Belle.
- "He's too old."
- "My child, what do you mean? What is his age, I beg to know!"
- cried Miss Clara.
- "Nearly seventy, I believe," answered Meg, counting stitches, to
- hide the merriment in her eyes.
- "You sly creature! Of course we meant the young man," exclaimed Miss
- Belle, laughing.
- "There isn't any; Laurie is only a little boy," and Meg laughed also
- at the queer look which the sisters exchanged as she thus described
- her supposed lover.
- "About your age," Nan said.
- "Nearer my sister Jo's; I am seventeen in August," returned Meg,
- tossing her head.
- "It's very nice of him to send you flowers, isn't it?" said Annie,
- looking wise about nothing.
- "Yes, he often does, to all of us; for their house is full, and we
- are so fond of them. My mother and old Mr. Laurence are friends, you
- know, so it is quite natural that we children should play together";
- and Meg hoped they would say no more.
- "It's evident Daisy isn't out yet," said Miss Clara to Belle, with a
- nod.
- "Quite a pastoral state of innocence all round," returned Miss
- Belle, with a shrug.
- "I'm going out to get some little matters for my girls; can I do
- anything for you, young ladies?" asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering in, like
- an elephant, in silk and lace.
- "No, thank you, ma'am," replied Sallie. "I've got my new pink silk
- for Thursday, and don't want a thing."
- "Nor I-" began Meg, but stopped, because it occurred to her that she
- did want several things, and could not have them.
- "What shall you wear?" asked Sallie. "My old white one again, if I
- can mend it fit to be seen; it got sadly torn last night," said Meg,
- trying to speak quite easily, but feeling very uncomfortable.
- "Why don't you send home for another?" said Sallie, who was not an
- observing young lady.
- "I haven't got any other." It cost Meg an effort to say that, but
- Sallie did not see it, and exclaimed, in amiable surprise-
- "Only that? How funny-" She did not finish her speech, for Belle
- shook her head at her, and broke in, saying kindly-
- "Not at all; where is the use of having a lot of dresses when she
- isn't out? There's no need of sending home, Daisy, even if you had a
- dozen, for I've got a sweet blue silk laid away, which I've
- outgrown, and you shall wear it, to please me, won't you, dear?"
- "You are very kind, but I don't mind my old dress, if you don't;
- it does well enough for a little girl like me," said Meg.
- "Now do let me please myself by dressing you up in style. I admire
- to do it, and you'd be a regular little beauty, with a touch here
- and there. I shan't let any one see you till you are done, and then
- we'll burst upon them like Cinderella and her godmother, going to
- the ball," said Belle, in her persuasive tone.
- Meg couldn't refuse the offer so kindly made, for a desire to see if
- she would be "a little beauty" after touching up, caused her to
- accept, and forget all her former uncomfortable feelings towards the
- Moffats.
- On the Thursday evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid; and,
- between them, they turned Meg into a fine lady. They crimped and
- curled her hair, they polished her neck and arms with some fragrant
- powder, touched her lips with coralline salve, to make them redder,
- and Hortense would have added "a soupcon of rouge," if Meg had not
- rebelled. They laced her into a sky-blue dress, which was so tight she
- could hardly breathe, and so low in the neck that modest Meg blushed
- at herself in the mirror. A set of silver filagree was added,
- bracelets, necklace, brooch, and even earrings; for Hortense tied them
- on, with a bit of pink silk, which did not show. A cluster of
- tea-rosebuds at the bosom, and a ruche, reconciled Meg to the
- display of her pretty white shoulders, and a pair of high-heeled
- blue silk boots satisfied the last wish of her heart. A laced
- handkerchief, a plumy fan, and a bouquet in a silver holder finished
- her off; and Miss Belle surveyed her with the satisfaction of a little
- girl with a newly dressed doll.
- "Mademoiselle is charmante, tres jolie, is she not?" cried Hortense,
- clasping her hands in an affected rapture.
- "Come and show yourself," said Miss Belle, leading the way to the
- room where the others were waiting.
- As Meg went rustling after, with her long skirts trailing, her
- earrings tinkling, her curls waving, and her heart beating, she felt
- as if her "fun" had really begun at last, for the mirror had plainly
- told her that she was "a little beauty." Her friends repeated the
- pleasing phrase enthusiastically; and, for several minutes, she stood,
- like the jackdaw in the fable, enjoying her borrowed plumes, while the
- rest chattered like a party of magpies.
- "While I dress, do you drill her, Nan, in the management of her
- skirt, and those French heels, or she will trip herself up. Take
- your silver butterfly, and catch up that long curl on the left side of
- her head, Clara, and don't any of you disturb the charming work of
- my hands," said Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased
- with her success.
- "I'm afraid to go down, I feel so queer and stiff and half-dressed,"
- said Meg to Sallie, as the bell rang, and Mrs. Moffat sent to ask
- the young ladies to appear at once.
- "You don't look a bit like yourself, but you are very nice. I'm
- nowhere beside you, for Belle has heaps of taste, and you're quite
- French, I assure you. Let your flowers hang; don't be so careful of
- them, and be sure you don't trip," returned Sallie, trying not to care
- that Meg was prettier than herself.
- Keeping that warning carefully in mind, Margaret got safely down
- stairs, and sailed into the drawing-rooms, where the Moffats and a few
- early guests were assembled. She very soon discovered that there is
- a charm about fine clothes which attracts a certain class of people,
- and secures their respect. Several young ladies, who had taken no
- notice of her before, were very affectionate all of a sudden;
- several young gentlemen, who had only stared at her at the other
- party, now not only stared, but asked to be introduced, and said all
- manner of foolish but agreeable things to her; and several old ladies,
- who sat on sofas, and criticized the rest of the party, inquired who
- she was, with an air of interest. She heard Mrs. Moffat reply to one
- of them-
- "Daisy March- father a colonel in the army- one of our first
- families, but reverses of fortune, you know; intimate friends of the
- Laurences; sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned is quite wild about
- her."
- "Dear me!" said the old lady, putting up her glass for another
- observation of Meg, who tried to look as if she had not heard, and
- been rather shocked at Mrs. Moffat's fibs.
- The "queer feeling" did not pass away, but she imagined herself
- acting the new part of fine lady, and so got on pretty well, though
- the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the train kept getting under her
- feet, and she was in constant fear lest her ear-rings should fly
- off, and get lost or broken. She was flirting her fan, and laughing at
- the feeble jokes of a young gentleman who tried to be witty, when
- she suddenly stopped laughing, and looked confused; for, just
- opposite, she saw Laurie. He was staring at her with undisguised
- surprise, and disapproval also, she thought; for, though he bowed
- and smiled, yet something in his honest eyes made her blush, and
- wish she had her old dress on. To complete her confusion, she saw
- Belle nudge Annie, and both glance from her to Laurie, who, she was
- happy to see, looked unusually boyish and shy.
- "Silly creatures, to put such thoughts into my head! I won't care
- for it, or let it change me a bit," thought Meg, and rustled across
- the room to shake hands with her friend.
- "I'm glad you came, I was afraid you wouldn't," she said, with her
- most grown-up air.
- "Jo wanted me to come, and tell her how you looked, so I did,"
- answered Laurie, without turning his eyes upon her, though he half
- smiled at her maternal tone.
- "What shall you tell her?" asked Meg, full of curiosity to know
- his opinion of her, yet feeling ill at ease with him, for the first
- time.
- "I shall say I didn't know you; for you look so grown-up, and unlike
- yourself, I'm quite afraid of you," he said, fumbling at his
- glove-button.
- "How absurd of you! The girls dressed me up for fun, and I rather
- like it. Wouldn't Jo stare if she saw me?" said Meg, bent on making
- him say whether he thought her improved or not.
- "Yes, I think she would," returned Laurie gravely.
- "Don't you like me so?" asked Meg.
- "No, I don't," was the blunt reply.
- "Why not?" in an anxious tone.
- He glanced at her frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantastically
- trimmed dress, with an expression that abashed her more than his
- answer, which had not a particle of his usual politeness about it.
- "I don't like fuss and feathers."
- That was altogether too much from a lad younger than herself; and
- Meg walked away, saying petulantly-
- "You are the rudest boy I ever saw."
- Feeling very much ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window,
- to cool her cheeks, for the tight dress gave her an uncomfortably
- brilliant color. As she stood there, Major Lincoln passed by; and, a
- minute after, she heard him saying to his mother-
- "They are making a fool of that little girl; I wanted you to see
- her, but they have spoilt her entirely; she's nothing but a doll,
- to-night."
- "Oh, dear!" sighed Meg; "I wish I'd been sensible, and worn my own
- things; then I should not have disgusted other people, or felt so
- uncomfortable and ashamed myself." She leaned her forehead on the cool
- pane, and stood half hidden by the curtains, never minding that her
- favorite waltz had begun, till some one touched her; and, turning, she
- saw Laurie, looking penitent, as he said, with his very best bow,
- and his hand out-
- "Please forgive my rudeness, and come and dance with me."
- "I'm afraid it will be too disagreeable to you," said Meg, trying to
- look offended, and failing entirely.
- "Not a bit of it; I'm dying to do it. Come, I'll be good; I don't
- like your gown, but I do think you are- just splendid"; and he waved
- his hands, as if words failed to express his admiration.
- Meg smiled and relented, and whispered, as they stood waiting to
- catch the time-
- "Take care my skirt don't trip you up; it's the plague of my life
- and I was a goose to wear it."
- "Pin it round your neck, and then it will be useful," said Laurie,
- looking down at the little blue boots, which he evidently approved of.
- Away they went, fleetly and gracefully; for, having practised at
- home, they were well matched, and the blithe young couple were a
- pleasant sight to see, as they twirled merrily round and round,
- feeling more friendly than ever after their small tiff.
- "Laurie, I want you to do me a favor; will you?" said Meg, as he
- stood fanning her, when her breath gave out, which it did very soon,
- though she would not own why.
- "Won't I!" said Laurie, with alacrity.
- "Please don't tell them at home about my dress to-night. They
- won't understand the joke, and it will worry mother."
- "Then why did you do it?" said Laurie's eyes, so plainly that Meg
- hastily added-
- "I shall tell them, myself, all about it, and ''fess' to mother
- how silly I've been. But I'd rather do it myself; so you'll not
- tell, will you?"
- "I give you my word I won't; only what shall I say when they ask
- me?"
- "Just say I looked pretty well, and was having a good time."
- "I'll say the first, with all my heart; but how about the other? You
- don't look as if you were having a good time; are you?" and Laurie
- looked at her with an expression which made her answer, in a whisper-
- "No; not just now. Don't think I'm horrid; I only wanted a little
- fun, but this sort doesn't pay, I find, and I'm getting tired of it."
- "Here comes Ned Moffat; what does he want?" said Laurie, knitting
- his black brows, as if he did not regard his young host in the light
- of a pleasant addition to the party.
- "He put his name down for three dances, and I suppose he's coming
- for them. What a bore!" said Meg, assuming a languid air, which amused
- Laurie immensely.
- He did not speak to her again till supper-time, when he saw her
- drinking champagne with Ned and his friend Fisher, who were behaving
- "like a pair of fools," as Laurie said to himself, for he felt a
- brotherly sort of right to watch over the Marches, and fight their
- battles whenever a defender was needed.
- "You'll have a splitting headache to-morrow, if you drink much of
- that. I wouldn't, Meg; your mother doesn't like it, you know," he
- whispered, leaning over her chair, as Ned turned to refill her
- glass, and Fisher stooped to pick up her fan.
- "I'm not Meg, to-night; I'm 'a doll,' who does all sorts of crazy
- things. To-morrow I shall put away my 'fuss and feathers, and be
- desperately good again," she answered, with an affected little laugh.
- "Wish to-morrow was here, then," muttered Laurie, walking off, ill
- pleased at the change he saw in her.
- Meg danced and flirted, chattered and giggled, as the other girls
- did; after supper she undertook the German, and blundered through
- it, nearly upsetting her partner with her long skirt, and romping in a
- way that scandalized Laurie, who looked on and meditated a lecture.
- But he got no chance to deliver it, for Meg kept away from him till he
- came to say good-night.
- "Remember!" she said, trying to smile, for the splitting headache
- had already begun.
- "Silence a la mort," replied Laurie, with a melodramatic flourish,
- as he went away.
- This little bit of by-play excited Annie's curiosity; but Meg was
- too tired for gossip, and went to bed, feeling as if she had been to a
- masquerade, and hadn't enjoyed herself as much as she expected. She
- was sick all the next day, and on Saturday went home, quite used up
- with her fortnight's fun, and feeling that she had "sat in the lap
- of luxury" long enough.
- "It does seem pleasant to be quiet, and not have company manners
- on all the time. Home is a nice place, though it isn't splendid," said
- Meg, looking about her with a restful expression, as she sat with
- her mother and Jo on the Sunday evening.
- "I'm glad to hear you say so, dear, for I was afraid home would seem
- dull and poor to you, after your fine quarters," replied her mother,
- who had given her many anxious looks that day; for motherly eyes are
- quick to see any change in children's faces.
- Meg had told her adventures gayly, and said over and over what a
- charming time she had had; but something still seemed to weigh upon
- her spirits, and, when the younger girls were gone to bed, she sat
- thoughtfully staring at the fire, saying little, and looking
- worried. As the clock struck nine, and Jo proposed bed, Meg suddenly
- left her chair, and, taking Beth's stool, leaned her elbows on her
- mother's knee, saying bravely-
- "'Marmee, I want to' 'fess.'"
- "I thought so; what is it, dear?"
- "Shall I go away?" asked Jo discreetly.
- "Of course not; don't I always tell you everything? I was ashamed to
- speak of it before the children, but I want you to know all the
- dreadful things I did at the Moffats."
- "We are prepared," said Mrs. March, smiling, but looking a little
- anxious.
- "I told you they dressed me up, but I didn't tell you that they
- powdered and squeezed and frizzled, and made me look like a
- fashion-plate. Laurie thought I wasn't proper; I know he did, though
- he didn't say so, and one man called me 'a doll.' I knew it was silly,
- but they flattered me, and said I was a beauty, and quantities of
- nonsense, so I let them make a fool of me."
- "Is that all?" asked Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at the
- downcast face of her pretty daughter, and could not find it in her
- heart to blame her little follies.
- "No; I drank champagne and romped and tried to flirt, and was
- altogether abominable," said Meg self-reproachfully.
- "There is something more, I think"; and Mrs. March smoothed the soft
- cheek, which suddenly grew rosy, as Meg answered slowly-
- "Yes; it's very silly, but I want to tell it, because I hate to have
- people say and think such things about us and Laurie."
- Then she told the various bits of gossip she had heard at the
- Moffats'; and, as she spoke, Jo saw her mother fold her lips
- tightly, as if ill pleased that such ideas should be put into Meg's
- innocent mind.
- "Well, if that isn't the greatest rubbish I ever heard," cried Jo
- indignantly. "Why didn't you pop out and tell them so, on the spot?"
- "I couldn't, it was so embarrassing for me. I couldn't help hearing,
- at first, and then I was so angry and ashamed, I didn't remember
- that I ought to go away."
- "Just wait till I see Annie Moffat, and I'll show you how to
- settle such ridiculous stuff. The idea of having 'plans,' and being
- kind to Laurie, because he's rich, and may marry us by and by! Won't
- he shout, when I tell him what those silly things say about us poor
- children?" and Jo laughed, as if, on second thoughts, the thing struck
- her as a good joke.
- "If you tell Laurie, I'll never forgive you! She mustn't, must
- she, mother?" said Meg, looking distressed.
- "No; never repeat that foolish gossip, and forget it as soon as
- you can said Mrs. March gravely. "I was very unwise to let you go
- among people of whom I know so little- kind, I dare say, but
- worldly, ill-bred, and full of these vulgar ideas about young
- people. I am more sorry than I can express for the mischief this visit
- may have done you, Meg."
- "Don't be sorry, I won't let it hurt me; I'll forget all the bad,
- and remember only the good; for I did enjoy a great deal, and thank
- you very much for letting me go. I'll not be sentimental or
- dissatisfied, mother; I know I'm a silly little girl, and I'll stay
- with you till I'm fit to take care of myself. But it is nice to be
- praised, and admired, and I can't help saying I like it," said Meg,
- looking half ashamed of the confession.
- "That is perfectly natural, and quite harmless, if the liking does
- not become a passion, and lead one to do foolish or unmaidenly things.
- Learn to know and value the praise which is worth having, and to
- excite the admiration of excellent people by being modest as well as
- pretty, Meg."
- Margaret sat thinking a moment, while Jo stood with her hands behind
- her, looking both interested and a little perplexed; for it was a
- new thing to see Meg blushing and talking about admiration, lovers,
- and things of that sort; and Jo felt as if, during that fortnight, her
- sister had grown up amazingly, and was drifting away from her into a
- world where she could not follow.
- "Mother, do you have 'plans,' as Mrs. Moffat said?" asked Meg
- bashfully.
- "Yes, my dear, I have a great many; all mothers do, but mine
- differ somewhat from Mrs. Moffat's, I suspect. I will tell you some of
- them, for the time has come when a word may set this romantic little
- head and heart of yours right, on a very serious subject. You are
- young, Meg, but not too young to understand me; and mothers' lips
- are the fittest to speak of such things to girls like you. Jo, your
- turn will come in time, perhaps, so listen to my 'plans,' and help
- me carry them out, if they are good."
- Jo went and sat on one arm of the chair, looking as if she thought
- they were about to join in some very solemn affair. Holding a hand
- of each, and watching the two young faces wistfully, Mrs. March
- said, in her serious yet cheery way-
- "I want my daughters to be beautiful, accomplished, and good; to
- be admired, loved, and respected; to have a happy youth, to be well
- and wisely married, and to lead useful, pleasant lives, with as little
- care and sorrow to try them as God sees fit to send. To be loved and
- chosen by a good man is the best and sweetest thing which can happen
- to a woman; and I sincerely hope my girls may know this beautiful
- experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg; right to hope and
- wait for it, and wise to prepare for it; so that, when the happy
- time comes, you may feel ready for the duties and worthy of the joy.
- My dear girls, I am ambitious for you, but not to have you make a dash
- in the world- marry rich men merely because they are rich, or have
- splendid houses, which are not homes because love is wanting. Money is
- a needful and precious thing- and, when well used, a noble thing-
- but I never want you to think it is the first or only prize to
- strive for. I'd rather see you poor men's wives, if you were happy,
- beloved, contented, than queens on thrones, without self-respect and
- peace."
- "Poor girls don't stand any chance, Belle says, unless they put
- themselves forward," sighed Meg.
- "Then we'll be old maids," said Jo stoutly.
- "Right, Jo; better be happy old maids than unhappy wives, or
- unmaidenly girls, running about to find husbands," said Mrs. March
- decidedly. "Don't be troubled, Meg; poverty seldom daunts a sincere
- lover. Some of the best and most honored women I know were poor girls,
- but so love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids. Leave
- these things to time; make this home happy, so that you may be fit for
- homes of your own, if they are offered you, and contented here if they
- are not. One thing remember, my girls: mother is always ready to be
- your confidant, father to be your friend; and both of us trust and
- hope that our daughters, whether married or single, will be the
- pride and comfort of our lives."
- "We will, Marmee, we will!" cried both, with all their hearts, as
- she bade them good-night.
- 10
- The P. C. and P. O.
-
- AS spring came on, a new set of amusements became the fashion, and
- the lengthening days gave long afternoons for work and play of all
- sorts. The garden had to be put in order, and each sister had a
- quarter of the little plot to do what she liked with. Hannah used to
- say, "I'd know which each of them gardings belonged to, ef I see 'em
- in Chiny"; and so she might, for the girls' tastes differed as much as
- their characters. Meg's had roses and heliotrope, myrtle, and a little
- orange-tree in it. Jo's bed was never alike two seasons, for she was
- always trying experiments; this year it was to be a plantation of
- sun-flowers, the seeds of which cheerful and aspiring plant were to
- feed "Aunt Cockle-top" and her family of chicks. Beth had
- old-fashioned, fragrant flowers in her garden- sweet peas and
- mignonette, larkspur, pinks, pansies, and southernwood, with chickweed
- for the bird, and catnip for the pussies. Amy had a bower in hers-
- rather small and earwiggy, but very pretty to look at- with
- honeysuckles and morning-glories hanging their colored horns and bells
- in graceful wreaths all over it; tall, white lilies, delicate ferns,
- and as many brilliant, picturesque plants as would consent to
- blossom there.
- Gardening, walks, rows on the river, and flower-hunts employed the
- fine days; and for rainy ones, they had house diversions- some old,
- some new- all more or less original. One of these was the "P. C.";
- for, as secret societies were the fashion, it was thought proper to
- have one; and, as all of the girls admired Dickens, they called
- themselves the Pickwick Club. With a few interruptions, they had
- kept this up for a year, and met every Saturday evening in the big
- garret, on which occasions the ceremonies were as follows: Three
- chairs were arranged in a row before a table, on which was a lamp,
- also four white badges, with a big "P. C." in different colors on
- each, and the weekly newspaper, called "The Pickwick Portfolio," to
- which all contributed something; while Jo, who revelled in pens and
- ink, was the editor. At seven o'clock, the four members ascended to
- the club-room, tied their badges round their heads, and took their
- seats with great solemnity. Meg, as the eldest, was Samuel Pickwick;
- Jo, being of a literary turn, Augustus Snodgrass; Beth, because she
- was round and rosy, Tracy Tupman; and Amy, who was always trying to do
- what she couldn't, was Nathaniel Winkle. Pickwick, the president, read
- the paper, which was filled with original tales, poetry, local news,
- funny advertisements, and hints, in which they good-naturedly reminded
- each other of their faults and short-comings. On one occasion, Mr.
- Pickwick put on a pair of spectacles without any glasses, rapped
- upon the table, hemmed, and, having stared hard at Mr. Snodgrass,
- who was tilting back in his chair, till he arranged himself
- properly, began to read:
-
- THE PICKWICK PORTFOLIO
- ---------------------------------------------------------------------
- POET'S CORNER
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
- ANNIVERSARY ODE
-
- AGAIN we meet to celebrate
- With badge and solemn rite,
- Our fifty-second anniversary,
- In Pickwick Hall, to-night.
-
- We all are here in perfect health,
- None gone from our small band;
- Again we see each well-known face,
- And press each friendly hand.
-
- Our Pickwick, always at his post,
- With reverence we greet,
- As, spectacles on nose, he reads
- Our well-filled weekly sheet.
-
- Although he suffers from a cold,
- We joy to hear him speak,
- For words of wisdom from him fall,
- In spite of croak or squeak.
-
- Old six-foot Snodgrass looms on high,
- With elephantine grace,
- And beams upon the company,
- With brown and jovial face.
-
- Poetic fire lights up his eye,
- He struggles 'gainst his lot.
- Behold ambition on his brow,
- And on his nose a blot!
-
- Next our peaceful Tupman comes,
- So rosy, plump, and sweet,
- Who chokes with laughter at the puns,
- And tumbles off his seat.
-
- Prim little Winkle too is here,
- With every hair in place,
- A model of propriety,
- Though he hates to wash his face.
-
- The year is gone, we still unite
- To joke and laugh and read,
- And tread the path of literature
- That doth to glory lead.
-
- Long may our paper prosper well,
- Our club unbroken be,
- And coming years their blessings pour
- On the useful, gay "P. C."
- A. SNODGRASS.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- THE MASKED MARRIAGE
- A TALE OF VENICE
-
- GONDOLA after gondola swept up to the marble steps, and left its
- lovely load to swell the brilliant throng that filled the stately
- halls of Count de Adelon. Knights and ladies, elves and pages, monks
- and flower-girls, all mingled gayly in the dance. Sweet voices and
- rich melody filled the air; and so with mirth and music the masquerade
- went on.
- "Has your Highness seen the Lady Viola to-night?" asked a gallant
- troubadour of the fairy queen who floated down the hall upon his arm.
- "Yes; is she not lovely, though so sad! Her dress is well chosen,
- too, for in a week she weds Count Antonio, whom she passionately
- hates."
- "By my faith, I envy him. Yonder he comes, arrayed like a
- bridegroom, except the black mask. When that is off we shall see how
- he regards the fair maid whose heart he cannot win, though her stern
- father bestows her hand," returned the troubadour.
- "'T is whispered that she loves the young English artist who
- haunts her steps, and is spurned by the old count," said the lady,
- as they joined the dance.
- The revel was at its height when a priest appeared, and, withdrawing
- the young pair to an alcove hung with purple velvet, he motioned them
- to kneel. Instant silence fell upon the gay throng; and not a sound,
- but the dash of fountains or the rustle of orange-groves sleeping in
- the moonlight, broke the hush, as Count de Adelon spoke thus:
- "My lords and ladies, pardon the ruse by which I have gathered you
- here to witness the marriage of my daughter. Father, we wait your
- services."
- All eyes turned toward the bridal party, and a low murmur of
- amazement went through the throng, for neither bride nor groom removed
- their masks. Curiosity and wonder possessed all hearts, but respect
- restrained all tongues till the holy rite was over. Then the eager
- spectators gathered round the count, demanding an explanation.
- "Gladly would I give it if I could; but I only know that it was
- the whim of my timid Viola, and I yielded to it. Now, my children, let
- the play end. Unmask, and receive my blessing."
- But neither bent the knee; for the young bridegroom replied, in a
- tone that startled all listeners, as the mask fell, disclosing the
- noble face of Ferdinand Devereux, the artist lover; and, leaning on
- the breast where now flashed the star of an English earl, was the
- lovely Viola, radiant with joy and beauty.
- "My lord, you scornfully bade me claim your daughter when I could
- boast as high a name and vast a fortune as the Count Antonio. I can do
- more; for even your ambitious soul cannot refuse the Earl of
- Devereux and De Vere, when he gives his ancient name and boundless
- wealth in return for the beloved hand of this fair lady, now my wife."
- The count stood like one changed to stone; and, turning to the
- bewildered crowd, Ferdinand added, with a gay smile of triumph, "To
- you, my gallant friends, I can only wish that your wooing may
- prosper as mine has done; and that you may all win as fair a bride
- as I have, by this masked marriage."
- S. PICKWICK.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- Why is the P. C. like the Tower of Babel!
- It is full of unruly members.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- THE HISTORY OF A SQUASH.
-
- ONCE upon a time a farmer planted a little seed in his garden, and
- after a while it sprouted and became a vine, and bore many squashes.
- One day in October, when they were ripe, he picked one and took it
- to market. A grocerman bought and put it in his shop. That same
- morning, a little girl, in a brown hat and blue dress, with a round
- face and snub nose, went and bought it for her mother. She lugged it
- home, cut it up, and boiled it in the big pot; mashed some of it, with
- salt and butter, for dinner; and to the rest she added a pint of milk,
- two eggs, four spoons of sugar, nutmeg, and some crackers; put it in a
- deep dish, and baked it till it was brown and nice; and next day it
- was eaten by a family named March.
- T. TUPMAN.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- MR. PICKWICK, Sir:
- I address you upon the subject of sin the sinner I mean is a man
- named Winkle who makes trouble in his club by laughing and sometimes
- won't write his piece in this fine paper I hope you will pardon his
- badness and let him send a French fable because he can't write out
- of his head as he has so many lessons to do and no brains in future
- I will try to take time by the fetlock and prepare some work which
- will be all commy la fo that means all right I am in haste as it is
- nearly school time
- Yours respectably, N. WINKLE.
-
- [The above is a manly and handsome acknowledgment of past
- misdemeanors. If our young friend studied punctuation, it would be
- well.]
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- A SAD ACCIDENT
-
- ON FRIDAY last, we were startled by a violent shock in our basement,
- followed by cries of distress. On rushing, in a body, to the cellar,
- we discovered our beloved President prostrate upon the floor, having
- tripped and fallen while getting wood for domestic purposes. A perfect
- scene of ruin met our eyes; for in his fall Mr. Pickwick had plunged
- his head and shoulders into a tub of water, upset a keg of soft soap
- upon his manly form, and torn his garments badly. On being removed
- from this perilous situation, it was discovered that he had suffered
- no injury but several bruises; and, we are happy to add, is now
- doing well.
- ED.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- THE PUBLIC BEREAVEMENT
-
- IT IS our painful duty to record the sudden and mysterious
- disappearance of our cherished friend, Mrs. Snowball Pat Paw. This
- lovely and beloved cat was the pet of a large circle of warm and
- admiring friends; for her beauty attracted all eyes, her graces and
- virtues endeared her to all hearts, and her loss is deeply felt by the
- whole community.
- When last seen, she was sitting at the gate, watching the
- butcher's cart; and it is feared that some villain, tempted by her
- charms, basely stole her. Weeks have passed, but no trace of her has
- been discovered; and we relinquish all hope, tie a black ribbon to her
- basket, set aside her dish, and weep for her as one lost to us
- forever.
-
- A sympathizing friend sends the following gem:
-
- A LAMENT
- FOR S. B. PAT PAW.
-
- WE MOURN the loss of our little pet,
- And sigh o'er her hapless fate,
- For never more by the fire she'll sit,
- Nor play by the old green gate.
-
- The little grave where her infant sleeps
- Is 'neath the chestnut tree;
- But o'er her grave we may not weep,
- We know not where it may be.
-
- Her empty bed, her idle ball,
- Will never see her more;
- No gentle tap, no loving purr
- Is heard at the parlor-door.
-
- Another cat comes after her mice,
- A cat with a dirty face;
- But she does not hunt as our darling did,
- Nor play with her airy grace.
-
- Her stealthy paws tread the very hall
- Where Snowball used to play,
- But she only spits at the dogs our pet
- So gallantly drove away.
-
- She is useful and mild, and does her best,
- But she is not fair to see;
- And we cannot give her your place, dear,
- Nor worship her as we worship thee.
- A. S.
-
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
- ADVERTISEMENTS
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
- MISS ORANTHY BLUGGAGE, the accomplished Strong-Minded Lecturer, will
- deliver her famous Lecture on "WOMAN AND HER POSITION," at Pickwick
- Hall, next Saturday Evening, after the usual performances.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- A WEEKLY MEETING will be held at Kitchen Place, to teach young
- ladies how to cook. Hannah Brown will preside; and all are invited
- to attend.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- THE DUSTPAN SOCIETY will meet on Wednesday next, and parade in the
- upper story of the Club House. All members to appear in uniform and
- shoulder their brooms at nine precisely.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- MRS. BETH BOUNCER will open her new assortment of Doll's Millinery
- next week. The latest Paris Fashions have arrived, and orders are
- respectfully solicited.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- A NEW PLAY will appear at the Barnville Theater, in the course of
- a few weeks, which will surpass anything ever seen on the American
- stage. "THE GREEK SLAVE, or Constantine the Avenger," is the name of
- this thrilling drama!!!
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- HINTS
-
- If S. P. didn't use so much soap on his hands, he wouldn't always be
- late at breakfast. A. S. is requested not to whistle in the street. T.
- T., please don't forget Amy's napkin. N. W. must not fret because
- his dress has not nine tucks.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
-
- WEEKLY REPORT
-
- MEG - Good.
- JO - Bad.
- BETH - Very good.
- AMY - Middling.
-
- As the President finished reading the paper (which I beg leave to
- assure my readers is a bona fide copy of one written by bona fide
- girls once upon a time), a round of applause followed, and then Mr.
- Snodgrass rose to make a proposition.
- "Mr. President and gentlemen," he began, assuming a parliamentary
- attitude and tone, "I wish to propose the admission of a new member-
- one who highly deserves the honor, would be deeply grateful for it,
- and would add immensely to the spirit of the club, the literary value
- of the paper, and be no end jolly and nice. I propose Mr. Theodore
- Laurence as an honorary member of the P. C. Come now, do have him."
- Jo's sudden change of tone made the girls laugh; but all looked
- rather anxious, and no one said a word, as Snodgrass took his seat.
- "We'll put it to vote," said the President. "All in favor of this
- motion please to manifest it by saying 'Ay.'"
- A loud response from Snodgrass, followed, to everybody's surprise,
- by a timid one from Beth.
- "Contrary minded say 'No.'"
- Meg and Amy were contrary minded; and Mr. Winkle rose to say, with
- great elegance, "We don't wish any boys; they only joke and bounce
- about. This is a ladies' club, and we wish to be private and proper."
- "I'm afraid he'll laugh at our paper, and make fun of us afterward,"
- observed Pickwick, pulling the little curl on her forehead, as she
- always did when doubtful.
- Up rose Snodgrass, very much in earnest. "Sir, I give you my word as
- a gentleman, Laurie won't do anything of the sort. He likes to
- write, and he'll give a tone to our contributions, and keep us from
- being sentimental, don't you see? We can do so little for him, and
- he does so much for us, I think the least we can do is to offer him
- a place here, and make him welcome if he comes."
- This artful allusion to benefits conferred brought Tupman to his
- feet, looking as if he had quite made up his mind.
- "Yes, we ought to do it, even if we are afraid. I say he may come,
- and his grandpa, too, if he likes."
- This spirited burst from Beth electrified the club, and Jo left
- her seat to shake hands approvingly. "Now then, vote again.
- Everybody remember it's our Laurie, and say 'Ay!'" cried Snodgrass
- excitedly.
- "Ay! ay! ay!" replied three voices at once.
- "Good! Bless you! Now, as there's nothing like 'taking time by the
- fetlock,' as Winkle characteristically observes, allow me to present
- the new member"; and, to the dismay of the rest of the club, Jo
- threw open the door of the closet, and displayed Laurie sitting on a
- rag-bag, flushed and twingling with suppressed laughter.
- "You rogue! you traitor! Jo, how could you?" cried the three
- girls, as Snodgrass led her friend triumphantly forth; and,
- producing both a chair and a badge, installed him in a jiffy.
- "The coolness of you two rascals is amazing," began Mr. Pickwick,
- trying to get up an awful frown, and only succeeding in producing an
- amiable smile. But the new member was equal to the occasion; and,
- rising, with a grateful salutation to the Chair, said, in the most
- engaging manner, "Mr. President and ladies- I beg pardon, gentlemen-
- allow me to introduce myself as Sam Weller, the very humble servant of
- the club."
- "Good! good!" cried Jo, pounding with the handle of the old
- warming-pan on which she leaned.
- "My faithful friend and noble patron," continued Laurie, with a wave
- of the hand, "who has so flatteringly presented me, is not to be
- blamed for the base stratagem of to-night. I planned it, and she
- only gave in after lots of teasing."
- "Come now, don't lay it all on yourself; you know I proposed the
- cupboard," broke in Snodgrass, who was enjoying the joke amazingly.
- "Never you mind what she says. I'm the wretch that did it, sir,"
- said the new member, with a Welleresque nod to Mr. Pickwick. "But on
- my honor, I never will do so again, and henceforth dewote myself to
- the interest of this immortal club."
- "Hear! hear!" cried Jo, clashing the lid of the warming-pan like a
- cymbal.
- "Go on, go on!" added Winkle and Tupman, while the President bowed
- benignly.
- "I merely wish to say, that as a slight token of my gratitude for
- the honor done me, and as a means of promoting friendly relations
- between adjoining nations, I have set up a post-office in the hedge in
- the lower corner of the garden; a fine spacious building, with
- padlocks on the doors, and every convenience for the mails- also the
- females, if I may be allowed the expression. It's the old
- martin-house; but I've stopped up the door, and made the roof open, so
- it will hold all sorts of things, and save our valuable time. Letters,
- manuscripts, books, and bundles can be passed in there; and, as each
- nation has a key, it will be uncommonly nice, I fancy. Allow me to
- present the club key; and, with many thanks for your favor, take my
- seat."
- Great applause as Mr. Weller deposited a little key on the table,
- and subsided; the warming-pan clashed and waved wildly, and it was
- some time before order could be restored. A long discussion
- followed, and every one came out surprising, for every one did her
- best; so it was an unusually lively meeting, and did not adjourn
- till a late hour, when it broke up with three shrill cheers for the
- new member. No one ever regretted the admittance of Sam Weller, for
- a more devoted, well-behaved, and jovial member no club could have. He
- certainly did add "spirit" to the meetings, and "a tone" to the paper;
- for his orations convulsed his hearers, and his contributions were
- excellent, being patriotic, classical, comical, or dramatic, but never
- sentimental. Jo regarded them as worthy of Bacon, Milton, or
- Shakespeare; and remodelled her own works with good effect, she
- thought.
- The P. O. was a capital little institution, and flourished
- wonderfully, for nearly as many queer things passed through it as
- through the real office. Tragedies and cravats, poetry and pickles,
- garden-seeds and long letters, music and gingerbread, rubbers,
- invitations, scoldings and puppies. The old gentleman liked the fun,
- and amused himself by sending odd bundles, mysterious messages, and
- funny telegrams; and his gardener, who was smitten with Hannah's
- charms, actually sent a love-letter to Jo's care. How they laughed
- when the secret came out, never dreaming how many love-letters that
- little post-office would hold in the years to come!
- 11
- Experiments
-
- "THE first of June! The Kings are off to the seashore to-morrow
- and I'm free. Three months' vacation- how I shall enjoy it!" exclaimed
- Meg, coming home one warm day to find Jo laid upon the sofa in an
- unusual state of exhaustion, while Beth took off her dusty boots,
- and Amy made lemonade for the refreshment of the whole party.
- "Aunt March went to-day, for which, oh, be joyful!" said Jo. "I
- was mortally afraid she'd ask me to go with her; if she had, I
- should have felt as if I ought to do it; but Plumfield is about as gay
- as a churchyard, you know, and I'd rather be excused. We had a
- flurry getting the old lady off, and I had a fright every time she
- spoke to me, for I was in such a hurry to be through that I was
- uncommonly helpful and sweet, and feared she'd find it impossible to
- part from me. I quaked till she was fairly in the carriage, and had
- a final fright, for, as it drove off, she popped out her head, saying,
- 'Josyphine, won't you-?' I didn't hear any more, for I basely turned
- and fled; I did actually run, and whisked round the corner, where I
- felt safe."
- "Poor old Jo! she came in looking as if bears were after her,"
- said Beth, as she cuddled her sister's feet with a motherly air.
- "Aunt March is a regular samphire, is she not?" observed Amy,
- tasting her mixture critically.
- "She means vampire, not sea-weed; but it doesn't matter; it's too
- warm to be particular about one's parts of speech," murmured Jo.
- "What shall you do all your vacation?" asked Amy, changing the
- subject, with tact.
- "I shall lie abed late, and do nothing," replied Meg, from the
- depths of the rocking-chair. "I've been routed up early all winter,
- and had to spend my days working for other people; so now I'm going to
- rest and revel to my heart's content."
- "No," said Jo; "that dozy way wouldn't suit me. I've laid in a
- heap of books, and I'm going to improve my shining hours reading on my
- perch in the old apple-tree, when I'm not having l-"
- "Don't say 'larks'!" implored Amy, as a return snub for the
- "samphire" correction.
- "I'll say 'nightingales,' then, with Laurie; that's proper and
- appropriate, since he's a warbler."
- "Don't let us do any lessons, Beth, for a while, but play all the
- time, and rest, as the girls mean to," proposed Amy.
- "Well, I will, if mother doesn't mind. I want to learn some new
- songs, and my children need fitting up for the summer; they are
- dreadfully out of order, and really suffering for clothes."
- "May we, mother?" asked Meg, turning to Mrs. March, who sat
- sewing, in what they called "Marmee's corner."
- "You may try your experiment for a week, and see how you like it.
- I think by Saturday night you will find that all play and no work is
- as bad as all work and no play."
- "Oh, dear, no! it will be delicious, I'm sure," said Meg
- complacently.
- "I now propose a toast, as my 'friend and pardner, Sairy Gamp,'
- says. Fun forever, and no grubbing!" cried Jo, rising, glass in
- hand, as the lemonade went round.
- They all drank it merrily, and began the experiment by lounging
- for the rest of the day. Next morning, Meg did not appear till ten
- o'clock; her solitary breakfast did not taste nice, and the room
- seemed lonely and untidy; for Jo had not filled the vases, Beth had
- not dusted, and Amy's books lay scattered about. Nothing was neat
- and pleasant but "Marmee's corner," which looked as usual; and there
- Meg sat, to "rest and read," which meant yawn, and imagine what pretty
- summer dresses she would get with her salary. Jo spent the morning
- on the river, with Laurie, and the afternoon reading and crying over
- "The Wide, Wide World," up in the apple-tree. Beth began by
- rummaging everything out of the big closet, where her family
- resided; but, getting tired before half done, she left her
- establishment topsy-turvy, and went to her music, rejoicing that she
- had no dishes to wash. Amy arranged her bower, put on her best white
- frock, smoothed her curls, and sat down to draw, under the
- honeysuckles, hoping some one would see and inquire who the young
- artist was. As no one appeared but an inquisitive daddy-long-legs, who
- examined her work with interest, she went to walk, got caught in a
- shower, and came home dripping.
- At tea-time they compared notes, and all agreed that it had been a
- delightful, though unusually long day. Meg, who went shopping in the
- afternoon, and got a "sweet blue muslin," had discovered, after she
- had cut the breadths off, that it wouldn't wash, which mishap made her
- slightly cross. Jo had burnt the skin off her nose boating, and got
- a raging headache by reading too long. Beth was worried by the
- confusion of her closet, and the difficulty of learning three or
- four songs at once; and Amy deeply regretted the damage done her
- frock, for Katy Brown's party was to be the next day; and now, like
- Flora McFlimsey, she had "nothing to wear." But these were mere
- trifles; and they assured their mother that the experiment was working
- finely. She smiled, said nothing, and, with Hannah's help, did their
- neglected work, keeping home pleasant, and the domestic machinery
- running smoothly. It was astonishing what a peculiar and uncomfortable
- state of things was produced by the "resting and revelling" process.
- The days kept getting longer and longer; the weather was unusually
- variable, and so were tempers; an unsettled feeling possessed every
- one, and Satan found plenty of mischief for the idle hands to do. As
- the height of luxury, Meg put out some of her sewing, and then found
- time hang so heavily that she fell to snipping and spoiling her
- clothes, in her attempts to furnish them up a la Moffat. Jo read
- till her eyes gave out, and she was sick of books; got so fidgety that
- even good-natured Laurie had a quarrel with her, and so reduced in
- spirits that she desperately wished she had gone with Aunt March. Beth
- got on pretty well, for she was constantly forgetting that it was to
- be all play, and no work, and fell back into her old ways now and
- then; but something in the air affected her, and, more than once,
- her tranquillity was much disturbed; so much so, that, on one
- occasion, she actually shook poor dear Joanna, and told her she was "a
- fright." Amy fared worst of all, for her resources were small; and
- when her sisters left her to amuse and care for herself, she soon
- found that accomplished and important little self a great burden.
- She didn't like dolls, fairy-tales were childish, and one couldn't
- draw all the time; tea-parties didn't amount to much, neither did
- picnics, unless very well conducted. "If one could have a fine
- house, full of nice girls, or go travelling, the summer would be
- delightful; but to stay at home with three selfish sisters and a
- grown-up boy was enough to try the patience of a Boaz," complained
- Miss Malaprop, after several days devoted to pleasure, fretting, and
- ennui.
- No one would own that they were tired of the experiment; but, by
- Friday night, each acknowledged to herself that she was glad the
- week was nearly done. Hoping to impress the lesson more deeply, Mrs.
- March, who had a good deal of humor, resolved to finish off the
- trial in an appropriate manner; so she gave Hannah a holiday, and
- let the girls enjoy the full effect of the play system.
- When they got up on Saturday morning, there was no fire in the
- kitchen, no breakfast in the dining-room, and no mother anywhere to be
- seen.
- "Mercy on us! what has happened?" cried Jo, staring about her in
- dismay.
- Meg ran upstairs, and soon came back again, looking relieved, but
- rather bewildered, and a little ashamed.
- "Mother isn't sick, only very tired, and she says she is going to
- stay quietly in her room all day, and let us do the best we can.
- It's a very queer thing for her to do, she doesn't act a bit like
- herself; but she says it has been a hard week for her, so we mustn't
- grumble, but take care of ourselves."
- "That's easy enough, and I like the idea; I'm aching for something
- to do- that is, some new amusement, you know," added Jo quickly.
- In fact it was an immense relief to them all to have a little
- work, and they took hold with a will, but soon realized the truth of
- Hannah's saying, "Housekeeping ain't no joke." There was plenty of
- food in the larder, and, while Beth and Amy set the table, Meg and
- Jo got breakfast, wondering, as they did so, why servants ever
- talked about hard work.
- "I shall take some up to mother, though she said we were not to
- think of her, for she'd take care of herself," said Meg, who presided,
- and felt quite matronly behind the teapot.
- So a tray was fitted out before any one began, and taken up, with
- the cook's compliments. The boiled tea was very bitter, the omelette
- scorched, and the biscuits speckled with saleratus; but Mrs. March
- received her repast with thanks, and laughed heartily over it after Jo
- was gone.
- "Poor little souls, they will have a hard time, I'm afraid; but they
- won't suffer, and it will do them good," she said, producing the
- more palatable viands with which she had provided herself, and
- disposing of the bad breakfast, so that their feelings might not be
- hurt- a motherly little deception, for which they were grateful.
- Many were the complaints below, and great the chagrin of the head
- cook at her failures. "Never mind, I'll get the dinner, and be
- servant; you be mistress, keep your hands nice, see company, and
- give orders," said Jo, who knew still less than Meg about culinary
- affairs.
- This obliging offer was gladly accepted; Margaret retired to the
- parlor, which she hastily put in order by whisking the litter under
- the sofa, and shutting the blinds, to save the trouble of dusting. Jo,
- with perfect faith in her own powers, and a friendly desire to make up
- the quarrel, immediately put a note in the office, inviting Laurie
- to dinner.
- "You'd better see what you have got before you think of having
- company," said Meg, when informed of the hospitable but rash act.
- "Oh, there's corned beef and plenty of potatoes; and I shall get
- some asparagus, and a lobster, 'for a relish,' as Hannah says. We'll
- have lettuce, and make a salad. I don't know how, but the book
- tells. I'll have blanc-mange and strawberries for dessert; and coffee,
- too, if you want to be elegant."
- "Don't try too many messes, Jo, for you can't make anything but
- gingerbread and molasses candy, fit to eat. I wash my hands of the
- dinner-party; and, since you have asked Laurie on your own
- responsibility, you may just take care of him."
- "I don't want you to do anything but be civil to him, and help
- with the pudding. You'll give me your advice if I get in a muddle,
- won't you?" asked Jo, rather hurt.
- "Yes; but I don't know much, except about bread, and a few
- trifles. You had better ask mother's leave before you order anything,"
- returned Meg prudently.
- "Of course I shall; I'm not a fool," and Jo went off in a huff at
- the doubts expressed of her powers.
- "Get what you like, and don't disturb me; I'm going out to dinner,
- and can't worry about things at home," said Mrs. March, when Jo
- spoke to her. "I never enjoyed housekeeping, and I'm going to take a
- vacation to-day, and read, write, go visiting, and amuse myself."
- The unusual spectacle of her busy mother rocking comfortably, and
- reading, early in the morning, made Jo feel as if some natural
- phenomenon had occurred; for an eclipse, an earthquake, or a
- volcanic eruption would hardly have seemed stranger.
- "Everything is out of sorts, somehow," she said to herself, going
- downstairs. "There's Beth crying; that's a sure sign that something is
- wrong with this family. If Amy is bothering, I'll shake her."
- Feeling very much out of sorts herself, Jo hurried into the parlor
- to find Beth sobbing over Pip, the canary, who lay dead in the cage,
- with his little claws pathetically extended, as if imploring the
- food for want of which he had died.
- "It's all my fault- I forgot him- there isn't a seed or a drop left.
- O Pip! O Pip! how could I be so cruel to you?" cried Beth, taking
- the poor thing in her hands, and trying to restore him.
- Jo peeped into his half-open eye, felt his little heart, and finding
- him stiff and cold, shook her head, and offered her domino-box for a
- coffin.
- "Put him in the oven, and maybe he will get warm and revive," said
- Amy hopefully.
- "He's been starved, and he shan't be baked, now he's dead. I'll make
- him a shroud, and he shall be buried in the garden; and I'll never
- have another bird, never, my Pip! for I am too bad to own one,"
- murmured Beth, sitting on the floor with her pet folded in her hands.
- "The funeral shall be this afternoon, and we will all go. Now, don't
- cry, Bethy; it's a pity, but nothing goes right this week, and Pip has
- had the worst of the experiment. Make the shroud, and lay him in my
- box; and, after the dinner-party, we'll have a nice little funeral,"
- said Jo, beginning to feel as if she had undertaken a good deal.
- Leaving the others to console Beth, she departed to the kitchen,
- which was in a most discouraging state of confusion. Putting on a
- big apron, she fell to work, and got the dishes piled up ready for
- washing, when she discovered that the fire was out.
- "Here's a sweet prospect!" muttered Jo, slamming the stove-door
- open, and poking vigorously among the cinders.
- Having rekindled the fire, she thought she would go to market
- while the water heated. The walk revived her spirits; and,
- flattering herself that she had made good bargains, she trudged home
- again, after buying a very young lobster, some very old asparagus, and
- two boxes of acid strawberries. By the time she got cleared up, the
- dinner arrived, and the stove was red-hot. Hannah had left a pan of
- bread to rise, Meg had worked it up early, set it on the hearth for
- a second rising, and forgotten it. Meg was entertaining Sallie
- Gardiner in the parlor, when the door flew open, and a floury, crocky,
- flushed, and dishevelled figure appeared, demanding tartly-
- "I say, isn't bread 'riz' enough when it runs over the pans?"
- Sallie began to laugh; but Meg nodded, and lifted her eyebrows as
- high as they would go, which caused the apparition to vanish, and
- put the sour bread into the oven without further delay. Mrs. March
- went out, after peeping here and there to see how matters went, also
- saying a word of comfort to Beth, who sat making a winding-sheet,
- while the dear departed lay in state in the domino-box. A strange
- sense of helplessness fell upon the girls as the gray bonnet
- vanished round the corner; and despair seized them, when, a few
- minutes later, Miss Crocker appeared, and said she'd come to dinner.
- Now, this lady was a thin, yellow spinster, with a sharp nose and
- inquisitive eyes, who saw everything, and gossiped about all she
- saw. They disliked her, but had been taught to be kind to her,
- simply because she was old and poor, and had few friends. So Meg
- gave her the easy-chair, and tried to entertain her, while she asked
- questions, criticized everything, and told stories of the people
- whom she knew.
- Language cannot describe the anxieties, experiences, and exertions
- which Jo underwent that morning; and the dinner she served up became a
- standing joke. Fearing to ask any more advice, she did her best alone,
- and discovered that something more than energy and good-will is
- necessary to make a cook. She boiled the asparagus for an hour, and
- was grieved to find the heads cooked off and the stalks harder than
- ever. The bread burnt black; for the salad-dressing so aggravated her,
- that she let everything else go till she had convinced herself that
- she could not make it fit to eat. The lobster was a scarlet mystery to
- her, but she hammered and poked, till it was unshelled, and its meagre
- proportions concealed in a grove of lettuce-leaves. The potatoes had
- to be hurried, not to keep the asparagus waiting, and were not done at
- last. The blanc-mange was lumpy, and the strawberries not as ripe as
- they looked, having been skilfully "deaconed."
- "Well, they can eat beef, and bread and butter, if they are
- hungry; only it's mortifying to have to spend your whole morning for
- nothing," thought Jo, as she rang the bell half an hour later than
- usual, and stood, hot, tired, and dispirited, surveying the feast
- spread for Laurie, accustomed to all sorts of elegance, and Miss
- Crocker, whose curious eyes would mark all failures, and whose
- tattling tongue would report them far and wide.
- Poor Jo would gladly have gone under the table, as one thing after
- another was tasted and left; while Amy giggled, Meg looked distressed,
- Miss Crocker pursed up her lips, and Laurie talked and laughed with
- all his might, to give a cheerful tone to the festive scene. Jo's
- one strong point was the fruit, for she had sugared it well, and had a
- pitcher of rich cream to eat with it. Her hot cheeks cooled a
- trifle, and she drew a long breath, as the pretty glass plates went
- round, and every one looked graciously at the little rosy islands
- floating in a sea of cream. Miss Crocker tasted first, made a wry
- face, and drank some water hastily. Jo, who had refused, thinking
- there might not be enough, for they dwindled sadly after the picking
- over, glanced at Laurie, but he was eating away manfully, though there
- was a slight pucker about his mouth, and he kept his eye fixed on
- his plate. Amy, who was fond of delicate fare, took a heaping
- spoonful, choked, hid her face in her napkin, and left the table
- precipitately.
- "Oh, what is it?" exclaimed Jo, trembling.
- "Salt instead of sugar, and the cream is sour," replied Meg, with
- a tragic gesture.
- Jo uttered a groan, and fell back in her chair; remembering that she
- had given a last hasty powdering to the berries out of one of the
- two boxes on the kitchen table, and had neglected to put the milk in
- the refrigerator. She turned scarlet, and was on the verge of
- crying, when she met Laurie's eyes, which would look merry in spite of
- his heroic efforts; the comical side of the affair suddenly struck
- her, and she laughed till the tears ran down her cheeks. So did
- every one else, even "Croaker," as the girls called the old lady;
- and the unfortunate dinner ended gayly, with bread and butter,
- olives and fun.
- "I haven't strength of mind enough to clear up now, so we will sober
- ourselves with a funeral," said Jo, as they rose; and Miss Crocker
- made ready to go, being eager to tell the new story at another
- friend's dinner-table.
- They did sober themselves, for Beth's sake; Laurie dug a grave under
- the ferns in the grove, little Pip was laid in, with many tears, by
- his tender-hearted mistress, and covered with moss, while a wreath
- of violets and chickweed was hung on the stone which bore his epitaph,
- composed by Jo, while she struggled with the dinner:
-
- Here lies Pip March,
- Who died the 7th of June;
- Loved and lamented sore,
- And not forgotten soon.
-
- At the conclusion of the ceremonies, Beth retired to her room,
- overcome with emotion and lobster; but there was no place of repose,
- for the beds were not made, and she found her grief much assuaged by
- beating up pillows and putting things in order. Meg helped Jo clear
- away the remains of the feast, which took half the afternoon, and left
- them so tired that they agreed to be contented with tea and toast
- for supper. Laurie took Amy to drive, which was a deed of charity, for
- the sour cream seemed to have had a bad effect upon her temper. Mrs.
- March came home to find the three older girls hard at work in the
- middle of the afternoon; and a glance at the closet gave her an idea
- of the success of one part of the experiment.
- Before the housewives could rest, several people called, and there
- was a scramble to get ready to see them; then tea must be got, errands
- done; and one or two necessary bits of sewing neglected till the
- last minute. As twilight fell, dewy and still, one by one they
- gathered in the porch where the June roses were budding beautifully,
- and each groaned or sighed as she sat down, as if tired or troubled.
- "What a dreadful day this has been!" began Jo, usually the first
- to speak.
- "It has seemed shorter than usual, but so uncomfortable," said Meg.
- "Not a bit like home," added Amy.
- "It can't seem so without Marmee and little Pip," sighed Beth,
- glancing, with full eyes, at the empty cage above her head.
- "Here's mother, dear, and you shall have another bird to-morrow,
- if you want it."
- As she spoke, Mrs. March came and took her place among them, looking
- as if her holiday had not been much pleasanter than theirs.
- "Are you satisfied with your experiment, girls, or do you want
- another week of it?" she asked, as Beth nestled up to her, and the
- rest turned toward her with brightening faces, as flowers turn
- toward the sun.
- "I don't!" cried Jo decidedly.
- "Nor I," echoed the others.
- "You think, then, that it is better to have a few duties, and live a
- little for others, do you?"
- "Lounging and larking doesn't pay," observed Jo, shaking her head.
- "I'm tired of it, and mean to go to work at something right off."
- "Suppose you learn plain cooking; that's a useful accomplishment,
- which no woman should be without," said Mrs. March, laughing inaudibly
- at the recollection of Jo's dinner-party; for she had met Miss
- Crocker, and heard her account of it.
- "Mother, did you go away and let everything be, just to see how we'd
- get on?" cried Meg, who had had suspicions all day.
- "Yes; I wanted you to see how the comfort of all depends on each
- doing her share faithfully. While Hannah and I did your work, you
- got on pretty well, though I don't think you were very happy or
- amiable; so I thought, as a little lesson, I would show you what
- happens when every one thinks only of herself. Don't you feel that
- it is pleasanter to help one another, to have daily duties which
- make leisure sweet when it comes, and to bear and forbear, that home
- may be comfortable and lovely to us all?"
- "We do, mother, we do!" cried the girls.
- "Then let me advise you to take up your little burdens again; for
- though they seem heavy sometimes, they are good for us, and lighten as
- we learn to carry them. Work is wholesome, and there is plenty for
- every one; it keeps us from ennui and mischief, is good for health and
- spirits, and gives us a sense of power and independence better than
- money or fashion."
- "We'll work like bees, and love it too; see if we don't!" said Jo.
- "I'll learn plain cooking for my holiday task; and the next
- dinner-party I have shall be a success."
- "I'll make the set of shirts for father, instead of letting you do
- it, Marmee. I can and I will, though I'm not fond of sewing; that will
- be better than fussing over my own things, which are plenty nice
- enough as they are," said Meg.
- "I'll do my lessons every day, and not spend so much time with my
- music and dolls. I am a stupid thing, and ought to be studying, not
- playing," was Beth's resolution; while Amy followed their example by
- heroically declaring, "I shall learn to make buttonholes, and attend
- to my parts of speech."
- "Very good! then I am quite satisfied with the experiment, and fancy
- that we shall not have to repeat it; only don't go to the other
- extreme, and delve like slaves. Have regular hours for work and
- play; make each day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you
- understand the worth of time by employing it well. Then youth will
- be delightful, old age will bring few regrets, and life become a
- beautiful success, in spite of poverty."
- "We'll remember, mother!" and they did.
- 12
- Camp Laurence
-
- BETH was post-mistress, for, being most at home, she could attend to
- it regularly, and dearly liked the daily task of unlocking the
- little door and distributing the mail. One July day she came in with
- her hands full, and went about the house leaving letters and
- parcels, like the penny post.
- "Here's your posy, mother! Laurie never forgets that," she said,
- putting the fresh nosegay in the vase that stood in "Marmee's corner,"
- and was kept supplied by the affectionate boy.
- "Miss Meg March, one letter and a glove," continued Beth, delivering
- the articles to her sister, who sat near her mother, stitching
- wrist-bands.
- "Why, I left a pair over there, and here is only one," said Meg,
- looking at the gray cotton glove.
- "Didn't you drop the other in the garden?"
- "No, I'm sure I didn't; for there was only one in the office."
- "I hate to have odd gloves! Never mind, the other may be found. My
- letter is only a translation of the German song I wanted; I think
- Mr. Brooke did it, for this isn't Laurie's writing."
- Mrs. March glanced at Meg, who was looking very pretty in her
- gingham morning-gown, with the little curls blowing about her
- forehead, and very womanly, as she sat sewing at her little
- work-table, full of tidy white rolls; so unconscious of the thought in
- her mother's mind as she sewed and sung, while her fingers flew, and
- her thoughts were busied with girlish fancies as innocent and fresh as
- the pansies in her belt, that Mrs. March smiled, and was satisfied.
- "Two letters for Doctor Jo, a book, and a funny old hat, which
- covered the whole post-office, stuck outside," said Beth, laughing, as
- she went into the study, where Jo sat writing.
- "What a sly fellow Laurie is! I said I wished bigger hats were the
- fashion, because I burn my face every hot day. He said, 'Why mind
- the fashion? Wear a big hat, and be comfortable!' I said I would if
- I had one, and he has sent me this, to try me. I'll wear it, for
- fun, and show him I don't care for the fashion"; and, hanging the
- antique broad-brim on a bust of Plato, Jo read her letters.
- One from her mother made her cheeks glow and her eyes fill, for it
- said to her-
-
- MY DEAR:
- I write a little word to tell you with how much satisfaction I
- watch your efforts to control your temper. You say nothing about
- your trials, failures, or successes, and think, perhaps, that no one
- sees them but the Friend whose help you daily ask, if I may trust
- the well-worn cover of your guide-book. I, too, have seen them all,
- and heartily believe in the sincerity of your resolution, since it
- begins to bear fruit. Go on, dear, patiently and bravely, and always
- believe that no one sympathizes more tenderly with you than your
- loving
- MOTHER.
-
- "That does me good! that's worth millions of money and pecks of
- praise. O Marmee, I do try! I will keep on trying, and not get
- tired, since I have you to help me."
- Laying her head on her arms, Jo wet her little romance with a few
- happy tears, for she had thought that no one saw and appreciated her
- efforts to be good; and this assurance was doubly precious, doubly
- encouraging, because unexpected, and from the person whose
- commendation she most valued. Feeling stronger than ever to meet and
- subdue her Apollyon, she pinned the note inside her frock, as a shield
- and a reminder, lest she be taken unaware, and proceeded to open her
- other letter, quite ready for either good or bad news. In a big,
- dashing hand, Laurie wrote-
-
- DEAR JO:
- What ho!
- Some English girls and boys are coming to see me to-morrow and I
- want to have a jolly time. If it's fine, I'm going to pitch my tent in
- Longmeadow, and row up the whole crew to lunch and croquet- have a
- fire, make messes, gypsy fashion, and all sorts of larks. They are
- nice people, and like such things. Brooke will go, to keep us boys
- steady, and Kate Vaughn will play propriety for the girls. I want
- you all to come; can't let Beth off, at any price, and nobody shall
- worry her. Don't bother about rations- I'll see to that, and
- everything else- only do come, there's a good fellow!
- In a tearing hurry,
- Yours ever,
- LAURIE.
-
- "Here's richness!" cried Jo, flying in to tell the news to Meg.
- "Of course we can go, mother? it will be such a help to Laurie,
- for I can row, and Meg see to the lunch, and the children be useful in
- some way."
- "I hope the Vaughns are not fine, grown-up people. Do you know
- anything about them, Jo?" asked Meg.
- "Only that there are four of them. Kate is older than you, Fred
- and Frank (twins) about my age, and a little girl (Grace), who is nine
- or ten. Laurie knew them abroad, and liked the boys; I fancied, from
- the way he primmed up his mouth in speaking of her, that he didn't
- admire Kate much."
- "I'm so glad my French print is clean; it's just the thing, and so
- becoming!" observed Meg complacently. "Have you anything decent, Jo?"
- "Scarlet and gray boating suit, good enough for me. I shall row
- and tramp about, so I don't want any starch to think of. You'll
- come, Betty?"
- "If you won't let any of the boys talk to me."
- "Not a boy!"
- "I like to please Laurie; and I'm not afraid of Mr. Brooke, he is so
- kind; but I don't want to play, or sing, or say anything. I'll work
- hard, and not trouble any one; and you'll take care of me, Jo, so I'll
- go."
- "That's my good girl; you do try to fight off your shyness, and I
- love you for it. Fighting faults isn't easy, as I know; and a cheery
- word kind of gives a lift. Thank you, mother," and Jo gave the thin
- cheek a grateful kiss, more precious to Mrs. March than if it had
- given back the rosy roundness of her youth.
- "I had a box of chocolate drops, and the picture I wanted to
- copy," said Amy, showing her mail.
- "And I got a note from Mr. Laurence, asking me to come over and play
- to him to-night, before the lamps are lighted, and I shall go,"
- added Beth, whose friendship with the old gentleman prospered finely.
- "Now let's fly round, and do double duty to-day, so that we can play
- tomorrow with free minds," said Jo, preparing to replace her pen
- with a broom.
- When the sun peeped into the girls' room early next morning, to
- promise them a fine day, he saw a comical sight. Each had made such
- preparation for the fete as seemed necessary and proper. Meg had an
- extra row of little curl-papers across her forehead, Jo had
- copiously anointed her afflicted face with cold cream, Beth had
- taken Joanna to bed with her to atone for the approaching
- separation, and Amy had capped the climax by putting a clothes-pin
- on her nose, to uplift the offending feature. It was one of the kind
- artists use to hold the paper on their drawing-boards, therefore quite
- appropriate and effective for the purpose to which it was now put.
- This funny spectacle appeared to amuse the sun, for he burst out
- with such radiance that Jo woke up, and roused all her sisters by a
- hearty laugh at Amy's ornament.
- Sunshine and laughter were good omens for a pleasure party, and soon
- a lively bustle began in both houses. Beth, who was ready first,
- kept reporting what went on next door, and enlivened her sisters'
- toilets by frequent telegrams from the window.
- "There goes the man with the tent! I see Mrs. Barker doing up the
- lunch in a hamper and a great basket. Now Mr. Laurence is looking up
- at the sky, and the weathercock; I wish he would go, too. There's
- Laurie, looking like a sailor- nice boy! Oh, mercy me! here's a
- carriage full of people- a tall lady, a little girl, and two
- dreadful boys. One is lame; poor thing, he's got a crutch. Laurie
- didn't tell us that. Be quick, girls! it's getting late. Why, there is
- Ned Moffat, I do declare. Look, Meg, isn't that the man who bowed to
- you one day, when we were shopping?"
- "So it is. How queer that he should come. I thought he was at the
- Mountains. There is Sallie; I'm glad she got back in time. Am I all
- right, Jo?" cried Meg, in a flutter.
- "A regular daisy. Hold up your dress and put your hat straight; it
- looks sentimental tipped that way, and will fly off at the first puff.
- Now, then, come on!"
- "O Jo, you are not going to wear that awful hat? It's too absurd!
- You shall not make a guy of yourself," remonstrated Meg, as Jo tied
- down, with a red ribbon, the broad-brimmed, old-fashioned Leghorn
- Laurie had sent for a joke.
- "I just will, though, for it's capital- so shady, light, and big. It
- will make fun; and I don't mind being a guy if I'm comfortable."
- With that Jo marched straight away, and the rest followed- a bright
- little band of sisters, all looking their best, in summer suits,
- with happy faces under the jaunty hat-brims.
- Laurie ran to meet, and present them to his friends, in the most
- cordial manner. The lawn was the reception-room, and for several
- minutes a lively scene was enacted there. Meg was grateful to see that
- Miss Kate, though twenty, was dressed with a simplicity which American
- girls would do well to imitate; and she was much flattered by Mr.
- Ned's assurances that he came especially to see her. Jo understood why
- Laurie "primmed up his mouth" when speaking of Kate, for that young
- lady had a stand-off-don't-touch-me air, which contrasted strongly
- with the free and easy demeanor of the other girls. Beth took an
- observation of the new boys, and decided that the lame one was not
- "dreadful," but gentle and feeble, and she would be kind to him on
- that account. Amy found Grace a well-mannered, merry little person;
- and after staring dumbly at one another for a few minutes, they
- suddenly became very good friends.
- Tents, lunch, and croquet utensils having been sent on beforehand,
- the party was soon embarked, and the two boats pushed off together,
- leaving Mr. Laurence waving his hat on the shore. Laurie and Jo
- rowed one boat; Mr. Brooke and Ned the other; while Fred Vaughn, the
- riotous twin, did his best to upset both by paddling about in a wherry
- like a disturbed water-bug. Jo's funny hat deserved a vote of
- thanks, for it was of general utility; it broke the ice in the
- beginning, by producing a laugh; it created quite a refreshing breeze,
- flapping to and fro, as she rowed, and would make an excellent
- umbrella for the whole party, if a shower came up, she said. Kate
- looked rather amazed at Jo's proceedings, especially as she
- exclaimed "Christopher Columbus!" when she lost her oar; and Laurie
- said, "My dear fellow, did I hurt you?" when he tripped over her
- feet in taking his place. But after putting up her glass to examine
- the queer girl several times, Miss Kate decided that she was "odd, but
- rather clever," and smiled upon her from afar.
- Meg, in the other boat, was delightfully situated, face to face with
- the rowers, who both admired the prospect, and feathered their oars
- with uncommon "skill and dexterity." Mr. Brooke was a grave, silent
- young man, with handsome brown eyes and a pleasant voice. Meg liked
- his quiet manners, and considered him a walking encyclopaedia of
- useful knowledge. He never talked to her much; but he looked at her
- a good deal, and she felt sure that he did not regard her with
- aversion. Ned, being in college, of course put on all the airs which
- Freshmen think it their bounden duty to assume; he was not very
- wise, but very good-natured, and altogether an excellent person to
- carry on a picnic. Sallie Gardiner was absorbed in keeping her white
- pique dress clean, and chattering with the ubiquitous Fred, who kept
- Beth in constant terror by his pranks.
- It was not far to Longmeadow; but the tent was pitched and the
- wickets down by the time they arrived. A pleasant green field, with
- three wide-spreading oaks in the middle, and a smooth strip of turf
- for croquet.
- "Welcome to Camp Laurence!" said the young host, as they landed,
- with exclamations of delight.
- "Brooke is commander-in-chief; I am commissary-general; the other
- fellows are staff-officers; and you, ladies, are company. The tent
- is for your especial benefit, and that oak is your drawing-room;
- this is the messroom, and the third is the camp-kitchen. Now, let's
- have a game before it gets hot, and then we'll see about dinner."
- Frank, Beth, Amy, and Grace sat down to watch the game played by the
- other eight. Mr. Brooke chose Meg, Kate, and Fred; Laurie took Sallie,
- Jo, and Ned. The Englishers played well; but the Americans played
- better, and contested every inch of the ground as strongly as if the
- spirit Of '76 inspired them. Jo and Fred had several skirmishes, and
- once narrowly escaped high words. Jo was through the last wicket,
- and had missed the stroke, which failure ruffled her a good deal. Fred
- was close behind her, and his turn came before hers; he gave a stroke,
- his ball hit the wicket, and stopped an inch on the wrong side. No one
- was very near; and running up to examine, he gave it a sly nudge
- with his toe, which put it just an inch on the right side.
- "I'm through! Now, Miss Jo, I'll settle you, and get in first,"
- cried the young gentleman, swinging his mallet for another blow.
- "You pushed it; I saw you; it's my turn now," said Jo sharply.
- "Upon my word, I didn't move it; it rolled a bit, perhaps, but
- that is allowed; so stand off, please, and let me have a go at the
- stake."
- "We don't cheat in America, but you can, if you choose," said Jo
- angrily.
- "Yankees are a deal the most tricky, everybody knows. There you go!"
- returned Fred, croqueting her ball far away.
- Jo opened her lips to say something rude, but checked herself in
- time, colored up to her forehead, and stood a minute, hammering down a
- wicket with all her might, while Fred hit the stake, and declared
- himself out with much exultation. She went off to get her ball, and
- was a long time finding it, among the bushes; but she came back,
- looking cool and quiet, and waited her turn patiently. It took several
- strokes to regain the place she had lost; and, when she got there, the
- other side had nearly won, for Kate's ball was the last but one, and
- lay near the stake.
- "By George, it's all up with us! Good-by, Kate. Miss Jo owes me one,
- so you are finished," cried Fred excitedly, as they all drew near to
- see the finish.
- "Yankees have a trick of being generous to their enemies," said
- Jo, with a look that made the lad redden, especially when they beat
- them, she added, as, leaving Kate's ball untouched, she won the game
- by a clever stroke.
- Laurie threw up his hat; then remembered that it wouldn't do to
- exult over the defeat of his guests, and stopped in the middle of a
- cheer to whisper to his friend, "Good for you, Jo! He did cheat, I saw
- him; we can't tell him so, but he won't do it again, take my word
- for it."
- Meg drew her aside, under pretence of pinning up a loose braid,
- and said approvingly, "It was dreadfully provoking; but you kept
- your temper, and I'm so glad, Jo."
- "Don't praise me, Meg, for I could box his ears this minute. I
- should certainly have boiled over if I hadn't stayed among the nettles
- till I got my rage under enough to hold my tongue. It's simmering now,
- so I hope he'll keep out of my way," returned Jo, biting her lips,
- as she glowered at Fred from under her big hat.
- "Time for lunch," said Mr. Brooke, looking at his watch. "Commissary
- general, will you make the fire and get water, while Miss March,
- Sallie, and I spread the table? Who can make good coffee?"
- "Jo can," said Meg, glad to recommend her sister. So Jo, feeling
- that her late lessons in cookery were to do her honor, went to preside
- over the coffee-pot, while the children collected dry sticks, and
- the boys made a fire, and got water from a spring near by. Miss Kate
- sketched, and Frank talked to Beth, who was making little mats of
- braided rushes to serve as plates.
- The commander-in-chief and his aids soon spread the table-cloth with
- an inviting array of eatables and drinkables, prettily decorated
- with green leaves. Jo announced that the coffee was ready, and every
- one settled themselves to a hearty meal; for youth is seldom
- dyspeptic, and exercise develops wholesome appetites. A very merry
- lunch it was; for everything seemed fresh and funny, and frequent
- peals of laughter startled a venerable horse who fed near by. There
- was a pleasing inequality in the table, which produced many mishaps to
- cups and plates; acorns dropped into the milk, little black ants
- partook of the refreshments without being invited, and fuzzy
- caterpillars swung down from the tree, to see what was going on. Three
- white-headed children peeped over the fence, and an objectionable
- dog barked at them from the other side of the river with all his might
- and main.
- "There's salt here, if you prefer it," said Laurie, as he handed
- Jo a saucer of berries.
- "Thank you, I prefer spiders," she replied, fishing up two unwary
- little ones who had gone to a creamy death. "How dare you remind me of
- that horrid dinner-party, when yours is so nice in every way?" added
- Jo, as they both laughed, and ate out of one plate, the china having
- run short.
- "I had an uncommonly good time that day, and haven't got over it
- yet. This is no credit to me, you know; I don't do anything; it's
- you and Meg and Brooke who make it go, and I'm no end obliged to
- you. What shall we do when we can't eat any more?" asked Laurie,
- feeling that his trump card had been played when lunch was over.
- "Have games, till it's cooler. I brought 'Authors,' and I dare say
- Miss Kate knows something new and nice. Go and ask her; she's company,
- and you ought to stay with her more."
- "Aren't you company too? I thought she'd suit Brooke; but he keeps
- talking to Meg, and Kate just stares at them through that ridiculous
- glass of hers. I'm going, so you needn't try to preach propriety,
- for you can't do it, Jo."
- Miss Kate did know several new games; and as the girls would not,
- and the boys could not, eat any more, they all adjourned to the
- drawing-room to play "Rigmarole."
- "One person begins a story, any nonsense you like, and tells as long
- as he pleases, only taking care to stop short at some exciting
- point, when the next takes it up and does the same. It's very funny
- when well done, and makes a perfect jumble of tragical comical stuff
- to laugh over. Please start it, Mr. Brooke," said Kate, with a
- commanding air, which surprised Meg, who treated the tutor with as
- much respect as any other gentleman.
- Lying on the grass at the feet of the two young ladies, Mr. Brooke
- obediently began the story with the handsome brown eyes steadily fixed
- upon the sunshiny river.
- "Once on a time, a knight went out into the world to seek his
- fortune, for he had nothing but his sword and his shield. He travelled
- a long while, nearly eight-and-twenty years, and had a hard time of
- it, till he came to the palace of a good old king, who had offered a
- reward to any one who would tame and train a fine but unbroken colt,
- of which he was very fond. The knight agreed to try, and got on slowly
- but surely; for the colt was a gallant fellow, and soon learned to
- love his new master, though he was freakish and wild. Every day,
- when he gave his lessons to this pet of the king's, the knight rode
- him through the city; and, as he rode, he looked everywhere for a
- certain beautiful face, which he had seen many times in his dreams,
- but never found. One day, as he went prancing down a quiet street,
- he saw at the window of a ruinous castle the lovely face. He was
- delighted, inquired who lived in this old castle, and was told that
- several captive princesses were kept there by a spell, and spun all
- day to lay up money to buy their liberty. The knight wished
- intensely that he could free them; but he was poor, and could only
- go by each day, watching for the sweet face, and longing to see it out
- in the sunshine. At last he resolved to get into the castle and ask
- how he could help them. He went and knocked; the great door flew open,
- and he beheld-"
- "A ravishingly lovely lady, who exclaimed, with a cry of rapture,
- 'At last! at last!'" continued Kate, who had read French novels, and
- admired the style. "'Tis she!' cried Count Gustave, and fell at her
- feet in an ecstasy of joy. 'Oh, rise!' she said, extending a hand of
- marble fairness. 'Never! till you tell me how I may rescue you,' swore
- the knight, still kneeling. 'Alas, my cruel fate condemns me to remain
- here till my tyrant is destroyed.' 'Where is the villain?' 'In the
- mauve salon. Go, brave heart, and save me from despair.' 'I obey,
- and return victorious or dead!' With these thrilling words he rushed
- away, and flinging open the door of the mauve salon, was about to
- enter, when he received-"
- "A stunning blow from the big Greek lexicon, which an old fellow
- in a black gown fired at him," said Ned. "Instantly Sir
- What's-his-name recovered himself, pitched the tyrant out of the
- window, and turned to join the lady, victorious, but with a bump on
- his brow; found the door locked, tore up the curtains, made a rope
- ladder, got half-way down when the ladder broke, and he went head
- first into the moat, sixty feet below. Could swim like a duck, paddled
- round the castle till he came to a little door guarded by two stout
- fellows; knocked their heads together till they cracked like a
- couple of nuts, then, by a trifling exertion of his prodigious
- strength, he smashed in the door, went up a pair of stone steps
- covered with dust a foot thick, toads as big as your fist, and spiders
- that would frighten you into hysterics, Miss March. At the top of
- these steps he came plump upon a sight that took his breath away and
- chilled his blood-"
- "A tall figure, all in white with a veil over its face and a lamp in
- its wasted hand," went on Meg. "It beckoned gliding noiselessly before
- him down a corridor as dark and cold as any tomb. Shadowy effigies
- in armor stood on either side, a dead silence reigned, the lamp burned
- blue, and the ghostly figure ever and anon turned its face toward him,
- showing the glitter of awful eyes through its white veil. They reached
- a curtained door, behind which sounded lovely music; he sprang forward
- to enter but the spectre plucked him back, and waved threateningly
- before him a-"
- "Snuff-box," said Jo, in a sepulchral tone, which convulsed the
- audience. "'Thankee,' said the knight politely, as he took a pinch,
- and sneezed seven times so violently that his head fell off. 'Ha! ha!'
- laughed the ghost; and having peeped through the key-hole at the
- princesses spinning away for dear life, the evil spirit picked up
- her victim and put him in a large tin box, where there were eleven
- other knights packed together without their heads, like sardines,
- who all rose and began to-"
- "Dance a hornpipe," cut in Fred, as Jo paused for breath; "and, as
- they danced, the rubbishy old castle turned to a man-of-war in full
- sail. 'Up with the jib, reef the tops'l halliards, helm hard a lee,
- and man the guns!' roared the captain, as a Portuguese pirate hove
- in sight, with a flag black as ink flying from her foremast. 'Go in
- and win, my hearties!' says the captain; and a tremendous fight begun.
- Of course the British beat; they always do."
- "No, they don't!" cried Jo, aside.
- "Having taken the pirate captain prisoner, sailed slap over the
- schooner, whose decks were piled with dead, and whose lee-scuppers ran
- blood, for the order had been 'Cutlasses, and die hard!' 'Bosen's
- mate, take a bight of the flying-jib sheet, and start this villain
- if he don't confess his sins double quick,' said the British
- captain. The Portuguese held his tongue like a brick, and walked the
- plank, while the jolly tars cheered like mad. But the sly dog dived,
- came up under the man-of-war, scuttled her, and down she went, with
- all sail set, 'To the bottom of the sea, sea, sea,' where-"
- "Oh, gracious! what shall I say?" cried Sallie, as Fred ended his
- rigmarole, in which he had jumbled together, pell-mell, nautical
- phrases and facts, out of one of his favorite books. "Well, they
- went to the bottom, and a nice mermaid welcomed them, but was much
- grieved on finding the box of headless knights, and kindly pickled
- them in brine, hoping to discover the mystery about them; for, being a
- woman she was curious. By and by a diver came down, and the mermaid
- said, 'I'll give you this box of pearls if you can take it up'; for
- she wanted to restore the poor things to life, and couldn't raise
- the heavy load herself. So the diver hoisted it up, and was much
- disappointed, on opening it, to find no pearls. He left it in a
- great lonely field, where it was found by a-"
- "Little goose-girl, who kept a hundred fat geese in the field," said
- Amy, when Sallie's invention gave out. "The little girl was sorry
- for them, and asked an old woman what she should do to help them.
- 'Your geese will tell you, they know everything,' said the old
- woman. So she asked what she should use for new heads, since the old
- ones were lost, and all the geese opened their hundred mouths and
- screamed-"
- "'Cabbages!'" continued Laurie promptly. "'Just the thing,' said the
- girl, and ran to get twelve fine ones from her garden. She put them
- on, the knights revived at once, thanked her, and went on their way
- rejoicing, never knowing the difference, for there were so many
- other heads like them in the world that no one thought anything of it.
- The knight in whom I'm interested went back to find the pretty face,
- and learned that the princesses had spun themselves free, and all gone
- to be married, but one. He was in a great state of mind at that; and
- mounting the colt, who stood by him through thick and thin, rushed
- to the castle to see which was left. Peeping over the hedge, he saw
- the queen of his affections picking flowers in her garden. 'Will you
- give me a rose?' said he. 'You must come and get it. I can't come to
- you; it isn't proper,' said she, as sweet as honey. He tried to
- climb over the hedge, but it seemed to grow higher and higher; then he
- tried to push through, but it grew thicker and thicker, and he was
- in despair. So he patiently broke twig after twig, till he had made
- a little hole, through which he peeped, saying imploringly, 'Let me
- in! let me in!' But the pretty princess did not seem to understand,
- for she picked her roses quietly, and left him to fight his way in.
- Whether he did or not, Frank will tell you."
- "I can't; I'm not playing, I never do," said Frank, dismayed at
- the sentimental predicament out of which he was to rescue the absurd
- couple. Beth had disappeared behind Jo, and Grace was asleep.
- "So the poor knight is to be left sticking in the hedge, is he?"
- asked Mr. Brooke, still watching the river, and playing with the
- wild rose in his button-hole.
- "I guess the princess gave him a posy, and opened the gate, after
- a while," said Laurie, smiling to himself, as he threw acorns at his
- tutor.
- "What a piece of nonsense we have made! With practice we might do
- something quite clever. Do you know 'Truth'?" asked Sallie, after they
- had laughed over their story.
- "I hope so," said Meg soberly.
- "The game, I mean?"
- "What is it?" said Fred.
- "Why, you pile up your hands, choose a number, and draw out in turn,
- and the person who draws at the number has to answer truly any
- questions put by the rest. It's great fun."
- "Let's try it," said Jo, who liked new experiments.
- Miss Kate and Mr. Brooke, Meg, and Ned declined, but Fred, Sallie,
- Jo, and Laurie piled and drew; and the lot fell to Laurie.
- "Who are your heroes?" asked Jo.
- "Grandfather and Napoleon."
- "Which lady here do you think prettiest?" said Sallie.
- "Margaret."
- "Which do you like best?" from Fred.
- "Jo, of course."
- "What silly questions you ask!" and Jo gave a disdainful shrug as
- the rest laughed at Laurie's matter-of-fact tone.
- "Try again; Truth isn't a bad game," said Fred.
- "It's a very good one for you," retorted Jo, in a low voice.
- Her turn came next.
- "What is your greatest fault?" asked Fred, by way of testing in
- her the virtue he lacked himself.
- "A quick temper."
- "What do you most wish for?" said Laurie.
- "A pair of boot-lacings," returned Jo, guessing and defeating his
- purpose.
- "Not a true answer; you must say what you really do want most."
- "Genius; don't you wish you could give it to me, Laurie?" and she
- slyly smiled in his disappointed face.
- "What virtues do you most admire in a man?" asked Sallie.
- "Courage and honesty."
- "Now my turn," said Fred, as his hand came last.
- "Let's give it to him," whispered Laurie to Jo, who nodded, and
- asked at once-
- "Didn't you cheat at croquet?"
- "Well, yes, a little bit."
- "Good! Didn't you take your story out of 'The Sea-Lion'?" said
- Laurie.
- "Rather."
- "Don't you think the English nation perfect in every respect?" asked
- Sallie.
- "I should be ashamed of myself if I didn't."
- "He's a true John Bull. Now, Miss Sallie, you shall have a chance
- without waiting to draw. I'll harrow up your feelings first, by asking
- if you don't think you are something of a flirt," said Laurie, as Jo
- nodded to Fred, as a sign that peace was declared.
- "You impertinent boy! of course I'm not," exclaimed Sallie, with
- an air that proved the contrary.
- "What do you hate most?" asked Fred.
- "Spiders and rice-pudding."
- "What do you like best?" asked Jo.
- "Dancing and French gloves."
- "Well, I think Truth is a very silly play; let's have a sensible
- game of Authors, to refresh our minds," proposed Jo.
- Ned, Frank, and the little girls joined in this, and, while it
- went on, the three elders sat apart, talking. Miss Kate took out her
- sketch again, and Margaret watched her, while Mr. Brooke lay on the
- grass, with a book, which he did not read.
- "How beautifully you do it! I wish I could draw," said Meg, with
- mingled admiration and regret in her voice.
- "Why don't you learn? I should think you had taste and talent for
- it," replied Miss Kate graciously.
- "I haven't time."
- "Your mamma prefers other accomplishments, I fancy. So did mine; but
- I proved to her that I had talent, by taking a few lessons
- privately, and then she was quite willing I should go on. Can't you do
- the same with your governess?"
- "I have none."
- "I forgot; young ladies in America go to school more than with us.
- Very fine schools they are, too, papa says. You go to a private one, I
- suppose?"
- "I don't go at all; I am a governess myself."
- "Oh, indeed!" said Miss Kate; but she might as well have said, "Dear
- me, how dreadful!" for her tone implied it, and something in her
- face made Meg color, and wish she had not been so frank.
- Mr. Brooke looked up, and said quickly, "Young ladies in America
- love independence as much as their ancestors did, and are admired
- and respected for supporting themselves."
- "Oh, yes; of course it's very nice and proper in them to do so. We
- have many most respectable and worthy young women, who do the same and
- are employed by the nobility, because, being the daughters of
- gentlemen, they are both well-bred and accomplished, you know," said
- Miss Kate, in a patronizing tone, that hurt Meg's pride, and made
- her work seem not only more distasteful, but degrading.
- "Did the German song suit, Miss March?" inquired Mr. Brooke,
- breaking an awkward pause.
- "Oh, yes! it was very sweet, and I'm much obliged to whoever
- translated it for me"; and Meg's downcast face brightened as she
- spoke.
- "Don't you read German?" asked Miss Kate, with a look of surprise.
- "Not very well. My father, who taught me, is away, and I don't get
- on very fast alone, for I've no one to correct my pronunciation."
- "Try a little now; here is Schiller's 'Mary Stuart,' and a tutor who
- loves to teach," and Mr. Brooke laid his book on her lap, with an
- inviting smile.
- "It's so hard I'm afraid to try," said Meg, grateful, but bashful in
- the presence of the accomplished young lady beside her.
- "I'll read a bit to encourage you"; and Miss Kate read one of the
- most beautiful passages, in a perfectly correct but perfectly
- expressionless manner.
- Mr. Brooke made no comment, as she returned the book to Meg, who
- said innocently-
- "I thought it was poetry."
- "Some of it is. Try this passage."
- There was a queer smile about Mr. Brooke's mouth as he opened at
- poor Mary's lament.
- Meg obediently following the long grass-blade which her new tutor
- used to point with, read slowly and timidly, unconsciously making
- poetry of the hard words by the soft intonation of her musical
- voice. Down the page went the green guide, and presently, forgetting
- her listener in the beauty of the sad scene, Meg read as if alone,
- giving a little touch of tragedy to the words of the unhappy queen. If
- she had seen the brown eyes then, she would have stopped short; but
- she never looked up, and the lesson was not spoiled for her.
- "Very well indeed!" said Mr. Brooke, as she paused, quite ignoring
- her many mistakes, and looking as if he did, indeed, "love to teach."
- Miss Kate put up her glass, and, having taken a survey of the little
- tableau before her, shut her sketch-book, saying, with condescension-
- "You've a nice accent, and, in time, will be a clever reader. I
- advise you to learn, for German is a valuable accomplishment to
- teachers. I must look after Grace, she is romping"; and Miss Kate
- strolled away, adding to herself, with a shrug, "I didn't come to
- chaperone a governess, though she is young and pretty. What odd people
- these Yankees are; I'm afraid Laurie will be quite spoilt among them."
- "I forgot that English people rather turn up their noses at
- governesses, and don't treat them as we do," said Meg, looking after
- the retreating figure with an annoyed expression.
- "Tutors, also, have rather a hard time of it there, as I know to
- my sorrow. There's no place like America for us workers, Miss
- Margaret"; and Mr. Brooke looked so contented and cheerful, that Meg
- was shamed to lament her hard lot.
- "I'm glad I live in it then. I don't like my work, but I get a
- good deal of satisfaction out of it after all, so I won't complain;
- I only wish I liked teaching as you do."
- "I think you would if you had Laurie for a pupil. I shall be very
- sorry to lose him next year," said Mr. Brooke, busily punching holes
- in the turf.
- "Going to college, I suppose?" Meg's lips asked that question, but
- her eyes added, "And what becomes of you?"
- "Yes; it's high time he went, for he is ready; and as soon as he
- is off, I shall turn soldier. I am needed."
- "I am glad of that!" exclaimed Meg. "I should think every young
- man would want to go; though it is hard for the mothers and sisters
- who stay at home," she added sorrowfully.
- "I have neither, and very few friends, to care whether I live or
- die," said Mr. Brooke, rather bitterly, as he absently put the dead
- rose in the hole he had made and covered it up, like a little grave.
- "Laurie and his grandfather would care a great deal, and we should
- all be very sorry to have any harm happen to you," said Meg heartily.
- "Thank you; that sounds pleasant," began Mr. Brooke, looking
- cheerful again; but before he could finish his speech, Ned, mounted on
- the old horse, came lumbering up to display his equestrian skill
- before the young ladies, and there was no more quiet that day.
- "Don't you love to ride?" asked Grace of Amy, as they stood resting,
- after a race round the field with the others, led by Ned.
- "I dote upon it; my sister Meg used to ride when papa was rich,
- but we don't keep any horses now, except Ellen Tree," added Amy,
- laughing.
- "Tell me about Ellen Tree; is it a donkey?" asked Grace, curiously.
- "Why, you see, Jo is crazy about horses, and so am I, but we've only
- got an old side-saddle, and no horse. Out in our garden is an
- apple-tree, that has a nice low branch; so Jo put the saddle on it,
- fixed some reins on the part that turns up, and we bounce away on
- Ellen Tree whenever we like."
- "How funny!" laughed Grace. "I have a pony at home, and ride
- nearly every day in the park, with Fred and Kate; it's very nice,
- for my friends go too, and the Row is full of ladies and gentlemen."
- "Dear, how charming! I hope I shall go abroad some day; but I'd
- rather go to Rome than the Row," said Amy who had not the remotest
- idea what the Row was, and wouldn't have asked for the world.
- Frank, sitting just behind the little girls, heard what they were
- saying, and pushed his crutch away from him with an impatient
- gesture as he watched the active lads going through all sorts of
- comical gymnastics. Beth, who was collecting the scattered
- Author-cards, looked up, and said, in her shy yet friendly way-
- "I'm afraid you are tired; can I do anything for you?"
- "Talk to me, please; it's dull, sitting by myself," answered
- Frank, who had evidently been used to being made much of at home.
- If he had asked her to deliver a Latin oration, it would not have
- seemed a more impossible task to bashful Beth; but there was no
- place to run to, no Jo to hide behind now, and the poor boy looked
- so wistfully at her, that she bravely resolved to try.
- "What do you like to talk about?" she asked, fumbling over the
- cards, and dropping half as she tried to tie them up.
- "Well, I like to hear about cricket and boating and hunting," said
- Frank, who had not yet learned to suit his amusements to his strength.
- "My heart! what shall I do? I don't know anything about them,"
- thought Beth; and, forgetting the boy's misfortune in her flurry,
- she said, hoping to make him talk, "I never saw any hunting, but I
- suppose you know all about it."
- "I did once; but I can never hunt again, for I got hurt leaping a
- confounded five-barred gate; so there are no more horses and hounds
- for me," said Frank, with a sigh that made Beth hate herself for her
- innocent blunder.
- "Your deer are much prettier than our ugly buffaloes," she said,
- turning to the prairies for help, and feeling glad that she had read
- one of the boys' books in which Jo delighted.
- Buffaloes proved soothing and satisfactory; and, in her eagerness to
- amuse another, Beth forgot herself, and was quite unconscious of her
- sister's surprise and delight at the unusual spectacle of Beth talking
- away to one of the dreadful boys, against whom she had begged
- protection.
- "Bless her heart! She pities him, so she is good to him," said Jo,
- beaming at her from the croquet-ground.
- "I always said she was a little saint," added Meg, as if there could
- be no further doubt of it.
- "I haven't heard Frank laugh so much for ever so long," said Grace
- to Amy, as they sat discussing dolls, and making tea-sets out of the
- acorn-cups.
- "My sister Beth is a very fastidious girl, when she likes to be,"
- said Amy, well pleased at Beth's success. She meant "fascinating," but
- as Grace didn't know the exact meaning of either word, "fastidious"
- sounded well, and made a good impression.
- An impromptu circus, fox and geese, and an amicable game of croquet,
- finished the afternoon. At sunset the tent was struck, hampers packed,
- wickets pulled up, boats loaded, and the whole party floated down
- the river, singing at the tops of their voices. Ned, getting
- sentimental, warbled a serenade with the pensive refrain-
-
- "Alone, alone, ah! woe, alone,"
-
- and at the lines-
-
- "We each are young, we each have a heart,
- Oh, why should we stand thus coldly apart?"
-
- he looked at Meg with such a lackadaisical expression that she laughed
- outright and spoilt his song.
- "How can you be so cruel to me?" he whispered, under cover of a
- lively chorus. "You've kept close to that starched-up Englishwoman all
- day, and now you snub me."
- "I didn't mean to; but you looked so funny I really couldn't help
- it," replied Meg, passing over the first part of his reproach; for
- it was quite true that she had shunned him, remembering the Moffat
- party and the talk after it.
- Ned was offended, and turned to Sallie for consolation, saying to
- her rather pettishly, "There isn't a bit of flirt in that girl, is
- there?"
- "Not a particle; but she's a dear," returned Sallie, defending her
- friend even while confessing her shortcomings.
- "She's not a stricken deer, anyway," said Ned, trying to be witty,
- and succeeding as well as very young gentlemen usually do.
- On the lawn, where it had gathered, the little party separated
- with cordial good-nights and good-byes, for the Vaughns were going
- to Canada. As the four sisters went home through the garden, Miss Kate
- looked after them, saying, without the patronizing tone in her
- voice, "In spite of their demonstrative manners, American girls are
- very nice when one knows them."
- "I quite agree with you," said Mr. Brooke.
- 13
- Castles in the Air
-
- LAURIE lay luxuriously swinging to and fro in his hammock, one
- warm September afternoon, wondering what his neighbors were about, but
- too lazy to go and find out. He was in one of his moods; for the day
- had been both unprofitable and unsatisfactory, and he was wishing he
- could live it over again. The hot weather made him indolent, and he
- had shirked his studies, tried Mr. Brooke's patience to the utmost,
- displeased his grandfather by practising half the afternoon,
- frightened the maid-servants half out of their wits, by
- mischievously hinting that one of his dogs was going mad, and, after
- high words with the stable-man about some fancied neglect of his
- horse, he had flung himself into his hammock, to fume over the
- stupidity of the world in general, till the peace of the lovely day
- quieted him in spite of himself Staring up into the green gloom of the
- horse-chestnut trees above him, he dreamed dreams of all sorts, and
- was just imagining himself tossing on the ocean, in a voyage round the
- world, when the sound of voices brought him ashore in a flash. Peeping
- through the meshes of the hammock, he saw the Marches coming out, as
- if bound on some expedition.
- "What in the world are those girls about now?" thought Laurie,
- opening his sleepy eyes to take a good look, for there was something
- rather peculiar in the appearance of his neighbors. Each wore a large,
- flapping hat, a brown linen pouch slung over one shoulder, and carried
- a long staff. Meg had a cushion, Jo a book, Beth a basket, and Amy a
- portfolio. All walked quietly through the garden, out at the little
- back gate, and began to climb the hill that lay between the house
- and river.
- "Well, that's cool!" said Laurie to himself, "to have a picnic and
- never ask me. They can't be going in the boat, for they haven't got
- the key. Perhaps they forgot it; I'll take it to them, and see
- what's going on."
- Though possessed of half a dozen hats, it took him some time to find
- one; then there was a hunt for the key, which was at last discovered
- in his pocket; so that the girls were quite out of sight when he
- leaped the fence and ran after them. Taking the shortest way to the
- boat-house, he waited for them to appear: but no one came, and he went
- up the hill to take an observation. A grove of pines covered one
- part of it, and from the heart of this green spot came a clearer sound
- than the soft sigh of the pines or the drowsy chirp of the crickets.
- "Here's a landscape!" thought Laurie, peeping through the bushes,
- and looking wide-awake and good-natured already.
- It was rather a pretty little picture; for the sisters sat
- together in the shady nook, with sun and shadow flickering over
- them, the aromatic wind lifting their hair and cooling their hot
- cheeks, and all the little wood-people going on with their affairs
- as if these were no strangers, but old friends. Meg sat upon her
- cushion, sewing daintily with her white hands, and looking as fresh
- and sweet as a rose, in her pink dress, among the green. Beth was
- sorting the cones that lay thick under the hemlock near by, for she
- made pretty things of them. Amy was sketching a group of ferns, and Jo
- was knitting as she read aloud. A shadow passed over the boy's face as
- he watched them, feeling that he ought to go away, because
- uninvited; yet lingering, because home seemed very lonely, and this
- quiet party in the woods most attractive to his restless spirit. He
- stood so still that a squirrel, busy with its harvesting, ran down a
- pine close beside him, saw him suddenly and skipped back, scolding
- so shrilly that Beth looked up, espied the wistful face behind the
- birches, and beckoned with a reassuring smile.
- "May I come in, please? or shall I be a bother?" he asked, advancing
- slowly.
- Meg lifted her eyebrows, but Jo scowled at her defiantly, and
- said, at once, "Of course you may. We should have asked you before,
- only we thought you wouldn't care for such a girl's game as this."
- "I always liked your games; but if Meg doesn't want me, I'll go
- away."
- "I've no objection, if you do something; it's against the rules to
- be idle here," replied Meg, gravely but graciously.
- "Much obliged; I'll do anything if you'll let me stop a bit, for
- it's as dull as the Desert of Sahara down there. Shall I sew, read,
- cone, draw, or do all at once? Bring on your bears; I'm ready," and
- Laurie sat down, with a submissive expression delightful to behold.
- "Finish this story while I set my heel," said Jo, handing him the
- book.
- "Yes'm," was the meek answer, as he began, doing his best to prove
- his gratitude for the favor of an admission into the "Busy Bee
- Society."
- The story was not a long one, and, when it was finished, he ventured
- to ask a few questions as a reward of merit.
- "Please, ma'am, could I inquire if this highly instructive and
- charming institution is a new one?"
- "Would you tell him?" asked Meg of her sisters.
- "He'll laugh," said Amy warningly.
- "Who cares?" said Jo.
- "I guess he'll like it," added Beth.
- "Of course I shall! I give you my word I won't laugh. Tell away, Jo,
- and don't be afraid."
- "The idea of being afraid of you! Well, you see we used to play
- 'Pilgrim's Progress,' and we have been going on with it in earnest,
- all winter and summer."
- "Yes, I know," said Laurie, nodding wisely.
- "Who told you?" demanded Jo.
- "Spirits."
- "No, I did; I wanted to amuse him one night when you were all
- away, and he was rather dismal. He did like it, so don't scold, Jo,"
- said Beth meekly.
- "You can't keep a secret. Never mind; it saves trouble now."
- "Go on, please," said Laurie, as Jo became absorbed in her work,
- looking a trifle displeased.
- "Oh, didn't she tell you about this new plan of ours? Well, we
- have tried not to waste our holiday, but each has had a task, and
- worked at it with a will. The vacation is nearly over, the stints
- are all done, and we are ever so glad we didn't dawdle."
- "Yes, I should think so"; and Laurie thought regretfully of his
- own idle days.
- "Mother likes to have us out of doors as much as possible; so we
- bring our work here, and have nice times. For the fun of it we bring
- our things in these bags, wear the old hats, use poles to climb the
- hill, and play pilgrims, as we used to do years ago. We call this hill
- the 'Delectable Mountain,' for we can look far away and see the
- country where we hope to live some time."
- Jo pointed, and Laurie sat up to examine; for through an opening
- in the wood one could look across the wide, blue river, the meadows on
- the other side, far over the outskirts of the great city, to the green
- hills that rose to meet the sky. The sun was low, and the heavens
- glowed with the splendor of an autumn sunset. Gold and purple clouds
- lay on the hill-tops; and rising high into the ruddy light were
- silvery white peaks, that shone like the airy spires of some Celestial
- City.
- "How beautiful that is!" said Laurie softly, for he was quick to see
- and feel beauty of any kind.
- "It's often so; and we like to watch it, for it is never the same,
- but always splendid," replied Amy, wishing she could paint it.
- "Jo talks about the country where we hope to live some time- the
- real country, she means, with pigs and chickens and haymaking. It
- would be nice, but I wish the beautiful country up there was real, and
- we could ever go to it," said Beth musingly.
- "There is a lovelier country even than that, where we shall go, by
- and by, when we are good enough," answered Meg, with her sweet voice.
- "It seems so long to wait, so hard to do; I want to fly away at
- once, as those swallows fly, and go in at that splendid gate."
- "You'll get there, Beth, sooner or later; no fear of that," said Jo;
- "I'm the one that will have to fight and work, and climb and wait, and
- maybe never get in after all."
- "You'll have me for company, if that's any comfort. I shall have
- to do a deal of travelling before I come in sight of your Celestial
- City. If I arrive late, you'll say a good word for me, won't you,
- Beth?"
- Something in the boy's face troubled his little friend; but she said
- cheerfully, with her quiet eyes on the changing clouds, "If people
- really want to go, and really try all their lives, I think they will
- get in; for I don't believe there are any locks on that door, or any
- guards at the gate. I always imagine it is as it is in the picture,
- where the shining ones stretch out their hands to welcome poor
- Christian as he comes up from the river."
- "Wouldn't it be fun if all the castles in the air which we make
- could come true, and we could live in them?" said Jo, after a little
- pause.
- "I've made such quantities it would be hard to choose which I'd
- have," said Laurie, lying flat, and throwing cones at the squirrel who
- had betrayed him.
- "You'd have to take your favorite one. What is it?" asked Meg.
- "If I tell mine, will you tell yours?"
- "Yes, if the girls will too."
- "We will. Now, Laurie."
- "After I'd seen as much of the world as I want to, I'd like to
- settle in Germany, and have just as much music as I choose. I'm to
- be a famous musician myself, and all creation is to rush to hear me;
- and I'm never to be bothered about money or business, but just enjoy
- myself, and live for what I like. That's my favorite castle. What's
- yours, Meg?"
- Margaret seemed to find it a little hard to tell hers, and waved a
- brake before her face, as if to disperse imaginary gnats, while she
- said slowly, "I should like a lovely house, full of all sorts of
- luxurious things- nice food, pretty clothes, handsome furniture,
- pleasant people, and heaps of money. I am to be mistress of it, and
- manage it as I like, with plenty of servants, so I never need work a
- bit. How I should enjoy it! for I wouldn't be idle, but do good, and
- make every one love me dearly."
- "Wouldn't you have a master for your castle in the air?" asked
- Laurie slyly.
- "I said 'pleasant people,' you know"; and Meg carefully tied up
- her shoe as she spoke, so that no one saw her face.
- "Why don't you say you'd have a splendid, wise, good husband, and
- some angelic little children? You know your castle wouldn't be perfect
- without," said blunt Jo, who had no tender fancies yet, and rather
- scorned romance, except in books.
- "You'd have nothing but horses, inkstands, and novels in yours,"
- answered Meg petulantly.
- "Wouldn't I, though? I'd have a stable full of Arabian steeds, rooms
- piled with books, and I'd write out of a magic inkstand, so that my
- works should be as famous as Laurie's music. I want to do something
- splendid before I go into my castle- something heroic or wonderful,
- that won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know what, but I'm
- on the watch for it, and mean to astonish you all, some day. I think I
- shall write books, and get rich and famous: that would suit me, so
- that is my favorite dream."
- "Mine is to stay at home safe with father and mother, and help
- take care of the family," said Beth contentedly.
- "Don't you wish for anything else?" asked Laurie.
- "Since I had my little piano, I am perfectly satisfied. I only
- wish we may all keep well and be together; nothing else."
- "I have ever so many wishes; but the pet one is to be an artist, and
- go to Rome, and do fine pictures, and be the best artist in the
- whole world," was Amy's modest desire.
- "We're an ambitious set, aren't we? Every one of us, but Beth, wants
- to be rich and famous, and gorgeous in every respect. I do wonder if
- any of us will ever get our wishes," said Laurie, chewing grass,
- like a meditative calf.
- "I've got the key to my castle in the air; but whether I can
- unlock the door remains to be seen," observed Jo mysteriously.
- "I've got the key to mine, but I'm not allowed to try it. Hang
- college!" muttered Laurie, with an impatient sigh.
- "Here's mine!" and Amy waved her pencil.
- "I haven't got any," said Meg forlornly.
- "Yes, you have," said Laurie at once.
- "Where?"
- "In your face."
- "Nonsense; that's of no use."
- "Wait and see if it doesn't bring you something worth having,"
- replied the boy, laughing at the thought of a charming little secret
- which he fancied he knew.
- Meg colored behind the brake, but asked no questions, and looked
- across the river with the same expectant expression which Mr. Brooke
- had worn when he told the story of the knight.
- "If we are all alive ten years hence, let's meet, and see how many
- of us have got our wishes, or how much nearer we are then than now,"
- said Jo, always ready with a plan.
- "Bless me! how old I shall be- twenty-seven!" exclaimed Meg, who
- felt grown up already, having just reached seventeen.
- "You and I will be twenty-six, Teddy, Beth twenty-four, and Amy
- twenty-two. What a venerable party!" said Jo.
- "I hope I shall have done something to be proud of by that time; but
- I'm such a lazy dog, I'm afraid I shall 'dawdle,' Jo."
- "You need a motive, mother says; and when you get it, she is sure
- you'll work splendidly."
- "Is she? By Jupiter I will, if I only get the chance!" cried Laurie,
- sitting up with sudden energy. "I ought to be satisfied to please
- grandfather, and I do try, but it's working against the grain, you
- see, and comes hard. He wants me to be an India merchant, as he was,
- and I'd rather be shot. I hate tea and silk and spices, and every sort
- of rubbish his old ships bring, and I don't care how soon they go to
- the bottom when I own them. Going to college ought to satisfy him, for
- if I give him four years he ought to let me off from the business; but
- he's set, and I've got to do just as he did, unless I break away and
- please myself, as my father did. If there was any one left to stay
- with the old gentleman, I'd do it to-morrow."
- Laurie spoke excitedly, and looked ready to carry his threat into
- execution on the slightest provocation; for he was growing up very
- fast, and, in spite of his indolent ways, had a young man's hatred
- of subjection, a young man's restless longing to try the world for
- himself.
- "I advise you to sail away in one of your ships, and never come home
- again till you have tried your own way," said Jo, whose imagination
- was fired by the thought of such a daring exploit, and whose
- sympathy was excited by what she called "Teddy's wrongs."
- "That's not right, Jo; you mustn't talk in that way, and Laurie
- mustn't take your bad advice. You should do just what your grandfather
- wishes, my dear boy," said Meg, in her most maternal tone. "Do your
- best at college, and, when he sees that you try to please him, I'm
- sure he won't be hard or unjust to you. As you say, there is no one
- else to stay with and love him, and you'd never forgive yourself if
- you left him without his permission. Don't be dismal or fret, but do
- your duty; and you'll get your reward, as good Mr. Brooke has, by
- being respected and loved."
- "What do you know about him?" asked Laurie, grateful for the good
- advice, but objecting to the lecture, and glad to turn the
- conversation from himself, after his unusual outbreak.
- "Only what your grandpa told us about him- how he took good care
- of his own mother till she died, and wouldn't go abroad as tutor to
- some nice person, because he wouldn't leave her; and how he provides
- now for an old woman who nursed his mother; and never tells any one,
- but is just as generous and patient and good as he can be."
- "So he is, dear old fellow!" said Laurie heartily, as Meg paused,
- looking flushed and earnest with her story. "It's like grandpa to find
- out all about him, without letting him know, and to tell all his
- goodness to others, so that they might like him. Brooke couldn't
- understand why your mother was so kind to him, asking him over with
- me, and treating him in her beautiful friendly way. He thought she was
- just perfect, and talked about it for days and days, and went on about
- you all in flaming style. If ever I do get my wish, you see what
- I'll do for Brooke."
- "Begin to do something now, by not plaguing his life out," said
- Meg sharply.
- "How do you know I do, miss?"
- "I can always tell by his face, when he goes away. If you have
- been good, he looks satisfied and walks briskly; if you have plagued
- him, he's sober and walks slowly, as if he wanted to go back and do
- his work better."
- "Well, I like that! So you keep an account of my good and bad
- marks in Brooke's face, do you? I see him bow and smile as he passes
- your window, but I didn't know you'd got up a telegraph."
- "We haven't; don't be angry, and oh, don't tell him I said anything!
- It was only to show that I cared how you get on, and what is said here
- is said in confidence, you know," cried Meg, much alarmed at the
- thought of what might follow from her careless speech.
- "I don't tell tales," replied Laurie, with his "high and mighty"
- air, as Jo called a certain expression which he occasionally wore.
- "Only if Brooke is going to be a thermometer, I must mind and have
- fair weather for him to report."
- "Please don't be offended. I didn't mean to preach or tell tales
- or be silly; I only thought Jo was encouraging you in a feeling
- which you'd be sorry for, by and by. You are so kind to us, we feel as
- if you were our brother, and say just what we think. Forgive me, I
- meant it kindly." And Meg offered her hand with a gesture both
- affectionate and timid.
- Ashamed of his momentary pique, Laurie squeezed the kind little
- hand, and said frankly, "I'm the one to be forgiven; I'm cross, and
- have been out of sorts all day. I like to have you tell me my faults
- and be sisterly, so don't mind if I am grumpy sometimes; I thank you
- all the same."
- Bent on showing that he was not offended, he made himself as
- agreeable as possible- wound cotton for Meg, recited poetry to
- please Jo, shook down cones for Beth and helped Amy with her ferns,
- proving himself a fit person to belong to the "Busy Bee Society." In
- the midst of an animated discussion on the domestic habits of
- turtles (one of those amiable creatures having strolled up from the
- river), the faint sound of a bell warned them that Hannah had put
- the tea "to draw," and they would just have time to get home to
- supper.
- "May I come again?" asked Laurie.
- "Yes, if you are good, and love your book, as the boys in the primer
- are told to do," said Meg, smiling.
- "I'll try."
- "Then you may come, and I'll teach you to knit as the Scotchmen
- do; there's a demand for socks just now," added Jo, waving hers,
- like a big blue worsted banner, as they parted at the gate.
- That night, when Beth played to Mr. Laurence in the twilight,
- Laurie, standing in the shadow of the curtain, listened to the
- little David, whose simple music always quieted his moody spirit,
- and watched the old man, who sat with his gray head on his hand,
- thinking tender thoughts of the dead child he had loved so much.
- Remembering the conversation of the afternoon, the boy said to
- himself, with the resolve to make the sacrifice cheerfully, "I'll
- let my castle go, and stay with the dear old gentleman while he
- needs me, for I am all he has."
- 14
- Secrets
-
- JO was very busy in the garret, for the October days began to grow
- chilly, and the afternoons were short. For two or three hours the
- sun lay warmly in the high window, showing Jo seated on the old
- sofa, writing busily, with her papers spread out upon a trunk before
- her, while Scrabble, the pet rat, promenaded the beams overhead,
- accompanied by his oldest son, a fine young fellow, who was
- evidently very proud of his whiskers. Quite absorbed in her work, Jo
- scribbled away till the last page was filled, when she signed her name
- with a flourish, and threw down her pen, exclaiming-
- "There, I've done my best! If this won't suit I shall have to wait
- till I can do better."
- Lying back on the sofa, she read the manuscript carefully through,
- making dashes here and there, and putting in many exclamation
- points, which looked like little balloons; then she tied it up with
- a smart red ribbon, and sat a minute looking at it with a sober,
- wistful expression, which plainly showed how earnest her work had
- been. Jo's desk up here was an old tin kitchen, which hung against the
- wall. In it she kept her papers and a few books, safely shut away from
- Scrabble, who, being likewise of a literary turn, was fond of making a
- circulating library of such books as were left in his way, by eating
- the leaves. From this tin receptacle Jo produced another manuscript;
- and, putting both in her pocket, crept quietly down stairs, leaving
- her friends to nibble her pens and taste her ink.
- She put on her hat and jacket as noiselessly as possible, and, going
- to the back entry window, got out upon the roof of a low porch,
- swung herself down to the grassy bank, and took a roundabout way to
- the road. Once there, she composed herself, hailed a passing
- omnibus, and rolled away to town, looking very merry and mysterious.
- If any one had been watching her, he would have thought her
- movements decidedly peculiar; for, on alighting, she went off at a
- great pace till she reached a certain number in a certain busy street;
- having found the place with some difficulty, she went into the
- doorway, looked up the dirty stairs, and, after standing stock still a
- minute suddenly dived into the street, and walked away as rapidly as
- she came. This manoeuvre she repeated several times, to the great
- amusement of a black-eyed young gentleman lounging in the window of
- a building opposite. On returning for the third time, Jo gave
- herself a shake, pulled her hat over her eyes, and walked up the
- stairs, looking as if she were going to have all her teeth out.
- There was a dentist's sign, among others, which adorned the
- entrance, and, after staring a moment at the pair of artificial jaws
- which slowly opened and shut to draw attention to a fine set of teeth,
- the young gentleman put on his coat, took his hat, and went down to
- post himself in the opposite doorway, saying, with a smile and a
- shiver-
- "It's like her to come alone, but if she has a bad time she'll
- need some one to help her home."
- In ten minutes Jo came running down stairs with a very red face, and
- the general appearance of a person who had just passed through a
- trying ordeal of some sort. When she saw the young gentleman she
- looked anything but pleased, and passed him with a nod; but he
- followed, asking, with an air of sympathy-
- "Did you have a bad time?"
- "Not very."
- "You got through quickly."
- "Yes, thank goodness!"
- "Why did you go alone?"
- "Didn't want any one to know."
- "You're the oddest fellow I ever saw. How many did you have out?"
- Jo looked at her friend as if she did not understand him; then began
- to laugh, as if mightily amused at something.
- "There are two which I want to have come out, but I must wait a
- week."
- "What are you laughing at? You are up to some mischief, Jo," said
- Laurie, looking mystified.
- "So are you. What were you doing, sir, up in that billiard saloon?"
- "Begging your pardon, ma'am, it wasn't a billiard saloon, but a
- gymnasium, and I was taking a lesson in fencing."
- "I'm glad of that."
- "Why?"
- "You can teach me, and then when we play Hamlet, you can be Laertes,
- and we'll make a fine thing of the fencing scene."
- Laurie burst out with a hearty boy's laugh, which made several
- passers-by smile in spite of themselves.
- "I'll teach you whether we play Hamlet or not; it's grand fun, and
- will straighten you up capitally. But I don't believe that was your
- only reason for saying 'I'm glad,' in that decided way; was it, now?"
- "No, I was glad that you were not in the saloon, because I hope
- you never go to such places. Do you?"
- "Not often."
- "I wish you wouldn't."
- "It's no harm, Jo. I have billiards at home, but it's no fun
- unless you have good players; so, as I'm fond of it, I come
- sometimes and have a game with Ned Moffat or some of the other
- fellows."
- "Oh dear, I'm so sorry, for you'll get to liking it better and
- better, and will waste time and money, and grow like those dreadful
- boys. I did hope you'd stay respectable, and be a satisfaction to your
- friends," said Jo, shaking her head.
- "Can't a fellow take a little innocent amusement now and then
- without losing his respectability?" asked Laurie, looking nettled.
- "That depends upon how and where he takes it. I don't like Ned and
- his set, and wish you'd keep out of it. Mother won't let us have him
- at our house, though he wants to come; and if you grow like him she
- won't be willing to have us frolic together as we do now."
- "Won't she?" asked Laurie anxiously.
- "No, she can't bear fashionable young men, and she'd shut us all
- up in bandboxes rather than have us associate with them."
- "Well, she needn't get out her bandboxes yet; I'm not a
- fashionable party, and don't mean to be; but I do like harmless
- larks now and then, don't you?"
- "Yes, nobody minds them, so lark away, but don't get wild, will you?
- or there will be an end of all our good times."
- "I'll be a double-distilled saint."
- "I can't bear saints: just be a simple, honest, respectable boy, and
- we'll never desert you. I don't know what I should do if you acted
- like Mr. King's son; he had plenty of money, but didn't know how to
- spend it, and got tipsy and gambled, and ran away, and forged his
- father's name, I believe, and was altogether horrid."
- "You think I'm likely to do the same? Much obliged."
- "No, I don't- oh, dear, no!- but I hear people talking about money
- being such a temptation, and I sometimes wish you were poor; I
- shouldn't worry then."
- "Do you worry about me, Jo?"
- "A little, when you look moody or discontented, as you sometimes do;
- for you've got such a strong will, if you once get started wrong,
- I'm afraid it would be hard to stop you."
- Laurie walked in silence a few minutes, and Jo watched him,
- wishing she had held her tongue, for his eyes looked angry, though his
- lips still smiled as if at her warnings.
- "Are you going to deliver lectures all the way home?" he asked
- presently.
- "Of course not; why?"
- "Because if you are, I'll take a 'bus; if you are not, I'd like to
- walk with you, and tell you something very interesting."
- "I won't preach any more, and I'd like to hear the news immensely."
- "Very well, then; come on. It's a secret, and if I tell you, you
- must tell me yours."
- "I haven't got any," began Jo, but stopped suddenly, remembering
- that she had.
- "You know you have- you can't hide anything; so up and 'fess, or I
- won't tell," cried Laurie.
- "Is your secret a nice one?"
- "Oh, isn't it! all about people you know, and such fun! You ought to
- hear it, and I've been aching to tell it this long time. Come, you
- begin."
- "You'll not say anything about it at home, will you?"
- "Not a word."
- "And you won't tease me in private?"
- "I never tease."
- "Yes, you do; you get everything you want out of people. I don't
- know how you do it, but you are a born wheedler."
- "Thank you; fire away."
- "Well, I've left two stories with a newspaper man, and he's to
- give his answer next week," whispered Jo, in her confidant's ear.
- "Hurrah for Miss March, the celebrated American authoress!" cried
- Laurie, throwing up his hat and catching it again, to the great
- delight of two ducks, four cats, five hens, and half a dozen Irish
- children; for they were out of the city now.
- "Hush! It won't come to anything, I dare say; but I couldn't rest
- till I had tried, and I said nothing about it, because I didn't want
- any one else to be disappointed."
- "It won't fail. Why, Jo, your stories are works of Shakespeare,
- compared to half the rubbish that is published every day. Won't it
- be fun to see them in print; and shan't we feel proud of our
- authoress?"
- Jo's eyes sparkled, for it is always pleasant to be believed in; and
- a friend's praise is always sweeter than a dozen newspaper puffs.
- "Where's your secret? Play fair, Teddy, or I'll never believe you
- again," she said, trying to extinguish the brilliant hopes that blazed
- up at a word of encouragement.
- "I may get into a scrape for telling; but I didn't promise not to,
- so I will, for I never feel easy in my mind till I've told you any
- plummy bit of news I get. I know where Meg's glove is."
- "Is that all?" said Jo, looking disappointed, as Laurie nodded and
- twinkled, with a face full of mysterious intelligence.
- "It's quite enough for the present, as you'll agree when I tell
- you where it is."
- "Tell, then."
- Laurie bent, and whispered three words in Jo's ear, which produced a
- comical change. She stood and stared at him for a minute, looking both
- surprised and displeased, then walked on, saying sharply, "How do
- you know?"
- "Saw it."
- "Where?"
- "Pocket."
- "All this time?"
- "Yes; isn't that romantic?"
- "No, it's horrid."
- "Don't you like it?"
- "Of course I don't. It's ridiculous; it won't be allowed. My
- patience! what would Meg say?"
- "You are not to tell any one; mind that."
- "I didn't promise."
- "That was understood, and I trusted you."
- "Well, I won't for the present, any way; but I'm disgusted, and wish
- you hadn't told me."
- "I thought you'd be pleased."
- "At the idea of anybody coming to take Meg away? No, thank you."
- "You'll feel better about it when somebody comes to take you away."
- "I'd like to see any one try it," cried Jo fiercely.
- "So should I!" and Laurie chuckled at the idea.
- "I don't think secrets agree with me; I feel rumpled up in my mind
- since you told me that," said Jo, rather ungratefully.
- "Race down this hill with me, and you'll be all right," suggested
- Laurie.
- No one was in sight; the smooth road sloped invitingly before her;
- and finding the temptation irresistible, Jo darted away, soon
- leaving hat and comb behind her, and scattering hair-pins as she
- ran. Laurie reached the goal first, and was quite satisfied with the
- success of his treatment; for his Atalanta came panting up, with
- flying hair, bright eyes, ruddy cheeks, and no signs of
- dissatisfaction in her face.
- "I wish I was a horse; then I could run for miles in this splendid
- air, and not lose my breath. It was capital; but see what a guy it's
- made me. Go, pick up my things, like a cherub as you are," said Jo,
- dropping down under a maple-tree, which was carpeting the bank with
- crimson leaves.
- Laurie leisurely departed to recover the lost property, and Jo
- bundled up her braids, hoping no one would pass by till she was tidy
- again. But some one did pass, and who should it be but Meg, looking.
- particularly ladylike in her state and festival suit, for she had been
- making calls.
- "What in the world are you doing here?" she asked, regarding her
- dishevelled sister with well-bred surprise.
- "Getting leaves," meekly answered Jo, sorting the rosy handful she
- had just swept up.
- "And hair-pins," added Laurie, throwing half a dozen into Jo's
- lap. "They grow on this road, Meg; so do combs and brown straw hats."
- "You have been running, Jo; how could you? When will you stop such
- romping ways?" said Meg reprovingly, as she settled her cuffs, and
- smoothed her hair, with which the wind had taken liberties.
- "Never till I'm stiff and old, and have to use a crutch. Don't try
- to make me grow up before my time, Meg; it's hard enough to have you
- change all of a sudden; let me be a little girl as long as I can."
- As she spoke, Jo bent over the leaves to hide the trembling of her
- lips; for lately she had felt that Margaret was fast getting to be a
- woman, and Laurie's secret made her dread the separation which must
- surely come some time, and now seemed very near. He saw the trouble in
- her face? and drew Meg's attention from it by asking quickly, "Where
- have you been calling, all so fine?"
- "'At the Gardiners' and Sallie has been telling me all about Belle
- Moffat's wedding. It was very splendid, and they have gone to spend
- the winter in Paris. Just think how delightful that must be!"
- "Do you envy her, Meg?" said Laurie.
- "I'm afraid I do."
- "I'm glad of it!" murmured Jo, tying on her hat with a jerk.
- "Why?" asked Meg, looking surprised.
- "Because if you care much about riches, you will never go and
- marry a poor man," said Jo, frowning at Laurie, who was mutely warning
- her to mind what she said.
- "I shall never 'go and marry' any one," observed Meg, walking on
- with great dignity, while the others followed, laughing, whispering,
- skipping stones, and "behaving like children," as Meg said to herself,
- though she might have been tempted to join them if she had not had her
- best dress on.
- For a week or two, Jo behaved so queerly that her sisters were quite
- bewildered. She rushed to the door when the postman rang; was rude
- to Mr. Brooke whenever they met; would sit looking at Meg with a
- woebegone face, occasionally jumping up to shake and then to kiss her,
- in a very mysterious manner; Laurie and she were always making signs
- to one another, and talking about "Spread Eagles," till the girls
- declared they had both lost their wits. On the second Saturday after
- Jo got out of the window, Meg, as she sat sewing at her window, was
- scandalized by the sight of Laurie chasing Jo all over the garden, and
- finally capturing her in Amy's bower. What went on there, Meg could
- not see; but shrieks of laughter were heard, followed by the murmur of
- voices and a great flapping of newspapers.
- "What shall we do with that girl? She never will behave like a young
- lady," sighed Meg, as she watched the race with a disapproving face.
- "I hope she won't; she is so funny and dear as she is," said Beth,
- who had never betrayed that she was a little hurt at Jo's having
- secrets with any one but her.
- "It's very trying, but we never can make her commy la fo," added
- Amy, who sat making some new frills for herself, with her curls tied
- up in a very becoming way- two agreeable things, which made her feel
- unusually elegant and ladylike.
- In a few minutes Jo bounced in, laid herself on the sofa, and
- affected to read.
- "Have you anything interesting there?" asked Meg, with
- condescension.
- "Nothing but a story; won't amount to much, I guess," returned Jo,
- carefully keeping the name of the paper out of sight.
- "You'd better read it aloud; that will amuse us and keep you out
- of mischief," said Amy, in her most grown-up tone.
- "What's the name?" asked Beth, wondering why Jo kept her face behind
- the sheet.
- "The Rival Painters."
- "That sounds well; read it," said Meg.
- With a loud "Hem!" and a long breath, Jo began to read very fast.
- The girls listened with interest, for the tale was romantic, and
- somewhat pathetic, as most of the characters died in the end.
- "I like that about the splendid picture," was Amy's approving
- remark, as Jo paused.
- "I prefer the lovering part. Viola and Angelo are two of our
- favorite names; isn't that queer?" said Meg, wiping her eyes, for
- the "lovering part" was tragical.
- "Who wrote it?" asked Beth, who had caught a glimpse of Jo's face.
- The reader suddenly sat up, cast away the paper, displaying a
- flushed countenance, and, with a funny mixture of solemnity and
- excitement, replied in a loud voice, "Your sister."
- "You?" cried Meg, dropping her work.
- "It's very good," said Amy critically.
- "I knew it! I knew it! O my Jo, I am so proud!" and Beth ran to
- hug her sister, and exult over this splendid success.
- Dear me, how delighted they all were, to be sure! how Meg wouldn't
- believe it till she saw the words, "Miss Josephine March," actually
- printed in the paper; how graciously Amy criticized the artistic parts
- of the story, and offered hints for a sequel, which unfortunately
- couldn't be carried out, as the hero and heroine were dead; how Beth
- got excited, and skipped and sung with joy; how Hannah came in to
- exclaim "Sakes alive, well I never!" in great astonishment at "that
- Jo's doin's"; how proud Mrs. March was when she knew it; how Jo
- laughed, with tears in her eyes, as she declared she might as well
- be a peacock and done with it; and how the "Spread Eagle" might be
- said to flap his wings triumphantly over the House of March, as the
- paper passed from hand to hand.
- "Tell us all about it." "When did it come?" "How much did you get
- for it?" "What will father say?" "Won't Laurie laugh?" cried the
- family, all in one breath, as they clustered about Jo; for these
- foolish, affectionate people made a jubilee of every little
- household joy.
- "Stop jabbering, girls, and I'll tell you everything," said Jo,
- wondering if Miss Burney felt any grander over her "Evelina" than
- she did over her "Rival Painters." Having told how she disposed of her
- tales, Jo added, "And when I went to get my answer, the man said he
- liked them both, but didn't pay beginners, only let them print in
- his paper, and noticed the stories. It was good practice, he said; and
- when the beginners improved, any one would pay. So I let him have
- the two stories, and to-day this was sent to me, and Laurie caught
- me with it, and insisted on seeing it, so I let him; and he said it
- was good, and I shall write more, and he's going to get the next
- paid for, and I am so happy, for in time I may be able to support
- myself and help the girls."
- Jo's breath gave out here; and, wrapping her head in the paper,
- she bedewed her little story with a few natural tears; for to be
- independent, and earn the praise of those she loved were the dearest
- wishes of her heart, and this seemed to be the first step toward
- that happy end.
- 15
- A Telegram
-
- "NOVEMBER is the most disagreeable mouth in the whole year," said
- Margaret, standing at the window one dull afternoon, looking out at
- the frost-bitten garden.
- "That's the reason I was born in it," observed Jo pensively, quite
- unconscious of the blot on her nose.
- "If something very pleasant should happen now, we should think it
- a delightful month," said Beth, who took a hopeful view of everything,
- even November.
- "I dare say; but nothing pleasant ever does happen in this
- family," said Meg, who was out of sorts. "We go grubbing along day
- after day, without a bit of change, and very little fun. We might as
- well be in a treadmill."
- "My patience, how blue we are!" cried Jo. "I don't much wonder, poor
- dear, for you see other girls having splendid times, while you
- grind, grind, year in and year out. Oh, don't I wish I could manage
- things for you as I do for my heroines! You're pretty enough and
- good enough already, so I'd have some rich relation leave you a
- fortune unexpectedly; then you'd dash out as an heiress, scorn every
- one who has slighted you, go abroad, and come home my Lady
- Something, in a blaze of splendor and elegance."
- "People don't have fortunes left them in that style now-a-days;
- men have to work, and women to marry for money. It's a dreadfully
- unjust world," said Meg bitterly.
- "Jo and I are going to make fortunes for you all; just wait ten
- years, and see if we don't," said Amy, who sat in a corner, making mud
- pies, as Hannah called her little clay models of birds, fruit, and
- faces.
- "Can't wait, and I'm afraid I haven't much faith in ink and dirt,
- though I'm grateful for your good intentions."
- Meg sighed, and turned to the frost-bitten garden again; Jo groaned,
- and leaned both elbows on the table in a despondent attitude, but
- Amy spatted away energetically; and Beth, who sat at the other window,
- said, smiling, "Two pleasant things are going to happen right away:
- Marmee is coming down the street, and Laurie is tramping through the
- garden as if he had something nice to tell."
- In they both came, Mrs. March with her usual question, "Any letter
- from father, girls?" and Laurie to say in his persuasive way, "Won't
- some of you come for a drive? I've been working away at mathematics
- till my head is in a muddle, and I'm going to freshen my wits by a
- brisk turn. It's a dull day, but the air isn't bad, and I'm going to
- take Brooke home, so it will be gay inside, if it isn't out. Come, Jo,
- you and Beth will go, won't you?"
- "Of course we will."
- "Much obliged, but I'm busy"; and Meg whisked out her work-basket,
- for she had agreed with her mother that it was best, for her at least,
- not to drive often with the young gentleman.
- "We three will be ready in a minute," cried Amy, running away to
- wash her hands.
- "Can I do anything for you, Madam Mother?" asked Laurie, leaning
- over Mrs. March's chair, with the affectionate look and tone he always
- gave her.
- "No, thank you, except call at the office, if you'll be so kind,
- dear. It's our day for a letter, and the postman hasn't been. Father
- is as regular as the sun, but there's some delay on the way, perhaps."
- A sharp ring interrupted her, and a minute after Hannah came in with
- a letter.
- "It's one of them horrid telegraph things, mum," she said, handing
- it as if she was afraid it would explode and do some damage.
- At the word "telegraph," Mrs. March snatched it, read the two
- lines it contained, and dropped back into her chair as white as if the
- little paper had sent a bullet to her heart. Laurie dashed down stairs
- for water, while Meg and Hannah supported her, and Jo read aloud, in a
- frightened voice-
-
- "MRS. MARCH:
- "Your husband is very ill. Come at once.
- "S. HALE,
- "Blank Hospital, Washington."
-
- How still the room was as they listened breathlessly, how
- strangely the day darkened outside, and how suddenly the whole world
- seemed to change, as the girls gathered about their mother, feeling as
- if all the happiness and support of their lives was about to be
- taken from them, Mrs. March was herself again directly; read the
- message over, and stretched out her arms to her daughters, saying in a
- tone they never forgot, "I shall go at once, but it may be too late. O
- children, children, help me to bear it!"
- For several minutes there was nothing but the sound of sobbing in
- the room, mingled with broken words of comfort, tender assurances of
- help, and hopeful whispers that died away in tears. Poor Hannah was
- the first to recover, and with unconscious wisdom she set all the rest
- a good example; for, with her, work was the panacea for most
- afflictions.
- "The Lord keep the dear man! I won't waste no time a cryin', but git
- your things ready right away, mum," she said heartily, as she wiped
- her face on her apron, gave her mistress a warm shake of the hand with
- her own hard one, and went away, to work like three women in one.
- "She's right; there's no time for tears now. Be calm, girls, and let
- me think."
- They tried to be calm, poor things, as their mother sat up,
- looking pale, but steady, and put away her grief to think and plan for
- them.
- "Where's Laurie?" she asked presently, when she had collected her
- thoughts, and decided on the first duties to be done.
- "Here, ma'am. Oh, let me do something!" cried the boy, hurrying from
- the next room, whither he had withdrawn, feeling that their first
- sorrow was too sacred for even his friendly eyes to see.
- "Send a telegram saying I will come at once. The next train goes
- early in the morning. I'll take that."
- "What else? The horses are ready; I can go anywhere, do anything,"
- he said, looking ready to fly to the ends of the earth.
- "Leave a note at Aunt March's. Jo, give me that pen and paper."
- Tearing off the blank side of one of her newly copied pages, Jo drew
- the table before her mother, well knowing that money for the long, sad
- journey must be borrowed, and feeling as if she could do anything to
- add a little to the sum for her father.
- "Now go, dear; but don't kill yourself driving at a desperate
- pace; there is no need of that."
- Mrs. March's warning was evidently thrown away; for five minutes
- later Laurie tore by the window on his own fleet horse, riding as if
- for his life.
- "Jo, run to the rooms, and tell Mrs. King that I can't come. On
- the way get these things. I'll put them down; they'll be needed, and I
- must go prepared for nursing. Hospital stores are not always good.
- Beth, go and ask Mr. Laurence for a couple of bottles of old wine: I'm
- not too proud to beg for father; he shall have the best of everything.
- Amy, tell Hannah to get down the black trunk; and, Meg, come and
- help me find my things, for I'm half bewildered."
- Writing, thinking, and directing, all at once, might well bewilder
- the poor lady, and Meg begged her to sit quietly in her room for a
- little while, and let them work. Every one scattered like leaves
- before a gust of wind; and the quiet, happy household was broken up as
- suddenly as if the paper had been an evil spell.
- Mr. Laurence came hurrying back with Beth, bringing every comfort
- the kind old gentleman could think of for the invalid, and friendliest
- promises of protection for the girls during the mother's absence,
- which comforted her very much. There was nothing he didn't offer, from
- his own dressing-gown to himself as escort. But that last was
- impossible. Mrs. March would not hear of the old gentleman's
- undertaking the long journey; yet an expression of relief was
- visible when he spoke of it, for anxiety ill fits one for
- travelling. He saw the look, knit his heavy eyebrows, rubbed his
- hands, and marched abruptly away, saying he'd be back directly. No one
- had time to think of him again till, as Meg ran through the entry,
- with a pair of rubbers in one hand and a cup of tea in the other,
- she came suddenly upon Mr. Brooke.
- "I'm very sorry to hear of this, Miss March," he said, in the
- kind, quiet tone which sounded very pleasantly to her perturbed
- spirit. "I came to offer myself as escort to your mother. Mr. Laurence
- has commissions for me in Washington, and it will give me real
- satisfaction to be of service to her there."
- Down dropped the rubbers, and the tea was very near following, as
- Meg put out her hand, with a face so full of gratitude, that Mr.
- Brooke would have felt repaid for a much greater sacrifice than the
- trifling one of time and comfort which he was about to make.
- "How kind you all are! Mother will accept, I'm sure; and it will
- be such a relief to know that she has some one to take care of her.
- Thank you very, very much!"
- Meg spoke earnestly, and forgot herself entirely till something in
- the brown eyes looking down at her made her remember the cooling
- tea, and lead the way into the parlor, saying she would call her
- mother.
- Everything was arranged by the time Laurie returned with a note from
- Aunt March, enclosing the desired sum, and a few lines repeating
- what she had often said before- that she had always told them it was
- absurd for March to go into the army, always predicted that no good
- would come of it, and she hoped they would take her advice next
- time. Mrs. March put the note in the fire, the money in her purse, and
- went on with her preparations, with her lips folded tightly, in a
- way which Jo would have understood if she had been there.
- The short afternoon wore away; all the other errands were done,
- and Meg and her mother busy at some necessary needlework, while Beth
- and Amy got tea, and Hannah finished her ironing with what she
- called a "slap and a bang," but still Jo did not come. They began to
- get anxious; and Laurie went off to find her, for no one ever knew
- what freak Jo might take into her head. He missed her, however, and
- she came walking in with a very queer expression of countenance, for
- there was a mixture of fun and fear, satisfaction and regret, in it,
- which puzzled the family as much as did the roll of bills she laid
- before her mother, saying, with a little choke in her voice, "That's
- my contribution towards making father comfortable and bringing him
- home!"
- "My dear, where did you get it? Twenty-five dollars! Jo, I hope
- you haven't done anything rash?"
- "No, it's mine honestly; I didn't beg, borrow, or steal it. I earned
- it; and I don't think you'll blame me, for I only sold what was my
- own."
- As she spoke, Jo took off her bonnet, and a general outcry arose,
- for all her abundant hair was cut short.
- "Your hair! Your beautiful hair!" "O Jo, how could you? Your one
- beauty." "My dear girl, there was no need of this." "She doesn't
- look like my Jo any more, but I love her dearly for it!"
- As every one exclaimed, and Beth hugged the cropped head tenderly,
- Jo assumed an indifferent air, which did not deceive any one a
- particle, and said, rumpling up the brown bush, and trying to look
- as if she liked it, "It doesn't affect the fate of the nation, so
- don't wail, Beth. It will be good for my vanity; I was getting too
- proud of my wig. It will do my brains good to have that mop taken off;
- my head feels deliciously light and cool, and the barber said I
- could soon have a curly crop, which will be boyish, becoming, and easy
- to keep in order. I'm satisfied; so please take the money, and let's
- have supper."
- "Tell me all about it, Jo. I am not quite satisfied, but I can't
- blame you, for I know how willingly you sacrificed your vanity, as you
- call it, to your love. But, my dear, it was not necessary, and I'm
- afraid you will regret it, one of these days," said Mrs. March.
- "No, I won't!" returned Jo stoutly, feeling much relieved that her
- prank was not entirely condemned.
- "What made you do it?" asked Amy, who would as soon have thought
- of cutting off her head as her pretty hair.
- "Well, I was wild to do something for father," replied Jo, as they
- gathered about the table, for healthy young people can eat even in the
- midst of trouble. "I hate to borrow as much as mother does, and I knew
- Aunt March would croak; she always does, if you ask for a ninepence.
- Meg gave all her quarterly salary toward the rent, and I only got some
- clothes with mine, so I felt wicked, and was bound to have some money,
- if I sold the nose off my face to get it."
- "You needn't feel wicked, my child: you had no winter things, and
- got the simplest with your own hard earnings," said Mrs. March, with a
- look that warmed Jo's heart.
- "I hadn't the least idea of selling my hair at first, but as I
- went along I kept thinking what I could do, and feeling as if I'd like
- to dive into some of the rich stores and help myself. In a barber's
- window I saw tails of hair with the prices marked; and one black tail,
- not so thick as mine, was forty dollars. It came over me all of a
- sudden that I had one thing to make money out of, and without stopping
- to think, I walked in, asked if they bought hair, and what they
- would give for mine."
- "I don't see how you dared to do it," said Beth, in a tone of awe.
- "Oh, he was a little man who looked as if he merely lived to oil his
- hair. He rather stared, at first, as if he wasn't used to having girls
- bounce into his shop and ask him to buy their hair. He said he
- didn't care about mine, it wasn't the fashionable color, and he
- never paid much for it in the first place; the work put into it made
- it dear, and so on. It was getting late, and I was afraid, if it
- wasn't done right away, that I shouldn't have it done at all, and
- you know when I start to do a thing, I hate to give it up; so I begged
- him to take it, and told him why I was in such a hurry. It was
- silly, I dare say, but it changed his mind, for I got rather
- excited, and told the story in my topsy-turvy way, and his wife heard,
- and said so kindly-
- "'Take it, Thomas, and oblige the young lady; I'd do as much for our
- Jimmy any day if I had a spire of hair worth selling.
- "Who was Jimmy?" asked Amy, who liked to have things explained as
- they went along.
- "Her son, she said, who was in the army. How friendly such things
- make strangers feel, don't they? She talked away all the time the
- man clipped, and diverted my mind nicely."
- "Didn't you feel dreadfully when the first cut came?" asked Meg,
- with a shiver.
- "I took a last look at my hair while the man got his things, and
- that was the end of it. I never snivel over trifles like that; I
- will confess, though, I felt queer when I saw the dear old hair laid
- out on the table, and felt only the short, rough ends on my head. It
- almost seemed as if I'd an arm or a leg off. The woman saw me look
- at it, and picked out a long lock for me to keep. I'll give it to you,
- Marmee, just to remember past glories by; for a crop is so comfortable
- I don't think I shall ever have a mane again."
- Mrs. March folded the wavy chestnut lock, and laid it away with a
- short gray one in her desk. She only said "Thank you, deary," but
- something in her face made the girls change the subject, and talk as
- cheerfully as they could about Mr. Brooke's kindness, the prospect
- of a fine day tomorrow, and the happy times they would have when
- father came home to be nursed.
- No one wanted to go to bed, when, at ten o'clock, Mrs. March put
- by the last finished job, and said, "Come, girls." Beth went to the
- piano and played the father's favorite hymn; all began bravely, but
- broke down one by one, till Beth was left alone, singing with all
- her heart, for to her music was always a sweet consoler.
- "Go to bed and don't talk, for we must be up early, and shall need
- all the sleep we can get. Good-night, my darlings," said Mrs. March,
- as the hymn ended, for no one cared to try another.
- They kissed her quietly, and went to bed as silently as if the
- dear invalid lay in the next room. Beth and Amy soon fell asleep in
- spite of the great trouble, but Meg lay awake, thinking the most
- serious thoughts she had ever known in her short life. Jo lay
- motionless, and her sister fancied that she was asleep, till a stifled
- sob made her exclaim, as she touched a wet cheek-
- "Jo, dear, what is it? Are you crying about father?"
- "No, not now."
- "What then?"
- "My- my hair!" burst out poor Jo, trying vainly to smother her
- emotion in the pillow.
- It did not sound at all comical to Meg, who kissed and caressed
- the afflicted heroine in the tenderest manner.
- "I'm not sorry," protested Jo, with a choke. "I'd do it again
- to-morrow, if I could. It's only the vain, selfish part of me that
- goes and cries in this silly way. Don't tell any one, it's all over
- now. I thought you were asleep, so I just made a little private moan
- for my one beauty. How came you to be awake?"
- "I can't sleep, I'm so anxious," said Meg.
- "Think about something pleasant, and you'll soon drop off."
- "I tried it, but felt wider awake than ever."
- "What did you think of?"
- "Handsome faces- eyes particularly," answered Meg, smiling to
- herself, in the dark.
- "What color do you like best?"
- "Brown- that is, sometimes; blue are lovely."
- Jo laughed, and Meg sharply ordered her not to talk, then amiably
- promised to make her hair curl, and fell asleep to dream of living
- in her castle in the air.
- The clocks were striking midnight, and the rooms were very still, as
- a figure glided quietly from bed to bed, smoothing a coverlid here,
- settling a pillow there, and pausing to look long and tenderly at each
- unconscious face, to kiss each with lips that mutely blessed, and to
- pray the fervent prayers which only mothers utter. As she lifted the
- curtain to look out into the dreary night, the moon broke suddenly
- from behind the clouds, and shone upon her like a bright, benignant
- face, which seemed to whisper in the silence, "Be comforted, dear
- soul! There is always light behind the clouds."
- 16
- Letters
-
- IN the cold gray dawn the sisters lit their lamp, and read their
- chapter with an earnestness never felt before; for now the shadow of a
- real trouble had come, the little books were full of help and comfort;
- and, as they dressed, they agreed to say good-by cheerfully and
- hopefully, and send their mother on her anxious journey unsaddened
- by tears or complaints from them. Everything seemed very strange
- when they went down- so dim and still outside, so full of light and
- bustle within. Breakfast at that early hour seemed odd, and even
- Hannah's familiar face looked unnatural as she flew about her
- kitchen with her night-cap on. The big trunk stood ready in the
- hall, mother's cloak and bonnet lay on the sofa, and mother herself
- sat trying to eat, but looking so pale and worn with sleeplessness and
- anxiety that the girls found it very hard to keep their resolution.
- Meg's eyes kept filling in spite of herself; Jo was obliged to hide
- her face in the kitchen roller more than once; and the little girls
- wore a grave, troubled expression, as if sorrow was a new experience
- to them.
- Nobody talked much, but as the time drew very near, and they sat
- waiting for the carriage, Mrs. March said to the girls, who were all
- busied about her, one folding her shawl, another smoothing out the
- strings of her bonnet, a third putting on her overshoes, and a
- fourth fastening up her travelling bag-
- "Children, I leave you to Hannah's care and Mr. Laurence's
- protection. Hannah is faithfulness itself, and our good neighbor
- will guard you as if you were his own. I have no fears for you, yet
- I am anxious that you should take this trouble rightly. Don't grieve
- and fret when I am gone, or think that you can comfort yourselves by
- being idle and trying to forget. Go on with your work as usual, for
- work is a blessed solace. Hope and keep busy; and whatever happens,
- remember that you never can be fatherless."
- "Yes, mother."
- "Meg, dear, be prudent, watch over your sisters, consult Hannah,
- and, in any perplexity, go to Mr. Laurence. Be patient, Jo, don't
- get despondent or do rash things; write to me often, and be my brave
- girl, ready to help and cheer us all. Beth, comfort yourself with your
- music, and be faithful to the little home duties; and you, Amy, help
- all you can, be obedient, and keep happy safe at home."
- "We will, mother! we will!"
- The rattle of an approaching carriage made them all start and
- listen. That was the hard minute, but the girls stood it well: no
- one cried, no one ran away or uttered a lamentation, though their
- hearts were very heavy as they sent loving messages to father,
- remembering, as they spoke, that it might be too late to deliver them.
- They kissed their mother quietly, clung about her tenderly, and
- tried to wave their hands cheerfully when she drove away.
- Laurie and his grandfather came over to see her off, and Mr.
- Brooke looked so strong and sensible and kind that the girls
- christened him "Mr. Greatheart" on the spot.
- "Good-by, my darlings! God bless and keep us all!" whispered Mrs.
- March, as she kissed one dear little face after the other, and hurried
- into the carriage.
- As she rolled away, the sun came out, and, looking back, she saw
- it shining on the group at the gate, like a good omen. They saw it
- also, and smiled and waved their hands; and the last thing she beheld,
- as she turned the corner, was the four bright faces, and behind
- them, like a body-guard, old Mr. Laurence, faithful Hannah, and
- devoted Laurie.
- "How kind every one is to us!" she said, turning to find fresh proof
- of it in the respectful sympathy of the young man's face.
- "I don't see how they can help it," returned Mr. Brooke, laughing so
- infectiously that Mrs. March could not help smiling; and so the long
- journey began with the good omens of sunshine, smiles, and cheerful
- words.
- "I feel as if there had been an earthquake," said Jo, as their
- neighbors went home to breakfast, leaving them to rest and refresh
- themselves.
- "It seems as if half the house was gone," added Meg forlornly.
- Beth opened her lips to say something, but could only point to the
- pile of nicely-mended hose which lay on mother's table, showing that
- even in her last hurried moments she had thought and worked for
- them. It was a little thing, but it went straight to their hearts;
- and, in spite of their brave resolutions, they all broke down, and
- cried bitterly.
- Hannah wisely allowed them to relieve their feelings, and, when
- the shower showed signs of clearing up, she came to the rescue,
- armed with a coffee-pot.
- "Now, my dear young ladies, remember what your ma said, and don't
- fret. Come and have a cup of coffee all round, and then let's fall
- to work, and be a credit to the family."
- Coffee was a treat, and Hannah showed great tact in making it that
- morning. No one could resist her persuasive nods, or the fragrant
- invitation issuing from the nose of the coffee-pot. They drew up to
- the table, exchanged their handkerchiefs for napkins, and in ten
- minutes were all right again.
- "'Hope and keep busy'; that's the motto for us, so let's see who
- will remember it best. I shall go to Aunt March, as usual. Oh, won't
- she lecture though!" said Jo, as she sipped with returning spirit.
- "I shall go to my Kings, though I'd much rather stay at home and
- attend to things here," said Meg, wishing she hadn't made her eyes
- so red.
- "No need of that; Beth and I can keep house perfectly well," put
- in Amy, with an important air.
- "Hannah will tell us what to do; and we'll have everything nice when
- you come home," added Beth, getting out her mop and dish-tub without
- delay.
- "I think anxiety is very interesting," observed Amy, eating sugar,
- pensively.
- The girls couldn't help laughing, and felt better for it, though Meg
- shook her head at the young lady who could find consolation in a
- sugar-bowl.
- The sight of the turnovers made Jo sober again; and when the two
- went out to their daily tasks, they looked sorrowfully back at the
- window where they were accustomed to see their mother's face. It was
- gone; but Beth had remembered the little household ceremony, and there
- she was, nodding away at them like a rosy-faced mandarin.
- "That's so like my Beth!" said Jo, waving her hat, with a grateful
- face. "Good-by, Meggy; I hope the Kings won't train to-day. Don't fret
- about father, dear," she added, as they parted.
- "And I hope Aunt March won't croak. Your hair is becoming, and it
- looks very boyish and nice," returned Meg, trying not to smile at
- the curly head, which looked comically small on her tall sister's
- shoulders.
- "That's my only comfort"; and, touching her hat a la Laurie, away
- went Jo, feeling like a shorn sheep on a wintry day.
- News from their father comforted the girls very much; for, though
- dangerously ill, the presence of the best and tenderest of nurses
- had already done him good. Mr. Brooke sent a bulletin every day,
- and, as the head of the family, Meg insisted on reading the
- despatches, which grew more and more cheering as the week passed. At
- first, every one was eager to write, and plump envelopes were
- carefully poked into the letter-box by one or other of the sisters,
- who felt rather important with their Washington correspondence. As one
- of these packets contained characteristic notes from the party, we
- will rob an imaginary mail, and read them:
-
- MY DEAREST MOTHER:
- It is impossible to tell you how happy your last letter made us,
- for the news was so good we couldn't help laughing and crying over it.
- How very kind Mr. Brooke is, and how fortunate that Mr. Laurence's
- business detains him near you so long, since he is so useful to you
- and father. The girls are all as good as gold. Jo helps me with the
- sewing, and insists on doing all sorts of hard jobs. I should be
- afraid she might overdo, if I didn't know that her "moral fit"
- wouldn't last long. Beth is as regular about her tasks as a clock, and
- never forgets what you told her. She grieves about father, and looks
- sober except when she is at her little piano. Amy minds me nicely, and
- I take great care of her. She does her own hair, and I am teaching her
- to make button-holes and mend her stockings. She tries very hard,
- and I know you will be pleased with her improvement when you come. Mr.
- Laurence watches over us like a motherly old hen, as Jo says; and
- Laurie is very kind and neighborly. He and Jo keep us merry, for we
- get pretty blue sometimes, and feel like orphans with you so far away.
- Hannah is a perfect saint; she does not scold at all, and always calls
- me Miss "Margaret," which is quite proper, you know, and treats me
- with respect. We are all well and busy; but we long, day and night, to
- have you hack. Give my dearest love to father, and believe me, ever
- your own
- MEG.
-
- This note, prettily written on scented paper, was a great contrast
- to the next, which was scribbled on a big sheet of thin foreign paper,
- ornamented with blots and all manner of flourishes and curly-tailed
- letters:
-
- MY PRECIOUS MARMEE:
- Three cheers for dear father! Brooke was a trump to telegraph
- right off, and let us know the minute he was better. I rushed up
- garret when the letter came, and tried to thank God for being so
- good to us; but I could only cry, and say, "I'm glad! I'm glad!"
- Didn't that do as well as a regular prayer? for I felt a great many in
- my heart. We have such funny times; and now I can enjoy them, for
- every one is so desperately good, it's like living in a nest of
- turtle-doves. You'd laugh to see Meg head the table and try to be
- motherish. She gets prettier every day, and I'm in love with her
- sometimes. The children are regular archangels, and I- well, I'm Jo,
- and never shall be anything else. Oh, I must tell you that I came near
- having a quarrel with Laurie. I freed my mind about a silly little
- thing, and he was offended. I was right, but didn't speak as I
- ought, and he marched home, saying he wouldn't come again till I
- begged pardon. I declared I wouldn't, and got mad. It lasted all
- day; I felt bad, and wanted you very much. Laurie and I are both so
- proud, it's hard to beg pardon; but I thought he'd come to it, for I
- was in the right. He didn't come; and just at night I remembered
- what you said when Amy fell into the river. I read my little book,
- felt better, resolved not to let the sun set on my anger, and ran over
- to tell Laurie I was sorry. I met him at the gate, coming for the same
- thing. We both laughed, begged each other's pardon, and felt all
- good and comfortable again.
- I made a "pome" yesterday, when I was helping Hannah wash; and, as
- father likes my silly little things, I put it in to amuse him. Give
- him the lovingest hug that ever was, and kiss yourself a dozen times
- for your
- TOPSY-TURVY JO.
-
- A SONG FROM THE SUDS.
-
- Queen of my tub, I merrily sing,
- While the white foam rises high;
- And sturdily wash and rinse and wring,
- And fasten the clothes to dry;
- Then out in the free fresh air they swing,
- Under the sunny sky.
-
- I wish we could wash from our hearts and souls
- The stains of the week away,
- And let water and air by their magic make
- Ourselves as pure as they;
- Then on the earth there would be indeed
- A glorious washing-day!
-
- Along the path of a useful life,
- Will heart's-ease ever bloom;
- The busy mind has no time to think
- Of sorrow or care or gloom;
- And anxious thoughts may be swept away,
- As we bravely wield a broom.
-
- I am glad a task to me is given,
- To labor at day by day;
- For it brings me health and strength and hope,
- And I cheerfully learn to say,
- "Head, you may think, Heart, you may feel,
- But, Hand, you shall work alway!"
-
- DEAR MOTHER:
- There is only room for me to send my love, and some pressed
- pansies from the root I have been keeping safe in the house for father
- to see. I read every morning, try to be good all day, and sing
- myself to sleep with father's tune. I can't sing "Land of the Leal"
- now; it makes me cry. Every one is very kind, and we are as happy as
- we can be without you. Amy wants the rest of the page, so I must stop.
- I didn't forget to cover the holders, and I wind the clock and air the
- rooms every day.
- Kiss dear father on the cheek he calls mine. Oh, do come soon to
- your loving LITTLE BETH.
-
- MA CHERE MAMMA:
- We are all well I do my lessons always and never corroberate the
- girls- Meg says I mean contradick so I put in both words and you can
- take the properest. Meg is a great comfort to me and lets me have
- jelly every night at tea its so good for me Jo says because it keeps
- me sweet tempered. Laurie is not as respeckful as he ought to be now I
- am almost in my teens, he calls me Chick and hurts my feelings by
- talking French to me very fast when I say Merci or Bon jour as
- Hattie King does. The sleeves of my blue dress were all worn out,
- and Meg put in new ones, but the full front came wrong and they are
- more blue than the dress. I felt bad but did not fret I bear my
- troubles well but I do wish Hannah would put more starch in my
- aprons and have buckwheats every day. Can't she? Didn't I make that
- interrigation point nice? Meg says my punchtuation and spelling are
- disgraceful and I am mortyfied but dear me I have so many things to
- do, I can't stop. Adieu, I send heaps of love to Papa.
- Your affectionate daughter,
- AMY CURTIS MARCH.
-
- DEAR MIS MARCH:
- I jes drop a line to say we git on fust rate. The girls is
- clever and fly round right smart. Miss Meg is going to make a proper
- good housekeeper; she hes the liking for it, and gits the hang of
- things surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead, but she don't
- stop to cal'k'late fust, and you never know where she's like to
- bring up. She done out a tub of clothes on Monday, but she starched em
- afore they was wrenched, and blued a pink calico dress till I
- thought I should a died a laughin. Beth is the best of little
- creeters, and a sight of help to me, bein so forehanded and
- dependable. She tries to learn everything, and really goes to market
- beyond her years; likewise keeps accounts, with my help, quite
- wonderful. We have got on very economical so fur; I don't let the
- girls hev coffee only once a week, accordin to your wish, and keep
- em on plain wholesome vittles. Amy does well about frettin, wearin her
- best clothes and eatin sweet stuff. Mr. Laurie is as full of didoes as
- usual, and turns the house upside down frequent; but he heartens up
- the girls, and so I let em hev full swing. The old gentleman sends
- heaps of things, and is rather wearin, but means wal, and it aint my
- place to say nothin. My bread is riz, so no more at this time. I
- send my duty to Mr. March. and hope he's seen the last of his
- Pewmonia.
- Yours Respectful,
- HANNAH MULLET.
-
- HEAD NURSE OF WARD NO. 2:
- All serene on the Rappahannock, troops in fine condition,
- commissary department well conducted, the Home Guard under Colonel
- Teddy always on duty, Commander-in-chief General Laurence reviews
- the army daily, Quartermaster Mullet keeps order in camp, and Major
- Lion does picket duty at night. A salute of twenty-four guns was fired
- on receipt of good news from Washington, and a dress parade took place
- at head-quarters. Commander-in-chief sends best wishes, in which he is
- heartily joined by
- COLONEL TEDDY.
-
-
- DEAR MADAM:
- The little girls are all well; Beth and my boy report daily;
- Hannah is a model servant, and guards pretty Meg like a dragon. Glad
- the fine weather holds; pray make Brooke useful, and draw on me for
- funds if expenses exceed your estimate. Don't let your husband want
- anything. Thank God he is mending.
- Your sincere friend and servant,
- JAMES LAURENCE.
- 17
- Little Faithful
-
- FOR a week the amount of virtue in the old house would have supplied
- the neighborhood. It was really amazing, for every one seemed in a
- heavenly frame of mind, and self-denial was all the fashion.
- Relieved of their first anxiety about their father, the girls
- insensibly relaxed their praiseworthy efforts a little, and began to
- fall back into the old ways. They did not forget their motto, but
- hoping and keeping busy seemed to grow easier; and after such
- tremendous exertions, they felt that Endeavor deserved a holiday,
- and gave it a good many.
- Jo caught a bad cold through neglect to cover the shorn head enough,
- and was ordered to stay at home till she was better, for Aunt March
- didn't like to hear people read with colds in their heads. Jo liked
- this, and after an energetic rummage from garret to cellar, subsided
- on the sofa to nurse her cold with arsenicum and books. Amy found that
- housework and art did not go well together, and returned to her mud
- pies. Meg went daily to her pupils, and sewed, or thought she did,
- at home, but much time was spent in writing long letters to her
- mother, or reading the Washington despatches over and over. Beth
- kept on, with only slight relapses into idleness or grieving.
- All the little duties were faithfully done each day, and many of her
- sisters' also, for they were forgetful, and the house seemed like a
- clock whose pendulum was gone a-visiting. When her heart got heavy
- with longings for mother or fears for father, she went away into a
- certain closet, hid her face in the folds of a certain dear old
- gown, and made her little moan and prayed her little prayer quietly by
- herself. Nobody knew what cheered her up after a sober fit, but
- every one felt how sweet and helpful Beth was, and fell into a way
- of going to her for comfort or advice in their small affairs.
- All were unconscious that this experience was a test of character;
- and, when the first excitement was over, felt that they had done well,
- and deserved praise. So they did; but their mistake was in ceasing
- to do well, and they learned this lesson through much anxiety and
- regret.
- "Meg, I wish you'd go and see the Hummels; you know mother told us
- not to forget them," said Beth, ten days after Mrs. March's departure.
- "I'm too tired to go this afternoon," replied Meg, rocking
- comfortably as she sewed.
- "Can't you, Jo?" asked Beth.
- "Too stormy for me with my cold."
- "I thought it was almost well."
- "It's well enough for me to go out with Laurie, but not well
- enough to go to the Hummels'," said Jo, laughing, but looking a little
- ashamed of her inconsistency.
- "Why don't you go yourself?" asked Meg.
- "I have been every day, but the baby is sick, and I don't know
- what to do for it. Mrs. Hummel goes away to work, and Lottchen takes
- care of it; but it gets sicker and sicker, and I think you or Hannah
- ought to go."
- Beth spoke earnestly, and Meg promised she would go to-morrow.
- "Ask Hannah for some nice little mess, and take it round, Beth;
- the air will do you good," said Jo, adding apologetically, "I'd go,
- but I want to finish my writing."
- "My head aches and I'm tired, so I thought maybe some of you would
- go," said Beth.
- "Amy will be in presently, and she will run down for us,"
- suggested Meg.
- "Well, I'll rest a little and wait for her."
- So Beth lay down on the sofa, the others returned to their work, and
- the Hummels were forgotten. An hour passed: Amy did not come; Meg went
- to her room to try on a new dress; Jo was absorbed in her story, and
- Hannah was sound asleep before the kitchen fire, when Beth quietly put
- on her hood, filled her basket with odds and ends for the poor
- children, and went out into the chilly air, with a heavy head, and a
- grieved look in her patient eyes. It was late when she came back,
- and no one saw her creep upstairs and shut herself into her mother's
- room. Half an hour after Jo went to "mother's closet" for something,
- and there found Beth sitting on the medicine chest, looking very
- grave, with red eyes, and a camphor-bottle in her hand.
- "Christopher Columbus! What's the matter?" cried Jo, as Beth put out
- her hand as if to warn her off, and asked quickly-
- "You've had the scarlet fever, haven't you?"
- "Years ago, when Meg did. Why?"
- "Then I'll tell you. Oh, Jo, the baby's dead!"
- "What baby?"
- "Mrs. Hummel's; it died in my lap before she got home," cried
- Beth, with a sob.
- "My poor dear, how dreadful for you! I ought to have gone," said Jo,
- taking her sister in her arms as she sat down in her mother's big
- chair, with a remorseful face.
- "It wasn't dreadful, Jo, only so sad! I saw in a minute that it
- was sicker, but Lottchen said her mother had gone for a doctor, so I
- took baby and let Lotty rest. It seemed asleep, but all of a sudden it
- gave a little cry, and trembled, and then lay very still. I tried to
- warm its feet, and Lotty gave it some milk, but it didn't stir, and
- I knew it was dead."
- "Don't cry, dear! What did you do?"
- "I just sat and held it softly till Mrs. Hummel came with the
- doctor. He said it was dead, and looked at Heinrich and Minna, who
- have got sore throats. 'Scarlet fever, ma'am. Ought to have called
- me before,' he said crossly. Mrs. Hummel told him she was poor, and
- had tried to cure baby herself, but now it was too late, and she could
- only ask him to help the others, and trust to charity for his pay.
- He smiled then, and was kinder; but it was very sad, and I cried
- with them till he turned round, all of a sudden, and told me to go
- home and take belladonna right away, or I'd have the fever."
- "No, you won't!" cried Jo, hugging her close, with a frightened
- look.
- "O Beth, if you should be sick I never could forgive myself! What
- shall we do?"
- "Don't be frightened, I guess I shan't have it badly. I looked in
- mother's book, and saw that it begins with headache, sore throat,
- and queer feelings like mine, so I did take some belladonna, and I
- feel better," said Beth, laying her cold hands on her hot forehead,
- and trying to look well.
- "If mother was only at home!" exclaimed Jo, seizing the book, and
- feeling that Washington was an immense way off. She read a page,
- looked at Beth, felt her head, peeped into her throat, and then said
- gravely, "You've been over the baby every day for more than a week,
- and among the others who are going to have it; so I'm afraid you are
- going to have it, Beth. I'll call Hannah, she knows all about
- sickness."
- "Don't let Amy come; she never had it, and I should hate to give
- it to her. Can't you and Meg have it over again?" asked Beth,
- anxiously.
- "I guess not; don't care if I do; serve me right, selfish pig, to
- let you go, and stay writing rubbish myself!" muttered Jo, as she went
- to consult Hannah.
- The good soul was wide awake in a minute, and took the lead at once,
- assuring Jo that there was no need to worry; every one had scarlet
- fever, and, if rightly treated, nobody died- all of which Jo believed,
- and felt much relieved as they went up to call Meg.
- "Now I'll tell you what we'll do," said Hannah, when she had
- examined and questioned Beth; "we will have Dr. Bangs, just to take
- a look at you, dear, and see that we start right; then we'll send
- Amy off to Aunt March's, for a spell, to keep her out of harm's way,
- and one of you girls can stay at home and amuse Beth for a day or two.
- "I shall stay, of course; I'm oldest," began Meg, looking anxious
- and self-reproachful.
- "I shall, because it's my fault she is sick; I told mother I'd do
- the errands, and I haven't," said Jo decidedly.
- "Which will you have, Beth? there ain't no need of but one," said
- Hannah.
- "Jo, please"; and Beth leaned her head against her sister, with a
- contented look, which effectually settled that point.
- "I'll go and tell Amy," said Meg, feeling a little hurt, yet
- rather relieved, on the whole, for she did not like nursing, and Jo
- did.
- Amy rebelled outright, and passionately declared that she had rather
- have the fever than go to Aunt March. Meg reasoned, pleaded, and
- commanded: all in vain. Amy protested that she would not go; and Meg
- left her in despair, to ask Hannah what should be done. Before she
- came back, Laurie walked into the parlor to find Amy sobbing, with her
- head in the sofa-cushions. She told her story, expecting to be
- consoled; but Laurie only put his hands in his pockets and walked
- about the room, whistling softly, as he knit his brows in deep
- thought. Presently he sat down beside her, and said, in his most
- wheedlesome tone, "Now be a sensible little woman, and do as they say.
- No, don't cry, but hear what a jolly plan I've got. You go to Aunt
- March's, and I'll come and take you out every day, driving or walking,
- and we'll have capital times. Won't that be better than moping here?"
- "I don't wish to be sent off as if I was in the way," began Amy,
- in an injured voice.
- "Bless your heart, child, it's to keep you well. You don't want to
- be sick, do you?"
- "No, I'm sure I don't; but I dare say I shall be, for I've been with
- Beth all the time."
- "That's the very reason you ought to go away at once, so that you
- may escape it. Change of air and care will keep you well, I dare
- say; or, if it does not entirely, you will have the fever more
- lightly. I advise you to be off as soon as you can, for scarlet
- fever is no joke, miss."
- "But it's dull at Aunt March's, and she is so cross," said Amy,
- looking rather frightened.
- "It won't be dull with me popping in every day to tell you how
- Beth is, and take you out gallivanting. The old lady likes me, and
- I'll be as sweet as possible to her, so she won't peck at us, whatever
- we do."
- "Will you take me out in the trotting wagon with Puck?"
- "On my honor as a gentleman."
- "And come every single day?"
- "See if I don't."
- "And bring me back the minute Beth is well?"
- "The identical minute."
- "And go to the theater, truly?"
- "A dozen theaters, if we may."
- "Well- I guess- I will," said Amy slowly.
- "Good girl! Call Meg, and tell her you'll give in," said Laurie,
- with an approving pat, which annoyed Amy more than the "giving in."
- Meg and Jo came running down to behold the miracle which had been
- wrought; and Amy, feeling very precious and self-sacrificing, promised
- to go, if the doctor said Beth was going to be ill.
- "How is the little dear?" asked Laurie; for Beth was his especial
- pet, and he felt more anxious about her than he liked to show.
- "She is lying down on mother's bed, and feels better. The baby's
- death troubled her, but I dare say she has only got cold. Hannah
- says she thinks so; but she looks worried, and that makes me fidgety,"
- answered Meg.
- "What a trying world it is!" said Jo, rumpling up her hair in a
- fretful sort of way. "No sooner do we get out of one trouble than down
- comes another. There doesn't seem to be anything to hold on to when
- mother's gone; so I'm all at sea."
- "Well, don't make a porcupine of yourself, it isn't becoming. Settle
- your wig, Jo, and tell me if I shall telegraph to your mother, or do
- anything?" asked Laurie, who never had been reconciled to the loss
- of his friend's one beauty.
- "That is what troubles me," said Meg. "I think we ought to tell
- her if Beth is really ill, but Hannah says we mustn't, for mother
- can't leave father, and it will only make them anxious. Beth won't
- be sick long, and Hannah knows just what to do, and mother said we
- were to mind her, so I suppose we must, but it doesn't seem quite
- right to me."
- "Hum, well, I can't say; suppose you ask grandfather after the
- doctor has been."
- "We will. Jo, go and get Dr. Bangs at once," commanded Meg; "we
- can't decide anything till he has been."
- "Stay where you are, Jo; I'm errand-boy to this establishment," said
- Laurie, taking up his cap.
- "I'm afraid you are busy," began Meg.
- "No, I've done my lessons for the day."
- "Do you study in vacation time?" asked Jo.
- "I follow the good example my neighbors set me," was Laurie's
- answer, as he swung himself out of the room.
- "I have great hopes of my boy," observed Jo, watching him fly over
- the fence with an approving smile.
- "He does very well- for a boy," was Meg's somewhat ungracious
- answer, for the subject did not interest her.
- Dr. Bangs came, said Beth had symptoms of the fever, but thought she
- would have it lightly, though he looked sober over the Hummel story.
- Amy was ordered off at once, and provided with something to ward off
- danger, she departed in great state, with Jo and Laurie as escort.
- Aunt March received them with her usual hospitality.
- "What do you want now?" she asked, looking sharply over her
- spectacles, while the parrot, sitting on the back of her chair, called
- out-
- "Go away. No boys allowed here."
- Laurie retired to the window, and Jo told her story.
- "No more than I expected, if you are allowed to go poking about
- among poor folks. Amy can stay and make herself useful if she isn't
- sick, which I've no doubt she will be- looks like it now. Don't cry,
- child, it worries me to hear people sniff."
- Amy was on the point of crying, but Laurie slyly pulled the parrot's
- tail, which caused Polly to utter an astonished croak, and call out-
- "Bless my boots!" in such a funny way, that she laughed instead.
- "What do you hear from your mother?" asked the old lady gruffly.
- "Father is much better," replied Jo, trying to keep sober.
- "Oh, is he? Well, that won't last long, I fancy; March never had any
- stamina," was the cheerful reply.
- "Ha, ha! never say die, take a pinch of snuff, good-by, good-by!"
- squalled Polly, dancing on her perch, and clawing at the old lady's
- cap as Laurie tweaked him in the rear.
- "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird! and, Jo, you'd better
- go at once; it isn't proper to be gadding about so late with a
- rattle-pated boy like-"
- "Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird!" cried Polly,
- tumbling off the chair with a bounce, and running to peck the
- "rattle-pated" boy, who was shaking with laughter at the last speech.
- "I don't think I can bear it, but I'll try," thought Amy, as she was
- left alone with Aunt March.
- "Get along, you fright!" screamed Polly; and at that rude speech Amy
- could not restrain a sniff.
- 18
- Dark Days
-
- BETH did have the fever, and was much sicker than any one but Hannah
- and the doctor suspected. The girls knew nothing about illness, and
- Mr. Laurence was not allowed to see her, so Hannah had everything
- all her own way, and busy Dr. Bangs did his best, but left a good deal
- to the excellent nurse. Meg stayed at home, lest she should infect the
- Kings, and kept house, feeling very anxious and a little guilty when
- she wrote letters in which no mention was made of Beth's illness.
- She could not think it right to deceive her mother, but she had been
- bidden to mind Hannah, and Hannah wouldn't hear of "Mrs. March bein'
- told, and worried just for sech a trifle." Jo devoted herself to
- Beth day and night; not a hard task, for Beth was very patient, and
- bore her pain uncomplainingly as long as she could control herself.
- But there came a time when during the fever fits she began to talk
- in a hoarse, broken voice, to play on the coverlet, as if on her
- beloved little piano, and try to sing with a throat so swollen that
- there was no music left; a time when she did not know the familiar
- faces round her, but addressed them by wrong names, and called
- imploringly for her mother. Then Jo grew frightened, Meg begged to
- be allowed to write the truth, and even Hannah said she "would think
- of it, though there was no danger yet." A letter from Washington added
- to their trouble, for Mr. March had had a relapse, and could not think
- of coming home for a long while.
- How dark the days seemed now, how sad and lonely the house, and
- how heavy were the hearts of the sisters as they worked and waited,
- while the shadow of death hovered over the once happy home! Then it
- was that Margaret, sitting alone with tears dropping often on her
- work, felt how rich she had been in things more precious than any
- luxuries money could buy- in love, protection, peace, and health,
- the real blessings of life. Then it was that Jo, living in the
- darkened room, with that suffering little sister always before her
- eyes, and that pathetic voice sounding in her ears, learned to see the
- beauty and the sweetness of Beth's nature, to feel how deep and tender
- a place she filled in all hearts, and to acknowledge the worth of
- Beth's unselfish ambition to live for others, and make home happy by
- the exercise of those simple virtues which all may possess, and
- which all should love and value more than talent, wealth, or beauty.
- And Amy, in her exile, longed eagerly to be at home, that she might
- work for Beth, feeling now that no service would be hard or irksome,
- and remembering, with regretful grief, how many neglected tasks
- those willing hands had done for her. Laurie haunted the house like
- a restless ghost, and Mr. Laurence locked the grand piano, because
- he could not bear to be reminded of the young neighbor who used to
- make the twilight pleasant for him. Every one missed Beth. The
- milkman, baker, grocer, and butcher inquired how she did; poor Mrs.
- Hummel came to beg pardon for her thoughtlessness, and to get a shroud
- for Minna; the neighbors sent all sorts of comforts and good wishes,
- and even those who knew her best were surprised to find how many
- friends shy little Beth had made.
- Meanwhile she lay on her bed with old Joanna at her side, for even
- in her wanderings she did not forget her forlorn protege. She longed
- for her cats, but would not have them brought, lest they should get
- sick; and, in her quiet hours, she was full of anxiety about Jo. She
- sent loving messages to Amy, bade them tell her mother that she
- would write soon; and often begged for pencil and paper to try to
- say a word, that father might not think she had neglected him. But
- soon even these intervals of consciousness ended, and she lay hour
- after hour, tossing to and fro, with incoherent words on her lips,
- or sank into a heavy sleep which brought her no refreshment. Dr. Bangs
- came twice a day, Hannah sat up at night, Meg kept a telegram in her
- desk all ready to send off at any minute, and Jo never stirred from
- Beth's side.
- The first of December was a wintry day indeed to them, for a
- bitter wind blew, snow fell fast, and the year seemed getting ready
- for its death. When Dr. Bangs came that morning, he looked long at
- Beth, held the hot hand in both his own a minute, and laid it gently
- down, saying, in a low tone, to Hannah-
- "If Mrs. March can leave her husband, she'd better be sent for."
- Hannah nodded without speaking, for her lips twitched nervously; Meg
- dropped down into a chair as the strength seemed to go out of her
- limbs at the sound of those words; and Jo, after standing with a
- pale face for a minute, ran to the parlor, snatched up the telegram,
- and, throwing on her things, rushed out into the storm. She was soon
- back, and, while noiselessly taking off her cloak, Laurie came in with
- a letter, saying that Mr. March was mending again. Jo read it
- thankfully, but the heavy weight did not seem lifted off her heart,
- and her face was so full of misery that Laurie asked quickly-
- "What is it? is Beth worse?"
- "I've sent for mother," said Jo, tugging at her rubber boots with
- a tragical expression.
- "Good for you, Jo! Did you do it on your own responsibility?"
- asked Laurie, as he seated her in the hall chair, and took off the
- rebellious boots, seeing how her hands shook.
- "No, the doctor told us to."
- "O Jo, it's not so bad as that?" cried Laurie, with a startled face.
- "Yes, it is; she doesn't know us, she doesn't even talk about the
- flocks of green doves, as she calls the vineleaves on the wall; she
- doesn't look like my Beth, and there's nobody to help us bear it;
- mother and father both gone, and God seems so far away I can't find
- Him."
- As the tears streamed fast down poor Jo's cheeks, she stretched
- out her hand in a helpless sort of way, as if groping in the dark, and
- Laurie took it in his, whispering, as well as he could, with a lump in
- his throat-
- "I'm here. Hold on to me, Jo, dear!"
- She could not speak, but she did "hold on," and the warm grasp of
- the friendly human hand comforted her sore heart, and seemed to lead
- her nearer to the Divine arm which alone could uphold her in her
- trouble. Laurie longed to say something tender and comfortable, but no
- fitting words came to him, so he stood silent, gently stroking her
- bent head as her mother used to do. It was the best thing he could
- have done; far more soothing than the most eloquent words, for Jo felt
- the unspoken sympathy, and, in the silence, learned the sweet solace
- which affection administers to sorrow. Soon she dried the tears
- which had relieved her, and looked up with a grateful face.
- "Thank you, Teddy, I'm better now; I don't feel so forlorn, and will
- try to bear it if it comes."
- "Keep hoping for the best; that will help you, Jo. Soon your
- mother will be here, and then everything will be right."
- "I'm so glad father is better; now she won't feel so bad about
- leaving him. Oh, me! it does seem as if all the troubles came in a
- heap, and I got the heaviest part on my shoulders," sighed Jo,
- spreading her wet handkerchief over her knees to dry.
- "Doesn't Meg pull fair?" asked Laurie, looking indignant.
- "Oh, yes; she tries to, but she can't love Bethy as I do; and she
- won't miss her as I shall. Beth is my conscience, and I can't give her
- up. I can't! I can't!"
- Down went Jo's face into the wet handkerchief, and she cried
- despairingly; for she had kept up bravely till now, and never shed a
- tear. Laurie drew his hand across his eyes, but could not speak till
- he had subdued the choky feeling in his throat and steadied his
- lips. It might be unmanly, but he couldn't help it, and I am glad of
- it. Presently, as Jo's sobs quieted, he said hopefully, "I don't think
- she will die; she's so good, and we all love her so much, I don't
- believe God will take her away yet."
- "The good and dear people always do die," groaned Jo, but she
- stopped crying, for her friend's words cheered her up, in spite of her
- own doubts and fears.
- "Poor girl, you're worn out. It isn't like you to be forlorn. Stop a
- bit; I'll hearten you up in a jiffy."
- Laurie went off two stairs at a time, and Jo laid her wearied head
- down on Beth's little brown hood, which no one had thought of moving
- from the table where she left it. It must have possessed some magic,
- for the submissive spirit of its gentle owner seemed to enter into Jo;
- and, when Laurie came running down with a glass of wine, she took it
- with a smile, and said bravely, "I drink- Health to my Beth! You are a
- good doctor, Teddy, and such a comfortable friend; how can I ever
- pay you?" she added, as the wine refreshed her body, as the kind words
- had done her troubled mind.
- "I'll send in my bill, by and by; and to-night I'll give you
- something that will warm the cockles of your heart better than
- quarts of wine," said Laurie, beaming at her with a face of suppressed
- satisfaction at something.
- "What is it?" cried Jo, forgetting her woes for a minute, in her
- wonder.
- "I telegraphed to your mother yesterday, and Brooke answered she'd
- come at once, and she'll be here to-night, and everything will be
- all right. Aren't you glad I did it?"
- Laurie spoke very fast, and turned red and excited all in a
- minute, for he had kept his plot a secret, for fear of disappointing
- the girls or harming Beth. Jo grew quite white, flew out of her chair,
- and the moment he stopped speaking she electrified him by throwing her
- arms round his neck, and crying out, with a joyful cry, "O Laurie! O
- mother! I am so glad!" She did not weep again, but laughed
- hysterically, and trembled and clung to her friend as if she was a
- little bewildered by the sudden news.
- Laurie, though decidedly amazed, behaved with great presence of
- mind; he patted her back soothingly, and, finding that she was
- recovering, followed it up by a bashful kiss or two, which brought
- Jo round at once. Holding on to the banisters, she put him gently
- away, saying breathlessly, "Oh, don't! I didn't mean to; it was
- dreadful of me; but you were such a dear to go and do it in spite of
- Hannah that I couldn't help flying at you. Tell me all about it, and
- don't give me wine again; it makes me act so."
- "I don't mind," laughed Laurie, as he settled his tie. "Why, you see
- I got fidgety, and so did grandpa. We thought Hannah was overdoing the
- authority business, and your mother ought to know. She'd never forgive
- us if Beth- well, if anything happened, you know. So I got grandpa
- to say it was high time we did something, and off I pelted to the
- office yesterday, for the doctor looked sober, and Hannah most took my
- head off when I proposed a telegram. I never can bear to be 'lorded
- over'; so that settled my mind, and I did it. Your mother will come, I
- know, and the late train is in at two A.M. I shall go for her; and
- you've only got to bottle up your rapture, and keep Beth quiet, till
- that blessed lady gets here."
- "Laurie, you're an angel! How shall I ever thank you?"
- "Fly at me again; I rather like it," said Laurie, looking
- mischievous- a thing he had not done for a fortnight.
- "No, thank you. I'll do it by proxy, when your grandpa comes.
- Don't tease, but go home and rest, for you'll be up half the night.
- Bless you, Teddy, bless you!"
- Jo had backed into a corner; and, as she finished her speech, she
- vanished precipitately into the kitchen, where she sat down upon a
- dresser, and told the assembled cats that she was "happy, oh so
- happy!" while Laurie departed, feeling that he had made rather a
- neat thing of it.
- "That's the interferingest chap I ever see; but I forgive him, and
- do hope Mrs. March is coming on right away," said Hannah, with an
- air of relief, when Jo told the good news.
- Meg had a quiet rapture, and then brooded over the letter, while
- Jo set the sick-room in order, and Hannah "knocked up a couple of pies
- in case of company unexpected." A breath of fresh air seemed to blow
- through the house, and something better than sunshine brightened the
- quiet rooms, Everything appeared to feel the hopeful change; Beth's
- bird began to chirp again, and a half-blown rose was discovered on
- Amy's bush in the window; the fires seemed to burn with unusual
- cheeriness; and every time the girls met, their pale faces broke
- into smiles as they hugged one another, whispering encouragingly,
- "Mother's coming, dear! mother's coming!" Every one rejoiced but Beth;
- she lay in that heavy stupor, alike unconscious of hope and joy, doubt
- and danger. It was a piteous sight- the once rosy face so changed
- and vacant, the once busy hands so weak and wasted, the once smiling
- lips quite dumb, and the once pretty, well-kept hair scattered rough
- and tangled on the pillow. All day she lay so, only rousing now and
- then to mutter, "Water!" with lips so parched they could hardly
- shape the word; all day Jo and Meg hovered over her, watching,
- waiting, hoping, and trusting in God and mother; and all day the
- snow fell, the bitter wind raged, and the hours dragged slowly by. But
- night came at last; and every time the clock struck, the sisters,
- still sitting on either side the bed, looked at each other with
- brightening eyes, for each hour brought help nearer. The doctor had
- been in to say that some change, for better or worse, would probably
- take place about midnight, at which time he would return.
- Hannah, quite worn out, lay down on the sofa at the bed's foot,
- and fell fast asleep; Mr. Laurence marched to and fro in the parlor,
- feeling that he would rather face a rebel battery than Mrs. March's
- anxious countenance as she entered; Laurie lay on the rug,
- pretending to rest, but staring into the fire with the thoughtful look
- which made his black eyes beautifully soft and clear.
- The girls never forgot that night, for no sleep came to them as they
- kept their watch, with that dreadful sense of powerlessness which
- comes to us in hours like those.
- "If God spares Beth I never will complain again," whispered Meg
- earnestly.
- "If God spares Beth I'll try to love and serve Him all my life,"
- answered Jo, with equal fervor.
- "I wish I had no heart, it aches so," sighed Meg, after a pause.
- "If life is often as hard as this, I don't see how we ever shall get
- through it," added her sister despondently.
- Here the clock struck twelve, and both forgot themselves in watching
- Beth, for they fancied a change passed over her wan face. The house
- was still as death, and nothing but the wailing of the wind broke
- the deep hush. Weary Hannah slept on, and no one but the sisters saw
- the pale shadow which seemed to fall upon the little bed. An hour went
- by, and nothing happened except Laurie's quiet departure for the
- station. Another hour- still no one came; and anxious fears of delay
- in the storm, or accidents by the way, or, worst of all, a great grief
- at Washington, haunted the poor girls.
- It was past two, when Jo, who stood at the window thinking how
- dreary the world looked in its winding-sheet of snow, heard a movement
- by the bed, and, turning quickly, saw Meg kneeling before their
- mother's easy-chair, with her face hidden. A dreadful fear passed
- coldly over Jo, as she thought, "Beth is dead, and Meg is afraid to
- tell me."
- She was back at her post in an instant, and to her excited eyes a
- great change seemed to have taken place. The fever flush and the
- look of pain were gone, and the beloved little face looked so pale and
- peaceful in its utter repose, that Jo felt no desire to weep or to
- lament. Leaning low over this dearest of her sisters, she kissed the
- damp forehead with her heart on her lips, and softly whispered,
- "Good-by, my Beth; good-by!"
- As if waked by the stir, Hannah started out of her sleep, hurried to
- the bed, looked at Beth, felt her hands, listened at her lips, and
- then, throwing her apron over her head, sat down to rock to and fro,
- exclaiming, under her breath, "The fever's turned; she's sleepin'
- nat'ral; her skin's damp, and she breathes easy. Praise be given!
- Oh, my goodness me!"
- Before the girls could believe the happy truth, the doctor came to
- confirm it. He was a homely man, but they thought his face quite
- heavenly when he smiled, and said, with a fatherly look at them, "Yes,
- my dears, I think the little girl will pull through this time. Keep
- the house quiet; let her sleep, and when she wakes, give her-"
- What they were to give, neither heard; for both crept into the
- dark hall, and, sitting on the stairs, held each other close,
- rejoicing with hearts too full for words. When they went back to be
- kissed and cuddled by faithful Hannah, they found Beth lying, as she
- used to do, with her cheek pillowed on her hand, the dreadful pallor
- gone, and breathing quietly, as if just fallen asleep.
- "If mother would only come now!" said Jo, as the winter night
- began to wane.
- "See," said Meg, coming up with a white, half-opened rose, "I
- thought this would hardly be ready to lay in Beth's hand to-morrow
- if she- went away from us. But it has blossomed in the night, and
- now I mean to put it in my vase here, so that when the darling
- wakes, the first thing she sees will be the little rose, and
- mother's face."
- Never had the sun risen so beautifully, and never had the world
- seemed so lovely, as it did to the heavy eyes of Meg and Jo, as they
- looked out in the early morning, when their long, sad vigil was done.
- "It looks like a fairy world," said Meg, smiling to herself, as
- she stood behind the curtain, watching the dazzling sight.
- "Hark!" cried Jo, starting to her feet.
- Yes, there was a sound of bells at the door below, a cry from
- Hannah, and then Laurie's voice saying, in a joyful whisper, "Girls,
- she's come! she's come!"
- 19
- Amy's Will
-
- WHILE these things were happening at home, Amy was having hard times
- at Aunt March's. She felt her exile deeply, and, for the first time in
- her life, realized how much she was beloved and petted at home. Aunt
- March never petted any one; she did not approve of it; but she meant
- to be kind, for the well-behaved little girl pleased her very much,
- and Aunt March had a soft place in her old heart for her nephew's
- children, though she didn't think proper to confess it. She really did
- her best to make Amy happy, but, dear me, what mistakes she made! Some
- old people keep young at heart in spite of wrinkles and gray hairs,
- can sympathize with children's little cares and joys, make them feel
- at home, and can hide wise lessons under pleasant plays, giving and
- receiving friendship in the sweetest way. But Aunt March had not
- this gift, and she worried Amy very much with her rules and orders,
- her prim ways, and long, prosy talks. Finding the child more docile
- and amiable than her sister, the old lady felt it her duty to try
- and counteract, as far as possible, the bad effects of home freedom
- and indulgence. So she took Amy in hand, and taught her as she herself
- had been taught sixty years ago- a process which carried dismay to
- Amy's soul, and made her feel like a fly in the web of a very strict
- spider.
- She had to wash the cups every morning, and polish up the
- old-fashioned spoons, the fat silver teapot, and the glasses, till
- they shone. Then she must dust the room, and what a trying job that
- was! Not a speck escaped Aunt March's eye, and all the furniture had
- claw legs, and much carving, which was never dusted to suit. Then
- Polly must be fed, the lap-dog combed, and a dozen trips upstairs
- and down, to get things, or deliver orders, for the old lady was
- very lame, and seldom left her big chair. After these tiresome labors,
- she must do her lessons, which was a daily trial of every virtue she
- possessed. Then she was allowed one hour for exercise or play, and
- didn't she enjoy it? Laurie came every day, and wheedled Aunt March,
- till Amy was allowed to go out with him, when they walked and rode,
- and had capital times. After dinner, she had to read aloud, and sit
- still while the old lady slept, which she usually did for an hour,
- as she dropped off over the first page. Then patchwork or towels
- appeared, and Amy sewed with outward meekness and inward rebellion
- till dusk, when she was allowed to amuse herself as she liked till
- tea-time. The evenings were the worst of all, for Aunt March fell to
- telling long stories about her youth, which were so unutterably dull
- that Amy was always ready to go to bed, intending to cry over her hard
- fate, but usually going to sleep before she had squeezed out more than
- a tear or two.
- If it had not been for Laurie, and old Esther the maid, she felt
- that she never could have got through that dreadful time. The parrot
- alone was enough to drive her distracted, for he soon felt that she
- did not admire him, and revenged himself by being as mischievous as
- possible. He pulled her hair whenever she came near him, upset his
- bread and milk to plague her when she had newly cleaned his cage, made
- Mop bark by pecking at him while Madam dozed; called her names
- before company, and behaved in all respects like a reprehensible old
- bird. Then she could not endure the dog- a fat, cross beast, who
- snarled and yelped at her when she made his toilet, and who lay on his
- back, with all his legs in the air and a most idiotic expression of
- countenance when he wanted something to eat, which was about a dozen
- times a day. The cook was bad-tempered, the old coachman deaf, and
- Esther the only one who ever took any notice of the young lady.
- Esther was a Frenchwoman, who had lived with "Madame," as she called
- her mistress, for many years, and who rather tyrannized over the old
- lady, who could not get along without her. Her real name was
- Estelle, but Aunt March ordered her to change it, and she obeyed, on
- condition that she was never asked to change her religion. She took
- a fancy to Mademoiselle, and amused her very much, with odd stories of
- her life in France, when Amy sat with her while she got up Madame's
- laces. She also allowed her to roam about the great house, and examine
- the curious and pretty things stored, away in the big wardrobes and
- the ancient chests; for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy's
- chief delight was an Indian cabinet, full of queer drawers, little
- pigeon-holes, and secret places, in which were kept all sorts of
- ornaments, some precious, some merely curious, all more or less
- antique. To examine and arrange these things gave Amy great
- satisfaction, especially the jewel-cases, in which, on velvet
- cushions, reposed the ornaments which had adorned a belle forty
- years ago. There was the garnet set which Aunt March wore when she
- came out, the pearls her father gave her on her wedding-day, her
- lover's diamonds, the jet mourning rings and pins, the queer
- lockets, with portraits of dead friends, and weeping willows made of
- hair inside; the baby bracelets her one little daughter had worn;
- Uncle March's big watch, with the red seal so many childish hands
- had played with, and in a box, all by itself, lay Aunt March's
- wedding-ring, too small now for her fat finger, but put carefully
- away, like the most precious jewel of them all.
- "Which would Mademoiselle choose if she had her will?" asked
- Esther who always sat near to watch over and lock up the valuables.
- "I like the diamonds best, but there is no necklace among them,
- and I'm fond of necklaces, they are so becoming. I should choose
- this if I might," replied Amy, looking with great admiration at a
- string of gold and ebony beads, from which hung a heavy cross of the
- same.
- "I too, covet that, but not as a necklace; ah, no! to me it is a
- rosary, and as such I should use it like a good Catholic," said
- Esther, eying the handsome thing wistfully.
- "Is it meant to use as you use the string of good-smelling wooden
- beads hanging over your glass?" asked Amy.
- "Truly, yes, to pray with. It would be pleasing to the saints if one
- used so fine a rosary as this, instead of wearing it as a vain bijou."
- "You seem to take a great deal of comfort in your prayers, Esther,
- and always come down looking quiet and satisfied. I wish I could."
- "If Mademoiselle was a Catholic, she would find true comfort; but as
- that is not to be, it would be well if you went apart each day, to
- meditate and pray, as did the good mistress whom I served before
- Madame. She had a little chapel, and in it found solacement for much
- trouble."
- "Would it be right for me to do so too?" asked Amy, who, in her
- loneliness, felt the need of help of some sort, and found that she was
- apt to forget her little book, now that Beth was not there to remind
- her of it.
- "It would be excellent and charming; and I shall gladly arrange
- the little dressing-room for you if you like it. Say nothing to
- Madame, but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a while to think good
- thoughts, and pray the dear God to preserve your sister."
- Esther was truly pious, and quite sincere in her advice; for she had
- an affectionate heart, and felt much for the sisters in their anxiety.
- Amy liked the ideal and gave her leave to arrange the light closet
- next her room, hoping it would do her good.
- "I wish I knew where all these pretty things would go when Aunt.
- March dies," she said, as she slowly replaced the shining rosary,
- and shut the jewel-cases one by one.
- "To you and your sisters. I know it: Madame confides in me; I
- witnessed her will, and it is to be so," whispered Esther, smiling.
- "How nice! but I wish she'd let us have them now. Pro-cras-ti-nation
- is not agreeable," observed Amy, taking a last look at the diamonds.
- "It is too soon yet for the young ladies to wear these things. The
- first one who is affianced will have the pearls- Madame has said it;
- and I have a fancy that the little turquoise ring will be given to you
- when you go, for Madame approves your good behavior and charming
- manners."
- "Do you think so? Oh, I'll be a lamb, if I can only have that lovely
- ring! It's ever so much prettier than Kitty Bryant's. I do like Aunt
- March, after all"; and Amy tried on the blue ring with a delighted
- face, and a firm resolve to earn it.
- From that day she was a model of obedience, and the old lady
- complacently admired the success of her training. Esther fitted up the
- closet with a little table, placed a footstool before it, and over
- it a picture taken from one of the shut-up rooms. She thought it was
- of no great value, but, being appropriate, she borrowed it, well
- knowing that Madame would never know it, nor care if she did. It
- was, however, a very valuable copy of one of the famous pictures of
- the world, and Amy's beauty-loving eyes were never tired of looking up
- at the sweet face of the divine mother, while tender thoughts of her
- own were busy at her heart. On the table she laid her little Testament
- and hymn-book, kept a vase always full of the best flowers Laurie
- brought her, and came every day to "sit alone, thinking good thoughts,
- and praying the dear God to preserve her sister." Esther had given her
- a rosary of black beads, with a silver cross, but Amy hung it up and
- did not use it, feeling doubtful as to its fitness for Protestant
- prayers.
- The little girl was very sincere in all this, for, being left
- alone outside the safe home-nest, she felt the need of some kind
- hand to hold by so sorely, that she instinctively turned to the strong
- and tender Friend, whose fatherly love most closely surrounds his
- little children. She missed her mother's help to understand and rule
- herself, but having been taught where to look, she did her best to
- find the way, and walk in it confidingly. But Amy was a young pilgrim,
- and just now her burden seemed very heavy. She tried to forget
- herself, to keep cheerful, and be satisfied with doing right, though
- no one saw or praised her for it. In her first effort at being very,
- very good, she decided to make her will, as Aunt March had done; so
- that if she did fall ill and die, her possessions might be justly
- and generously divided. It cost her a pang even to think of giving
- up the little treasures which in her eyes were as precious as the
- old lady's jewels.
- During one of her play-hours she wrote out the important document as
- well as she could, with some help from Esther as to certain legal
- terms, and, when the good-natured Frenchwoman had signed her name, Amy
- felt relieved, and laid it by to show Laurie, whom she wanted as a
- second witness. As it was a rainy day, she went upstairs to amuse
- herself in one of the large chambers, and took Polly with her for
- company. In this room there was a wardrobe full of old-fashioned
- costumes, with which Esther allowed her to play, and it was her
- favorite amusement to array herself in the faded brocades, and
- parade up and down before the long mirror, making stately
- courtesies, and sweeping her train about, with a rustle which
- delighted her ears. So busy was she on this day that she did not
- hear Laurie's ring, nor see his face peeping in at her, as she gravely
- promenaded to and fro, flirting her fan and tossing her head, on which
- she wore a great pink turban, contrasting oddly with her blue
- brocade dress and yellow quilted petticoat. She was obliged to walk
- carefully, for she had on high-heeled shoes, and, as Laurie told Jo
- afterward, it was a comical sight to see her mince along in her gay
- suit, with Polly sidling and bridling just behind her, imitating her
- as well as he could, and occasionally stopping to laugh or exclaim,
- "Ain't we fine? Get along, you fright! Hold your tongue! Kiss me,
- dear! Ha! ha!"
- Having with difficulty restrained an explosion of merriment, lest it
- should offend her majesty, Laurie tapped, and was graciously received.
- "Sit down and rest while I put these things away; then I want to
- consult you about a very serious matter," said Amy, when she had shown
- her splendor, and driven Polly into a corner. "That bird is the
- trial of my life," she continued, removing the pink mountain from
- her head, while Laurie seated himself astride of a chair.
- "Yesterday, when aunt was asleep, and I was trying to be as still as a
- mouse, Polly began to squall and flap about in his cage; so I went
- to let him out, and found a big spider there. I poked it out, and it
- ran under the bookcase; Polly marched straight after it, stooped
- down and peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his funny way, with a
- cock of his eye, 'Come out and take a walk, my dear.' I couldn't
- help laughing, which made Poll swear, and aunt woke up and scolded
- us both."
- "Did the spider accept the old fellow's invitation?" asked Laurie,
- yawning.
- "Yes; out it came, and away ran Polly, frightened to death, and
- scrambled up on aunt's chair, calling out, 'Catch her! catch her!
- catch her!' as I chased the spider."
- "That's a lie! Oh lor!" cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie's toes.
- "I'd wring your neck if you were mine, you old torment," cried
- Laurie, shaking his fist at the bird, who put his head on one side,
- and gravely croaked, "Allyluyer! bless your buttons, dear!"
- "Now I'm ready," said Amy, shutting the wardrobe, and taking a paper
- out of her pocket. "I want you to read that, please, and tell me if it
- is legal and right. I felt that I ought to do it, for life is
- uncertain and I don't want any ill-feeling over my tomb."
- Laurie bit his lips, and turning a little from the pensive
- speaker, read the following document, with praiseworthy gravity,
- considering the spelling:
-
- MY LAST WILL AND TESTIMENT.
-
- I, Amy Curtis March, being in my sane mind, do give and bequeath all
- my earthly property- viz. to wit:- namely
- To my father, my best pictures, sketches, maps, and works of art,
- including frames. Also my $100, to do what he likes with.
- To my mother, all my clothes, except the blue apron with pockets-
- also my likeness, and my medal, with much love.
- To my dear sister Margaret, I give my turkquoise ring (if I get it),
- also my green box with the doves on it, also my piece of real lace for
- her neck, and my sketch of her as a memorial of her "little girl."
- To Jo I leave my breast-pin, the one mended with sealing wax, also
- my bronze inkstand- she lost the cover- and my most precious plaster
- rabbit, because I am sorry I burnt up her Story.
- To Beth (if she lives after me) I give my dolls and the little
- bureau, my fan, my linen collars and my new slippers if she can wear
- them being thin when she gets well. And I herewith also leave her my
- regret that I ever made fun of old Joanna.
- To my friend and neighbor Theodore Laurence I bequeethe my paper
- marshay portfolio, my clay model of a horse though he did say it
- hadn't any neck. Also in return for his great kindness in the hour
- of affliction any one of my artistic works he likes, Noter Dame is the
- best.
- To our venerable benefactor Mr. Laurence I leave my purple box
- with a looking glass in the cover which will be nice for his pens
- and remind him of the departed girl who thanks him for his favors to
- her family, specially Beth.
- I wish my favorite playmate Kitty Bryant to have the blue silk apron
- and my gold-bead ring with a kiss.
- To Hannah I the bandbox she wanted and all the patch work I leave
- hoping she "will remember me, when it you see."
- And now having disposed of my most valuable property I hope all will
- be satisfied and not blame the dead. I forgive every one, and trust we
- may all meet when the trump shall sound. Amen.
- To this will and testiment I set my hand and seal on this 20th day
- of Nov. Anni Domino 1861.
- AMY CURTIS MARCH.
-
- Witnesses: ESTELLE VALNOR,
- THEODORE LAURENCE.
-
- The last name was written in pencil, and Amy explained that he was
- to rewrite it in ink, and seal it up for her properly.
- "What put it into your head? Did any one tell you about Beth's
- giving away her things?" asked Laurie soberly, as Amy laid a bit of
- red tape, with sealing-wax, a taper, and a standish before him.
- She explained; and then asked anxiously, "What about Beth?"
- "I'm sorry I spoke; but as I did, I'll tell you. She felt so ill one
- day that she told Jo she wanted to give her piano to Meg, her cats
- to you, and the poor old doll to Jo, who would love it for her sake.
- She was sorry she had so little to give, and left locks of hair to the
- rest of us, and her best love to grandpa. She never thought of a
- will."
- Laurie was signing and sealing as he spoke, and did not look up till
- a great tear dropped on the paper. Amy's face was full of trouble; but
- she only said, "Don't people put sort of postscrips to their wills,
- sometimes?"
- "Yes 'codicils,' they call them."
- "Put one in mine then- that I wish all my curls cut off, and given
- round to my friends. I forgot it; but I want it done, though it will
- spoil my looks."
- Laurie added it, smiling at Amy's last and greatest sacrifice.
- Then he amused her for an hour, and was much interested in all her
- trials. But when he came to go, Amy held him back to whisper, with
- trembling lips, "Is there really any danger about Beth?"
- "I'm afraid there is; but we must hope for the best, so don't cry,
- dear"; and Laurie put his arm about her with a brotherly gesture which
- was very comforting.
- When he had gone, she went to her little chapel, and, sitting in the
- twilight, prayed for Beth, with streaming tears and an aching heart,
- feeling that a million turquoise rings would not console her for the
- loss of her gentle little sister.
- 20
- Confidential
-
- I DON'T think I have any words in which to tell the meeting of the
- mother and daughters; such hours are beautiful to live, but very
- hard to describe, so I will leave it to the imagination of my readers,
- merely saying that the house was full of genuine happiness, and that
- Meg's tender hope was realized; for when Beth woke from that long,
- healing sleep, the first objects on which her eyes fell were the
- little rose and mother's face. Too weak to wonder at anything, she
- only smiled, and nestled close into the loving arms about her, feeling
- that the hungry longing was satisfied at last. Then she slept again,
- and the girls waited upon their mother, for she would not unclasp
- the thin hand which clung to hers even in sleep.
- Hannah had "dished up" an astonishing breakfast for the traveller,
- finding it impossible to vent her excitement in any other way; and Meg
- and Jo fed their mother like dutiful young storks, while they listened
- to her whispered account of father's state, Mr. Brooke's promise to
- stay and nurse him, the delays which the storm occasioned on the
- homeward journey, and the unspeakable comfort Laurie's hopeful face
- had given her when she arrived, worn out with fatigue, anxiety, and
- cold.
- What a strange, yet pleasant day that was! so brilliant and gay
- without, for all the world seemed abroad to welcome the first snow; so
- quiet and reposeful within, for every one slept, spent with
- watching, and a Sabbath stillness reigned through the house, while
- nodding Hannah mounted guard at the door. With a blissful sense of
- burdens lifted off, Meg and Jo closed their weary eyes, and lay at
- rest, like storm-beaten boats, safe at anchor in a quiet harbor.
- Mrs. March would not leave Beth's side, but rested in the big chair,
- waking often to look at, touch, and brood over her child, like a miser
- over some recovered treasure.
- Laurie, meanwhile, posted off to comfort Amy, and told his story
- so well that Aunt March actually "sniffed" herself, and never once
- said, "I told you so." Amy came out so strong on this occasion that
- I think the good thoughts in the little chapel really began to bear
- fruit. She dried her tears quickly, restrained her impatience to see
- her mother, and never even thought of the turquoise ring, when the old
- lady heartily agreed in Laurie's opinion, that she behaved "like a
- capital little woman." Even Polly seemed impressed, for he called
- her "good girl," blessed her buttons, and begged her to "come and take
- a walk, dear," in his most affable tone. She would very gladly have
- gone out to enjoy the bright wintry weather; but, discovering that
- Laurie was dropping with sleep in spite of manful efforts to conceal
- the fact, she persuaded him to rest on the sofa, while she wrote a
- note to her mother. She was a long time about it; and, when she
- returned, he was stretched out, with both arms under his head, sound
- asleep, while Aunt March had pulled down the curtains, and sat doing
- nothing in an unusual fit of benignity.
- After a while, they began to think he was not going to wake till
- night, and I'm not sure that he would, had he not been effectually
- roused by Amy's cry of joy at sight of her mother. There probably were
- a good many happy little girls in and about the city that day, but
- it is my private opinion that Amy was the happiest of all, when she
- sat in her mother's lap and told her trials, receiving consolation and
- compensation in the shape of approving smiles and fond caresses.
- They were alone together in the chapel, to which her mother did not
- object when its purpose was explained to her.
- "On the contrary, I like it very much, dear," looking from the dusty
- rosary to the well-worn little book, and the lovely picture with its
- garland of evergreen. "It is an excellent plan to have some place
- where we can go to be quiet, when things vex or grieve us. There are a
- good many hard times in this life of ours, but we can always bear them
- if we ask help in the right way. I think my little girl is learning
- this?"
- "Yes, mother; and when I go home I mean to have a corner in the
- big closet to put my books, and the copy of that picture which I've
- tried to make. The woman's face is not good- it's too beautiful for me
- to draw- but the baby is done better, and I love it very much. I
- like to think He was a little child once, for then I don't seem so far
- away, and that helps me."
- As Amy pointed to the smiling Christ-child on his mother's knee,
- Mrs. March saw something on the lifted hand that made her smile. She
- said nothing, but Amy understood the look, and, after a minute's
- pause, she added gravely-
- "I wanted to speak to you about this, but I forgot it. Aunt gave
- me the ring to-day; she called me to her and kissed me, and put it
- on my finger, and said I was a credit to her, and she'd like to keep
- me always. She gave that funny guard to keep the turquoise on, as it's
- too big. I'd like to wear them, mother; can I?"
- "They are very pretty, but I think you're rather too young for
- such ornaments, Amy," said Mrs. March, looking at the plump little
- hand, with the band of sky-blue stones on the forefinger, and the
- quaint guard, formed of two tiny, golden hands clasped together.
- "I'll try not to be vain," said Amy. "I don't think I like it only
- because it's so pretty; but I want to wear it as the girl in the story
- wore her bracelet, to remind me of something."
- "Do you mean Aunt March?" asked her mother, laughing.
- "No, to remind me not to be selfish." Amy looked so earnest and
- sincere about it, that her mother stopped laughing, and listened
- respectfully to the little plan.
- "I've thought a great deal lately about my 'bundle of naughties,'
- and being selfish is the largest one in it; so I'm going to try hard
- to cure it, if I can. Beth isn't selfish, and that's the reason
- every one loves her and feels so bad at the thoughts of losing her.
- People wouldn't feel half so bad about me if I was sick, and I don't
- deserve to have them; but I'd like to be loved and missed by a great
- many friends, so I'm going to try and be like Beth all I can. I'm
- apt to forget my resolutions; but if I had something always about me
- to remind me, I guess I should do better. May I try this way?"
- "Yes; but I have more faith in the corner of the big closet. Wear
- your ring, dear, and do your best; I think you will prosper, for the
- sincere wish to be good is half the battle. Now I must go back to
- Beth. Keep up your heart, little daughter, and we will soon have you
- home again."
- That evening, while Meg was writing to her father to report the
- traveller's safe arrival, Jo slipped upstairs into Beth's room, and,
- finding her mother in her usual place, stood a minute twisting her
- fingers in her hair, with a worried gesture and an undecided look.
- "What is it, deary?" asked Mrs. March, holding out her hand, with
- a face which invited confidence.
- "I want to tell you something, mother."
- "About Meg?"
- "How quickly you guessed! Yes, it's about her, and though it's a
- little thing, it fidgets me."
- "Beth is asleep; speak low, and tell me all about it. That Moffat
- hasn't been here, I hope?" asked Mrs. March rather sharply.
- "No, I should have shut the door in his face if he had," said Jo,
- settling herself on the floor at her mother's feet. "Last summer Meg
- left a pair of gloves over at the Laurences', and only one was
- returned. We forgot all about it, till Teddy told me that Mr. Brooke
- had it. He kept it in his waistcoat pocket, and once it fell out,
- and Teddy joked him about it, and Mr. Brooke owned that he liked
- Meg, but didn't dare say so, she was so young and he so poor. Now,
- isn't it a dreadful state of things?"
- "Do you think Meg cares for him?" asked Mrs. March, with an
- anxious look.
- "Mercy me! I don't know anything about love and such nonsense!"
- cried Jo, with a funny mixture of interest and contempt. "In novels,
- the girls show it by starting and blushing, fainting away, growing
- thin, and acting like fools. Now Meg does not do anything of the sort:
- she eats and drinks and sleeps, like a sensible creature; she looks
- straight in my face when I talk about that man, and only blushes a
- little bit when Teddy jokes about lovers. I forbid him to do it, but
- he doesn't mind me as he ought."
- "Then you fancy that Meg is not interested in John?"
- "Who?" cried Jo, staring.
- "Mr. Brooke. I call him 'John' now; we fell into the way of doing so
- at the hospital, and he likes it."
- "Oh, dear! I know you'll take his part: he's been good to father,
- and you won't send him away, but let Meg marry him, if she wants to.
- Mean thing! to go petting papa and helping you, just to wheedle you
- into liking him"; and Jo pulled her hair again with a wrathful tweak.
- "My dear, don't get angry about it, and I will tell you how it
- happened. John went with me at Mr. Laurence's request, and was so
- devoted to poor father that we couldn't help getting fond of him. He
- was perfectly open and honorable about Meg, for he told us he loved
- her, but would earn a comfortable home before he asked her to marry
- him. He only wanted our leave to love her and work for her, and the
- right to make her love him if he could. He is a truly excellent
- young man, and we could not refuse to listen to him; but I will not
- consent to Meg's engaging herself so young."
- "Of course not; it would be idiotic! I know there was mischief
- brewing; I felt it; and now it's worse than I imagined. I just wish
- I could marry Meg myself, and keep her safe in the family."
- This odd arrangement made Mrs. March smile; but she said gravely,
- "Jo, I confide in you, and don't wish you to say anything to Meg
- yet, When John comes back, and I see them together, I can judge better
- of her feelings toward him."
- "She'll see his in those handsome eyes that she talks about, and
- then it will be all up with her. She's got such a soft heart, it
- will melt like butter in the sun if any one looks sentimentally at
- her. She read the short reports he sent more than she did your
- letters, and pinched me when I spoke of it, and likes brown eyes,
- and doesn't think John an ugly name, and she'll go and fall in love,
- and there's an end of peace and fun, and cosy times together. I see it
- all! they'll go lovering around the house, and we shall have to dodge;
- Meg will be absorbed, and no good to me any more; Brooke will
- scratch up a fortune somehow, carry her off, and make a hole in the
- family; and I shall break my heart, and everything will be
- abominably uncomfortable. Oh, dear me! why weren't we all boys, then
- there wouldn't be any bother."
- Jo leaned her chin on her knees, in a disconsolate attitude, and
- shook her fist at the reprehensible John. Mrs. March sighed, and Jo
- looked up with an air of relief.
- "You don't like it, mother? I'm glad of it. Let's send him about his
- business, and not tell Meg a word of it, but all be happy together
- as we always have been."
- "I did wrong to sigh, Jo. It is natural and right you should all
- go to homes of your own, in time; but I do want to keep my girls as
- long as I can; and I am sorry that this happened so soon, for Meg is
- only seventeen, and it will be some years before John can make a
- home for her. Your father and I have agreed that she shall not bind
- herself in any way, nor be married, before twenty. If she and John
- love one another, they can wait, and test the love by doing so. She is
- conscientious, and I have no fear of her treating him unkindly. My
- pretty, tender-hearted girl! I hope things will go happily with her."
- "Hadn't you rather have her marry a rich man?" asked Jo, as her
- mother's voice faltered a little over the last words.
- "Money is a good and useful thing, Jo; and I hope my girls will
- never feel the need of it too bitterly, nor be tempted by too much.
- I should like to know that John was firmly established in some good
- business, which gave him an income large enough to keep free from debt
- and make Meg comfortable. I'm not ambitious for a splendid fortune,
- a fashionable position, or a great name for my girls. If rank and
- money come with love and virtue, also, I should accept them
- gratefully, and enjoy your good fortune; but I know, by experience,
- how much genuine happiness can be had in a plain little house, where
- the daily bread is earned, and some privations give sweetness to the
- few pleasures. I am content to see Meg begin humbly, for, if I am
- not mistaken, she will be rich in the possession of a good man's
- heart, and that is better than a fortune."
- "I understand, mother, and quite agree; but I'm disappointed about
- Meg, for I'd planned to have her marry Teddy by and by, and sit in the
- lap of luxury all her days. Wouldn't it be nice?" asked Jo, looking
- up, with a brighter face.
- "He is younger than she, you know," began Mrs. March; but Jo broke
- in-
- "Only a little; he's old for his age, and tall; and can be quite
- grown-up in his manners if he likes. Then he's rich and generous and
- good, and loves us all; and I say it's a pity my plan is spoilt."
- "I'm afraid Laurie is hardly grown up enough for Meg, and altogether
- too much of a weathercock, just now, for any one to depend on. Don't
- make plans, Jo; but let time and their own hearts mate your friends.
- We can't meddle safely in such matters, and had better not get
- 'romantic rubbish,' as you call it, into our heads, lest it spoil
- our friendship."
- "Well, I won't; but I hate to see things going all criss-cross and
- getting snarled up, when a pull here and a snip there would straighten
- it out. I wish wearing flat-irons on our heads would keep us from
- growing up. But buds will be roses, and kittens, cats- more's the
- pity!"
- "What's that about flat-irons and cats?" asked Meg, as she crept
- into the room, with the finished letter in her hand.
- "Only one of my stupid speeches. I'm going to bed; come, Peggy,"
- said Jo, unfolding herself, like an animated puzzle.
- "Quite right, and beautifully written. Please add that I send my
- love to John," said Mrs. March, as she glanced over the letter, and
- gave it back.
- "Do you call him 'John'?" asked Meg, smiling, with her innocent eyes
- looking down into her mother's.
- "Yes; he has been like a son to us, and we are very fond of him,"
- replied Mrs. March, returning the look with a keen one.
- "I'm glad of that, he is so lonely. Good-night, mother, dear. It
- is so inexpressibly comfortable to have you here," was Meg's quiet
- answer.
- The kiss her mother gave her was a very tender one; and, as she went
- away, Mrs. March said, with a mixture of satisfaction and regret, "She
- does not love John yet, but will soon learn to."
- 21
- Laurie Makes Mischief, and Jo Makes Peace
-
- JO'S face was a study next day, for the secret rather weighed upon
- her, and she found it hard not to look mysterious and important. Meg
- observed it, but did not trouble herself to make inquiries, for she
- had learned that the best way to manage Jo was by the law of
- contraries, so she felt sure of being told everything if she did not
- ask. She was rather surprised, therefore, when the silence remained
- unbroken, and Jo assumed a patronizing air, which decidedly aggravated
- Meg, who in her turn assumed an air of dignified reserve, and
- devoted herself to her mother. This left Jo to her own devices; for
- Mrs. March had taken her place as nurse, and bade her rest,
- exercise, and amuse herself after her long confinement. Amy being
- gone, Laurie was her only refuge; and, much as she enjoyed his
- society, she rather dreaded him just then, for he was an
- incorrigible tease, and she feared he would coax her secret from her.
- She was quite right; for the mischief-loving lad no sooner suspected
- a mystery than he set himself to find it out, and led Jo a trying life
- of it. He wheedled, bribed, ridiculed, threatened, and scolded;
- affected indifference, that he might surprise the truth from her;
- declared he knew, then that he didn't care; and, at last, by dint of
- perseverance, he satisfied himself that it concerned Meg and Mr.
- Brooke. Feeling indignant that he was not taken into his tutor's
- confidence, he set his wits to work to devise some proper
- retaliation for the slight.
- Meg meanwhile had apparently forgotten the matter, and was
- absorbed in preparations for her father's return; but all of a
- sudden a change seemed to come over her, and, for a day or two, she
- was quite unlike herself. She started when spoken to, blushed when
- looked at, was very quiet, and sat over her sewing, with a timid,
- troubled look on her face. To her mother's inquiries she answered that
- she was quite well, and Jo's she silenced by begging to be let alone.
- "She feels it in the air- love, I mean- and she's going very fast.
- She's got most of the symptoms- is twittery and cross, doesn't eat,
- lies awake, and mopes in corners. I caught her singing that song he
- gave her, and once she said 'John,' as you do, and then turned as
- red as a poppy. Whatever shall we do?" said Jo, looking ready for
- any measures, however violent.
- "Nothing but wait. Let her alone, be kind and patient, and
- father's coming will settle everything," replied her mother.
- "Here's a note to you, Meg, all sealed up. How odd! Teddy never
- seals mine," said Jo, next day, as she distributed the contents of the
- little post-office.
- Mrs. March and Jo were deep in their own affairs, when a sound
- from Meg made them look up to see her staring at her note, with a
- frightened face.
- "My child, what is it?" cried her mother, running to her, while Jo
- tried to take the paper which had done the mischief.
- "It's all a mistake- he didn't send it. O Jo, how could you do
- it?" and Meg hid her face in her hands, crying as if her heart was
- quite broken.
- "Me? I've done nothing! What's she talking about?" cried Jo,
- bewildered.
- Meg's mild eyes kindled with anger as she pulled a crumpled note
- from her pocket, and threw it at Jo, saying reproachfully-
- "You wrote it, and that bad boy helped you. How could you be so
- rude, so mean, and cruel to us both?"
- Jo hardly heard her, for she and her mother were reading the note,
- which was written in a peculiar hand.
-
- MY DEAREST MARGARET:
- I can no longer restrain my passion, and must know my fate
- before I return. I dare not tell your parents yet, but I think they
- would consent if they knew that we adored one another. Mr. Laurence
- will help me to some good place, and then, my sweet girl, You will
- make me happy. I implore you to say nothing to your family yet, but to
- send one word of hope through Laurie to
- Your devoted JOHN.
-
- "Oh, the little villain! that's the way he meant to pay me for
- keeping my word to mother. I'll give him a hearty scolding, and
- bring him over to beg pardon," cried Jo, burning to execute
- immediate justice. But her mother held her back, saying, with a look
- she seldom wore-
- "Stop, Jo, you must clear yourself first. You have played so many
- pranks, that I am afraid you have had a hand in this."
- "On my word, mother, I haven't! I never saw that note before, and
- don't know anything about it, as true as I live!" said Jo, so
- earnestly that they believed her. "If I had taken a part in it I'd
- have done it better than this, and have written a sensible note. I
- should think you'd have known Mr. Brooke wouldn't write such stuff
- as that," she added, scornfully tossing down the paper.
- "It's like his writing," faltered Meg, comparing it with the note in
- her hand.
- "O Meg, you didn't answer it?" cried Mrs. March quickly.
- "Yes I did!" and Meg hid her face again, overcome with shame.
- "Here's a scrape! Do let me bring that wicked boy over to explain,
- and be lectured. I can't rest till I get hold of him"; and Jo made for
- the door again.
- "Hush! let me manage this, for it is worse than I thought. Margaret,
- tell me the whole story," commanded Mrs. March, sitting down by Meg,
- yet keeping hold of Jo, lest she should fly off.
- "I received the first letter from Laurie, who didn't look as if he
- knew anything about it," began Meg, without looking up. "I was worried
- at first, and meant to tell you; then I remembered how you liked Mr.
- Brooke, so I thought you wouldn't mind if I kept my little secret
- for a few days. I'm so silly that I liked to think no one knew; and,
- while I was deciding what to say, I felt like the girls in books,
- who have such things to do. Forgive me, mother, I'm paid for my
- silliness now; I never can look him in the face again."
- "What did you say to him?" asked Mrs. March.
- "I only said I was too young to do anything about it yet; that I
- didn't wish to have secrets from you, and he must speak to father. I
- was very grateful for his kindness, and would be his friend, but
- nothing more, for a long while."
- Mrs. March smiled, as if well pleased, and Jo clapped her hands,
- exclaiming, with a laugh "You are almost equal to Caroline Percy,
- who was a pattern of prudence! Tell on, Meg. What did he say to that?"
- "He writes in a different way entirely, telling me that he never
- sent any love-letter at all, and is very sorry that my roguish sister,
- Jo, should take such liberties with our names. It's very kind and
- respectful, but think how dreadful for me!"
- Meg leaned against her mother, looking the image of despair, and
- Jo tramped about the room, calling Laurie names. All of a sudden she
- stopped, caught up the two notes, and, after looking at them
- closely, said decidedly, "I don't believe Brooke ever saw either of
- these letters. Teddy wrote both, and keeps yours to crow over me with,
- because I wouldn't tell him my secret."
- "Don't have any secrets, Jo; tell it to mother, and keep out of
- trouble, as I should have done," said Meg warningly.
- "Bless you, child! Mother told me."
- "That will do, Jo. I'll comfort Meg while you go and get Laurie. I
- shall sift the matter to the bottom, and put a stop to such pranks
- at once."
- Away ran Jo, and Mrs. March gently told Meg Mr. Brooke's real
- feelings. "Now, dear, what are your own? Do you love him enough to
- wait till he can make a home for you, or will you keep yourself
- quite free for the present?"
- "I've been so scared and worried, I don't want to have anything to
- do with lovers for a long while- perhaps never," answered Meg
- petulantly. "If John doesn't know anything about this nonsense,
- don't tell him, and make Jo and Laurie hold their tongues. I won't
- be deceived and plagued and made a fool of- it's a shame!"
- Seeing that Meg's usually gentle temper was roused and her pride
- hurt by this mischievous joke, Mrs. March soothed her by promises of
- entire silence, and great discretion for the future. The instant
- Laurie's step was heard in the hall, Meg flew into the study, and Mrs.
- March received the culprit alone. Jo had not told him why he was
- wanted, fearing he wouldn't come; but he knew the minute he saw Mrs.
- March's face, and stood twirling his hat, with a guilty air which
- convicted him at once. Jo was dismissed, but chose to march up and
- down the hall like a sentinel, having some fear that the prisoner
- might bolt. The sound of voices in the parlor rose and fell for half
- an hour; but what happened during that interview the girls never knew.
- When they were called in, Laurie was standing by their mother,
- with such a penitent face that Jo forgave him on the spot, but did not
- think it wise to betray the fact. Meg received his humble apology, and
- was much comforted by the assurance that Brooke knew nothing of the
- joke.
- "I'll never tell him to my dying day- wild horses shan't drag it out
- of me; so you'll forgive me, Meg, and I'll do anything to show how
- out-and-out sorry I am," he added, looking very much ashamed of
- himself.
- "I'll try; but it was a very ungentlemanly thing to do. I didn't
- think you could be so sly and malicious, Laurie," replied Meg,
- trying to hide her maidenly confusion under a gravely reproachful air.
- "It was altogether abominable, and I don't deserve to be spoken to
- for a month; but you will, though, won't you?" and Laurie folded his
- hands together with such an imploring gesture, as he spoke in his
- irresistibly persuasive tone, that it was impossible to frown upon
- him, in spite of his scandalous behavior. Meg pardoned him, and Mrs.
- March's grave face relaxed, in spite of her efforts to keep sober,
- when she heard him declare that he would atone for his sins by all
- sorts of penances, and abase himself like a worm before the injured
- damsel.
- Jo stood aloof, meanwhile, trying to harden her heart against him,
- and succeeding only in primming up her face into an expression of
- entire disapprobation. Laurie looked at her once or twice, but, as she
- showed no sign of relenting, he felt injured, and turned his back on
- her till the others were done with him, when he made her a low bow,
- and walked off without a word.
- As soon as he had gone, she wished she had been more forgiving;
- and when Meg and her mother went upstairs, she felt lonely, and longed
- for Teddy. After resisting for some time, she yielded to the
- impulse, and, armed with a book to return, went over to the big house.
- "Is Mr. Laurence in?" asked Jo, of a housemaid, who was coming
- downstairs.
- "Yes, miss; but I don't believe he's seeable just yet."
- "Why not? is he ill?"
- "La, no, miss, but he's had a scene with Mr. Laurie, who is in one
- of his tantrums about something, which vexes the old gentleman, so I
- dursn't go nigh him."
- "Where is Laurie?"
- "Shut up in his room, and he won't answer, though I've been
- a-tapping. I don't know what's to become of the dinner, for it's
- ready, and there's no one to eat it."
- "I'll go and see what the matter is. I'm not afraid of either of
- them."
- Up went Jo, and knocked smartly on the door of Laurie's little
- study.
- "Stop that, or I'll open the door and make you!" called out the
- young gentleman, in a threatening tone.
- Jo immediately knocked again; the door flew open, and in she
- bounced, before Laurie could recover from his surprise. Seeing that he
- really was out of temper, Jo, who knew how to manage him, assumed a
- contrite expression, and going artistically down upon her knees,
- said meekly, "Please forgive me for being so cross. I came to make
- it up, and can't go away till I have."
- "It's all right. Get up, and don't be a goose, Jo," was the cavalier
- reply to her petition.
- "Thank you; I will. Could I ask what's the matter? You don't look
- exactly easy in your mind."
- "I've been shaken, and I won't bear it!" growled Laurie indignantly.
- "Who did it?" demanded Jo.
- "Grandfather; if it had been any one else I'd have-" and the injured
- youth finished his sentence by an energetic gesture of the right arm.
- "That's nothing; I often shake you, and you don't mind," said Jo
- soothingly.
- "Pooh! you're a girl, and it's fun; but I'll allow no man to shake
- me."
- "I don't think any one would care to try it, if you looked as much
- like a thunder-cloud as you do now. Why were you treated so?"
- "Just because I wouldn't say what your mother wanted me for. I'd
- promised not to tell, and of course I wasn't going to break my word."
- "Couldn't you satisfy your grandpa in any other way?"
- "No; he would have the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the
- truth. I'd have told my part of the scrape, if I could without
- bringing Meg in. As I couldn't, I held my tongue, and bore the
- scolding till the old gentleman collared me. Then I got angry, and
- bolted, for fear I should forget myself."
- "It wasn't nice, but he's sorry, I know; so go down and make up.
- I'll help you."
- "Hanged if I do! I'm not going to be lectured and pummelled by every
- one, just for a bit of a frolic. I was sorry about Meg, and begged
- pardon like a man; but I won't do it again, when I wasn't in the
- wrong."
- "He didn't know that."
- "He ought to trust me, and not act as if I was a baby. It's no
- use, Jo; he's got to learn that I'm able to take care of myself, and
- don't need any one's apron-string to hold on by."
- "What pepper-pots you are!" sighed Jo. "How do you mean to settle
- this affair?"
- "Well, he ought to beg pardon, and believe me when I say I can't
- tell him what the fuss 's about."
- "Bless you! he won't do that."
- "I won't go down till he does."
- "Now, Teddy, be sensible; let it pass, and I'll explain what I
- can. You can't stay here, so what's the use of being melodramatic?"
- "I don't intend to stay here long, any way. I'll slip off and take a
- journey somewhere, and when grandpa misses me he'll come round fast
- enough."
- "I dare say; but you ought not to go and worry him."
- "Don't preach. I'll go to Washington and see Brooke; it's gay there,
- and I'll enjoy myself after the troubles."
- "What fun you'd have! I wish I could run off too," said Jo,
- forgetting her part of Mentor in lively visions of martial life at the
- capital.
- "Come on, then! Why not? You go and surprise your father, and I'll
- stir up old Brooke. It would be a glorious joke; let's do it, Jo.
- We'll leave a letter saying we are all right, and trot off at once.
- I've got money enough; it will do you good, and be no harm, as you
- go to your father."
- For a moment Jo looked as if she would agree; for, wild as the
- plan was, it just suited her. She was tired of care and confinement,
- longed for change, and thoughts of her father blended temptingly
- with the novel charms of camps and hospitals, liberty and fun. Her
- eyes kindled as they turned wistfully toward the window, but they fell
- on the old house opposite, and she shook her head with sorrowful
- decision.
- "If I was a boy, we'd run away together, and have a capital time;
- but as I'm a miserable girl, I must be proper, and stop at home. Don't
- tempt me, Teddy, it's a crazy plan."
- "That's the fun of it," began Laurie, who had got a wilful fit on
- him, and was possessed to break out of bounds in some way.
- "Hold your tongue!" cried Jo, covering her ears. "'Prunes and
- prisms' are my doom, and I may as well make up my mind to it. I came
- here to moralize, not to hear about things that make me skip to
- think of."
- "I know Meg would wet-blanket such a proposal, but I thought you had
- more spirit," began Laurie insinuatingly.
- "Bad boy, be quiet! Sit down and think of your own sins, don't go
- making me add to mine. If I get your grandpa to apologize for the
- shaking, will you give up running away?" asked Jo seriously.
- "Yes, but you won't do it," answered Laurie, who wished "to make
- up," but felt that his outraged dignity must be appeased first.
- "If I can manage the young one I can the old one," muttered Jo, as
- she walked away, leaving Laurie bent over a railroad map, with his
- head propped up on both hands.
- "Come in!" and Mr. Laurence's gruff voice sounded gruffer than ever,
- as Jo tapped at his door.
- "It's only me, sir, come to return a book," she said blandly, as she
- entered.
- "Want any more?" asked the old gentleman, looking grim and vexed,
- but trying not to show it.
- "Yes, please. I like old Sam so well, I think I'll try the second
- volume," returned Jo, hoping to propitiate him by accepting a second
- dose of Boswell's "Johnson," as he had recommended that lively work.
- The shaggy eyebrows unbent a little, as he rolled the steps toward
- the shelf where the Johnsonian literature was placed. Jo skipped up,
- and, sitting on the top step, affected to be searching for her book,
- but was really wondering how best to introduce the dangerous object of
- her visit. Mr. Laurence seemed to suspect that something was brewing
- in her mind; for, after taking several brisk turns about the room,
- he faced round on her, speaking so abruptly that "Rasselas" tumbled
- face downward on the floor.
- "What has that boy been about? Don't try to shield him. I know he
- has been in mischief by the way he acted when he came home. I can't
- get a word from him; and when I threatened to shake the truth out of
- him he bolted upstairs, and locked himself into his room."
- "He did do wrong, but we forgave him, and all promised not to say
- a word to any one," began Jo reluctantly.
- "That won't do; he shall not shelter himself behind a promise from
- you soft-hearted girls. If he's done anything amiss, he shall confess,
- beg pardon, and be punished. Out with it, Jo, I won't be kept in the
- dark."
- Mr. Laurence looked so alarming and spoke so sharply that Jo would
- have gladly run away, if she could, but she was perched aloft on the
- steps, and he stood at the foot, a lion in the path, so she had to
- stay and brave it out.
- "Indeed, sir, I cannot tell; mother forbade it. Laurie has
- confessed, asked pardon, and been punished quite enough. We don't keep
- silence to shield him, but some one else, and it will make more
- trouble if you interfere. Please don't; it was partly my fault, but
- it's all right now; so let's forget it, and talk about the
- 'Rambler,' or something pleasant."
- "Hang the 'Rambler'! Come down and give me your word that this
- harum-scarum boy of mine hasn't done anything ungrateful or
- impertinent. If he has, after all your kindness to him, I'll thrash
- him with my own hands."
- The threat sounded awful, but did not alarm Jo, for she knew the
- irascible old gentleman would never lift a finger against his
- grandson, whatever he might say to the contrary. She obediently
- descended, and made as light of the prank as she could without
- betraying Meg or forgetting the truth.
- "Hum- ha- well, if the boy held his tongue because he promised,
- and not from obstinacy, I'll forgive him. He's a stubborn fellow,
- and hard to manage," said Mr. Laurence, rubbing up his hair till it
- looked as if he had been out in a gale, and smoothing the frown from
- his brow with an air of relief.
- "So am I; but a kind word will govern me when all the king's
- horses and all the king's men couldn't," said Jo, trying to say a kind
- word for her friend, who seemed to get out of one scrape only to
- fall into another.
- "You think I'm not kind to him, hey?" was the sharp answer.
- "Oh, dear, no, sir; you are rather too kind sometimes, and then just
- a trifle hasty when he tries your patience. Don't you think you are?"
- Jo was determined to have it out now, and tried to look quite
- placid, though she quaked a little after her bold speech. To her great
- relief and surprise, the old gentleman only threw his spectacles on to
- the table with a rattle, and exclaimed frankly-
- "You're right, girl, I am! I love the boy, but he tries my
- patience past bearing, and I don't know how it will end, if we go on
- so."
- "I'll tell, he'll run away." Jo was sorry for that speech the minute
- it was made; she meant to warn him that Laurie would not bear much
- restraint, and hoped he would be more forbearing with the lad.
- Mr. Laurence's ruddy face changed suddenly, and he sat down, with
- a troubled glance at the picture of a handsome man, which hung over
- his table. It was Laurie's father, who had run away in his youth,
- and married against the imperious old man's will. Jo fancied he
- remembered and regretted the past, and she wished she had held her
- tongue.
- "He won't do it unless he is very much worried, and only threatens
- it sometimes, when he gets tired of studying. I often think I should
- like to, especially since my hair was cut; so, if you ever miss us,
- you may advertise for two boys, and look among the ships bound for
- India."
- She laughed as she spoke, and Mr. Laurence looked relieved,
- evidently taking the whole as a joke.
- "You hussy, how dare you talk in that way? Where's your respect
- for me, and your proper bringing up? Bless the boys and girls! What
- torments they are; yet we can't do without them," he said, pinching
- her cheeks good-humoredly. "Go and bring that boy down to his
- dinner, tell him it's all right, and advise him not to put on
- tragedy airs with his grandfather. I won't bear it."
- "He won't come, sir; he feels badly because you didn't believe him
- when he said he couldn't tell. I think the shaking hurt his feelings
- very much."
- Jo tried to look pathetic, but must have failed, for Mr. Laurence
- began to laugh, and she knew the day was won.
- "I'm sorry for that, and ought to thank him for not shaking me, I
- suppose. What the dickens does the fellow expect?" and the old
- gentleman looked a trifle ashamed of his own testiness.
- "If I were you, I'd write him an apology, sir. He says he won't come
- down till he has one, and talks about Washington, and goes on in an
- absurd way. A formal apology will make him see how foolish he is,
- and bring him down quite amiable. Try it; he likes fun, and this way
- is better than talking. I'll carry it up, and teach him his duty."
- Mr. Laurence gave her a sharp look, and put on his spectacles,
- saying slowly, "You're a sly puss, but I don't mind being managed by
- you and Beth. Here, give me a bit of paper, and let us have done
- with this nonsense."
- The note was written in the terms which one gentleman would use to
- another after offering some deep insult. Jo dropped a kiss on the
- top of Mr. Laurence's bald head, and ran up to slip the apology
- under Laurie's door, advising him, through the key-hole, to be
- submissive, decorous, and a few other agreeable impossibilities.
- Finding the door locked again, she left the note to do its work, and
- was going quietly away, when the young gentleman slid down the
- banisters, and waited for her at the bottom, saying, with his most
- virtuous expression of countenance, "What a good fellow you are, Jo!
- Did you get blown up?" he added, laughing.
- "No; he was pretty mild, on the whole."
- "Ah! I got it all round; even you cast me off over there, and I felt
- just ready to go to the deuce," he began apologetically.
- "Don't talk in that way; turn over a new leaf and begin again,
- Teddy, my son."
- "I keep turning over new leaves, and spoiling them, as I used to
- spoil my copy-books; and I make so many beginnings there never will be
- an end," he said dolefully.
- "Go and eat your dinner; you'll feel better after it. Men always
- croak when they are hungry," and Jo whisked out at the front door
- after that.
- "That's a 'label' on my 'sect,'" answered Laurie, quoting Amy, as he
- went to partake of humble-pie dutifully with his grandfather, who
- was quite saintly in temper and overwhelmingly respectful in manner
- all the rest of the day.
- Every one thought the matter ended and the little cloud blown
- over; but the mischief was done, for, though others forgot it, Meg
- remembered. She never alluded to a certain person, but she thought
- of him a good deal, dreamed dreams more than ever; and once Jo,
- rummaging her sister's desk for stamps, found a bit of paper scribbled
- over with the words, "Mrs. John Brooke"; whereat she groaned
- tragically, and cast it into the fire, feeling that Laurie's prank had
- hastened the evil day for her.
- 22
- Pleasant Meadows
-
- LIKE sunshine after storm were the peaceful weeks which followed.
- The invalids improved rapidly, and Mr. March began to talk of
- returning early in the new year. Beth was soon able to lie on the
- study sofa all day, amusing herself with the well-beloved cats, at
- first, and, in time, with doll's sewing, which had fallen sadly
- behindhand. Her once active limbs were so stiff and feeble that Jo
- took her a daily airing about the house in her strong arms. Meg
- cheerfully blackened and burnt her white hands cooking delicate messes
- for "the dear"; while Amy, a loyal slave of the ring, celebrated her
- return by giving away as many of her treasures as she could prevail on
- her sisters to accept.
- As Christmas approached, the usual mysteries began to haunt the
- house, and Jo frequently convulsed the family by proposing utterly
- impossible or magnificently absurd ceremonies, in honor of this
- unusually merry Christmas. Laurie was equally impracticable, and would
- have had bonfires, sky-rockets, and triumphal arches, if he had had
- his own way. After many skirmishes and snubbings, the ambitious pair
- were considered effectually quenched, and went about with forlorn
- faces, which were rather belied by explosions of laughter when the two
- got together.
- Several days of unusually mild weather fitly ushered in a splendid
- Christmas Day. Hannah "felt in her bones" that it was going to be an
- unusually fine day, and she proved herself a true prophetess, for
- everybody and everything seemed bound to produce a grand success. To
- begin with, Mr. March wrote that he should soon be with them; then
- Beth felt uncommonly well that morning, and, being dressed in her
- mother's gift- a soft crimson merino wrapper- was borne in triumph
- to the window to behold the offering of Jo and Laurie. The
- Unquenchables had done their best to be worthy of the name, for,
- like elves, they had worked by night, and conjured up a comical
- surprise. Out in the garden stood a stately snow-maiden, crowned
- with holly, bearing a basket of fruit and flowers in one hand, a great
- roll of new music in the other, a perfect rainbow of an Afghan round
- her chilly shoulders, and a Christmas carol issuing from her lips,
- on a pink paper streamer:
-
- THE JUNGFRAU TO BETH.
-
- God bless you, dear Queen Bess!
- May nothing you dismay,
- But health and peace and happiness
- Be yours, this Christmas Day.
-
- Here's fruit to feed our busy bee,
- And flowers for her nose;
- Here's music for her pianee,
- An Afghan for her toes.
-
- A portrait of Joanna, see,
- By Raphael No. 2,
- Who labored with great industry
- To make it fair and true.
-
- Accept a ribbon red, I beg,
- For Madam Purrer's tail;
- And ice-cream made by lovely Peg,
- A Mont Blanc in a pail.
-
- Their dearest love my makers laid
- Within my breast of snow:
- Accept it, and the Alpine maid,
- From Laurie and from Jo.
-
- How Beth laughed when she saw it, how Laurie ran up and down to
- bring in the gifts, and what ridiculous speeches Jo made as she
- presented them!
- "I'm so full of happiness, that, if father was only here, I couldn't
- hold one drop more," said Beth, quite sighing with contentment as Jo
- carried her off to the study to rest after the excitement, and to
- refresh herself with some of the delicious grapes the "Jungfrau" had
- sent her.
- "So am I," added Jo, slapping the pocket wherein reposed the long
- desired Undine and Sintram.
- "I'm sure I am," echoed Amy, poring over the engraved copy of the
- Madonna and Child, which her mother had given her, in a pretty frame.
- "Of course I am!" cried Meg, smoothing the silvery folds of her
- first silk dress; for Mr. Laurence had insisted on giving it.
- "How can I be otherwise?" said Mrs. March gratefully, as her eyes
- went from her husband's letter to Beth's smiling face, and her hand
- caressed the brooch made of gray and golden, chestnut and dark brown
- hair, which the girls had just fastened on her breast.
- Now and then, in this work-a-day world, things do happen in the
- delightful story-book fashion, and what a comfort that is. Half an
- hour after every one had said they were so happy they could only
- hold one drop more, the drop came. Laurie opened the parlor door,
- and popped his head in very quietly. He might just as well have turned
- a somersault and uttered an Indian war-whoop; for his face was so full
- of suppressed excitement and his voice so treacherously joyful, that
- every one jumped up, though he only said, in a queer, breathless
- voice, "Here's another Christmas present for the March family."
- Before the words were well out of his mouth, he was whisked away
- somehow, and in his place appeared a tall man, muffled up to the eyes,
- leaning on the arm of another tall man, who tried to say something and
- couldn't. Of course there was a general stampede; and for several
- minutes everybody seemed to lose their wits, for the strangest
- things were done, and no one said a word. Mr. March became invisible
- in the embrace of four pairs of loving arms; Jo disgraced herself by
- nearly fainting away, and had to be doctored by Laurie in the
- china-closet; Mr. Brooke kissed Meg entirely by mistake, as he
- somewhat incoherently explained; and Amy, the dignified, tumbled
- over a stool, and, never stopping to get up, hugged and cried over her
- father's boots in the most touching manner. Mrs. March was the first
- to recover herself, and held up her hand with a warning, "Hush!
- remember Beth!"
- But it was too late; the study door flew open, the little red
- wrapper appeared on the threshold- joy put strength into the feeble
- limbs- and Beth ran straight into her father's arms. Never mind what
- happened just after that; for the full hearts overflowed, washing away
- the bitterness of the past, and leaving only the sweetness of the
- present.
- It was not at all romantic, but a hearty laugh set everybody
- straight again, for Hannah was discovered behind the door, sobbing
- over the fat turkey, which she had forgotten to put down when she
- rushed up from the kitchen. As the laugh subsided, Mrs. March began to
- thank Mr. Brooke for his faithful care of her husband, at which Mr.
- Brooke suddenly remembered that Mr. March needed rest, and, seizing
- Laurie, he precipitately retired. Then the two invalids were ordered
- to repose, which they did, by both sitting in one big chair, and
- talking hard.
- Mr. March told how he had longed to surprise them, and how, when the
- fine weather came, he had been allowed by his doctor to take advantage
- of it; how devoted Brooke had been, and how he was altogether a most
- estimable and upright young man. Why Mr. March paused a minute just
- there, and, after a glance at Meg, who was violently poking the
- fire, looked at his wife with an inquiring lift of the eyebrows, I
- leave you to imagine; also why Mrs. March gently nodded her head,
- and asked, rather abruptly, if he wouldn't have something to eat. Jo
- saw and understood the look; and she stalked grimly away to get wine
- and beef-tea, muttering to herself, as she slammed the door, "I hate
- estimable young men with brown eyes!"
- There never was such a Christmas dinner as they had that day. The
- fat turkey was a sight to behold, when Hannah sent him up, stuffed,
- browned, and decorated; so was the plum-pudding, which quite melted in
- one's mouth; likewise the jellies, in which Amy revelled like a fly in
- a honey-pot. Everything turned out well, which was a mercy, Hannah
- said, "For my mind was that flustered, mum, that it's a merrycle I
- didn't roast the pudding, and stuff the turkey with raisins, let alone
- bilin' of it in a cloth."
- Mr. Laurence and his grandson dined with them, also Mr. Brooke- at
- whom Jo glowered darkly, to Laurie's infinite amusement. Two
- easy-chairs stood side by side at the head of the table, in which
- sat Beth and her father, feasting modestly on chicken and a little
- fruit. They drank healths, told stories, sung songs, "reminisced,"
- as the old folks say, and had a thoroughly good time. A sleigh-ride
- had been planned, but the girls would not leave their father; so the
- guests departed early, and, as twilight gathered, the happy family sat
- together round the fire.
- "Just a year ago we were groaning over the dismal Christmas we
- expected to have. Do you remember?" asked Jo, breaking a short pause
- which had followed a long conversation about many things.
- "Rather a pleasant year on the whole!" said Meg, smiling at the
- fire, and congratulating herself on having treated Mr. Brooke with
- dignity.
- "I think it's been a pretty hard one," observed Amy, watching the
- light shine on her ring, with thoughtful eyes.
- "I'm glad it's over, because we've got you back," whispered Beth,
- who sat on her father's knee.
- "Rather a rough road for you to travel, my little pilgrims,
- especially the latter part of it. But you have got on bravely; and I
- think the burdens are in a fair way to tumble off very soon," said Mr.
- March, looking with fatherly satisfaction at the four young faces
- gathered round him.
- "How do you know? Did mother tell you?" asked Jo.
- "Not much; straws show which way the wind blows, and I've made
- several discoveries to-day."
- "Oh, tell us what they are!" cried Meg, who sat beside him.
- "Here is one"; and taking up the hand which lay on the arm of his
- chair, he pointed to the roughened forefinger, a burn on the back, and
- two or three little hard spots on the palm. "I remember a time when
- this hand was white and smooth, and your first care was to keep it so.
- It was very pretty then, but to me it is much prettier now- for in
- these seeming blemishes I read a little history. A burnt-offering
- has been made of vanity; this hardened palm has earned something
- better than blisters; and I'm sure the sewing done by these pricked
- fingers will last a long time, so much good-will went into the
- stitches. Meg, my dear, I value the womanly skill which keeps home
- happy more than white hands or fashionable accomplishments. I'm
- proud to shake this good, industrious little hand, and hope I shall
- not soon be asked to give it away."
- If Meg had wanted a reward for hours of patient labor, she
- received it in the hearty pressure of her father's hand and the
- approving smile he gave her.
- "What about Jo? Please say something nice; for she has tried so
- hard, and been so very, very good to me," said Beth, in her father's
- ear.
- He laughed, and looked across at the tall girl who sat opposite,
- with an unusually mild expression in her brown face.
- "In spite of the curly crop, I don't see the 'son Jo' whom I left
- a year ago," said Mr. March. "I see a young lady who pins her collar
- straight, laces her boots neatly, and neither whistles, talks slang,
- nor lies on the rug as she used to do. Her face is rather thin and
- pale, just now, with watching and anxiety; but I like to look at it,
- for it has grown gentler, and her voice is lower; she doesn't
- bounce, but moves quietly, and takes care of a certain little person
- in a motherly way which delights me. I rather miss my wild girl; but
- if I get a strong, helpful, tender-hearted woman in her place, I shall
- feel quite satisfied. I don't know whether the shearing sobered our
- black sheep, but I do know that in all Washington I couldn't find
- anything beautiful enough to be bought with the five-and-twenty
- dollars which my good girl sent me."
- Jo's keen eyes were rather dim for a minute, and her thin face
- grew rosy in the firelight, as she received her father's praise,
- feeling that she did deserve a portion of it.
- "Now Beth," said Amy, longing for her turn, but ready to wait.
- "There's so little of her, I'm afraid to say much, for fear she will
- slip away altogether, though she is not so shy as she used to be,"
- began their father cheerfully; but recollecting how nearly he had lost
- her, he held her close, saying tenderly, with her cheek against his
- own, "I've got you safe, my Beth, and I'll keep you so, please God."
- After a minute's silence, he looked down at Amy, who sat on the
- cricket at his feet, and said, with a caress of the shining hair-
- "I observed that Amy took drumsticks at dinner, ran errands for
- her mother all the afternoon, gave Meg her place to-night, and has
- waited on every one with patience and good-humor. I also observe
- that she does not fret much nor look in the glass, and has not even
- mentioned a very pretty ring which she wears; so I conclude that she
- has learned to think of other people more and of herself less, and has
- decided to try and mould her character as carefully as she moulds
- her little day figures. I am glad of this; for though I should be very
- proud of a graceful statue made by her, I shall be infinitely
- prouder of a lovable daughter, with a talent for making life beautiful
- to herself and others."
- "What are you thinking of, Beth?" asked Jo, when Amy had thanked her
- father and told about her ring.
- "I read in 'Pilgrim's Progress' to-day, how, after many troubles,
- Christian and Hopeful came to a pleasant green meadow, where lilies
- bloomed all the year round, and there they rested happily, as we do
- now, before they went on to their journey's end," answered Beth;
- adding, as she slipped out of her father's arms, and went slowly to
- the instrument, "It's singing time now, and I want to be in my old
- place. I'll try to sing the song of the shepherd-boy which the
- Pilgrims heard. I made the music for father, because he likes the
- verses."
- So, sitting at the dear little piano, Beth softly touched the
- keys, and, in the sweet voice they had never thought to hear again,
- sung to her own accompaniment the quaint hymn, which was a
- singularly fitting song for her:
-
- He that is down need fear no fall,
- He that is low no pride;
- He that is humble ever shall
- Have God to be his guide.
-
- I am content with what I have,
- Little be it or much;
- And, Lord! contentment still I crave,
- Because Thou savest such.
-
- Fulness to them a burden is,
- That go on pilgrimage;
- Here little, and hereafter bliss,
- Is best from age to age!
- 23
- Aunt March Settles the Question
-
- LIKE bees swarming after their queen, mother and daughters hovered
- about Mr. March the next day, neglecting everything to look at, wait
- upon, and listen to the new invalid, who was in a fair way to be
- killed by kindness. As he sat propped up in a big chair by Beth's
- sofa, with the other three close by, and Hannah popping in her head
- now and then, "to peek at the dear man," nothing seemed needed to
- complete their happiness. But something was needed, and the elder ones
- felt it, though none confessed the fact. Mr. and Mrs. March looked
- at one another with an anxious expression, as their eyes followed Meg.
- Jo had sudden fits of sobriety, and was seen to shake her fist at
- Mr. Brooke's umbrella, which had been left in the hall; Meg was
- absent-minded, shy, and silent, started when the bell rang, and
- colored when John's name was mentioned; Amy said "Every one seemed
- waiting for something, and couldn't settle down, which was queer,
- since father was safe at home," and Beth innocently wondered why their
- neighbors didn't run over as usual.
- Laurie went by in the afternoon, and, seeing Meg at the window,
- seemed suddenly possessed with a melodramatic fit, for he fell down
- upon one knee in the snow, beat his breast, tore his hair, and clasped
- his hands imploringly, as if begging some boon; and when Meg told
- him to behave himself and go away, he wrung imaginary tears out of his
- handkerchief, and staggered round the corner as if in utter despair.
- "What does the goose mean?" said Meg, laughing, and trying to look
- unconscious.
- "He's showing you how your John will go on by and by. Touching,
- isn't it?" answered Jo scornfully.
- "Don't say my John, it isn't proper or true"; but Meg's voice
- lingered over the words as if they sounded pleasant to her. "Please
- don't plague me, Jo; I've told you I don't care much about him, and
- there isn't to be anything said, but we are all to be friendly, and go
- on as before."
- "We can't, for something has been said, and Laurie's mischief has
- spoilt you for me. I see it, and so does mother; you are not like your
- old self a bit, and seem ever so far away from me. I don't mean to
- plague you, and will bear it like a man, but I do wish it was all
- settled. I hate to wait; so if you mean ever to do it, make haste
- and have it over quickly," said Jo pettishly.
- "I can't say or do anything till he speaks, and he won't, because
- father said I was too young," began Meg, bending over her work, with a
- queer little smile, which suggested that she did not quite agree
- with her father on that point.
- "If he did speak, you wouldn't know what to say, but would cry or
- blush, or let him have his own way, instead of giving a good, decided,
- No."
- "I'm not so silly and weak as you think. I know just what I should
- say, for I've planned it all, so I needn't be taken unawares;
- there's no knowing what may happen, and I wished to be prepared."
- Jo couldn't help smiling at the important air which Meg had
- unconsciously assumed, and which was as becoming as the pretty color
- varying in her cheeks.
- "Would you mind telling me what you'd say?" asked Jo more
- respectfully.
- "Not at all; you are sixteen now, quite old enough to be my
- confidant, and my experience will be useful to you by and by, perhaps,
- in your own affairs of this sort."
- "Don't mean to have any; it's fun to watch other people philander,
- but I should feel like a fool doing it myself," said Jo, looking
- alarmed at the thought.
- "I think not, if you liked any one very much, and he liked you." Meg
- spoke as if to herself, and glanced out at the lane, where she had
- often seen lovers walking together in the summer twilight.
- "I thought you were going to tell your speech to that man," said Jo,
- rudely shortening her sister's little reverie.
- "Oh, I should merely say, quite calmly and decidedly, 'Thank you,
- Mr. Brooke, you are very kind, but I agree with father that I am too
- young to enter into any engagement at present; so please say no
- more, but let us be friends as we were.'"
- "Hum! that's stiff and cool enough. I don't believe you'll ever
- say it, and I know he won't be satisfied if you do. If he goes on like
- the rejected lovers in books, you'll give in, rather than hurt his
- feelings."
- "No, I won't. I shall tell him I've made up my mind, and shall
- walk out of the room with dignity."
- Meg rose as she spoke, and was just going to rehearse the
- dignified exit, when a step in the hall made her fly into her seat,
- and begin to sew as if her life depended on finishing that
- particular seam in a given time. Jo smothered a laugh at the sudden
- change, and, when some one gave a modest tap, opened the door with a
- grim aspect, which was anything but hospitable.
- "Good afternoon. I came to get my umbrella- that is, to see how your
- father finds himself to-day," said Mr. Brooke, getting a trifle
- confused as his eye went from one tell-tale face to the other.
- "It's very well, he's in the rack, I'll get him, and tell it you are
- here," and having jumbled her father and the umbrella well together in
- her reply, Jo slipped out of the room to give Meg a chance to make her
- speech and air her dignity. But the instant she vanished, Meg began to
- sidle towards the door, murmuring-
- "Mother will like to see you. Pray sit down, I'll call her."
- "Don't go; are you afraid of me, Margaret?" and Mr. Brooke looked so
- hurt that Meg thought she must have done something very rude. She
- blushed up to the little curls on her forehead, for he had never
- called her Margaret before, and she was surprised to find how
- natural and sweet it seemed to hear him say it. Anxious to appear
- friendly and at her ease, she put out her hand with a confiding
- gesture, and said gratefully-
- "How can I be afraid when you have been so kind to father? I only
- wish I could thank you for it."
- "Shall I tell you how?" asked Mr. Brooke, holding the small hand
- fast in both his own, and looking down at Meg with so much love in the
- brown eyes, that her heart began to flutter, and she both longed to
- run away and to stop and listen.
- "Oh no, please don't- I'd rather not," she said, trying to
- withdraw her hand, and looking frightened in spite of her denial.
- "I won't trouble you, I only want to know if you care for me a
- little, Meg. I love you so much, dear," added Mr. Brooke tenderly.
- This was the moment for the calm, proper speech, but Meg didn't make
- it; she forgot every word of it, hung her head, and answered, "I don't
- know," so softly, that John had to stoop down to catch the foolish
- little reply.
- He seemed to think it was worth the trouble, for he smiled to
- himself as if quite satisfied, pressed the plump hand gratefully,
- and said, in his most persuasive tone, "Will you try and find out? I
- want to know so much; for I can't go to work with any heart until I
- learn whether I am to have my reward in the end or not."
- "I'm too young," faltered Meg, wondering why she was so fluttered,
- yet rather enjoying it.
- "I'll wait; and in the meantime, you could be learning to like me.
- Would it be a very hard lesson, dear?"
- "Not if I chose to learn it, but-"
- "Please choose to learn, Meg. I love to teach, and this is easier
- than German," broke in John, getting possession of the other hand,
- so that she had no way of hiding her face, as he bent to look into it.
- His tone was properly beseeching; but, stealing a shy look at him,
- Meg saw that his eyes were merry as well as tender, and that he wore
- the satisfied smile of one who had no doubt of his success. This
- nettled her; Annie Moffat's foolish lessons in coquetry came into
- her mind, and the love of power, which sleeps in the bosoms of the
- best of little women, woke up all of a sudden and took possession of
- her. She felt excited and strange, and, not knowing what else to do,
- followed a capricious impulse, and, withdrawing her hands, said
- petulantly, "I don't choose. Please go away and let me be!"
- Poor Mr. Brooke looked as if his lovely castle in the air was
- tumbling about his ears, for he had never seen Meg in such a mood
- before, and it rather bewildered him.
- "Do you really mean that?" he asked anxiously, following her as
- she walked away.
- "Yes, I do; I don't want to be worried about such things. Father
- says I needn't; it's too soon and I'd rather not."
- "Mayn't I hope you'll change your mind by and by? I'll wait, and say
- nothing till you have had more time. Don't play with me, Meg. I didn't
- think that of you."
- "Don't think of me at all. I'd rather you wouldn't," said Meg,
- taking a naughty satisfaction in trying her lover's patience and her
- own power.
- He was grave and pale now, and looked decidedly more like the
- novel heroes whom she admired; but he neither slapped his forehead nor
- tramped about the room, as they did; he just stood looking at her so
- wistfully, so tenderly, that she found her heart relenting in spite of
- her. What would have happened next I cannot say, if Aunt March had not
- come hobbling in at this interesting minute.
- The old lady couldn't resist her longing to see her nephew, for
- she had met Laurie as she took her airing, and, hearing of Mr. March's
- arrival, drove straight out to see him. The family were all busy in
- the back part of the house, and she had made her way quietly in,
- hoping to surprise them. She did surprise two of them so much that Meg
- started as if she had seen a ghost, and Mr. Brooke vanished into the
- study.
- "Bless me, what's all this?" cried the old lady, with a rap of her
- cane, as she glanced from the pale young gentleman to the scarlet
- young lady.
- "It's father's friend. I'm so surprised to see you!" stammered
- Meg, feeling that she was in for a lecture now.
- "That's evident," returned Aunt March, sitting down. "But what is
- father's friend saying to make you look like a peony? There's mischief
- going on, and I insist upon knowing what it is," with another rap.
- "We were merely talking. Mr. Brooke came for his umbrella," began
- Meg, wishing that Mr. Brooke and the umbrella were safely out of the
- house.
- "Brooke? That boy's tutor? Ah! I understand now. I know all about
- it. Jo blundered into a wrong message in one of your father's letters,
- and I made her tell me. You haven't gone and accepted him, child?"
- cried Aunt March, looking scandalized.
- "Hush! he'll hear. Shan't I call mother?" said Meg, much troubled.
- "Not yet. I've something to say to you, and I must free my mind at
- once. Tell me, do you mean to marry this Cook? If you do, not one
- penny of my money ever goes to you. Remember that, and be a sensible
- girl," said the old lady impressively.
- Now Aunt March possessed in perfection the art of rousing the spirit
- of opposition in the gentlest people, and enjoyed doing it. The best
- of us have a spice of perversity in us, especially when we are young
- and in love. If Aunt March had begged Meg to accept John Brooke, she
- would probably have declared she couldn't think of it; but as she
- was peremptorily ordered not to like him, she immediately made up
- her mind that she would. Inclination as well as perversity made the
- decision easy, and, being already much excited, Meg opposed the old
- lady with unusual spirit.
- "I shall marry whom I please, Aunt March, and you can leave your
- money to any one you like," she said, nodding her head with a resolute
- air.
- "Highty tighty! Is that the way you take my advice, miss? You'll
- be sorry for it, by and by, when you've tried love in a cottage, and
- found it a failure."
- "It can't be a worse one than some people find in big houses,"
- retorted Meg.
- Aunt March put on her glasses and took a look at the girl, for she
- did not know her in this new mood. Meg hardly knew herself, she felt
- so brave and independent- so glad to defend John, and assert her right
- to love him, if she liked. Aunt March saw that she had begun wrong,
- and, after a little pause, made a fresh start, saying, as mildly as
- she could, "Now, Meg, my dear, be reasonable, and take my advice. I
- mean it kindly, and don't want you to spoil your whole life by
- making a mistake at the beginning. You ought to marry well, and help
- your family; it's your duty to make a rich match, and it ought to be
- impressed upon you."
- "Father and mother don't think so; they like John, though he is
- poor."
- "Your parents, my dear, have no more worldly wisdom than two
- babies."
- "I'm glad of it," cried Meg stoutly.
- Aunt March took no notice, but went on with her lecture. "This
- Rook is poor, and hasn't got any rich relations, has he?"
- "No; but he has many warm friends."
- "You can't live on friends; try it, and see how cool they'll grow.
- He hasn't any business, has he?"
- "Not yet; Mr. Laurence is going to help him."
- "That won't last long. James Laurence is a crochety old fellow,
- and not to be depended on. So you intend to marry a man without money,
- position, or business, and go on working harder than you do now,
- when you might be comfortable all your days by minding me and doing
- better? I thought you had more sense, Meg."
- "I couldn't do better if I waited half my life! John is good and
- wise; he's got heaps of talent; he's willing to work, and sure to
- get on, he's so energetic and brave. Every one likes and respects him,
- and I'm proud to think he cares for me, though I'm so poor and young
- and silly," said Meg, looking prettier than ever in her earnestness.
- "He knows you have got rich relations, child; that's the secret of
- his liking, I suspect."
- "Aunt March, how dare you say such a thing? John is above such
- meanness, and I won't listen to you a minute if you talk so," cried
- Meg indignantly, forgetting everything but the injustice of the old
- lady's suspicions. "My John wouldn't marry for money, any more than
- I would. We are willing to work, and we mean to wait. I'm not afraid
- of being poor, for I've been happy so far, and I know I shall be
- with him, because he loves me, and I-"
- Meg stopped there, remembering all of a sudden that she hadn't
- made up her mind; that she had told "her John" to go away, and that he
- might be overhearing her inconsistent remarks.
- Aunt March was very angry, for she had set her heart on having her
- pretty niece make a fine match, and something in the girl's happy
- young face made the lonely old woman feel both sad and sour.
- "Well, I wash my hands of the whole affair! You are a wilful
- child, and you've lost more than you know by this piece of folly.
- No, I won't stop; I'm disappointed in you, and haven't spirits to
- see your father now. Don't expect anything from me when you are
- married: your Mr. Book's friends must take care of you. I'm done
- with you forever."
- And, slamming the door in Meg's face, Aunt March drove off in high
- dudgeon. She seemed to take all the girl's courage with her; for, when
- left alone, Meg stood a moment, undecided whether to laugh or cry.
- Before she could make up her mind, she was taken possession of by
- Mr. Brooke, who said, all in one breath, "I couldn't help hearing,
- Meg. Thank you for defending me, and Aunt March for proving that you
- do care for me a little bit."
- "I didn't know how much, till she abused you," began Meg.
- "And I needn't go away, but may stay and be happy, may I, dear?"
- Here was another fine chance to make the crushing speech and the
- stately exit, but Meg never thought of doing either, and disgraced
- herself forever in Jo's eyes by meekly whispering, "Yes, John," and
- hiding her face on Mr. Brooke's waistcoat.
- Fifteen minutes after Aunt March's departure, Jo came softly
- downstairs, paused an instant at the parlor door, and, hearing no
- sound within, nodded and smiled, with a satisfied expression, saying
- to herself, "She has sent him away as we planned, and that affair is
- settled. I'll go and hear the fun, and have a good laugh over it."
- But poor Jo never got her laugh, for she was transfixed upon the
- threshold by a spectacle which held her there, staring with her
- mouth nearly as wide open as her eyes. Going in to exult over a fallen
- enemy, and to praise a strong-minded sister for the banishment of an
- objectionable lover, it certainly was a shock to behold the
- aforesaid enemy serenely sitting on the sofa, with the strong-minded
- sister enthroned upon his knee, and wearing an expression of the
- most abject submission. Jo gave a sort of gasp, as if a cold
- shower-bath had suddenly fallen upon her- for such an unexpected
- turning of the tables actually took her breath away. At the odd sound,
- the lovers turned and saw her. Meg jumped up, looking both proud and
- shy; but "that man," as Jo called him, actually laughed, and said
- coolly, as he kissed the astonished new-comer, "Sister Jo,
- congratulate us!"
- That was adding insult to injury- it was altogether too much- and,
- making some wild demonstration with her hands, Jo vanished without a
- word. Rushing upstairs, she startled the invalids by exclaiming
- tragically, as she burst into the room, "Oh, do somebody go down
- quick; John Brooke is acting dreadfully, and Meg likes it!"
- Mr. and Mrs. March left the room with speed; and, casting herself
- upon the bed, Jo cried and scolded tempestuously as she told the awful
- news to Beth and Amy. The little girls, however, considered it a
- most agreeable and interesting event, and Jo got little comfort from
- them; so she went up to her refuge in the garret, and confided her
- troubles to the rats.
- Nobody ever knew what went on in the parlor that afternoon; but a
- great deal of talking was done, and quiet Mr. Brooke astonished his
- friends by the eloquence and spirit with which he pleaded his suit,
- told his plans, and persuaded them to arrange everything just as he
- wanted it.
- The tea-bell rang before he had finished describing the paradise
- which he meant to earn for Meg, and he proudly took her in to
- supper, both looking so happy that Jo hadn't the heart to be jealous
- or dismal. Amy was very much impressed by John's devotion and Meg's
- dignity, Beth beamed at them from a distance, while Mr. and Mrs. March
- surveyed the young couple with such tender satisfaction that it was
- perfectly evident Aunt March was right in calling them as "unworldly
- as a pair of babies." No one ate much, but every one looked very
- happy, and the old room seemed to brighten up amazingly when the first
- romance of the family began there.
- "You can't say nothing pleasant ever happens now, can you, Meg?"
- said Amy, trying to decide how she would group the lovers in the
- sketch she was planning to take.
- "No, I'm sure I can't. How much has happened since I said that! It
- seems a year ago," answered Meg, who was in a blissful dream, lifted
- far above such common things as bread and butter.
- "The joys come close upon the sorrows this time, and I rather
- think the changes have begun," said Mrs. March. "In most families
- there comes, now and then, a year full of events; this has been such
- an one, but it ends well, after all."
- "Hope the next will end better," muttered Jo, who found it very hard
- to see Meg absorbed in a stranger before her face; for Jo loved a
- few persons very dearly, and dreaded to have their affection lost or
- lessened in any way.
- "I hope the third year from this will end better; I mean it shall,
- if I live to work out my plans," said Mr. Brooke, smiling at Meg, as
- if everything had become possible to him now.
- "Doesn't it seem very long to wait?" asked Amy, who was in a hurry
- for the wedding.
- "I've got so much to learn before I shall be ready, it seems a short
- time to me," answered Meg, with a sweet gravity in her face, never
- seen there before.
- "You have only to wait; I am to do the work," said John, beginning
- his labors by picking up Meg's napkin, with an expression which caused
- Jo to shake her head, and then say to herself, with an air of
- relief, as the front door banged, "Here comes Laurie. Now we shall
- have a little sensible conversation."
- But Jo was mistaken; for Laurie came prancing in, overflowing with
- spirits, bearing a great bridal-looking bouquet for "Mrs. John
- Brooke," and evidently laboring under the delusion that the whole
- affair had been brought about by his excellent management.
- "I knew Brooke would have it all his own way, he always does; for
- when he makes up his mind to accomplish anything, it's done, though
- the sky falls," said Laurie, when he had presented his offering and
- his congratulations.
- "Much obliged for that recommendation. I take it as a good omen
- for the future, and invite you to my wedding on the spot," answered
- Mr. Brooke, who felt at peace with all mankind, even his mischievous
- pupil.
- "I'll come if I'm at the ends of the earth; for the sight of Jo's
- face alone, on that occasion, would be worth a long journey. You don't
- look festive, ma'am; what's the matter?" asked Laurie, following her
- into a corner of the parlor, whither all had adjourned to greet Mr.
- Laurence.
- "I don't approve of the match, but I've made up my mind to bear
- it, and shall not say a word against it," said Jo solemnly. "You can't
- know how hard it is for me to give up Meg," she continued, with a
- little quiver in her voice.
- "You don't give her up. You only go halves," said Laurie
- consolingly.
- "It never can be the same again. I've lost my dearest friend,"
- sighed Jo.
- "You've got me, anyhow. I'm not good for much, I know; but I'll
- stand by you, Jo, all the days of my life; upon my word I will!" and
- Laurie meant what he said.
- "I know you will, and I'm ever so much obliged; you are always a
- great comfort to me, Teddy," returned Jo, gratefully shaking hands.
- "Well, now, don't be dismal, there's a good fellow. It's all
- right, you see. Meg is happy; Brooke will fly round and get settled
- immediately; grandpa will attend to him, and it will be very jolly
- to see Meg in her own little house. We'll have capital times after she
- is gone, for I shall be through college before long, and then we'll go
- abroad, or some nice trip or other. Wouldn't that console you?"
- "I rather think it would; but there's no knowing what may happen
- in three years," said Jo thoughtfully.
- "That's true. Don't you wish you could take a look forward, and
- see where we shall all be then? I do," returned Laurie.
- "I think not, for I might see something sad; and every one looks
- so happy now, I don't believe they could be much improved"; and Jo's
- eyes went slowly round the room, brightening as they looked, for the
- prospect was a pleasant one.
- Father and mother sat together, quietly re-living the first
- chapter of the romance which for them began some twenty years ago. Amy
- was drawing the lovers, who sat apart in a beautiful world of their
- own, the light of which touched their faces with a grace the little
- artist could not copy. Beth lay on her sofa, talking cheerily with her
- old friend, who held her little hand as if he felt that it possessed
- the power to lead him along the peaceful way she walked. Jo lounged in
- her favorite low seat, with the grave, quiet look which best became
- her; and Laurie, leaning on the back of her chair, his chin on a level
- with her curly head, smiled with his friendliest aspect, and nodded at
- her in the long glass which reflected them both.
-
- So grouped, the curtain falls upon Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy. Whether
- it ever rises again, depends upon the reception given to the first act
- of the domestic drama called "LITTLE WOMEN."
- PART SECOND
-
- 24
- Gossip
-
- IN order that we may start afresh, and go to Meg's wedding with free
- minds, it will be well to begin with a little gossip about the
- Marches. And here let me premise, that if any of the elders think
- there is too much "lovering" in the story, as I fear they may (I'm not
- afraid the young folks will make that objection), I can only say
- with Mrs. March, "What can you expect when I have four gay girls in
- the house, and a dashing young neighbor over the way?"
- The three years that have passed have brought but few changes to the
- quiet family. The war is over, and Mr. March safely at home, busy with
- his books and the small parish which found in him a minister by nature
- as by grace- a quiet, studious man, rich in the wisdom that is
- better than learning, the charity which calls all mankind "brother,"
- the piety that blossoms into character, making it august and lovely.
- These attributes, in spite of poverty and the strict integrity which
- shut him out from the more worldly successes, attracted to him many
- admirable persons, as naturally as sweet herbs draw bees, and as
- naturally he gave them the honey into which fifty years of hard
- experience had distilled no bitter drop. Earnest young men found the
- gray-headed scholar as young at heart as they; thoughtful or
- troubled women instinctively brought their doubts and sorrows to
- him, sure of finding the gentlest sympathy, the wisest counsel;
- sinners told their sins to the pure-hearted old man, and were both
- rebuked and saved; gifted men found a companion in him; ambitious
- men caught glimpses of nobler ambitions than their own; and even
- worldlings confessed that his beliefs were beautiful and true,
- although "they wouldn't pay."
- To outsiders, the five energetic women seemed to rule the house, and
- so they did in many things; but the quiet scholar, sitting among his
- books, was still the head of the family, the household conscience,
- anchor, and comforter; for to him the busy, anxious women always
- turned in troublous times, finding him, in the truest sense of those
- sacred words husband and father.
- The girls gave their hearts into their mother's keeping, their souls
- into their father's; and to both parents, who lived and labored so
- faithfully for them, they gave a love that grew with their growth, and
- bound them tenderly together by the sweetest tie which blesses life
- and outlives death.
- Mrs. March is as brisk and cheery, though rather grayer, than when
- we saw her last, and just now so absorbed in Meg's affairs that the
- hospitals and homes, still full of wounded "boys" and soldiers'
- widows, decidedly miss the motherly missionary's visits.
- John Brooke did his duty manfully for a year, got wounded, was
- sent home, and not allowed to return. He received no stars or bars,
- but he deserved them, for he cheerfully risked all he had; and life
- and love are very precious when both are in full bloom. Perfectly
- resigned to his discharge, he devoted himself to getting well,
- preparing for business, and earning a home for Meg. With the good
- sense and sturdy independence that characterized him, he refused Mr.
- Laurence's more generous offers, and accepted the place of
- book-keeper, feeling better satisfied to begin with an honestly earned
- salary than by running any risks with borrowed money.
- Meg had spent the time in working as well as waiting, growing
- womanly in character, wise in housewifely arts, and prettier than
- ever; for love is a great beautifier. She had her girlish ambitions
- and hopes, and felt some disappointment at the humble way in which the
- new life must begin. Ned Moffat had just married Sallie Gardiner,
- and Meg couldn't help contrasting their fine house and carriage,
- many gifts, and splendid outfit, with her own, and secretly wishing
- she could have the same. But somehow envy and discontent soon vanished
- when she thought of all the patient love and labor John had put into
- the little home awaiting her; and when they sat together in the
- twilight, talking over their small plans, the future always grew so
- beautiful and bright that she forgot Sallie's splendor, and felt
- herself the richest, happiest girl in Christendom.
- Jo never went back to Aunt March, for the old lady took such a fancy
- to Amy that she bribed her with the offer of drawing lessons from
- one of the best teachers going; and for the sake of this advantage,
- Amy would have served a far harder mistress. So she gave her
- mornings to duty, her afternoons to pleasure, and prospered finely.
- Jo, meantime, devoted herself to literature and Beth, who remained
- delicate long after the fever was a thing of the past. Not an
- invalid exactly, but never again the rosy, healthy creature she had
- been; yet always hopeful, happy, and serene, busy with the quiet
- duties she loved, every one's friend, and an angel in the house,
- long before those who loved her most had learned to know it.
- As long as "The Spread Eagle" paid her a dollar a column for her
- "rubbish," as she called it, Jo felt herself a woman of means, and
- spun her little romances diligently. But great plans fermented in
- her busy brain and ambitious mind, and the old tin kitchen in the
- garret held a slowly increasing pile of blotted manuscript, which
- was one day to place the name of March upon the roll of fame.
- Laurie, having dutifully gone to college to please his
- grandfather, was now getting through it in the easiest possible manner
- to please himself. A universal favorite, thanks to money, manners,
- much talent, and the kindest heart that ever got its owner into
- scrapes by trying to get other people out of them, he stood in great
- danger of being spoilt, and probably would have been, like many
- another promising boy, if he had not possessed a talisman against evil
- in the memory of the kind old man who was bound up in his success, the
- motherly friend who watched over him as if he were her son, and
- last, but not least by any means, the knowledge that four innocent
- girls loved, admired, and believed in him with all their hearts.
- Being only "a glorious human boy," of course he frolicked and
- flirted, grew dandified, aquatic, sentimental, or gymnastic, as
- college fashions ordained; hazed and was hazed, talked slang, and more
- than once came perilously near suspension and expulsion. But as high
- spirits and the love of fun were the causes of these pranks, he always
- managed to save himself by frank confession, honorable atonement, or
- the irresistible power of persuasion which he possessed in perfection.
- In fact, he rather prided himself on his narrow escapes, and liked
- to thrill the girls with graphic accounts of his triumphs over
- wrathful tutors, dignified professors, and vanquished enemies. The
- "men of my class" were heroes in the eyes of the girls, who never
- wearied of the exploits of "our fellows," and were frequently
- allowed to bask in the smiles of these great creatures, when Laurie
- brought them home with him.
- Amy especially enjoyed this high honor, and became quite a belle
- among them; for her ladyship early felt and learned to use the gift of
- fascination with which she was endowed. Meg was too much absorbed in
- her private and particular John to care for any other lords of
- creation, and Beth too shy to do more than peep at them, and wonder
- how Amy dared to order them about so; but Jo felt quite in her
- element, and found it very difficult to refrain from imitating the
- gentlemanly attitudes, phrases, and feats, which seemed more natural
- to her than the decorums prescribed for young ladies. They all liked
- Jo immensely, but never fell in love with her, though very few escaped
- without paying the tribute of a sentimental sigh or two at Amy's
- shrine. And speaking of sentiment brings us very naturally to the
- "Dove-cote."
- That was the name of the little brown house which Mr. Brooke had
- prepared for Meg's first home. Laurie had christened it, saying it was
- highly appropriate to the gentle lovers, who "went on together like
- a pair of turtle-doves, with first a bill and then a coo." It was a
- tiny house, with a little garden behind, and a lawn about as big as
- a pocket-handkerchief in front. Here Meg meant to have a fountain,
- shrubbery, and a profusion of lovely flowers; though just at
- present, the fountain was represented by a weather-beaten urn, very
- like a dilapidated slop-bowl; the shrubbery consisted of several young
- larches, undecided whether to live or die; and the profusion of
- flowers was merely hinted by regiments of sticks, to show where
- seeds were planted. But inside, it was altogether charming, and the
- happy bride saw no fault from garret to cellar. To be sure, the hall
- was so narrow, it was fortunate that they had no piano, for one
- never could have been got in whole; the dining-room was so small
- that six people were a tight fit; and the kitchen stairs seemed
- built for the express purpose of precipitating both servants and china
- pell-mell into the coal-bin. But once get used to these slight
- blemishes, and nothing could be more complete, for good sense and good
- taste had presided over the furnishing, and the result was highly
- satisfactory. There were no marble-topped tables, long mirrors, or
- lace curtains in the little parlor, but simple furniture, plenty of
- books, a fine picture or two, a stand of flowers in the bay-window,
- and, scattered all about, the pretty gifts which came from friendly
- hands, and were the fairer for the loving messages they brought.
- I don't think the Parian Psyche Laurie gave lost any of its beauty
- because John put up the bracket it stood upon; that any upholsterer
- could have draped the plain muslin curtains more gracefully than Amy's
- artistic hand; or that any store-room was ever better provided with
- good wishes, merry words, and happy hopes, than that in which Jo and
- her mother put away Meg's few boxes, barrels, and bundles; and I am
- morally certain that the spandy-new kitchen never could have looked so
- cosey and neat if Hannah had not arranged every pot and pan a dozen
- times over, and laid the fire all ready for lighting, the minute "Mis.
- Brooke came home." I also doubt if any young matron ever began life
- with so rich a supply of dusters, holders, and piece-bags; for Beth
- made enough to last till the silver wedding came round, and invented
- three different kinds of dishclothes for the express service of the
- bridal china.
- People who hire all these things done for them never know what
- they lose; for the homeliest tasks get beautified if loving hands do
- them, and Meg found so many proofs of this, that everything in her
- small nest, from the kitchen roller to the silver vase on her parlor
- table, was eloquent of home love and tender forethought.
- What happy times they had planning together, what solemn shopping
- excursions; what funny mistakes they made, and what shouts of laughter
- arose over Laurie's ridiculous bargains. In his love of jokes, this
- young gentleman, though nearly through college, was as much of a boy
- as ever. His last whim had been to bring with him, on his weekly
- visits, some new, useful, and ingenious article for the young
- housekeeper. Now a bag of remarkable clothes-pins; next, a wonderful
- nutmeg-grater, which fell to pieces at the first trial; a
- knife-cleaner that spoilt all the knives; or a sweeper that picked the
- nap neatly off the carpet, and left the dirt; labor-saving soap that
- took the skin off one's hands; infallible cements which stuck firmly
- to nothing but the fingers of the deluded buyer; and every kind of
- tin-ware, from a toy savings-bank for odd pennies, to a wonderful
- boiler which would wash articles in its own steam, with every prospect
- of exploding in the process.
- In vain Meg begged him to stop. John laughed at him, and Jo called
- him "Mr. Toodles." He was possessed with a mania for patronizing
- Yankee ingenuity, and seeing his friends fitly furnished forth. So
- each week beheld some fresh absurdity.
- Everything was done at last, even to Amy's arranging different
- colored soaps to match the different colored rooms, and Beth's setting
- the table for the first meal.
- "Are you satisfied? Does it seem like home, and do you feel as if
- you should be happy here?" asked Mrs. March, as she and her daughter
- went through the new kingdom, arm-in-arm; for just then they seemed to
- cling together more tenderly than ever.
- "Yes, mother, perfectly satisfied, thanks to you all, and so happy
- that I can't talk about it," answered Meg with a look that was
- better than words.
- "If she only had a servant or two it would be all right," said
- Amy, coming out of the parlor, where she had been trying to decide
- whether the bronze Mercury looked best on the whatnot or the
- mantle-piece.
- "Mother and I have talked that over, and I have made up my mind to
- try her way first. There will be so little to do, that, with Lotty
- to run my errands and help me here and there, I shall only have enough
- work to keep me from getting lazy or homesick," answered Meg
- tranquilly.
- "Sallie Moffat has four," began Amy.
- "If Meg had four the house wouldn't hold them, and master and missis
- would have to camp in the garden," broke in Jo, who, enveloped in a
- big blue pinafore, was giving the last polish to the door-handles.
- "Sallie isn't a poor man's wife, and many maids are in keeping
- with her fine establishment. Meg and John begin humbly, but I have a
- feeling that there will be quite as much happiness in the little house
- as in the big one. It's a great mistake for young girls like Meg to
- leave themselves nothing to do but dress, give orders, and gossip.
- When I was first married, I used to long for my new clothes to wear
- out or get torn, so that I might have the pleasure of mending them;
- for I got heartily sick of doing fancy work and tending my
- pocket-handkerchief."
- "Why didn't you go into the kitchen and make messes, as Sallie
- says she does, to amuse herself, though they never turn out well,
- and the servants laugh at her," said Meg.
- "I did, after a while; not to 'mess,' but to learn of Hannah how
- things should be done, that my servants need not laugh at me. It was
- play then; but there came a time when I was truly grateful that I
- not only possessed the will but the power to cook wholesome food for
- my little girls, and help myself when I could no longer afford to hire
- help. You begin at the other end, Meg, dear; but the lessons you learn
- now will be of use to you by and by, when John is a richer man, for
- the mistress of a house, however splendid, should know how work
- ought to be done, if she wishes to be well and honestly served."
- "Yes, mother, I'm sure of that," said Meg, listening respectfully to
- the little lecture; for the best of women will hold forth upon the
- all-absorbing subject of housekeeping. "Do you know I like this room
- most of all in my baby-house," added Meg, a minute after, as they went
- upstairs, and she looked into her well-stored linen-closet.
- Beth was there, laying the snowy piles smoothly on the shelves,
- and exulting over the goodly array. All three laughed as Meg spoke;
- for that linen-closet was a joke. You see, having said that if Meg
- married "that Brooke" she shouldn't have a cent of her money, Aunt
- March was rather in a quandary, when time had appeased her wrath and
- made her repent her vow. She never broke her word, and was much
- exercised in her mind how to get round it, and at last devised a
- plan whereby she could satisfy herself. Mrs. Carrol, Florence's mamma,
- was ordered to buy, have made, and marked, a generous supply of
- house and table linen, and send it as her present, all of which was
- faithfully done; but the secret leaked out, and was greatly enjoyed by
- the family; for Aunt March tried to look utterly unconscious, and
- insisted that she could give nothing but the old-fashioned pearls,
- long promised to the first bride.
- "That's a housewifely taste which I am glad to see. I had a young
- friend who set up housekeeping with six sheets, but she had
- finger-bowls for company, and that satisfied her," said Mrs. March,
- patting the damask tableclothes, with a truly feminine appreciation of
- their fineness.
- "I haven't a single finger-bowl, but this is a 'set out' that will
- last me all my days, Hannah says"; and Meg looked quite contented,
- as well she might.
- "Toodles is coming," cried Jo from below; and they all went down
- to meet Laurie, whose weekly visit was an important event in their
- quiet lives.
- A tall, broad-shouldered young fellow, with a cropped head, a
- felt-basin of a hat, and a fly-away coat, came tramping down the
- road at a great pace, walked over the low fence without stopping to
- open the gate, straight up to Mrs. March, with both hands out, and a
- hearty-
- "Here I am, mother! Yes, it's all right."
- The last words were in answer to the look the elder lady gave him; a
- kindly questioning look, which the handsome eyes met so frankly that
- the little ceremony closed, as usual, with a motherly kiss.
- "For Mrs. John Brooke, with the maker's congratulations and
- compliments. Bless you, Beth! What a refreshing spectacle you are, Jo.
- Amy, you are getting altogether too handsome for a single lady."
- As Laurie spoke, he delivered a brown paper parcel to Meg, pulled
- Beth's hair-ribbon, stared at Jo's big pinafore, and fell into an
- attitude of mock rapture before Amy, then shook hands all round, and
- every one began to talk.
- "Where is John?" asked Meg anxiously.
- "Stopped to get the license for to-morrow, ma'am."
- "Which side won the last match, Teddy?" inquired Jo, who persisted
- in feeling an interest in manly sports despite her nineteen years.
- "Ours, of course. Wish you'd been there to see."
- "How is the lovely Miss Randal?" asked Amy, with a significant
- smile.
- "More cruel than ever; don't you see how I'm pining away?" and
- Laurie gave his broad chest a sounding slap and heaved a
- melodramatic sigh.
- "What's the last joke? Undo the bundle and see, Meg," said Beth,
- eying the knobby parcel with curiosity.
- "It's a useful thing to have in the house in case of fire or
- thieves," observed Laurie, as a watchman's rattle appeared, amid the
- laughter of the girls.
- "Any time when John is away, and you get frightened, Mrs. Meg,
- just swing that out of the front window, and it will rouse the
- neighborhood in a jiffy. Nice thing, isn't it?" and Laurie gave them a
- sample of its powers that made them cover up their ears.
- "There's gratitude for you! and speaking of gratitude reminds me
- to mention that you may thank Hannah for saving your wedding-cake from
- destruction. I saw it going into your house as I came by, and if she
- hadn't defended it manfully I'd have had a pick at it, for it looked
- like a remarkably plummy one."
- "I wonder if you will ever grow up, Laurie," said Meg, in a matronly
- tone.
- "I'm doing my best, ma'am, but can't get much higher, I'm afraid, as
- six feet is about all men can do in these degenerate days,"
- responded the young gentleman, whose head was about level with the
- little chandelier.
- "I suppose it would be profanation to eat anything in this spick and
- span new bower, so, as I'm tremendously hungry, I propose an
- adjournment," he added presently.
- "Mother and I are going to wait for John. There are some last things
- to settle," said Meg, bustling away.
- "Beth and I are going over to Kitty Bryant's to get more flowers for
- to-morrow," added Amy, tying a picturesque hat over her picturesque
- curls, and enjoying the effect as much as anybody.
- "Come, Jo, don't desert a fellow. I'm in such a state of
- exhaustion I can't get home without help. Don't take off your apron,
- whatever you do; it's peculiarly becoming," said Laurie, as Jo
- bestowed his especial aversion in her capacious pocket, and offered
- him her arm to support his feeble steps.
- "Now, Teddy, I want to talk seriously to you about to-morrow," began
- Jo, as they strolled away together. "You must promise to behave
- well, and not cut up any pranks, and spoil our plans."
- "Not a prank."
- "And don't say funny things when we ought to be sober."
- "I never do; you are the one for that."
- "And I implore you not to look at me during the ceremony; I shall
- certainly laugh if you do."
- "You won't see me; you'll be crying so hard that the thick fog round
- you will obscure the prospect."
- "I never cry unless for some great affliction."
- "Such as fellows going to college, hey?" cut in Laurie, with a
- suggestive laugh.
- "Don't be a peacock. I only moaned a trifle to keep the girls
- company."
- "Exactly. I say, Jo, how is grandpa this week; pretty amiable?"
- "Very; why, have you got into a scrape, and want to know how he'll
- take it?" asked Jo rather sharply.
- "Now, Jo, do you think I'd look your mother in the face, and say
- 'All right,' if it wasn't?" and Laurie stopped short, with an
- injured air.
- "No, I don't."
- "Then don't go and be suspicious; I only want some money," said
- Laurie, walking on again, appeased by her hearty tone.
- "You spend a great deal, Teddy."
- "Bless you, I don't spend it; it spends itself, somehow, and is gone
- before I know it."
- "You are so generous and kind-hearted that you let people borrow,
- and can't say 'No' to any one. We heard about Henshaw, and all you did
- for him. If you always spent money in that way, no one would blame
- you," said Jo warmly.
- "Oh, he made a mountain out of a mole-hill. You wouldn't have me let
- that fine fellow work himself to death, just for the want of a
- little help, when he is worth a dozen of us lazy chaps, would you?"
- "Of course not; but I don't see the use of your having seventeen
- waistcoats, endless neckties, and a new hat every time you come
- home. I thought you'd got over the dandy period; but every now and
- then it breaks out in a new spot. Just now it's the fashion to be
- hideous-to make your head look like a scrubbing-brush, wear a
- strait-jacket, orange gloves, and clumping, square-toed boots. If it
- was cheap ugliness, I'd say nothing; but it costs as much as the
- other, and I don't get any satisfaction out of it."
- Laurie threw back his head, and laughed so heartily at this
- attack, that the felt-basin fell off, and Jo walked on it, which
- insult only afforded him an opportunity for expatiating on the
- advantages of a rough-and-ready costume, as he folded up the
- maltreated hat, and stuffed it into his pocket.
- "Don't lecture any more, there's a good soul! I have enough all
- through the week, and like to enjoy myself when I come home. I'll
- get myself up regardless of expense, to-morrow, and be a
- satisfaction to my friends."
- "I'll leave you in peace if you'll only let your hair grow. I'm
- not aristocratic, but I do object to being seen with a person who
- looks like a young prize-fighter," observed Jo severely.
- "This unassuming style promotes study; that's why we adopt it,"
- returned Laurie, who certainly could not be accused of vanity,
- having voluntarily sacrificed a handsome curly crop to the demand
- for quarter-of-an-inch-long stubble.
- "By the way, Jo, I think that little Parker is really getting
- desperate about Amy. He talks of her constantly, writes poetry, and
- moons about in a most suspicious manner. He'd better nip his little
- passion in the bud, hadn't he?" added Laurie, in a confidential,
- elder-brotherly tone, after a minute's silence.
- "Of course he had; we don't want any more marrying in this family
- for years to come. Mercy on us, what are the children thinking of?"
- and Jo looked as much scandalized as if Amy and little Parker were not
- yet in their teens.
- "It's a fast age, and I don't know what we are coming to, ma'am. You
- are a mere infant, but you'll go next, Jo, and we'll be left
- lamenting," said Laurie, shaking his head over the degeneracy of the
- times.
- "Don't be alarmed; I'm not one of the agreeable sort. Nobody will
- want me, and it's a mercy, for there should always be one old maid
- in a family."
- "You won't give any one a chance," said Laurie, with a sidelong
- glance, and a little more color than before in his sunburnt face. "You
- won't show the soft side of your character; and if a fellow gets a
- peep at it by accident, and can't help showing that he likes it, you
- treat him as Mrs. Gummidge did her sweetheart- throw cold water over
- him- and get so thorny no one dares touch or look at you."
- "I don't like that sort of thing; I'm too busy to be worried with
- nonsense, and I think it's dreadful to break up families so. Now don't
- say any more about it; Meg's wedding has turned all our heads, and
- we talk of nothing but lovers and such absurdities. I don't wish to
- get cross, so let's change the subject"; and Jo looked quite ready
- to fling cold water on the slightest provocation.
- Whatever his feelings might have been, Laurie found a vent for
- them in a long low whistle, and the fearful prediction, as they parted
- at the gate, "Mark my words, Jo, you'll go next."
- 25
- The First Wedding
-
- THE June roses over the porch were awake bright and early on that
- morning, rejoicing with all their hearts in the cloudless sunshine,
- like friendly little neighbors, as they were. Quite flushed with
- excitement were their ruddy faces, as they swung in the wind,
- whispering to one another what they had seen; for some peeped in at
- the dining-room windows, where the feast was spread, some climbed up
- to nod and smile at the sisters as they dressed the bride, others
- waved a welcome to those who came and went on various errands in
- garden, porch, and hall, and all, from the rosiest full-blown flower
- to the palest baby-bud, offered their tribute of beauty and
- fragrance to the gentle mistress who had loved and tended them so
- long.
- Meg looked very like a rose herself; for all that was best and
- sweetest in heart and soul seemed to bloom into her face that day,
- making it fair and tender, with a charm more beautiful than beauty.
- Neither silk, lace, nor orange-flowers would she have. "I don't want
- to look strange or fixed up to-day," she said. "I don't want a
- fashionable wedding, but only those about me whom I love,, and to them
- I wish to look and be my familiar self."
- So she made her wedding gown herself, sewing into it the tender
- hopes and innocent romances of a girlish heart. Her sisters braided up
- her pretty hair, and the only ornaments she wore were the lilies of
- the valley, which "her John" liked best of all the flowers that grew.
- "You do look just like our own dear Meg, only so very sweet and
- lovely that I should hug you if it wouldn't crumple your dress," cried
- Amy, surveying her with delight, when all was done.
- "Then I am satisfied. But please hug and kiss me, every one, and
- don't mind my dress; I want a great many crumples of this sort put
- into it to-day"; and Meg opened her arms to her sisters, who clung
- about her with April faces for a minute, feeling that the new love had
- not changed the old.
- "Now I'm going to tie John's cravat for him, and then to stay a
- few minutes with father quietly in the study"; and Meg ran down to
- perform these little ceremonies, and then to follow her mother
- wherever she went, conscious that, in spite of the smiles on the
- motherly face, there was a secret sorrow hid in the motherly heart
- at the flight of the first bird from the nest.
- As the younger girls stand together, giving the last touches to
- their simple toilet, it may be a good time to tell of a few changes
- which three years have brought in their appearance; for all are
- looking their best just now.
- Jo's angles are much softened; she has learned to carry herself with
- ease, if not grace. The curly crop has lengthened into a thick coil,
- more becoming to the small head atop of the tall figure. There is a
- fresh color in her brown cheeks, a soft shine in her eyes, and only
- gentle words fall from her sharp tongue to-day.
- Beth has grown slender, pale, and more quiet than ever; the
- beautiful, kind eyes are larger, and in them lies an expression that
- saddens one, although it is not sad itself. It is the shadow of pain
- which touches the young face with such pathetic patience; but Beth
- seldom complains, and always speaks hopefully of "being better soon."
- Amy is with truth considered "the flower of the family"; for at
- sixteen she has the air and bearing of a full-grown woman- not
- beautiful, but possessed of that indescribable charm called grace. One
- saw it in the lines of her figure, the make and motion of her hands,
- the flow of her dress, the droop of her hair- unconscious, yet
- harmonious, and as attractive to many as beauty itself. Amy's nose
- still afflicted her, for it never would grow Grecian; so did her
- mouth, being too wide, and having a decided chin. These offending
- features gave character to her whole face, but she never could see it,
- and consoled herself with her wonderfully fair complexion, keen blue
- eyes, and curls, more golden and abundant than ever.
- All three wore suits of thin silver gray (their best gowns for the
- summer), with blush-roses in hair and bosom; and all three looked just
- what they were- fresh-faced, happy-hearted girls, pausing a moment
- in their busy lives to read with wistful eyes the sweetest chapter
- in the romance of womanhood.
- There were to be no ceremonious performances, everything was to be
- as natural and homelike as possible; so when Aunt March arrived, she
- was scandalized to see the bride come running to welcome and lead
- her in, to find the bridegroom fastening up a garland that had
- fallen down, and to catch a glimpse of the paternal minister
- marching upstairs with a grave countenance, and a wine-bottle under
- each arm.
- "Upon my word, here's a state of things!" cried the old lady, taking
- the seat of honor prepared for her, and settling the folds of her
- lavender moire with a great rustle. "You oughtn't to be seen till
- the last minute, child."
- "I'm not a show, aunty, and no one is coming to stare at me, to
- criticize my dress, or count the cost of my luncheon. I'm too happy to
- care what any one says or thinks, and I'm going to have my little
- wedding just as I like it. John, dear, here's your hammer"; and away
- went Meg to help "that man" in his highly improper employment.
- Mr. Brooke didn't even say "Thank you," but as he stooped for the
- unromantic tool, he kissed his little bride behind the folding-door,
- with a look that made Aunt March whisk out her pocket-handkerchief,
- with a sudden dew in her sharp old eyes.
- A crash, a cry, and a laugh from Laurie, accompanied by the
- indecorous exclamation, "Jupiter Ammon! Jo's upset the cake again!"
- caused a momentary flurry, which was hardly over when a flock of
- cousins arrived, and "the party came in," as Beth used to say when a
- child.
- "Don't let that young giant come near me; he worries me worse than
- mosquitoes," whispered the old lady to Amy, as the rooms filled, and
- Laurie's black head towered above the rest.
- "He has promised to be very good to-day, and he can be perfectly
- elegant if he likes," returned Amy, gliding away to warn Hercules to
- beware of the dragon, which warning caused him to haunt the old lady
- with a devotion that nearly distracted her.
- There was no bridal procession, but a sudden silence fell upon the
- room as Mr. March and the young pair took their places under the green
- arch. Mother and sisters gathered close, as if loath to give Meg up;
- the fatherly voice broke more than once, which only seemed to make the
- service more beautiful and solemn; the bridegroom's hand trembled
- visibly, and no one heard his replies; but Meg looked straight up in
- her husband's eyes, and said, "I will!" with such tender trust in
- her own face and voice that her mother's heart rejoiced, and Aunt
- March sniffed audibly.
- Jo did not cry, though she was very near it once, and was only saved
- from a demonstration by the consciousness that Laurie was staring
- fixedly at her, with a comical mixture of merriment and emotion in his
- wicked black eyes. Beth kept her face hidden on her mother's shoulder,
- but Amy stood like a graceful statue, with a most becoming ray of
- sunshine touching her white forehead and the flower in her hair.
- It wasn't at all the thing, I'm afraid, but the minute she was
- fairly married, Meg cried, "The first kiss for Marmee!" and,
- turning, gave it with her heart on her lips. During the next fifteen
- minutes she looked more like a rose than ever, for every one availed
- themselves of their privileges to the fullest extent, from Mr.
- Laurence to old Hannah, who, adorned with a head-dress fearfully and
- wonderfully made, fell upon her in the hall, crying, with a sob and
- a chuckle, "Bless you, deary, a hundred times! The cake ain't hurt a
- mite, and everything looks lovely."
- Everybody cleared up after that, and said something brilliant, or
- tried to, which did just as well, for laughter is ready when hearts
- are light. There was no display of gifts, for they were already in the
- little house, nor was there an elaborate breakfast, but a plentiful
- lunch of cake and fruit, dressed with flowers. Mr. Laurence and Aunt
- March shrugged and smiled at one another when water, lemonade, and
- coffee were found to be the only sorts of nectar which the three Hebes
- carried round. No one said anything, however, till Laurie, who
- insisted on serving the bride, appeared before her, with a loaded
- salver in his hand and a puzzled expression on his face.
- "Has Jo smashed all the bottles by accident?" he whispered, "or am I
- merely laboring under a delusion that I saw some lying about loose
- this morning?"
- "No; your grandfather kindly offered us his best, and Aunt March
- actually sent some, but father put away a little for Beth, and
- despatched the rest to the Soldiers' Home. You know he thinks that
- wine should be used only in illness, and mother says that neither
- she nor her daughters will ever offer it to any young man under her
- roof."
- Meg spoke seriously, and expected to see Laurie frown or laugh;
- but he did neither, for after a quick look at her, he said, in his
- impetuous way, "I like that! for I've seen enough harm done to wish
- other women would think as you do."
- "You are not made wise by experience, I hope?" and there was an
- anxious accent in Meg's voice.
- "No; I give you my word for it. Don't think too well of me,
- either; this is not one of my temptations. Being brought up where wine
- is as common as water, and almost as harmless, I don't care for it;
- but when a pretty girl offers it, one doesn't like to refuse, you
- see."
- "But you will, for the sake of others, if not for your own. Come,
- Laurie, promise, and give me one more reason to call this the happiest
- day of my life."
- A demand so sudden and so serious made the young man hesitate a
- moment, for ridicule is often harder to bear than self-denial. Meg
- knew that if he gave the promise he would keep it at all costs; and,
- feeling her power, used it as a woman may for her friend's good. She
- did not speak, but she looked up at him with a face made very eloquent
- by happiness, and a smile which said, "No one can refuse me anything
- to-day." Laurie certainly could not; and, with an answering smile,
- he gave her his hand, saying heartily, "I promise, Mrs. Brooke!"
- "I thank you, very, very much."
- "And I drink 'long life to your resolution,' Teddy," cried Jo,
- baptizing him with a splash of lemonade, as she waved her glass, and
- beamed approvingly upon him.
- So the toast was drunk, the pledge made, and loyally kept, in
- spite of many temptations; for, with instinctive wisdom, the girls had
- seized a happy moment to do their friend a service, for which he
- thanked them all his life.
- After lunch, people strolled about, by twos and threes, through
- house and garden, enjoying the sunshine without and within. Meg and
- John happened to be standing together in the middle of the grass-plot,
- when Laurie was seized with an inspiration which put the finishing
- touch to this unfashionable wedding.
- "All the married people take hands and dance round the new-made
- husband and wife, as the Germans do, while we bachelors and
- spinsters prance in couples outside!" cried Laurie, promenading down
- the path with Amy, with such infectious spirit and skill that every
- one else followed their example without a murmur. Mr. and Mrs.
- March, Aunt and Uncle Carrol, began it; others rapidly joined in; even
- Sallie Moffat, after a moment's hesitation, threw her train over her
- arm, and whisked Ned into the ring. But the crowning joke was Mr.
- Laurence and Aunt March; for when the stately old gentleman chasseed
- solemnly up to the old lady, she just tucked her cane under her arm,
- and hopped briskly away to join hands with the rest, and dance about
- the bridal pair, while the young folks pervaded the garden, like
- butterflies on a midsummer day.
- Want of breath brought the impromptu ball to a close, and then
- people began to go.
- "I wish you well, my dear, I heartily wish you well; but I think
- you'll be sorry for it," said Aunt March to Meg, adding to the
- bridegroom, as he led her to the carriage, "You've got a treasure,
- young man, see that you deserve it."
- "That is the prettiest wedding I've been to for an age, Ned, and I
- don't see why, for there wasn't a bit of style about it," observed
- Mrs. Moffat to her husband, as they drove away.
- "Laurie, my lad, if you ever want to indulge in this sort of
- thing, get one of those little girls to help you, and I shall be
- perfectly satisfied," said Mr. Laurence, settling himself in his
- easy-chair to rest, after the excitement of the morning.
- "I'll do my best to gratify you, sir," was Laurie's unusually
- dutiful reply, as he carefully unpinned the posy Jo had put in his
- button-hole.
- The little house was not far away, and the only bridal journey Meg
- had was the quiet walk with John, from the old home to the new. When
- she came down, looking like a pretty Quakeress in her dove-colored
- suit and straw bonnet tied with white, they all gathered about her
- to say "good-by," as tenderly as if she had been going to make the
- grand tour.
- "Don't feel that I am separated from you, Marmee dear, or that I
- love you any the less for loving John so much," she said, clinging
- to her mother, with full eyes, for a moment. "I shall come every
- day, father, and expect to keep my old place in all your hearts,
- though I am married. Beth is going to be with me a great deal, and the
- other girls will drop in now and then to laugh at my housekeeping
- struggles. Thank you all for my happy wedding-day. Good-by, good-by!"
- They stood watching her, with faces full of love and hope and tender
- pride, as she walked away, leaning on her husband's arm, with her
- hands full of flowers, and the June sunshine brightening her happy
- face- and so Meg's married life began.
- 26
- Artistic Attempts
-
- IT takes people a long time to learn the difference between talent
- and genius, especially ambitious young men and women. Amy was learning
- this distinction through much tribulation; for, mistaking enthusiasm
- for inspiration, she attempted every branch of art with youthful
- audacity. For a long time there was a lull in the "mud-pie"
- business, and she devoted herself to the finest pen-and-ink drawing,
- in which she showed such taste and skill that her graceful handiwork
- proved both pleasant and profitable. But overstrained eyes soon caused
- pen and ink to be laid aside for a bold attempt at poker-sketching.
- While this attack lasted, the family lived in constant fear of a
- conflagration; for the odor of burning wood pervaded the house at
- all hours; smoke issued from attic and shed with alarming frequency,
- red-hot pokers lay about promiscuously, and Hannah never went to bed
- without a pail of water and the dinner-bell at her door, in case of
- fire. Raphael's face was found boldly executed on the under side of
- the moulding-board, and Bacchus on the head of a beer-barrel; a
- chanting cherub adorned the cover of the sugar-bucket, and attempts to
- portray Romeo and Juliet supplied kindlings for some time.
- From fire to oil was a natural transition for burnt fingers, and Amy
- fell to painting with undiminished ardor. An artist friend fitted
- her out with his cast-off palettes, brushes, and colors; and she
- daubed away, producing pastoral and marine views such as were never
- seen on land or sea. Her monstrosities in the way of cattle would have
- taken prizes at an agricultural fair; and the perilous pitching of her
- vessels would have produced seasickness in the most nautical observer,
- if the utter disregard to all known rules of shipbuilding and
- rigging had not convulsed him with laughter at the first glance.
- Swarthy boys and dark-eyed Madonnas, staring at you from one corner of
- the studio, suggested Murillo; oily-brown shadows of faces, with a
- lurid streak in the wrong place, meant Rembrandt; buxom ladies and
- dropsical infants, Rubens; and Turner appeared in tempests of blue
- thunder, orange lightning, brown rain, and purple clouds, with a
- tomato-colored splash in the middle, which might be the sun or a buoy,
- a sailor's shirt or a king's robe, as the spectator pleased.
- Charcoal portraits came next; and the entire family hung in a row,
- looking as wild and crocky as if just evoked from a coal-bin. Softened
- into crayon sketches, they did better; for the likenesses were good,
- and Amy's hair, Jo's nose, Meg's mouth, and Laurie's eyes were
- pronounced "wonderfully fine." A return to clay and plaster
- followed, and ghostly casts of her acquaintances haunted corners of
- the house, or tumbled off closet-shelves onto people's heads. Children
- were enticed in as models, till their incoherent accounts of her
- mysterious doings caused Miss Amy to be regarded in the light of a
- young ogress. Her efforts in this line, however, were brought to an
- abrupt close by an untoward accident, which quenched her ardor.
- Other models failing her for a time, she undertook to cast her own
- pretty foot, and the family were one day alarmed by an unearthly
- bumping and screaming, and running to the rescue, found the young
- enthusiast hopping wildly about the shed, with her foot held fast in a
- pan-full of plaster, which had hardened with unexpected rapidity. With
- much difficulty and some danger she was dug out; for Jo was so
- overcome with laughter while she excavated, that her knife went too
- far, cut the poor foot, and left a lasting memorial of one artistic
- attempt, at least.
- After this Amy subsided, till a mania for sketching from nature
- set her to haunting river, field, and wood, for picturesque studies,
- and sighing for ruins to copy. She caught endless colds sitting on
- damp grass to book "a delicious bit," composed of a stone, a stump,
- one mushroom, and a broken mullein-stalk, or "a heavenly mass of
- clouds," that looked like a choice display of feather-beds when
- done. She sacrificed her complexion floating on the river in the
- midsummer sun, to study light and shade, and got a wrinkle over her
- nose, trying after "points of sight," or whatever the
- squint-and-string performance is called.
- If "genius is eternal patience," as Michelangelo affirms, Amy
- certainly had some claim to the divine attribute, for she persevered
- in spite of all obstacles, failures, and discouragements, firmly
- believing that in time she should do something worthy to be called
- "high art."
- She was learning, doing, and enjoying other things, meanwhile, for
- she had resolved to be an attractive and accomplished woman, even if
- she never became a great artist. Here she succeeded better; for she
- was one of those happily created beings who please without effort,
- make friends everywhere, and take life so gracefully and easily that
- less fortunate souls are tempted to believe that such are born under a
- lucky star. Everybody liked her, for among her good gifts was tact.
- She had an instinctive sense of what was pleasing and proper, always
- said the right thing to the right person, did just what suited the
- time and place, and was so self-possessed that her sisters used to
- say, "If Amy went to court without any rehearsal beforehand, she'd
- know exactly what to do."
- One of her weaknesses was a desire to move in "our best society,"
- without being quite sure what the best really was. Money, position,
- fashionable accomplishments, and elegant manners were most desirable
- things in her eyes, and she liked to associate with those who
- possessed them, often mistaking the false for the true, and admiring
- what was not admirable. Never forgetting that by birth she was a
- gentlewoman, she cultivated her aristocratic tastes and feelings, so
- that when the opportunity came she might be ready to take the place
- from which poverty now excluded her.
- "My lady," as her friends called her, sincerely desired to be a
- genuine lady, and was so at heart, but had yet to learn that money
- cannot buy refinement of nature, that rank does not always confer
- nobility, and that true breeding makes itself felt in spite of
- external drawbacks.
- "I want to ask a favor of you, mamma," Amy said, coming in, with
- an important air, one day.
- "Well, little girl, what is it?" replied her mother, in whose eyes
- the stately young lady still remained "the baby."
- "Our drawing class breaks up next week, and before the girls
- separate for the summer, I want to ask them out here for a day. They
- are wild to see the river, sketch the broken bridge, and copy some
- of the things they admire in my book. They have been very kind to me
- in many ways, and I am grateful, for they are all rich, and know I
- am poor, yet they never made any difference."
- "Why should they?" and Mrs. March put the question with what the
- girls called her "Maria Theresa air."
- "You know as well as I that it does make a difference with nearly
- every one, so don't ruffle up, like a dear, motherly hen, when your
- chickens get pecked by smarter birds; the ugly duckling turned out a
- swan, you know"; and Amy smiled without bitterness, for she
- possessed a happy temper and hopeful spirit.
- Mrs. March laughed, and smoothed down her maternal pride as she
- asked-
- "Well, my swan, what is your plan?"
- "I should like to ask the girls out to lunch next week, to take them
- a drive to the places they want to see, a row on the river, perhaps,
- and make a little artistic fete for them."
- "That looks feasible. What do you want for lunch? Cake,
- sandwiches, fruit, and coffee will be all that is necessary, I
- suppose?"
- "Oh dear, no! we must have cold tongue and chicken, French chocolate
- and ice-cream, besides. The girls are used to such things, and I
- want my lunch to be proper and elegant, though I do work for my
- living."
- "How many young ladies are there?" asked her mother, beginning to
- look sober.
- "Twelve or fourteen in the class, but I dare say they won't all
- come."
- "Bless me, child, you will have to charter an omnibus to carry
- them about."
- "Why, mother, how can you think of such a thing? Not more than six
- or eight will probably come, so I shall hire a beach-wagon, and borrow
- Mr. Laurence's cherry-bounce." (Hannah's pronunciation of
- char-a-banc.)
- "All this will be expensive, Amy."
- "Not very; I've calculated the cost, and I'll pay for it myself."
- "Don't you think, dear, that as these girls are used to such things,
- and the best we can do will be nothing new, that some simpler plan
- would be pleasanter to them, as a change, if nothing more, and much
- better for us than buying or borrowing what we don't need, and
- attempting a style not in keeping with our circumstances?"
- "If I can't have it as I like, I don't care to have it at all. I
- know that I can carry it out perfectly well, if you and the girls will
- help a little; and I don't see why I can't if I'm willing to pay for
- it," said Amy, with the decision which opposition was apt to change
- into obstinacy.
- Mrs. March knew that experience was an excellent teacher, and when
- it was possible she left her children to learn alone the lessons which
- she would gladly have made easier, if they had not objected to
- taking advice as much as they did salts and senna.
- "Very well, Amy; if your heart is set upon it, and you see your
- way through without too great an outlay of money, time, and temper,
- I'll say no more. Talk it over with the girls, and whichever way you
- decide, I'll do my best to help you."
- "Thanks, mother; you are always so kind"; and away went Amy to lay
- her plan before her sisters.
- Meg agreed at once, and promised her aid, gladly offering anything
- she possessed, from her little house itself to her very best
- salt-spoons. But Jo frowned upon the whole project, and would have
- nothing to do with it at first.
- "Why in the world should you spend your money, worry your family,
- and turn the house upside down for a parcel of girls who don't care
- a sixpence for you? I thought you had too much pride and sense to
- truckle to any mortal woman just because she wears French boots and
- rides in a coupe," said Jo, who, being called from the tragical climax
- of her novel, was not in the best mood for social enterprises.
- "I don't truckle, and I hate being patronized as much as you do!"
- returned Amy indignantly, for the two still jangled when such
- questions arose. "The girls do care for me, and I for them, and
- there's a great deal of kindness and sense and talent among them, in
- spite of what you call fashionable nonsense. You don't care to make
- people like you, to go into good society, and cultivate your manners
- and tastes. I do, and I mean to make the most of every chance that
- comes. You can go through the world with your elbows out and your nose
- in the air, and call it independence, if you like. That's not my way."
- When Amy whetted her tongue and freed her mind she usually got the
- best of it, for she seldom failed to have common sense on her side,
- while Jo carried her love of liberty and hate of conventionalities
- to such an unlimited extent that she naturally found herself worsted
- in an argument. Amy's definition of Jo's idea of independence was such
- a good hit that both burst out laughing, and the discussion took a
- more amiable turn. Much against her will, Jo at length consented to
- sacrifice a day to Mrs. Grundy, and help her sister through what she
- regarded as "a nonsensical business."
- The invitations were sent, nearly all accepted, and the following
- Monday was set apart for the grand event. Hannah was out of humor
- because her week's work was deranged, and prophesied that "ef the
- washin' and ironin' warn't done reg'lar nothin' would go well
- anywheres." This hitch in the mainspring of the domestic machinery had
- a bad effect upon the whole concern; but Amy's motto was "Nil
- desperandum," and having made up her mind what to do, she proceeded to
- do it in spite of all obstacles. To begin with, Hannah's cooking
- didn't turn out well: the chicken was tough, the tongue too salt,
- and the chocolate wouldn't froth properly. Then the cake and ice
- cost more than Amy expected, so did the wagon; and various other
- expenses, which seemed trifling at the outset, counted up rather
- alarmingly afterward. Beth got cold and took to her bed, Meg had an
- unusual number of callers to keep her at home, and Jo was in such a
- divided state of mind that her breakages, accidents, and mistakes were
- uncommonly numerous, serious, and trying.
- "If it hadn't been for mother I never should have got through," as
- Amy declared afterward, and gratefully remembered when "the best
- joke of the season" was entirely forgotten by everybody else.
- If it was not fair on Monday, the young ladies were to come on
- Tuesday- an arrangement which aggravated Jo and Hannah to the last
- degree. On Monday morning the weather was in that undecided state
- which is more exasperating than a steady pour. It drizzled a little,
- shone a little, blew a little, and didn't make up its mind until it
- was too late for any one else to make up theirs. Amy was up at dawn,
- hustling people out of their beds and through their breakfasts, that
- the house might be got in order. The parlor struck her as looking
- uncommonly shabby; but without stopping to sigh for what she had
- not, she skillfully made the best of what she had, arranging chairs
- over the worn places in the carpet, covering stains on the walls
- with pictures framed in ivy, and filling up empty corners with
- homemade statuary, which gave an artistic air to the room, as did
- the lovely vases of flowers Jo scattered about.
- The lunch looked charmingly; and as she surveyed it, she sincerely
- hoped it would taste well, and that the borrowed glass, china, and
- silver would get safely home again. The carriages were promised, Meg
- and mother were all ready to do the honors, Beth was able to help
- Hannah behind the scenes, Jo had engaged to be as lively and amiable
- as an absent mind, an aching head, and a very decided disapproval of
- everybody and everything would allow, and, as she wearily dressed, Amy
- cheered herself with anticipations of the happy moment, when, lunch
- safely over, she should drive away with her friends for an afternoon
- of artistic delights; for the "cherry-bounce" and the broken bridge
- were her strong points.
- Then came two hours of suspense, during which she vibrated from
- parlor to porch, while public opinion varied like the weathercock. A
- smart shower at eleven had evidently quenched the enthusiasm of the
- young ladies who were to arrive at twelve, for nobody came; and at two
- the exhausted family sat down in a blaze of sunshine to consume the
- perishable portions of the feast, that nothing might be lost.
- "No doubt about the weather to-day; they will certainly come, so
- we must fly around and be ready for them," said Amy, as the sun woke
- her next morning. She spoke briskly, but in her secret soul she wished
- she had said nothing about Tuesday, for her interest, like her cake,
- was getting a little stale.
- "I can't get any lobsters, so you will have to do without salad
- to-day," said Mr. March, coming in half an hour later, with an
- expression of placid despair.
- "Use the chicken, then; the toughness won't matter in a salad,"
- advised his wife.
- Hannah left it on the kitchen-table a minute, and the kittens got at
- it. "I'm very sorry, Amy," added Beth, who was still a patroness of
- cats.
- "Then I must have a lobster, for tongue alone won't do," said Amy
- decidedly.
- "Shall I rush into town and demand one?" asked Jo, with the
- magnanimity of a martyr.
- "You'd come bringing it home under your arm, without any paper, just
- to try me. I'll go myself," answered Amy, whose temper was beginning
- to fail.
- Shrouded in a thick veil and armed with a genteel travelling-basket,
- she departed, feeling that a cool drive would soothe her ruffled
- spirit, and fit her for the labors of the day. After some delay, the
- object of her desire was procured, likewise a bottle of dressing, to
- prevent further loss of time at home, and off she drove again, well
- pleased with her own forethought.
- As the omnibus contained only one other passenger, a sleepy old
- lady, Amy pocketed her veil, and beguiled the tedium of the way by
- trying to find out where all her money had gone to. So busy was she
- with her card full of refractory figures that she did not observe a
- new-comer, who entered without stopping the vehicle, till a
- masculine voice said, "Good-morning, Miss March," and, looking up, she
- beheld one of Laurie's most elegant college friends. Fervently
- hoping that he would get out before she did, Amy utterly ignored the
- basket at her feet, and, congratulating herself that she had on her
- new travelling dress, returned the young man's greeting with her usual
- suavity and spirit.
- They got on excellently; for Amy's chief care was soon set at rest
- by learning that the gentleman would leave first, and she was chatting
- away in a peculiarly lofty strain, when the old lady got out. In
- stumbling to the door, she upset the basket, and- oh, horror!- the
- lobster, in all its vulgar size and brilliancy, was revealed to the
- high-born eyes of a Tudor.
- "By Jove, she's forgotten her dinner!" cried the unconscious
- youth, poking the scarlet monster into its place with his cane, and
- preparing to hand out the basket after the old lady.
- "Please don't- it's- it's mine," murmured Amy, with a face nearly as
- red as her fish.
- "Oh, really, I beg pardon; it's an uncommonly fine one, isn't it?"
- said Tudor, with great presence of mind, and an air of sober
- interest that did credit to his breeding.
- Amy recovered herself in a breath, set her basket boldly on the
- seat, and said, laughing-
- "Don't you wish you were to have some of the salad he's to make, and
- to see the charming young ladies who are to eat it?"
- Now that was tact, for two of the ruling foibles of the masculine
- mind were touched: the lobster was instantly surrounded by a halo of
- pleasing reminiscences, and curiosity about "the charming young
- ladies" diverted his mind from the comical mishap.
- "I suppose he'll laugh and joke over it with Laurie, but I shan't
- see them; that's a comfort," thought Amy, as Tudor bowed and departed.
- She did not mention this meeting at home (though she discovered
- that, thanks to the upset, her new dress was much damaged by the
- rivulets of dressing that meandered down the skirt), but went
- through with the preparations which now seemed more irksome than
- before; and at twelve o'clock all was ready again. Feeling that the
- neighbors were interested in her movements, she wished to efface the
- memory of yesterday's failure by a grand success to-day; so she
- ordered the "cherry-bounce," and drove away in state to meet and
- escort her guests to the banquet.
- "There's the rumble, they're coming! I'll go into the porch to
- meet them; it looks hospitable, and I want the poor child to have a
- good time after all her trouble," said Mrs. March, suiting the
- action to the word, But after one glance, she retired, with an
- indescribable expression, for, looking quite lost in the big carriage,
- sat Amy and one young lady.
- "Run, Beth, and help Hannah clear half the things off the table;
- it will be too absurd to put a luncheon for twelve before a single
- girl," cried Jo, hurrying away to the lower regions, too excited to
- stop even for a laugh.
- In came Amy, quite calm, and delightfully cordial to the one guest
- who had kept her promise; the rest of the family, being of a
- dramatic turn, played their parts equally well, and Miss Eliott
- found them a most hilarious set; for it was impossible to entirely
- control the merriment which possessed them. The remodelled lunch being
- gayly partaken of, the studio and garden visited, and art discussed
- with enthusiasm, Amy ordered a buggy (alas for the elegant
- cherry-bounce!) and drove her friend quietly about the neighborhood
- till sunset, when "the party went out."
- As she came walking in, looking very tired, but as composed as ever,
- she observed that every vestige of the unfortunate fete had
- disappeared, except a suspicious pucker about the corners of Jo's
- mouth.
- "You've had a lovely afternoon for your drive, dear," said her
- mother, as respectfully as if the whole twelve had come.
- "Miss Eliott is a very sweet girl, and seemed to enjoy herself, I
- thought," observed Beth, with unusual warmth.
- "Could you spare me some of your cake? I really need some, I have so
- much company, and I can't make such delicious stuff as yours," asked
- Meg soberly.
- "Take it all; I'm the only one here who likes sweet things, and it
- will mould before I can dispose of it," answered Amy, thinking with
- a sigh of the generous store she had laid in for such an end as this.
- "It's a pity Laurie isn't here to help us," began Jo, as they sat
- down to ice-cream and salad for the second time in two days.
- A warning look from her mother checked any further remarks, and
- the whole family ate in heroic silence, till Mr. March mildly
- observed, "Salad was one of the favorite dishes of the ancients, and
- Evelyn"- here a general explosion of laughter cut short the "history
- of sallets," to the great surprise of the learned gentleman.
- "Bundle everything into a basket and send it to the Hummels: Germans
- like messes. I'm sick of the sight of this; and there's no reason
- you should all die of a surfeit because I've been a fool," cried
- Amy, wiping her eyes.
- "I thought I should have died when I saw you two girls rattling
- about in the what-you-call-it, like two little kernels in a very big
- nut-shell, and mother waiting in state to receive the throng,"
- sighed Jo, quite spent with laughter.
- "I'm very sorry you were disappointed, dear, but we all did our best
- to satisfy you," said Mrs. March, in a tone full of motherly regret.
- "I am satisfied; I've done what I undertook, and it's not my fault
- that it failed; I comfort myself with that," said Amy, with a little
- quiver in her voice. "I thank you all very much for helping me, and
- I'll thank you still more if you won't allude to it for a month, at
- least."
- No one did for several months; but the word "fete" always produced a
- general smile, and Laurie's birthday gift to Amy was a tiny coral
- lobster in the shape of a charm for her watch-guard.
- 27
- Literary Lessons
-
- FORTUNE suddenly smiled upon Jo, and dropped a good-luck penny in
- her path. Not a golden penny, exactly, but I doubt if half a million
- would have given more real happiness than did the little sum that came
- to her in this wise.
- Every few weeks she would shut herself up in her room, put on her
- scribbling suit, and "fall into a vortex," as she expressed it,
- writing away at her novel with all her heart and soul, for till that
- was finished she could find no peace. Her "scribbling suit"
- consisted of a black woollen pinafore on which she could wipe her
- pen at will, and a cap of the same material, adorned with a cheerful
- red bow, into which she bundled her hair when the decks were cleared
- for action. This cap was a beacon to the inquiring eyes of her family,
- who during these periods kept their distance, merely popping in
- their heads semi-occasionally, to ask, with interest, "Does genius
- burn, Jo?" They did not always venture even to ask this question,
- but took an observation of the cap, and judged accordingly. If this
- expressive article of dress was drawn low upon the forehead, it was
- a sign that hard work was going on; in exciting moments it was
- pushed rakishly askew; and when despair seized the author it was
- plucked wholly off, and cast upon the floor. At such times the
- intruder silently withdrew; and not until the red bow was seen gayly
- erect upon the gifted brow, did any one dare address Jo.
- She did not think herself a genius by any means; but when the
- writing fit came on, she gave herself up to it with entire abandon,
- and led a blissful life, unconscious of want, care, or bad weather,
- while she sat safe and happy in an imaginary world, full of friends
- almost as real and dear to her as any in the flesh. Sleep forsook
- her eyes, meals stood untasted, day and night were all too short to
- enjoy the happiness which blessed her only at such times, and made
- these hours worth living, even if they bore no other fruit. The divine
- afflatus usually lasted a week or two, and then she emerged from her
- "vortex," hungry, sleepy, cross, or despondent.
- She was just recovering from one of these attacks when she was
- prevailed upon to escort Miss Crocker to a lecture, and in return
- for her virtue was rewarded with a new idea. It was a People's Course,
- the lecture on the Pyramids, and Jo rather wondered at the choice of
- such a subject for such an audience, but took it for granted that some
- great social evil would be remedied or some great want supplied by
- unfolding the glories of the Pharaohs to an audience whose thoughts
- were busy with the price of coal and flour, and whose lives were spent
- in trying to solve harder riddles than that of the Sphinx.
- They were early; and while Miss Crocker set the heel of her
- stocking, Jo amused herself by examining the faces of the people who
- occupied the seat with them. On her left were two matrons, with
- massive foreheads, and bonnets to match, discussing Woman's Rights and
- making tatting. Beyond sat a pair of humble lovers, artlessly
- holding each other by the hand, a sombre spinster eating peppermints
- out of a paper bag, and an old gentleman taking his preparatory nap
- behind a yellow bandanna. On her right, her only neighbor was a
- studious-looking lad absorbed in a newspaper.
- It was a pictorial sheet, and Jo examined the work of art nearest
- her, idly wondering what unfortuitous concatenation of circumstances
- needed the melodramatic illustration of an Indian in full war costume,
- tumbling over a precipice with a wolf at his throat, while two
- infuriated young gentlemen, with unnaturally small feet and big
- eyes, were stabbing each other close by, and a dishevelled female
- was flying away in the background with her mouth wide open. Pausing to
- turn a page, the lad saw her looking, and, with boyish good-nature,
- offered half his paper, saying bluntly, "Want to read it? That's a
- first-rate story."
- Jo accepted it with a smile, for she had never outgrown her liking
- for lads, and soon found herself involved in the usual labyrinth of
- love, mystery, and murder, for the story belonged to that class of
- light literature in which the passions have a holiday, and when the
- author's invention fails, a grand catastrophe clears the stage of
- one half the dramatis personae, leaving the other half to exult over
- their downfall.
- "Prime, isn't it?" asked the boy, as her eye went down the last
- paragraph of her portion.
- "I think you and I could do as well as that if we tried," returned
- Jo, amused at his admiration of the trash.
- "I should think I was a pretty lucky chap if I could. She makes a
- good living out of such stories, they say"; and he pointed to the name
- of Mrs. S. L. A. N. G. Northbury, under the title of the tale.
- "Do you know her?" asked Jo, with sudden interest.
- "No; but I read all her pieces, and I know a fellow who works in the
- office where this paper is printed."
- "Do you say she makes a good living out of stories like this?" and
- Jo looked more respectfully at the agitated group and
- thickly-sprinkled exclamation-points that adorned the page.
- "Guess she does! She knows just what folks like, and gets paid
- well for writing it."
- Here the lecture began, but Jo heard very little of it, for while
- Prof. Sands was prosing away about Belzoni, Cheops, scarabei, and
- hieroglyphics, she was covertly taking down the address of the
- paper, and boldly resolving to try for the hundred-dollar prize
- offered in its columns for a sensational story. By the time the
- lecture ended and the audience awoke, she had built up a splendid
- fortune for herself (not the first founded upon paper), and was
- already deep in the concoction of her story, being unable to decide
- whether the duel should come before the elopement or after the murder.
- She said nothing of her plan at home, but fell to work next day,
- much to the disquiet of her mother, who always looked a little anxious
- when "genius took to burning." Jo had never tried this style before,
- contenting herself with very mild romances for the "Spread Eagle." Her
- theatrical experience and miscellaneous reading were of service now,
- for they gave her some idea of dramatic effect, and supplied plot,
- language, and costumes. Her story was as full of desperation and
- despair as her limited acquaintance with those uncomfortable
- emotions enabled her to make it, and, having located it in Lisbon, she
- wound up with an earthquake, as a striking and appropriate denouement.
- The manuscript was privately despatched, accompanied by a note,
- modestly saying that if the tale didn't get the prize, which the
- writer hardly dared expect, she would be very glad to receive any
- sum it might be considered worth.
- Six weeks is a long time to wait, and a still longer time for a girl
- to keep a secret; but Jo did both, and was just beginning to give up
- all hope of ever seeing her manuscript again, when a letter arrived
- which almost took her breath away; for on opening it, a check for a
- hundred dollars fell into her lap. For a minute she stared at it as if
- it had been a snake, then she read her letter and began to cry. If the
- amiable gentleman who wrote that kindly note could have known what
- intense happiness he was giving a fellow-creature, I think he would
- devote his leisure hours, if he has any, to that amusement; for Jo
- valued the letter more than the money, because it was encouraging; and
- after years of effort it was so pleasant to find that she had
- learned to do something, though it was only to write a sensation
- story.
- A prouder young woman was seldom seen than she, when, having
- composed herself, she electrified the family by appearing before
- them with the letter in one hand, the check in the other, announcing
- that she had won the prize. Of course there was a great jubilee, and
- when the story came every one read and praised it; though after her
- father had told her that the language was good, the romance fresh
- and hearty, and the tragedy quite thrilling, he shook his head, and
- said in his unworldly way-
- "You can do better than this, Jo. Aim at the highest, and never mind
- the money."
- "I think the money is the best part of it. What will you do with
- such a fortune?" asked Amy, regarding the magic slip of paper with a
- reverential eye.
- "Send Beth and mother to the seaside for a month or two," answered
- Jo promptly.
- "Oh, how splendid! No, I can't do it, dear, it would be so selfish,"
- cried Beth, who had clapped her thin hands, and taken a long breath,
- as if pining for fresh ocean-breezes; then stopped herself, and
- motioned away the check which her sister waved before her.
- "Ah, but you shall go, I've set my heart on it; that's what I
- tried for, and that's why I succeeded. I never get on when I think
- of myself alone, so it will help me to work for you, don't you see?
- Besides, Marmee needs the change, and she won't leave you, so you must
- go. Won't it be fun to see you come home plump and rosy again?
- Hurrah for Dr. Jo, who always cures her patients!"
- To the seaside they went, after much discussion; and though Beth
- didn't come home as plump and rosy as could be desired, she was much
- better, while Mrs. March declared she felt ten years younger; so Jo
- was satisfied with the investment of her prize money, and fell to work
- with a cheery spirit, bent on earning more of those delightful checks.
- She did earn several that year, and began to feel herself a power in
- the house; for by the magic of a pen, her "rubbish" turned into
- comforts for them all. "The Duke's Daughter" paid the butcher's
- bill, "A Phantom Hand" put down a new carpet, and the "Curse of the
- Coventrys" proved the blessing of the Marches in the way of
- groceries and gowns.
- Wealth is certainly a most desirable thing, but poverty has its
- sunny side, and one of the sweet uses of adversity is the genuine
- satisfaction which comes from hearty work of head or hand; and to
- the inspiration of necessity, we owe half the wise, beautiful, and
- useful blessings of the world. Jo enjoyed a taste of this
- satisfaction, and ceased to envy richer girls, taking great comfort in
- the knowledge that she could supply her own wants, and need ask no one
- for a penny.
- Little notice was taken of her stories, but they found a market;
- and, encouraged by this fact, she resolved to make a bold stroke for
- fame and fortune. Having copied her novel for the fourth time, read it
- to all her confidential friends, and submitted it with fear and
- trembling to three publishers, she at last disposed of it, on
- condition that she would cut it down one third, and omit all the parts
- which she particularly admired.
- "Now I must either bundle it back into my tin-kitchen to mould,
- pay for printing it myself, or chop it up to suit purchasers, and
- get what I can for it. Fame is a very good thing to have in the house,
- but cash is more convenient; so I wish to take the sense of the
- meeting on this important subject," said Jo, calling a family council.
- "Don't spoil your book, my girl, for there is more in it than you
- know, and the idea is well worked out. Let it wait and ripen," was her
- father's advice; and he practised as he preached, having waited
- patiently thirty years for fruit of his own to ripen, and being in
- no haste to gather it, even now, when it was sweet and mellow.
- "It seems to me that Jo will profit more by making the trial than by
- waiting," said Mrs. March. "Criticism is the best test of such work,
- for it will show her both unsuspected merits and faults, and help
- her to do better next time. We are too partial; but the praise and
- blame of outsiders will prove useful, even if she gets but little
- money."
- "Yes," said Jo, knitting her brows, "that's just it; I've been
- fussing over the thing so long, I really don't know whether it's good,
- bad, or indifferent. It will be a great help to have cool, impartial
- persons take a look at it, and tell me what they think of it."
- "I wouldn't leave out a word of it; you'll spoil it if you do, for
- the interest of the story is more in the minds than in the actions
- of the people, and it will be all a muddle if you don't explain as you
- go on," said Meg, who firmly believed that this book was the most
- remarkable novel ever written.
- "But Mr. Allen says, 'Leave out the explanations, make it brief
- and dramatic, and let the characters tell the story,'" interrupted Jo,
- turning to the publisher's note.
- "Do as he tells you; he knows what will sell, and we don't. Make a
- good, popular book, and get as much money as you can. By and by,
- when you've got a name, you can afford to digress, and have
- philosophical and metaphysical people in your novel," said Amy, who
- took a strictly practical view of the subject.
- "Well," said Jo, laughing, "if my people are 'philosophical and
- metaphysical,' it isn't my fault, for I know nothing about such
- things, except what I hear father say, sometimes. If I've got some
- of his wise ideas jumbled up with my romance, so much the better for
- me. Now, Beth, what do you say?"
- "I should so like to see it printed soon," was all Beth said, and
- smiled in saying it; but there was an unconscious emphasis on the last
- word, and a wistful look in the eyes that never lost their childlike
- candor, which chilled Jo's heart, for a minute, with a foreboding
- fear, and decided her to make her little venture "soon."
- So, with Spartan firmness, the young authoress laid her first-born
- on her table, and chopped it up as ruthlessly as any ogre. In the hope
- of pleasing every one, she took every one's advice; and, like the
- old man and his donkey in the fable, suited nobody.
- Her father liked the metaphysical streak which had unconsciously got
- into it; so that was allowed to remain, though she had her doubts
- about it. Her mother thought that there was a trifle too much
- description; out, therefore, it nearly all came, and with it many
- necessary links in the story. Meg admired the tragedy; so Jo piled
- up the agony to suit her, while Amy objected to the fun, and, with the
- best intentions in life, Jo quenched the sprightly scenes which
- relieved the sombre character of the story. Then, to complete the
- ruin, she cut it down one third, and confidingly sent the poor
- little romance, like a picked robin, out into the big, busy world,
- to try its fate.
- Well, it was printed, and she got three hundred dollars for it;
- likewise plenty of praise and blame, both so much greater than she
- expected that she was thrown into a state of bewilderment, from
- which it took her some time to recover.
- "You said, mother, that criticism would help me; but how can it,
- when it's so contradictory that I don't know whether I've written a
- promising book or broken all the ten commandments?" cried poor Jo,
- turning over a heap of notices, the perusal of which filled her with
- pride and joy one minute, wrath and dire dismay the next. "This man
- says, 'An exquisite book, full of truth, beauty, and earnestness;
- all is sweet, pure, and healthy,'" continued the perplexed
- authoress. "The next, 'The theory of the book is bad, full of morbid
- fancies, spiritualistic ideas, and unnatural characters.' Now, as I
- had no theory of any kind, don't believe in Spiritualism, and copied
- my characters from life, I don't see how this critic can be right.
- Another says, 'It's one of the best American novels which has appeared
- for years' (I know better than that); and the next asserts that
- 'though it is original, and written with great force and feeling, it
- is a dangerous book.' 'Tisn't! Some make fun of it, some
- over-praise, and nearly all insist that I had a deep theory to
- expound, when I only wrote it for the pleasure and the money. I wish
- I'd printed it whole or not at all, for I do hate to be so misjudged."
- Her family and friends administered comfort and commendation
- liberally; yet it was a hard time for sensitive, high-spirited Jo, who
- meant so well, and had apparently done so ill. But it did her good,
- for those whose opinion had real value gave her the criticism which is
- an author's best education; and when the first soreness was over, she
- could laugh at her poor little book, yet believe in it still, and feel
- herself the wiser and stronger for the buffeting she had received.
- "Not being a genius, like Keats, it won't kill me," she said
- stoutly; "and I've got the joke on my side, after all; for the parts
- that were taken straight out of real life are denounced as
- impossible and absurd, and the scenes that I made up out of my own
- silly head are pronounced 'charmingly natural, tender, and true.' So
- I'll comfort myself with that; and when I'm ready, I'll up again and
- take another."
- 28
- Domestic Experiences
-
- LIKE most other young matrons, Meg began her married life with the
- determination to be a model housekeeper. John should find home a
- paradise; he should always see a smiling face, should fare sumptuously
- every day, and never know the loss of a button. She brought so much
- love, energy, and cheerfulness to the work that she could not but
- succeed, in spite of some obstacles. Her paradise was not a tranquil
- one; for the little woman fussed, was over-anxious to please, and
- bustled about like a true Martha, cumbered with many cares. She was
- too tired, sometimes, even to smile; John grew dyspeptic after a
- course of dainty dishes, and ungratefully demanded plain fare. As
- for buttons, she soon learned to wonder where they went, to shake
- her head over the carelessness of men, and to threaten to make him sew
- them on himself, and then see if his work would stand impatient tugs
- and clumsy fingers any better than hers.
- They were very happy, even after they discovered that they
- couldn't live on love alone. John did not find Meg's beauty
- diminished, though she beamed on him from behind the familiar
- coffee-pot; nor did Meg miss any of the romance from the daily
- parting, when her husband followed up his kiss with the tender
- inquiry, "Shall I send home veal or mutton for dinner, darling?" The
- little house ceased to be a glorified bower, but it became a home, and
- the young couple soon felt that it was a change for the better. At
- first they played keep-house, and frolicked over it like children;
- then John took steadily to business, feeling the cares of the head
- of a family upon his shoulders; and Meg laid by her cambric
- wrappers, put on a big apron, and fell to work, as before said, with
- more energy than discretion.
- While the cooking mania lasted she went through Mrs. Cornelius's
- Receipt Book as if it were a mathematical exercise, working out the
- problems with patience and care. Sometimes her family were invited
- in to help eat up a too bounteous feast of successes, or Lotty would
- be privately despatched with a batch of failures, which were to be
- concealed from all eyes in the convenient stomachs of the little
- Hummels. An evening with John over the account-books usually
- produced a temporary lull in the culinary enthusiasm, and a frugal fit
- would ensue, during which the poor man was put through a course of
- bread-pudding, hash, and warmed-over coffee, which tried his soul,
- although he bore it with praiseworthy fortitude. Before the golden
- mean was found, however, Meg added to her domestic possessions what
- young couples seldom get on long without- a family jar.
- Fired with a housewifely wish to see her store-room stocked with
- home-made preserves, she undertook to put up her own currant jelly.
- John was requested to order home a dozen or so of little pots, and
- an extra quantity of sugar, for their own currants were ripe, and were
- to be attended to at once. As John firmly believed that "my wife"
- was equal to anything, and took a natural pride in her skill, he
- resolved that she should be gratified, and their only crop of fruit
- laid by in a most pleasing form for winter use. Home came four dozen
- delightful little pots, half a barrel of sugar, and a small boy to
- pick the currants for her. With her pretty hair tucked into a little
- cap, arms bare to the elbow, and a checked apron which had a
- coquettish look in spite of the bib, the young housewife fell to work,
- feeling no doubts about her success; for hadn't she seen Hannah do
- it hundreds of times? The array of pots rather amazed her at first,
- but John was so fond of jelly, and the nice little jars would look
- so well on the top shelf, that Meg resolved to fill them all, and
- spent a long day picking, boiling, straining, and fussing over her
- jelly. She did her best; she asked advice of Mrs. Cornelius; she
- racked her brain to remember what Hannah did that she had left undone;
- she reboiled, resugared, and restrained, but that dreadful stuff
- wouldn't "jell."
- She longed to run home, bib and all, and ask mother to lend a
- hand, but John and she had agreed that they would never annoy any
- one with their private worries, experiments, or quarrels. They had
- laughed over that last word as if the idea it suggested was a most
- preposterous one; but they had held to their resolve, and whenever
- they could get on without help they did so, and no one interfered, for
- Mrs. March had advised the plan. So Meg wrestled alone with the
- refractory sweetmeats all that hot summer day, and at five o'clock sat
- down in her topsy-turvy kitchen, wrung her bedaubed hands, lifted up
- her voice and wept.
- Now, in the first flush of the new life, she had often said-
- "My husband shall always feel free to bring a friend home whenever
- he likes. I shall always be prepared; there shall be no flurry, no
- scolding, no discomfort, but a neat house, a cheerful wife, and a good
- dinner. John, dear, never stop to ask my leave, invite whom you
- please, and be sure of a welcome from me."
- How charming that was, to be sure! John quite glowed with pride to
- hear her say it, and felt what a blessed thing it was to have a
- superior wife. But, although they had had company from time to time,
- it never happened to be unexpected, and Meg had never had an
- opportunity to distinguish herself till now. It always happens so in
- this vale of tears; there is an inevitability about such things
- which we can only wonder at, deplore, and bear as we best can.
- If John had not forgotten all about the jelly, it really would
- have been unpardonable in him to choose that day, of all the days in
- the year, to bring a friend home to dinner unexpectedly.
- Congratulating himself that a handsome repast had been ordered that
- morning, feeling sure that it would be ready to the minute, and
- indulging in pleasant anticipations of the charming effect it would
- produce, when his pretty wife came running out to meet him, he
- escorted his friend to his mansion, with the irrepressible
- satisfaction of a young host and husband.
- It is a world of disappointments, as John discovered when he reached
- the Dove-cote. The front door usually stood hospitably open; now it
- was not only shut, but locked, and yesterday's mud still adorned the
- steps. The parlor-windows were closed and curtained, no picture of the
- pretty wife sewing on the piazza, in white, with a distracting
- little bow in her hair, or a bright-eyed hostess, smiling a shy
- welcome as she greeted her guest. Nothing of the sort, for not a
- soul appeared, but a sanguinary-looking boy asleep under the
- currant-bushes.
- "I'm afraid something has happened. Step into the garden, Scott,
- while I look up Mrs. Brooke," said John, alarmed at the silence and
- solitude.
- Round the house he hurried, led by a pungent smell of burnt sugar,
- and Mr. Scott strolled after him, with a queer look on his face. He
- paused discreetly at a distance when Brooke disappeared; but he
- could both see and hear, and, being a bachelor, enjoyed the prospect
- mightily.
- In the kitchen reigned confusion and despair; one edition of jelly
- was trickled from pot to pot, another lay upon the floor, and a
- third was burning gayly on the stove. Lotty, with Teutonic phlegm, was
- calmly eating bread and currant wine, for the jelly was still in a
- hopelessly liquid state, while Mrs. Brooke, with her apron over her
- head, sat sobbing dismally.
- "My dearest girl, what is the matter?" cried John, rushing in,
- with awful visions of scalded hands, sudden news of affliction, and
- secret consternation at the thought of the guest in the garden.
- "O John, I am so tired and hot and cross and worried! I've been at
- it till I'm all worn out. Do come and help me or I shall die!" and the
- exhausted housewife cast herself upon his breast, giving him a sweet
- welcome in every sense of the word, for her pinafore had been baptized
- at the same time as the floor.
- "What worries you, dear? Has anything dreadful happened?" asked
- the anxious John, tenderly kissing the crown of the little cap,
- which was all askew.
- "Yes," sobbed Meg despairingly.
- "Tell me quick then. Don't cry, I can bear anything better than
- that. Out with it, love."
- "The- the jelly won't jell and I don't know what to do!"
- John Brooke laughed then as he never dared to laugh afterward; and
- the derisive Scott smiled involuntarily as he heard the hearty peal,
- which put the finishing stroke to poor Meg's woe.
- "Is that all? Fling it out of window, and don't bother any more
- about it. I'll buy you quarts if you want it; but for heaven's sake
- don't have hysterics, for I've brought Jack Scott home to dinner,
- and-"
- John got no further, for Meg cast him off, and clasped her hands
- with a tragic gesture as she fell into a chair, exclaiming in a tone
- of mingled indignation, reproach, and dismay "A man to dinner, and
- everything in a mess! John Brooke, how could you do such a thing?"
- "Hush, he's in the garden! I forgot the confounded jelly, but it
- can't be helped now," said John, surveying the prospect with an
- anxious eye.
- "You ought to have sent word, or told me this morning, and you ought
- to have remembered how busy I was," continued Meg petulantly; for even
- turtle-doves will peck when ruffled.
- "I didn't know it this morning, and there was no time to send
- word, for I met him on the way out. I never thought of asking leave,
- when you have always told me to do as I liked. I never tried it
- before, and hang me if I ever do again!" added John, with an aggrieved
- air.
- "I should hope not! Take him away at once; I can't see him, and
- there isn't any dinner."
- "Well, I like that! Where's the beef and vegetables I sent home, and
- the pudding you promised?" cried John, rushing to the larder.
- "I hadn't time to cook anything; I meant to dine at mother's. I'm
- sorry, but I was so busy"; and Meg's tears began again.
- John was a mild man, but he was human; and after a long day's
- work, to come home tired, hungry, and hopeful, to find a chaotic
- house, an empty table, and a cross wife was not exactly conducive to
- repose of mind or manner. He restrained himself, however, and the
- little squall would have blown over, but for one unlucky word.
- "It's a scrape, I acknowledge; but if you will lend a hand, we'll
- pull through, and have a good time yet. Don't cry, dear, but just
- exert yourself a bit, and knock us up something to eat. We're both
- as hungry as hunters, so we shan't mind what it is. Give us the cold
- meat, and bread and cheese; we won't ask for jelly."
- He meant it for a good-natured joke; but that one word sealed his
- fate. Meg thought it was too cruel to hint about her sad failure,
- and the last atom of patience vanished as he spoke.
- "You must get yourself out of the scrape as you can; I'm too used up
- to 'exert' myself for any one. It's like a man to propose a bone and
- vulgar bread and cheese for company. I won't have anything of the sort
- in my house. Take that Scott up to mother's, and tell him I'm away,
- sick, dead- anything. I won't see him, and you two can laugh at me and
- my jelly as much as you like: you won't have anything else here";
- and having delivered her defiance all in one breath, Meg cast away her
- pinafore, and precipitately left the field to bemoan herself in her
- own room.
- What those two creatures did in her absence, she never knew; but Mr.
- Scott was not taken "up to mother's," and when Meg descended, after
- they had strolled away together, she found traces of a promiscuous
- lunch which filled her with horror. Lotty reported that they had eaten
- "a much, and greatly laughed, and the master bid her throw away all
- the sweet stuff, and hide the pots."
- Meg longed to go and tell mother; but a sense of shame at her own
- shortcomings, of loyalty to John, "who might be cruel, but nobody
- should know it," restrained her; and after a summary clearing up,
- she dressed herself prettily, and sat down to wait for John to come
- and be forgiven.
- Unfortunately, John didn't come, not seeing the matter in that
- light. He had carried it off as a good joke with Scott, excused his
- little wife as well as he could, and played the host so hospitably
- that his friend enjoyed the impromptu dinner, and promised to come
- again. But John was angry, though he did not show it; he felt that Meg
- had got him into a scrape, and then deserted him in his hour of
- need. "It wasn't fair to tell a man to bring folks home any time, with
- perfect freedom, and when he took you at your word, to flame up and
- blame him, and leave him in the lurch, to be laughed at or pitied. No,
- by George, it wasn't! and Meg must know it." He had fumed inwardly
- during the feast, but when the flurry was over, and he strolled
- home, after seeing Scott off, a milder mood came over him. "Poor
- little thing! it was hard upon her when she tried so heartily to
- please me. She was wrong, of course, but then she was young. I must be
- patient and teach her." He hoped she had not gone home-he hated gossip
- and interference. For a minute he was ruffled again at the mere
- thought of it; and then the fear that Meg would cry herself sick
- softened his heart, and sent him on at a quicker pace, resolving to be
- calm and kind, but firm, quite firm, and show her where she had failed
- in her duty to her spouse.
- Meg likewise resolved to be "calm and kind, but firm," and show
- him his duty. She longed to run to meet him, and beg pardon, and be
- kissed and comforted, as she was sure of being; but, of course, she
- did nothing of the sort, and when she saw John coming, began to hum
- quite naturally, as she rocked and sewed, like a lady of leisure in
- her best parlor.
- John was a little disappointed not to find a tender Niobe; but,
- feeling that his dignity demanded the first apology, he made none,
- only came leisurely in, and laid himself upon the sofa, with the
- singularly relevant remark-
- "We are going to have a new moon, my dear."
- "I've no objection," was Meg's equally soothing remark.
- A few other topics of general interest were introduced by Mr.
- Brooke, and wet-blanketed by Mrs. Brooke, and conversation languished.
- John went to one window, unfolded his paper, and wrapped himself in
- it, figuratively speaking. Meg went to the other window, and sewed
- as if new rosettes for her slippers were among the necessaries of
- life. Neither spoke; both looked quite "calm and firm," and both
- felt desperately uncomfortable.
- "Oh dear," thought Meg, "married life is very trying, and does
- need infinite patience, as well as love, as mother says." The word
- "mother" suggested other maternal counsels, given long ago, and
- received with unbelieving protests.
- "John is a good man, but he has his faults, and you must learn to
- see and bear with them, remembering your own. He is very decided,
- but never will be obstinate, if you reason kindly, not oppose
- impatiently. He is very accurate, and particular about the truth- a
- good trait, though you call him 'fussy.' Never deceive him by look
- or word, Meg, and he will give you the confidence you deserve, the
- support you need. He has a temper, not like ours- one flash, and
- then all over- but the white, still anger, that is seldom stirred, but
- once kindled, is hard to quench. Be careful, very careful, not to wake
- this anger against yourself, for peace and happiness depend on keeping
- his respect. Watch yourself, be the first to ask pardon if you both
- err, and guard against the little piques, misunderstandings, and hasty
- words that often pave the way for bitter sorrow and regret."
- These words came back to Meg, as she sat sewing in the sunset,
- especially the last. This was the first serious disagreement; her
- own hasty speeches sounded both silly and unkind, as she recalled
- them, her own anger looked childish now, and thoughts of poor John
- coming home to such a scene quite melted her heart. She glanced at him
- with tears in her eyes, but he did not see them; she put down her work
- and got up, thinking, "I will be the first to say, 'Forgive me,'"
- but he did not seem to hear her; she went very slowly across the room,
- for pride was hard to swallow, and stood by him, but he did not turn
- his head. For a minute she felt as if she really couldn't do it;
- then came the thought, "This is the beginning, I'll do my part, and
- have nothing to reproach myself with," and stooping down, she softly
- kissed her husband on the forehead. Of course that settled it; the
- penitent kiss was better than a world of words, and John had her on
- his knee in a minute, saying tenderly "It was too bad to laugh at
- the poor little jelly-pots. Forgive me, dear, I never will again!"
- But he did, oh bless you, yes, hundreds of times, and so did Meg,
- both declaring that it was the sweetest jelly they ever made; for
- family peace was preserved in that little family jar.
- After this Meg had Mr. Scott to dinner by special invitation, and
- served him up a pleasant feast without a cooked wife for the first
- course; on which occasion she was so gay and gracious, and made
- everything go off so charmingly, that Mr. Scott told John he was a
- happy fellow, and shook his head over the hardships of bachelorhood
- all the way home.
- In the autumn, new trials and experiences came to Meg. Sallie Moffat
- renewed her friendship, was always running out for a dish of gossip at
- the little house, or inviting "that poor dear" to come in and spend
- the day at the big house. It was pleasant, for in dull weather Meg
- often felt lonely; all were busy at home, John absent till night,
- and nothing to do but sew, or read, or potter about. So it naturally
- fell out that Meg got into the way of gadding and gossiping with her
- friend. Seeing Sallie's pretty things made her long for such, and pity
- herself because she had not got them. Sallie was very kind, and
- often offered her the coveted trifles; but Meg declined them,
- knowing John wouldn't like it; and then this foolish little woman went
- and did what John disliked infinitely worse.
- She knew her husband's income, and she loved to feel that he trusted
- her, not only with his happiness, but what some men seem to value
- more- his money. She knew where it was, was free to take what she
- liked, and all he asked was that she should keep account of every
- penny, pay bills once a month, and remember that she was a poor
- man's wife. Till now, she had done well, been prudent and exact,
- kept her little account-books neatly, and showed them to him monthly
- without fear. But that autumn the serpent got into Meg's paradise, and
- tempted her, like many a modern Eve, not with apples, but with
- dress. Meg didn't like to be pitied and made to feel poor; it
- irritated her, but she was ashamed to confess it, and now and then she
- tried to console herself by buying something pretty, so that Sallie
- needn't think she had to economize. She always felt wicked after it,
- for the pretty things were seldom necessaries; but then they cost so
- little, it wasn't worth worrying about; so the trifles increased
- unconsciously, and in the shopping excursions she was no longer a
- passive looker-on.
- But the trifles cost more than one would imagine; and when she
- cast up her accounts at the end of the month, the sum total rather
- scared her. John was busy that month, and left the bills to her; the
- next month he was absent; but the third he had a grand quarterly
- settling up, and Meg never forgot it. A few days before she had done a
- dreadful thing, and it weighed upon her conscience. Sallie had been
- buying silks, and Meg longed for a new one- just a handsome light
- one for parties, her black silk was so common, and thin things for
- evening wear were only proper for girls. Aunt March usually gave the
- sisters a present of twenty-five dollars apiece at New Year; that
- was only a month to wait, and here was a lovely violet silk going at a
- bargain, and she had the money, if she only dared to take it. John
- always said what was his was hers; but would he think it right to
- spend not only the prospective five-and-twenty, but another
- five-and-twenty out of the household fund? That was the question.
- Sallie had urged her to do it, had offered to loan the money, and with
- the best intentions in life, had tempted Meg beyond her strength. In
- an evil moment the shopman held up the lovely, shimmering folds, and
- said, "A bargain, I assure you, ma'am." She answered, "I'll take
- it"; and it was cut off and paid for, and Sallie had exulted, and
- she had laughed as if it were a thing of no consequence, and driven
- away, feeling as if she had stolen something, and the police were
- after her.
- When she got home, she tried to assuage the pangs of remorse by
- spreading forth the lovely silk; but it looked less silvery now,
- didn't become her, after all, and the words "fifty dollars" seemed
- stamped like a pattern down each breadth. She put it away; but it
- haunted her, not delightfully, as a new dress should, but
- dreadfully, like the ghost of a folly that was not easily laid. When
- John got out his books that night, Meg's heart sank, and, for the
- first time in her married life, she was afraid of her husband. The
- kind, brown eyes looked as if they could be stern; and though he was
- unusually merry, she fancied he had found her out, but didn't mean
- to let her know it. The house-bills were all paid, the books all in
- order. John had praised her, and was undoing the old pocketbook
- which they called the "bank," when Meg, knowing that it was quite
- empty, stopped his hand, saying nervously, "You haven't seen my
- private expense book yet."
- John never asked to see it; but she always insisted on his doing so,
- and used to enjoy his masculine amazement at the queer things women
- wanted, and made him guess what "piping" was, demand fiercely the
- meaning of a "hug-me-tight," or wonder how a little thing composed
- of three rosebuds, a bit of velvet, and a pair of strings, could
- possibly be a bonnet, and cost five or six dollars. That night he
- looked as if he would like the fun of quizzing her figures and
- pretending to be horrified at her extravagance, as he often did, being
- particularly proud of his prudent wife.
- The little book was brought slowly out, and laid down before him.
- Meg got behind his chair under pretence of smoothing the wrinkles
- out of his tired forehead, and standing there, she said, with her
- panic increasing with every word-
- "John, dear, I'm ashamed to show you my book, for I've really been
- dreadfully extravagant lately. I go about so much I must have
- things, you know, and Sallie advised my getting it, so I did; and my
- New-Year's money will partly pay for it: but I was sorry after I'd
- done it, for I knew you'd think it wrong in me."
- John laughed, and drew her round beside him, saying
- good-humoredly, "Don't go and hide. I won't beat you if you have got a
- pair of killing boots; I'm rather proud of my wife's feet, and don't
- mind if she does pay eight or nine dollars for her boots, if they
- are good ones."
- That had been one of her last "trifles," and John's eye had fallen
- on it as he spoke. "Oh, what will he say when he comes to that awful
- fifty dollars!" thought Meg, with a shiver.
- "It's worse than boots, it's a silk dress," she said, with the
- calmness of desperation, for she wanted the worst over.
- "Well, dear, what is the 'dem'd total,' as Mr. Mantalini says?"
- That didn't sound like John, and she knew he was looking up at her
- with the straightforward look that she had always been ready to meet
- and answer with one as frank till now. She turned the page and her
- head at the same time, pointing to the sum which would have been bad
- enough without the fifty, but which was appalling to her with that
- added. For a minute the room was very still; then John said slowly-
- but she could feel it cost him an effort to express no displeasure-
- "Well, I don't know that fifty is much for a dress, with all the
- fur-belows and notions you have to have to finish it off these days."
- "It isn't made or trimmed," sighed Meg faintly, for a sudden
- recollection of the cost still to be incurred quite overwhelmed her.
- "Twenty-five yards of silk seems a good deal to cover one small
- woman, but I've no doubt my wife will look as fine as Ned Moffat's
- when she gets it on," said John dryly.
- "I know you are angry, John, but I can't help it. I don't mean to
- waste your money, and I didn't think those little things would count
- up so. I can't resist them when I see Sallie buying all she wants, and
- pitying me because I don't. I try to be contented, but it is hard, and
- I'm tired of being poor."
- The last words were spoken so low she thought he did not hear
- them, but he did, and they wounded him deeply, for he had denied
- himself many pleasures for Meg's sake. She could have bitten her
- tongue out the minute she had said it, but John pushed the books away,
- and got up, saying, with a little quiver in his voice, "I was afraid
- of this; I do my best, Meg." If he had scolded her, or even shaken
- her, it would not have broken her heart like those few words. She
- ran to him and held him close, crying, with repentant tears, "O
- John, my dear, kind, hard-working boy, I didn't mean it! It was so
- wicked, so untrue and ungrateful, how could I say it! Oh, how could
- I say it!"
- He was very kind, forgave her readily, and did not utter one
- reproach; but Meg knew that she had done and said a thing which
- would not be forgotten soon, although he might never allude to it
- again. She had promised to love him for better for worse; and then
- she, his wife, had reproached him with his poverty, after spending his
- earnings recklessly. It was dreadful; and the worst of it was John
- went on so quietly afterward, just as if nothing had happened,
- except that he stayed in town later, and worked at night when she
- had gone to cry herself to sleep. A week of remorse nearly made Meg
- sick; and the discovery that John had countermanded the order for
- his new great-coat reduced her to a state of despair which was
- pathetic to behold. He had simply said, in answer to her surprised
- inquiries as to the change, "I can't afford it, my dear."
- Meg said no more, but a few minutes after he found her in the
- hall, with her face buried in the old great-coat, crying as if her
- heart would break.
- They had a long talk that night, and Meg learned to love her husband
- better for his poverty, because it seemed to have made a man of him,
- given him the strength and courage to fight his own way, and taught
- him a tender patience with which to bear and comfort the natural
- longings and failures of those he loved.
- Next day she put her pride in her pocket, went to Sallie, told the
- truth, and asked her to buy the silk as a favor. The good-natured Mrs.
- Moffat willingly did so, and had the delicacy not to make her a
- present of it immediately afterward. Then Meg ordered home the
- great-coat, and, when John arrived, she put it on, and asked him how
- he liked her new silk gown. One can imagine what answer he made, how
- he received his present, and what a blissful state of things ensued.
- John came home early, Meg gadded no more; and that great-coat was
- put on in the morning by a very happy husband, and taken off at
- night by a most devoted little wife. So the year rolled round, and
- at midsummer there came to Meg a new experience- the deepest and
- tenderest of a woman's life.
- Laurie came sneaking into the kitchen of the Dove-cote, one
- Saturday, with an excited face, and was received with the clash of
- cymbals; for Hannah clapped her hands with a saucepan in one and the
- cover in the other.
- "How's the little mamma? Where is everybody? Why didn't you tell
- me before I came home?" began Laurie, in a loud whisper.
- "Happy as a queen, the dear! Every soul of 'em is upstairs a
- worshipin'; we didn't want no hurrycanes round. Now you go into the
- parlor, and I'll send 'em down to you," with which somewhat involved
- reply Hannah vanished, chuckling ecstatically.
- Presently Jo appeared, proudly bearing a flannel bundle laid forth
- upon a large pillow. Jo's face was very sober, but her eyes
- twinkled, and there was an odd sound in her voice of repressed emotion
- of some sort.
- "Shut your eyes and hold out your arms," she said invitingly.
- Laurie backed precipitately into a corner, and put his hands
- behind him with an imploring gesture: "No, thank you, I'd rather
- not. I shall drop it or smash it, as sure as fate."
- "Then you shan't see your nevvy," said Jo decidedly, turning as if
- to go.
- "I will, I will! only you must be responsible for damages"; and,
- obeying orders, Laurie heroically shut his eyes and something was
- put into his arms. A peal of laughter from Jo, Amy, Mrs. March,
- Hannah, and John caused him to open them the next minute, to find
- himself invested with two babies instead of one.
- No wonder they laughed, for the expression of his face was droll
- enough to convulse a Quaker, as he stood and stared wildly from the
- unconscious innocents to the hilarious spectators, with such dismay
- that Jo sat down on the floor and screamed.
- "Twins, by Jupiter!" was all he said for a minute; then, turning
- to the women with an appealing look that was comically piteous, he
- added, "Take 'em quick, somebody! I'm going to laugh, and I shall drop
- 'em."
- John rescued his babies, and marched up and down, with one on each
- arm, as if already initiated into the mysteries of baby-tending, while
- Laurie laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks.
- "It's the best joke of the season, isn't it? I wouldn't have you
- told, for I set my heart on surprising you, and I flatter myself, I've
- done it," said Jo, when she got her breath.
- "I never was more staggered in my life. Isn't it fun? Are they boys?
- What are you going to name them? Let's have another look. Hold me
- up, Jo; for upon my life it's one too many for me," returned Laurie,
- regarding the infants with the air of a big, benevolent Newfoundland
- looking at a pair of infantile kittens.
- "Boy and girl. Aren't they beauties?" said the proud papa, beaming
- upon the little red squirmers as if they were unfledged angels.
- "Most remarkable children I ever saw. Which is which?" and Laurie
- bent like a well-sweep to examine the prodigies.
- "Amy put a blue ribbon on the boy and a pink on the girl, French
- fashion, so you can always tell. Besides, one has blue eyes and one
- brown. Kiss them, Uncle Teddy," said wicked Jo.
- "I'm afraid they mightn't like it," began Laurie, with unusual
- timidity in such matters.
- "Of course they will; they are used to it now. Do it this minute,
- sir!" commanded Jo, fearing he might propose a proxy.
- Laurie screwed up his face, and obeyed with a gingerly peck at
- each little cheek that produced another laugh, and made the babies
- squeal.
- "There, I knew they didn't like it! That's the boy; see him kick; he
- hits out with his fists like a good one. Now then, young Brooke, pitch
- into a man of your own size, will you?" cried Laurie, delighted with a
- poke in the face from a tiny fist, flapping aimlessly about.
- "He's to be named John Laurence, and the girl Margaret, after mother
- and grandmother. We shall call her Daisy, so as not to have two
- Megs, and I suppose the mannie will be Jack, unless we find a better
- name," said Amy, with aunt-like interest.
- "Name him Demijohn, and call him 'Demi' for short," said Laurie.
- "Daisy and Demi- just the thing! I knew Teddy would do it," cried
- Jo, clapping her hands.
- Teddy certainly had done it that time, for the babies were "Daisy"
- and "Demi" to the end of the chapter.
- 29
- Calls
-
- "COME, Jo, it's time."
- "For what?"
- "You don't mean to say you have forgotten that you promised to
- make half a dozen calls with me to-day?"
- "I've done a good many rash and foolish things in my life, but I
- don't think I ever was mad enough to say I'd make six calls in one
- day, when a single one upsets me for a week."
- "Yes, you did; it was a bargain between us. I was to finish the
- crayon of Beth for you, and you were to go properly with me, and
- return our neighbors' visits."
- "If it was fair- that was in the bond; and I stand to the letter
- of my bond, Shylock. There is a pile of clouds in the east; it's not
- fair, and I don't go."
- "Now, that's shirking. It's a lovely day, no prospect of rain, and
- you pride yourself on keeping promises; so be honorable; come and do
- your duty, and then be at peace for another six months."
- At that minute Jo was particularly absorbed in dressmaking; for
- she was mantua-maker general to the family, and took especial credit
- to herself because she could use a needle as well as a pen. It was
- very provoking to be arrested in the act of a first trying-on, and
- ordered out to make calls in her best array, on a warm July day. She
- hated calls of the formal sort, and never made any till Amy
- compelled her with a bargain, bribe, or promise. In the present
- instance, there was no escape; and having clashed her scissors
- rebelliously, while protesting that she smelt thunder, she gave in,
- put away her work, and taking up her hat and gloves with an air of
- resignation, told Amy the victim was ready.
- "Jo March, you are perverse enough to provoke a saint! You don't
- intend to make calls in that state, I hope," cried Amy, surveying
- her with amazement.
- "Why not? I'm neat and cool and comfortable; quite proper for a
- dusty walk on a warm day. If people care more for my clothes than they
- do for me, I don't wish to see them. You can dress for both, and be as
- elegant as you please: it pays for you to be fine; it doesn't for
- me, and furbelows only worry me."
- "Oh dear!" sighed Amy; "now she's in a contrary fit, and will
- drive me distracted before I can get her properly ready. I'm sure it's
- no pleasure to me to go to-day, but it's a debt we owe society, and
- there's no one to pay it but you and me. I'll do anything for you, Jo,
- if you'll only dress yourself nicely, and come and help me do the
- civil. You can talk so well, look so aristocratic in your best things,
- and behave so beautifully, if you try, that I'm proud of you. I'm
- afraid to go alone; do come and take care of me."
- "You're an artful little puss to flatter and wheedle your cross
- old sister in that way. The idea of my being aristocratic and
- well-bred, and your being afraid to go anywhere alone! I don't know
- which is the most absurd. Well, I'll go if I must, and do my best. You
- shall be commander of the expedition, and I'll obey blindly; will that
- satisfy you?" said Jo, with a sudden change from perversity to
- lamb-like submission.
- "You're a perfect cherub! Now put on all your best things, and
- I'll tell you how to behave at each place, so that you will make a
- good impression. I want people to like you, and they would if you'd
- only try to be a little more agreeable. Do your hair the pretty way,
- and put the pink rose in your bonnet; it's becoming, and you look
- too sober in your plain suit. Take your light gloves and the
- embroidered handkerchief. We'll stop at Meg's, and borrow her white
- sunshade, and then you can have my dove-colored one."
- While Amy dressed, she issued her orders, and Jo obeyed them; not
- without entering her protest, however, for she sighed as she rustled
- into her new organdie, frowned darkly at herself as she tied her
- bonnet strings in an irreproachable bow, wrestled viciously with
- pins as she put on her collar, wrinkled up her features generally as
- she shook out the handkerchief, whose embroidery was as irritating
- to her nose as the present mission was to her feelings; and when she
- had squeezed her hands into tight gloves with three buttons and a
- tassel, as the last touch of elegance, she turned to Amy with an
- imbecile expression of countenance, saying meekly-
- "I'm perfectly miserable; but if you consider me presentable, I
- die happy."
- "You are highly satisfactory; turn slowly round, and let me get a
- careful view." Jo revolved, and Amy gave a touch here and there,
- then fell back, with her head on one side, observing graciously, "Yes,
- you'll do; your head is all I could ask, for that white bonnet with
- the rose is quite ravishing. Hold back your shoulders, and carry
- your hands easily, no matter if your gloves do pinch. There's one
- thing you can do well, Jo, that is, wear a shawl- I can't; but it's
- very nice to see you, and I'm so glad Aunt March gave you that
- lovely one; it's simple, but handsome, and those folds over the arm
- are really artistic. Is the point of my mantle in the middle, and have
- I looped my dress evenly? I like to show my boots, for my feet are
- pretty, though my nose isn't."
- "You are a thing of beauty and a joy forever," said Jo, looking
- through her hand with the air of a connoisseur at the blue feather
- against the gold hair. "Am I to drag my best dress through the dust,
- or loop it up, please, ma'am?"
- "Hold it up when you walk, but drop it in the house; the sweeping
- style suits you best, and you must learn to trail your skirts
- gracefully. You haven't half buttoned one cuff; do it at once.
- You'll never look finished if you are not careful about the little
- details, for they make up the pleasing whole."
- Jo sighed, and proceeded to burst the buttons off her glove, in
- doing up her cuff; but at last both were ready, and sailed away,
- looking as "pretty as picters," Hannah said, as she hung out of the
- upper window to watch them.
- "Now, Jo dear, the Chesters consider themselves very elegant people,
- so I want you to put on your best deportment. Don't make any of your
- abrupt remarks, or do anything odd, will you? Just be calm, cool,
- and quiet- that's safe and ladylike; and you can easily do it for
- fifteen minutes," said Amy, as they approached the first place, having
- borrowed the white parasol and been inspected by Meg, with a baby on
- each arm.
- "Let me see. 'Calm, cool, and quiet'- yes, I think I can promise
- that. I've played the part of a prim young lady on the stage, and I'll
- try it off. My powers are great, as you shall see; so be easy in
- your mind, my child."
- Amy looked relieved, but naughty Jo took her at her word; for,
- during the first call, she sat with every limb gracefully composed,
- every fold correctly draped, calm as a summer sea, cool as a
- snow-bank, and as silent as a sphinx. In vain Mrs. Chester alluded
- to her "charming novel," and the Misses Chester introduced parties,
- picnics, the opera, and the fashions; each and all were answered by
- a smile, a bow, and a demure "Yes" or "No," with the chill on. In vain
- Amy telegraphed the word "Talk," tried to draw her out, and
- administered covert pokes with her foot. Jo sat as if blandly
- unconscious of it all, with deportment like Maud's face, "icily
- regular, splendidly null."
- "What a haughty, uninteresting creature that oldest Miss March
- is!" was the unfortunately audible remark of one of the ladies, as the
- door closed upon their guests. Jo laughed noiselessly all through
- the hall, but Amy looked disgusted at the failure of her instructions,
- and very naturally laid the blame upon Jo.
- "How could you mistake me so? I merely meant you to be properly
- dignified and composed, and you made yourself a perfect stock and
- stone. Try to be sociable at the Lambs', gossip as other girls do, and
- be interested in dress and flirtations and whatever nonsense comes up.
- They move in the best society, are valuable persons for us to know,
- and I wouldn't fail to make a good impression there for anything."
- "I'll be agreeable; I'll gossip and giggle, and have horrors and
- raptures over any trifle you like. I rather enjoy this, and now I'll
- imitate what is called 'a charming girl'; I can do it, for I have
- May Chester as a model, and I'll improve upon her. See if the Lambs
- don't say, 'What a lively, nice creature that Jo March is!'"
- Amy felt anxious, as well she might, for when Jo turned freakish
- there was no knowing where she would stop. Amy's face was a study when
- she saw her sister skim into the next drawing-room, kiss all the young
- ladies with effusion, beam graciously upon the young gentlemen, and
- join in the chat with a spirit which amazed the beholder. Amy was
- taken possession of by Mrs. Lamb, with whom she was a favorite, and
- forced to hear a long account of Lucretia's last attack, while three
- delightful young gentlemen hovered near, waiting for a pause when they
- might rush in and rescue her. So situated, she was powerless to
- check Jo, who seemed possessed by a spirit of mischief, and talked
- away as volubly as the old lady. A knot of heads gathered about her,
- and Amy strained her ears to hear what was going on; for broken
- sentences filled her with alarm, round eyes and uplifted hands
- tormented her with curiosity, and frequent peals of laughter made
- her wild to share the fun. One may imagine her suffering on
- overhearing fragments of this sort of conversation:
- "She rides splendidly- who taught her?"
- "No one; she used to practise mounting, holding the reins, and
- sitting straight on an old saddle in a tree. Now she rides anything,
- for she doesn't know what fear is, and the stable-man lets her have
- horses cheap, because she trains them to carry ladies so well. She has
- such a passion for it, I often tell her if everything else fails she
- can be a horse-breaker, and get her living so."
- At this awful speech Amy contained herself with difficulty, for
- the impression was being given that she was rather a fast young
- lady, which was her especial aversion. But what could she do? for
- the old lady was in the middle of her story, and long before it was
- done Jo was off again, making more droll revelations, and committing
- still more fearful blunders.
- "Yes, Amy was in despair that day, for all the good beasts were
- gone, and of three left, one was lame, one blind, and the other so
- balky that you had to put dirt in his mouth before he would start.
- Nice animal for a pleasure party, wasn't it?"
- "Which did she choose?" asked one of the laughing gentlemen, who
- enjoyed the subject.
- "None of them; she heard of a young horse at the farmhouse over
- the river, and, though a lady had never ridden him, she resolved to
- try, because he was handsome and spirited. Her struggles were really
- pathetic; there was no one to bring the horse to the saddle, so she
- took the saddle to the horse. My dear creature, she actually rowed
- it over the river, put it on her head, and marched up to the barn to
- the utter amazement of the old man!"
- "Did she ride the horse?"
- "Of course she did, and had a capital time. I expected to see her
- brought home in fragments, but she managed him perfectly, and was
- the life of the party."
- "Well, I call that plucky!" and young Mr. Lamb turned an approving
- glance upon Amy, wondering what his mother could be saying to make the
- girl look so red and uncomfortable.
- She was still redder and more uncomfortable a moment after, when a
- sudden turn in the conversation introduced the subject of dress. One
- of the young ladies asked Jo where she got the pretty drab hat she
- wore to the picnic; and stupid Jo, instead of mentioning the place
- where it was bought two years ago, must needs answer, with unnecessary
- frankness, "Oh, Amy painted it; you can't buy those soft shades, so we
- paint ours any color we like. It's a great comfort to have an artistic
- sister."
- "Isn't that an original idea?" cried Miss Lamb, who found Jo great
- fun.
- "That's nothing compared to some of her brilliant performances.
- There's nothing the child can't do. Why, she wanted a pair of blue
- boots for Sallie's party, so she just painted her soiled white ones
- the loveliest shade of sky-blue you ever saw, and they looked
- exactly like satin," added Jo, with an air of pride in her sister's
- accomplishments that exasperated Amy till she felt that it would be
- a relief to throw her card-case at her.
- "We read a story of yours the other day, and enjoyed it very
- much," observed the elder Miss Lamb, wishing to compliment the
- literary lady, who did not look the character just then, it must be
- confessed.
- Any mention of her "works" always had a bad effect upon Jo, who
- either grew rigid and looked offended, or changed the subject with a
- brusque remark, as now. "Sorry you could find nothing better to
- read. I write that rubbish because it sells, and ordinary people
- like it. Are you going to New York this winter?"
- As Miss Lamb had "enjoyed" the story, this speech was not exactly
- grateful or complimentary. The minute it was made Jo saw her
- mistake; but, fearing to make the matter worse, suddenly remembered
- that it was for her to make the first move toward departure, and did
- so with an abruptness that left three people with half-finished
- sentences in their mouths.
- "Amy, we must go. Good-by, dear; do come and see us; we are pining
- for a visit. I don't dare to ask you, Mr. Lamb; but if you should
- come, I don't think I shall have the heart to send you away."
- Jo said this with such a droll imitation of May Chester's gushing
- style that Amy got out of the room as rapidly as possible, feeling a
- strong desire to laugh and cry at the same time.
- "Didn't I do that well?" asked Jo, with a satisfied air, as they
- walked away.
- "Nothing could have been worse," was Amy's crushing reply. "What
- possessed you to tell those stories about my saddle, and the hats
- and boots, and all the rest of it?"
- "Why, it's funny, and amuses people. They know we are poor, so
- it's no use pretending that we have grooms, buy three or four hats a
- season, and have things as easy and fine as they do."
- "You needn't go and tell them all our little shifts, and expose
- our poverty in that perfectly unnecessary way. You haven't a bit of
- proper pride, and never will learn when to hold your tongue and when
- to speak," said Amy despairingly.
- Poor Jo looked abashed, and silently chafed the end of her nose with
- the stiff handkerchief, as if performing a penance for her
- misdemeanors.
- "How shall I behave here?" she asked, as they approached the third
- mansion.
- "Just as you please; I wash my hands of you," was Amy's short
- answer.
- "Then I'll enjoy myself. The boys are at home, and we'll have a
- comfortable time. Goodness knows I need a little change, for
- elegance has a bad effect upon my constitution," returned Jo
- gruffly, being disturbed by her failures to suit.
- An enthusiastic welcome from three big boys and several pretty
- children speedily soothed her ruffled feelings; and, leaving Amy to
- entertain the hostess and Mr. Tudor, who happened to be calling
- likewise, Jo devoted herself to the young folks, and found the
- change refreshing. She listened to college stories with deep interest,
- caressed pointers and poodles without a murmur, agreed heartily that
- "Tom Brown was a brick," regardless of the improper form of praise;
- and when one lad proposed a visit to his turtle-tank, she went with an
- alacrity which caused mamma to smile upon her, as that motherly lady
- settled the cap which was left in a ruinous condition by filial
- hugs, bearlike but affectionate, and dearer to her than the most
- faultless coiffure from the hands of an inspired Frenchwoman.
- Leaving her sister to her own devices, Amy proceeded to enjoy
- herself to her heart's content. Mr. Tudor's uncle had married an
- English lady who was third cousin to a living lord, and Amy regarded
- the whole family with great respect; for, in spite of her American
- birth and breeding, she possessed that reverence for titles which
- haunts the best of us- that unacknowledged loyalty to the early
- faith in kings which set the most democratic nation under the sun in a
- ferment at the coming of a royal yellow-haired laddie, some years ago,
- and which still has something to do with the love the young country
- bears the old, like that of a big son for an imperious little
- mother, who held him while she could, and let him go with a farewell
- scolding when he rebelled. But even the satisfaction of talking with a
- distant connection of the British nobility did not render Amy
- forgetful of time; and when the proper number of minutes had passed,
- she reluctantly tore herself from this aristocratic society, and
- looked about for Jo, fervently hoping that her incorrigible sister
- would not be found in any position which should bring disgrace upon
- the name of March.
- It might have been worse, but Amy considered it bad; for Jo sat on
- the grass, with an encampment of boys about her, and a dirty-footed
- dog reposing on the skirt of her state and festival dress, as she
- related one of Laurie's pranks to her admiring audience. One small
- child was poking turtles with Amy's cherished parasol, a second was
- eating gingerbread over Jo's best bonnet, and a third playing ball
- with her gloves. But all were enjoying themselves; and when Jo
- collected her damaged property to go, her escort accompanied her,
- begging her to come again, "it was such fun to hear about Laurie's
- larks."
- "Capital boys, aren't they? I feel quite young and brisk again after
- that," said Jo, strolling along with her hands behind her, partly from
- habit, partly to conceal the bespattered parasol.
- "Why do you always avoid Mr. Tudor?" asked Amy, wisely refraining
- from any comment upon Jo's dilapidated appearance.
- "Don't like him; he puts on airs, snubs his sisters, worries his
- father and doesn't speak respectfully of his mother. Laurie says he is
- fast, and I don't consider him a desirable acquaintance; so I let
- him alone."
- "You might treat him civilly, at least. You gave him a cool nod; and
- just now you bowed and smiled in the politest way to Tommy
- Chamberlain, whose father keeps a grocery store. If you had just
- reversed the nod and the bow, it would have been right," said Amy
- reprovingly.
- "No, it wouldn't," returned perverse Jo; "I neither like, respect,
- nor admire Tudor, though his grandfather's uncle's nephew's niece
- was third cousin to a lord. Tommy is poor and bashful and good and
- very clever; I think well of him, and like to show that I do, for he
- is a gentleman in spite of the brown-paper parcels."
- "It's no use trying to argue with you," began Amy.
- "Not the least, my dear," interrupted Jo; "so let us look amiable,
- and drop a card here, as the Kings are evidently out, for which I'm
- deeply grateful."
- The family card-case having done its duty, the girls walked on,
- and Jo uttered another thanksgiving on reaching the fifth house, and
- being told that the young ladies were engaged.
- "Now let us go home, and never mind Aunt March to-day. We can run
- down there any time, and it's really a pity to trail through the
- dust in our best bibs and tuckers, when we are tired and cross."
- "Speak for yourself, if you please. Aunt likes to have us pay her
- the compliment of coming in style, and making a formal call; it's a
- little thing to do, but it gives her pleasure, and I don't believe
- it will hurt your things half so much as letting dirty dogs and
- clumping boys spoil them. Stoop down, and let me take the crumbs off
- of your bonnet."
- "What a good girl you are, Amy!" said Jo, with a repentant glance
- from her own damaged costume to that of her sister, which was fresh
- and spotless still. "I wish it was easy for me to do little things
- to please people as it is for you. I think of them, but it takes too
- much time to do them; so I wait for a chance to confer a great
- favor, and let the small ones slip; but they tell best in the end, I
- fancy."
- Amy smiled, and was mollified at once, saying with a maternal air-
- "Women should learn to be agreeable, particularly poor ones; for
- they have no other way of repaying the kindnesses they receive. If
- you'd remember that, and practise it, you'd be better liked than I am,
- because there is more of you."
- "I'm a crotchety old thing, and always shall be, but I'm willing
- to own that you are right; only it's easier for me to risk my life for
- a person than to be pleasant to him when I don't feel like it. It's
- a great misfortune to have such strong likes and dislikes, isn't it?"
- "It's a greater not to be able to hide them. I don't mind saying
- that I don't approve of Tudor any more than you do; but I'm not called
- upon to tell him so; neither are you, and there is no use in making
- yourself disagreeable because he is."
- "But I think girls ought to show when they disapprove of young
- men; and how can they do it except by their manners? Preaching does
- not do any good, as I know to my sorrow, since I've had Teddy to
- manage; but there are many little ways in which I can influence him
- without a word, and I say we ought to do it to others if we can."
- "Teddy is a remarkable boy, and can't be taken as a sample of
- other boys," said Amy, in a tone of solemn conviction, which would
- have convulsed the "remarkable boy," if he had heard it. "If we were
- belles, or women of wealth and position, we might do something,
- perhaps; but for us to frown at one set of young gentlemen because
- we don't approve of them, and smile upon another set because we do,
- wouldn't have a particle of effect, and we should only be considered
- odd and puritanical."
- "So we are to countenance things and people which we detest,
- merely because we are not belles and millionaires, are we? That's a
- nice sort of morality."
- "I can't argue about it, I only know that it's the way of the world;
- and people who set themselves against it only get laughed at for their
- pains. I don't like reformers, and I hope you will never try to be
- one."
- "I do like them, and I shall be one if I can; for, in spite of the
- laughing, the world would never get on without them. We can't agree
- about that, for you belong to the old set, and I to the new: you
- will get on the best, but I shall have the liveliest time of it. I
- should rather enjoy the brickbats and hooting, I think."
- "Well, compose yourself now, and don't worry aunt with your new
- ideas."
- "I'll try not to, but I'm always possessed to burst out with some
- particularly blunt speech or revolutionary sentiment before her;
- it's my doom, and I can't help it."
- They found Aunt Carrol with the old lady, both absorbed in some very
- interesting subject; but they dropped it as the girls came in, with
- a conscious look which betrayed that they had been talking about their
- nieces. Jo was not in a good humor, and the perverse fit returned; but
- Amy, who had virtuously done her duty, kept her temper, and pleased
- everybody, was in a most angelic frame of mind. This amiable spirit
- was felt at once, and both the aunts "my deared" her affectionately,
- looking what they afterwards said emphatically- "That child improves
- every day."
- "Are you going to help about the fair, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol,
- as Amy sat down beside her with the confiding air elderly people
- like so well in the young.
- "Yes, aunt. Mrs. Chester asked me if I would, and I offered to
- tend a table, as I have nothing but my time to give."
- "I'm not," put in Jo decidedly. "I hate to be patronized, and the
- Chesters think it's a great favor to allow us to help with their
- highly connected fair. I wonder you consented, Amy: they only want you
- to work."
- "I am willing to work: it's for the freedmen as well as the
- Chesters, and I think it very kind of them to let me share the labor
- and the fun. Patronage does not trouble me when it is well meant."
- "Quite right and proper. I like your grateful spirit, my dear;
- it's a pleasure to help people who appreciate our efforts: some do
- not, and that is trying," observed Aunt March, looking over her
- spectacles at Jo, who sat apart, rocking herself, with a somewhat
- morose expression.
- If Jo had only known what a great happiness was wavering in the
- balance for one of them, she would have turned dovelike in a minute;
- but, unfortunately, we don't have windows in our breasts, and cannot
- see what goes on in the minds of our friends; better for us that we
- cannot as a general thing, but now and then it would be such a
- comfort, such a saving of time and temper. By her next speech, Jo
- deprived herself of several years of pleasure, and received a timely
- lesson in the art of holding her tongue.
- "I don't like favors; they oppress and make me feel like a slave.
- I'd rather do everything for myself, and be perfectly independent."
- "Ahem!" coughed Aunt Carrol softly, with a look at Aunt March.
- "I told you so," said Aunt March, with a decided nod to Aunt Carrol.
- Mercifully unconscious of what she had done, Jo sat with her nose in
- the air, and a revolutionary aspect which was anything but inviting.
- "Do you speak French, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, laying her hand on
- Amy's.
- "Pretty well, thanks to Aunt March, who lets Esther talk to me as
- often as I like," replied Amy, with a grateful look, which caused
- the old lady to smile affably.
- "How are you about languages?" asked Mrs. Carrol of Jo.
- "Don't know a word; I'm very stupid about studying anything; can't
- bear French, it's such a slippery, silly sort of language," was the
- brusque reply.
- Another look passed between the ladies, and Aunt March said to
- Amy, "You are quite strong and well, now, dear, I believe? Eyes
- don't trouble you any more, do they?"
- "Not at all, thank you, ma'am. I'm very well, and mean to do great
- things next winter, so that I may be ready for Rome, whenever that
- joyful time arrives."
- "Good girl! You deserve to go, and I'm sure you will some day," said
- Aunt March, with an approving pat on the head, as Amy picked up her
- ball for her.
-
- "Cross-patch, draw the latch,
- Sit by the fire and spin,"
-
- squalled Polly, bending down from his perch on the back of her chair
- to peep into Jo's face, with such a comical air of impertinent inquiry
- that it was impossible to help laughing.
- "Most observing bird," said the old lady.
- "Come and take a walk, my dear?" cried Polly, hopping toward the
- china-closet, with a look suggestive of lump-sugar.
- "Thank you, I will. Come, Amy"; and Jo brought the visit to an
- end, feeling more strongly than ever that calls did have a bad
- effect upon her constitution. She shook hands in a gentlemanly manner,
- but Amy kissed both the aunts, and the girls departed, leaving
- behind them the impression of shadow and sunshine; which impression
- caused Aunt March to say, as they vanished "You'd better do it,
- Mary; I'll supply the money," and Aunt Carrol to reply decidedly, "I
- certainly will, if her father and mother consent."
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- Consequences
-
- MRS. CHESTER'S fair was so very elegant and select that it was
- considered a great honor by the young ladies of the neighborhood to be
- invited to take a table, and every one was much interested in the
- matter. Amy was asked, but Jo was not, which was fortunate for all
- parties, as her elbows were decidedly akimbo at this period of her
- life, and it took a good many hard knocks to teach her how to get on
- easily. The "haughty, uninteresting creature" was let severely
- alone; but Amy's talent and taste were duly complimented by the
- offer of the art-table, and she exerted herself to prepare and
- secure appropriate and valuable contributions to it.
- Everything went on smoothly till the day before the fair opened;
- then there occurred one of the little skirmishes which it is almost
- impossible to avoid, when some five and twenty women, old and young,
- with all their private piques and prejudices, try to work together.
- May Chester was rather jealous of Amy because the latter was a
- greater favorite than herself; and, just at this time, several
- trifling circumstances occurred to increase the feeling. Amy's
- dainty pen-and-ink work entirely eclipsed May's painted vases- that
- was one thorn; then the all-conquering Tudor had danced four times
- with Amy, at a late party, and only once with May- that was thorn
- number two; but the chief grievance that rankled in her soul, and gave
- her an excuse for her unfriendly conduct, was a rumor which some
- obliging gossip had whispered to her, that the March girls had made
- fun of her at the Lambs'. All the blame of this should have fallen
- upon Jo, for her naughty imitation had been too lifelike to escape
- detection, and the frolicsome Lambs had permitted the joke to
- escape. No hint of this had reached the culprits, however, and Amy's
- dismay can be imagined, when, the very evening before the fair, as she
- was putting the last touches to her pretty table, Mrs. Chester, who,
- of course, resented the supposed ridicule of her daughter, said, in
- a bland tone, but with a cold look-
- "I find, dear, that there is some feeling among the young ladies
- about my giving this table to any one but my girls. As this is the
- most prominent, and some say the most attractive table of all, and
- they are the chief getters-up of the fair, it is thought best for them
- to take this place. I'm sorry, but I know you are too sincerely
- interested in the cause to mind a little personal disappointment,
- and you shall have another table if you like."
- Mrs. Chester had fancied beforehand that it would be easy to deliver
- this little speech; but when the time came, she found it rather
- difficult to utter it naturally, with Amy's unsuspicious eyes
- looking straight at her, full of surprise and trouble.
- Amy felt that there was something behind this, but could not guess
- what, and said quietly, feeling hurt, and showing that she did-
- "Perhaps you had rather I took no table at all?"
- "Now, my dear, don't have any ill feeling, I beg; it's merely a
- matter of expediency, you see; my girls will naturally take the
- lead, and this table is considered their proper place. I think it very
- appropriate to you, and feel very grateful for your efforts to make it
- so pretty; but we must give up our private wishes, of course, and I
- will see that you have a good place elsewhere. Wouldn't you like the
- flower-table? The little girls undertook it, but they are discouraged.
- You could make a charming thing of it, and the flower-table is
- always attractive, you know."
- "Especially to gentlemen," added May, with a look which
- enlightened Amy as to one cause of her sudden fall from favor. She
- colored angrily, but took no other notice of that girlish sarcasm, and
- answered, with unexpected amiability-
- "It shall be as you please, Mrs. Chester. I'll give up my place here
- at once, and attend to the flowers, if you like."
- "You can put your own things on your own table, if you prefer,"
- began May, feeling a little conscience-stricken, as she looked at
- the pretty racks, the painted shells, and quaint illuminations Amy had
- so carefully made and so gracefully arranged. She meant it kindly, but
- Amy mistook her meaning, and said quickly-
- "Oh, certainly, if they are in your way"; and sweeping her
- contributions into her apron, pell-mell, she walked off, feeling
- that herself and her works of art had been insulted past forgiveness.
- "Now she's mad. Oh, dear, I wish I hadn't asked you to speak,
- mamma," said May, looking disconsolately at the empty spaces on her
- table.
- "Girls' quarrels are soon over," returned her mother, feeling a
- trifle ashamed of her own part in this one, as well she might.
- The little girls hailed Amy and her treasures with delight, which
- cordial reception somewhat soothed her perturbed spirit, and she
- fell to work, determined to succeed florally, if she could not
- artistically. But everything seemed against her: it was late, and she
- was tired; every one was too busy with their own affairs to help
- her; and the little girls were only hindrances, for the dears fussed
- and chattered like so many magpies, making a great deal of confusion
- in their artless efforts to preserve the most perfect order. The
- evergreen arch wouldn't stay firm after she got it up, but wiggled and
- threatened to tumble down on her head when the hanging baskets were
- filled; her best tile got a splash of water, which left a sepia tear
- on the Cupid's cheek; she bruised her hands with hammering, and got
- cold working in a draught, which last affliction filled her with
- apprehensions for the morrow. Any girl-reader who has suffered like
- afflictions will sympathize with poor Amy, and wish her well through
- with her task.
- There was great indignation at home when she told her story that
- evening. Her mother said it was a shame, but told her she had done
- right; Beth declared she wouldn't go to the fair at all; and Jo
- demanded why she didn't take all her pretty things and leave those
- mean people to get on without her.
- "Because they are mean is no reason why I should be. I hate such
- things, and though I think I've a right to be hurt, I don't intend
- to show it. They will feel that more than angry speeches or huffy
- actions, won't they, Marmee?"
- "That's the right spirit, my dear; a kiss for a blow is always best,
- though it's not very easy to give it sometimes," said her mother, with
- the air of one who had learned the difference between preaching and
- practising.
- In spite of various very natural temptations to resent and
- retaliate, Amy adhered to her resolution all the next day, bent on
- conquering her enemy by kindness. She began well, thanks to a silent
- reminder that came to her unexpectedly, but most opportunely. As she
- arranged her table that morning, while the little girls were in an
- ante-room filling the baskets, she took up her pet production- a
- little book, the antique cover of which her father had found among his
- treasures, and in which, on leaves of vellum, she had beautifully
- illuminated different texts. As she turned the pages, rich in dainty
- devices, with very pardonable pride, her eye fell upon one verse
- that made her stop and think. Framed in a brilliant scroll-work of
- scarlet, blue, and gold, with little spirits of good-will helping
- one another up and down among the thorns and flowers, were the
- words, "Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself."
- "I ought, but I don't," thought Amy, as her eye went from the bright
- page to May's discontented face behind the big vases, that could not
- hide the vacancies her pretty work had once filled. Amy stood a
- minute, turning the leaves in her hand, reading on each some sweet
- rebuke for all heart-burnings and uncharitableness of spirit. Many
- wise and true sermons are preached us every day by unconscious
- ministers in street, school, office, or home; even a fair-table may
- become a pulpit, if it can offer the good and helpful words which
- are never out of season. Amy's conscience preached her a little sermon
- from that text, then and there; and she did what many of us do not
- always do- took the sermon to heart, and straightway put it in
- practice.
- A group of girls were standing about May's table, admiring the
- pretty things, and talking over the change of saleswomen. They dropped
- their voices, but Amy knew they were speaking of her, hearing one side
- of the story, and judging accordingly. It was not pleasant, but a
- better spirit had come over her, and presently a chance offered for
- proving it. She heard May say sorrowfully-
- "It's too bad, for there is no time to make other things, and I
- don't want to fill up with odds and ends. The table was just
- complete then: now it's spoilt."
- "I dare say she'd put them back if you asked her," suggested some
- one.
- "How could I after all the fuss?" began May, but she did not finish,
- for Amy's voice came across the hall, saying pleasantly-
- "You may have them, and welcome, without asking, if you want them. I
- was just thinking I'd offer to put them back, for they belong to
- your table rather than mine. Here they are; please take them, and
- forgive me if I was hasty in carrying them away last night."
- As she spoke, Amy returned her contribution, with a nod and a smile,
- and hurried away again, feeling that it was easier to do a friendly
- thing than it was to stay and be thanked for it.
- "Now, I call that lovely of her, don't you?" cried one girl.
- May's answer was inaudible; but another young lady, whose temper was
- evidently a little soured by making lemonade, added, with a
- disagreeable laugh, "Very lovely; for she knew she wouldn't sell
- them at her own table."
- Now, that was hard; when we make little sacrifices we like to have
- them appreciated, at least; and for a minute Amy was sorry she had
- done it, feeling that virtue was not always its own reward. But it is-
- as she presently discovered; for her spirits began to rise, and her
- table to blossom under her skillful hands; the girls were very kind,
- and that one little act seemed to have cleared the atmosphere
- amazingly.
- It was a very long day, and a hard one to Amy, as she sat behind her
- table, often quite alone, for the little girls deserted very soon: few
- cared to buy flowers in summer, and her bouquets began to droop long
- before night.
- The art-table was the most attractive in the room; there was a crowd
- about it all day long, and the tenders were constantly flying to and
- fro with important faces and rattling money-boxes. Amy often looked
- wistfully across, longing to be there, where she felt at home and
- happy, instead of in a corner with nothing to do. It might seem no
- hardship to some of us; but to a pretty, blithe young girl, it was not
- only tedious, but very trying; and the thought of being found there in
- the evening by her family, and Laurie and his friends, made it a
- real martyrdom.
- She did not go home till night, and then she looked so pale and
- quiet that they knew the day had been a hard one, though she made no
- complaint, and did not even tell what she had done. Her mother gave
- her an extra cordial cup of tea, Beth helped her dress, and made a
- charming little wreath for her hair, while Jo astonished her family by
- getting herself up with unusual care, and hinting darkly that the
- tables were about to be turned.
- "Don't do anything rude, pray, Jo. I won't have any fuss made, so
- let it all pass, and behave yourself," begged Amy, as she departed
- early, hoping to find a reinforcement of flowers to refresh her poor
- little table.
- "I merely intend to make myself entrancingly agreeable to every
- one I know, and to keep them in your corner as long as possible. Teddy
- and his boys will lend a hand, and we'll have a good time yet,"
- returned Jo, leaning over the gate to watch for Laurie. Presently
- the familiar tramp was heard in the dusk, and she ran out to meet him.
- "Is that my boy?"
- "As sure as this is my girl!" and Laurie tucked her hand under his
- arm, with the air of a man whose every wish was gratified.
- "O Teddy, such doings!" and Jo told Amy's wrongs with sisterly zeal.
- "A flock of our fellows are going to drive over by and by, and
- I'll be hanged if I don't make them buy every flower she's got, and
- camp down before her table afterward," said Laurie, espousing her
- cause with warmth.
- "The flowers are not at all nice, Amy says, and the fresh ones may
- not arrive in time. I don't wish to be unjust or suspicious, but I
- shouldn't wonder if they never came at all. When people do one mean
- thing they are very likely to do another," observed Jo, in a disgusted
- tone.
- "Didn't Hayes give you the best out of our gardens? I told him to."
- "I didn't know that; he forgot, I suppose; and, as your grandpa
- was poorly, I didn't like to worry him by asking, though I did want
- some."
- "Now, Jo, how could you think there was any need of asking! They are
- just as much yours as mine. Don't we always go halves in
- everything?" began Laurie, in the tone that always made Jo turn
- thorny.
- "Gracious, I hope not! half of some of your things wouldn't suit
- me at all. But we mustn't stand philandering here; I've got to help
- Amy, so you go and make yourself splendid; and if you'll be so very
- kind as to let Hayes take a few nice flowers up to the Hall, I'll
- bless you forever."
- "Couldn't you do it now?" asked Laurie, so suggestively that Jo shut
- the gate in his face with inhospitable haste, and called through the
- bars, "Go away, Teddy; I'm busy."
- Thanks to the conspirators, the tables were turned that night; for
- Hayes sent up a wilderness of flowers, with a lovely basket,
- arranged in his best manner, for a centre-piece; then the March family
- turned out en masse, and Jo exerted herself to some purpose, for
- people not only came, but stayed, laughing at her nonsense, admiring
- Amy's taste, and apparently enjoying themselves very much. Laurie
- and his friends gallantly threw themselves into the breach, bought
- up the bouquets, encamped before the table, and made that corner the
- liveliest spot in the room. Amy was in her element now, and, out of
- gratitude, if nothing more, was as sprightly and gracious as possible-
- coming to the conclusion, about that time, that virtue was its own
- reward, after all.
- Jo behaved herself with exemplary propriety; and when Amy was
- happily surrounded by her guard of honor, Jo circulated about the
- hall, picking up various bits of gossip, which enlightened her upon
- the subject of the Chester change of base. She reproached herself
- for her share of the ill-feeling, and resolved to exonerate Amy as
- soon as possible; she also discovered what Amy had done about the
- things in the morning, and considered her a model of magnanimity. As
- she passed the art-table, she glanced over it for her sister's things,
- but saw no signs of them. "Tucked away out of sight, I dare say,"
- thought Jo, who could forgive her own wrongs, but hotly resented any
- insult offered to her family.
- "Good evening, Miss Jo. How does Amy get on?" asked May, with a
- conciliatory air, for she wanted to show that she also could be
- generous.
- "She has sold everything she had that was worth selling, and now she
- is enjoying herself. The flower-table is always attractive, you
- know, 'especially to gentlemen.'"
- Jo couldn't resist giving that little slap, but May took it so
- meekly she regretted it a minute after, and fell to praising the great
- vases, which still remained unsold.
- "Is Amy's illumination anywhere about? I took a fancy to buy that
- for father," said Jo, very anxious to learn the fate of her sister's
- work.
- "Everything of Amy's sold long ago; I took care that the right
- people saw them, and they made a nice little sum of money for us,"
- returned May, who had overcome sundry small temptations, as well as
- Amy, that day.
- Much gratified, Jo rushed back to tell the good news; and Amy looked
- both touched and surprised by the report of May's words and manner.
- "Now, gentlemen, I want you to go and do your duty by the other
- tables as generously as you have by mine- especially the art-table,"
- she said, ordering out "Teddy's Own," as the girls called the
- college friends.
- "'Charge, Chester, charge!' is the motto for that table; but do your
- duty like men, and you'll get your money's worth of art in every sense
- of the word," said the irrepressible Jo, as the devoted phalanx
- prepared to take the field.
- "To hear is to obey, but March is fairer far than May," said
- little Parker, making a frantic effort to be both witty and tender,
- and getting promptly quenched by Laurie, who said, "Very well, my son,
- for a small boy!" and walked him off, with a paternal pat on the head.
- "Buy the vases," whispered Amy to Laurie, as a final heaping of
- coals of fire on her enemy's head.
- To May's great delight, Mr. Laurence not only bought the vases,
- but pervaded the hall with one under each arm. The other gentlemen
- speculated with equal rashness in all sorts of frail trifles, and
- wandered helplessly about afterward, burdened with wax flowers,
- painted fans, filigree portfolios, and other useful and appropriate
- purchases.
- Aunt Carrol was there, heard the story, looked pleased, and said
- something to Mrs. March in a corner, which made the latter lady beam
- with satisfaction, and watch Amy with a face full of mingled pride and
- anxiety, though she did not betray the cause of her pleasure till
- several days later.
- The fair was pronounced a success; and when May bade Amy good-night,
- she did not "gush" as usual, but gave her an affectionate kiss, and
- a look which said, "Forgive and forget." That satisfied Amy; and
- when she got home she found the vases paraded on the parlor
- chimney-piece, with a great bouquet in each. "The reward of merit
- for a magnanimous March," as Laurie announced with a flourish.
- "You've a deal more principle and generosity and nobleness of
- character than I ever gave you credit for, Amy. You've behaved
- sweetly, and I respect you with all my heart," said Jo warmly, as they
- brushed their hair together late that night.
- "Yes, we all do, and love her for being so ready to forgive. It must
- have been dreadfully hard, after working so long, and setting your
- heart on selling your own pretty things. I don't believe I could
- have done it as kindly as you did," added Beth from her pillow.
- "Why, girls, you needn't praise me so; I only did as I'd be done by.
- You laugh at me when I say I want to be a lady, but I mean a true
- gentlewoman in mind and manners, and I try to do it as far as I know
- how. I can't explain exactly, but I want to be above the little
- meannesses and follies and faults that spoil so many women. I'm far
- from it now, but I do my best, and hope in time to be what mother is."
- Amy spoke earnestly, and Jo said, with a cordial hug-
- "I understand now what you mean, and I'll never laugh at you
- again. You are getting on faster than you think, and I'll take lessons
- of you in true politeness, for you've learned the secret, I believe.
- Try away, deary; you'll get your reward some day, and no one will be
- more delighted than I shall."
- A week later Amy did get her reward, and poor Jo found it hard to be
- delighted. A letter came from Aunt Carrol, and Mrs. March's face was
- illuminated to such a degree, when she read it, that Jo and Beth,
- who were with her, demanded what the glad tidings were.
- "Aunt Carrol is going abroad next month, and wants-"
- "Me to go with her!" burst in Jo, flying out of her chair in an
- uncontrollable rapture.
- "No, dear, not you; it's Amy."
- "O mother! she's too young; it's my turn first. I've wanted it so
- long- it would do me so much good, and be so altogether splendid- I
- must go."
- "I'm afraid it's impossible, Jo. Aunt says Amy, decidedly, and it is
- not for us to dictate when she offers such a favor."
- "It's always so. Amy has all the fun and I have all the work. It
- isn't fair, oh, it isn't fair!" cried Jo passionately.
- "I'm afraid it is partly your own fault, dear. When Aunt spoke to me
- the other day, she regretted your blunt manners and too independent
- spirit; and here she writes, as if quoting something you had said-
- 'I planned at first to ask Jo;' but as "favors burden her," and she
- "hates French," I think I won't venture to invite her. Amy is more
- docile, will make a good companion for Flo, and receive gratefully any
- help the trip may give her."
- "Oh, my tongue, my abominable tongue! why can't I learn to keep it
- quiet?" groaned Jo, remembering words which had been her undoing. When
- she had heard the explanation of the quoted phrases, Mrs. March said
- sorrowfully-
- "I wish you could have gone, but there is no hope of it this time;
- so try to bear it cheerfully, and don't sadden Amy's pleasure by
- reproaches or regrets."
- "I'll try," said Jo, winking hard, as she knelt down to pick up
- the basket she had joyfully upset. "I'll take a leaf out of her
- book, and try not only to seem glad, but to be so, and not grudge
- her one minute of happiness; but it won't be easy, for it is a
- dreadful disappointment"; and poor Jo bedewed the little fat
- pincushion she held with several very bitter tears.
- "Jo, dear, I'm very selfish, but I couldn't spare you, and I'm
- glad you are not going quite yet," whispered Beth, embracing her,
- basket and all, with such a clinging touch and loving face, that Jo
- felt comforted in spite of the sharp regret that made her want to
- box her own ears, and humbly beg Aunt Carrol to burden her with this
- favor, and see how gratefully she would bear it.
- By the time Amy came in, Jo was able to take her part in the
- family jubilation; not quite as heartily as usual, perhaps, but
- without repinings at Amy's good fortune. The young lady herself
- received the news as tidings of great joy, went about in a solemn sort
- of rapture, and began to sort her colors and pack her pencils that
- evening, leaving such trifles as clothes, money, and passports to
- those less absorbed in visions of art than herself.
- "It isn't a mere pleasure trip to me, girls," she said impressively,
- as she scraped her best palette. "It will decide my career; for if I
- have any genius, I shall find it out in Rome, and will do something to
- prove it."
- "Suppose you haven't?" said Jo, sewing away, with red eyes, at the
- new collars which were to be handed over to Amy.
- "Then I shall come home and teach drawing for my living," replied
- the aspirant for fame, with philosophic composure; but she made a
- wry face at the prospect, and scratched away at her palette as if bent
- on vigorous measures before she gave up her hopes.
- "No, you won't; you hate hard work, and you'll marry some rich
- man, and come home to sit in the lap of luxury all your days," said
- Jo.
- "Your predictions sometimes come to pass, but I don't believe that
- one will. I'm sure I wish it would, for if I can't be an artist
- myself, I should like to be able to help those who are," said Amy,
- smiling, as if the part of Lady Bountiful would suit her better than
- that of a poor drawing-teacher.
- "Hum!" said Jo, with a sigh; "if you wish it you'll have it, for
- your wishes are always granted- mine never."
- "Would you like to go?" asked Amy, thoughtfully patting her nose
- with her knife.
- "Rather!"
- "Well, in a year or two I'll send for you, and we'll dig in the
- Forum for relics, and carry out all the plans we've made so many
- times."
- "Thank you; I'll remind you of your promise when that joyful day
- comes, if it ever does," returned Jo, accepting the vague but
- magnificent offer as gratefully as she could.
- There was not much time for preparation, and the house was in a
- ferment till Amy was off. Jo bore up very well till the last flutter
- of blue ribbon vanished, when she retired to her refuge, the garret,
- and cried till she couldn't cry any more. Amy likewise bore up stoutly
- till the steamer sailed; then, just as the gangway was about to be
- withdrawn, it suddenly came over her that a whole ocean was soon to
- roll between her and those who loved her best, and she clung to
- Laurie, the last lingerer, saying with a sob-
- "Oh, take care of them for me; and if anything should happen-"
- "I Will, dear, I will; and if anything happens, I'll come and
- comfort you," whispered Laurie, little dreaming that he would be
- called upon to keep his word.
- So Amy sailed away to find the old world, which is always new and
- beautiful to young eyes, while her father and friend watched her
- from the shore, fervently hoping that none but gentle fortunes would
- befall the happy-hearted girl, who waved her hand to them till they
- could see nothing but the summer sunshine dazzling on the sea.
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- Our Foreign Correspondent
-
- LONDON.
- DEAREST PEOPLE:
- Here I really sit at a front window of the Bath Hotel, Piccadilly.
- It's not a fashionable place, but uncle stopped here years ago, and
- won't go anywhere else; however, we don't mean to stay long, so it's
- no great matter. Oh, I can't begin to tell you how I enjoy it all! I
- never can, so I'll only give you bits out of my note-book, for I've
- done nothing but sketch and scribble since I started.
- I sent a line from Halifax, when I felt pretty miserable, but
- after that I got on delightfully, seldom ill, on deck all day, with
- plenty of pleasant people to amuse me. Every one was very kind to
- me, especially the officers. Don't laugh, Jo; gentlemen really are
- necessary aboard ship, to hold on to, or to wait aboard ship, to
- hold on to, or to wait upon one; and as they have nothing to do,
- it's a mercy to make them useful, otherwise they would smoke
- themselves to death, I'm afraid.
- Aunt and Flo were poorly all the way, and liked to be let alone,
- so when I had done what I could for them, I went and enjoyed myself.
- Such walks on deck, such sunsets, such splendid air and waves! I was
- almost as exciting as riding a fast horse, when we went rushing on
- so grandly. I wish Beth could have come, it would have done her so
- much good; as for Jo, she would have gone up and sat on the main-top
- jib, or whatever the high thing is called, made friends with the
- engineers, and tooted on the captain's speaking-trumpet, she'd have
- been in such a state of rapture.
- It was all heavenly, but I was glad to see the Irish coast, and
- found it very lovely, so green and sunny, with brown cabins here and
- there, ruins on some of the hills, and gentlemen's country-seats in
- the valleys, with deer feeding in the parks. It was early in the
- morning, but I didn't regret getting up to see it, for the bay was
- full of little boats, the shore so picturesque, and a rosy sky
- overhead. I never shall forget it.
- At Queenstown one of my new acquaintances left us- Mr. Lennox- and
- when I said something about the Lakes of Killarney, he sighed and
- sung, with a look at me-
-
- "Oh, have you e'er heard of Kate Kearney?
- She lives on the banks of Killarney;
- From the glance of her eye,
- Shun danger and fly,
- For fatal's the glance of Kate Kearney."
-
- Wasn't that nonsensical?
- We only stopped at Liverpool a few hours. It's a dirty, noisy place,
- and I was glad to leave it. Uncle rushed out and bought a pair of
- dog-skin gloves, some ugly, thick shoes, and an umbrella, and got
- shaved a la mutton-chop, the first thing. Then he flattered himself
- that he looked like a true Briton; but the first time he had the mud
- cleaned off his shoes, the little bootblack knew that an American
- stood in them, and said, with a grin, "There yer har, sir. I've give
- 'em the latest Yankee shine." It amused uncle immensely. Oh, I must
- tell you what that absurd Lennox did! He got his friend Ward, who came
- on with us, to order a bouquet for me, and the first thing I saw in my
- room was a lovely one, with "Robert Lennox's compliments," on the
- card. Wasn't that fun, girls? I like travelling.
- I never shall get to London if I don't hurry. The trip was like
- riding through a long picture-gallery, full of lovely landscapes.
- The farmhouses were my delight; with thatched roofs, ivy up to the
- eaves, latticed windows, and stout women with rosy children at the
- doors. The very cattle looked more tranquil than ours, as they stood
- knee-deep in clover, and the hens had a contented cluck, as if they
- never got nervous, like Yankee biddies. Such perfect color I never
- saw- the grass so green, sky so blue, grain so yellow, woods so
- dark- I was in a rapture all the way. So was Flo; and we kept bouncing
- from one side to the other, trying to see everything while we were
- whisking along at the rate of sixty miles an hour. Aunt was tired
- and went to sleep, but uncle read his guide-book and wouldn't be
- astonished at anything. This is the way we went on, Amy flying up-
- "Oh, that must he Kenilworth, that gray place among the trees!" Flo,
- darting to my window- "How sweet! We must go there some time, won't
- we, papa?" Uncle, calmly admiring his boots- "No, my dear, not
- unless you want beer; that's a brewery."
- A pause- then Flo cried out, "Bless me, there's a gallows and a
- man going up." "Where, where?" shrieks Amy, staring out at two tall
- posts with a cross-beam and some dangling chains. "A colliery,"
- remarks uncle, with a twinkle of the eye. "Here's a lovely flock of
- lambs all lying down," says Amy. "See, papa, aren't they pretty!"
- added Flo sentimentally. "Geese, young ladies," returns uncle, in a
- tone that keeps us quiet till Flo settles down to enjoy "The
- Flirtations of Capt. Cavendish," and I have the scenery all to myself.
- Of course it rained when we got to London, and there was nothing
- to be seen but fog and umbrellas. We rested, unpacked, and shopped a
- little between the showers. Aunt Mary got me some new things, for I
- came off in such a hurry I wasn't half ready. A white hat and blue
- feather, a muslin dress to match, and the loveliest mantle you ever
- saw. Shopping in Regent Street is perfectly splendid; things seem so
- cheap- nice ribbons only sixpence a yard. I laid in a stock, but shall
- get my gloves in Paris. Doesn't that sound sort of elegant and rich?
- Flo and I, for the fun of it, ordered a hansom cab, while aunt and
- uncle were out, and went for a drive, though we learned afterward that
- it wasn't the thing for young ladies to ride in them alone. It was
- so droll! for when we were shut in by the wooden apron, the man
- drove so fast that Flo was frightened, and told me to stop him. But he
- was up outside behind somewhere, and I couldn't get at him. He
- didn't hear me call, nor see me flap my parasol in front, and there we
- were, quite helpless, rattling away, and whirling around corners at
- a break-neck pace. At last, in my despair, I saw a little door in
- the roof, and on poking it open, a red eye appeared, and a beery voice
- said-
- "Now then, mum?"
- I gave my order as soberly as I could, and slamming down the door,
- with an, "Aye, aye, mum," the man made his horse walk, as if going
- to a funeral. I poked again, and said, "A little faster"; then off
- he went, helter-skelter, as before, and we resigned ourselves to our
- fate.
- To-day was fair, and we went to Hyde Park, close by for we are
- more aristocratic than we look. The Duke of Devonshire lives near. I
- often see his footmen lounging at the back gate; and the Duke of
- Wellington's house is not far off. Such sights as I saw, my dear! It
- was as good as Punch, for there were fat dowagers rolling about in
- their red and yellow coaches, with gorgeous Jeameses in silk stockings
- and velvet coats, up behind, and powdered coachmen in front. Smart
- maids, with the rosiest children I ever saw; handsome girls, looking
- half asleep; dandies, in queer English hats and lavender kids,
- lounging about, and tall soldiers, in short red jackets and muffin
- caps stuck on one side, looking so funny I longed to sketch them.
- Rotten Row means "Route de Roi," or the king's way; but now it's
- more like a riding-school than anything else. The horses are splendid,
- and the men, especially the grooms, ride well; but the women are
- stiff, and bounce, which isn't according to our rules. I longed to
- show them a tearing American gallop, for they trotted solemnly up
- and down, in their scant habits and high hats, looking like the
- women in a toy Noah's Ark. Every one rides- old men, stout ladies,
- little children- and the young folks do a deal of flirting here; I saw
- a pair exchange rosebuds, for it's the thing to wear in the
- button-hole, and I thought it rather a nice little idea.
- In the p.m. to Westminster Abbey; but don't expect me to describe
- it, that's impossible- so I'll only say it was sublime! This evening
- we are going to see Fechter, which will be an appropriate end to the
- happiest day of my life.
-
- MIDNIGHT.
-
- It's very late, but I can't let my letter go in the morning
- without telling you what happened last evening. Who do you think
- came in, as we were at tea? Laurie's English friends, Fred and Frank
- Vaughn! I was so surprised, for I shouldn't have known them but for
- the cards. Both are tall fellows, with whiskers; Fred handsome in
- the English style, and Frank much better, for he only limps
- slightly, and uses no crutches. They had heard from Laurie where we
- were to be, and came to ask us to their house; but uncle won't go,
- so we shall return the call, and see them as we can. They went to
- the theatre with us, and we did have such a good time, for Frank
- devoted himself to Flo, and Fred and I talked over past, present,
- and future fun as if we had known each other all our days. Tell Beth
- Frank asked for her, and was sorry to hear of her ill health. Fred
- laughed when I spoke of Jo, and sent his "respectful compliments to
- the big hat." Neither of them had forgotten Camp Laurence, or the
- fun we had there. What ages ago it seems, doesn't it?
- Aunt is tapping on the wall for the third time, so I must stop. I
- really feel like a dissipated London fine lady, writing here so
- late, with my room full of pretty things, and my head a jumble of
- parks, theatres, new gowns, and gallant creatures who say "Ah!" and
- twirl their blond mustaches with the true English lordliness. I long
- to see you all, and in spite of my nonsense am, as ever, your loving
- AMY.
-
- PARIS.
- DEAR GIRLS:
- In my last I told you about our London visit- how kind the Vaughns
- were, and what pleasant parties they made for us. I enjoyed the
- trips to Hampton Court and the Kensington Museum more than anything
- else- for at Hampton I saw Raphael's cartoons, and, at the Museum,
- rooms full of pictures by Turner, Lawrence, Reynolds, Hogarth, and the
- other great creatures. The day in Richmond Park was charming, for we
- had a regular English picnic, and I had more splendid oaks and
- groups of deer than I could copy; also heard a nightingale, and saw
- larks go up. We "did" London to our hearts' content, thanks to Fred
- and Frank, and were sorry to go away; for, though English people are
- slow to take you in, when they once make up their minds to do it
- they cannot be outdone in hospitality, I think. The Vaughns hope to
- meet us in Rome next winter, and I shall be dreadfully disappointed if
- they don't, for Grace and I are great friends, and the boys very
- nice fellows- especially Fred.
- Well, we were hardly settled here, when he turned up again, saying
- he had come for a holiday, and was going to Switzerland. Aunt looked
- sober at first, but he was so cool about it she couldn't say a word;
- and now we get on nicely, and are very glad he came, for he speaks
- French like a native, and I don't know what we should do without
- him. Uncle doesn't know ten words, and insists on talking English very
- loud, as if that would make people understand him. Aunt's
- pronunciation is old-fashioned, and Flo and I, though we flattered
- ourselves that we knew a good deal, find we don't, and are very
- grateful to have Fred do the "parley vooing," as uncle calls it.
- Such delightful times as we are having! sight-seeing from morning
- till night, stopping for nice lunches in the gay cafes, and meeting
- with all sorts of droll adventures. Rainy days I spend in the
- Louvre, revelling in pictures. Jo would turn up her naughty nose at
- some of the finest, because she has no soul for art; but I have, and
- I'm cultivating eye and taste as fast as I can. She would like the
- relics of great people better, for I've seen her Napoleon's cocked hat
- and gray coat, his baby's cradle and his old toothbrush; also Marie
- Antoinette's little shoe, the ring of Saint Denis, Charlemagne's
- sword, and many other interesting things. I'll talk for hours about
- them when I come, but haven't time to write.
- The Palais Royal is a heavenly place- so full of bijouterie and
- lovely things that I'm nearly distracted because I can't buy them.
- Fred wanted to get me some, but of course I didn't allow it. Then
- the Bois and the Champs Elysees are tres magnifique. I've seen the
- imperial family several times- the emperor an ugly, hard-looking
- man, the empress pale and pretty, but dressed in bad taste, I thought-
- purple dress, green hat, and yellow gloves. Little Nap. is a
- handsome boy, who sits chatting to his tutor, and kisses his hand to
- the people as he passes in his four-horse barouche, with postilions in
- red satin jackets, and a mounted guard before and behind.
- We often walk in the Tuileries Gardens, for they are lovely,
- though the antique Luxembourg Gardens suit me better. Pere la Chaise
- is very curious, for many of the tombs are like small rooms, and,
- looking in, one sees a table, with image, or pictures of the dead, and
- chairs for the mourners to sit in when they come to lament. That is so
- Frenchy.
- Our rooms are on the Rue de Rivoli, and, sitting in the balcony,
- we look up and down the long, brilliant street. It is so pleasant that
- we spend our evenings talking there, when too tired with our day's
- work to go out. Fred is very entertaining, and is altogether the
- most agreeable young man I ever knew- except Laurie, whose manners are
- more charming. I wish Fred was dark, for I don't fancy light men;
- however, the Vaughns are very rich, and come of an excellent family,
- so I won't find fault with their yellow hair, as my own is yellower.
- Next week we are off to Germany and Switzerland; and, as we shall
- travel fast, I shall only be able to give you hasty letters. I keep my
- diary, and try to "remember correctly and describe clearly all that
- I see and admire," as father advised. It is good practice for me, and,
- with my sketchbook, will give you a better idea of my tour than
- these scribbles.
- Adieu; I embrace you tenderly.
- VOTRE AMIE.
-
- HEIDELBERG.
- MY DEAR MAMMA:
- Having a quiet hour before we leave for Berne, I'll try to tell
- you what has happened, for some of it is very important, as you will
- see.
- The sail up the Rhine was perfect, and I just sat and enjoyed it
- with all my might. Get father's old guide-books, and read about it;
- I haven't words beautiful enough to describe it. At Coblentz we had
- a lovely time, for some students from Bonn, with whom Fred got
- acquainted on the boat, gave us a serenade. It was a moonlight
- night, and, about one o'clock, Flo and I were waked by the most
- delicious music under our windows. We flew up, and hid behind the
- curtains; but sly peeps showed us Fred and the students singing away
- down below. It was the most romantic thing I ever saw- the river,
- the bridge of boats, the great fortress opposite, moonlight,
- everywhere, and music fit to melt a heart of stone.
- When they were done we threw down some flowers, and saw them
- scramble for them, kiss their hands to the invisible ladies, and go
- laughing away- to smoke and drink beer, I suppose. Next morning Fred
- showed me one of the crumpled flowers in his vest-pocket, and looked
- very sentimental. I laughed at him, and said I didn't throw it, but
- Flo, which seemed to disgust him, for he tossed it out of the
- window, and turned sensible again. I'm afraid I'm going to have
- trouble with that boy, it begins to look like it.
- The baths at Nassau were very gay, so was Baden-Baden, where Fred
- lost some money, and I scolded him. He needs some one to look after
- him when Frank is not with him. Kate said once she hoped he'd marry
- soon, and I quite agree with her that it would be well for him.
- Frankfort was delightful; I saw Goethe's house, Schiller's statue, and
- Dannecker's famous "Ariadne." It was very lovely, but I should have
- enjoyed it more if I had known the story better. I didn't like to ask,
- as every one knew it or pretended they did. I wish Jo would tell me
- all about it; I ought to have read more, for I find I don't know
- anything, and it mortifies me.
- Now comes the serious part- for it happened here, and Fred is just
- gone. He has been so kind and jolly that we all got quite fond of him;
- I never thought of anything but a travelling friendship, till the
- serenade night. Since then I've begun to feel that the moonlight walk,
- balcony talks, and daily adventures were something more to him than
- fun. I haven't flirted, mother, truly, but remember what you said to
- me, and have done my very best. I can't help it if people like me; I
- don't try to make them, and it worries me if I don't care for them,
- though Jo says I haven't got any heart. Now I know mother will shake
- her head, and the girls say, "Oh, the mercenary little wretch!" but
- I've made up my mind, and, if Fred asks me, I shall accept him, though
- I'm not madly in love. I like him, and we get on comfortably together.
- He is handsome, young, clever enough, and very rich- ever so much
- richer than the Laurences. I don't think his family would object,
- and I should be very happy, for they are all kind, well-bred, generous
- people, and they like me. Fred, as the eldest twin, will have the
- estate, I suppose, and such a splendid one as it is! A city house in a
- fashionable street, not so showy as our big houses, but twice as
- comfortable, and full of solid luxury, such as English people
- believe in. I like it, for it's genuine. I've seen the plate, the
- family jewels, the old servants, and pictures of the country place,
- with its park, great house, lovely grounds, and fine horses. Oh, it
- would be all I should ask! and I'd rather have it than any title
- such as girls snap up so readily, and find nothing behind. I may be
- mercenary, but I hate poverty, and don't mean to bear it a minute
- longer than I can help. One of us must marry well; Meg didn't, Jo
- won't, Beth can't yet, so I shall, and make everything cosy all
- around. I wouldn't marry a man I hated or despised. You may be sure of
- that; and, though Fred is not my model hero, he does very well, and,
- in time, I should get fond enough of him if he was very fond of me,
- and let me do just as I liked. So I've been turning the matter over in
- my mind the last week, for it was impossible to help seeing that
- Fred liked me. He said nothing, but little things showed it; he
- never goes with Flo, always gets on my side of the carriage, table, or
- promenade, looks sentimental when we are alone, and frowns at any
- one else who ventures to speak to me. Yesterday, at dinner, when an
- Austrian officer stared at us, and then said something to his
- friend- a rakish-looking baron- about "ein wunderschones Blondchen,"
- Fred looked as fierce as a lion, and cut his meat so savagely, it
- nearly flew off his plate. He isn't one of the cool, stiff Englishmen,
- but is rather peppery, for he has Scotch blood in him, as one might
- guess from his bonnie blue eyes.
- Well, last evening we went up to the castle about sunset- at least
- all of us but Fred, who was to meet us there, after going to the Poste
- Restante for letters. We had a charming time poking about the ruins,
- the vaults where the monster tun is, and the beautiful gardens made by
- the elector, long ago, for his English wife. I liked the great terrace
- best, for the view was divine; so, while the rest went to see the
- rooms inside, I sat there trying to sketch the gray stone lion's
- head on the wall, with scarlet woodbine sprays hanging round it. I
- felt as if I'd got into a romance, sitting there, watching the
- Neckar rolling through the valley, listening to the music of the
- Austrian hand below, and waiting for my lover, like a real
- story-book girl. I had a feeling that something was going to happen,
- and I was ready for it. I didn't feel blushy or quakey, but quite
- cool, and only a little excited.
- By and by I heard Fred's voice, and then he came hurrying through
- the great arch to find me. He looked so troubled that I forgot all
- about myself, and asked what the matter was. He said he'd just got a
- letter begging him to come home, for Frank was very ill; so he was
- going at once, in the night train, and only had time to say good-by. I
- was very sorry for him, and disappointed for myself, but only for a
- minute, because he said, as he shook hands- and said it in a way
- that I could not mistake- "I shall soon come back; you won't forget
- me, Amy?"
- I didn't promise him anything, but I looked at him, and he seemed
- satisfied, and there was no time for anything but messages and
- good-byes, for he was off in an hour, and we all miss him very much. I
- knew he wanted to speak, but I think, from something he once hinted,
- that he had promised his father not to do anything of the sort yet
- awhile, for he is a rash boy, and the old gentleman dreads a foreign
- daughter-in-law. We shall soon meet in Rome; and then, if I don't
- change my mind, I'll say "Yes, thank you," when he says "Will you,
- please?"
- Of course this is all very private, but I wish you to know what
- was going on. Don't be anxious about me; remember I am your "prudent
- Amy," and be sure I will do nothing rashly. Send me as much advice
- as you like; I'll use it if I can. I wish I could see you for a good
- talk, Marmee. Love and trust me.
- Ever your AMY.
- 32
- Tender Troubles
-
- "JO, I'm anxious about Beth."
- "Why, mother, she has seemed unusually well since the babies came."
- "It's not her health that troubles me now; it's her spirits. I'm
- sure there is something on her mind, and I want you to discover what
- it is."
- "What makes you think so, mother?"
- "She sits alone a good deal, and doesn't talk to her father as
- much as she used. I found her crying over the babies the other day.
- When she sings, the songs are always sad ones, and now and then I
- see a look in her face that I don't understand. This isn't like
- Beth, and it worries me."
- "Have you asked her about it?"
- "I have tried once or twice; but she either evaded my questions,
- or looked so distressed that I stopped. I never force my children's
- confidence, and I seldom have to wait for it long."
- Mrs. March glanced at Jo as she spoke, but the face opposite
- seemed quite unconscious of any secret disquietude but Beth's; and,
- after sewing thoughtfully for a minute, Jo said-
- "I think she is growing up, and so begins to dream dreams, and
- have hopes and fears and fidgets, without knowing why, or being able
- to explain them. Why, mother, Beth's eighteen, but we don't realize
- it, and treat her like a child, forgetting she's a woman."
- "So she is. Dear heart, how fast you do grow up," returned her
- mother, with a sigh and a smile.
- "Can't be helped, Marmee, so you must resign yourself to all sorts
- of worries, and let your birds hop out of the nest, one by one. I
- promise never to hop very far, if that is any comfort to you."
- "It is a great comfort, Jo; I always feel strong when you are at
- home, now Meg is gone. Beth is too feeble and Amy too young to
- depend upon; but when the tug comes, you are always ready."
- "Why, you know I don't mind hard jobs much, and there must always be
- one scrub in a family. Amy is splendid in fine works, and I'm not; but
- I feel in my element when all the carpets are to be taken up, or
- half the family fall sick at once. Amy is distinguishing herself
- abroad; but if anything is amiss at home, I'm your man."
- "I leave Beth to your hands, then, for she will open her tender
- little heart to her Jo sooner than to any one else. Be very kind,
- and don't let her think any one watches or talks about her. If she
- only would get quite strong and cheerful again, I shouldn't have a
- wish in the world."
- "Happy woman! I've got heaps."
- "My dear, what are they?"
- "I'll settle Bethy's troubles, and then I'll tell you mine. They are
- not very wearing, so they'll keep"; and Jo stitched away, with a
- wise nod which set her mother's heart at rest about her, for the
- present at least.
- While apparently absorbed in her own affairs, Jo watched Beth;
- and, after many conflicting conjectures, finally settled upon one
- which seemed to explain the change in her. A slight incident gave Jo
- the clue to the mystery, she thought, and lively fancy, loving heart
- did the rest. She was affecting to write busily one Saturday
- afternoon, when she and Beth were alone together; yet as she
- scribbled, she kept her eye on her sister, who seemed unusually quiet.
- Sitting at the window, Beth's work often dropped into her lap, and she
- leaned her head upon her hand, in a dejected attitude, while her
- eyes rested on the dull, autumnal landscape. Suddenly some one
- passed below, whistling like an operatic blackbird, and a voice called
- out-
- "All serene! Coming in to-night."
- Beth started, leaned forward, smiled and nodded, watched the
- passer-by till his quick tramp died away, then said softly, as if to
- herself-
- "How strong and well and happy that dear boy looks."
- "Hum!" said Jo, still intent upon her sister's face; for the
- bright color faded as quickly as it came, the smile vanished, and
- presently a tear lay shining on the window-ledge. Beth whisked it off,
- and glanced apprehensively at Jo; but she was scratching away at a
- tremendous rate, apparently engrossed in "Olympia's Oath." The instant
- Beth turned, Jo began her watch again, saw Beth's hand go quietly to
- her eyes more than once, and, in her half-averted face, read a
- tender sorrow that made her own eyes fill. Fearing to betray
- herself, she slipped away, murmuring something about needing more
- paper.
- "Mercy on me, Beth loves Laurie!" she said, sitting down in her
- own room, pale with the shock of the discovery which she believed
- she had just made. "I never dreamt of such a thing. What will mother
- say? I wonder if he-" there Jo stopped, and turned scarlet with a
- sudden thought. "If he shouldn't love back again, how dreadful it
- would be. He must; I'll make him!" and she shook her head
- threateningly at the picture of the mischievous-looking boy laughing
- at her from the wall. "Oh dear, we are growing up with a vengeance.
- Here's Meg married and a mamma, Amy flourishing away at Paris, and
- Beth in love. I'm the only one that has sense enough to keep out of
- mischief." Jo thought intently for a minute, with her eyes fixed on
- the picture; then she smoothed out her wrinkled forehead, and said,
- with a decided nod at the face opposite, "No, thank you, sir; you're
- very charming, but you've no more stability than a weather-cock; so
- you needn't write touching notes, and smile in that insinuating way,
- for it won't do a bit of good, and I won't have it."
- Then she sighed, and fell into a reverie, from which she did not
- wake till the early twilight sent her down to take new observations,
- which only confirmed her suspicion. Though Laurie flirted with Amy and
- joked with Jo, his manner to Beth had always been peculiarly kind
- and gentle, but so was everybody's; therefore, no one thought of
- imagining that he cared more for her than for the others. Indeed, a
- general impression had prevailed in the family, of late, that "our
- boy" was getting fonder than ever of Jo, who, however, wouldn't hear a
- word upon the subject, and scolded violently if any one dared to
- suggest it. If they had known the various tender passages of the
- past year, or rather attempts at tender passages which had been nipped
- in the bud, they would have had the immense satisfaction of saying, "I
- told you so." But Jo hated "philandering," and wouldn't allow it,
- always having a joke or a smile ready at the least sign of impending
- danger.
- When Laurie first went to college, he fell in love about once a
- month; but these small flames were as brief as ardent, did no
- damage, and much amused Jo, who took great interest in the
- alternations of hope, despair, and resignation, which were confided to
- her in their weekly conferences. But there came a time when Laurie
- ceased to worship at many shrines, hinted darkly at one
- all-absorbing passion, and indulged occasionally in Byronic fits of
- gloom. Then he avoided the tender subject altogether, wrote
- philosophical notes to Jo, turned studious, and gave out that he was
- going to "dig," intending to graduate in a blaze of glory. This suited
- the young lady better than twilight confidences, tender pressures of
- the hand, and eloquent glances of the eye; for with Jo, brain
- developed earlier than heart, and she preferred imaginary heroes to
- real ones, because, when tired of them, the former could be shut up in
- the tin-kitchen till called for, and the latter were less manageable.
- Things were in this state when the grand discovery was made, and
- Jo watched Laurie that night as she had never done before. If she
- had not got the new idea into her head, she would have seen nothing
- unusual in the fact that Beth was very quiet, and Laurie very kind
- to her. But having given the rein to her lively fancy, it galloped
- away with her at a great pace; and common sense, being rather weakened
- by a long course of romance writing, did not come to the rescue. As
- usual, Beth lay on the sofa, and Laurie sat in a low chair close by,
- amusing her with all sorts of gossip; for she depended on her weekly
- "spin," and he never disappointed her. But that evening, Jo fancied
- that Beth's eyes rested on the lively, dark face beside her with
- peculiar pleasure, and that she listened with intense interest to an
- account of some exciting cricket-match, though the phrases, "caught
- off a tice," "stumped off his ground," and "the leg hit for three,"
- were as intelligible to her as Sanscrit. She also fancied, having
- set her heart upon seeing it, that she saw a certain increase of
- gentleness in Laurie's manner, that he dropped his voice now and then,
- laughed less than usual, was a little absent-minded, and settled the
- afghan over Beth's feet with an assiduity that was really almost
- tender.
- "Who knows? stranger things have happened," thought Jo, as she
- fussed about the room. "She will make quite an angel of him, and he
- will make life delightfully easy and pleasant for the dear, if they
- only love each other. I don't see how he can help it; and I do believe
- he would if the rest of us were out of the way."
- As every one was out of the way but herself, Jo began to feel that
- she ought to dispose of herself with all speed. But where should she
- go? and burning to lay herself upon the shrine of sisterly devotion,
- she sat down to settle that point.
- Now, the old sofa was a regular patriarch of a sofa- long, broad,
- well-cushioned, and low; a trifle shabby, as well it might be, for the
- girls had slept and sprawled on it as babies, fished over the back,
- rode on the arms, and had menageries under it as children, and
- rested tired heads, dreamed dreams, and listened to tender talk on
- it as young women. They all loved it, for it was a family refuge,
- and one corner had always been Jo's favorite lounging-place. Among the
- many pillows that adorned the venerable couch was one, hard, round,
- covered with prickly horsehair, and furnished with a knobby button
- at each end; this repulsive pillow was her especial property, being
- used as a weapon of defence, a barricade, or a stern preventive of too
- much slumber.
- Laurie knew this pillow well, and had cause to regard it with deep
- aversion, having been unmercifully pummelled with it in former days
- when romping was allowed, and now frequently debarred by it from
- taking the seat he most coveted, next to Jo in the sofa corner. If
- "the sausage" as they called it, stood on end, it was a sign that he
- might approach and repose; but if it lay flat across the sofa, woe
- to the man, woman, or child who dared disturb it! That evening Jo
- forgot to barricade her corner, and had not been in her seat five
- minutes, before a massive form appeared beside her, and, with both
- arms spread over the sofa-back, both long legs stretched out before
- him, Laurie exclaimed, with a sigh of satisfaction-
- "Now, this is filling at the price."
- "No slang," snapped Jo, slamming down the pillow. But it was too
- late, there was no room for it; and, coasting onto the floor, it
- disappeared in a most mysterious manner.
- "Come, Jo, don't be thorny. After studying himself to a skeleton all
- the week, a fellow deserves petting, and ought to get it."
- "Beth will pet you; I'm busy."
- "No, she's not to be bothered with me; but you like that sort of
- thing, unless you suddenly lost your taste for it. Have you? Do you
- hate your boy, and want to fire pillows at him?"
- Anything more wheedlesome than that touching appeal was seldom
- heard, but Jo quenched "her boy" by turning on him with the stern
- query, "How many bouquets have you sent Miss Randal this week?"
- "Not one, upon my word. She's engaged. Now then."
- "I'm glad of it; that's one of your foolish extravagances- sending
- flowers and things to girls for whom you don't care two pins,"
- continued Jo reprovingly.
- "Sensible girls, for whom I do care whole papers of pins, won't
- let me send them 'flowers and things,' so what can I do? My feelings
- must have a went."
- "Mother doesn't approve of flirting, even in fun; and you do flirt
- desperately, Teddy."
- "I'd give anything if I could answer, 'So do you.' As I can't,
- I'll merely say that I don't see any harm in that pleasant little
- game, if all parties understand that it's only play."
- "Well, it does look pleasant, but I can't learn how it's done,
- I've tried, because one feels awkward in company, not to do as
- everybody else is doing; but I don't seem to get on," said Jo,
- forgetting to play Mentor.
- "Take lessons of Amy; she has a regular talent for it."
- "Yes, she does it very prettily, and never seems to go too far. I
- suppose it's natural to some people to please without trying, and
- others to always say and do the wrong thing in the wrong place."
- "I'm glad you can't flirt; it's really refreshing to see a sensible,
- straight-forward girl, who can be jolly and kind without making a fool
- of herself Between ourselves, Jo, some of the girls I know really do
- go on at such a rate I'm ashamed of them. They don't mean any harm,
- I'm sure; but if they knew how we fellows talked about them afterward,
- they'd mend their ways, I fancy."
- "They do the same; and, as their tongues are the sharpest, you
- fellows get the worst of it, for you are as silly as they, every
- bit. If you behaved properly, they would; but, knowing you like
- their nonsense, they kept it up, and then you blame them."
- "Much you know about it, ma'am," said Laurie, in a superior tone.
- "We don't like romps and flirts, though we may act as if we did
- sometimes. The pretty, modest girls are never talked about, except
- respectfully, among gentlemen. Bless your innocent soul! If you
- could be in my place for a month you'd see things that would
- astonish you a trifle. Upon my word, when I see one of those
- harum-scarum girls, I always want to say with our friend Cock Robin-
-
- "'Out upon you, fie upon you,
- Bold-faced jig!'"
-
- It was impossible to help laughing at the funny conflict between
- Laurie's chivalrous reluctance to speak ill of womankind, and his very
- natural dislike of the unfeminine folly of which fashionable society
- showed him many samples. Jo knew that "young Laurence" was regarded as
- a most eligible parti by worldly mammas, was much smiled upon by their
- daughters, and flattered enough by ladies of all ages to make a
- coxcomb of him; so she watched him rather jealously, fearing he
- would be spoilt, and rejoiced more than she confessed to find that
- he still believed in modest girls. Returning suddenly to her
- admonitory tone, she said, dropping her voice, "If you must have a
- 'went,' Teddy, go and devote yourself to one of the 'pretty, modest
- girls' whom you do respect, and not waste your time with the silly
- ones."
- "You really advise it?" and Laurie looked at her with an odd mixture
- of anxiety and merriment in his face.
- "Yes, I do; but you'd better wait till you are through college, on
- the whole, and be fitting yourself for the place meantime. You're
- not half good enough for- well, whoever the modest girl may be," and
- Jo looked a little queer likewise, for a name had almost escaped her.
- "That I'm not!" acquiesced Laurie, with an expression of humility
- quite new to him, as he dropped his eyes, and absently wound Jo's
- apron-tassel round his finger.
- "Mercy on us, this will never do," thought Jo; adding aloud, "Go and
- sing to me. I'm dying for some music, and always like yours."
- "I'd rather stay here, thank you."
- "Well, you can't; there isn't room. Go and make yourself useful,
- since you are too big to be ornamental. I thought you hated to be tied
- to a woman's apron-string?" retorted Jo, quoting certain rebellious
- words of his own.
- "Ah, that depends on who wears the apron!" and Laurie gave an
- audacious tweak at the tassel.
- "Are you going?" demanded Jo, diving for the Pillow.
- He fled at once, and the minute it was well "Up with the bonnets
- of bonnie Dundee," she slipped away, to return no more till the
- young gentleman had departed in high dudgeon.
- Jo lay long awake that night, and was just dropping off when the
- sound of a stifled sob made her fly to Beth's bedside, with the
- anxious inquiry, "Why is it, dear?"
- "I thought you were asleep," sobbed Beth.
- "Is it the old pain, my precious?"
- "No; it's a new one; but I can bear it," and Beth tried to check her
- tears.
- "Tell me all about it, and let me cure it as I often did the other."
- "You can't; there is no cure." There Beth's voice gave away, and,
- clinging to her sister, she cried so despairingly that Jo was
- frightened.
- "Where is it? Shall I call mother?"
- Beth did not answer the first question; but in the dark one hand
- went involuntarily to her heart, as if the pain were there; with the
- other she held Jo fast, whispering eagerly, "No, no, don't call her,
- don't tell her. I shall be better soon. Lie down here and 'poor' my
- head. I'll be quiet, and go to sleep; indeed I will."
- Jo obeyed; but as her hand went softly to and fro across Beth's
- hot forehead and wet eyelids, her heart was very full, and she
- longed to speak. But young as she was, Jo had learned that hearts,
- like flowers, cannot be rudely handled, but must open naturally; so,
- though she believed she knew the cause of Beth's new pain, she only
- said, in her tenderest tone, "Does anything trouble you, deary?"
- "Yes, Jo," after a long pause.
- "Wouldn't it comfort you to tell me what it is?"
- "Not now, not yet."
- "Then I won't ask; but remember, Bethy, that mother and Jo are
- always glad to hear and help you, if they can."
- "I know it. I'll tell you by and by."
- "Is the pain better now?"
- "Oh, yes, much better; you are so comfortable, Jo!"
- "Go to sleep, dear; I'll stay with you."
- So cheek to cheek they fell asleep, and on the morrow Beth seemed
- quite herself again; for at eighteen, neither heads nor hearts ache
- long, and a loving word can medicine most ills.
- But Jo had made up her mind, and, after pondering over a project for
- some days, she confided it to her mother.
- "You asked me the other day what my wishes were. I'll tell you one
- of them, Marmee," she began, as they sat alone together. "I want to go
- away somewhere this winter for a change."
- "Why, Jo?" and her mother looked up quickly, as if the words
- suggested a double meaning.
- With her eyes on her work, Jo answered soberly, "I want something
- new; I feel restless, and anxious to be seeing, doing, and learning
- more than I am. I brood too much over my own small affairs, and need
- stirring up, so, as I can be spared this winter, I'd like to hop a
- little way, and try my wings."
- "Where will you hop?"
- "To New York. I had a bright idea yesterday, and this is it. You
- know Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for some respectable young person to
- teach her children and sew. It's rather hard to find just the thing,
- but I think I should suit if I tried."
- "My dear, go out to service in that great boarding-house!" and
- Mrs. March looked surprised, but not displeased.
- "It's not exactly going out to service; for Mrs. Kirke is your
- friend- the kindest soul that ever lived- and would make things
- pleasant for me, I know. Her family is separate from the rest, and
- no one knows me there. I don't care if they do; it's honest work,
- and I'm not ashamed of it."
- "Nor I; but your writing?"
- "All the better for the change. I shall see and hear new things, get
- new ideas, and, even if I haven't much time there, I shall bring
- home quantities of material for my rubbish."
- "I have no doubt of it; but are these your only reasons for this
- sudden fancy?"
- "No, mother."
- "May I know the others?"
- Jo looked up and Jo looked down, then said slowly, with sudden color
- in her cheeks, "It may be vain and wrong to say it, but- I'm afraid-
- Laurie is getting too fond of me."
- "Then you don't care for him in the way it is evident he begins to
- care for you?" and Mrs. March looked anxious as she put the question.
- "Mercy no! I love the dear boy, as I always have, and am immensely
- proud of him; but as for anything more, it's out of the question."
- "I'm glad of that, Jo."
- "Why, please?"
- "Because, dear, I don't think you suited to one another. As
- friends you are very happy, and your frequent quarrels soon blow over;
- but I fear you would both rebel if you were mated for life. You are
- too much alike. and too fond of freedom, not to mention hot tempers
- and strong wills, to get on happily together, in a relation which
- needs infinite patience and forbearance, as well as love."
- "That's just the feeling I had, though I couldn't express it. I'm
- glad you think he is only beginning to care for me. It would trouble
- me sadly to make him unhappy; for I couldn't fall in love with the
- dear old fellow merely out of gratitude, could I?"
- "You are sure of his feeling for you?"
- The color deepened in Jo's cheeks, as she answered, with the look of
- mingled pleasure, pride, and pain which young girls wear when speaking
- of first lovers-
- "I'm afraid it is so, mother; he hasn't said anything, but he
- looks a great deal. I think I had better go away before it comes to
- anything."
- "I agree with you, and if it can be managed you shall go."
- Jo looked relieved, and, after a pause, said, smiling, "How Mrs.
- Moffat would wonder at your want of management, if she knew; and how
- she will rejoice that Annie still may hope."
- "Ah, Jo, mothers may differ in their management, but the hope is the
- same in all- the desire to see their children happy. Meg is so, and
- I am content with her success. You I leave to enjoy your liberty
- till you tire of it; for only then will you find that there is
- something sweeter. Amy is my chief care now, but her good sense will
- help her. For Beth, I indulge no hopes except that she may be well. By
- the way, she seems brighter this last day or two. Have you spoken to
- her?"
- "Yes; she owned she had a trouble, and promised to tell me by and
- by. I said no more, for I think I know it"; and Jo told her little
- story.
- Mrs. March shook her head, and did not take so romantic a view of
- the case, but looked grave, and repeated her opinion that, for
- Laurie's sake, Jo should go away for a time.
- "Let us say nothing about it to him till the plan is settled; then
- I'll run away before he can collect his wits and be tragical. Beth
- must think I'm going to please myself, as I am, for I can't talk about
- Laurie to her; but she can pet and comfort him after I'm gone, and
- so cure him of this romantic notion. He's been through so many
- little trials of the sort, he's used to it, and will soon get over his
- love-lornity."
- Jo spoke hopefully, but could not rid herself of the foreboding fear
- that this "little trial" would be harder than the others, and that
- Laurie would not get over his "love-lornity" as easily as heretofore.
- The plan was talked over in a family council, and agreed upon; for
- Mrs. Kirke gladly accepted Jo, and promised to make a pleasant home
- for her. The teaching would render her independent; and such leisure
- as she got might be made profitable by writing, while the new scenes
- and society would be both useful and agreeable. Jo liked the
- prospect and was eager to be gone, for the home-nest was growing too
- narrow for her restless nature and adventurous spirit. When all was
- settled, with fear and trembling she told Laurie; but to her
- surprise he took it very quietly. He had been graver than usual of
- late, but very pleasant; and, when jokingly accused of turning over
- a new leaf, he answered soberly, "So I am; and I mean this one shall
- stay turned."
- Jo was very much relieved that one of his virtuous fits should
- come on just then, and made her preparations with a lightened heart-
- for Beth seemed more cheerful- and hoped she was doing the best for
- all.
- "One thing I leave to your especial care," she said, the night
- before she left.
- "You mean your papers?" asked Beth.
- "No, my boy. Be very good to him, won't you?"
- "Of course I will; but I can't fill your place, and he'll miss you
- sadly."
- "It won't hurt him; so remember, I leave him in your charge, to
- plague, pet, and keep in order."
- "I'll do my best, for your sake," promised Beth, wondering why Jo
- looked at her so queerly.
- When Laurie said "Good-by," he whispered significantly, "It won't do
- a bit of good, Jo. My eye is on you; so mind what you do, or I'll come
- and bring you home."
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- Jo's Journal
-
- NEW YORK, NOVEMBER.
- DEAR MARMEE AND BETH:
- I'm going to write you a regular volume, for I've got heaps to
- tell, though I'm not a fine young lady travelling on the continent.
- When I lost sight of father's dear old face, I felt a trifle blue, and
- might have shed a briny drop or two, if an Irish lady with four
- small children, all crying more or less, hadn't diverted my mind;
- for I amused myself by dropping gingerbread nuts over the seat every
- time they opened their mouths to roar.
- Soon the sun came out, and taking it as a good omen, I cleared up
- likewise, and enjoyed my journey with all my heart.
- Mrs. Kirke welcomed me so kindly I felt at home at once, even in
- that big house full of strangers. She gave me a funny little
- sky-parlor- all she had; but there is a stove in it, and a nice
- table in a sunny window, so I can sit here and write whenever I
- like. A fine view and a church-tower opposite atone for the many
- stairs, and I took a fancy to my den on the spot. The nursery, where I
- am to teach and sew, is a pleasant room next Mrs. Kirke's private
- parlor, and the two little girls are pretty children- rather spoilt, I
- fancy, but they took to me after telling them "The Seven Bad Pigs";
- and I've no doubt I shall make a model governess.
- I am to have my meals with the children, if I prefer it to the great
- table, and for the present I do, for I am bashful, though no one
- will believe it.
- "Now, my dear, make yourself at home," said Mrs. K. in her
- motherly way; "I'm on the drive from morning to night, as you may
- suppose with such a family; but a great anxiety will be off my mind if
- I know the children are safe with you. My rooms are always open to
- you, and your own shall be as comfortable as I can make it. There
- are some pleasant people in the house if you feel sociable, and your
- evenings are always free. Come to me if anything goes wrong, and be as
- happy as you can. There's the tea-bell; I must run and change my cap";
- and off she bustled, leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
- As I went downstairs, soon after, I saw something I liked. The
- flights are very long in this tall house, and as I stood waiting at
- the head of the third one for a little servant-girl to lumber up, I
- saw a gentleman come along behind her, take the heavy hod of coal
- out of her hand, carry it all the way up, put it down at a door near
- by, and walk away, saying, with a kind nod and a foreign accent-
- "It goes better so. The little back is too young to haf such
- heaviness."
- Wasn't it good of him? I like such things, for, as father says,
- trifles show character. When I mentioned it to Mrs. K., that
- evening, she laughed, and said, "That must have been Professor
- Bhaer; he's always doing things of that sort."
- Mrs. K. told me he was from Berlin; very learned and good, but
- poor as a church-mouse, and gives lessons to support himself and two
- little orphan nephews whom he is educating here, according to the
- wishes of his sister, who married an American. Not a very romantic
- story, but it interested me; and I was glad to hear that Mrs. K. lends
- him her parlor for some of his scholars. There is a glass door between
- it and the nursery, and I mean to peep at him, and then I'll tell
- you how he looks. He's almost forty, so it's no harm, Marmee.
- After tea and a go-to-bed romp with the little girls, I attacked the
- big work-basket, and had a quiet evening chatting with my new
- friend. I shall keep a journal-letter, and send it once a week; so
- good-night, and more to-morrow.
-
- TUESDAY EVE.
-
- Had a lively time in my seminary, this morning, for the children
- acted like Sancho; and at one time I really thought I should shake
- them all round. Some good angel inspired me to try gymnastics, and I
- kept it up till they were glad to sit down and keep still. After
- luncheon, the girl took them out for a walk, and I went to my
- needlework, like little Mabel, "with a willing mind." I was thanking
- my stars that I'd learned to make nice button-holes, when the
- parlor-door opened and shut, and some one began to hum-
-
- "Kennst du das Land,"
-
- like a big bumble-bee. It was dreadfully improper, I know, but I
- couldn't resist the temptation; and lifting one end of the curtain
- before the glass door, I peeped in. Professor Bhaer was there; and
- while he arranged his books, I a good look at him. A regular German-
- rather stout, with brown hair tumbled all over his head, a bushy
- beard, good nose, the kindest eyes I ever saw, and a splendid big
- voice that does one's ears good, after our sharp or slipshod
- American gabble. His clothes were rusty, his hands were large, and
- he hadn't a really handsome feature in his face, except his
- beautiful teeth; yet I liked him, for he had a fine head; his linen
- was very nice, and he looked like a gentleman, though two buttons were
- off his coat, and there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober in
- spite of his humming, till he went to the window to turn the
- hyacinth bulbs toward the sun, and stroke the cat, who received him
- like an old friend. Then he smiled; and when a tap came at the door,
- called out in a loud, brisk tone-
- "Herein!"
- I was just going to run, when I caught sight of a morsel of a
- child carrying a big book, and stopped to see what was going on.
- "Me wants my Bhaer," said the mite, slamming down her book, and
- running to meet him.
- "Thou shalt haf thy Bhaer; come, then, and take a goot hug from him,
- my Tina," said the Professor, catching her up, with a laugh, and
- holding her so high over his head that she had to stoop her little
- face to kiss him.
- "Now me mus tuddy my lessin," went on the funny little thing; so
- he put her up at the table, opened the great dictionary she had
- brought, and gave her a paper and pencil, and she scribbled away,
- turning a leaf now and then, and passing her little fat finger down
- the page, as if finding a word, so soberly that I nearly betrayed
- myself by a laugh, while Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair,
- with a fatherly look, that made me think she must be his own, though
- she looked more French than German.
- Another knock and the appearance of two young ladies sent me back to
- my work, and there I virtuously remained through all the noise and
- gabbling that went on next door. One of the girls kept laughing
- affectedly, and saying "Now Professor," in a coquettish tone, and
- the other pronounced her German with an accent that must have made
- it hard for him to keep sober.
- Both seemed to try his patience sorely; for more than once I heard
- him say emphatically, "No, no, it is not so; you haf not attend to
- what I say"; and once there was a loud rap, as if he struck the
- table with his book, followed by the despairing exclamation, "Prut! it
- all goes bad this day."
- Poor man, I pitied him; and when the girls were gone, took just
- one more peep, to see if he survived it. He seemed to have thrown
- himself back in his chair, tired out, and sat there with his eyes shut
- till the clock struck two, when he jumped up, put his books in his
- pocket, as if ready for another lesson, and, taking little Tina, who
- had fallen asleep on the sofa, in his arms, he carried her quietly
- away. I fancy he has a hard life of it.
- Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't go down to the five o'clock
- dinner; and, feeling a little bit homesick, I thought I would, just to
- see what sort of people are under the same roof with me. So I made
- myself respectable, and tried to slip in behind Mrs. Kirke; but as she
- is short, and I'm tall, my efforts at concealment were rather a
- failure. She gave me a seat by her, and after my face cooled off, I
- plucked up courage, and looked about me. The long table was full,
- and every one intent on getting their dinner- the gentlemen
- especially, who seemed to be eating on time, for they bolted in
- every sense of the word, vanishing as soon as they were done. There
- was the usual assortment of young men absorbed in themselves; young
- couples absorbed in each other; married ladies in their babies, and
- old gentlemen in politics. I don't think I shall care to have much
- to do with any of them, except one sweet-faced maiden lady, who
- looks as if she had something in her.
- Cast away at the very bottom of the table was the Professor,
- shouting answers to the questions of a very inquisitive, deaf old
- gentleman on one side, and talking philosophy with a Frenchman on
- the other. If Amy had been here, she'd have turned her back on him
- forever, because, sad to relate, he had a great appetite, and
- shovelled in his dinner in a manner which would have horrified "her
- ladyship." I didn't mind, for I like "to see folks eat with a relish,"
- as Hannah says, and the poor man must have needed a deal of food after
- teaching idiots all day.
- As I went upstairs after dinner, two of the young men were
- settling their hats before the hall-mirror, and I heard one say low to
- the other, "Who's the new party?"
- "Governess, or something of that sort."
- "What the deuce is she at our table for?"
- "Friend of the old lady's."
- "Handsome head, but no style."
- "Not a bit of it. Give us a light and come on."
- I felt angry at first, and then I didn't care, for a governess is as
- good as a clerk, and I've got sense, if I haven't style, which is more
- than some people have, judging from the remarks of the elegant
- beings who clattered away, smoking like bad chimneys. I hate
- ordinary people!
-
- THURSDAY.
-
- Yesterday was a quiet day, spent in teaching, sewing, and writing in
- my little room, which is very cosy, with a light and fire. I picked up
- a few bits of news, and was introduced to the Professor. It seems that
- Tina is the child of the Frenchwoman who does the fine ironing in
- the laundry here. The little thing has lost her heart to Mr. Bhaer,
- and follows him about the house like a dog whenever he is at home,
- which delights him, as he is very fond of children, though a
- "bacheldore." Kitty and Minnie Kirke likewise regard him with
- affection, and tell all sorts of stories about the plays he invents,
- the presents he brings, and the splendid tales he tells. The young men
- quiz him, it seems, call him Old Fritz, Lager Beer, Ursa Major, and
- make all manner of jokes on his name. But he enjoys it like a boy,
- Mrs. K. says, and takes it so good-naturedly that they all like him,
- in spite of his foreign ways.
- The maiden lady is a Miss Norton- rich, cultivated, and kind. She
- spoke to me at dinner to-day (for I went to table again, it's such fun
- to watch people), and asked me to come and see her at her room. She
- has fine books and pictures, knows interesting persons, and seems
- friendly; so I shall make myself agreeable, for I do want to get
- into good society, only it isn't the same sort that Amy likes.
- I was in our parlor last evening, when Mr. Bhaer came in with some
- newspapers for Mrs. Kirke. She wasn't there, but Minnie, who is a
- little old woman, introduced me very prettily: "This is mamma's
- friend, Miss March."
- "Yes; and she's jolly and we like her lots," added Kitty, who is
- an enfant terrible.
- We both bowed, and then we laughed, for the prim introduction and
- the blunt addition were rather a comical contrast.
- "Ah, yes, I heard these naughty ones go to vex you, Mees Marsch.
- If so again, call at me and I come," he said, with a threatening frown
- that delighted the little wretches.
- I promised I would, and he departed; but it seems as if I was doomed
- to see a good deal of him, for to-day, as I passed his door on my
- way out, by accident I knocked against it with my umbrella. It flew
- open, and there he stood in his dressing gown, with a big blue sock on
- one hand, and a darning-needle in the other; he didn't seem at all
- ashamed of it, for when I explained and hurried on, he waved his hand,
- sock and all, saying in his loud, cheerful way-
- "You haf a fine day to make your walk. Bon voyage, mademoiselle."
- I laughed all the way downstairs; but it was a little pathetic,
- also, to think of the poor man having to mend his own clothes. The
- German gentlemen embroider, I know; but darning hose is another thing,
- and not so pretty.
-
- SATURDAY.
-
- Nothing has happened to write about, except a call on Miss Norton,
- who has a room full of lovely things, and who was very charming, for
- she showed me all her treasures, and asked me if I would sometimes
- go with her to lectures and concerts, as her escort- if I enjoyed
- them. She put it as a favor, but I'm sure Mrs. Kirke has told her
- about us, and she does it out of kindness to me. I'm proud as Lucifer,
- but such favors from such people don't burden me, and I accepted
- gratefully.
- When I got back to the nursery there was such an uproar in the
- parlor that I looked in; and there was Mr. Bhaer down on his hands and
- knees, with Tina on his hack, Kitty leading him with a jump-rope,
- and Minnie feeding two small boys with seed-cakes, as they roared
- and ramped in cages built of chairs.
- "We are playing nargerie," explained Kitty.
- "Dis is mine effalunt!" added Tina, holding on by the Professor's
- hair.
- "Mamma always allows us to do what we like Saturday afternoon,
- when Franz and Emil come, doesn't she, Mr. Bhaer?" said Minnie.
- The "effalunt" sat up, looking as much in earnest as any of them,
- and said soberly to me-
- "I gif you my wort it is so. If we make too large a noise you
- shall say 'Hush!' to us, and we go more softly."
- I promised to do so, but left the door open, and enjoyed the fun
- as much as they did- for a more glorious frolic I never witnessed.
- They played tag and soldiers, danced and sung, and when it began to
- grow dark they all piled on to the sofa about the Professor, while
- he told charming fairy stories of the storks on the chimney-tops,
- and the little "kobolds," who ride the snowflakes as they fall. I wish
- Americans were as simple and natural as Germans, don't you?
- I'm so fond of writing, I should go spinning on forever if motives
- of economy didn't stop me; for though I've used thin paper and written
- fine, I tremble to think of the stamps this long letter will need.
- Pray forward Amy's as soon as you can spare them. My small news will
- sound very flat after her splendors, but you will like them, I know.
- Is Teddy studying so hard that he can't find time to write to his
- friends? Take good care of him for me, Beth, and tell me all about the
- babies, and give heaps of love to every one.
- From your faithful
- JO.
-
- P.S. On reading over my letter it strikes me as rather Bhaery; but I
- am always interested in odd people, and I really had nothing else to
- write about. Bless you!
-
- DECEMBER.
-
- MY PRECIOUS BETSY:
- As this is to be a scribble-scrabble letter, I direct it to you,
- for it may amuse you, and give you some idea of my goings on; for,
- though quiet, they are rather amusing, for which, oh, be joyful! After
- what Amy would call Herculaneum efforts, in the way of mental and
- moral agriculture, my young ideas begin to shoot and my little twigs
- to bend as I could wish. They are not so interesting to me as Tina and
- the boys, but I do my duty by them, and they are fond of me. Franz and
- Emil are jolly little lads, quite after my own heart; for the
- mixture of German and American spirit in them produces a constant
- state of effervescence. Saturday afternoons are riotous times, whether
- spent in the house or out; for on pleasant days they all go to walk,
- like a seminary, with the Professor and myself to keep order; and then
- such fun!
- We are very good friends now, and I've begun to take lessons. I
- really couldn't help it, and it all came about in such a droll way
- that I must tell you. To begin at the beginning, Mrs. Kirke called
- to me, one day, as I passed Mr. Bhaer's room, where she was rummaging.
- "Did you ever see such a den, my dear? Just come and help me put
- these books to rights, for I've turned everything upside down,
- trying to discover what he has done with the six new handkerchiefs I
- gave him not long ago."
- I went in, and while we worked I looked about me, for it was "a
- den," to be sure. Books and papers everywhere; a broken meerschaum,
- and an old flute over the mantel-piece as if done with; a ragged bird,
- without any tail, chirped on one window-seat, and a box of white
- mice adorned the other; half-finished boats and bits of string lay
- among the manuscripts; dirty little boots stood drying before the
- fire; and traces of the dearly beloved boys, for whom he makes a slave
- of himself, were to be seen all over the room. After a great rummage
- three of the missing articles were found- one over the bird-cage,
- one covered with ink, and a third burnt brown, having been used as a
- holder.
- "Such a man!" laughed good-natured Mrs. K., as she put the relics in
- the rag-bag. "I suppose the others are torn up to rig ships, bandage
- cut fingers, or make kite-tails. It's dreadful, but I can't scold him;
- he's so absent-minded and good-natured, he lets those boys ride over
- him rough-shod. I agreed to do his washing and mending, but he forgets
- to give out his things and I forget to look them over, so he comes
- to a sad pass sometimes."
- "Let me mend them," said I. "I don't mind it, and he needn't know.
- I'd like to- he's so kind to me about bringing my letters and
- lending books."
- So I have got his things in order, and knit heels into two pairs
- of the socks- for they were boggled out of shape with his queer darns.
- Nothing was said and I hoped he wouldn't find it out, but one day last
- week he caught me at it. Hearing the lessons he gives to others has
- interested and amused me so much that I took a fancy to learn; for
- Tina runs in and out, leaving the door open, and I can hear. I had
- been sitting near this door, finishing off the last sock, and trying
- to understand what he said to a new scholar, who is as stupid as I am.
- The girl had gone, and I thought he had also, it was so still, and I
- was busily gabbling over a verb, and rocking to and fro in a most
- absurd way, when a little crow made me look up, and there was Mr.
- Bhaer looking and laughing quietly, while he made signs to Tina not to
- betray him.
- "So!" he said, as I stopped and stared like a goose, "You Peep at
- me, I peep at you, and that is not bad; but see, I am not
- pleasanting when I say, haf you a wish for German?"
- "Yes; but you are too busy. I am too stupid to learn," I blundered
- out, as red as a peony.
- "Prut! we will make the time, and we fail not to find the sense.
- At efening I shall gif a little lesson with much gladness; for, look
- you, Mees Marsch I haf this debt to pay," and he pointed to my work.
- "'Yes,' they say to one another, these so kind ladies, 'he is a stupid
- old fellow; he will see not what we do; he will never opserve that his
- sock-heels go not in holes any more, he will think his buttons grow
- out new when they fall, and believe that strings make theirselves.'
- Ah! but I haf an eye, and I see much. I haf a heart, and I feel the
- thanks for this. Come, a little lesson then and now, or no more good
- fairy works for me and mine."
- Of course I couldn't say anything after that, and as it really is
- a splendid opportunity, I made the bargain, and we began. I took
- four lessons, and then I stuck fast in a grammatical bog. The
- Professor was very patient with me, but it must have been torment to
- him, and now and then he'd look at me with such an expression of
- mild despair that it was a toss-up with me whether to laugh or cry.
- I tried both ways; and when it came to a sniff of utter
- mortification and woe, he just threw the grammar on to the floor,
- and marched out of the room. I felt myself disgraced and deserted
- forever, but didn't blame him a particle, and was scrambling my papers
- together, meaning to rush upstairs and shake myself hard, when in he
- came, as brisk and beaming as if I'd covered myself with glory.
- "Now we shall try a new way. You and I will read these pleasant
- little Marchen together, and dig no more in that dry book, that goes
- in the corner for making us trouble."
- He spoke so kindly, and opened Hans Andersen's fairy tales so
- invitingly before me, that I was more ashamed than ever, and went at
- my lesson in a neck-or-nothing style that seemed to amuse him
- immensely. I forgot my bashfulness, and pegged away (no other word
- will express it) with all my might, tumbling over long words,
- pronouncing according to the inspiration of the minute, and doing my
- very best. When I finished reading my first page, and stopped for
- breath, he clapped his hands and cried out, in his hearty way, "Das
- ist gut! Now we go well! My turn. I do him in German; gif me your
- ear." And away he went, rumbling out the words with his strong
- voice, and a relish which was good to see as well as hear. Fortunately
- the story was the "Constant Tin Soldier," which is droll, you know, so
- I could laugh- and I did- though I didn't understand half he read, for
- I couldn't help it, he was so earnest, I so excited, and the whole
- thing so comical.
- After that we got on better, and now I read my lessons pretty
- well; for this way of studying suits me, and I can see that the
- grammar gets tucked into the tales and poetry as one gives pills in
- jelly. I like it very much, and he doesn't seem tired of it yet- which
- is very good of him, isn't it? I mean to give him something on
- Christmas, for I dare not offer money. Tell me something nice, Marmee.
- I'm glad Laurie seems so happy and busy that he has given up
- smoking, and lets his hair grow. You see Beth manages him better
- than I did. I'm not jealous, dear; do your best, only don't make a
- saint of him. I'm afraid I couldn't like him without a spice of
- human naughtiness. Read him bits of my letters. I haven't time to
- write much, and that will do just as well. Thank Heaven Beth continues
- so comfortable.
-
- JANUARY.
-
- A Happy New Year to you all, my dearest family, which of course
- includes Mr. L. and a young man by the name of Teddy. I can't tell you
- how much I enjoyed your Christmas bundle, for I didn't get it till
- night, and had given up hoping. Your letter came in the morning, but
- you said nothing about a parcel, meaning it for a surprise; so I was
- disappointed, for I'd had a "kind of a feeling" that you wouldn't
- forget me. I felt a little low in my mind, as I sat up in my room,
- after tea; and when the big, muddy, battered-looking bundle was
- brought to me, I just hugged it, and pranced. It was so homey and
- refreshing, that I sat down on the floor and read and looked and ate
- and laughed and cried, in my usual absurd way. The things were just
- what I wanted, and all the better for being made instead of bought.
- Beth's new "ink-bib" was capital; and Hannah's box of hard gingerbread
- will be a treasure. I'll be sure and wear the nice flannels you
- sent, Marmee, and read carefully the books father has marked. Thank
- you all, heaps and heaps!
- Speaking of books reminds me that I'm getting rich in that line,
- for, on New Year's Day, Mr. Bhaer gave me a fine Shakespeare. It is
- one he values much, and I've often admired it, set up in the place
- of honor with his German Bible, Plato, Homer, and Milton; so you may
- imagine how I felt when he brought it down, without its cover, and
- showed me my name in it, "from my friend Friedrich Bhaer."
- "You say often you wish a library: here I gif you one; for between
- these lids (he meant covers), is many books in one. Read him well, and
- he will help you much; for the study of character in this book will
- help you to read it in the world and paint it with your pen."
- I thanked him as well as I could, and talk now about "my library,"
- as if I had a hundred books. I never knew how much there was in
- Shakespeare before; but then I never had a Bhaer to explain it to
- me. Now don't laugh at his horrid name; it isn't pronounced either
- Bear or Beer, as people will say it, but something between the two, as
- only Germans can give it. I'm glad you both like what I tell you about
- him, and hope you will know him some day. Mother would admire his warm
- heart, father his wise head. I admire both, and feel rich in my new
- "friend Friedrich Bhaer."
- Not having much money, or knowing what he'd like, I got several
- little things, and put them about the room, where he would find them
- unexpectedly. They were useful, pretty, or funny- a new standish on
- his table, a little vase for his flower- he always has one, or a bit
- of green in a glass, to keep him fresh, he says- and a holder for
- his blower, so that he needn't burn up what Amy calls "mouchoirs." I
- made it like those Beth invented- a big butterfly with a fat body, and
- black and yellow wings, worsted feelers, and bead eyes. It took his
- fancy immensely, and he put it on his mantel-piece as an article of
- vertu; so it was rather a failure after all. Poor as he is, he
- didn't forget a servant or a child in the house; and not a soul
- here, from the French laundry-woman to Miss Norton, forgot him. I
- was so glad of that.
- They got up a masquerade, and had a gay time New Year's Eve. I
- didn't mean to go down, having no dress; but at the last minute,
- Mrs. Kirke remembered some old brocades, and Miss Norton lent me
- lace and feathers; so I dressed up as Mrs. Malaprop, and sailed in
- with a mask on. No one knew me, for I disguised my voice, and no one
- dreamed the silent, haughty Miss March (for they think I am very stiff
- and cool, most of them; and so I am to whipper-snappers) could dance
- and dress, and burst out into a "nice derangement of epitaphs, like an
- allegory on the banks of the Nile." I enjoyed it very much; and when
- we unmasked, it was fun to see them stare at me. I heard one of the
- young men tell another that he knew I'd been an actress; in fact, he
- thought he remembered seeing me at one of the minor theatres. Meg will
- relish that joke. Mr. Bhaer was Nick Bottom, and Tina was Titania- a
- perfect little fairy in his arms. To see them dance was "quite a
- landscape," to use a Teddyism.
- I had a very happy New Year, after all; and when I thought it over
- in my room, I felt as if I was getting on a little in spite of my many
- failures; for I'm cheerful all the time now, work with a will, and
- take more interest in other people than I used to, which is
- satisfactory. Bless you all! Ever your loving
- JO.
- 34
- A Friend
-
- THOUGH very happy in the social atmosphere about her, and very
- busy with the daily work that earned her bread, and made it sweeter
- for the effort, Jo still found time for literary labors. The purpose
- which now took possession of her was a natural one to a poor and
- ambitious girl; but the means she took to gain her end were not the
- best. She saw that money conferred power: money and power,
- therefore, she resolved to have; not to be used for herself alone, but
- for those whom she loved more than self.
- The dream of filling home with comforts, giving Beth everything
- she wanted, from strawberries in winter to an organ in her bedroom;
- going abroad herself, and always having more than enough, so that
- she might indulge in the luxury of charity, had been for years Jo's
- most cherished castle in the air.
- The prize-story experience had seemed to open a way which might,
- after long travelling and much up-hill work lead to this delightful
- chateau en Espagne. But the novel disaster quenched her courage for
- a time, for public opinion is a giant which has frightened
- stouter-hearted Jacks on bigger bean-stalks than hers. Like that
- immortal hero, she reposed awhile after the first attempt, which
- resulted in a tumble, and the least lovely of the giant's treasures,
- if I remember rightly. But the "up again and take another" spirit
- was as strong in Jo as in Jack; so she scrambled up, on the shady side
- this time, and got more booty, but nearly left behind her what was far
- more precious than the money-bags.
- She took to writing sensation stories; for in those dark ages,
- even all-perfect America read rubbish. She told no one, but
- concocted a "thrilling tale," and boldly carried it herself to Mr.
- Dashwood, editor of the "Weekly Volcano." She had never read "Sartor
- Resartus," but she had a womanly instinct that clothes possess an
- influence more powerful over many than the worth of character or the
- magic of manners. So she dressed herself in her best, and, trying to
- persuade herself that she was neither excited nor nervous, bravely
- climbed two pairs of dark and dirty stairs to find herself in a
- disorderly room, a cloud of cigar-smoke, and the presence of three
- gentlemen, sitting with their heels rather higher than their hats,
- which articles of dress none of them took the trouble to remove on her
- appearance. Somewhat daunted by this reception, Jo hesitated on the
- threshold, murmuring in much embarrassment-
- "Excuse me, I was looking for the 'Weekly Volcano' office; I
- wished to see Mr. Dashwood."
- Down went the highest pair of heels, up rose the smokiest gentleman,
- and, carefully cherishing his cigar between his fingers, he
- advanced, with a nod, and a countenance expressive of nothing but
- sleep. Feeling that she must get through the matter somehow, Jo
- produced her manuscript, and, blushing redder and redder with each
- sentence, blundered out fragments of the little speech carefully
- prepared for the occasion.
- "A friend of mine desired me to offer- a story- just as an
- experiment- would like your opinion- be glad to write more if this
- suits."
- While she blushed and blundered, Mr. Dashwood had taken the
- manuscript, and was turning over the leaves with a pair of rather
- dirty fingers, and casting critical glances up and down the neat
- pages.
- "Not a first attempt, I take it?" observing that the pages were
- numbered, covered only on one side, and not tied up with a ribbon-
- sure sign of a novice.
- "No, sir; she has had some experience, and got a prize for a tale in
- the 'Blarneystone Banner.'"
- "Oh, did she?" and Mr. Dashwood gave Jo a quick look, which seemed
- to take note of everything she had on, from the bow in her bonnet to
- the buttons on her boots. "Well, you can leave it, if you like.
- We've more of this sort of thing on hand than we know what to do
- with at present; but I'll run my eye over it, and give you an answer
- next week."
- Now, Jo did not like to leave it, for Mr. Dashwood didn't suit her
- at all; but, under the circumstances, there was nothing for her to
- do but bow and walk away, looking particularly tall and dignified,
- as she was apt to do when nettled or abashed. Just then she was
- both; for it was perfectly evident, from the knowing glances exchanged
- among the gentlemen, that her little fiction of "my friend" was
- considered a good joke; and a laugh, produced by some inaudible remark
- of the editor, as he closed the door, completed her discomfiture. Half
- resolving never to return, she went home, and worked off her
- irritation by stitching pinafores vigorously; and in an hour or two
- was cool enough to laugh over the scene, and long for next week.
- When she went again, Mr. Dashwood was alone, whereat she rejoiced;
- Mr. Dashwood was much wider awake than before, which was agreeable;
- and Mr. Dashwood was not too deeply absorbed in a cigar to remember
- his manners: so the second interview was much more comfortable than
- the first.
- "We'll take this" (editors never say I), "if you don't object to a
- few alterations. It's too long, but omitting the passages I've
- marked will make it just the right length," he said, in a
- business-like tone.
- Jo hardly knew her own MS. again, so crumpled and underscored were
- its pages and paragraphs; but, feeling as a tender parent might on
- being asked to cut off her baby's legs in order that it might fit into
- a new cradle, she looked at the marked passages, and was surprised
- to find that all the moral reflections- which she had carefully put in
- as ballast for much romance- had been stricken out.
- "But, sir, I thought every story should have some sort of a moral,
- so I took care to have a few of my sinners repent."
- Mr. Dashwood's editorial gravity relaxed into a smile, for Jo had
- forgotten her "friend," and spoken as only an author could.
- "People want to be amused, not preached at, you know. Morals don't
- sell nowadays" which was not quite a correct statement, by the way.
- "You think it would do with these alterations, then?"
- "Yes; it's a new plot, and pretty well worked up- language good, and
- so on," was Mr. Dashwood's affable reply.
- "What do you- that is, what compensation-" began Jo, not exactly
- knowing how to express herself.
- "Oh, yes, well, we give from twenty-five to thirty for things of
- this sort. Pay when it comes out," returned Mr. Dashwood, as if that
- point had escaped him; such trifles often do escape the editorial
- mind, it is said.
- "Very well; you can have it," said Jo, handing back the story,
- with a satisfied air; for, after the dollar-a-column work, even
- twenty-five seemed good pay.
- "Shall I tell my friend you will take another if she has one
- better than this?" asked Jo, unconscious of her little slip of the
- tongue, and emboldened by her success.
- "Well, we'll look at it; can't promise to take it. Tell her to
- make it short and spicy, and never mind the moral. What name would
- your friend like to put to it?" in a careless tone.
- "None at all, if you please; she doesn't wish her name to appear,
- and has no nom de plume," said Jo, blushing in spite of herself.
- "Just as she likes, of course. The tale will be out next week;
- will you call for the money, or shall I send it?" asked Mr.
- Dashwood, who felt a natural desire to know who his new contributor
- might be.
- "I'll call. Good morning, sir."
- As she departed, Mr. Dashwood put up his feet, with the graceful
- remark, "Poor and proud, as usual, but she'll do."
- Following Mr. Dashwood's directions, and making Mrs. Northbury her
- model, Jo rashly took a plunge into the frothy sea of sensational
- literature; but, thanks to the life-preserver thrown her by a
- friend, she came up again, not much the worse for her ducking.
- Like most young scribblers, she went abroad for her characters and
- scenery; and banditti, counts, gypsies, nuns, and duchesses appeared
- upon her stage, and played their parts with as much accuracy and
- spirit as could be expected. Her readers were not particular about
- such trifles as grammar, punctuation, and probability, and Mr.
- Dashwood graciously permitted her to fill his columns at the lowest
- prices, not thinking it necessary to tell her that the real cause of
- his hospitality was the fact that one of his hacks, on being offered
- higher wages, had basely left him in the lurch.
- She soon became interested in her work, for her emaciated purse grew
- stout, and the little board she was making to take Beth to the
- mountains next summer grew slowly but surely as the weeks passed.
- One thing disturbed her satisfaction, and that was that she did not
- tell them at home. She had a feeling that father and mother would
- not approve, and preferred to have her own way first, and beg pardon
- afterward. It was easy to keep her secret, for no name appeared with
- her stories; Mr. Dashwood had, of course, found it out very soon,
- but promised to be dumb; and, for a wonder, kept his word.
- She thought it would do her no harm, for she sincerely meant to
- write nothing of which she should be ashamed, and quieted all pricks
- of conscience by anticipations of the happy minute when she should
- show her earnings and laugh over her well-kept secret.
- But Mr. Dashwood rejected any but thrilling tales; and, as thrills
- could not be produced except by harrowing up the souls of the readers,
- history and romance, land and sea, science and art, police records and
- lunatic asylums, had to be ransacked for the purpose. Jo soon found
- that her innocent experience had given her but few glimpses of the
- tragic world which underlies society; so, regarding it in a business
- light, she set about supplying her deficiencies with characteristic
- energy. Eager to find material for stories, and bent on making them
- original in plot, if not masterly in execution, she searched
- newspapers for accidents, incidents, and crimes; she excited the
- suspicions of public librarians by asking for works on poisons; she
- studied faces in the street, and characters, good, bad, and
- indifferent, all about her; she delved in the dust of ancient times
- for facts or fictions so old that they were as good as new, and
- introduced herself to folly, sin, and misery, as well as her limited
- opportunities allowed. She thought she was prospering finely; but,
- unconsciously, she was beginning to desecrate some of the womanliest
- attributes of a woman's character. She was living in bad society; and,
- imaginary though it was, its influence affected her, for she was
- feeding heart and fancy on dangerous and unsubstantial food, and was
- fast brushing the innocent bloom from her nature by a premature
- acquaintance with the darker side of life, which comes soon enough
- to all of us.
- She was beginning to feel rather than see this, for much
- describing of other people's passions and feelings set her to studying
- and speculating about her own- a morbid amusement, in which healthy
- young minds do not voluntarily indulge. Wrong-doing always brings
- its own punishment; and, when Jo most needed hers, she got it.
- I don't know whether the study of Shakespeare helped her to read
- character, or the natural instinct of a woman for what was honest,
- brave, and strong; but while endowing her imaginary heroes with
- every perfection under the sun, Jo was discovering a live hero, who
- interested her in spite of many human imperfections. Mr. Bhaer, in one
- of their conversations, had advised her to study simple, true, and
- lovely characters, wherever she found them, as good training for a
- writer. Jo took him at his word, for she coolly turned round and
- studied him- a proceeding which would have much surprised him, had
- he known it, for the worthy Professor was very humble in his own
- conceit.
- Why everybody liked him was what puzzled Jo, at first. He was
- neither rich nor great, young nor handsome; in no respect what is
- called fascinating, imposing, or brilliant; and yet he was as
- attractive as a genial fire, and people seemed to gather about him
- as naturally as about a warm hearth. He was poor, yet always
- appeared to be giving something away; a stranger, yet every one was
- his friend; no longer young, but as happy-hearted as a boy; plain
- and peculiar, yet his face looked beautiful to many, and his
- oddities were freely forgiven for his sake. Jo often watched him,
- trying to discover the charm, and, at last, decided that it was
- benevolence which worked the miracle. If he had any sorrow, "it sat
- with its head under its wing," and he turned only his sunny side to
- the world. There were lines upon his forehead, but Time seemed to have
- touched him gently, remembering how kind he was to others. The
- pleasant curves about his mouth were the memorials of many friendly
- words and cheery laughs; his eyes were never cold or hard, and his big
- hand had a warm, strong grasp that was more expressive than words.
- His very clothes seemed to partake of the hospitable nature of the
- wearer. They looked as if they were at ease, and liked to make him
- comfortable; his capacious waistcoat was suggestive of a large heart
- underneath; his rusty coat had a social air, and the baggy pockets
- plainly proved that little hands often went in empty and came out
- full; his very boots were benevolent, and his collars never stiff
- and raspy like other people's.
- "That's it!" said Jo to herself, when she at length discovered
- that genuine good-will towards one's fellow-men could beautify and
- dignify even a stout German teacher, who shovelled in his dinner,
- darned his own socks, and was burdened with the name of Bhaer.
- Jo valued goodness highly, but she also possessed a most feminine
- respect for intellect, and a little discovery which she made about the
- Professor added much to her regard for him. He never spoke of himself,
- and no one ever knew that in his native city he had been a man much
- honored and esteemed for learning and integrity, till a countryman
- came to see him, and, in a conversation with Miss Norton, divulged the
- pleasing fact. From her Jo learned it, and liked it all the better
- because Mr. Bhaer had never told it. She felt proud to know that he
- was an honored Professor in Berlin, though only a poor language-master
- in America; and his homely, hard-working life was much beautified by
- the spice of romance which this discovery gave it.
- Another and a better gift than intellect was shown her in a most
- unexpected manner. Miss Norton had the entree into literary society,
- which Jo would have had no chance of seeing but for her. The
- solitary woman felt an interest in the ambitious girl, and kindly
- conferred many favors of this sort both on Jo and the Professor. She
- took them with her, one night, to a select symposium, held in honor of
- several celebrities.
- Jo went prepared to bow down and adore the mighty ones whom she
- had worshipped with youthful enthusiasm afar off. But her reverence
- for genius received a severe shock that night, and it took her some
- time to recover from the discovery that the great creatures were
- only men and women after all. Imagine her dismay, on stealing a glance
- of timid admiration at the poet whose lines suggested an ethereal
- being fed on "spirit, fire, and dew," to behold him devouring his
- supper with an ardor which flushed his intellectual countenance.
- Turning as from a fallen idol, she made other discoveries which
- rapidly dispelled her romantic illusions. The great novelist
- vibrated between two decanters with the regularity of a pendulum;
- the famous divine flirted openly with one of the Madame de Staels of
- the age, who looked daggers at another Corinne, who was amiably
- satirizing her, after out-manoeuvring her in efforts to absorb the
- profound philosopher, who imbibed tea Johnsonianly and appeared to
- slumber, the loquacity of the lady rendering speech impossible. The
- scientific celebrities, forgetting their mollusks and glacial periods,
- gossiped about art, while devoting themselves to oysters and ices with
- characteristic energy; the young musician, who was charming the city
- like a second Orpheus, talked horses; and the specimen of the
- British nobility present happened to be the most ordinary man of the
- party.
- Before the evening was half over, Jo felt so completely
- desillusionnee, that she sat down in a corner to recover herself.
- Mr. Bhaer soon joined her, looking rather out of his element, and
- presently several of the philosophers, each mounted on his hobby, came
- ambling up to hold an intellectual tournament in the recess. The
- conversation was miles beyond Jo's comprehension, but she enjoyed
- it, though Kant and Hegel were unknown gods, the Subjective and
- Objective unintelligible terms; and the only thing "evolved from her
- inner consciousness," was a bad headache after it was all over. It
- dawned upon her gradually that the world was being picked to pieces,
- and put together on new, and, according to the talkers, on
- infinitely better principles than before; that religion was in a
- fair way to be reasoned into nothingness, and intellect was to be
- the only God. Jo knew nothing about philosophy or metaphysics of any
- sort, but a curious excitement, half pleasurable, half painful, came
- over her; as she listened with a sense of being turned adrift into
- time and space, like a young balloon out on a holiday.
- She looked round to see how the Professor liked it, and found him
- looking at her with the grimmest expression she had ever seen him
- wear. He shook his head, and beckoned her to come away; but she was
- fascinated, just then, by the freedom of Speculative Philosophy, and
- kept her seat, trying to find out what the wise gentlemen intended
- to rely upon after they had annihilated all the old beliefs.
- Now, Mr. Bhaer was a diffident man, and slow to offer his own
- opinions, not because they were unsettled, but too sincere and earnest
- to be lightly spoken. As he glanced from Jo to several other young
- people, attracted by the brilliancy of the philosophic pyrotechnics,
- he knit his brows, and longed to speak, fearing that some
- inflammable young soul would be led astray by the rockets, to find,
- when the display was over, that they had only an empty stick or a
- scorched hand.
- He bore it as long as he could; but when he was appealed to for an
- opinion, he blazed up with honest indignation, and defended religion
- with all the eloquence of truth- an eloquence which made his broken
- English musical, and his plain face beautiful. He had a hard fight,
- for the wise men argued well; but he didn't know when he was beaten,
- and stood to his colors like a man. Somehow, as he talked, the world
- got right again to Jo; the old beliefs, that had lasted so long,
- seemed better than the new; God was not a blind force, and immortality
- was not a pretty fable, but a blessed fact. She felt as if she had
- solid ground under her feet again; and when Mr. Bhaer paused,
- out-talked, but not one whit convinced, Jo wanted to clap her hands
- and thank him.
- She did neither; but she remembered this scene, and gave the
- Professor her heartiest respect, for she knew it cost him an effort to
- speak out then and there, because his conscience would not let him
- be silent. She began to see that character is a better possession than
- money rank, intellect, or beauty; and to feel that if greatness is
- what a wise man has defined it to be, "truth, reverence, and
- good-will," then her friend Friedrich Bhaer was not only good, but
- great.
- This belief strengthened daily. She valued his esteem, she coveted
- his respect, she wanted to be worthy of his friendship; and, just when
- the wish was sincerest, she came near losing everything. It all grew
- out of a cocked hat; for one evening the Professor came in to give
- Jo her lesson, with a paper soldier-cap on his head, which Tina had
- put there, and he had forgotten to take off.
- "It's evident he doesn't look in his glass before coming down,"
- thought Jo, with a smile, as he said "Goot efening," and sat soberly
- down, quite unconscious of the ludicrous contrast between his
- subject and his headgear, for he was going to read her the "Death of
- Wallenstein."
- She said nothing at first, for she liked to hear him laugh out his
- big, hearty laugh, when anything funny happened, so she left him to
- discover it for himself, and presently forgot all about it; for to
- hear a German read Schiller is rather an absorbing occupation. After
- the reading came the lesson, which was a lively one, for Jo was in a
- gay mood that night, and the cocked-hat kept her eyes dancing with
- merriment. The Professor didn't know what to make of her, and
- stopped at last, to ask, with an air of mild surprise that was
- irresistible-
- "Mees Marsch, for what do you laugh in your master's face? Haf you
- no respect for me, that you go on so bad?"
- "How can I be respectful, sir, when you forget to take your hat
- off?" said Jo.
- Lifting his hand to his head, the absent-minded Professor gravely
- felt and removed the little cocked-hat, looked at it a minute, and
- then threw back his head, and laughed like a merry bass-viol.
- "Ah! I see him now; it is that imp Tina who makes me a fool with
- my cap. Well, it is nothing; but see you, if this lesson goes not
- well, you too shall wear him."
- But the lesson did not go at all for a few minutes, because Mr.
- Bhaer caught sight of a picture on the hat, and, unfolding it, said,
- with an air of great disgust, "I wish these papers did not come in the
- house; they are not for children to see, nor young people to read.
- It is not well, and I haf no patience with those who make this harm."
- Jo glanced at the sheet, and saw a pleasing illustration composed of
- a lunatic, a corpse, a villain, and a viper. She did not like it;
- but the impulse that made her turn it over was not one of displeasure,
- but fear, because, for a minute, she fancied the paper was the
- "Volcano." It was not, however, and her panic subsided as she
- remembered that, even if it had been, and one of her own tales in
- it, there would have been no name to betray her. She had betrayed
- herself, however, by a look and a blush; for, though an absent man,
- the Professor saw a good deal more than people fancied. He knew that
- Jo wrote, and had met her down among the newspaper offices more than
- once; but as she never spoke of it, he asked no questions, in spite of
- a strong desire to see her work. Now it occurred to him that she was
- doing what she was ashamed to own, and it troubled him. He did not say
- to himself, "It is none of my business; I've no right to say
- anything," as many people would have done; he only remembered that she
- was young and poor, a girl far away from mother's love and father's
- care; and he was moved to help her with an impulse as quick and
- natural as that which would prompt him to put out his hand to save a
- baby from a puddle. All this flashed through his mind in a minute, but
- not a trace of it appeared in his face; and by the time the paper
- was turned, and Jo's needle threaded, he was ready to say quite
- naturally, but very gravely-
- "Yes, you are right to put it from you. I do not like to think
- that good girls should see such things. They are made pleasant to
- some, but I would more rather give my boys gunpowder to play with than
- this bad trash."
- "All may not be bad, only silly, you know; and if there is a
- demand for it, I don't see any harm in supplying it. Many very
- respectable people make an honest living out of what are called
- sensation stories," said Jo, scratching gathers so energetically
- that a row of little slits followed her pin.
- "There is a demand for whiskey, but I think you and I do not care to
- sell it. If the respectable people knew what harm they did, they would
- not feel that the living was honest. They haf no right to put poison
- in the sugar-plum, and let the small ones eat it. No; they should
- think a little, and sweep mud in the street before they do this
- thing."
- Mr. Bhaer spoke warmly, and walked to the fire, crumpling the
- paper in his hands. Jo sat still, looking as if the fire had come to
- her; for her cheeks burned long after the cocked-hat had turned to
- smoke and gone harmlessly up the chimney.
- "I should like much to send all the rest after him," muttered the
- Professor, coming back with a relieved air.
- Jo thought what a blaze her pile of papers upstairs would make,
- and her hard-earned money lay rather heavily on her conscience at that
- minute. Then she thought consolingly to herself, "Mine are not like
- that; they are only silly, never bad, so I won't be worried"; and
- taking up her book, she said, with a studious face-
- "Shall we go on, sir? I'll be very good and proper now."
- "I shall hope so," was all he said, but he meant more than she
- imagined; and the grave, kind look he gave her made her feel as if the
- words "Weekly Volcano" were printed in large type on her forehead.
- As soon as she went to her room, she got out her papers, and
- carefully re-read every one of her stories. Being a little
- short-sighted, Mr. Bhaer sometimes used eye-glasses, and Jo had
- tried them once, smiling to see how they magnified the fine print of
- her book; now she seemed to have got on the Professor's mental or
- moral spectacles also; for the faults of these poor stories glared
- at her dreadfully, and filled her with dismay.
- "They are trash, and will soon be worse than trash if I go on; for
- each is more sensational than the last. I've gone blindly on,
- hurting myself and other people, for the sake of money; I know it's
- so, for I can't read this stuff in sober earnest without being
- horribly ashamed of it; and what should I do if they were seen at
- home, or Mr. Bhaer got hold of them?"
- Jo turned hot at the bare idea, and stuffed the whole bundle into
- her stove, nearly setting the chimney afire with the blaze.
- "Yes, that's the best place for such inflammable nonsense; I'd
- better burn the house down, I suppose, than let other people blow
- themselves up with my gunpowder," she thought, as she watched the
- "Demon of the Jura" whisk away, a little black cinder with fiery eyes.
- But when nothing remained of all her three months' work except a
- heap of ashes, and the money in her lap, Jo looked sober, as she sat
- on the floor, wondering what she ought to do about her wages.
- "I think I haven't done much harm yet, and may keep this to pay
- for my time," she said, after a long meditation, adding impatiently,
- "I almost wish I hadn't any conscience, it's so inconvenient. If I
- didn't care about doing right, and didn't feel uncomfortable when
- doing wrong, I should get on capitally. I can't help wishing
- sometimes, that father and mother hadn't been so particular about such
- things."
- Ah, Jo, instead of wishing that, thank God that "father and mother
- were particular," and pity from your heart those who have no such
- guardians to hedge them round with principles which may seem like
- prison-walls to impatient youth, but which will prove sure foundations
- to build character upon in womanhood.
- Jo wrote no more sensational stories, deciding that the money did
- not pay for her share of the sensation; but, going to the other
- extreme, as is the way with people of her stamp, she took a course
- of Mrs. Sherwood, Miss Edgeworth, and Hannah More; and then produced a
- tale which might have been more properly called an essay or a
- sermon, so intensely moral was it. She had her doubts about it from
- the beginning; for her lively fancy and girlish romance felt as ill at
- ease in the new style as she would have done masquerading in the stiff
- and cumbrous costume of the last century. She sent this didactic gem
- to several markets, but it found no purchaser; and she was inclined to
- agree with Mr. Dashwood, that morals didn't sell.
- Then she tried a child's story, which she could easily have disposed
- of if she had not been mercenary enough to demand filthy lucre for it.
- The only person who offered enough to make it worth her while to try
- juvenile literature was a worthy gentleman who felt it his mission
- to convert all the world to his particular belief. But much as she
- liked to write for children, Jo could not consent to depict all her
- naughty boys as being eaten by bears or tossed by mad bulls, because
- they did not go to a particular Sabbath-school, nor all the good
- infants, who did go, as rewarded by every kind of bliss, from gilded
- gingerbread to escorts of angels, when they departed this life with
- psalms or sermons on their lisping tongues. So nothing came of these
- trials; and Jo corked up her inkstand, and said, in a fit of very
- wholesome humility-
- "I don't know anything; I'll wait till I do before I try again, and,
- meantime, 'sweep mud in the street,' if I can't do better; that's
- honest, at least"; which decision proved that her second tumble down
- the bean-stalk had done her some good.
- While these internal revolutions were going on, her external life
- had been as busy and uneventful as usual; and if she sometimes
- looked serious or a little sad no one observed it but Professor Bhaer.
- He did it so quietly that Jo never knew he was watching to see if
- she would accept and profit by his reproof; but she stood the test,
- and he was satisfied; for, though no words passed between them, he
- knew that she had given up writing. Not only did he guess it by the
- fact that the second finger of her right hand was no longer inky,
- but she spent her evenings downstairs now, was met no more among
- newspaper offices, and studied with a dogged patience, which assured
- him that she was bent on occupying her mind with something useful,
- if not pleasant.
- He helped her in many ways, proving himself a true friend, and Jo
- was happy; for, while her pen lay idle, she was learning other lessons
- besides German, and laying a foundation for the sensation story of her
- own life.
- It was a pleasant winter and a long one, for she did not leave
- Mrs. Kirke till June. Every one seemed sorry when the time came; the
- children were inconsolable, and Mr. Bhaer's hair stuck straight up all
- over his head, for he always rumpled it wildly when disturbed in mind.
- "Going home? Ah, you are happy that you haf a home to go in," he
- said, when she told him, and sat silently pulling his beard, in the
- corner, while she held a little levee on that last evening.
- She was going early, so she bade them all good-by over night; and
- when his turn came, she said warmly-
- "Now, sir, you won't forget to come and see us, if you ever travel
- our way, will you? I'll never forgive you if you do, for I want them
- all to know my friend."
- "Do you? Shall I come?" he asked, looking down at her with an
- eager expression which she did not see.
- "Yes, come next month; Laurie graduates then, and you'd enjoy
- Commencement as something new."
- "That is your best friend, of whom you speak?" he said, in an
- altered tone.
- "Yes, my boy Teddy; I'm very proud of him, and should like you to
- see him."
- Jo looked up then, quite unconscious of anything but her own
- pleasure in the prospect of showing them to one another. Something
- in Mr. Bhaer's face suddenly recalled the fact that she might find
- Laurie more than a "best friend," and, simply because she particularly
- wished not to look as if anything was the matter, she involuntarily
- began to blush; and the more she tried not to, the redder she grew. If
- it had not been for Tina on her knee, she didn't know what would
- have become of her. Fortunately, the child was moved to hug her; so
- she managed to hide her face an instant, hoping the Professor did
- not see it. But he did, and his own changed again from that
- momentary anxiety to its usual expression, as he said cordially-
- "I fear I shall not make the time for that, but I wish the friend
- much success, and you all happiness. Gott bless you!" and with that,
- he shook hands warmly, shouldered Tina, and went away.
- But after the boys were abed, he sat long before his fire, with
- the tired look on his face, and the "heimweh," or homesickness,
- lying heavy at his heart. Once, when he remembered Jo, as she sat with
- the little child in her lap and that new softness in her face, he
- leaned his head on his hands a minute, and then roamed about the room,
- as if in search of something that he could not find.
- "It is not for me; I must not hope it now," he said to himself, with
- a sigh that was almost a groan; then, as if reproaching himself for
- the longing that he could not repress, he went and kissed the two
- towzled heads upon the pillow, took down his seldom-used meerschaum,
- and opened his Plato.
- He did his best, and did it manfully; but I don't think he found
- that a pair of rampant boys, a pipe, or even the divine Plato, were
- very satisfactory substitutes for wife and child and home.
- Early as it was, he was at the station, next morning, to see Jo off;
- and, thanks to him, she began her solitary journey with the pleasant
- memory of a familiar face smiling its farewell, a bunch of violets
- to keep her company, and, best of all, the happy thought-
- "Well, the winter's gone, and I've written no books, earned no
- fortune; but I've made a friend worth having, and I'll try to keep him
- all my life."
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- Heartache
-
- WHATEVER his motive might have been, Laurie studied to some
- purpose that year, for he graduated with honor, and gave the Latin
- oration with the grace of a Phillips and the eloquence of a
- Demosthenes, so his friends said. They were all there, his
- grandfather- oh, so proud!- Mr. and Mrs. March, John and Meg, Jo and
- Beth, and all exulted over him with the sincere admiration which
- boys make light of at the time, but fail to win from the world by
- any after-triumphs.
- "I've got to stay for this confounded supper, but I shall be home
- early to-morrow; you'll come and meet me as usual, girls?" Laurie
- said, as he put the sisters into the carriage after the joys of the
- day were over. He said "girls," but he meant Jo, for she was the
- only one who kept up the old custom; she had not the heart to refuse
- the splendid, successful boy anything, and answered warmly-
- "I'll come, Teddy, rain or shine, and march before you, playing
- 'Hail the conquering hero comes,' on a jews-harp."
- Laurie thanked her with a look that made her think, in a sudden
- panic, "Oh, deary me! I know he'll say something, and then what
- shall I do?"
- Evening meditation and morning work somewhat allayed her fears,
- and having decided that she wouldn't be vain enough to think people
- were going to propose when she had given them every reason to know
- what her answer would be, she set forth at the appointed time,
- hoping Teddy wouldn't do anything to make her hurt his poor little
- feelings. A call at Meg's, and a refreshing sniff and sip at the Daisy
- and Demijohn, still further fortified her for the tete-a-tete, but
- when she saw a stalwart figure looming in the distance, she had a
- strong desire to turn about and run away.
- "Where's the jews-harp, Jo?" cried Laurie, as soon as he was
- within speaking distance.
- "I forgot it"; and Jo took heart again, for that salutation could
- not be called lover-like.
- She always used to take his arm on these occasions; now she did not,
- and he made no complaint, which was a bad sign, but talked on
- rapidly about all sorts of far-away subjects, till they turned from
- the road into the little path that led homeward through the grove.
- Then he walked more slowly, suddenly lost his fine flow of language,
- and, now and then, a dreadful pause occurred. To rescue the
- conversation from one of the wells of silence into which it kept
- falling, Jo said hastily-
- "Now you must have a good long holiday!"
- "I intend to."
- Something in his resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to find him
- looking down at her with an expression that assured her the dreaded
- moment had come, and made her put out her hand with an imploring-
- "No, Teddy, please don't!"
- "I will, and you must hear me. It's no use, Jo; we've got to have it
- out, and the sooner the better for both of us," he answered, getting
- flushed and excited all at once.
- "Say what you like, then; I'll listen," said Jo, with a desperate
- sort of patience'
- Laurie was a young lover, but he was in earnest, and meant to
- "have it out," if he died in the attempt; so he plunged into the
- subject with characteristic impetuosity, saying in a voice that
- would get choky now and then, in spite of manful efforts to keep it
- steady-
- "I've loved you ever since I've known you, Jo; couldn't help it,
- you've been so good to me. I've tried to show it, but you wouldn't let
- me; now I'm going to make you hear, and give me an answer, for I can't
- go on so any longer."
- "I wanted to save you this; I thought you'd understand-" began Jo,
- finding it a great deal harder than she expected.
- "I know you did; but girls are so queer you never know what they
- mean. They say No when they mean Yes, and drive a man out of his
- wits just for the fun of it," returned Laurie, entrenching himself
- behind an undeniable fact.
- "I don't. I never wanted to make you care for me so, and I went away
- to keep you from it if I could."
- "I thought so; it was like you, but it was no use. I only loved
- you all the more, and I worked hard to please you, and I gave up
- billiards and everything you didn't like, and waited and never
- complained, for I hoped you'd love me, though I'm not half good
- enough-" here there was a choke that couldn't be controlled, so he
- decapitated buttercups while he cleared his "confounded throat."
- "Yes, you are; you're a great deal too good for me, and I'm so
- grateful to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't see why I can't
- love you as you want me to. I've tried, but I can't change the
- feeling, and it would be a lie to say I do when I don't."
- "Really, truly, Jo?"
- He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put his question
- with a look that she did not soon forget.
- "Really, truly, dear."
- They were in the grove now, close by the stile; and when the last
- words fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped her hands and
- turned as if to go on, but for once in his life that fence was too
- much for him; so he just laid his head down on the mossy post, and
- stood so still that Jo was frightened.
- "O Teddy, I'm so sorry, so desperately sorry, I could kill myself if
- it would do any good! I wish you wouldn't take it so hard. I can't
- help it; you know it's impossible for people to make themselves love
- other people if they don't," cried Jo inelegantly but remorsefully, as
- she softly patted his shoulder, remembering the time when he had
- comforted her so long ago.
- "They do sometimes," said a muffled voice from the post.
- "I don't believe it's the right sort of love, and I'd rather not try
- it," was the decided answer.
- There was a long pause, while a blackbird sung blithely on the
- willow by the river, and the tall grass rustled in the wind. Presently
- Jo said very soberly, as she sat down on the step of the stile-
- "Laurie, I want to tell you something."
- He started as if he had been shot, threw up his head, and cried out,
- in a fierce tone-
- "Don't tell me that, Jo; I can't bear it now!"
- "Tell what?" she asked, wondering at his violence.
- "That you love that old man."
- "What old man?" demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his grandfather.
- "That devilish Professor you were always writing about. If you say
- you love him, I know I shall do something desperate"; and he looked as
- if he would keep his word, as he clenched his hands, with a wrathful
- spark in his eyes.
- Jo wanted to laugh, but restrained herself, and said warmly, for
- she, too, was getting excited with all this-
- "Don't swear, Teddy! He isn't old, nor anything bad, but good and
- kind, and the best friend I've got, next to you. Pray, don't fly
- into a passion; I want to be kind, but I know I shall get angry if you
- abuse my Professor. I haven't the least idea of loving him or
- anybody else."
- "But you will after a while, and then what will become of me?"
- "You'll love some one else too, like a sensible boy, and forget
- all this trouble."
- "I can't love any one else; and I'll never forget you, Jo, never!
- never!" with a stamp to emphasize his passionate words.
- "What shall I do with him?" sighed Jo, finding that emotions were
- more unmanageable than she expected. "You haven't heard what I
- wanted to tell you. Sit down and listen; for indeed I want to do right
- and make you happy," she said, hoping to soothe him with a little
- reason, which proved that she knew nothing about love.
- Seeing a ray of hope in that last speech, Laurie threw himself
- down on the grass at her feet, leaned his arm on the lower step of the
- stile, and looked up at her with an expectant face. Now that
- arrangement was not conducive to calm speech or clear thought on
- Jo's part; for how could she say hard things to her boy while he
- watched her with eyes full of love and longing, and lashes still wet
- with the bitter drop or two her hardness of heart had wrung from
- him? She gently turned his head away, saying, as she stroked the
- wavy hair which had been allowed to grow for her sake- how touching
- that was, to be sure!-
- "I agree with mother that you and I are not suited to each other,
- because our quick tempers and strong wills would probably make us very
- miserable, if we were so foolish as to-" Jo paused a little over the
- last word, but Laurie uttered it with a rapturous expression-
- "Marry- no, we shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should be a perfect
- saint, for you could make me anything you like."
- "No, I can't. I've tried it and failed, and I won't risk our
- happiness by such a serious experiment. We don't agree and we never
- shall; so we'll be good friends all our lives, but we won't go and
- do anything rash."
- "Yes, we will if we get the chance," muttered Laurie rebelliously.
- "Now do be reasonable, and take a sensible view of the case,"
- implored Jo, almost at her wit's end.
- "I won't be reasonable; I don't want to take what you call 'a
- sensible view'; it won't help me, and it only makes you harder. I
- don't believe you've got any heart."
- "I wish I hadn't!"
- There was a little quiver in Jo's voice, and, thinking it a good
- omen, Laurie turned round, bringing all his persuasive powers to
- bear as he said, in the wheedlesome tone that had never been so
- dangerously wheedlesome before-
- "Don't disappoint us, dear! Every one expects it. Grandpa has set
- his heart upon it, your people like it and I can't get on without you.
- Say you will, and let's be happy. Do, do!"
- Not until months afterward did Jo understand how she had the
- strength of mind to hold fast to the resolution she had made when
- she decided that she did not love her boy, and never could. It was
- very hard to do, but she did it, knowing that delay was both useless
- and cruel.
- "I can't say 'Yes' truly, so I won't say it at all. You'll see
- that I'm right, by and by, and thank me for it"- she began solemnly.
- "I'll be hanged if I do!" and Laurie bounced up off the grass,
- burning with indignation at the bare idea.
- "Yes, you will!" persisted Jo; "you'll get over this after a
- while, and find some lovely, accomplished girl, who will adore you,
- and make a fine mistress for your fine house. I shouldn't. I'm
- homely and awkward and odd and old, and you'd be ashamed of me, and we
- should quarrel- we can't help it even now, you see- and I shouldn't
- like elegant society and you would, and you'd hate my scribbling,
- and I couldn't get on without it, and we should be unhappy, and wish
- we hadn't done it, and everything would be horrid!"
- "Anything more?" asked Laurie, finding it hard to listen patiently
- to this prophetic burst.
- "Nothing more, except that I don't believe I shall ever marry. I'm
- happy as I am, and love my liberty too well to be in any hurry to give
- it up for any mortal man."
- "I know better!" broke in Laurie. "You think so now; but there'll
- come a time when you will care for somebody, and you'll love him
- tremendously, and live and die for him. I know you will, it's your
- way, and I shall have to stand by and see it"; and the despairing
- lover cast his hat upon the ground with a gesture that would have
- seemed comical, if his face had not been so tragical.
- "Yes, I will live and die for him, if he ever comes and makes me
- love him in spite of myself, and you must do the best you can!"
- cried Jo, losing patience with poor Teddy. "I've done my best, but you
- won't be reasonable, and it's selfish of you to keep teasing for
- what I can't give. I shall always be fond of you, very fond indeed, as
- a friend, but I'll never marry you; and the sooner you believe it
- the better for both of us- so now!"
- That speech was like fire to gunpowder. Laurie looked at her a
- minute as if he did not quite know what to do with himself, then
- turned sharply away, saying, in a desperate sort of tone-
- "You'll be sorry some day, Jo."
- "Oh, where are you going?" she cried, for his face frightened her.
- "To the devil!" was the consoling answer.
- For a minute Jo's heart stood still, as he swung himself down the
- bank, toward the river; but it takes much folly, sin, or misery to
- send a young man to a violent death, and Laurie was not one of the
- weak sort who are conquered by a single failure. He had no thought
- of a melodramatic plunge, but some blind instinct led him to fling hat
- and coat into his boat, and row away with all his might, making better
- time up the river than he had done in many a race. Jo drew a long
- breath and unclasped her hands as she watched the poor fellow trying
- to outstrip the trouble which he carried in his heart.
- "That will do him good, and he'll come home in such a tender,
- penitent state of mind, that I shan't dare to see him, she said;
- adding, as she went slowly home, feeling as if she had murdered some
- innocent thing, and buried it under the leaves-
- "Now I must go and prepare Mr. Laurence to be very kind to my poor
- boy. I wish he'd love Beth; perhaps he may, in time, but I begin to
- think I was mistaken about her. Oh dear! how can girls like to have
- lovers and refuse them. I think it's dreadful."
- Being sure that no one could do it so well as herself, she went
- straight to Mr. Laurence, told the hard story bravely through, and
- then broke down, crying so dismally over her own insensibility that
- the kind old gentleman, though sorely disappointed, did not utter a
- reproach. He found it difficult to understand how any girl could
- help loving Laurie, and hoped she would change her mind, but he knew
- even better than Jo that love cannot be forced, so he shook his head
- sadly, and resolved to carry his boy out of harm's way; for Young
- Impetuosity's parting words to Jo disturbed him more than he would
- confess.
- When Laurie came home, dead tired, but quite composed, his
- grandfather met him as if he knew nothing, and kept up the delusion
- very successfully for an hour or two. But when they sat together in
- the twilight, the time they used to enjoy so much, it was hard work
- for the old man to ramble on as usual, and harder still for the
- young one to listen to praises of the last year's success, which to
- him now seemed love's labor lost. He bore it as long as he could, then
- went to his piano, and began to play. The windows were open; and Jo,
- walking in the garden with Beth, for once understood music better than
- her sister, for he played the "Sonata Pathetique," and played it as he
- never did before.
- "That's very fine, I dare say, but it's sad enough to make one
- cry; give us something gayer, lad," said Mr. Laurence, whose kind
- old heart was full of sympathy, which he longed to show, but knew
- not how.
- Laurie dashed into a livelier strain, played stormily for several
- minutes, and would have got through bravely, if, in a momentary
- lull, Mrs. March's voice had not been heard calling-
- "Jo, dear, come in; I want you."
- Just what Laurie longed to say, with a different meaning! As he
- listened, he lost his place; the music ended with a broken chord,
- and the musician sat silent in the dark.
- "I can't stand this," muttered the old gentleman. Up he got,
- groped his way to the piano, laid a kind hand on either of the broad
- shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, "I know, my boy, I know."
- No answer for an instant; then Laurie asked sharply-
- "Who told you?"
- "Jo herself."
- "Then there's an end of it!" and he shook off his grandfather's
- hands with an impatient motion; for, though grateful for the sympathy,
- his man's pride could not bear a man's pity.
- "Not quite! I want to say one thing, and then there shall be an
- end of it," returned Mr. Laurence, with unusual mildness. "You won't
- care to stay at home just now, perhaps?"
- "I don't intend to run away from a girl. Jo can't prevent my
- seeing her, and I shall stay and do it as long as I like," interrupted
- Laurie, in a defiant tone.
- "Not if you are the gentleman I think you. I'm disappointed, but the
- girl can't help it; and the only thing left for you to do is to go
- away for a time. Where will you go?"
- "Anywhere. I don't care what becomes of me" and Laurie got up,
- with a reckless laugh, that grated on his grandfather's ear.
- "Take it like a man, and don't do anything rash, for God's sake. Why
- not go abroad, as you planned, and forget it?"
- "I can't."
- "But you've been wild to go, and I promised you should when you
- got through college."
- "Ah, but I didn't mean to go alone!" and Laurie walked fast
- through the room, with an expression which it was well his grandfather
- did not see.
- "I don't ask you to go alone; there's some one ready and glad to
- go with you, anywhere in the world."
- "Who, sir?" stopping to listen.
- "Myself."
- Laurie came back as quickly as he went, and put out his hand, saying
- huskily-
- "I'm a selfish brute; but- you know- grandfather-"
- "Lord help me, yes, I do know, for I've been through it all
- before, once in my own young days, and then with your father. Now,
- my dear boy, just sit quietly down, and hear my plan. It's all
- settled, and can be carried out at once," said Mr. Laurence, keeping
- hold of the young man, as if fearful that he would break away, as
- his father had done before him.
- "Well, sir, what is it?" and Laurie sat down, without a sign of
- interest in face or voice.
- "There is business in London that needs looking after; I meant you
- should attend to it; but I can do it better myself, and things here
- will get on very well with Brooke to manage them. My partners do
- almost everything; I'm merely holding on till you take my place, and
- can be off at any time."
- "But you hate travelling, sir; I can't ask it of you at your age,"
- began Laurie, who was grateful for the sacrifice, but much preferred
- to go alone, if he went at all.
- The old gentleman knew that perfectly well, and particularly desired
- to prevent it; for the mood in which he found his grandson assured him
- that it would not be wise to leave him to his own devices. So,
- stiffing a natural regret at the thought of the home comforts he would
- leave behind him, he said stoutly-
- "Bless your soul, I'm not superannuated yet. I quite enjoy the idea;
- it will do me good, and my old bones won't suffer, for travelling
- nowadays is almost as easy as sitting in a chair."
- A restless movement from Laurie suggested that his chair was not
- easy, or that he did not like the plan, and made the old man add
- hastily-
- "I don't mean to be a marplot or a burden; I go because I think
- you'd feel happier than if I was left behind. I don't intend to gad
- about with you, but leave you free to go where you like, while I amuse
- myself in my own way. I've friends in London and Paris, and should
- like to visit them; meantime you can go to Italy, Germany,
- Switzerland, where you will, and enjoy pictures, music, scenery, and
- adventures to your heart's content."
- Now, Laurie felt just then that his heart was entirely broken, and
- the world a howling wilderness; but at the sound of certain words
- which the old gentleman artfully introduced into his closing sentence,
- the broken heart gave an unexpected leap, and a green oasis or two
- suddenly appeared in the howling wilderness. He sighed, and then said,
- in a spiritless tone-
- "Just as you like, sir; it doesn't matter where I go or what I do."
- "It does to me, remember that, my lad; I give you entire liberty,
- but I trust you to make an honest use of it. Promise me that, Laurie."
- "Anything you like, sir."
- "Good," thought the old gentleman. "You don't care now, but there'll
- come a time when that promise will keep you out of mischief, or I'm
- much mistaken."
- Being an energetic individual, Mr. Laurence struck while the iron
- was hot; and before the blighted being recovered spirit enough to
- rebel, they were off. During the time necessary for preparation,
- Laurie bore himself as young gentlemen usually do in such cases. He
- was moody, irritable, and pensive by turns; lost his appetite,
- neglected his dress, and devoted much time to playing tempestuously on
- his piano; avoided Jo, but consoled himself by staring at her from his
- window, with a tragical face that haunted her dreams by night, and
- oppressed her with a heavy sense of guilt by day. Unlike some
- sufferers, he never spoke of his unrequited passion, and would allow
- no one, not even Mrs. March, to attempt consolation or offer sympathy.
- On some accounts, this was a relief to his friends; but the weeks
- before his departure were very uncomfortable, and every one rejoiced
- that the "poor, dear fellow was going away to forget his trouble,
- and come home happy." Of course, he smiled darkly at their delusion,
- but passed it by, with the sad superiority of one who knew that his
- fidelity, like his love, was unalterable.
- When the parting came he affected high spirits, to conceal certain
- inconvenient emotions which seemed inclined to assert themselves. This
- gayety did not impose upon anybody, but they tried to look as if it
- did, for his sake, and he got on very well till Mrs. March kissed him,
- with a whisper full of motherly solicitude; then, feeling that he
- was going very fast, he hastily embraced them all round, not
- forgetting the afflicted Hannah, and ran downstairs as if for his
- life. Jo followed a minute after to wave her hand to him if he
- looked round. He did look round, came back, put his arms about her, as
- she stood on the step above him, and looked up at her with a face that
- made his short appeal both eloquent and pathetic.
- "O Jo, can't you?"
- "Teddy, dear, I wish I could!"
- That was all, except a little pause; then Laurie straightened
- himself up, said, "It's all right, never mind," and went away
- without another word. Ah, but it wasn't all right, and Jo did mind;
- for while the curly head lay on her arm a minute after her hard
- answer, she felt as if she had stabbed her dearest friend; and when he
- left her without a look behind him, she knew that the boy Laurie never
- would come again.
- 36
- Beth's Secret
-
- WHEN Jo came home that spring, she had been struck with the change
- in Beth. No one spoke of it or seemed aware of it, for it had come too
- gradually to startle those who saw her daily; but to eyes sharpened by
- absence, it was very plain; and a heavy weight fell on Jo's heart as
- she saw her sister's face. It was no paler and but little thinner than
- in the autumn; yet there was a strange, transparent look about it,
- as if the mortal was being slowly refined away, and the immortal
- shining through the frail flesh with an indescribably pathetic beauty.
- Jo saw and felt it, but said nothing at the time, and soon the first
- impression lost much of its power; for Beth seemed happy, no one
- appeared to doubt that she was better; and, presently, in other cares,
- Jo for a time forgot her fear.
- But when Laurie was gone, and peace prevailed again, the vague
- anxiety returned and haunted her. She had confessed her sins and
- been forgiven; but when she showed her savings and proposed the
- mountain trip, Beth had thanked her heartily, but begged not to go
- so far away from home. Another little visit to the seashore would suit
- her better, and, as grandma could not be prevailed upon to leave the
- babies, Jo took Beth down to the quiet place, where she could live
- much in the open air, and let the fresh sea-breezes blow a little
- color into her pale cheeks.
- It was not a fashionable place, but, even among the pleasant
- people there, the girls made few friends, preferring to live for one
- another. Beth was too shy to enjoy society, and Jo too wrapped up in
- her to care for any one else; so they were all in all to each other,
- and came and went, quite unconscious of the interest they excited in
- those about them, who watched with sympathetic eyes the strong
- sister and the feeble one, always together, as if they felt
- instinctively that a long separation was not far away.
- They did feel it, yet neither spoke of it; for often between
- ourselves and those nearest and dearest to us there exists a reserve
- which it is very hard to overcome. Jo felt as if a veil had fallen
- between her heart and Beth's; but when she put out her hand to lift it
- up, there seemed something sacred in the silence, and she waited for
- Beth to speak. She wondered, and was thankful also, that her parents
- did not seem to see what she saw; and, during the quiet weeks, when
- the shadow grew so plain to her, she said nothing of it to those at
- home, believing that it would tell itself when Beth came back no
- better. She wondered still more if her sister really guessed the
- hard truth, and what thoughts were passing through her mind during the
- long hours when she lay on the warm rocks, with her head in Jo's
- lap, while the winds blew healthfully over her, and the sea made music
- at her feet.
- One day Beth told her. Jo thought she was asleep, she lay so
- still; and, putting down her book, sat looking at her with wistful
- eyes, trying to see signs of hope in the faint color on Beth's cheeks.
- But she could not find enough to satisfy her, for the cheeks were very
- thin, and the hands seemed too feeble to hold even the rosy little
- shells they had been gathering. It came to her then more bitterly than
- ever that Beth was slowly drifting away from her, and her arms
- instinctively tightened their hold upon the dearest treasure she
- possessed. For a minute her eyes were too dim for seeing, and, when
- they cleared, Beth was looking up at her so tenderly that there was
- hardly any need for her to say-
- "Jo, dear, I'm glad you know it. I've tried to tell you, but I
- couldn't."
- There was no answer except her sister's cheek against her own, not
- even tears; for when most deeply moved, Jo did not cry. She was the
- weaker, then, and Beth tried to comfort and sustain her, with her arms
- about her, and the soothing words she whispered in her ear.
- "I've known it for a good while, dear, and, now I'm used to it, it
- isn't hard to think of or to bear. Try to see it so, and don't be
- troubled about me, because it's best; indeed it is."
- "Is this what made you so unhappy in the autumn, Beth? You did not
- feel it then, and keep it to yourself so long, did you?" asked Jo,
- refusing to see or say that it was best, but glad to know that
- Laurie had no part in Beth's trouble.
- "Yes, I gave up hoping then, but I didn't like to own it. I tried to
- think it was a sick fancy, and would not let it trouble any one. But
- when I saw you all so well and strong, and full of happy plans, it was
- hard to feel that I could never be like you, and then I was miserable,
- Jo."
- "O Beth, and you didn't tell me, didn't let me comfort and help you!
- How could you shut me out, and bear it all alone?"
- Jo's voice was full of tender reproach, and her heart ached to think
- of the solitary struggle that must have gone on while Beth learned
- to say good-by to health, love, and life, and take up her cross so
- cheerfully.
- "Perhaps it was wrong, but I tried to do right; I wasn't sure, no
- one said anything, and I hoped I was mistaken. It would have been
- selfish to frighten you all when Marmee was so anxious about Meg,
- and Amy away, and you so happy with Laurie- at least, I thought so
- then."
- "And I thought that you loved him, Beth, and I went away because I
- couldn't," cried Jo, glad to say all the truth.
- Beth looked so amazed at the idea that Jo smiled in spite of her
- pain, and added softly-
- "Then you didn't, deary? I was afraid it was so, and imagined your
- poor little heart full of love-lornity all that while."
- "Why, Jo, how could I, when he was so fond of you?" asked Beth, as
- innocently as a child. "I do love him dearly; he is so good to me, how
- can I help it? But he never could be anything to me but my brother.
- I hope he truly will be, sometime."
- "Not through me," said Jo decidedly. "Amy is left for him, and
- they would suit excellently; but I have no heart for such things, now.
- I don't care what becomes of anybody but you, Beth. You must get
- well."
- "I want to, oh, so much! I try, but every day I lose a little, and
- feel more sure that I shall never gain it back. It's like the tide,
- Jo, when it turns, it goes slowly, but it can't be stopped."
- "It shall be stopped, your tide must not turn so soon, nineteen is
- too young. Beth, I can't let you go. I'll work and pray and fight
- against it. I'll keep you in spite of everything; there must be
- ways, it can't be too late. God won't be so cruel as to take you
- from me," cried poor Jo rebelliously, for her spirit was far less
- piously submissive than Beth's.
- Simple, sincere people seldom speak much of their piety; it shows
- itself in acts, rather than in words, and has more influence than
- homilies or protestations. Beth could not reason upon or explain the
- faith that gave her courage and patience to give up life, and
- cheerfully wait for death. Like a confiding child, she asked no
- questions, but left everything to God and nature, Father and mother of
- us all, feeling sure that they, and they only, could teach and
- strengthen heart and spirit for this life and the life to come. She
- did not rebuke Jo with saintly speeches, only loved her better for her
- passionate affection, and clung more closely to the dear human love,
- from which our Father never means us to be weaned, but through which
- He draws us closer to Himself. She could not say, "I'm glad to go,"
- for life was very sweet to her; she could only sob out, "I try to be
- willing," while she held fast to Jo, as the first bitter wave of
- this great sorrow broke over them together.
- By and by Beth said, with recovered serenity-
- "You'll tell them this when we go home?"
- "I think they will see it without words," sighed Jo; for now it
- seemed to her that Beth changed every day.
- "Perhaps not; I've heard that the people who love best are often
- blindest to such things. If they don't see it, you will tell them
- for me. I don't want any secrets, and it's kinder to prepare them. Meg
- has John and the babies to comfort her, but you must stand by father
- and mother, won't you, Jo?"
- "If I can; but Beth, I don't give up yet; I'm going to believe
- that it is a sick fancy, and not let you think it's true," said Jo,
- trying to speak cheerfully.
- Beth lay a minute thinking, and then said in her quiet way-
- "I don't know how to express myself, and shouldn't try to any one
- but you, because I can't speak out, except to my Jo. I only mean to
- say that I have a feeling that it never was intended I should live
- long. I'm not like the rest of you; I never made any plans about
- what I'd do when I grew up; I never thought of being married, as you
- all did. I couldn't seem to imagine myself anything but stupid
- little Beth, trotting about at home, of no use anywhere but there. I
- never wanted to go away, and the hard part now is the leaving you all.
- I'm not afraid, but it seems as if I should be homesick for you even
- in heaven."
- Jo could not speak; and for several minutes there was no sound but
- the sigh of the wind and the lapping of the tide. A white-winged
- gull flew by, with the flash of sunshine on its silvery breast; Beth
- watched it till it vanished, and her eyes were full of sadness. A
- little gray-coated sand-bird came tripping over the beach, "peeping"
- softly to itself, as if enjoying the sun and sea; it came quite
- close to Beth, looked at her with a friendly eye, and sat upon a
- warm stone, dressing its wet feathers, quite at home. Beth smiled, and
- felt comforted, for the tiny thing seemed to offer its small
- friendship, and remind her that a pleasant world was still to be
- enjoyed.
- "Dear little bird! See, Jo, how tame it is. I like peeps better than
- the gulls: they are not so wild and handsome, but they seem happy,
- confiding little things. I used to call them my birds, last summer;
- and mother said they reminded her of me- busy, quaker-colored
- creatures, always near the shore, and always chirping that contented
- little song of theirs. You are the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond
- of the storm and the wind, flying far out to sea, and happy all alone.
- Meg is the turtle-dove, and Amy is like the lark she writes about,
- trying to get up among the clouds, but always dropping down into its
- nest again. Dear little girl! she's so ambitious, but her heart is
- good and tender; and no matter how high she flies, she never will
- forget home. I hope I shall see her again, but she seems so far away."
- "She is coming in the spring, and I mean that you shall be all ready
- to see and enjoy her. I'm going to have you well and rosy by that
- time," began Jo, feeling that of all the changes in Beth, the
- talking change was the greatest, for it seemed to cost no effort
- now, and she thought aloud in a way quite unlike bashful Beth.
- "Jo, dear, don't hope any more; it won't do any good, I'm sure of
- that. We won't be miserable, but enjoy being together while we wait.
- We'll have happy times, for I don't suffer much, and I think the
- tide will go out easily, if you help me."
- Jo leaned down to kiss the tranquil face; and with that silent kiss,
- she dedicated herself soul and body to Beth.
- She was right: there was no need of any words when they got home,
- for father and mother saw plainly, now, what they had prayed to be
- saved from seeing. Tired with her short journey, Beth went at once
- to bed, saying how glad she was to be at home; and when Jo went
- down, she found that she would be spared the hard task of telling
- Beth's secret. Her father stood leaning his head on the
- mantel-piece, and did not turn as she came in; but her mother
- stretched out her arms as if for help, and Jo went to comfort her
- without a word.
- 37
- New Impressions
-
- AT three o'clock in the afternoon, all the fashionable world at Nice
- may be seen on the Promenade des Anglais- a charming place; for the
- wide walk, bordered with palms, flowers, and tropical shrubs, is
- bounded on one side by the sea, on the other by the grand drive, lined
- with hotels and villas, while beyond he orange-orchards and the hills.
- Many nations are represented, many languages spoken, many costumes
- worn; and, on a sunny day, the spectacle is as gay and brilliant as
- a carnival. Haughty English, lively French, sober Germans, handsome
- Spaniards, ugly Russians, meek Jews, free-and-easy Americans, all
- drive, sit, or saunter here, chatting over the news, and criticizing
- the latest celebrity who has arrived- Ristori or Dickens, Victor
- Emmanuel or the Queen of the Sandwich Islands. The equipages are as
- varied as the company, and attract as much attention, especially the
- low basket-barouches in which ladies drive themselves, with a pair
- of dashing ponies, gay nets to keep their voluminous flounces from
- overflowing the diminutive vehicles, and little grooms on the perch
- behind.
- Along this walk, on Christmas Day, a tall young man walked slowly,
- with his hands behind him, and a somewhat absent expression of
- countenance. He looked like an Italian, was dressed like an
- Englishman, and had the independent air of an American- a
- combination which caused sundry pairs of feminine eyes to look
- approvingly after him, and sundry dandies in black velvet suits,
- with rose-colored neckties, buff gloves, and orange-flowers in their
- button-holes, to shrug their shoulders, and then envy him his
- inches. There were plenty of pretty faces to admire, but the young man
- took little notice of them, except to glance, now and then, at some
- blonde girl, or lady in blue. Presently he strolled out of the
- promenade, and stood a moment at the crossing, as if undecided whether
- to go and listen to the band in the Jardin Publique, or to wander
- along the beach toward Castle Hill. The quick trot of ponies' feet
- made him look up, as one of the little carriages, containing a
- single lady, came rapidly down the street. The lady was young, blonde,
- and dressed in blue. He stared a minute, then his whole face woke
- up, and, waving his hat like a boy, he hurried forward to meet her.
- "O Laurie, is it really you? I thought you'd never come!" cried Amy,
- dropping the reins, and holding out both hands, to the great
- scandalization of a French mamma, who hastened her daughter's steps,
- lest she should be demoralized by beholding the free manners of
- these "mad English."
- "I was detained by the way, but I promised to spend Christmas with
- you, and here I am."
- "How is your grandfather? When did you come? Where are you staying?"
- "Very well- last night- at the Chauvain. I called at your hotel, but
- you were all out."
- "I have so much to say, I don't know where to begin! Get in, and
- we can talk at our ease; I was going for a drive, and longing for
- company. Flo's saving up for to-night."
- "What happens then, a ball?"
- "A Christmas party at our hotel. There are many Americans there, and
- they give it in honor of the day. You'll go with us, of course? Aunt
- will be charmed."
- "Thank you. Where now?" asked Laurie, leaning back and folding his
- arms, a proceeding which suited Amy, who preferred to drive; for her
- parasol-whip and blue reins over the white ponies' backs, afforded her
- infinite satisfaction.
- "I'm going to the banker's first, for letters, and then to Castle
- Hill; the view is so lovely, and I like to feed the peacocks. Have you
- ever been there?"
- "Often, years ago; but I don't mind having a look at it."
- "Now tell me all about yourself. The last I heard of you, your
- grandfather wrote that he expected you from Berlin."
- "Yes, I spent a month there, and then joined him in Paris, where
- he has settled for the winter. He has friends there, and finds
- plenty to amuse him; so I go and come, and we get on capitally."
- "That's a sociable arrangement," said Amy, missing something in
- Laurie's manner, though she couldn't tell what.
- "Why, you see he hates to travel, and I hate to keep still; so we
- each suit ourselves, and there is no trouble. I am often with him, and
- he enjoys my adventures, while I like to feel that some one is glad to
- see me when I get back from my wanderings. Dirty old hole, isn't
- it?" he added, with a look of disgust, as they drove along the
- boulevard to the Place Napoleon, in the old city.
- "The dirt is picturesque, so I don't mind. The river and the hills
- are delicious, and these glimpses of the narrow cross-streets are my
- delight. Now we shall have to wait for that procession to pass; it's
- going to the Church of St. John."
- While Laurie listlessly watched the procession of priests under
- their canopies, white-veiled nuns bearing lighted tapers, and some
- brotherhood in blue, chanting as they walked, Amy watched him, and
- felt a new sort of shyness steal over her; for he was changed, and she
- could not find the merry-faced boy she left in the moody-looking man
- beside her. He was handsomer than ever, and greatly improved, she
- thought; but now that the flush of pleasure at meeting her was over,
- he looked tired and spiritless- not sick, nor exactly unhappy, but
- older and graver than a year or two of prosperous life should have
- made him. She couldn't understand it, and did not venture to ask
- questions; so she shook her head, and touched up her ponies, as the
- procession wound away across the arches of the Paglioni bridge, and
- vanished in the church.
- "Que pensez-vous?" she said, airing her French, which had improved
- in quantity, if not in quality, since she came abroad.
- "That mademoiselle has made good use of her time, and the result
- is charming," replied Laurie, bowing, with his hand on his heart,
- and an admiring look.
- She blushed with pleasure, but somehow the compliment did not
- satisfy her like the blunt praises he used to give her at home, when
- he promenaded round her on festival occasions, and told her she was
- "altogether jolly," with a hearty smile and an approving pat on the
- head. She didn't like the new tone; for, though not blase, it
- sounded indifferent in spite of the look.
- "If that's the way he's going to grow up, I wish he'd stay a boy,"
- she thought, with a curious sense of disappointment and discomfort,
- trying meantime to seem quite easy and gay.
- At Avigdor's she found the precious home-letters, and, giving the
- reins to Laurie, read them luxuriously as they wound up the shady road
- between green hedges, where tea-roses bloomed as freshly as in June.
- "Beth is very poorly, mother says. I often think I ought to go home,
- but they all say 'stay'; so I do, for I shall never have another
- chance like this," said Amy, looking sober over one page.
- "I think you are right, there; you could do nothing at home, and
- it is a great comfort to them to know that you are well and happy, and
- enjoying so much, my dear."
- He drew a little nearer, and looked more like his old self, as he
- said that; and the fear that sometimes weighed on Amy's heart was
- lightened, for the look, the act, the brotherly "my dear," seemed to
- assure her that if any trouble did come, she would not be alone in a
- strange land. Presently she laughed, and showed him a small sketch
- of Jo in her scribbling-suit, with the bow rampantly erect upon her
- cap, and issuing from her mouth the words, "Genius burns!"
- Laurie smiled, took it, put it in his vest-pocket, "to keep it
- from blowing away," and listened with interest to the lively letter
- Amy read him.
- "This will be a regularly merry Christmas to me, with presents in
- the morning, you and letters in the afternoon, and a party at
- night," said Amy, as they alighted among the ruins of the old fort,
- and a flock of splendid peacocks came trooping about them, tamely
- waiting to be fed. While Amy stood laughing on the bank above him as
- she scattered crumbs to the brilliant birds, Laurie looked at her as
- she had looked at him, with a natural curiosity to see what changes
- time and absence had wrought. He found nothing to perplex or
- disappoint, much to admire and approve; for, overlooking a few
- little affectations of speech and manner, she was as sprightly and
- graceful as ever, with the addition of that indescribable something in
- dress and bearing which we call elegance. Always mature for her age,
- she had gained a certain aplomb in both carriage and conversation,
- which made her seem more of a woman of the world than she was; but her
- old petulance now and then showed itself, her strong will held its
- own, and her native frankness was unspoiled by foreign polish.
- Laurie did not read all this while he watched her feed the peacocks,
- but he saw enough to satisfy and interest him, and carried away a
- pretty little picture of a bright-faced girl standing in the sunshine,
- which brought out the soft hue of her dress, the fresh color of her
- cheeks, the golden gloss of her hair, and made her a prominent
- figure in the pleasant scene.
- As they came up on to the stone plateau that crowns the hill, Amy
- waved her hand as if welcoming him to her favorite haunt, and said,
- pointing here and there-
- "Do you remember the Cathedral and the Corso, the fishermen dragging
- their nets in the bay, and the lovely road to Villa Franca, Schubert's
- Tower, just below, and, best of all, that speck far out to sea which
- they say is Corsica?"
- "I remember; it's not much changed," he answered, without
- enthusiasm.
- "What Jo would give for a sight of that famous speck!" said Amy,
- feeling in good spirits, and anxious to see him so also.
- "Yes," was all he said, but he turned and strained his eyes to see
- the island which a greater usurper than even Napoleon now made
- interesting in his sight.
- "Take a good look at it for her sake, and then come and tell me what
- you have been doing with yourself all this while," said Amy, seating
- herself, ready for a good talk.
- But she did not get it; for, though he joined her, and answered
- all her questions freely, she could only learn that he had roved about
- the continent and been to Greece. So, after idling away an hour,
- they drove home again; and, having paid his respects to Mrs. Carrol,
- Laurie left them, promising to return in the evening.
- It must be recorded of Amy that she deliberately "prinked" that
- night. Time and absence had done its work on both the young people;
- she had seen her old friend in a new light, not as "our boy," but as a
- handsome and agreeable man, and she was conscious of a very natural
- desire to find favor in his sight. Amy knew her good points, and
- made the most of them, with the taste and skill which is a fortune
- to a poor and pretty woman.
- Tarlatan and tulle were cheap at Nice, so she enveloped herself in
- them on such occasions, and, following the sensible English fashion of
- simple dress for young girls, got up charming little toilettes with
- fresh flowers, a few trinkets, and all manner of dainty devices, which
- were both inexpensive and effective. It must be confessed that the
- artist sometimes got possession of the woman, and indulged in
- antique coiffures, statuesque attitudes, and classic draperies. But,
- dear heart, we all have our little weaknesses, and find it easy to
- pardon such in the young, who satisfy our eyes with their
- comeliness, and keep our hearts merry with their artless vanities.
- "I do want him to think I look well, and tell them so at home," said
- Amy to herself, as she put on Flo's old white silk ball-dress, and
- covered it with a cloud of fresh illusion, out of which her white
- shoulders and golden head emerged with a most artistic effect. Her
- hair she had the sense to let alone, after gathering up the thick
- waves and curls into a Hebe-like knot at the back of her head.
- "It's not the fashion, but it's becoming, and I can't afford to make
- a fright of myself," she used to say, when advised to frizzle, puff,
- or braid, as the latest style commanded.
- Having no ornaments fine enough for this important occasion, Amy
- looped her fleecy skirts with rosy clusters of azalea, and framed
- the white shoulders in delicate green vines. Remembering the painted
- boots, she surveyed her white satin slippers with girlish
- satisfaction, and chasseed down the room, admiring her aristocratic
- feet all by herself.
- "My new fan just matches my flowers, my gloves fit to a charm, and
- the real lace on aunt's mouchoir gives an air to my whole dress. If
- I only had a classical nose and mouth I should be perfectly happy,"
- she said, surveying herself with a critical eye, and a candle in
- each hand.
- In spite of this affliction, she looked unusually gay and graceful
- as she glided away; she seldom ran- it did not suit her style, she
- thought, for, being tall, the stately and Junoesque was more
- appropriate than the sportive or piquante. She walked up and down
- the long saloon while waiting for Laurie, and once arranged herself
- under the chandelier, which had a good effect upon her hair; then
- she thought better of it, and went away to the other end of the
- room, as if ashamed of the girlish desire to have the first view a
- propitious one. It so happened that she could not have done a better
- thing, for Laurie came in so quietly she did not hear him; and, as she
- stood at the distant window, with her head half turned, and one hand
- gathering up her dress, the slender, white figure against the red
- curtains was as effective as a well-placed statue.
- "Good evening, Diana!" said Laurie, with the look of satisfaction
- she liked to see in his eyes when they rested on her.
- "Good evening, Apollo!" she answered, smiling back at him, for he,
- too, looked unusually debonnaire, and the thought of entering the
- ballroom on the arm of such a personable man caused Amy to pity the
- four plain Misses Davis from the bottom of her heart.
- "Here are your flowers; I arranged them myself, remembering that you
- didn't like what Hannah calls a 'sot-bookay,'" said Laurie, handing
- her a delicate nosegay, in a holder that she had long coveted as she
- daily passed it in Cardiglia's window.
- "How kind you are!" she exclaimed gratefully. "If I'd known you were
- coming I'd have had something ready for you to-day, though not as
- pretty as this, I'm afraid."
- "Thank you; it isn't what it should be, but you have improved it,"
- he added, as she snapped the silver bracelet on her wrist.
- "Please don't."
- "I thought you liked that sort of thing?"
- "Not from you; it doesn't sound natural, and I like your old
- bluntness better."
- "I'm glad of it," he answered, with a look of relief; then
- buttoned her gloves for her, and asked if his tie was straight, just
- as he used to do when they went to parties together, at home.
- The company assembled in the long salle a manger, that evening,
- was such as one sees nowhere but on the Continent. The hospitable
- Americans had invited every acquaintance they had in Nice, and, having
- no prejudice against titles, secured a few to add lustre to their
- Christmas ball.
- A Russian prince condescended to sit in a corner for an hour, and
- talk with a massive lady, dressed like Hamlet's mother, in black
- velvet, with a pearl bridle under her chin. A Polish count, aged
- eighteen, devoted himself to the ladies, who pronounced him "a
- fascinating dear," and a German Serene Something, having come for
- the supper alone, roamed vaguely about, seeking what he might
- devour. Baron Rothschild's private secretary, a large-nosed Jew, in
- tight boots, affably beamed upon the world, as if his master's name
- crowned him with a golden halo; a stout Frenchman, who knew the
- Emperor, came to indulge his mania for dancing, and Lady de Jones, a
- British matron, adorned the scene with her little family of eight.
- Of course, there were many light-footed, shrill-voiced American girls,
- handsome, lifeless-looking English ditto, and a few plain but piquante
- French demoiselles; likewise the usual set of travelling young
- gentlemen, who disported themselves gayly, while mammas of all nations
- lined the walls, and smiled upon them benignly when they danced with
- their daughters.
- Any young girl can imagine Amy's state of mind when she "took the
- stage" that night, leaning on Laurie's arm. She knew she looked
- well, she loved to dance, she felt that her foot was on her native
- heath in a ballroom, and enjoyed the delightful sense of power which
- comes when young girls first discover the new and lovely kingdom
- they are born to rule by virtue of beauty, youth, and womanhood. She
- did pity the Davis girls, who were awkward, plain, and destitute of
- escort, except a grim papa and three grimmer maiden aunts, and she
- bowed to them in her friendliest manner as she passed; which was
- good of her, as it permitted them to see her dress, and burn with
- curiosity to know who her distinguished-looking friend might be.
- With the first burst of the band, Amy's color rose, her eyes began
- to sparkle, and her feet to tap the floor impatiently; for she
- danced well, and wanted Laurie to know it: therefore the shock she
- received can better be imagined than described, when he said, in a
- perfectly tranquil tone-
- "Do you care to dance?"
- "One usually does at a ball."
- Her amazed look and quick answer caused Laurie to repair his error
- as fast as possible.
- "I meant the first dance. May I have the honor?"
- "I can give you one if I put off the Count. He dances divinely;
- but he will excuse me, as you are an old friend," said Amy, hoping
- that the name would have a good effect, and show Laurie that she was
- not to be trifled with.
- "Nice little boy, but rather a short Pole to support
-
- "'A daughter of the gods,
- Divinely tall, and most divinely fair,'"
-
- was all the satisfaction she got, however.
- The set in which they found themselves was composed of English,
- and Amy was compelled to walk decorously through a cotillion,
- feeling all the while as if she could dance the Tarantula with a
- relish. Laurie resigned her to the "nice little boy," and went to do
- his duty to Flo, without securing Amy for the joys to come, which
- reprehensible want of forethought was properly punished, for she
- immediately engaged herself till supper, meaning to relent if he
- then gave any signs of penitence. She showed him her ball-book with
- demure satisfaction when he strolled, instead of rushing, up to
- claim her for the next, a glorious polka-redowa; but his polite
- regrets didn't impose upon her, and when she gallopaded away with
- the Count, she saw Laurie sit down by her aunt with an actual
- expression of relief.
- That was unpardonable; and Amy took no more notice of him for a long
- while, except a word now and then, when she came to her chaperon,
- between the dances, for a necessary pin or a moment's rest. Her
- anger had a good effect, however, for she hid it under a smiling face,
- and seemed unusually blithe and brilliant. Laurie's eyes followed
- her with pleasure for she neither romped nor sauntered, but danced
- with spirit and grace, making the delightsome pastime what it should
- be. He very naturally fell to studying her from this new point of
- view; and, before the evening was half over, had decided that
- "little Amy was going to make a very charming woman."
- It was a lively scene, for soon the spirit of the social season took
- possession of every one, and Christmas merriment made all faces shine,
- hearts happy, and heels light. The musicians fiddled, tooted, and
- banged as if they enjoyed it; everybody danced who could, and those
- who couldn't admired their neighbors with uncommon warmth. The air was
- dark with Davises, and many Joneses gambolled like a flock of young
- giraffes. The golden secretary darted through the room like a
- meteor, with a dashing Frenchwoman, who carpeted the floor with her
- pink satin train. The Serene Teuton found the supper-table, and was
- happy, eating steadily through the bill of fare, and dismayed the
- garcons by the ravages he committed. But the Emperor's friend
- covered himself with glory, for he danced everything, whether he
- knew it or not, and introduced impromptu pirouettes when the figures
- bewildered him. The boyish abandon of that stout man was charming to
- behold; for, though he "carried weight," he danced like an
- india-rubber ball. He ran, he flew, he pranced; his face glowed, his
- bald head shone; his coat-tails waved wildly, his pumps actually
- twinkled in the air, and when the music stopped, he wiped the drops
- from his brow, and beamed upon his fellow-men like a French Pickwick
- without glasses.
- Amy and her Pole distinguished themselves by equal enthusiasm, but
- more graceful agility; and Laurie found himself involuntarily
- keeping time to the rhythmic rise and fall of the white slippers as
- they flew by as indefatigably as if winged. When little Vladimir
- finally relinquished her with assurances that he was "desolated to
- leave so early," she was ready to rest, and see how her recreant
- knight had borne his punishment.
- It had been successful; for, at three-and-twenty, blighted
- affections find a balm in friendly society, and young nerves will
- thrill, young blood dance, and healthy young spirits rise, when
- subjected to the enchantment of beauty, light, music, and motion.
- Laurie had a waked-up look as he rose to give her his seat; and when
- he hurried away to bring her some supper, she said to herself, with
- a satisfied smile-
- "Ah, I thought that would do him good!"
- "You look like Balzac's 'Femme peinte par elle-meme,'" he said, as
- he fanned her with one hand and held her coffee-cup in the other.
- "My rouge won't come off"; and Amy rubbed her brilliant cheek, and
- showed him her white glove with a sober simplicity that made him laugh
- outright.
- "What do you call this stuff?" he asked, touching a fold of her
- dress that had blown over his knee.
- "Illusion."
- "Good name for it; it's very pretty- new thing, isn't it?"
- "It's as old as the hills; you have seen it on dozens of girls,
- and you never found out that it was pretty till now- stupide!"
- "I never saw it on you before, which accounts for the mistake, you
- see."
- "None of that, it is forbidden; I'd rather take coffee than
- compliments just now. No, don't lounge, it makes me nervous."
- Laurie sat bolt upright, and meekly took her empty plate, feeling an
- odd sort of pleasure in having "little Amy" order him about; for she
- had lost her shyness now, and felt an irresistible desire to trample
- on him, as girls have a delightful way of doing when lords of creation
- show any signs of subjection.
- "Where did you learn all this sort of thing?" he asked, with a
- quizzical look.
- "As 'this sort of thing' is rather a vague expression, would you
- kindly explain?" returned Amy, knowing perfectly well what he meant,
- but wickedly leaving him to describe what is indescribable.
- "Well- the general air, the style, the self-possession, the- the-
- illusion- you know," laughed Laurie, breaking down, and helping
- himself out of his quandary with the new word.
- Amy was gratified, but, of course, didn't show it, and demurely
- answered, "Foreign life polishes one in spite of one's self; I study
- as well as play; and as for this"- with a little gesture toward her
- dress- "why, tulle is cheap, posies to be had for nothing, and I am
- used to making the most of my poor little things."
- Amy rather regretted that last sentence, fearing it wasn't in good
- taste; but Laurie liked her the better for it, and found himself
- both admiring and respecting the brave patience that made the most
- of opportunity, and the cheerful spirit that covered poverty with
- flowers. Amy did not know why he looked at her so kindly, nor why he
- filled up her book with his own name, and devoted himself to her for
- the rest of the evening, in the most delightful manner; but the
- impulse that wrought this agreeable change was the result of one of
- the new impressions which both of them were unconsciously giving and
- receiving.
- 38
- On the Shelf
-
- IN France the young girls have a dull time of it till they are
- married, when "Vive la liberte" becomes their motto. In America, as
- every one knows, girls early sign the declaration of independence, and
- enjoy their freedom with republican zest; but the young matrons
- usually abdicate with the first heir to the throne, and go into a
- seclusion almost as close as a French nunnery, though by no means as
- quiet. Whether they like it or not, they are virtually put upon the
- shelf as soon as the wedding excitement is over, and most of them
- might exclaim, as did a very pretty woman the other day, "I am as
- handsome as ever, but no one takes any notice of me because I'm
- married."
- Not being a belle or even a fashionable lady, Meg did not experience
- this affliction till her babies were a year old, for in her little
- world primitive customs prevailed, and she found herself more
- admired and beloved than ever.
- As she was a womanly little woman, the maternal instinct was very
- strong, and she was entirely absorbed in her children, to the utter
- exclusion of everything and everybody else. Day and night she
- brooded over them with tireless devotion and anxiety, leaving John
- to the tender mercies of the help, for an Irish lady now presided over
- the kitchen department. Being a domestic man, John decidedly missed
- the wifely attentions he had been accustomed to receive; but, as he
- adored his babies, he cheerfully relinquished his comfort for a
- time, supposing, with masculine ignorance, that peace would soon be
- restored. But three months passed, and there was no return of
- repose; Meg looked worn and nervous, the babies absorbed every
- minute of her time, the house was neglected, and Kitty, the cook,
- who took life "aisy," kept him on short commons. When he went out in
- the morning he was bewildered by small commissions for the captive
- mamma; if he came gayly in at night, eager to embrace his family, he
- was quenched by a "Hush! they are just asleep after worrying all day."
- If he proposed a little amusement at home, "No, it would disturb the
- babies." If he hinted at a lecture or concert, he was answered with
- a reproachful look, and a decided "Leave my children for pleasure,
- never!" His sleep was broken by infant wails and visions of a
- phantom figure pacing noiselessly to and fro in the watches of the
- night; his meals were interrupted by the frequent flight of the
- presiding genius, who deserted him, half-helped, if a muffled chirp
- sounded from the nest above; and when he read his paper of an evening,
- Demi's colic got into the shipping-list, and Daisy's fall affected the
- price of stocks, for Mrs. Brooke was only interested in domestic news.
- The poor man was very uncomfortable, for the children had bereft him
- of his wife; home was merely a nursery, and the perpetual "hushing"
- made him feel like a brutal intruder whenever he entered the sacred
- precincts of Babyland. He bore it very patiently for six months,
- and, when no signs of amendment appeared, he did what other paternal
- exiles do- tried to get a little comfort elsewhere. Scott had
- married and gone to housekeeping not far off, and John fell into the
- way of running over for an hour or two of an evening, when his own
- parlor was empty, and his own wife singing lullabies that seemed to
- have no end. Mrs. Scott was a lively, pretty girl, with nothing to
- do but be agreeable, and she performed her mission most
- successfully. The parlor was always bright and attractive, the
- chessboard ready, the piano in tune, plenty of gay gossip, and a
- nice little supper set forth in tempting style.
- John would have preferred his own fireside if it had not been so
- lonely; but as it was, he gratefully took the next best thing, and
- enjoyed his neighbor's society.
- Meg rather approved of the new arrangement at first, and found it
- a relief to know that John was having a good time instead of dozing in
- the parlor, or tramping about the house and waking the children. But
- by and by, when the teething worry was over, and the idols went to
- sleep at proper hours, leaving mamma time to rest, she began to miss
- John, and find her work basket dull company, when he was not sitting
- opposite in his old dressing gown, comfortably scorching his
- slippers on the fender. She would not ask him to stay at home, but
- felt injured because he did not know that she wanted him without being
- told, entirely forgetting the many evenings he had waited for her in
- vain. She was nervous and worn out with watching and worry, and in
- that unreasonable frame of mind which the best of mothers occasionally
- experience when domestic cares oppress them. Want of exercise robs
- them of cheerfulness, and too much devotion to that idol of American
- women, the teapot, makes them feel as if they were all nerve and no
- muscle.
- "Yes," she would say, looking in the glass, "I'm getting old and
- ugly; John doesn't find me interesting any longer, so he leaves his
- faded wife and goes to see his pretty neighbor, who has no
- incumbrances. Well, the babies love me; they don't care if I am thin
- and pale, and haven't time to crimp my hair; they are my comfort,
- and some day John will see what I've gladly sacrificed for them, won't
- he, my precious?"
- To which pathetic appeal Daisy would answer with a coo, or Demi with
- a crow, and Meg would put by her lamentations for a maternal revel,
- which soothed her solitude for the time being. But the pain
- increased as politics absorbed John, who was always running over to
- discuss interesting points with Scott, quite unconscious that Meg
- missed him. Not a word did she say, however, till her mother found her
- in tears one day, and insisted on knowing what the matter was, for
- Meg's drooping spirits had not escaped her observation.
- "I wouldn't tell any one except you, mother; but I really do need
- advice, for, if John goes on so much longer I might as well be
- widowed," replied Mrs. Brooke, drying her tears on Daisy's bib, with
- an injured air.
- "Goes on how, my dear?" asked her mother anxiously.
- "He's away all day, and at night, when I want to see him, he is
- continually going over to the Scotts'. It isn't fair that I should
- have the hardest work, and never any amusement. Men are very
- selfish, even the best of them."
- "So are women; don't blame John till you see where you are wrong
- yourself."
- "But it can't be right for him to neglect me."
- "Don't you neglect him?"
- "Why, mother, I thought you'd take my part!"
- "So I do, as far as sympathizing goes; but I think the fault is
- yours, Meg."
- "I don't see how."
- "Let me show you. Did John ever neglect you, as you call it, while
- you made it a point to give him your society of an evening, his only
- leisure time?"
- "No; but I can't do it now, with two babies to tend."
- "I think you could, dear; and I think you ought. May I speak quite
- freely, and will you remember that it's mother who blames as well as
- mother who sympathizes?"
- "Indeed I will! Speak to me as if I were little Meg again. I often
- feel as if I needed teaching more than ever since these babies look to
- me for everything."
- Meg drew her low chair beside her mother's, and, with a little
- interruption in either lap, the two women rocked and talked lovingly
- together, feeling that the tie of motherhood made them more one than
- ever.
- "You have only made the mistake that most young wives make-
- forgotten your duty to your husband in your love for your children.
- A very natural and forgivable mistake, Meg, but one that had better be
- remedied before you take to different ways; for children should draw
- you nearer than ever, not separate you, as if they were all yours, and
- John had nothing to do but support them. I've seen it for some
- weeks, but have not spoken, feeling sure it would come right in time."
- "I'm afraid it won't. If I ask him to stay, he'll think I'm jealous;
- and I wouldn't insult him by such an idea. He doesn't see that I
- want him, and I don't know how to tell him without words."
- "Make it so pleasant he won't want to go away. My dear, he's longing
- for his little home; but it isn't home without you, and you are always
- in the nursery."
- "Oughtn't I to be there?"
- "Not all the time; too much confinement makes you nervous, and
- then you are unfitted for everything. Besides, you owe something to
- John as well as to the babies; don't neglect husband for children,
- don't shut him out of the nursery, but teach him how to help in it.
- His place is there as well as yours, and the children need him; let
- him feel that he has his part to do, and he will do it gladly and
- faithfully, and it will be better for you all."
- "You really think so, mother?"
- "I know it, Meg, for I've tried it; and I seldom give advice
- unless I've proved its practicability. When you and Jo were little,
- I went on just as you are, feeling as if I didn't do my duty unless
- I devoted myself wholly to you. Poor father took to his books, after I
- had refused all offers of help, and left me to try my experiment
- alone. I struggled along as well as I could, but Jo was too much for
- me. I nearly spoilt her by indulgence. You were poorly, and I
- worried about you till I fell sick myself. Then father came to the
- rescue, quietly managed everything, and made himself so helpful that I
- saw my mistake, and never have been able to get on without him
- since. That is the secret of our home happiness: he does not let
- business wean him from the little cares and duties that affect us all,
- and I try not to let domestic worries destroy my interest in his
- pursuits. Each do our part alone in many things, but at home we work
- together, always."
- "It is so, mother; and my great wish is to be to my husband and
- children what you have been to yours. Show me how; I'll do anything.
- you say."
- "You always were my docile daughter. Well, dear, if I were you,
- I'd let John have more to do with the management of Demi, for the
- boy needs training, and it's none too soon to begin. Then I'd do
- what I have often proposed, let Hannah come and help you; she is a
- capital nurse, and you may trust the precious babies to her while
- you do more housework. You need the exercise, Hannah would enjoy the
- rest, and John would find his wife again. Go out more; keep cheerful
- as well as busy, for you are the sunshine-maker of the family, and
- if you get dismal there is no fair weather. Then I'd try to take an
- interest in whatever John likes- talk with him, let him read to you,
- exchange ideas, and help each other in that way. Don't shut yourself
- up in a bandbox because you are a woman, but understand what is
- going on, and educate yourself to take your part in the world's
- work, for it all affects you and yours."
- "John is so sensible, I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid if I ask
- questions about politics and things."
- "I don't believe he would; love covers a multitude of sins, and of
- whom could you ask more freely than of him? Try it, and see if he
- doesn't find your society far more agreeable than Mrs. Scott's
- suppers."
- "I will. Poor John! I'm afraid I have neglected him sadly, but I
- thought I was right, and he never said anything."
- "He tried not to be selfish, but he has felt rather forlorn, I
- fancy. This is just the time, Meg, when young married people are apt
- to grow apart, and the very time when they ought to be most
- together; for the first tenderness soon wears off, unless care is
- taken to preserve it; and no time is so beautiful and precious to
- parents as the first years of the little lives given them to train.
- Don't let John be a stranger to the babies, for they will do more to
- keep him safe and happy in this world of trial and temptation than
- anything else, and through them you will learn to know and love one
- another as you should. Now, dear, good-by; think over mother's
- preachment, act upon it if it seems good, and God bless you all!"
- Meg did think it over, found it good, and acted upon it, though
- the first attempt was not made exactly as she planned to have it. Of
- course the children tyrannized over her, and ruled the house as soon
- as they found out that kicking and squalling brought them whatever
- they wanted. Mamma was an abject slave to their caprices, but papa was
- not so easily subjugated, and occasionally afflicted his tender spouse
- by an attempt at paternal discipline with his obstreperous son. For
- Demi inherited a trifle of his sire's firmness of character- we
- won't call it obstinacy- and when he made up his little mind to have
- or to do anything, all the king's horses and all the king's men
- could not change that pertinacious little mind. Mamma thought the dear
- too young to be taught to conquer his prejudices, but papa believed
- that it never was too soon to learn obedience; so Master Demi early
- discovered that when he undertook to "wrastle" with "parpar," he
- always got the worst of it; yet, like the Englishman, Baby respected
- the man who conquered him, and loved the father whose grave "No,
- no," was more impressive than all mamma's love-pats.
- A few days after the talk with her mother, Meg resolved to try a
- social evening with John; so she ordered a nice supper, set the parlor
- in order, dressed herself prettily, and put the children to bed early,
- that nothing should interfere with her experiment. But, unfortunately,
- Demi's most unconquerable prejudice was against going to bed, and that
- night he decided to go on a rampage; so poor Meg sung and rocked, told
- stories and tried every sleep-provoking wile she could devise, but all
- in vain, the big eyes wouldn't shut; and long after Daisy had gone
- to byelow, like the chubby little bunch of good-nature she was,
- naughty Demi lay staring at the light, with the most discouragingly
- wide-awake expression of countenance.
- "Will Demi lie still like a good boy, while mamma runs down and
- gives poor papa his tea?" asked Meg, as the hall-door softly closed,
- and the well-known step went tiptoeing into the dining-room.
- "Me has tea!" said Demi, preparing to join in the revel.
- "No; but I'll save you some little cakies for breakfast, if you'll
- go bye-by like Daisy. Will you, lovey?"
- "Iss!" and Demi shut his eyes tight, as if to catch sleep and
- hurry the desired day.
- Taking advantage of the propitious moment, Meg slipped away, and ran
- down to greet her husband with a smiling face, and the little blue bow
- in her hair which was his especial admiration. He saw it at once,
- and said, with pleased surprise-
- "Why, little mother, how gay we are to-night. Do you expect
- company?"
- "Only you, dear."
- "Is it a birthday, anniversary, or anything?"
- "No; I'm tired of being a dowdy, so I dressed up as a change. You
- always make yourself nice for table, no matter how tired you are; so
- why shouldn't I when I have the time?"
- "I do it out of respect to you, my dear," said old-fashioned John.
- "Ditto, ditto, Mr. Brooke," laughed Meg, looking young and pretty
- again, as she nodded to him over the teapot.
- "Well, it's altogether delightful, and like old times. This tastes
- right. I drink your health, dear." And John sipped his tea with an air
- of reposeful rapture, which was of very short duration, however;
- for, as he put down his cup, the door-handle rattled mysteriously, and
- a little voice was heard, saying impatiently-
- "Opy doy; me's tummin!"
- "It's that naughty boy. I told him to go to sleep alone, and here he
- is, downstairs, getting his death a-cold pattering over that
- canvas," said Meg, answering the call.
- "Mornin' now," announced Demi, in a joyful tone, as he entered, with
- his long night-gown gracefully festooned over his arm, and every
- curl bobbing gayly as he pranced about the table, eying the "cakies"
- with loving glances.
- "No, it isn't morning yet. You must go to bed, and not trouble
- poor mamma; then you can have the little cake with sugar on it."
- "Me loves parpar," said the artful one, preparing to climb the
- paternal knee, and revel in forbidding joys. But John shook his
- head, and said to Meg-
- "If you told him to stay up there, and go to sleep alone, make him
- do it, or he will never learn to mind you."
- "Yes, of course. Come, Demi"; and Meg led her son away, feeling a
- strong desire to spank the little marplot who hopped beside her,
- laboring under the delusion that the bribe was to be administered as
- soon as they reached the nursery.
- Nor was he disappointed; for that short-sighted woman actually
- gave him a lump of sugar, tucked him into his bed, and forbade any
- more promenades till morning.
- "Iss!" said Demi the perjured, blissfully sucking his sugar, and
- regarding his first attempt as eminently successful.
- Meg returned to her place, and supper was progressing pleasantly,
- when the little ghost walked again, and exposed the maternal
- delinquencies by boldly demanding-
- "More sudar, marmar."
- "Now this won't do," said John, hardening his heart against the
- engaging little sinner. "We shall never know any peace till that child
- learns to go to bed properly. You have made a slave of yourself long
- enough; give him one lesson, and then there will be an end of it.
- Put him in his bed and leave him, Meg."
- "He won't stay there; he never does, unless I sit by him."
- "I'll manage him. Demi, go upstairs, and get into your bed, as mamma
- bids you."
- "S'ant!" replied the young rebel, helping himself to the coveted
- "cakie," and beginning to eat the same with calm audacity.
- "You must never say that to papa; I shall carry you if you don't
- go yourself."
- "Go 'way; me don't love parpar"; and Demi retired to his mother's
- skirts for protection.
- But even that refuge proved unavailing, for he was delivered over to
- the enemy, with a "Be gentle with him, John," which struck the culprit
- with dismay; for when mamma deserted him, then the judgment-day was at
- hand. Bereft of his cake, defrauded of his frolic, and borne away by a
- strong hand to that detested bed, poor Demi could not restrain his
- wrath, but openly defied papa, and kicked and screamed lustily all the
- way upstairs. The minute he was put into bed on one side, he rolled
- out on the other, and made for the door, only to be ignominiously
- caught up the tail of his little toga, and put back again, which
- lively performance kept up till the young man's strength gave out,
- when he devoted himself to roaring at the top of his voice. This vocal
- exercise usually conquered Meg; but John sat as unmoved as the post
- which is popularly believed to be deaf. No coaxing, no sugar, no
- lullaby, no story; even the light was put out, and only the red glow
- of the fire enlivened the "big dark" which Demi regarded with
- curiosity rather than fear. This new order of things disgusted him,
- and he howled dismally for "marmar," as his angry passions subsided,
- and recollections of his tender bondwoman returned to the captive
- autocrat. The plaintive wail which succeeded the passionate roar
- went to Meg's heart, and she ran up to say beseechingly-
- "Let me stay with him; he'll be good, now, John."
- "No, my dear, I've told him he must go to sleep, as you bid him; and
- he must, if I stay here all night."
- "But he'll cry himself sick," pleaded Meg, reproaching herself for
- deserting her boy.
- "No, he won't, he's so tired he will soon drop off, and then the
- matter is settled; for he will understand that he has got to mind.
- Don't interfere; I'll manage him."
- "He's my child, and I can't have his spirit broken by harshness."
- "He's my child, and I won't have his temper spoilt by indulgence. Go
- down, my dear, and leave the boy to me."
- When John spoke in that masterful tone, Meg always obeyed, and never
- regretted her docility.
- "Please let me kiss him once, John?"
- "Certainly. Demi, say 'good-night' to mamma, and let her go and
- rest, for she is very tired with taking care of you all day."
- Meg always insisted upon it that the kiss won the victory; for after
- it was given, Demi sobbed more quietly, and lay quite still at the
- bottom of the bed, whither he had wriggled in his anguish of mind.
- "Poor little man, he's worn out with sleep and crying. I'll cover
- him up, and then go and set Meg's heart at rest," thought John,
- creeping to the bedside, hoping to find his rebellious heir asleep.
- But he wasn't; for the moment his father peeped at him, Demi's
- eyes opened, his little chin began to quiver, and he put up his
- arms, saying, with a penitent hiccough, "Me's dood, now."
- Sitting on the stairs, outside, Meg wondered at the long silence
- which followed the uproar; and, after imagining all sorts of
- impossible accidents, she slipped into the room, to set her fears at
- rest. Demi lay fast asleep; not in his usual spread-eagle attitude,
- but in a subdued bunch, cuddled close in the circle of his father's
- arm and holding his father's finger, as if he felt that justice was
- tempered with mercy, and had gone to sleep a sadder and a wiser
- baby. So held, John had waited with womanly patience till the little
- hand relaxed its hold; and, while waiting, had fallen asleep, more
- tired by that tussle with his son than with his whole day's work.
- As Meg stood watching the two faces on the pillow, she smiled to
- herself, and then slipped away again, saying, in a satisfied tone-
- "I never need fear that John will be too harsh with my babies: he
- does know how to manage them, and will be a great help, for Demi is
- getting too much for me."
- When John came down at last, expecting to find a pensive or
- reproachful wife, he was agreeably surprised to find Meg placidly
- trimming a bonnet, and to be greeted with the request to read
- something about the election, if he was not too tired. John saw in a
- minute that a revolution of some kind was going on, but wisely asked
- no questions, knowing that Meg was such a transparent little person,
- she couldn't keep a secret to save her life, and therefore the clew
- would soon appear. He read a long debate with the most amiable
- readiness and then explained it in his most lucid manner, while Meg
- tried to look deeply interested, to ask intelligent questions, and
- keep her thoughts from wandering from the state of the nation to the
- state of her bonnet. In her secret soul, however, she decided that
- politics were as bad as mathematics, and that the mission of
- politicians seemed to be calling each other names; but she kept
- these feminine ideas to herself, and when John paused, shook her head,
- and said with what she thought diplomatic ambiguity, "Well, I really
- don't see what we are coming to."
- John laughed, and watched her for a minute, as she poised a pretty
- little preparation of lace and flowers on her hand, and regarded it
- with the genuine interest which his harangue had failed to waken.
- "She is trying to like politics for my sake, so I'll try and like
- millinery for hers, that's only fair," thought John the Just, adding
- aloud-
- "That's very pretty; is it what you call a breakfast-cap?"
- "My dear man, it's a bonnet! My very best
- go-to-concert-and-theatre bonnet."
- "I beg your pardon; it was so small, I naturally mistook it for
- one of the fly-away things you sometimes wear. How do you keep it on?"
- "These bits of lace are fastened under the chin with a rosebud,
- so" and Meg illustrated by putting on the bonnet, and regarding him
- with an air of calm satisfaction that was irresistible.
- "It's a love of a bonnet, but I prefer the face inside, for it looks
- young and happy again"; and John kissed the smiling face, to the great
- detriment of the rosebud under the chin.
- "I'm glad you like it, for I want you to take me to one of the new
- concerts some night; I really need some music to put me in tune.
- Will you, please?"
- "Of course I will, with all my heart, or anywhere else you like. You
- have been shut up so long, it will do you no end of good, and I
- shall enjoy it, of all things. What put it into your head little
- mother?"
- "Well, I had a talk with Marmee the other day, and told her how
- nervous and cross and out of sorts I felt, and she said I needed
- change and less care; so Hannah is to help me with the children, and
- I'm to see to things about the house more, and now and then have a
- little fun, just to keep me from getting to be a fidgety,
- broken-down old woman before my time. It's only an experiment, John,
- and I want to try it for your sake as much as for mine, because I've
- neglected you shamefully lately, and I'm going to make home what it
- used to be, if I can. You don't object, I hope?"
- Never mind what John said, or what a very narrow escape the little
- bonnet had from utter ruin; all that we have any business to know is
- that John did not appear to object, judging from the changes which
- gradually took place in the house and its inmates. It was not all
- Paradise by any means, but every one was better for the division of
- labor system; the children throve under the paternal rule, for
- accurate, steadfast John brought order and obedience into Babydom,
- while Meg recovered her spirits and composed her nerves by plenty of
- wholesome exercise, a little pleasure, and much confidential
- conversation with her sensible husband. Home grew home-like again, and
- John had no wish to leave it, unless he took Meg with him. The
- Scotts came to the Brookes' now, and every one found the little
- house a cheerful place, full of happiness, content, and family love.
- Even gay Sallie Moffat liked to go there. "It is always so quiet and
- pleasant here; it does me good, Meg," she used to say, looking about
- her with wistful eyes, as if trying to discover the charm, that she
- might use it in her great house, full of splendid loneliness; for
- there were no riotous, sunny-faced babies there, and Ned lived in a
- world of his own, where there was no place for her.
- This household happiness did not come all at once, but John and
- Meg had found the key to it, and each year of married life taught them
- how to use it, unlocking the treasuries of real home-love and mutual
- helpfulness, which the poorest may possess, and the richest cannot
- buy. This is the sort of shelf on which young wives and mothers may
- consent to be laid, safe from the restless fret and fever of the
- world, finding loyal lovers in the little sons and daughters who cling
- to them, undaunted by sorrow, poverty, or age; walking side by side,
- through fair and stormy weather, with a faithful friend, who is, in
- the true sense of the good old Saxon word, the "house-band," and
- learning, as Meg learned, that a woman's happiest kingdom is home, her
- highest honor the art of ruling it, not as a queen, but a wise wife
- and mother.
- 39
- Lazy Laurence
-
- LAURIE went to Nice intending to stay a week, and remained a
- month. He was tired of wandering about alone, and Amy's familiar
- presence seemed to give a home-like charm to the foreign scenes in
- which she bore a part. He rather missed the "petting" he used to
- receive, and enjoyed a taste of it again; for no attentions, however
- flattering, from strangers, were half so pleasant as the sisterly
- adoration of the girls at home. Amy never would pet him like the
- others, but she was very glad to see him now, and quite clung to
- him, feeling that he was the representative of the dear family for
- whom she longed more than she would confess. They naturally took
- comfort in each other's society, and were much together, riding,
- walking, dancing, or dawdling, for, at Nice no one can be very
- industrious during the gay season. But, while apparently amusing
- themselves in the most careless fashion, they were half-consciously
- making discoveries and forming opinions about each other. Amy rose
- daily in the estimation of her friend, but he sunk in hers, and each
- felt the truth before a word was spoken. Amy tried to please, and
- succeeded, for she was grateful for the many pleasures he gave her,
- and repaid him with the little services to which womanly women know
- how to lend an indescribable charm. Laurie made no effort of any kind,
- but just let himself drift along as comfortably as possible, trying to
- forget, and feeling that all women owed him a kind word because one
- had been cold to him. It cost him no effort to be generous, and he
- would have given Amy all the trinkets in Nice if she would have
- taken them; but, at the same time, he felt that he could not change
- the opinion she was forming of him, and he rather dreaded the keen
- blue eyes that seemed to watch him with such half-sorrowful,
- half-scornful surprise.
- "All the rest have gone to Monaco for the day; I preferred to stay
- at home and write letters. They are done now, and I am going to
- Valrosa to sketch; will you come?" said Amy, as she joined Laurie
- one lovely day when he lounged in as usual, about noon.
- "Well, yes; but isn't it rather warm for such a long walk?" he
- answered slowly, for the shaded salon looked inviting, after the glare
- without.
- "I'm going to have the little carriage, and Baptiste can drive, so
- you'll have nothing to do but hold your umbrella and keep your
- gloves nice," returned Amy, with a sarcastic glance at the
- immaculate kids, which were a weak point with Laurie.
- "Then I'll go with pleasure"; and he put out his hand for her
- sketchbook. But she tucked it under her arm with a sharp-
- "Don't trouble yourself; it's no exertion to me, but you don't
- look equal to it."
- Laurie lifted his eyebrows, and followed at a leisurely pace as
- she ran downstairs; but when they got into the carriage he took the
- reins himself, and left little Baptiste nothing to do but fold his
- arms and fall asleep on his perch.
- The two never quarrelled- Amy was too well-bred, and just now Laurie
- was too lazy; so, in a minute he peeped under her hat-brim with an
- inquiring air; she answered with a smile, and they went on together in
- the most amicable manner.
- It was a lovely drive, along winding roads rich in the picturesque
- scenes that delight beauty-loving eyes. Here an ancient monastery,
- whence the solemn chanting of the monks came down to them. There a
- bare-legged shepherd, in wooden shoes, pointed hat, and rough jacket
- over one shoulder, sat piping on a stone, while his goats skipped
- among the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek, mouse-colored donkeys, laden
- with panniers of freshly cut grass, passed by, with a pretty girl in a
- capaline sitting between the green piles, or an old woman spinning
- with a distaff as she went. Brown, soft-eyed children ran out from the
- quaint stone hovels to offer nosegays, or bunches of oranges still
- on the bough. Gnarled olive-trees covered the hills with their dusky
- foliage, fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great scarlet
- anemones fringed the roadside; while beyond green slopes and craggy
- heights, the Maritime Alps rose sharp and white against the blue
- Italian sky.
- Valrosa well deserved its name, for, in that climate of perpetual
- summer, roses blossomed everywhere. They overhung the archway,
- thrust themselves between the bars of the great gate with a sweet
- welcome to passers-by, and lined the avenue, winding through
- lemon-trees and feathery palms up to the villa on the hill. Every
- shadowy nook, where seats invited one to stop and rest, was a mass
- of bloom; every cool grotto had its marble nymph smiling from a veil
- of flowers, and every fountain reflected crimson, white, or pale
- pink roses, leaning down to smile at their own beauty. Roses covered
- the walls of the house, draped the cornices, climbed the pillars,
- and ran riot over the balustrade of the wide terrace, whence one
- looked down on the sunny Mediterranean, and the white-walled city on
- its shore.
- "This is a regular honeymoon Paradise, isn't it? Did you ever see
- such roses?" asked Amy, pausing on the terrace to enjoy the view,
- and a luxurious whiff of perfume that came wandering by.
- "No, nor felt such thorns," returned Laurie, with his thumb in his
- mouth, after a vain attempt to capture a solitary scarlet flower
- that grew just beyond his reach.
- "Try lower down, and pick those that have no thorns," said Amy,
- gathering three of the tiny cream-colored ones that starred the wall
- behind her. She put them in his button-hole, as a peace-offering,
- and he stood a minute looking down at them with a curious
- expression, for in the Italian part of his nature there was a touch of
- superstition, and he was just then in that state of half-sweet,
- half-bitter melancholy, when imaginative young men find significance
- in trifles, and food for romance everywhere. He had thought of Jo in
- reaching after the thorny red rose, for vivid flowers became her,
- and she had often worn ones like that from the greenhouse at home. The
- pale roses Amy gave him were the sort that the Italians lay in dead
- hands, never in bridal wreaths, and, for a moment, he wondered if
- the omen was for Jo or for himself; but the next instant his
- American common sense got the better of sentimentality, and he laughed
- a heartier laugh than Amy had heard since he came.
- "It's good advice; you'd better take it and save your fingers,"
- she said, thinking her speech amused him.
- "Thank you, I will," he answered in jest, and a few months later
- he did it in earnest.
- "Laurie, when are you going to your grandfather?" she asked
- presently, as she settled herself on a rustic seat.
- "Very soon."
- "You have said that a dozen times within the last three weeks."
- "I dare say; short answers save trouble."
- "He expects you, and you really ought to go."
- "Hospitable creature! I know it."
- "Then why don't you do it?"
- "Natural depravity, I suppose."
- "Natural indolence, you mean. It's really dreadful!" and Amy
- looked severe.
- "Not so bad as it seems, for I should only plague him if I went,
- so I might as well stay, and plague you a little longer, you can
- bear it better; in fact, I think it agrees with you excellently";
- and Laurie composed himself for a lounge on the broad ledge of the
- balustrade.
- Amy shook her head, and opened her sketch-book with an air of
- resignation; but she had made up her mind to lecture "that boy," and
- in a minute she began.
- "What are you doing just now?"
- "Watching lizards."
- "No, no; I mean what do you intend and wish to do?"
- "Smoke a cigarette, if you'll allow me."
- "How provoking you are! I don't approve of cigars, and I will only
- allow it on condition that you let me put you into my sketch; I need a
- figure."
- "With all the pleasure in life. How will you have me-full-length
- or three-quarters, on my head or my heels? I should respectfully
- suggest a recumbent posture, then put yourself in also, and call it
- 'Dolce far niente.'"
- "Stay as you are, and go to sleep if you like. I intend to work
- hard," said Amy, in her most energetic tone.
- "What delightful enthusiasm!" and he leaned against a tall urn
- with an air of entire satisfaction.
- "What would Jo say if she saw you now?" asked Amy impatiently,
- hoping to stir him up by the mention of her still more energetic
- sister's name.
- "As usual, 'Go away, Teddy, I'm busy!'" He laughed as he spoke,
- but the laugh was not natural, and a shade passed over his face, for
- the utterance of the familiar name touched the wound that was not
- healed yet. Both tone and shadow struck Amy, for she had seen and
- heard them before, and now she looked up in time to catch a new
- expression on Laurie's face- a hard, bitter look, full of pain,
- dissatisfaction, and regret. It was gone before she could study it,
- and the listless expression back again. She watched him for a moment
- with artistic pleasure, thinking how like an Italian he looked, as
- he lay basking in the sun with uncovered head, and eyes full of
- southern dreaminess; for he seemed to have forgotten her, and fallen
- into a reverie.
- "You look like the effigy of a young knight asleep on his tomb," she
- said, carefully tracing the well-cut profile defined against the
- dark stone.
- "Wish I was!"
- "That's a foolish wish, unless you have spoilt your life. You are so
- changed, I sometimes think-" there Amy stopped, with a half-timid,
- half-wistful look, more significant than her unfinished speech.
- Laurie saw and understood the affectionate anxiety which she
- hesitated to express, and looking straight into her eyes, said, just
- as he used to say it to her mother-
- "It's all right, ma'am."
- That satisfied her and set at rest the doubts that had begun to
- worry her lately. It also touched her, and she showed that it did,
- by the cordial tone in which she said-
- "I'm glad of that! I didn't think you'd been a very bad boy, but I
- fancied you might have wasted money at that wicked Baden-Baden, lost
- your heart to some charming Frenchwoman with a husband, or got into
- some of the scrapes that young men seem to consider a necessary part
- of a foreign tour. Don't stay out there in the sun; come and lie on
- the grass here, and 'let us be friendly,' as Jo used to say when we
- got in the sofa-corner and told secrets."
- Laurie obediently threw himself down on the turf, and began to amuse
- himself by sticking daisies into the ribbons of Amy's hat, that lay
- there.
- "I'm all ready for the secrets"; and he glanced up with a decided
- expression of interest in his eyes.
- "I've none to tell; you may begin."
- "Haven't one to bless myself with. I thought perhaps you'd had
- some news from home."
- "You have heard all that has come lately. Don't you hear often? I
- fancied Jo would send you volumes."
- "She's very busy; I'm roving about so, it's impossible to be
- regular, you know. When do you begin your great work of art,
- Raphaella?" he asked, changing the subject abruptly after another
- pause, in which he had been wondering if Amy knew his secret, and
- wanted to talk about it.
- "Never," she answered, with a despondent but decided air. "Rome took
- all the vanity out of me; for after seeing the wonders there, I felt
- too insignificant to live, and gave up all my foolish hopes in
- despair."
- "Why should you, with so much energy and talent?"
- "That's just why- because talent isn't genius, and no amount of
- energy can make it so. I want to be great, or nothing. I won't be a
- common-place dauber, so I don't intend to try any more."
- "And what are you going to do with yourself now, if I may ask?"
- "Polish up my other talents, and be an ornament to society, if I get
- the chance."
- It was a characteristic speech, and sounded daring; but audacity
- becomes young people, and Amy's ambition had a good foundation. Laurie
- smiled, but he liked the spirit with which she took up a new purpose
- when a long-cherished one died, and spent no time lamenting.
- "Good! and here is where Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy."
- Amy preserved a discreet silence, but there was a conscious look
- in her downcast face, that made Laurie sit up and say gravely-
- "Now I'm going to play brother, and ask questions. May I?"
- "I don't promise to answer."
- "Your face will, if your tongue won't. You aren't woman of the world
- enough yet to hide your feelings, my dear. I heard rumors about Fred
- and you last year, and it's my private opinion that, if he had not
- been called home so suddenly and detained so long, something would
- have come of it- hey?"
- "That's not for me to say," was Amy's prim reply; but her lips would
- smile, and there was a traitorous sparkle of the eye, which betrayed
- that she knew her power and enjoyed the knowledge.
- "You are not engaged, I hope?" and Laurie looked very
- elder-brotherly and grave all of a sudden.
- "No."
- "But you will be, if he comes back and goes properly down upon his
- knees, won't you?"
- "Very likely."
- "Then you are fond of old Fred?"
- "I could be, if I tried."
- "But you don't intend to try till the proper moment? Bless my
- soul, what unearthly prudence! He's a good fellow, Amy, but not the
- man I fancied you'd like."
- "He is rich, a gentleman, and has delightful manners," began Amy,
- trying to be quite cool and dignified, but feeling a little ashamed of
- herself, in spite of the sincerity of her intentions.
- "I understand; queens of society can't get on without money, so
- you mean to make a good match, and start in that way? Quite right
- and proper, as the world goes, but it sounds odd from the lips of
- one of your mother's girls."
- "True, nevertheless."
- A short speech, but the quiet decision with which it was uttered
- contrasted curiously with the young speaker. Laurie felt this
- instinctively, and laid himself down again, with a sense of
- disappointment which he could not explain. His look and silence, as
- well as a certain inward self-disapproval, ruffled Amy, and made her
- resolve to deliver her lecture without delay.
- "I wish you'd do me the favor to rouse yourself a little," she
- said sharply.
- "Do it for me, there's a dear girl."
- "I could, if I tried"; and she looked as if she would like doing
- it in the most summary style.
- "Try, then; I give you leave," returned Laurie, who enjoyed having
- some one to tease, after his long abstinence from his favorite
- pastime.
- "You'd be angry in five minutes."
- "I'm never angry with you. It takes two flints to make a fire: you
- are as cool and soft as snow."
- "You don't know what I can do; snow produces a glow and a tingle, if
- applied rightly. Your indifference is half affectation, and a good
- stirring up would prove it."
- "Stir away; it won't hurt me and it may amuse you, as the big man
- said when his little wife beat him. Regard me in the light of a
- husband or a carpet, and beat till you are tired, if that sort of
- exercise agrees with you."
- Being decidedly nettled herself, and longing to see him shake off
- the apathy that so altered him, Amy sharpened both tongue and
- pencil, and began:
- "Flo and I have got a new name for you; it's 'Lazy Laurence.' How do
- you like it?"
- She thought it would annoy him; but he only folded his arms under
- his head, with an imperturbable "That's not bad. Thank you, ladies."
- "Do you want to know what I honestly think of you?"
- "Pining to be told."
- "Well, I despise you."
- If she had even said "I hate you," in a petulant or coquettish tone,
- he would have laughed, and rather liked it; but the grave, almost sad,
- accent of her voice made him open his eyes, and ask quickly-
- "Why, if you please?"
- "Because, with every chance for being good, useful, and happy, you
- are faulty, lazy, and miserable."
- "Strong language, mademoiselle."
- "If you like it, I'll go on."
- "Pray, do; it's quite interesting."
- "I thought you'd find it so; selfish people always like to talk
- about themselves."
- "Am I selfish?" The question slipped out involuntarily and in a tone
- of surprise, for the one virtue on which he prided himself was
- generosity.
- "Yes, very selfish," continued Amy, in a calm, cool voice, twice
- as effective, just then, as an angry one. "I'll show you how, for I've
- studied you while we have been frolicking, and I'm not at all
- satisfied with you. Here you have been abroad nearly six months, and
- done nothing but waste time and money and disappoint your friends."
- "Isn't a fellow to have any pleasure after a four-year's grind?"
- "You don't look as if you'd had much; at any rate, you are none
- the better for it, as far as I can see. I said, when we first met,
- that you had improved. Now I take it all back, for I don't think you
- half so nice as when I left you at home. You have grown abominably
- lazy; you like gossip, and waste time on frivolous things; you are
- contented to be petted and admired by silly people, instead of being
- loved and respected by wise ones. With money, talent, position,
- health, and beauty- ah, you like that, Old Vanity! but it's the truth,
- so I can't help saying it- with all these splendid things to use and
- enjoy, you can find nothing to do but dawdle; and, instead of being
- the man you might and ought to be, you are only-" There she stopped,
- with a look that had both pain and pity in it.
- "Saint Laurence on a gridiron," added Laurie, blandly finishing
- the sentence. But the lecture began to take effect, for there was a
- wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now, and a half-angry, half-injured
- expression replaced the former indifference.
- "I supposed you'd take it so. You men tell us we are angels, and say
- we can make you what we will; but the instant we honestly try to do
- you good, you laugh at us, and won't listen, which proves how much
- your flattery is worth." Amy spoke bitterly, and turned her back on
- the exasperating martyr at her feet.
- In a minute a hand came down over the page, so that she could not
- draw, and Laurie's voice said, with a droll imitation of a penitent
- child-
- "I will be good, oh, I will be good!"
- But Amy did not laugh, for she was in earnest; and, tapping on the
- outspread hand with her pencil, said soberly-
- "Aren't you ashamed of a hand like that? It's as soft and white as a
- woman's, and looks as if it never did anything but wear Jouvin's
- best gloves, and pick flowers for ladies. You are not a dandy, thank
- Heaven! so I'm glad to see there are no diamonds or big seal-rings
- on it, only the little old one Jo gave you so long ago. Dear soul, I
- wish she was here to help me!"
- "So do I!"
- The hand vanished as suddenly as it came, and there was energy
- enough in the echo of her wish to suit even Amy. She glanced down at
- him with a new thought in her mind; but he was lying with his hat half
- over his face, as if for shade, and his mustache hid his mouth. She
- only saw his chest rise and fall, with a long breath that might have
- been a sigh, and the hand that wore the ring nestled down into the
- grass, as if to hide something too precious or too tender to be spoken
- of. All in a minute various hints and trifles assumed shape and
- significance in Amy's mind, and told her what her sister never had
- confided to her. She remembered that Laurie never spoke voluntarily of
- Jo; she recalled the shadow on his face just now, the change in his
- character, and the wearing of the little old ring, which was no
- ornament to a handsome hand. Girls are quick to read such signs and
- feel their eloquence. Amy had fancied that perhaps a love trouble
- was at the bottom of the alteration, and now she was sure of it. Her
- keen eyes filled, and, when she spoke again, it was in a voice that
- could be beautifully soft and kind when she chose to make it so.
- "I know I have no right to talk so to you, Laurie; and if you
- weren't the sweetest-tempered fellow in the world, you'd be very angry
- with me. But we are all so fond and proud of you, I couldn't bear to
- think they should be disappointed in you at home as I have been,
- though, perhaps, they would understand the change better than I do."
- "I think they would," came from under the hat, in a grim tone, quite
- as touching as a broken one.
- "They ought to have told me, and not let me go blundering and
- scolding, when I should have been more kind and patient than ever. I
- never did like that Miss Randal, and now I hate her!" said artful Amy,
- wishing to be sure of her facts this time.
- "Hang Miss Randal!" and Laurie knocked the hat off his face with a
- look that left no doubt of his sentiments toward that young lady.
- "I beg pardon; I thought-" and there she paused diplomatically.
- "No, you didn't; you knew perfectly well I never cared for any one
- but Jo." Laurie said that in his old, impetuous tone, and turned his
- face away as he spoke.
- "I did think so; but as they never said anything about it, and you
- came away, I supposed I was mistaken. And Jo wouldn't be kind to
- you? Why, I was sure she loved you dearly."
- "She was kind, but not in the right way; and it's lucky for her
- she didn't love me, if I'm the good-for-nothing fellow you think me.
- It's her fault, though, and you may tell her so."
- The hard, bitter look came back again as he said that, and it
- troubled Amy, for she did not know what balm to apply.
- "I was wrong, I didn't know. I'm very sorry I was so cross, but I
- can't help wishing you'd bear it better, Teddy, dear."
- "Don't, that's her name for me!" and Laurie put up his hand with a
- quick gesture to stop the words spoken in Jo's half-kind,
- half-reproachful tone. "Wait till you've tried it yourself," he added,
- in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass by the handful.
- "I'd take it manfully, and be respected if I couldn't be loved,"
- said Amy, with the decision of one who knew nothing about it.
- Now, Laurie flattered himself that he had borne it remarkably
- well, making no moan, asking no sympathy, and taking his trouble
- away to live it down alone. Amy's lecture put the matter in a new
- light, and for the first time it did look weak and selfish to lose
- heart at the first failure, and shut himself up in moody indifference.
- He felt as if suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream, and found it
- impossible to go to sleep again. Presently he sat up, and asked
- slowly-
- "Do you think Jo would despise me as you do?"
- "Yes, if she saw you now. She hates lazy people. Why don't you do
- something splendid, and make her love you?"
- "I did my best, but it was no use."
- "Graduating well, you mean? That was no more than you ought to
- have done, for your grandfather's sake. It would have been shameful to
- fail after spending so much time and money, when every one knew you
- could do well."
- "I did fail, say what you will, for Jo wouldn't love me," began
- Laurie, leaning his head on his hand in a despondent attitude.
- "No, you didn't, and you'll say so in the end, for it did you
- good, and proved that you could do something if you tried. If you'd
- only set about another task of some sort, you'd soon be your hearty,
- happy self again, and forget your trouble."
- "That's impossible."
- "Try it and see. You needn't shrug your shoulders, and think,
- 'Much she knows about such things.' I don't pretend to be wise, but
- I am observing, and I see a great deal more than you'd imagine. I'm.
- interested in other people's experiences and inconsistencies; and,
- though I can't explain, I remember and use them for my own benefit.
- Love Jo all your days, if you choose, but don't let it spoil you,
- for it's wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can't
- have the one you want. There, I won't lecture any more, for I know
- you'll wake up and be a man in spite of that hardhearted girl."
- Neither spoke for several minutes. Laurie sat turning the little
- ring on his finger, and Amy put the last touches to the hasty sketch
- she had been working at while she talked. Presently she put it on
- his knee, merely saying-
- "How do you like that?"
- He looked and then he smiled, as he could not well help doing, for
- it was capitally done- the long, lazy figure on the grass, with
- listless face, half-shut eyes, and one hand holding a cigar, from
- which came the little wreath of smoke that encircled the dreamer's
- head.
- "How well you draw!" he said, with genuine surprise and pleasure
- at her skill, adding, with a half-laugh-
- "Yes, that's me."
- "As you are: this is as you were"; and Amy laid another sketch
- beside the one he held.
- It was not nearly so well done, but there was a life and spirit in
- it which atoned for many faults, and it recalled the past so vividly
- that a sudden change swept over the young man's face as he looked.
- Only a rough sketch of Laurie taming a horse; hat and coat were off,
- and every line of the active figure, resolute face, and commanding
- attitude, was full of energy and meaning. The handsome brute, just
- subdued, stood arching his neck under the tightly drawn rein, with one
- foot impatiently pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if
- listening for the voice that had mastered him. In the ruffled mane,
- the rider's breezy hair and erect attitude, there was a suggestion
- of suddenly arrested motion, of strength, courage, and youthful
- buoyancy, that contrasted sharply with the supine grace of the
- "Dolce far niente" sketch. Laurie said nothing; but, as his eye went
- from one to the other, Amy saw him flush up and fold his lips together
- as if he read and accepted the little lesson she had given him. That
- satisfied her; and, without waiting for him to speak, she said in
- her sprightly way-
- "Don't you remember the day you played Rarey with Puck, and we all
- looked on? Meg and Beth were frightened, but Jo clapped and pranced,
- and I sat on the fence and drew you. I found that sketch in my
- portfolio the other day, touched it up, and kept it to show you."
- "Much obliged. You've improved immensely since then, and I
- congratulate you. May I venture to suggest in 'a honeymoon Paradise'
- that five o'clock is the dinner hour at your hotel?"
- Laurie rose as he spoke, returned the pictures with a smile and a
- bow, and looked at his watch, as if to remind her that even moral
- lectures should have an end. He tried to resume his former easy,
- indifferent air, but it was an affectation now, for the rousing had
- been more efficacious than he would confess. Amy felt the shade of
- coldness in his manner, and said to herself-
- "Now I've offended him. Well, if it does him good, I'm glad; if it
- makes him hate me, I'm sorry; but it's true, and I can't take back a
- word of it."
- They laughed and chatted all the way home; and little Baptiste, up
- behind, thought that monsieur and mademoiselle were in charming
- spirits. But both felt ill at ease; the friendly frankness was
- disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow over it, and, despite their
- apparent gayety, there was a secret discontent in the heart of each.
- "Shall we see you this evening, mon frere?" asked Amy, as they
- parted at her aunt's door.
- "Unfortunately I have an engagement. Au revoir, mademoiselle," and
- Laurie bent as if to kiss her hand, in the foreign fashion, which
- became him better than many men. Something in his face made Amy say
- quickly and warmly-
- "No; be yourself with me, Laurie, and part in the good old way.
- I'd rather have a hearty English hand-shake than all the sentimental
- salutations in France."
- "Good-by, dear," and with these words, uttered in the tone she
- liked, Laurie left her, after a hand-shake almost painful in its
- heartiness.
- Next morning, instead of the usual call, Amy received a note which
- made her smile at the beginning and sigh at the end:
-
- MY DEAR MENTOR:
- Please make my adieux to your aunt, and exult within yourself, for
- "Lazy Laurence" has gone to his grandpa, like the best of boys. A
- pleasant winter to you, and may the gods grant you a blissful
- honeymoon at Valrosa! I think Fred would be benefited by a rouser.
- Tell him so, with my congratulations.
- Yours gratefully, TELEMACHUS.
-
- "Good boy! I'm glad he's gone," said Amy, with an approving smile;
- the next minute her face fell as she glanced about the empty room,
- adding, with an involuntary sigh-
- "Yes, I am glad, but how I shall miss him!"
- 40
- The Valley of the Shadow
-
- WHEN the first bitterness was over, the family accepted the
- inevitable, and tried to bear it cheerfully, helping one another by
- the increased affection which comes to bind households tenderly
- together in times of trouble. They put away their grief, and each
- did his or her part toward making that last year a happy one.
- The pleasantest room in the house was set apart for Beth, and in
- it was gathered everything that she most loved- flowers, pictures, her
- piano, the little work-table, and the beloved pussies. Father's best
- books found their way there, mother's easy-chair, Jo's desk, Amy's
- finest sketches; and every day Meg brought her babies on a loving
- pilgrimage, to make sunshine for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart
- a little sum, that he might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the
- invalid supplied with the fruit she loved and longed for; old Hannah
- never wearied of concocting dainty dishes to tempt a capricious
- appetite, dropping tears as she worked; and from across the sea came
- little gifts and cheerful letters, seeming to bring breaths of
- warmth and fragrance from lands that know no winter.
- Here, cherished like a household saint in its shrine, sat Beth,
- tranquil and busy as ever; for nothing could change the sweet,
- unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave life, she tried to
- make it happier for those who should remain behind. The feeble fingers
- were never idle, and one of her pleasures was to make little things
- for the school-children daily passing to and fro- to drop a pair of
- mittens from her window for a pair of purple hands, a needle-book
- for some small mother of many dolls, pen-wipers for young penmen
- toiling through forests of pot-hooks, scrap-books for picture-loving
- eyes, and all manner of pleasant devices, till the reluctant
- climbers up the ladder of learning found their way strewn with
- flowers, as it were, and came to regard the gentle giver as a sort
- of fairy godmother, who sat above there, and showered down gifts
- miraculously suited to their tastes and needs. If Beth had wanted
- any reward, she found it in the bright little faces always turned up
- to her window, with nods and smiles, and the droll little letters
- which came to her, full of blots and gratitude.
- The first few months were very happy ones, and Beth often used to
- look round, and say "How beautiful this is!" as they all sat
- together in her sunny room, the babies kicking and crowing on the
- floor, mother and sisters working near, and father reading, in his
- pleasant voice, from the wise old books which seemed rich in good
- and comfortable words, as applicable now as when written centuries
- ago; a little chapel, where a paternal priest taught his flock the
- hard lessons all must learn, trying to show them that hope can comfort
- love, and faith make resignation possible. Simple sermons, that went
- straight to the souls of those who listened; for the father's heart
- was in the minister's religion, and the frequent falter in the voice
- gave a double eloquence to the words he spoke or read.
- It was well for all that this peaceful time was given them as
- preparation for the sad hours to come; for, by and by, Beth said the
- needle was "so heavy," and put it down forever; talking wearied her,
- faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own, and her tranquil
- spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills that vexed her feeble
- flesh. Ah me! such heavy days, such long, long nights, such aching
- hearts and imploring prayers, when those who loved her best were
- forced to see the thin hands stretched out to them beseechingly, to
- hear the bitter cry, "Help me, help me!" and to feel that there was no
- help. A sad eclipse of the serene soul, a sharp struggle of the
- young life with death; but both were mercifully brief, and then, the
- natural rebellion over, the old peace returned more beautiful than
- ever. With the wreck of her frail body, Beth's soul grew strong;
- and, though she said little, those about her felt she was ready, saw
- that the first pilgrim called was likewise the fittest, and waited
- with her on the shore, trying to see the Shining Ones coming to
- receive her when she crossed the river.
- Jo never left her for an hour since Beth had said, "I feel
- stronger when you are here." She slept on a couch in the room,
- waking often to renew the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon the
- patient creature who seldom asked for anything, and "tried not to be a
- trouble." All day she haunted the room, jealous of any other nurse,
- and prouder of being chosen then than of any honor her life ever
- brought her. Precious and helpful hours to Jo, for now her heart
- received the teaching that it needed; lessons in patience were so
- sweetly taught her that she could not fail to learn them; charity
- for all, the lovely spirit that can forgive and truly forget
- unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the hardest easy, and the
- sincere faith that fears nothing, but trusts undoubtingly.
- Often, when she woke, Jo found Beth reading in her well-worn
- little book, heard her singing softly, to beguile the sleepless night,
- or saw her lean her face upon her hands, while slow tears dropped
- through the transparent fingers; and Jo would lie watching her, with
- thoughts too deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in her simple,
- unselfish way, was trying to wean herself from the dear old life,
- and fit herself for the life to come, by sacred words of comfort,
- quiet prayers, and the music she loved so well.
- Seeing this did more for Jo than the wisest sermons, the
- saintliest hymns, the most fervent prayers that any voice could utter;
- for, with eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart softened by the
- tenderest sorrow, she recognized the beauty of her sister's life-
- uneventful, unambitious, yet full of the genuine virtues which
- "smell sweet, and blossom in the dust," the self-forgetfulness that
- makes the humblest on earth remembered soonest in heaven, the true
- success which is possible to all.
- One night, when Beth looked among the books upon her table, to
- find something to make her forget the mortal weariness that was almost
- as hard to bear as pain, as she turned the leaves of her old
- favorite "Pilgrim's Progress," she found a little paper, scribbled
- over in Jo's hand. The name caught her eye, and the blurred look of
- the lines made her sure that tears had fallen on it.
- "Poor Jo! she's fast asleep, so I won't wake her to ask leave; she
- shows me all her things, and I don't think she'll mind if I look at
- this," thought Beth, with a glance at her sister, who lay on the
- rug, with the tongs beside her, ready to wake up the minute the log
- fell apart.
-
- MY BETH.
-
- Sitting patient in the shadow
- Till the blessed light shall come,
- A serene and saintly presence
- Sanctifies our troubled home.
- Earthly joys and hopes and sorrows
- Break like ripples on the strand
- Of the deep and solemn river
- Where her willing feet now stand.
-
- O my sister, passing from me,
- Out of human care and strife,
- Leave me, as a gift, those virtues
- Which have beautified your life.
- Dear, bequeath me that great patience,
- Which has power to sustain
- A cheerful, uncomplaining spirit
- In its prison-house of pain.
-
- Give me, for I need it sorely,
- Of that courage, wise and sweet,
- Which has made the path of duty
- Green beneath your willing feet.
- Give me that unselfish nature,
- That with charity divine
- Can pardon wrong for love's dear sake-
- Meek heart, forgive me mine!
-
- Thus our parting daily loseth
- Something of its bitter pain,
- And while learning this hard lesson,
- My great loss becomes my gain.
- For the touch of grief will render
- My wild nature more serene,
- Give to life new aspirations,
- A new trust in the unseen.
-
- Henceforth, safe across the river,
- I shall see forevermore
- A beloved, household spirit
- Waiting for me on the shore.
- Hope and faith, born of my sorrow,
- Guardian angels shall become,
- And the sister gone before me
- By their hands shall lead me home.
-
- Blurred and blotted, faulty and feeble, as the lines were, they
- brought a look of inexpressible comfort to Beth's face, for her one
- regret had been that she had done so little; and this seemed to assure
- her that her life had not been useless, that her death would not bring
- the despair she feared. As she sat with the paper folded between her
- hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived the blaze,
- and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
- "Not asleep, but so happy, dear. See, I found this and read it; I
- knew you wouldn't care. Have I been all that to you, Jo?" she asked,
- with wistful, humble earnestness.
- "O Beth, so much, so much!" and Jo's head went down upon the pillow,
- beside her sister's.
- "Then I don't feel as if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good as
- you make me, but I have tried to do right; and now, when it's too late
- to begin even to do better, it's such a comfort to know that some
- one loves me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them."
- "More than any one in the world, Beth. I used to think I couldn't
- let you go; but I'm learning to feel that I don't lose you; that
- you'll be more to me than ever, and death can't part us, though it
- seems to."
- "I know it cannot, and I don't fear it any longer, for I'm sure I
- shall be your Beth still, to love and help you more than ever. You
- must take my place, Jo, and be everything to father and mother when
- I'm gone. They will turn to you, don't fail them; and if it's hard
- to work alone, remember that I don't forget you, and that you'll be
- happier in doing that than writing splendid books or seeing all the
- world; for love is the only thing that we can carry with us when we
- go, and it makes the end so easy."
- "I'll try, Beth"; and then and there Jo renounced her old
- ambition, pledged herself to a new and better one, acknowledging the
- poverty of other desires, and feeling the blessed solace of a belief
- in the immortality of love.
- So the spring days came and went, the sky grew clearer, the earth
- greener, the flowers were up fair and early, and the birds came back
- in time to say good-by to Beth, who, like a tired but trustful
- child, clung to the hands that had led her all her life, as father and
- mother guided her tenderly through the Valley of the Shadow, and
- gave her up to God.
- Seldom, except in books, do the dying utter memorable words, see
- visions, or depart with beatified countenances; and those who have
- sped many parting souls know that to most the end comes as naturally
- and simply as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the "tide went out easily";
- and in the dark hour before the dawn, on the bosom where she had drawn
- her first breath, she quietly drew her last, with no farewell but
- one loving look, one little sigh.
- With tears and prayers and tender hands, mother and sisters made her
- ready for the long sleep that pain would never mar again, seeing
- with grateful eyes the beautiful serenity that soon replaced the
- pathetic patience that had wrung their hearts so long, and feeling,
- with reverent joy, that to their darling death was a benignant
- angel, not a phantom full of dread.
- When morning came, for the first time in many months the fire was
- out, Jo's place was empty, and the room was very still. But a bird
- sang blithely on a budding bough, close by, the snow-drops blossomed
- freshly at the window, and the spring sunshine streamed in like a
- benediction over the placid face upon the pillow-a face so full of
- painless peace that those who loved it best smiled through their
- tears, and thanked God that Beth was well at last.
- 41
- Learning to Forget
-
- AMY'S lecture did Laurie good, though, of course, he did not own
- it till long afterward; men seldom do, for when women are the
- advisers, the lords of creation don't take the advice till they have
- persuaded themselves that it is just what they intended to do; then
- they act upon it, and, if it succeeds, they give the weaker vessel
- half the credit of it; if it fails, they generously give her the
- whole. Laurie went back to his grandfather, and was so dutifully
- devoted for several weeks that the old gentleman declared the
- climate of Nice had improved him wonderfully, and he had better try it
- again. There was nothing the young gentleman would have liked
- better, but elephants could not have dragged him back after the
- scolding he had received; pride forbid, and whenever the longing
- grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by repeating the words
- that had made the deepest impression, "I despise you"; "Go and do
- something splendid that will make her love you."
- Laurie turned the matter over in his mind so often that he soon
- brought himself to confess that he had been selfish and lazy; but then
- when a man has a great sorrow, he should be indulged in all sorts of
- vagaries till he has lived it down. He felt that his blighted
- affections were quite dead now; and, though he should never cease to
- be a faithful mourner, there was no occasion to wear his weeds
- ostentatiously. Jo wouldn't love him, but he might make her respect
- and admire him by doing something which should prove that a girl's
- "No" had not spoilt his life. He had always meant to do something, and
- Amy's advice was quite unnecessary. He had only been waiting till
- the aforesaid blighted affections were decently interred; that being
- done, he felt that he was ready to "hide his stricken heart, and still
- toil on."
- As Goethe, when he had a joy or a grief, put it into a song, so
- Laurie resolved to embalm his love-sorrow in music, and compose a
- Requiem which should harrow up Jo's soul and melt the heart of every
- hearer. Therefore the next time the old gentleman found him getting
- restless and moody, and ordered him off, he went to Vienna, where he
- had musical friends, and fell to work with the firm determination to
- distinguish himself. But, whether the sorrow was too vast to be
- embodied in music, or music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he
- soon discovered that the Requiem was beyond him, just at present. It
- was evident that his mind was not in working order yet, and his
- ideas needed clarifying; for often in the middle of a plaintive
- strain, he would find himself humming a dancing tune that vividly
- recalled the Christmas ball at Nice, especially the stout Frenchman,
- and put an effectual stop to tragic composition for the time being.
- Then he tried an Opera, for nothing seemed impossible in the
- beginning; but here, again, unforeseen difficulties beset him. He
- wanted Jo for his heroine, and called upon his memory to supply him
- with tender recollections and romantic visions of his love. But memory
- turned traitor; and, as if possessed by the perverse spirit of the
- girl, would only recall Jo's oddities, faults, and freaks, would
- only show her in the most unsentimental aspects- beating mats with her
- head tied up in a bandanna, barricading herself with the
- sofa-pillow, or throwing cold water over his passion a la Gummidge-
- and an irresistible laugh spoilt the pensive picture he was
- endeavoring to paint. Jo wouldn't be put into the Opera at any
- price, and he had to give her up with a "Bless that girl, what a
- torment she is!" and a clutch at his hair, as became a distracted
- composer.
- When he looked about him for another and a less intractable damsel
- to immortalize in melody, memory produced one with the most obliging
- readiness. This phantom wore many faces, but it always had golden
- hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and floated airily before
- his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses, peacocks, white ponies,
- and blue ribbons. He did not give the complacent wraith any name,
- but he took her for his heroine, and grew quite fond of her, as well
- he might; for he gifted her with every gift and grace under the sun,
- and escorted her, unscathed, through trials which would have
- annihilated any mortal woman.
- Thanks to this inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time, but
- gradually the work lost its charm, and he forgot to compose, while
- he sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed about the gay city to get new
- ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to be in a somewhat unsettled
- state that winter. He did not do much, but he thought a great deal and
- was conscious of a change of some sort going on in spite of himself
- "It's genius simmering, perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see what
- comes of it," he said, with a secret suspicion, all the while, that it
- wasn't genius, but something far more common. Whatever it was, it
- simmered to some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented
- with his desultory life, began to long for some real and earnest
- work to go at, soul and body, and finally came to the wise
- conclusion that every one who loved music was not a composer.
- Returning from one of Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at
- the Royal Theatre, he looked over his own, played a few of the best
- parts, sat staring up at the busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven, and
- Bach, who stared benignly back again; then suddenly he tore up his
- music-sheets, one by one, and, as the last fluttered out of his
- hand, he said soberly to himself-
- "She is right! Talent isn't genius, and you can't make it so. That
- music has taken the vanity out of me as Rome took it out of her, and I
- won't be a humbug any longer. Now what shall I do?"
- That seemed a hard question to answer, and Laurie began to wish he
- had to work for his daily bread. Now, if ever, occurred an eligible
- opportunity for "going to the devil," as he once forcibly expressed
- it, for he had plenty of money and nothing to do, and Satan is
- proverbially fond of providing employment for full and idle hands. The
- poor fellow had temptations enough from without and from within, but
- he withstood them pretty well; for, much as he valued liberty, he
- valued good faith and confidence more, so his promise to his
- grandfather, and his desire to be able to look honestly into the
- eyes of the women who loved him, and say "All's well," kept him safe
- and steady.
- Very likely some Mrs. Grundy will observe, "I don't believe it; boys
- will be boys, young men must sow their wild oats, and women must not
- expect miracles." I dare say you don't, Mrs. Grundy, but it's true
- nevertheless. Women work a good many miracles, and I have a persuasion
- that they may perform even that of raising the standard of manhood
- by refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the longer the
- better, and let the young men sow their wild oats if they must; but
- mothers, sisters, and friends may help to make the crop a small one,
- and keep many tares from spoiling the harvest, by believing, and
- showing that they believe, in the possibility of loyalty to the
- virtues which make men manliest in good women's eyes. If it is a
- feminine delusion, leave us to enjoy it while we may, for without it
- half the beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful
- forebodings would embitter all our hopes of the brave,
- tender-hearted little lads, who still love their mothers better than
- themselves, and are not ashamed to own it.
- Laurie thought that the task of forgetting his love for Jo would
- absorb all his powers for years; but, to his great surprise, he
- discovered it grew easier every day. He refused to believe it at
- first, got angry with himself, and couldn't understand it; but these
- hearts of ours are curious and contrary things, and time and nature
- work their will in spite of us. Laurie's heart wouldn't ache; the
- wound persisted in healing with a rapidity that astonished him, and,
- instead of trying to forget, he found himself trying to remember. He
- had not foreseen this turn of affairs, and was not prepared for it. He
- was disgusted with himself, surprised at his own fickleness, and
- full of a queer mixture of disappointment and relief that he could
- recover from such a tremendous blow so soon. He carefully stirred up
- the embers of his lost love, but they refused to burst into a blaze:
- there was only a comfortable glow that warmed and did him good without
- putting him into a fever, and he was reluctantly obliged to confess
- that the boyish passion was slowly subsiding into a more tranquil
- sentiment, very tender, a little sad and resentful still, but that was
- sure to pass away in time, leaving a brotherly affection which would
- last unbroken to the end.
- As the word "brotherly" passed through his mind in one of these
- reveries, he smiled, and glanced up at the picture of Mozart that
- was before him:
- "Well, he was a great man; and when he couldn't have one sister he
- took the other, and was happy."
- Laurie did not utter the words, but he thought them; and the next
- instant kissed the little old ring, saying to himself-
- "No, I won't! I haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll try again,
- and if that fails, why, then-"
- Leaving his sentence unfinished, he seized pen and paper and wrote
- to Jo, telling her that he could not settle to anything while there
- was the least hope of her changing her mind. Couldn't she, wouldn't
- she, and let him come home and be happy? While waiting for an answer
- he did nothing, but he did it energetically, for he was in a fever
- of impatience. It came at last, and settled his mind effectually on
- one point, for Jo decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped
- up in Beth, and never wished to hear the word "love" again. Then she
- begged him to be happy with somebody else, but always to keep a little
- corner of his heart for his loving sister Jo. In a postscript she
- desired him not to tell Amy that Beth was worse; she was coming home
- in the spring, and there was no need of saddening the remainder of her
- stay. That would be time enough, please God, but Laurie must write
- to her often, and not let her feel lonely, homesick, or anxious.
- "So I will, at once. Poor little girl; it will be a sad going home
- for her, I'm afraid"; and Laurie opened his desk, as if writing to Amy
- had been the proper conclusion of the sentence left unfinished some
- weeks before.
- But he did not write the letter that day; for, as he rummaged out
- his best paper, he came across something which changed his purpose.
- Tumbling about in one part of the desk, among bills, passports, and
- business documents of various kinds were several of Jo's letters,
- and in another compartment were three notes from Amy, carefully tied
- up with one of her blue ribbons, and sweetly suggestive of the
- little dead roses put away inside. With a half-repentant,
- half-amused expression, Laurie gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed,
- folded, and put them neatly into a small drawer of the desk, stood a
- minute turning the ring thoughtfully, on his finger, then slowly
- drew it off, laid it with the letters, locked the drawer, and went out
- to hear High Mass at Saint Stefan's, feeling as if there had been a
- funeral; and, though not overwhelmed with affliction, this seemed a
- more proper way to spend the rest of the day than in writing letters
- to charming young ladies.
- The letter went very soon, however, and was promptly answered, for
- Amy was homesick, and confessed it in the most delightfully
- confiding manner. The correspondence flourished famously, and
- letters flew to and fro, with unfailing regularity, all through the
- early spring. Laurie sold his busts, made allumettes of his opera, and
- went back to Paris, hoping somebody would arrive before long. He
- wanted desperately to go to Nice, but would not till he was asked; and
- Amy would not ask him, for just then she was having little experiences
- of her own, which made her rather wish to avoid the quizzical eyes
- of "our boy."
- Fred Vaughn had returned, and put the question to which she had once
- decided to answer, "Yes, thank you" but now she said, "No, thank you,"
- kindly but steadily; for, when the time came, her courage failed
- her, and she found that something more than money and position was
- needed to satisfy the new longing that filled her heart so full of
- tender hopes and fears. The words, "Fred is a good fellow, but not
- at all the man I fancied you would ever like," and Laurie's face
- when he uttered them, kept returning to her as pertinaciously as her
- own did when she said in look, if not in words, "I shall marry for
- money." It troubled her to remember that now, she wished she could
- take it back, it sounded so unwomanly. She didn't want Laurie to think
- her a heartless, worldly creature; she didn't care to be a queen of
- society now half so much as she did to be a lovable woman; she was
- so glad he didn't hate her for the dreadful things she said, but
- took them so beautifully, and was kinder than ever. His letters were
- such a comfort, for the home letters were very irregular, and were not
- half so satisfactory as his when they did come. It was not only a
- pleasure, but a duty to answer them, for the poor fellow was
- forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo persisted in being
- stony-hearted. She ought to have made an effort, and tried to love
- him; it couldn't be very hard, many people would be proud and glad
- to have such a dear boy care for them; but Jo never would act like
- other girls, so there was nothing to do but be very kind, and treat
- him like a brother.
- If all brothers were treated as well as Laurie was at this period,
- they would be a much happier race of beings than they are. Amy never
- lectured now; she asked his opinion on all subjects; she was
- interested in everything he did, made charming little presents for
- him, and sent him two letters a week, full of lively gossip,
- sisterly confidences, and captivating sketches of the lovely scenes
- about her. As few brothers are complimented by having their letters
- carried about in their sisters' pockets, read and reread diligently,
- cried over when short, kissed when long, and treasured carefully, we
- will not hint that Amy did any of these fond and foolish things. But
- she certainly did grow a little pale and pensive that spring, lost
- much of her relish for society, and went out sketching alone a good
- deal. She never had much to show when she came home, but was
- studying nature, I dare say, while she sat for hours, with her hands
- folded, on the terrace at Valrosa, or absently sketched any fancy that
- occurred to her- a stalwart knight carved on a tomb, a young man
- asleep in the grass, with his hat over his eyes, or a curly-haired
- girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a ball-room on the arm of a
- tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur according to the last
- fashion in art, which was safe, but not altogether satisfactory.
- Her aunt thought that she regretted her answer to Fred; and, finding
- denials useless and explanations impossible, Amy left her to think
- what she liked, taking care that Laurie should know that Fred had gone
- to Egypt. That was all, but he understood it, and looked relieved,
- as he said to himself, with a venerable air-
- "I was sure she would think better of it. Poor old fellow! I've been
- through it all, and I can sympathize."
- With that he heaved a great sigh, and then, as if he had
- discharged his duty to the past, put his feet up on the sofa, and
- enjoyed Amy's letter luxuriously.
- While these changes were going on abroad, trouble had come at
- home; but the letter telling that Beth was failing never reached
- Amy, and when the next found her, the grass was green above her
- sister. The sad news met her at Vevey, for the heat had driven them
- from Nice in May, and they had travelled slowly to Switzerland, by way
- of Genoa and the Italian lakes. She bore it very well, and quietly
- submitted to the family decree that she should not shorten her
- visit, for, since it was too late to say good-by to Beth, she had
- better stay, and let absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was very
- heavy; she longed to be at home, and every day looked wistfully across
- the lake, waiting for Laurie to come and comfort her.
- He did come very soon; for the same mail brought letters to them
- both, but he was in Germany, and it took some days to reach him. The
- moment he read it, he packed his knapsack, bade adieu to his
- fellow-pedestrians, and was off to keep his promise, with a heart full
- of joy and sorrow, hope and suspense.
- He knew Vevey well; and as soon as the boat touched the little quay,
- he hurried along the shore to La Tour, where the Carrols were living
- en pension. The garcon was in despair that the whole family had gone
- to take a promenade on the lake; but no, the blonde mademoiselle might
- be in the chateau garden. If monsieur would give himself the pain of
- sitting down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
- not wait even "a flash of time," and, in the middle of the speech,
- departed to find mademoiselle himself.
- A pleasant old garden on the borders of the lovely lake, with
- chestnuts rustling overhead, ivy climbing everywhere, and the black
- shadow of the tower falling far across the sunny water. At one
- corner of the wide, low wall was a seat, and here Amy often came to
- read or work, or console herself with the beauty all about her. She
- was sitting here that day, leaning her head on her hand, with a
- homesick heart and heavy eyes, thinking of Beth, and wondering why
- Laurie did not come. She did not hear him cross the court-yard beyond,
- nor see him pause in the archway that led from the subterranean path
- into the garden. He stood a minute, looking at her with new eyes,
- seeing what no one had ever seen before- the tender side of Amy's
- character. Everything about her mutely suggested love and sorrow-
- the blotted letters in her lap, the black ribbon that tied up her
- hair, the womanly pain and patience in her face; even the little ebony
- cross at her throat seemed pathetic to Laurie, for he had given it
- to her, and she wore it as her only ornament. If he had any doubts
- about the reception she would give him, they were set at rest the
- minute she looked up and saw him; for, dropping everything, she ran to
- him, exclaiming, in a tone of unmistakable love and longing-
- "O Laurie, Laurie; I knew you'd come to me!"
- I think everything was said and settled then; for, as they stood
- together quite silent for a moment, with the dark head bent down
- protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no one could comfort
- and sustain her so well as Laurie, and Laurie decided that Amy was the
- only woman in the world who could fill Jo's place, and make him happy.
- He did not tell her so; but she was not disappointed, for both felt
- the truth, were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
- In a minute Amy went back to her place; and, while she dried her
- tears, Laurie gathered up the scattered papers, finding in the sight
- of sundry well-worn letters and suggestive sketches good omens for the
- future. As he sat down beside her, Amy felt shy again, and turned rosy
- red at the recollection of her impulsive greeting.
- "I couldn't help it; I felt so lonely and sad, and was so very
- glad to see you. It was such a surprise to look up and find you,
- just as I was beginning to fear you wouldn't come," she said, trying
- in vain to speak quite naturally.
- "I came the minute I heard. I wish I could say something to
- comfort you for the loss of dear little Beth; but I can only feel,
- and-" He could not get any further, for he, too, turned bashful all of
- a sudden, and did not quite know what to say. He longed to lay Amy's
- head down on his shoulder, and tell her to have a good cry, but he did
- not dare; so took her hand instead, and gave it a sympathetic
- squeeze that was better than words.
- "You needn't say anything; this comforts me," she said softly. "Beth
- is well and happy, and I mustn't wish her back; but I dread the
- going home, much as I long to see them all. We won't talk about it
- now, for it makes me cry, and I want to enjoy you while you stay.
- You needn't go right back, need you?"
- "Not if you want me, dear."
- "I do, so much. Aunt and Flo are very kind; but you seem like one of
- the family, and it would be so comfortable to have you for a little
- while."
- Amy spoke and looked so like a homesick child, whose heart was full,
- that Laurie forgot his bashfulness all at once, and gave her just what
- she wanted- the petting she was used to and the cheerful
- conversation she needed.
- "Poor little soul, you look as if you'd grieved yourself
- half-sick! I'm going to take care of you, so don't cry any more, but
- come and walk about with me; the wind is too chilly for you to sit
- still," he said, in the half-caressing, half-commanding way that Amy
- liked, as he tied on her hat, drew her arm through his, and began to
- pace up and down the sunny walk, under the new-leaved chestnuts. He
- felt more at ease upon his legs; and Amy found it very pleasant to
- have a strong arm to lean upon, a familiar face to smile at her, and a
- kind voice to talk delightfully for her alone.
- The quaint old garden had sheltered many pairs of lovers, and seemed
- expressly made for them, so sunny and secluded was it, with nothing
- but the tower to overlook them, and the wide lake to carry away the
- echo of their words, as it rippled by below. For an hour this new pair
- walked and talked, or rested on the wall, enjoying the sweet
- influences which gave such a charm to time and place; and when an
- unromantic dinner-bell warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her
- burden of loneliness and sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
- The moment Mrs. Carrol saw the girl's altered face, she was
- illuminated with a new idea, and exclaimed to herself, "Now I
- understand it all- the child has been pining for young Laurence. Bless
- my heart, I never thought of such a thing!"
- With praiseworthy discretion, the good lady said nothing, and
- betrayed no sign of enlightenment; but cordially urged Laurie to stay,
- and begged Amy to enjoy his society, for it would do her more good
- than so much solitude. Amy was a model of docility; and, as her aunt
- was a good deal occupied with Flo, she was left to entertain her
- friend, and did it with more than her usual success.
- At Nice, Laurie had lounged and Amy had scolded; at Vevey, Laurie
- was never idle, but always walking, riding, boating, or studying, in
- the most energetic manner, while Amy admired everything he did, and
- followed his example as far and as fast as she could. He said the
- change was owing to the climate, and she did not contradict him, being
- glad of a like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
- The invigorating air did them both good, and much exercise worked
- wholesome changes in minds as well as bodies. They seemed to get
- clearer views of life and duty up there among the everlasting hills;
- the fresh winds blew away desponding doubts, delusive fancies, and
- moody mists; the warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of
- aspiring ideas, tender hopes, and happy thoughts; the lake seemed to
- wash away the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains to
- look benignly down upon them, saying, "Little children, love one
- another."
- In spite of the new sorrow, it was a very happy time, so happy
- that Laurie could not bear to disturb it by a word. It took him a
- little while to recover from his surprise at the rapid cure of his
- first, and, as he had firmly believed, his last and only love. He
- consoled himself for the seeming disloyalty by the thought that Jo's
- sister was almost the same as Jo's self, and the conviction that it
- would have been impossible to love any other woman but Amy so soon and
- so well. His first wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he
- looked back upon it as if through a long vista of years, with a
- feeling of compassion blended with regret. He was not ashamed of it,
- but put it away as one of the bitter-sweet experiences of his life,
- for which he could be grateful when the pain was over. His second
- wooing he resolved should be as calm and simple as possible; there was
- no need of having a scene, hardly any need of telling Amy that he
- loved her; she knew it without words, and had given him his answer
- long ago. It all came about so naturally that no one could complain,
- and he knew that everybody would be pleased, even Jo. But when our
- first little passion has been crushed, we are apt to be wary and
- slow in making a second trial; so Laurie let the days pass, enjoying
- every hour, and leaving to chance the utterance of the word that would
- put an end to the first and sweetest part of his new romance.
- He had rather imagined that the denouement would take place in the
- chateau garden by moonlight, and in the most graceful and decorous
- manner; but it turned out exactly the reverse, for the matter was
- settled on the lake, at noonday, in a few blunt words. They had been
- floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gingolf to sunny
- Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont St. Bernard and the
- Dent du Midi on the other, pretty Vevey in the valley, and Lausanne
- upon the hill beyond, a cloudless blue sky overhead, and the bluer
- lake below, dotted with the picturesque boats that look like
- white-winged gulls.
- They had been talking of Bonnivard, as they glided past Chillon, and
- of Rousseau, as they looked up at Clarens, where he wrote his
- "Heloise." Neither had read it, but they knew it was a love-story, and
- each privately wondered if it was half as interesting as their own.
- Amy had been dabbling her hand in the water during the little pause
- that fell between them, and, when she looked up, Laurie was leaning on
- his oars, with an expression in his eyes that made her say hastily,
- merely for the sake of saying something-
- "You must be tired; rest a little, and let me row; it will do me
- good; for, since you came, I have been altogether lazy and luxurious."
- "I'm not tired; but you may take an oar, if you like. There's room
- enough, though I have to sit nearly in the middle, else the boat won't
- trim," returned Laurie, as if he rather liked the arrangement.
- Feeling that she had not mended matters much, Amy took the offered
- third of a seat, shook her hair over her face, and accepted an oar.
- She rowed as well as she did many other things; and, though she used
- both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time, and the boat
- went smoothly through the water.
- "How well we pull together, don't we?" said Amy, who objected to
- silence just then.
- "So well that I wish we might always pull in the same boat. Will
- you, Amy?" very tenderly.
- "Yes, Laurie," very low.
- Then they both stopped rowing, and unconsciously added a pretty
- little tableau of human love and happiness to the dissolving views
- reflected in the lake.
- 42
- All Alone
-
- IT was easy to promise self-abnegation when self was wrapped up in
- another, and heart and soul were purified by a sweet example; but when
- the helpful voice was silent, the daily lesson over, the beloved
- presence gone, and nothing remained but loneliness and grief, then
- Jo found her promise very hard to keep. How could she "comfort
- father and mother," when her own heart ached with a ceaseless
- longing for her sister; how could she "make the house cheerful,"
- when all its light and warmth and beauty seemed to have deserted it
- when Beth left the old home for the new; and where in all the world
- could she "find some useful, happy work to do," that would take the
- place of the loving service which had been its own reward? She tried
- in a blind, hopeless way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against it
- all the while, for it seemed unjust that her few joys should be
- lessened, her burdens made heavier, and life get harder and harder
- as she toiled along. Some people seemed to get all sunshine, and
- some all shadow; it was not fair, for she tried more than Amy to be
- good, but never got any reward, only disappointment, trouble, and hard
- work.
- Poor Jo, these were dark days to her, for something like despair
- came over her when she thought of spending all her life in that
- quiet house, devoted to humdrum cares, a few small pleasures, and
- the duty that never seemed to grow any easier. "I can't do it. I
- wasn't meant for a life like this, and I know I shall break away and
- do something desperate if somebody don't come and help me," she said
- to herself, when her first efforts failed, and she fell into the
- moody, miserable state of mind which often comes when strong wills
- have to yield to the inevitable.
- But some one did come and help her, though Jo did not recognize
- her good angels at once, because they wore familiar shapes, and used
- the simple spells best fitted to poor humanity. Often she started up
- at night, thinking Beth called her; and when the sight of the little
- empty bed made her cry with the bitter cry of an unsubmissive
- sorrow, "O Beth, come back! come back!" she did not stretch out her
- yearning arms in vain; for, as quick to hear her sobbing as she had
- been to hear her sister's faintest whisper, her mother came to comfort
- her, not with words only, but the patient tenderness that soothes by a
- touch, tears that were mute reminders of a greater grief than Jo's,
- and broken whispers, more eloquent than prayers, because hopeful
- resignation went hand-in-hand with natural sorrow. Sacred moments,
- when heart talked to heart in the silence of the night, turning
- affliction to a blessing, which chastened grief and strengthened love.
- Feeling this, Jo's burden seemed easier to bear, duty grew sweeter,
- and life looked more endurable, seen from the safe shelter of her
- mother's arms.
- When aching heart was a little comforted, troubled mind likewise
- found help; for one day she went to the study, and, leaning over the
- good gray head lifted to welcome her with a tranquil smile she said,
- very humbly-
- "Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I need it more than she did,
- for I'm all wrong."
- "My dear, nothing can comfort me like this," he answered, with a
- falter in his voice, and both arms round her, as if he, too, needed
- help, and did not fear to ask it.
- Then, sitting in Beth's little chair close beside him, Jo told her
- troubles- the resentful sorrow for her loss, the fruitless efforts
- that discouraged her, the want of faith that made life look so dark,
- and all the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She gave him
- entire confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and both found
- consolation in the act; for the time had come when they could talk
- together not only as father and daughter, but as man and woman, able
- and glad to serve each other with mutual sympathy as well as mutual
- love. Happy, thoughtful times there in the old study which Jo called
- "the church of one member," and from which she came with fresh
- courage, recovered cheerfulness, and a more submissive spirit; for the
- parents who had taught one child to meet death without fear, were
- trying now to teach another to accept life without despondency or
- distrust, and to use its beautiful opportunities with gratitude and
- power.
- Other helps had Jo- humble, wholesome duties and delights that would
- not be denied their part in serving her, and which she slowly
- learned to see and value. Brooms and dishcloths never could be as
- distasteful as they once had been, for Beth had presided over both;
- and something of her housewifely spirit seemed to linger round the
- little mop and the old brush, that was never thrown away. As she
- used them, Jo found herself humming the songs Beth used to hum,
- imitating Beth's orderly ways, and giving the little touches here
- and there that kept everything fresh and cosey, which was the first
- step toward making home happy, though she didn't know it, till
- Hannah said with an approving squeeze of the hand-
- "You thoughtful creeter, you're determined we shan't miss that
- dear lamb ef you can help it. We don't say much, but we see it, and
- the Lord will bless you for 't, see ef He don't."
- As they sat sewing together, Jo discovered how much improved her
- sister Meg was; how well she could talk, how much she knew about good,
- womanly impulses, thoughts, and feelings, how happy she was in husband
- and children, and how much they were all doing for each other.
- "Marriage is an excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I should
- blossom out half as well as you have, if I tried it?" said Jo, as
- she constructed a kite for Demi, in the topsy-turvy nursery.
- "It's just what you need to bring out the tender, womanly half of
- your nature, Jo. You are like a chestnut-burr, prickly outside, but
- silky-soft within, and a sweet kernel, if one can only get at it. Love
- will make you show your heart some day, and then the rough burr will
- fall off."
- "Frost opens chestnut-burrs, ma'am, and it takes a good shake to
- bring them down. Boys go nutting, and I don't care to be bagged by
- them," returned Jo, pasting away at the kite which no wind that
- blows would ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as a bob.
- Meg laughed, for she was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old spirit,
- but she felt it her duty to enforce her opinion by every argument in
- her power; and the sisterly chats were not wasted, especially as two
- of Meg's most effective arguments were the babies, whom Jo loved
- tenderly. Grief is the best opener for some hearts, and Jo's was
- nearly ready for the bag: a little more sunshine to ripen the nut,
- then, not a boy's impatient shake, but a man's hand reached up to pick
- it gently from the burr, and find the kernel sound and sweet. If she
- had suspected this, she would have shut up tight, and been more
- prickly than ever; fortunately she wasn't thinking about herself,
- so, when the time came, down she dropped.
- Now, if she had been the heroine of a moral story-book, she ought at
- this period of her life to have become quite saintly, renounced the
- world, and gone about doing good in a mortified bonnet, with tracts in
- her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a heroine; she was only a
- struggling human girl, like hundreds of others, and she just acted out
- her nature, being sad, cross, listless, or energetic, as the mood
- suggested. It's highly virtuous to say we'll be good, but we can't
- do it all at once, and it takes a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull
- all together, before some of us even get our feet set in the right
- way. Jo had got so far, she was learning to do her duty, and to feel
- unhappy if she did not; but to do it cheerfully- ah, that was
- another thing! She had often said she wanted to do something splendid,
- no matter how hard; and now she had her wish, for what could be more
- beautiful than to devote her life to father and mother, trying to make
- home as happy to them as they had to her? And, if difficulties were
- necessary to increase the splendor of the effort, what could be harder
- for a restless, ambitious girl than to give up her own hopes, plans,
- and desires, and cheerfully live for others?
- Providence had taken her at her word; here was the task, not what
- she had expected, but better, because self had no part in it: now,
- could she do it? She decided that she would try; and, in her first
- attempt, she found the helps I have suggested. Still another was given
- her, and she took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort, as
- Christian took the refreshment afforded by the little arbor where he
- rested, as he climbed the hill called Difficulty.
- "Why don't you write? That always used to make you happy," said
- her mother, once, when the desponding fit overshadowed Jo.
- "I've no heart to write, and if I had, nobody cares for my things."
- "We do; write something for us, and never mind the rest of the
- world. Try it, dear; I'm sure it would do you good, and please us very
- much."
- "Don't believe I can"; but Jo got out her desk, and began to
- overhaul her half-finished manuscripts.
- An hour afterward her mother peeped in, and there she was,
- scratching away, with her black pinafore on, and an absorbed
- expression, which caused Mrs. March to smile, and slip away, well
- pleased with the success of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it
- happened, but something got into that story that went straight to
- the hearts of those who read it; for, when her family had laughed
- and cried over it, her father sent it, much against her will, to one
- of the popular magazines, and, to her utter surprise, it was not
- only paid for, but others requested. Letters from several persons,
- whose praise was honor, followed the appearance of the little story,
- newspapers copied it, and strangers as well as friends admired it. For
- a small thing it was a great success; and Jo was more astonished
- than when her novel was commended and condemned all at once.
- "I don't understand it. What can there be in a simple little story
- like that, to make people praise it so?" she said, quite bewildered.
- "There is truth in it, Jo, that's the secret; humor and pathos
- make it alive, and you have found your style at last. You wrote with
- no thought of fame or money, and put your heart into it, my
- daughter; you have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do your
- best, and grow as happy as we are in your success."
- "If there is anything good or true in what I write, it isn't mine; I
- owe it all to you and mother and to Beth," said Jo, more touched by
- her father's words than by any amount of praise from the world.
- So, taught by love and sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories, and sent
- them away to make friends for themselves and her, finding it a very
- charitable world to such humble wanderers; for they were kindly
- welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to their mother, like
- dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
- When Amy and Laurie wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March feared
- that Jo would find it difficult to rejoice over it, but her fears were
- soon set at rest; for, though Jo looked grave at first, she took it
- very quietly, and was full of hopes and plans for "the children"
- before she read the letter twice. It was a sort of written duet,
- wherein each glorified the other in lover-like fashion, very
- pleasant to read and satisfactory to think of, for no one had any
- objection to make.
- "You like it, mother?" said Jo, as they laid down the closely
- written sheets, and looked at one another.
- "Yes, I hoped it would be so, ever since Amy wrote that she had
- refused Fred. I felt sure then that something better than what you
- call the 'mercenary spirit' had come over her, and a hint here and
- there in her-letters made me suspect that love and Laurie would win
- the day."
- "How sharp you are, Marmee, and how silent! You never said a word to
- me."
- "Mothers have need of sharp eyes and discreet tongues when they have
- girls to manage. I was half afraid to put the idea into your head,
- lest you should write and congratulate them before the thing was
- settled."
- "I'm not the scatter-brain I was; you may trust me, I'm sober and
- sensible enough for any one's confidante now."
- "So you are, dear, and I should have made you mine, only I fancied
- it might pain you to learn that your Teddy loved any one else."
- "Now, mother, did you really think I could be so silly and
- selfish, after I'd refused his love, when it was freshest, if not
- best?"
- "I knew you were sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought that if
- he came back, and asked again, you might, perhaps, feel like giving
- another answer. Forgive me, dear, I can't help seeing that you are
- very lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry look in your eyes that
- goes to my heart; so I fancied that your boy might fill the empty
- place if he tried now."
- "No, mother, it is better as it is, and I'm glad Amy has learned
- to love him. But you are right in one thing; I am lonely, and
- perhaps if Teddy had tried again, I might have said 'Yes,' not because
- I love him any more, but because I care more to be loved than when
- he went away."
- "I'm glad of that, Jo, for it shows that you are getting on. There
- are plenty to love you, so try to be satisfied with father and mother,
- sisters and brothers, friends and babies, till the best lover of all
- comes to give you your reward."
- "Mothers are the best lovers in the world; but I don't mind
- whispering to Marmee that I'd like to try all kinds. It's very
- curious, but the more I try to satisfy myself with all sorts of
- natural affections, the more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts
- could take in so many; mine is so elastic, it never seems full now,
- and I used to be quite contented with my family. I don't understand
- it."
- "I do"; and Mrs. March smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned back
- the leaves to read what Amy said of Laurie.
- "It is so beautiful to be loved as Laurie loves me; he isn't
- sentimental, doesn't say much about it, but I see and feel it in all
- he says and does, and it makes me so happy and so humble that I
- don't seem to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and
- generous and tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart,
- and I find it full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and am so
- proud to know it's mine. He says he feels as if he 'could make a
- prosperous voyage now with me aboard as mate, and lots of love for
- ballast.' I pray he may, and try to be all he believes me, for I
- love my gallant captain with all my heart and soul and might, and
- never will desert him, while God lets us be together. O mother, I
- never knew how much like heaven this world could be, when two people
- love and live for one another!"
- "And that's our cool, reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love does
- work miracles. How very, very happy they must be!" And Jo laid the
- rustling sheets together with a careful hand, as one might shut the
- covers of a lovely romance, which holds the reader fast till the end
- comes, and he finds himself alone in the work-a-day world again.
- By and by Jo roamed away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she could
- not walk. A restless spirit possessed her, and the old feeling came
- again, not bitter as it once was, but a sorrowfully patient wonder why
- one sister should have all she asked, the other nothing. It was not
- true; she knew that, and tried to put it away, but the natural craving
- for affection was strong, and Amy's happiness woke the hungry
- longing for some one to "love with heart and soul, and cling to
- while God let them be together."
- Up in the garret, where Jo's unquiet wanderings ended, stood four
- little wooden chests in a row, each marked with its owner's name,
- and each filled with relics of the childhood and girlhood ended now
- for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to her own, leaned
- her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the chaotic collection,
- till a bundle of old exercise-books caught her eye. She drew them out,
- turned them over, and re-lived that pleasant winter at kind Mrs.
- Kirke's. She had smiled at first, then she looked thoughtful, next
- sad, and when she came to a little message written in the
- Professor's hand, her lips began to tremble, the books slid out of her
- lap, and she sat looking at the friendly words, as if they took a
- new meaning, and touched a tender spot in her heart.
- "Wait for me, my friend. I may be a little late, but I shall
- surely come."
- "Oh, if he only would! So kind, so good, so patient with me
- always; my dear old Fritz, I didn't value him half enough when I had
- him, but now how I should love to see him, for every one seems going
- away from me, and I'm all alone."
- And holding the little paper fast, as if it were a promise yet to be
- fulfilled, Jo laid her head down on a comfortable rag-bag and cried,
- as if in opposition to the rain pattering on the roof.
- Was it all self-pity, loneliness, or low spirits? or was it the
- waking up of a sentiment which had bided its time as patiently as
- its inspirer? Who shall say?
- 43
- Surprises
-
- JO was alone in the twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking at
- the fire, and thinking. It was her favorite way of spending the hour
- of dusk; no one disturbed her, and she used to lie there on Beth's
- little red pillow, planning stories, dreaming dreams, or thinking
- tender thoughts of the sister who never seemed far away. Her face
- looked tired, grave, and rather sad; for to-morrow was her birthday,
- and she was thinking how fast the years went by, how old she was
- getting, and how little she seemed to have accomplished. Almost
- twenty-five, and nothing to show for it. Jo was mistaken in that;
- there was a good deal to show, and by and by she saw, and was grateful
- for it.
- "An old maid, that's what I'm to be. A literary spinster, with a pen
- for a spouse, a family of stories for children, and twenty years hence
- a morsel of fame, perhaps; when, like poor Johnson, I'm old, and can't
- enjoy it, solitary, and can't share it, independent, and don't need
- it. Well, I needn't be a sour saint nor a selfish sinner; and, I
- dare say, old maids are very comfortable when they get used to it;
- but-" and there Jo sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
- It seldom is, at first, and thirty seems the end of all things to
- five-and-twenty; but it's not so bad as it looks, and one can get on
- quite happily if one has something in one's self to fall back upon. At
- twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old maids, but secretly
- resolve that they never will be; at thirty they say nothing about
- it, but quietly accept the fact, and, if sensible, console
- themselves by remembering that they have twenty more useful, happy
- years, in which they may be learning to grow old gracefully. Don't
- laugh at the spinsters, dear girls, for often very tender, tragical
- romances are hidden away in the hearts that beat so quietly under
- the sober gowns, and many silent sacrifices of youth, health,
- ambition, love itself, make the faded faces beautiful in God's
- sight. Even the sad, sour sisters should be kindly dealt with, because
- they have missed the sweetest part of life, if for no other reason;
- and, looking at them with compassion, not contempt, girls in their
- bloom should remember that they too may miss the blossom time; that
- rosy cheeks don't last forever, that silver threads will come in the
- bonnie brown hair, and that, by and by, kindness and respect will be
- as sweet as love and admiration now.
- Gentlemen, which means boys, be courteous to the old maids, no
- matter how poor and plain and prim, for the only chivalry worth having
- is that which is the readiest to pay deference to the old, protect the
- feeble, and serve womankind, regardless of rank, age, or color. Just
- recollect the good aunts who have not only lectured and fussed, but
- nursed and petted, too often without thanks; the scrapes they have
- helped you out of, the "tips" they have given you from their small
- store, the stitches the patient old fingers have set for you, the
- steps the willing old feet have taken, and gratefully pay the dear old
- ladies the little attentions that women love to receive as long as
- they live. The bright-eyed girls are quick to see such traits, and
- will like you all the better for them; and if death, almost the only
- power that can part mother and son, should rob you of yours, you
- will be sure to find a tender welcome and maternal cherishing from
- some Aunt Priscilla, who has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old
- heart for "the best nevvy in the world."
- Jo must have fallen asleep (as I dare say my reader has during
- this little homily), for suddenly Laurie's ghost seemed to stand
- before her- a substantial, lifelike ghost- leaning over her, with
- the very look he used to wear when he felt a good deal and didn't like
- to show it. But, like Jenny in the ballad-
-
- "She could not think it he,"
-
- and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped and
- kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully-
- "O my Teddy! O my Teddy!"
- "Dear Jo, you are glad to see me, then?"
- "Glad! My blessed boy, words can't express my gladness. Where's
- Amy?"
- "Your mother has got her down at Meg's. We stopped there by the way,
- and there was no getting my wife out of their clutches."
- "Your what?" cried Jo, for Laurie uttered those two words with an
- unconscious pride and satisfaction which betrayed him.
- "Oh, the dickens! now I've done it"; and he looked so guilty that Jo
- was down upon him like a flash.
- "You've gone and got married!"
- "Yes, please, but I never will again"; and he went down upon his
- knees, with a penitent clasping of hands, and a face full of mischief,
- mirth, and triumph.
- "Actually married?"
- "Very much so, thank you."
- "Mercy on us! What dreadful thing will you do next?" and Jo fell
- into her seat, with a gasp.
- "A characteristic, but not exactly complimentary, congratulation,"
- returned Laurie, still in an abject attitude, but beaming with
- satisfaction.
- "What can you expect, when you take one's breath away, creeping in
- like a burglar, and letting cats out of bags like that? Get up, you
- ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it."
- "Not a word, unless you let me come in my old place, and promise not
- to barricade."
- Jo laughed at that as she had not done for many a long day, and
- patted the sofa invitingly, as she said, in a cordial tone-
- "The old pillow is up garret, and we don't need it now; so, come and
- 'fess, Teddy."
- "How good it sounds to hear you say 'Teddy'! No one ever calls me
- that but you"; and Laurie sat down, with an air of great content.
- "What does Amy call you?"
- "My lord."
- "That's like her. Well, you look it"; and Jo's eyes plainly betrayed
- that she found her boy comelier than ever.
- The pillow was gone, but there was a barricade, nevertheless- a
- natural one, raised by time, absence, and change of heart. Both felt
- it, and for a minute looked at one another as if that invisible
- barrier cast a little shadow over them. It was gone directly, however,
- for Laurie said, with a vain attempt at dignity-
- "Don't I look like a married man and the head of a family?"
- "Not a bit, and you never will. You've grown bigger and bonnier, but
- you are the same scapegrace as ever."
- "Now, really, Jo, you ought to treat me with more respect," began
- Laurie, who enjoyed it all immensely.
- "How can I, when the mere idea of you, married and settled, is so
- irresistibly funny that I can't keep sober!" answered Jo, smiling
- all over her face, so infectiously that they had another laugh, and
- then settled down for a good talk, quite in the pleasant old fashion.
- "It's no use your going out in the cold to get Amy, for they are all
- coming up presently. I couldn't wait; I wanted to be the one to tell
- you the grand surprise, and have 'first skim,' as we used to say
- when we squabbled about the cream."
- "Of course you did, and spoilt your story by beginning at the
- wrong end. Now, start right, and tell me how it all happened; I'm
- pining to know."
- "Well, I did it to please Amy," began Laurie, with a twinkle that
- made Jo exclaim-
- "Fib number one; Amy did it to please you. Go on, and tell the
- truth, if you can, sir."
- "Now she's beginning to marm it; isn't it jolly to hear her?" said
- Laurie to the fire, and the fire glowed and sparkled as if it quite
- agreed. "It's all the same, you know, she and I being one. We
- planned to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago, but they
- suddenly changed their minds, and decided to pass another winter in
- Paris. But grandpa wanted to come home; he went to please me, and I
- couldn't let him go alone, neither could I leave Amy; and Mrs.
- Carrol had got English notions about chaperons and such nonsense,
- and wouldn't let Amy come with us. So I just settled the difficulty by
- saying, 'Let's be married, and then we can do as we like.'"
- "Of course you did; you always have things to suit you."
- "Not always"; and something in Laurie's voice made Jo say hastily-
- "How did you ever get aunt to agree?"
- "It was hard work; but, between us, we talked her over, for we had
- heaps of good reasons on our side. There wasn't time to write and
- ask leave, but you all liked it, had consented to it by and by, and it
- was only 'taking Time by the fetlock,' as my wife says."
- "Aren't we proud of those two words, and don't we like to say them?"
- interrupted Jo, addressing the fire in her turn, and watching with
- delight the happy light it seemed to kindle in the eyes that had
- been so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
- "A trifle, perhaps; she's such a captivating little woman I can't
- help being proud of her. Well, then, uncle and aunt were there to play
- propriety; we were so absorbed in one another we were of no mortal use
- apart, and that charming arrangement would make everything easy all
- round; so we did it."
- "When, where, how?" asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest and
- curiosity, for she could not realize it a particle.
- "Six weeks ago, at the American consul's, in Paris; a very quiet
- wedding, of course, for even in our happiness we didn't forget dear
- little Beth."
- Jo put her hand in his as he said that, and Laurie gently smoothed
- the little red pillow, which he remembered well.
- "Why didn't you let us know afterward?" asked Jo, in a quieter tone,
- when they had sat quite still a minute.
- "We wanted to surprise you; we thought we were coming directly home,
- at first; but the dear old gentleman, as soon as we were married,
- found he couldn't be ready under a month, at least, and sent us off to
- spend our honeymoon wherever we liked. Amy had once called Valrosa a
- regular honeymoon home, so we went there, and were as happy as
- people are but once in their lives. My faith! wasn't it love among the
- roses!"
- Laurie seemed to forget Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of it;
- for the fact that he told her these things so freely and naturally
- assured her that he had quite forgiven and forgotten. She tried to
- draw away her hand; but, as if he guessed the thought that prompted
- the half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast, and said, with a
- manly gravity she had never seen in him before-
- "Jo, dear, I want to say one thing, and then we'll put it by
- forever. As I told you in my letter, when I wrote that Amy had been so
- kind to me, I never shall stop loving you; but the love is altered,
- and I have learned to see that it is better as it is. Amy and you
- change places in my heart, that's all. I think it was meant to be
- so, and would have come about naturally, if I had waited, as you tried
- to make me; but I never could be patient, and so I got a heartache.
- I was a boy then, headstrong and violent; and it took a hard lesson to
- show me my mistake. For it was one, Jo, as you said, and I found it
- out, after making a fool of myself. Upon my word, I was so tumbled
- up in my mind, at one time, that I didn't know which I loved best, you
- or Amy, and tried to love both alike; but I couldn't, and when I saw
- her in Switzerland, everything seemed to clear up all at once. You
- both got into your right places, and I felt sure that it was well
- off with the old love before it was on with the new; that I could
- honestly share my heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love
- them both dearly. Will you believe it, and go back to the happy old
- times when we first knew one another?"
- "I'll believe it, with all my heart; but, Teddy, we never can be boy
- and girl again: the happy old times can't come back, and we mustn't
- expect it. We are man and woman now, with sober work to do, for
- playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm sure you feel
- this; I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I shall
- miss my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire him more,
- because he means to be what I hoped he would. We can't be little
- playmates any longer, but we will be brother and sister, to love and
- help one another all our lives, won't we, Laurie?"
- He did not say a word, but took the hand she offered him, and laid
- his face down on it for a minute, feeling that out of the grave of a
- boyish passion, there had risen a beautiful, strong friendship to
- bless them both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for she didn't want the
- coming home to be a sad one-
- "I can't make it true that you children are really married, and
- going to set up housekeeping. Why, it seems only yesterday that I
- was buttoning Amy's pinafore, and pulling your hair when you teased.
- Mercy me, how time does fly!"
- "As one of the children is older than yourself, you needn't talk
- so like a grandma. I flatter myself I'm a 'gentleman growed,' as
- Peggotty said of David; and when you see Amy, you'll find her rather a
- precocious infant," said Laurie, looking amused at her maternal air.
- "You may be a little older in years, but I'm ever so much older in
- feeling, Teddy. Women always are; and this last year has been such a
- hard one that I feel forty."
- "Poor Jo! we left you to bear it alone, while we went pleasuring.
- You are older; here's a line, and there's another; unless you smile,
- your eyes look sad, and when I touched the cushion, just now, I
- found a tear on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and had to bear
- it all alone. What a selfish beast I've been!" and Laurie pulled his
- own hair, with a remorseful look.
- But Jo only turned over the traitorous pillow, and answered, in a
- tone which she tried to make quite cheerful-
- "No, I had father and mother to help me, the dear babies to
- comfort me, and the thought that you and Amy were safe and happy, to
- make the troubles here easier to bear. I am lonely, sometimes, but I
- dare say it's good for me, and-"
- "You never shall be again," broke in Laurie, putting his arm about
- her, as if to fence out every human ill. "Amy and I can't get on
- without you, so you must come and teach 'the children' to keep
- house, and go halves in everything, just as we used to do, and let
- us pet you, and all be blissfully happy and friendly together."
- "If I shouldn't be in the way, it would be very pleasant. I begin to
- feel quite young already; for, somehow, all my troubles seemed to
- fly away when you came. You always were a comfort, Teddy"; and Jo
- leaned her head on his shoulder, just as she did years ago, when
- Beth lay ill, and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
- He looked down at her, wondering if she remembered the time, but
- Jo was smiling to herself, as if, in truth, her troubles had all
- vanished at his coming.
- "You are the same Jo still, dropping tears about one minute, and
- laughing the next. You look a little wicked now; what is it, grandma?"
- "I was wondering how you and Amy get on together."
- "Like angels!"
- "Yes, of course, at first; but which rules?"
- "I don't mind telling you that she does, now; at least I let her
- think so- it pleases her, you know. By and by we shall take turns, for
- marriage, they say, halves one's rights and doubles one's duties."
- "You'll go on as you begin, and Amy will rule you all the days of
- your life."
- "Well, she does it so imperceptibly that I don't think I shall
- mind much. She is the sort of woman who knows how to rule well; in
- fact, I rather like it, for she winds one round her finger as softly
- and prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she was
- doing you a favor all the while."
- "That ever I should live to see you a henpecked husband and enjoying
- it!" cried Jo, with uplifted hands.
- It was good to see Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with
- masculine scorn at that insinuation, as he replied, with his "high and
- mighty" air-
- "Amy is too well-bred for that, and I am not the sort of man to
- submit to it. My wife and I respect ourselves and one another too much
- ever to tyrannize or quarrel."
- Jo liked that, and thought the new dignity very becoming, but the
- boy seemed changing very fast into the man, and regret mingled with
- her pleasure.
- "I am sure of that; Amy and you never did quarrel as we used to. She
- is the sun and I the wind, in the fable, and the sun managed the man
- best, you remember."
- "She can blow him up as well as shine on him," laughed Laurie. "Such
- a lecture as I got at Nice! I give you my word it was a deal worse
- than any of your scoldings- a regular rouser. I'll tell you all
- about it sometime- she never will, because, after telling me that
- she despised and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the
- despicable party and married the good-for-nothing."
- "What baseness! Well, if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll defend
- you."
- "I look as if I needed it, don't I?" said Laurie, getting up and
- striking an attitude which suddenly changed from the imposing to the
- rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling-
- "Where is she? Where's my dear old Jo?"
- In trooped the whole family, and every one was hugged and kissed all
- over again, and, after several vain attempts, the three wanderers were
- set down to be looked at and exulted over. Mr. Laurence, hale and
- hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the others by his
- foreign tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and the
- old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kindlier
- than ever. It was good to see him beam at "my children," as he
- called the young pair; it was better still to see Amy pay him the
- daughterly duty and affection which completely won his old heart;
- and best of all, to watch Laurie revolve about the two, as if never
- tired of enjoying the pretty picture they made.
- The minute she put her eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that
- her own dress hadn't a Parisian air, that young Mrs. Moffat would be
- entirely eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and that "her ladyship"
- was altogether a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo thought, as she
- watched the pair, "How well they look together! I was right, and
- Laurie has found the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become
- his home better than clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to
- him." Mrs. March and her husband smiled and nodded at each other
- with happy faces, for they saw that their youngest had done well,
- not only in worldly things, but the better wealth of love, confidence,
- and happiness.
- For Amy's face was full of the soft brightness which betokens a
- peaceful heart, her voice had a new tenderness in it, and the cool,
- prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity, both womanly and
- winning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial sweetness
- of her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old
- grace, for it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the
- true gentlewoman she had hoped to become.
- "Love has done much for our little girl," said her mother softly.
- "She has had a good example before her all her life, my dear," Mr.
- March whispered back, with a loving look at the worn face and gray
- head beside him.
- Daisy found it impossible to keep her eyes off her "pitty aunty,"
- but attached herself like a lap-dog to the wonderful chatelaine full
- of delightful charms. Demi paused to consider the new relationship
- before he compromised himself by the rash acceptance of a bribe, which
- took the tempting form of a family of wooden bears from Berne. A flank
- movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for Laurie knew
- where to have him.
- "Young man, when I first had the honor of making your acquaintance
- you hit me in the face: now I demand the satisfaction of a gentleman";
- and with that the tall uncle proceeded to toss and tousle the small
- nephew in a way that damaged his philosophical dignity as much as it
- delighted his boyish soul.
- "Blest if she ain't in silk from head to foot? Ain't it a
- relishin' sight to see her settin' there as fine as a fiddle, and hear
- folks calling little Amy, Mis. Laurence?" muttered old Hannah, who
- could not resist frequent "peeks" through the slide as she set the
- table in a most decidedly promiscuous manner.
- Mercy on us, how they did talk! first one, then the other, then
- all burst out together, trying to tell the history of three years in
- half an hour. It was fortunate that tea was at hand, to produce a lull
- and provide refreshment, for they would have been hoarse and faint
- if they had gone on much longer. Such a happy procession as filed away
- into the little dining-room! Mr. March proudly escorted "Mrs.
- Laurence"; Mrs. March as proudly leaned on the arm of "my son"; the
- old gentleman took Jo, with a whispered "You must be my girl now," and
- a glance at the empty corner by the fire, that made Jo whisper back,
- with trembling lips, "I'll try to fill her place, sir."
- The twins pranced behind, feeling that the millennium was at hand,
- for every one was so busy with the new-comers that they were left to
- revel at their own sweet will, and you may be sure they made the
- most of the opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea, stuff
- gingerbread ad libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and, as a crowning
- trespass, didn't they each whisk a captivating little tart into
- their tiny pockets, there to stick and crumble treacherously, teaching
- them that both human nature and pastry are frail? Burdened with the
- guilty consciousness of the sequestered tarts, and fearing that Dodo's
- sharp eyes would pierce the thin disguise of cambric and merino
- which hid their booty, the little sinners attached themselves to
- "Dranpa," who hadn't his spectacles on. Amy, who was handed about like
- refreshments, returned to the parlor on Father Laurence's arm; the
- others paired off as before, and this arrangement left Jo
- companionless. She did not mind it at the minute, for she lingered
- to answer Hannah's eager inquiry-
- "Will Miss Amy ride in her coop (coupe), and use all them lovely
- silver dishes that's stored away over yander?"
- "Shouldn't wonder if she drove six white horses, ate off gold plate,
- and wore diamonds and point-lace every day. Teddy thinks nothing too
- good for her," returned Jo with infinite satisfaction.
- "No more there is! Will you have hash or fish-balls for
- breakfast?" asked Hannah, who wisely mingled poetry and prose.
- "I don't care"; and Jo shut the door, feeling that food was an
- uncongenial topic just then. She stood a minute looking at the party
- vanishing above, and, as Demi's short plaid legs toiled up the last
- stair, a sudden sense of loneliness came over her so strongly that she
- looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to lean
- upon, for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what
- birthday gift was coming every minute nearer and nearer, she would not
- have said to herself, "I'll weep a little weep when I go to bed; it
- won't do to be dismal now." Then she drew her hand over her eyes-
- for one of her boyish habits was never to know where her
- handkerchief was- and had just managed to call up a smile when there
- came a knock at the porch-door.
- She opened it with hospitable haste, and started as if another ghost
- had come to surprise her; for there stood a tall, bearded gentleman,
- beaming on her from the darkness like a midnight sun.
- "O Mr. Bhaer, I am so glad to see you!" cried Jo, with a clutch,
- as if she feared the night would swallow him up before she could get
- him in.
- "And I to see Miss Marsch- but no, you haf a party-" and the
- Professor paused as the sound of voices and the tap of dancing feet
- came down to them.
- "No, we haven't, only the family. My sister and friends have just
- come home, and we are all very happy. Come in, and make one of us."
- Though a very social man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone
- decorously away, and come again another day; but how could he, when Jo
- shut the door behind him, and bereft him of his hat? Perhaps her
- face had something to do with it, for she forgot to hide her joy at
- seeing him, and showed it with a frankness that proved irresistible to
- the solitary man, whose welcome far exceeded his boldest hopes.
- "If I shall not be Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see them
- all. You haf been ill, my friend?"
- He put the question abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat, the light
- fell on her face, and he saw a change in it.
- "Not ill, but tired and sorrowful. We have had trouble since I saw
- you last."
- "Ah, yes, I know. My heart was sore for you when I heard that";
- and he shook hands again, with such a sympathetic face that Jo felt as
- if no comfort could equal the look of the kind eyes, the grasp of
- the big, warm hand.
- "Father, mother, this is my friend, Professor Bhaer," she said, with
- a face and tone of such irrepressible pride and pleasure that she
- might as well have blown a trumpet and opened the door with a
- flourish.
- If the stranger had had any doubts about his reception, they were
- set at rest in a minute by the cordial welcome he received. Every
- one greeted him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but very soon they
- liked him for his own. They could not help it, for he carried the
- talisman that opens all hearts, and these simple people warmed to
- him at once, feeling even the more friendly because he was poor; for
- poverty enriches those who live above it, and is a sure passport to
- truly hospitable spirits. Mr. Bhaer sat looking about him with the air
- of a traveller who knocks at a strange door, and, when it opens, finds
- himself at home. The children went to him like bees to a honey-pot;
- and, establishing themselves on each knee, proceeded to captivate
- him by rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and investigating his
- watch, with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their approval to
- one another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got a kindred
- spirit, opened his choicest stores for his guest's benefit, while
- silent John listened and enjoyed the talk, but said not a word, and
- Mr. Laurence found it impossible to go to sleep.
- If Jo had not been otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior would have
- amused her; for a faint twinge, not of jealousy, but something like
- suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand aloof at first, and
- observe the newcomer with brotherly circumspection. But it did not
- last long. He got interested in spite of himself, and, before he
- knew it, was drawn into the circle; for Mr. Bhaer talked well in
- this genial atmosphere, and did himself justice. He seldom spoke to
- Laurie, but he looked at him often, and a shadow would pass across his
- face, as if regretting his own lost youth, as he watched the young man
- in his prime. Then his eye would turn to Jo so wistfully that she
- would have surely answered the mute inquiry if she had seen it; but Jo
- had her own eyes to take care of, and, feeling that they could not
- be trusted, she prudently kept them on the little sock she was
- knitting, like a model maiden aunt.
- A stealthy glance now and then refreshed her like sips of fresh
- water after a dusty walk, for the sidelong peeps showed her several
- propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost the absent-minded
- expression, and looked all alive with interest in the present
- moment, actually young and handsome, she thought, forgetting to
- compare him with Laurie, as she usually did strange men, to their
- great detriment. Then he seemed quite inspired, though the burial
- customs of the ancients, to which the conversation had strayed,
- might not be considered an exhilarating topic. Jo quite glowed with
- triumph when Teddy got quenched in an argument, and thought to
- herself, as she watched her father's absorbed face, "How he would
- enjoy having such a man as my Professor to talk with every day!"
- Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was dressed in a new suit of black, which made him
- look more like a gentleman than ever. His bushy hair had been cut
- and smoothly brushed, but didn't stay in order long, for, in
- exciting moments, he rumpled it up in the droll way he used to do; and
- Jo liked it rampantly erect better than flat, because she thought it
- gave his fine forehead a Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did
- glorify that plain man, as she sat knitting away so quietly, yet
- letting nothing escape her, not even the fact that Mr. Bhaer
- actually had gold sleeve-buttons in his immaculate wrist-bands!
- "Dear old fellow! He couldn't have got himself up with more care
- if he'd been going a-wooing," said Jo to herself; and then a sudden
- thought, born of the words, made her blush so dreadfully that she
- had to drop her ball, and go down after it to hide her face.
- The manoeuvre did not succeed as well as she expected, however; for,
- though just in the act of setting fire to a funeral-pile, the
- Professor dropped his torch, metaphorically speaking, and made a
- dive after the little blue ball. Of course they bumped their heads
- smartly together, saw stars, and both came up flushed and laughing,
- without the ball, to resume their seats, wishing they had not left
- them.
- Nobody knew where the evening went to; for Hannah skilfully
- abstracted the babies at an early hour, nodding like two rosy poppies,
- and Mr. Laurence went home to rest. The others sat round the fire
- talking away, utterly regardless of the lapse of time, till Meg, whose
- maternal mind was impressed with a firm conviction that Daisy had
- tumbled out of bed, and Demi set his night-gown afire studying the
- structure of matches, made a move to go.
- "We must have our sing, in the good old way, for we are all together
- again once more," said Jo, feeling that a good shout would be a safe
- and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions of her soul.
- They were not all there. But no one found the words thoughtless or
- untrue; for Beth still seemed among them, a peaceful presence,
- invisible, but dearer than ever, since death could not break the
- household league that love made indissoluble. The little chair stood
- in its old place; the tidy basket, with the bit of work she left
- unfinished when the needle grew "so heavy," was still on its
- accustomed shelf; the beloved instrument, seldom touched now, had
- not been moved; and above it Beth's face serene and smiling, as in the
- early days, looked down upon them, seeming to say, "Be happy. I am
- here."
- "Play something, Amy. Let them hear how much you have improved,"
- said Laurie, with pardonable pride in his promising pupil.
- But Amy whispered, with full eyes, as she twirled the faded stool-
- "Not to-night, dear. I can't show off to-night."
- But she did show something better than brilliancy or skill; for
- she sung Beth's songs with a tender music in her voice which the
- best master could not have taught, and touched the listeners' hearts
- with a sweeter power than any other inspiration could have given
- her. The room was very still, when the clear voice failed suddenly
- at the last line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard to say-
-
- "Earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal,"
-
- and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling that
- her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss.
- "Now, we must finish with Mignon's song; for Mr. Bhaer sings
- that," said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer cleared
- his throat with a gratified "Hem!" as he stepped into the corner where
- Jo stood, saying-
- "You will sing with me? We go excellently well together."
- A pleasing fiction, by the way; for Jo had no more idea of music
- than a grasshopper. But she would have consented if he had proposed to
- sing a whole opera, and warbled away, blissfully regardless of time
- and tune. It didn't much matter; for Mr. Bhaer sang like a true
- German, heartily and well; and Jo soon subsided into a subdued hum,
- that she might listen to the mellow voice that seemed to sing for
- her alone.
-
- "Know'st thou the land where the citron blooms,"
-
- used to be the Professor's favorite line, for "das Land" meant Germany
- to him; but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth and melody,
- upon the words-
-
- "There, oh there, might I with thee,
- O my beloved, go!"
-
- and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
- longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart thither
- whenever he liked.
- The song was considered a great success, and the singer retired
- covered with laurels. But a few minutes afterward, he forgot his
- manners entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her bonnet; for she had
- been introduced simply as "my sister," and no one had called her by
- her new name since he came. He forgot himself still further when
- Laurie said, in his most gracious manner, at parting-
- "My wife and I are very glad to meet you, sir. Please remember
- that there is always a welcome waiting for you over the way."
- Then the Professor thanked him so heartily, and looked so suddenly
- illuminated with satisfaction, that Laurie thought him the most
- delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever met.
- "I too shall go; but I shall gladly come again, if you will gif me
- leave, dear madame, for a little business in the city will keep me
- here some days."
- He spoke to Mrs. March, but he looked at Jo; and the mother's
- voice gave as cordial an assent as did the daughter's eyes; for Mrs.
- March was not so blind to her children's interest as Mrs. Moffat
- supposed.
- "I suspect that is a wise man," remarked Mr. March, with placid
- satisfaction, from the hearth-rug, after the last guest had gone.
- "I know he is a good one," added Mrs. March, with decided
- approval, as she wound up the clock.
- "I thought you'd like him," was all Jo said, as she slipped away
- to her bed.
- She wondered what the business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to the
- city, and finally decided that he had been appointed to some great
- honor, somewhere, but had been too modest to mention the fact. If
- she had seen his face when, safe in his own room, he looked at the
- picture of a severe and rigid young lady, with a good deal of hair,
- who appeared to be gazing darkly into futurity, it might have thrown
- some light upon the subject, especially when he turned off the gas,
- and kissed the picture in the dark.
- 44
- My Lord and Lady
-
- "PLEASE, Madam Mother, could you lend me my wife for half an hour?
- The luggage has come, and I've been making hay of Amy's Paris
- finery, trying to find some things I want," said Laurie, coming in the
- next day to find Mrs. Laurence sitting in her mother's lap, as if
- being made "the baby" again.
- "Certainly. Go, dear; I forget that you have any home but this," and
- Mrs. March pressed the white hand that wore the wedding-ring, as if
- asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
- "I shouldn't have come over if I could have helped it; but I can't
- get on without my little woman any more than a-"
- "Weathercock can without wind," suggested Jo, as he paused for a
- simile; Jo had grown quite her own saucy self again since Teddy came
- home.
- "Exactly; for Amy keeps me pointing due west most of the time,
- with only an occasional whiffle round to the south, and I haven't
- had an easterly spell since I was married; don't know anything about
- the north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy, hey, my lady?"
- "Lovely weather so far; I don't know how long it will last, but
- I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my ship. Come
- home, dear, and I'll find your bootjack; I suppose that's what you are
- rummaging after among my things. Men are so helpless, mother," said
- Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted her husband.
- "What are you going to do with yourselves after you get settled?"
- asked Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as she used to button her pinafores.
- "We have our plans; we don't mean to say much about them yet,
- because we are such very new brooms, but we don't intend to be idle.
- I'm going into business with a devotion that shall delight
- grandfather, and prove to him that I'm not spoilt. I need something of
- the sort to keep me steady. I'm tired of dawdling, and mean to work
- like a man."
- "And Amy, what is she going to do?" asked Mrs. March, well pleased
- at Laurie's decision, and the energy with which he spoke.
- "After doing the civil all round, and airing our best bonnet, we
- shall astonish you by the elegant hospitalities of our mansion, the
- brilliant society we shall draw about us, and the beneficial influence
- we shall exert over the world at large. That's about it, isn't it,
- Madame Recamier?" asked Laurie, with a quizzical look at Amy.
- "Time will show. Come away, Impertinence, and don't shock my
- family by calling me names before their faces," answered Amy,
- resolving that there should be a home with a good wife in it before
- she set up a salon as a queen of society.
- "How happy those children seem together!" observed Mr. March,
- finding it difficult to become absorbed in his Aristotle after the
- young couple had gone.
- "Yes, and I think it will last," added Mrs. March, with the
- restful expression of a pilot who has brought a ship safely into port.
- "I know it will. Happy Amy!" and Jo sighed, then smiled brightly
- as Professor Bhaer opened the gate with an impatient push.
- Later in the evening, when his mind had been set at rest about the
- bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to his wife, who was flitting about,
- arranging her new art treasures-
- "Mrs. Laurence."
- "My lord!"
- "That man intends to marry our Jo!"
- "I hope so; don't you, dear?"
- "Well, my love, I consider him a trump, in the fullest sense of that
- expressive word, but I do wish he was a little younger and a good deal
- richer."
- "Now, Laurie, don't be too fastidious and worldly-minded. If they
- love one another it doesn't matter a particle how old they are nor how
- poor. Women never should marry for money-" Amy caught herself up short
- as the words escaped her, and looked at her husband, who replied, with
- malicious gravity-
- "Certainly not, though you do hear charming girls say that they
- intend to do it sometimes. If my memory serves me, you once thought it
- your duty to make a rich match; that accounts, perhaps, for your
- marrying a good-for-nothing like me."
- "O my dearest boy, don't, don't say that! I forgot you were rich
- when I said 'Yes.' I'd have married you if you hadn't a penny, and I
- sometimes wish you were poor that I might show how much I love you";
- and Amy, who was very dignified in public and very fond in private,
- gave convincing proofs of the truth of her words.
- "You don't really think I am such a mercenary creature as I tried to
- be once, do you? It would break my heart if you didn't believe that
- I'd gladly pull in the same boat with you, even if you had to get your
- living by rowing on the lake."
- "Am I an idiot and a brute? How could I think so, when you refused a
- richer man for me, and won't let me give you half I want to now,
- when I have the right? Girls do it every day, poor things, and are
- taught to think it is their only salvation; but you had better
- lessons, and, though I trembled for you at one time, I was not
- disappointed, for the daughter was true to the mother's teaching. I
- told mamma so yesterday, and she looked as glad and grateful as if I'd
- given her a check for a million, to be spent in charity. You are not
- listening to my moral remarks, Mrs. Laurence"; and Laurie paused,
- for Amy's eyes had an absent look, though fixed upon his face.
- "Yes, I am, and admiring the dimple in your chin at the same time. I
- don't wish to make you vain, but I must confess that I'm prouder of my
- handsome husband than of all his money. Don't laugh, but your nose
- is such a comfort to me"; and Amy softly caressed the well-cut feature
- with artistic satisfaction.
- Laurie had received many compliments in his life, but never one that
- suited him better, as he plainly showed, though he did laugh at his
- wife's peculiar taste, while she said slowly-
- "May I ask you a question, dear?"
- "Of course you may."
- "Shall you care if Jo does marry Mr. Bhaer?"
- "Oh, that's the trouble, is it? I thought there was something in the
- dimple that didn't suit you. Not being a dog in the manger, but the
- happiest fellow alive, I assure you I can dance at Jo's wedding with a
- heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt it, my darling?"
- Amy looked up at him, and was satisfied; her last little jealous
- fear vanished forever, and she thanked him, with a face full of love
- and confidence.
- "I wish we could do something for that capital old Professor.
- Couldn't we invent a rich relation, who shall obligingly die out there
- in Germany, and leave him a tidy little fortune?" said Laurie, when
- they began to pace up and down the long drawing-room, arm-in-arm, as
- they were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
- "Jo would find us out, and spoil it all; she is very proud of him,
- just as he is, and said yesterday that she thought poverty was a
- beautiful thing."
- "Bless her dear heart! she won't think so when she has a literary
- husband, and a dozen little professors and professorins to support. We
- won't interfere now, but watch our chance, and do them a good turn
- in spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part of my education, and she
- believes in people's paying their honest debts, so I'll get round
- her in that way."
- "How delightful it is to be able to help others, isn't it? That
- was always one of my dreams, to have the power of giving freely;
- and, thanks to you, the dream has come true."
- "Ah! we'll do quantities of good, won't we? There's one sort of
- poverty that I particularly like to help. Out-and-out beggars get
- taken care of, but poor gentlefolks fare badly, because they won't
- ask, and people don't dare to offer charity; yet there are a
- thousand ways of helping them, if one only knows how to do it so
- delicately that it does not offend. I must say, I like to serve a
- decayed gentleman better than a blarneying beggar; I suppose it's
- wrong, but I do, though it is harder."
- "Because it takes a gentleman to do it," added the other member of
- the domestic admiration society.
- "Thank you, I'm afraid I don't deserve that pretty compliment. But I
- was going to say that while I was dawdling about abroad, I saw a
- good many talented young fellows making all sorts of sacrifices, and
- enduring real hardships, that they might realize their dreams.
- Splendid fellows, some of them, working like heroes, poor and
- friendless, but so full of courage, patience, and ambition, that I was
- ashamed of myself, and longed to give them a right good lift. Those
- are people whom it's a satisfaction to help, for if they've got
- genius, it's an honor to be allowed to serve them, and not let it be
- lost or delayed for want of fuel to keep the pot boiling; if they
- haven't, it's a pleasure to comfort the poor souls, and keep them from
- despair when they find it out."
- "Yes, indeed; and there's another class who can't ask, and who
- suffer in silence. I know something of it, for I belonged to it before
- you made a princess of me, as the king does the beggar-maid in the old
- story. Ambitious girls have a hard time, Laurie, and often have to see
- youth, health, and precious opportunities go by, just for want of a
- little help at the right minute. People have been very kind to me; and
- whenever I see girls struggling along, as we used to do, I want to put
- out my hand and help them, as I was helped."
- "And so you shall, like an angel as you are!" cried Laurie,
- resolving, with a glow of philanthropic zeal, to found and endow an
- institution for the express benefit of young women with artistic
- tendencies. "Rich people have no right to sit down and enjoy
- themselves, or let their money accumulate for others to waste. It's
- not half so sensible to leave legacies when one dies as it is to use
- the money wisely while alive, and enjoy making one's
- fellow-creatures happy with it. We'll have a good time ourselves,
- and add an extra relish to our own pleasure by giving other people a
- generous taste. Will you be a little Dorcas, going about emptying a
- big basket of comforts, and filling it up with good deeds?"
- "With all my heart, if you will be a brave St. Martin, stopping,
- as you ride gallantly through the world, to share your cloak with
- the beggar."
- "It's a bargain; and we shall get the best of it!"
- So the young pair shook hands upon it, and then paced happily on
- again, feeling that their pleasant home was more home-like because
- they hoped to brighten other homes, believing that their own feet
- would walk more uprightly along the flowery path before them, if
- they smoothed rough ways for other feet, and feeling that their hearts
- were more closely knit together by a love which could tenderly
- remember those less blest than they.
- 45
- Daisy and Demi
-
- I CANNOT feel that I have done my duty as humble historian of the
- March family, without devoting at least one chapter to the two most
- precious and important members of it. Daisy and Demi had now arrived
- at years of discretion; for in this fast age babies of three or four
- assert their rights, and get them, too, which is more than many of
- their elders do. If there ever were a pair of twins in danger of being
- utterly spoilt by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of course
- they were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be shown
- when I mention that they walked at eight months, talked fluently at
- twelve months, and at two years they took their places at table, and
- behaved with a propriety which charmed all beholders. At three,
- Daisy demanded a "needler," and actually made a bag with four stitches
- in it; she likewise set up housekeeping in the sideboard, and
- managed a microscopic cooking-stove with a skill that brought tears of
- pride to Hannah's eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his
- grandfather, who invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by
- forming the letters with his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics
- for head and heels. The boy early developed a mechanical genius
- which delighted his father and distracted his mother, for he tried
- to imitate every machine he saw, and kept the nursery in a chaotic
- condition with his "sewin-sheen"- a mysterious structure of string,
- chairs, clothes-pins, and spools, for wheels to go "wound and
- wound"; also a basket hung over the back of a big chair, in which he
- vainly tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who, with feminine
- devotion, allowed her little head to be bumped till rescued, when
- the young inventor indignantly remarked, "Why, marmar, dat's my
- lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up."
- Though utterly unlike in character, the twins got on remarkably well
- together, and seldom quarreled more than thrice a day. Of course, Demi
- tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly defended her from every other
- aggressor; while Daisy made a galley-slave of herself, and adored
- her brother as the one perfect being in the world. A rosy, chubby,
- sunshiny little soul was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's
- heart, and nestled there. One of the captivating children, who seem
- made to be kissed and cuddled, adorned and adored like little
- goddesses, and produced for general approval on all festive occasions.
- Her small virtues were so sweet that she would have been quite angelic
- if a few small naughtinesses had not kept her delightfully human. It
- was all fair weather in her world, and every morning she scrambled
- up to the window in her little night-gown to look out, and say, no
- matter whether it rained or shone, "Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!"
- Every one was a friend, and she offered kisses to a stranger so
- confidingly that the most inveterate bachelor relented, and
- baby-lovers became faithful worshippers.
- "Me loves evvybody," she once said, opening her arms, with her spoon
- in one hand, and her mug in the other, as if eager to embrace and
- nourish the whole world.
- As she grew, her mother began to feel that the Dove-cote would be
- blest by the presence of an inmate as serene and loving as that
- which had helped to make the old house home, and to pray that she
- might be spared a loss like that which had lately taught them how long
- they had entertained an angel unawares. Her grandfather often called
- her "Beth," and her grandmother watched over her with untiring
- devotion, as if trying to atone for some past mistake, which no eye
- but her own could see.
- Demi, like a true Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting to
- know everything, and often getting much disturbed because he could not
- get satisfactory answers to his perpetual "What for?"
- He also possessed a philosophic bent, to the great delight of his
- grandfather, who used to hold Socratic conversations with him, in
- which the precocious pupil occasionally posed as his teacher, to the
- undisguised satisfaction of the womenfolk.
- "What makes my legs go, dranpa?" asked the young philosopher,
- surveying those active portions of his frame with a meditative air,
- while resting after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
- "It's your little mind, Demi," replied the sage, stroking the yellow
- head respectfully.
- "What is a little mine?"
- "It is something which makes your body move, as the spring made
- the wheels go in my watch when I showed it to you."
- "Open me; I want to see it go wound."
- "I can't do that any more than you could open the watch. God winds
- you up, and you go till He stops you."
- "Does I?" and Demi's brown eyes grew big and bright as he took in
- the new thought. "Is I wounded up like the watch?"
- "Yes; but I can't show you how; for it is done when we don't see."
- Demi felt of his back, as if expecting to find it like that of the
- watch, and then gravely remarked, "I dess Dod does it when I's
- asleep."
- A careful explanation followed, to which he listened so
- attentively that his anxious grandmother said-
- "My dear, do you think it wise to talk about such things to that
- baby? He's getting great bumps over his eyes, and learning to ask
- the most unanswerable questions."
- "If he is old enough to ask questions he is old enough to receive
- true answers. I am not putting the thoughts into his head, but helping
- him unfold those already there. These children are wiser than we
- are, and I have no doubt the boy understands every word I have said to
- him. Now, Demi, tell me where you keep your mind?"
- If the boy had replied like Alcibiades, "By the gods, Socrates, I
- cannot tell," his grandfather would not have been surprised; but when,
- after standing a moment on one leg, like a meditative young stork,
- he answered, in a tone of calm conviction, "In my little belly," the
- old gentleman could only join in grandma's laugh, and dismiss the
- class in metaphysics.
- There might have been cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had not
- given convincing proofs that he was a true boy, as well as a budding
- philosopher; for, often, after a discussion which caused Hannah to
- prophesy, with ominous nods, "That child ain't long for this world,"
- he would turn about and set her fears at rest by some of the pranks
- with which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals distract and delight
- their parents' souls.
- Meg made many moral rules, and tried to keep them; but what mother
- was ever proof against the winning wiles, the ingenious evasions, or
- the tranquil audacity of the miniature men and women who so early show
- themselves accomplished Artful Dodgers?
- "No more raisins, Demi, they'll make you sick," says mamma to the
- young person who offers his services in the kitchen with unfailing
- regularity on plum-pudding day.
- "Me likes to be sick."
- "I don't want to have you, so run away and help Daisy make
- patty-cakes."
- He reluctantly departs, but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit; and,
- by and by, when an opportunity comes to redress them, he outwits mamma
- by a shrewd bargain.
- "Now you have been good children, and I'll play anything you
- like," says Meg, as she leads her assistant cooks upstairs, when the
- pudding is safely bouncing in the pot.
- "Truly, marmar?" asks Demi, with a brilliant idea in his
- well-powdered head.
- "Yes, truly; anything you say," replies the short-sighted parent,
- preparing herself to sing "The Three Little Kittens" half a dozen
- times over, or to take her family to "Buy a penny bun," regardless
- of wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool reply-
- "Then we'll go and eat up all the raisins."
- Aunt Dodo was chief playmate and confidante of both children, and
- the trio turned the little house topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as yet only
- a name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into a pleasantly vague memory,
- but Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made the most of her, for
- which compliment she was deeply grateful. But when Mr. Bhaer came,
- Jo neglected her playfellows, and dismay and desolation fell upon
- their little souls. Daisy, who was fond of going about peddling
- kisses, lost her best customer and became bankrupt; Demi, with
- infantile penetration, soon discovered that Dodo liked to play with
- "the bear-man" better than she did with him; but, though hurt, he
- concealed his anguish, for he hadn't the heart to insult a rival who
- kept a mine of chocolate-drops in his waistcoat-pocket, and a watch
- that could be taken out of its case and freely shaken by ardent
- admirers.
- Some persons might have considered these pleasing liberties as
- bribes; but Demi didn't see it in that light, and continued to
- patronize the "bear-man" with pensive affability, while Daisy bestowed
- her small affections upon him at the third call, and considered his
- shoulder her throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts treasures of
- surpassing worth.
- Gentlemen are sometimes seized with sudden fits of admiration for
- the young relatives of ladies whom they honor with their regard; but
- this counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits uneasily upon them, and
- does not deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's devotion was sincere,
- however, likewise effective- for honesty is the best policy in love as
- in law; he was one of the men who are at home with children, and
- looked particularly well when little faces made a pleasant contrast
- with his manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained him from
- day to day, but evening seldom failed to bring him out to see- well,
- he always asked for Mr. March, so I suppose he was the attraction. The
- excellent papa labored under the delusion that he was, and revelled in
- long discussions with the kindred spirit, till a chance remark of
- his more observing grandson suddenly enlightened him.
- Mr. Bhaer came in one evening to pause on the threshold of the
- study, astonished by the spectacle that met his eye. Prone upon the
- floor lay Mr. March, with his respectable legs in the air, and
- beside him, likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the attitude
- with his own short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovellers so
- seriously absorbed that they were unconscious of spectators, till
- Mr. Bhaer laughed his sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with a
- scandalized face-
- "Father, father, here's the Professor!"
- Down went the black legs and up came the gray head, as the preceptor
- said, with undisturbed dignity-
- "Good evening, Mr. Bhaer. Excuse me for a moment; we are just
- finishing our lesson. Now, Demi, make the letter and tell its name."
- "I knows him!" and, after a few convulsive efforts, the red legs
- took the shape of a pair of compasses, and the intelligent pupil
- triumphantly shouted, "It's a We, dranpa, it's a We!"
- "He's a born Weller," laughed Jo, as her parent gathered himself up,
- and her nephew tried to stand on his head, as the only mode of
- expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
- "What have you been at to-day, bubchen?" asked Mr. Bhaer, picking up
- the gymnast.
- "Me went to see little Mary."
- "And what did you there?"
- "I kissed her," began Demi, with artless frankness.
- "Prut! thou beginnest early. What did the little Mary say to
- that?" asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to confess the young sinner, who
- stood upon his knee, exploring the waistcoat-pocket.
- "Oh, she liked it, and she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't little
- boys like little girls?" added Demi, with his mouth full, and an air
- of bland satisfaction.
- "You precocious chick! Who put that into your head?" said Jo,
- enjoying the innocent revelations as much as the Professor.
- "'Tisn't in mine head; it's in mine mouf," answered literal Demi,
- putting out his tongue, with a chocolate-drop on it, thinking she
- alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
- "Thou shouldst save some for the little friend: sweets to the sweet,
- mannling"; and Mr. Bhaer offered Jo some, with a look that made her
- wonder if chocolate was not the nectar drunk by the gods. Demi also
- saw the smile, was impressed by it, and artlessly inquired-
- "Do great boys like great girls, too, 'Fessor?"
- Like young Washington, Mr. Bhaer "couldn't tell a lie"; so he gave
- the somewhat vague reply that he believed they did sometimes, in a
- tone that made Mr. March put down his clothes-brush, glance at Jo's
- retiring face, and then sink into his chair, looking as if the
- "precocious chick" had put an idea into his head that was both sweet
- and sour.
- Why Dodo, when she caught him in the china-closet half an hour
- afterward, nearly squeezed the breath out of his little body with a
- tender embrace, instead of shaking him for being there, and why she
- followed up this novel performance by the unexpected gift of a big
- slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the problems over which Demi
- puzzled his small wits, and was forced to leave unsolved forever.
- 46
- Under the Umbrella
-
- WHILE Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal strolls over velvet
- carpets, as they set their house in order, and planned a blissful
- future, Mr. Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different sort,
- along muddy roads and sodden fields.
- "I always do take a walk toward evening, and I don't know why I
- should give it up, just because I often happen to meet the Professor
- on his way out," said Jo to herself, after two or three encounters;
- for, though there were two paths to Meg's, whichever one she took
- she was sure to meet him, either going or returning. He was always
- walking rapidly, and never seemed to see her till quite close, when he
- would look as if his short-sighted eyes had failed to recognize the
- approaching lady till that moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's, he
- always had something for the babies; if her face was turned
- homeward, he had merely strolled down to see the river, and was just
- about returning, unless they were tired of his frequent calls.
- Under the circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him civilly, and
- invite him in? If she was tired of his visits, she concealed her
- weariness with perfect skill, and took care that there should be
- coffee for supper, "as Friedrich- I mean Mr. Bhaer- doesn't like tea."
- By the second week, every one knew perfectly well what was going on,
- yet every one tried to look as if they were stone-blind to the changes
- in Jo's face. They never asked why she sang about her work, did up her
- hair three times a day, and got so blooming with her evening exercise;
- and no one seemed to have the slightest suspicion that Professor
- Bhaer, while talking philosophy with the father, was giving the
- daughter lessons in love.
- Jo couldn't even lose her heart in a decorous manner, but sternly
- tried to quench her feelings; and, failing to do so, led a somewhat
- agitated life. She was mortally afraid of being laughed at for
- surrendering, after her many vehement declarations of independence.
- Laurie was her especial dread; but, thanks to the new manager, he
- behaved with praiseworthy propriety, never called Mr. Bhaer "a capital
- old fellow" in public, never alluded, in the remotest manner, to
- Jo's improved appearance, or expressed the least surprise at seeing
- the Professor's hat on the Marches' hall-table nearly every evening.
- But he exulted in private and longed for the time to come when he
- could give Jo a piece of plate, with a bear and a ragged staff on it
- as an appropriate coat-of-arms.
- For a fortnight, the Professor came and went with lover-like
- regularity; then he stayed away for three whole days, and made no
- sign- a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober, and Jo to
- become pensive, at first, and then- alas for romance!- very cross.
- "Disgusted, I dare say, and gone home as suddenly as he came. It's
- nothing to me, of course; but I should think he would have come and
- bid us good-by, like a gentleman," she said to herself, with a
- despairing look at the gate, as she put on her things for the
- customary walk, one dull afternoon.
- "You'd better take the little umbrella, dear; it looks like rain,"
- said her mother, observing that she had on her new bonnet, but not
- alluding to the fact.
- "Yes, Marmee; do you want anything in town? I've got to run in and
- get some paper," returned Jo, pulling out the bow under her chin
- before the glass as an excuse for not looking at her mother.
- "Yes; I want some twilled silesia, a paper of number nine needles,
- and two yards of narrow lavender ribbon. Have you got your thick boots
- on, and something warm under your cloak?"
- "I believe so," answered Jo absently.
- "If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea. I quite
- long to see the dear man," added Mrs. March.
- Jo heard that, but made no answer, except to kiss her mother, and
- walk rapidly away, thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite of
- her heartache-
- "How good she is to me! What do girls do who haven't any mothers
- to help them through their troubles?"
- The dry-goods stores were not down among the counting-houses, banks,
- and wholesale warerooms, where gentlemen most do congregate; but Jo
- found herself in that part of the city before she did a single errand,
- loitering along as if waiting for some one, examining engineering
- instruments in one window and samples of wool in another, with most
- unfeminine interest; tumbling over barrels, being half-smothered by
- descending bales, and hustled unceremoniously by busy men who looked
- as if they wondered "how the deuce she got there." A drop of rain on
- her cheek recalled her thoughts from baffled hopes to ruined
- ribbons; for the drops continued to fall, and, being a woman as well
- as a lover, she felt that, though it was too late to save her heart,
- she might her bonnet. Now she remembered the little umbrella, which
- she had forgotten to take in her hurry to be off; but regret was
- unavailing, and nothing could be done but borrow one or submit to a
- drenching. She looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson
- bow already flecked with black, forward along the muddy street, then
- one long, lingering look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with
- "Hoffmann, Swartz, & Co." over the door, and said to herself, with a
- sternly reproachful air-
- "It serves me right! What business had I to put on all my best
- things and come philandering down here, hoping to see the Professor?
- Jo, I'm ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there to borrow an
- umbrella, or find out where he is, from his friends. You shall
- trudge away, and do your errands in the rain; and if you catch your
- death and ruin your bonnet, it's no more than you deserve. Now then!"
- With that she rushed across the street so impetuously that she
- narrowly escaped annihilation from a passing truck, and precipitated
- herself into the arms of a stately old gentleman, who said, "I beg
- pardon, ma'am," and looked mortally offended. Somewhat daunted, Jo
- righted herself, spread her handkerchief over the devoted ribbons,
- and, putting temptation behind her, hurried on, with increasing
- dampness about the ankles, and much clashing of umbrellas overhead,
- The fact that a somewhat dilapidated blue one remained stationary
- above the unprotected bonnet, attracted her attention; and, looking
- up, she saw Mr. Bhaer looking down.
- "I feel to know the strong-minded lady who goes so bravely under
- many horse-noses, and so fast through much mud. What do you down here,
- my friend?"
- "I'm shopping."
- Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from the pickle-factory on one side,
- to the wholesale hide and leather concern on the other; but he only
- said politely-
- "You haf no umbrella. May I go also, and take for you the bundles?"
- "Yes, thank you."
- Jo's cheeks were as red as her ribbon, and she wondered what he
- thought of her; but she didn't care, for in a minute she found herself
- walking away arm-in-arm with her Professor, feeling as if the sun
- had suddenly burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that the world was
- all right again, and that one thoroughly happy woman was paddling
- through the wet that day.
- "We thought you had gone," said Jo hastily, for she knew he was
- looking at her. Her bonnet wasn't big enough to hide her face, and she
- feared he might think the joy it betrayed unmaidenly.
- "Did you believe that I should go with no farewell to those who
- haf been so heavenly kind to me?" he asked so reproachfully that she
- felt as if she had insulted him by the suggestion, and answered
- heartily-
- "No, I didn't; I knew you were busy about your own affairs, but we
- rather missed you- father and mother especially."
- "And you?"
- "I am always glad to see you, sir."
- In her anxiety to keep her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather cool,
- and the frosty little monosyllable at the end seemed to chill the
- Professor, for his smile vanished, as he said gravely-
- "I thank you, and come one time more before I go."
- "You are going, then?"
- "I haf no longer any business here; it is done."
- "Successfully, I hope?" said Jo, for the bitterness of
- disappointment was in that short reply of his.
- "I ought to think so, for I haf a way opened to me by which I can
- make my bread and gif my Junglings much help."
- "Tell me, please! I like to know all about the- the boys," said
- Jo, eagerly.
- "That is so kind, I gladly tell you. My friends find for me a
- place in a college, where I teach as at home, and earn enough to
- make the way smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should be grateful,
- should I not?"
- "Indeed you should. How splendid it will be to have you doing what
- you like, and be able to see you often, and the boys!" cried Jo,
- clinging to the lads as an excuse for the satisfaction she could not
- help betraying.
- "Ah! but we shall not meet often, I fear; this place is at the
- West."
- "So far away!" and Jo left her skirts to their fate, as if it didn't
- matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
- Mr. Bhaer could read several languages, but he had not learned to
- read women yet. He flattered himself that he knew Jo pretty well,
- and was, therefore, much amazed by the contradictions of voice,
- face, and manner, which she showed him in rapid succession that day,
- for she was in half a dozen different moods in the course of half an
- hour. When she met him she looked surprised, though it was
- impossible to help suspecting that she had come for that express
- purpose. When he offered her his arm, she took it with a look that
- filled him with delight; but when he asked if she missed him, she gave
- such a chilly, formal reply that despair fell upon him. On learning
- his good fortune she almost clapped her hands: was the joy all for the
- boys? Then, on hearing his destination, she said, "So far away!" in
- a tone of despair that lifted him on to a pinnacle of hope; but the
- next minute she tumbled him down again by observing, like one entirely
- absorbed in the matter-
- "Here's the place for my errands; will you come in? It won't take
- long.
- Jo rather prided herself upon her shopping capabilities, and
- particularly wished to impress her escort with the neatness and
- despatch with which she would accomplish the business. But, owing to
- the flutter she was in, everything went amiss; she upset the tray of
- needles, forgot the silesia was to be "twilled" till it was cut off,
- gave the wrong change, and covered herself with confusion by asking
- for lavender ribbon at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by,
- watching her blush and blunder; and, as he watched, his own
- bewilderment seemed to subside, for he was beginning to see that on
- some occasions women, like dreams, go by contraries.
- When they came out, he put the parcel under his arm with a more
- cheerful aspect, and splashed through the puddles as if he rather
- enjoyed it, on the whole.
- "Should we not do a little what you call shopping for the babies,
- and haf a farewell feast to-night if I go for my last call at your
- so pleasant home?" he asked, stopping before a window full of fruit
- and flowers.
- "What will we buy?" said Jo, ignoring the latter part of his speech,
- and sniffing the mingled odors with an affectation of delight as
- they went in.
- "May they haf oranges and figs?" asked Mr. Bhaer, with a paternal
- air.
- "They eat them when they can get them."
- "Do you care for nuts?"
- "Like a squirrel."
- "Hamburg grapes; yes, we shall surely drink to the Fatherland in
- those?"
- Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance, and asked why he
- didn't buy a frail of dates, a cask of raisins, and a bag of
- almonds, and done with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her purse,
- produced his own, and finished the marketing by buying several
- pounds of grapes, a pot of rosy daisies, and a pretty jar of honey, to
- be regarded in the light of a demijohn. Then, distorting his pockets
- with the knobby bundles, and giving her the flowers to hold, he put up
- the old umbrella, and they travelled on again.
- "Miss Marsch, I haf a great favor to ask of you," began the
- Professor, after a moist promenade of half a block.
- "Yes, sir"; and Jo's heart began to beat so hard she was afraid he
- would hear it.
- "I am bold to say it in spite of the rain, because so short a time
- remains to me."
- "Yes, sir"; and Jo nearly crushed the small flower-pot with the
- sudden squeeze she gave it.
- "I wish to get a little dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid to go
- alone. Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?"
- "Yes, sir"; and Jo felt as calm and cool, all of a sudden, as if she
- had stepped into a refrigerator.
- "Perhaps also a shawl for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick,
- and the husband is such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl would be
- a friendly thing to take the little mother."
- "I'll do it with pleasure, Mr. Bhaer. I'm going very fast and he's
- getting dearer every minute," added Jo to herself; then, with a mental
- shake, she entered into the business with an energy which was pleasant
- to behold.
- Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she chose a pretty gown for Tina,
- and then ordered out the shawls. The clerk, being a married man,
- condescended to take an interest in the couple, who appeared to be
- shopping for their family.
- "Your lady may prefer this; it's a superior article, a most
- desirable color, quite chaste and genteel," he said, shaking out a
- comfortable gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo's shoulders.
- "Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?" she asked, turning her back to him,
- and feeling deeply grateful for the chance of hiding her face.
- "Excellently well; we will haf it," answered the Professor,
- smiling to himself as he paid for it, while Jo continued to rummage
- the counters like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
- "Now shall we go home?" he asked, as if the words were very pleasant
- to him.
- "Yes; it's late, and I'm so tired." Jo's voice was more pathetic
- than she knew; for now the sun seemed to have gone in as suddenly as
- it came out, the world grew muddy and miserable again, and for the
- first time she discovered that her feet were cold, her head ached, and
- that her heart was colder than the former, fuller of pain than the
- latter. Mr. Bhaer was going away; he only cared for her as a friend;
- it was all a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this
- idea in her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such a
- hasty gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were badly
- damaged.
- "This is not our omniboos," said the Professor, waving the loaded
- vehicle away, and stopping to pick up the poor little flowers.
- "I beg your pardon, I didn't see the name distinctly. Never mind,
- I can walk. I'm used to plodding in the mud," returned Jo, winking
- hard, because she would have died rather than openly wipe her eyes.
- Mr. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks, though she turned her head
- away; the sight seemed to touch him very much, for, suddenly
- stooping down, he asked in a tone that meant a great deal-
- "Heart's dearest, why do you cry?"
- Now, if Jo had not been new to this sort of thing she would have
- said she wasn't crying, had a cold in her head, or told any other
- feminine fib proper to the occasion; instead of which that undignified
- creature answered, with an irrepressible sob-
- "Because you are going away."
- "Ach, mein Gott, that is so good," cried Mr. Bhaer, managing to
- clasp his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles. "Jo, I haf
- nothing but much love to gif you; I came to see if you could care
- for it, and I waited to be sure that I was something more than a
- friend. Am I? Can you make a little place in your heart for old
- Fritz?" he added, all in one breath.
- "Oh, yes!" said Jo; and he was quite satisfied, for she folded
- both hands over his arm, and looked up at him with an expression
- that plainly showed how happy she would be to walk through life beside
- him, even though she had no better shelter than the old umbrella, if
- he carried it.
- It was certainly proposing under difficulties, for, even if he had
- desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could not go down upon his knees, on
- account of the mud; neither could he offer Jo his hand, except
- figuratively, for both were full; much less could he indulge in tender
- demonstrations in the open street, though he was near it: so the
- only way in which he could express his rapture was to look at her,
- with an expression which glorified his face to such a degree that
- there actually seemed to be little rainbows in the drops that sparkled
- on his beard. If he had not loved Jo very much, I don't think he could
- have done it then, for she looked far from lovely, with her skirts
- in a deplorable state, her rubber boots splashed to the ankle, and her
- bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the most
- beautiful woman living, and she found him more "Jove-like" than
- ever, though his hat-brim was quite limp with the little rills
- trickling thence upon his shoulders (for he held the umbrella all over
- Jo), and every finger of his gloves needed mending.
- Passers-by probably thought them a pair of harmless lunatics, for
- they entirely forgot to hail a 'bus, and strolled leisurely along,
- oblivious of deepening dusk and fog. Little they cared what anybody
- thought, for they were enjoying the happy hour that seldom comes but
- once in any life, the magical moment which bestows youth on the old,
- beauty on the plain, wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a
- foretaste of heaven. The Professor looked as if he had conquered a
- kingdom, and the world had nothing more to offer him in the way of
- bliss; while Jo trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had always
- been there, and wondering how she ever could have chosen any other
- lot. Of course, she was the first to speak- intelligibly, I mean,
- for the emotional remarks which followed her impetuous "Oh, yes!" were
- not of a coherent or reportable character.
- "Friedrich, why didn't you-"
- "Ah, heaven, she gifs me the name that no one speaks since Minna
- died!" cried the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard her with
- grateful delight.
- "I always call you so to myself- I forgot; but I won't, unless you
- like it."
- "Like it? it is more sweet to me than I can tell. Say 'thou,'
- also, and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful as mine."
- "Isn't 'thou' a little sentimental?" asked Jo, privately thinking it
- a lovely monosyllable.
- "Sentimental? Yes. Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment,
- and keep ourselves young mit it. Your English 'you' is so cold, say
- 'thou,' heart's dearest, it means so much to me," pleaded Mr. Bhaer,
- more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
- "Well, then, why didn't thou tell me all this sooner?" asked Jo
- bashfully.
- "Now I shall haf to show thee all my heart, and I so gladly will,
- because thou must take care of it hereafter. See, then, my Jo- ah, the
- dear, funny little name!- I had a wish to tell something the day I
- said good-by, in New York; but I thought the handsome friend was
- betrothed to thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst thou have said 'Yes,'
- then, if I had spoken?"
- "I don't know; I'm afraid not, for I didn't have any heart just
- then."
- "Prut! that I do not believe. It was asleep till the fairy prince
- came through the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, 'Die erste Liebe ist
- die beste'; but that I should not expect."
- "Yes, the first love is the best; so be contented, for I never had
- another. Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his little fancy,"
- said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor's mistake.
- "Good! then I shall rest happy, and be sure that thou givest me all.
- I haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt find,
- Professorin."
- "I like that," cried Jo, delighted with her new name. "Now tell me
- what brought you, at last, just when I most wanted you?"
- "This"; and Mr. Bhaer took a little worn paper out of his
- waistcoat-pocket.
- Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed, for it was one of her own
- contributions to a paper that paid for poetry, which accounted for her
- sending it an occasional attempt.
- "How could that bring you?" she asked, wondering what he meant.
- "I found it by chance; I knew it by the names and the initials,
- and in it there was one little verse that seemed to call me. Read
- and find him; I will see that you go not in the wet."
- Jo obeyed, and hastily skimmed through the lines which she had
- christened-
-
- IN THE GARRET.
-
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- All fashioned and filled, long ago,
- By children now in their prime.
- Four little keys hung side by side,
- With faded ribbons, brave and gay
- When fastened there, with childish pride,
- Long ago, on a rainy day.
- Four little names, one on each lid,
- Carved out by a boyish hand,
- And underneath there lieth hid
- Histories of the happy band
- Once playing here, and pausing oft
- To hear the sweet refrain,
- That came and went on the roof aloft,
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- "Meg" on the first lid, smooth and fair.
- I look in with loving eyes,
- For folded here, with well-known care,
- A goodly gathering lies,
- The record of a peaceful life-
- Gifts to gentle child and girl,
- A bridal gown, lines to a wife,
- A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
- No toys in this first chest remain,
- For all are carried away,
- In their old age, to join again
- In another small Meg's play.
- Ah, happy mother! well I know
- You hear, like a sweet refrain,
- Lullabies ever soft and low
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- "Jo" on the next lid, scratched and worn,
- And within a motley store
- Of headless dolls, of school-books torn,
- Birds and beasts that speak no more;
- Spoils brought home from the fairy ground
- Only trod by youthful feet,
- Dreams of a future never found,
- Memories of a past still sweet;
- Half-writ poems, stories wild,
- April letters, warm and cold,
- Diaries of a wilful child,
- Hints of a woman early old;
- A woman in a lonely home,
- Hearing, like a sad refrain-
- "Be worthy love, and love will come,"
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- My Beth! the dust is always swept
- From the lid that bears your name,
- As if by loving eyes that wept,
- By careful hands that often came.
- Death canonized for us one saint,
- Ever less human than divine,
- And still we lay, with tender plaint,
- Relics in this household shrine-
- The silver bell, so seldom rung,
- The little cap which last she wore,
- The fair, dead Catherine that hung
- By angels borne above her door;
- The songs she sang, without lament,
- In her prison-house of pain,
- Forever are they sweetly blent
- With the falling summer rain.
-
- Upon the last lid's polished field-
- Legend now both fair and true-
- A gallant knight bears on his shield,
- "Amy," in letters gold and blue.
- Within lie snoods that bound her hair,
- Slippers that have danced their last,
- Faded flowers laid by with care,
- Fans whose airy toils are past;
- Gay valentines, all ardent flames,
- Trifles that have borne their part
- In girlish hopes and fears and shames-
- The record of a maiden heart
- Now learning fairer, truer spells,
- Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
- The silver sound of bridal bells
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- Four women, taught by weal and woe
- To love and labor in their prime.
- Four sisters, parted for an hour,
- None lost, one only gone before,
- Made by love's immortal power,
- Nearest and dearest evermore.
- Oh, when these hidden stores of ours
- Lie open to the Father's sight,
- May they be rich in golden hours,
- Deeds that show fairer for the light,
- Lives whose brave music long shall ring,
- Like a spirit-stirring strain,
- Souls that shall gladly soar and sing
- In the long sunshine after rain.
- J. M.
-
- "It's very bad poetry, but I felt it when I wrote it, one day when I
- was very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag-bag. I never thought it
- would go where it could tell tales," said Jo, tearing up the verses
- the Professor had treasured so long.
- "Let it go, it has done its duty, and I will haf a fresh one when
- I read all the brown book in which she keeps her little secrets," said
- Mr. Bhaer, with a smile, as he watched the fragments fly away on the
- wind. "Yes," he added earnestly, "I read that, and I think to
- myself, She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would find comfort in
- true love. I haf a heart full, full for her; shall I not go and say,
- 'If this is not too poor a thing to gif for what I shall hope to
- receive, take it in Gott's name?'"
- "And so you came to find that it was not too poor, but the one
- precious thing I needed," whispered Jo.
- "I had no courage to think that at first, heavenly kind as was
- your welcome to me. But soon I began to hope, and then I said, 'I will
- haf her if I die for it,' and so I will!" cried Mr. Bhaer, with a
- defiant nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them were
- barriers which he was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
- Jo thought that was splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her
- knight, though he did not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous
- array.
- "What made you stay away so long?" she asked presently, finding it
- so pleasant to ask confidential questions and get delightful answers
- that she could not keep silent.
- "It was not easy, but I could not find the heart to take you from
- that so happy home until I could haf a prospect of one to give you,
- after much time, perhaps, and hard work. How could I ask you to gif up
- so much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune but a little
- learning?"
- "I'm glad you are poor; I couldn't bear a rich husband," said Jo
- decidedly, adding, in a softer tone, "Don't fear poverty; I've known
- it long enough to lose my dread, and be happy working for those I
- love; and don't call yourself old- forty is the prime of life. I
- couldn't help loving you if you were seventy!"
- The Professor found that so touching that he would have been glad of
- his handkerchief, if he could have got at it; as he couldn't, Jo wiped
- his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as she took away a bundle or
- two-
- "I may be strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my sphere
- now, for woman's special mission is supposed to be drying tears and
- bearing burdens. I'm to carry my share, Friedrich, and help to earn
- the home. Make up your mind to that, or I'll never go," she added
- resolutely, as he tried to reclaim his load.
- "We shall see. Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go
- away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first, because, even
- for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can you forgif that, and be
- happy while we hope and wait?"
- "Yes, I know I can; for we love one another, and that makes all
- the rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work. I couldn't
- enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so there's no need of
- hurry or impatience. You can do your part out West, I can do mine
- here, and both be happy hoping for the best, and leaving the future to
- be as God wills."
- "Ah! thou gifest me such hope and courage, and I haf nothing to
- gif back but a full heart and these empty hands," cried the Professor,
- quite overcome.
- Jo never, never would learn to be proper; for when he said that as
- they stood upon the steps, she just put both hands into his,
- whispering tenderly, "Not empty now"; and, stooping down, kissed her
- Friedrich under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but she would have done
- it if the flock of draggle-tailed sparrows on the hedge had been human
- beings, for she was very far gone indeed, and quite regardless of
- everything but her own happiness. Though it came in such a very simple
- guise, that was the crowning moment of both their lives, when, turning
- from the night and storm and loneliness to the household light and
- warmth and peace waiting to receive them, with a glad "Welcome
- home!" Jo led her lover in, and shut the door.
- 47
- Harvest Time
-
- FOR a year Jo and her Professor worked and waited, hoped and
- loved, met occasionally, and wrote such voluminous letters that the
- rise in the price of paper was accounted for, Laurie said. The
- second year began rather soberly, for their prospects did not
- brighten, and Aunt March died suddenly. But when their first sorrow
- was over- for they loved the old lady in spite of her sharp tongue-
- they found they had cause for rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to
- Jo, which made all sorts of joyful things possible.
- "It's a fine old place, and will bring a handsome sum; for of course
- you intend to sell it," said Laurie, as they were all talking the
- matter over, some weeks later.
- "No, I don't," was Jo's decided answer, as she petted the fat
- poodle, whom she had adopted, out of respect to his former mistress.
- "You don't mean to live there?"
- "Yes, I do."
- "But, my dear girl, it's an immense house, and will take a power
- of money to keep it in order. The garden and orchard alone need two or
- three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's line, I take it."
- "He'll try his hand at it there, if I propose it."
- "And you expect to live on the produce of the place? Well, that
- sounds paradisiacal, but you'll find it desperate hard work."
- "The crop we are going to raise is a profitable one"; and Jo
- laughed.
- "Of what is this fine crop to consist, ma'am?"
- "Boys. I want to open a school for little lads- a good, happy,
- homelike school, with me to take care of them, and Fritz to teach
- them."
- "There's a truly Joian plan for you! Isn't that just like her?"
- cried Laurie, appealing to the family, who looked as much surprised as
- he.
- "I like it," said Mrs. March decidedly.
- "So do I," added her husband, who welcomed the thought of a chance
- for trying the Socratic method of education on modern youth.
- "It will be an immense care for Jo," said Meg, stroking the head
- of her one all-absorbing son.
- "Jo can do it, and be happy in it. It's a splendid idea. Tell us all
- about it," cried Mr. Laurence, who had been longing to lend the lovers
- a hand, but knew that they would refuse his help.
- "I knew you'd stand by me, sir. Amy does too- I see it in her
- eyes, though she prudently waits to turn it over in her mind before
- she speaks. Now, my dear people," continued Jo earnestly, "just
- understand that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a long-cherished
- plan. Before my Fritz came, I used to think how, when I'd made my
- fortune, and no one needed me at home, I'd hire a big house, and
- pick up some poor, forlorn little lads, who hadn't any mothers, and
- take care of them, and make life jolly for them before it was too
- late. I see so many going to ruin, for want of help at the right
- minute; I love so to do anything for them; I seem to feel their wants,
- and sympathize with their troubles, and, oh, I should so like to be
- a mother to them!"
- Mrs. March held out her hand to Jo, who took it, smiling, with tears
- in her eyes, and went on in the old enthusiastic way, which they had
- not seen for a long while.
- "I told my plan to Fritz once, and he said it was just what he would
- like, and agreed to try it when we got rich. Bless his dear heart,
- he's been doing it all his life- helping poor boys, I mean, not
- getting rich; that he'll never be; money doesn't stay in his pocket
- long enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my good old aunt, who
- loved me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich, at least I feel so,
- and we can live at Plumfield perfectly well, if we have a
- flourishing school. It's just the place for boys, the house is big,
- and the furniture strong and plain. There's plenty of room for
- dozens inside, and splendid grounds outside. They could help in the
- garden and orchard: such work is healthy, isn't it, sir? Then Fritz
- can train and teach in his own way, and father will help him. I can
- feed and nurse and pet and scold them; and mother will be my stand-by.
- I've always longed for lots of boys, and never had enough; now I can
- fill the house full, and revel in the little dears to my heart's
- content. Think what luxury- Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys
- to enjoy it with me!"
- As Jo waved her hands, and gave a sigh of rapture, the family went
- off into a gale of merriment, and Mr. Laurence laughed till they
- thought he'd have an apoplectic fit.
- "I don't see anything funny," she said gravely, when she could be
- heard. "Nothing could be more natural or proper than for my
- Professor to open a school, and for me to prefer to reside on my own
- estate."
- "She is putting on airs already," said Laurie, who regarded the idea
- in the light of a capital joke. "But may I inquire how you intend to
- support the establishment? If all the pupils are little ragamuffins,
- I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in a worldly sense, Mrs.
- Bhaer."
- "Now don't be a wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have rich
- pupils, also- perhaps begin with such altogether; then, when I've
- got a start, I can take a ragamuffin or two, just for a relish. Rich
- people's children often need care and comfort, as well as poor. I've
- seen unfortunate little creatures left to servants, or backward ones
- pushed forward, when it's real cruelty. Some are naughty through
- mismanagement or neglect, and some lose their mothers. Besides, the
- best have to get through the hobbledehoy age, and that's the very time
- they need most patience and kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle
- them about, try to keep them out of sight, and expect them to turn,
- all at once, from pretty children into fine young men. They don't
- complain much- plucky little souls- but they feel it. I've been
- through something of it, and I know all about it. I've a special
- interest in such young bears, and like to show them that I see the
- warm, honest, well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms
- and legs and the topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too, for
- haven't I brought up one boy to be a pride and honor to his family?"
- "I'll testify that you tried to do it," said Laurie, with a grateful
- look.
- "And I've succeeded beyond my hopes; for here you are, a steady,
- sensible business man, doing heaps of good with your money, and laying
- up the blessings of the poor, instead of dollars. But you are not
- merely a business man: you love good and beautiful things, enjoy
- them yourself, and let others go halves, as you always did in the
- old times. I am proud of you, Teddy, for you get better every year,
- and every one feels it, though you won't let them say so. Yes, and
- when I have my flock, I'll just point to you, and say, 'There's your
- model, my lads.'"
- Poor Laurie didn't know where to look; for, man though he was,
- something of the old bashfulness came over him as this burst of praise
- made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
- "I say, Jo, that's rather too much," he began, just in his old
- boyish way. "You have all done more for me than I can ever thank you
- for, except by doing my best not to disappoint you. You have rather
- cast me off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help, nevertheless;
- so, if I've got on at all, you may thank these two for it"; and he
- laid one hand gently on his grandfather's white head, the other on
- Amy's golden one, for the three were never far apart.
- "I do think that families are the most beautiful things in all the
- world!" burst out Jo, who was in an unusually uplifted frame of mind
- just then. "When I have one of my own, I hope it will be as happy as
- the three I know and love the best. If John and my Fritz were only
- here, it would be quite a little heaven on earth," she added more
- quietly. And that night, when she went to her room, after a blissful
- evening of family counsels, hopes, and plans, her heart was so full of
- happiness that she could only calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed
- always near her own, and thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
- It was a very astonishing year altogether, for things seemed to
- happen in an unusually rapid and delightful manner. Almost before
- she knew where she was, Jo found herself married and settled at
- Plumfield. Then a family of six or seven boys sprung up like
- mushrooms, and flourished surprisingly, poor boys as well as rich; for
- Mr. Laurence was continually finding some touching case of
- destitution, and begging the Bhaers to take pity on the child, and
- he would gladly pay a trifle for its support. In this way the sly
- old gentleman got round proud Jo, and furnished her with the style
- of boy in which she most delighted.
- Of course it was up-hill work at first, and Jo made queer
- mistakes; but the wise Professor steered her safely into calmer
- waters, and the most rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the end.
- How Jo did enjoy her "wilderness of boys," and how poor, dear Aunt
- March would have lamented had she been there to see the sacred
- precincts of prim, well-ordered Plumfield overrun with Toms, Dicks,
- and Harrys! There was a sort of poetic justice about it, after all,
- for the old lady had been the terror of the boys for miles around; and
- now the exiles feasted freely on forbidden plums, kicked up the gravel
- with profane boots unreproved, and played cricket in the big field
- where the irritable "cow with a crumpled horn" used to invite rash
- youths to come and be tossed. It became a sort of boys' paradise,
- and Laurie suggested that it should be called the "Bhaer-garten," as a
- compliment to its master and appropriate to its inhabitants.
- It never was a fashionable school, and the Professor did not lay
- up a fortune; but it was just what Jo intended it to be- "a happy,
- homelike place for boys, who needed teaching, care, and kindness."
- Every room in the big house was soon full; every little plot in the
- garden soon had its owner; a regular menagerie appeared in barn and
- shed, for pet animals were allowed; and, three times a day Jo smiled
- at her Fritz from the head of a long table lined on either side with
- rows of happy young faces, which all turned to her with affectionate
- eyes, confiding words, and grateful hearts, full of love for "Mother
- Bhaer." She had boys enough now, and did not tire of them, though they
- were not angels, by any means, and some of them caused both
- Professor and Professorin much trouble and anxiety. But her faith in
- the good spot which exists in the heart of the naughtiest, sauciest,
- most tantalizing little ragamuffin gave her patience, skill, and, in
- time, success; for no mortal boy could hold out long with Father Bhaer
- shining on him as benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer
- forgiving him seventy times seven. Very precious to Jo was the
- friendship of the lads; their penitent sniffs and whispers after
- wrong-doings; their droll or touching little confidences; their
- pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans; even their misfortunes, for
- they only endeared them to her all the more. There were slow boys
- and bashful boys; feeble boys and riotous boys; boys that lisped and
- boys that stuttered; one or two lame ones; and a merry little
- quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but who was welcome
- to the "Bhaer-garten," though some people predicted that his admission
- would ruin the school.
- Yes; Jo was a very happy woman there, in spite of hard work, much
- anxiety, and a perpetual racket. She enjoyed it heartily, and found
- the applause of her boys more satisfying than any praise of the world;
- for now she told no stories except to her flock of enthusiastic
- believers and admirers. As the years went on, two little lads of her
- own came to increase her happiness- Rob, named for grandpa, and Teddy,
- a happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed to have inherited his papa's
- sunshiny temper as well as his mother's lively spirit. How they ever
- grew up alive in that whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma
- and aunts; but they flourished like dandelions in spring, and their
- rough nurses loved and served them well.
- There were a great many holidays at Plumfield, and one of the most
- delightful was the yearly apple-picking; for then the Marches,
- Laurences, Brookes, and Bhaers turned out in full force, and made a
- day of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these fruitful
- festivals occurred- a mellow October day, when the air was full of
- an exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise, and the blood
- dance healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore its holiday attire;
- goldenrod and asters fringed the mossy walls; grasshoppers skipped
- briskly in the sere grass, and crickets chirped like fairy pipers at a
- feast; squirrels were busy with their small harvesting; birds
- twittered their adieux from the alders in the lane; and every tree
- stood ready to send down its shower of red or yellow apples at the
- first shake. Everybody was there; everybody laughed and sang,
- climbed up and tumbled down; everybody declared that there never had
- been such a perfect day or such a jolly set to enjoy it; and every one
- gave themselves up to the simple pleasures of the hour as freely as if
- there were no such things as care or sorrow in the world.
- Mr. March strolled placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley, and
- Columella to Mr. Laurence, while enjoying-
-
- "The gentle apple's winey juice."
-
- The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout
- Teutonic knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys, who
- made a hook and ladder company of themselves, and performed wonders in
- the way of ground and lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted himself to the
- little ones, rode his small daughter in a bushel-basket, took Daisy up
- among the birds' nests, and kept adventurous Rob from breaking his
- neck. Mrs. March and Meg sat among the apple piles like a pair of
- Pomonas, sorting the contributions that kept pouring in; while Amy,
- with a beautiful motherly expression in her face, sketched the various
- groups, and watched over one pale lad, who sat adoring her with his
- little crutch beside him.
- Jo was in her element that day, and rushed about, with her gown
- pinned up, her hat anywhere but on her head, and her baby tucked under
- her arm, ready for any lively adventure which might turn up. Little
- Teddy bore a charmed life, for nothing ever happened to him, and Jo
- never felt any anxiety when he was whisked up into a tree by one
- lad, galloped off on the back of another, or supplied with sour
- russets by his indulgent papa, who labored under the Germanic delusion
- that babies could digest anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons,
- nails, and their own small shoes. She knew that little Ted would
- turn up again in time, safe and rosy, dirty and serene, and she always
- received him back with a hearty welcome, for Jo loved her babies
- tenderly.
- At four o'clock a lull took place, and baskets remained empty, while
- the apple-pickers rested, and compared rents and bruises. Then Jo
- and Meg, with a detachment of the bigger boys, set forth the supper on
- the grass, for an out-of-door tea was always the crowning joy of the
- day. The land literally flowed with milk and honey on such
- occasions, for the lads were not required to sit at table, but allowed
- to partake of refreshment as they liked- freedom being the sauce
- best beloved by the boyish soul. They availed themselves of the rare
- privilege to the fullest extent, for some tried the pleasing
- experiment of drinking milk while standing on their heads, others lent
- a charm to leap-frog by eating pie in the pauses of the game,
- cookies were sown broadcast over the field, and apple-turnovers
- roosted in the trees like a new style of bird. The little girls had
- a private tea-party, and Ted roved among the edibles at his own
- sweet will.
- When no one could eat any more, the Professor proposed the first
- regular toast, which was always drunk at such times- "Aunt March,
- God bless her!" A toast heartily given by the good man, who never
- forgot how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the boys, who had
- been taught to keep her memory green.
- "Now, grandma's sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with three
- times three!"
- That was given with a will, as you may well believe; and the
- cheering once begun, it was hard to stop it. Everybody's health was
- proposed, from Mr. Laurence, who was considered their special
- patron, to the astonished guinea-pig, who had strayed from its
- proper sphere in search of its young master. Demi, as the oldest
- grandchild, then presented the queen of the day with various gifts, so
- numerous that they were transported to the festive scene in a
- wheelbarrow. Funny presents, some of them, but what would have been
- defects to other eyes were ornaments to grandma's- for the
- children's gifts were all their own. Every stitch Daisy's patient
- little fingers had put into the handkerchiefs she hemmed was better
- than embroidery to Mrs. March; Demi's shoe-box was a miracle of
- mechanical skill, though the cover wouldn't shut; Rob's footstool
- had a wiggle in its uneven legs, that she declared was very
- soothing; and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was so
- fair as that on which appeared, in tipsy capitals, the words- "To dear
- Grandma, from her little Beth."
- During this ceremony the boys had mysteriously disappeared; and,
- when Mrs. March had tried to thank her children, and broken down,
- while Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the Professor suddenly
- began to sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice took up the
- words, and from tree to tree echoed the music of the unseen choir,
- as the boys sung with all their hearts, the little song Jo had
- written, Laurie set to music, and the Professor trained his lads to
- give with the best effect. This was something altogether new, and it
- proved a grand success; for Mrs. March couldn't get over her surprise,
- and insisted on shaking hands with every one of the featherless birds,
- from tall Franz and Emil to the little quadroon, who had the
- sweetest voice of all.
- After this, the boys dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs.
- March and her daughters under the festival tree.
- "I don't think I ever ought to call myself 'Unlucky Jo' again,
- when my greatest wish has been so beautifully gratified," said Mrs.
- Bhaer, taking Teddy's little fist out of the milk-pitcher, in which he
- was rapturously churning.
- "And yet your life is very different from the one you pictured so
- long ago. Do you remember our castles in the air?" asked Amy,
- smiling as she watched Laurie and John playing cricket with the boys.
- "Dear fellows! It does my heart good to see them forget business,
- and frolic for a day," answered Jo, who now spoke in a maternal way of
- all mankind. "Yes, I remember; but the life I wanted then seems
- selfish, lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the hope
- that I may write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm sure it will
- be all the better for such experiences and illustrations as these";
- and Jo pointed from the lively lads in the distance to her father,
- leaning on the Professor's arm, as they walked to and fro in the
- sunshine, deep in one of the conversations which both enjoyed so much,
- and then to her mother, sitting enthroned among her daughters, with
- their children in her lap and at her feet, as if all found help and
- happiness in the face which never could grow old to them.
- "My castle was the most nearly realized of all. I asked for splendid
- things, to be sure, but in my heart I knew I should be satisfied, if I
- had a little home, and John, and some dear children like these. I've
- got them all, thank God, and am the happiest woman in the world";
- and Meg laid her hand on her tall boy's head, with a face full of
- tender and devout content.
- "My castle is very different from what I planned, but I would not
- alter it, though, like Jo, I don't relinquish all my artistic hopes,
- or confine myself to helping others fulfil their dreams of beauty.
- I've begun to model a figure of baby, and Laurie says it is the best
- thing I've ever done. I think so myself, and mean to do it in
- marble, so that, whatever happens, I may at least keep the image of my
- little angel."
- As Amy spoke, a great tear dropped on the golden hair of the
- sleeping child in her arms; for her one well-beloved daughter was a
- frail little creature and the dread of losing her was the shadow
- over Amy's sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father and
- mother, for one love and sorrow bound them closely together. Amy's
- nature was growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender; Laurie was
- growing more serious, strong, and firm; and both were learning that
- beauty, youth, good fortune, even love itself, cannot keep care and
- pain, loss and sorrow, from the most blest; for-
-
- "Into each life some rain must fall,
- Some days must be dark and sad and dreary."
-
- "She is growing better, I am sure of it, my dear. Don't despond, but
- hope and keep happy," said Mrs. March, as tender-hearted Daisy stooped
- from her knee, to lay her rosy cheek against her little cousin's
- pale one.
- "I never ought to, while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee, and
- Laurie to take more than half of every burden," replied Amy warmly.
- "He never lets me see his anxiety, but is so sweet and patient with
- me, so devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort to me always, that
- I can't love him enough. So, in spite of my one cross, I can say
- with Meg, 'Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'"
- "There's no need for me to say it, for every one can see that I'm
- far happier than I deserve," added Jo, glancing from her good
- husband to her chubby children, tumbling on the grass beside her.
- "Fritz is getting gray and stout; I'm growing as thin as a shadow, and
- am thirty; we never shall be rich, and Plumfield may burn up any
- night, for that incorrigible Tommy Bangs will smoke sweet-fern
- cigars under the bed-clothes, though he's set himself afire three
- times already. But in spite of these unromantic facts, I have
- nothing to complain of, and never was so jolly in my life. Excuse
- the remark, but living among boys, I can't help using their
- expressions now and then."
- "Yes, Jo, I think your harvest will be a good one," began Mrs.
- March, frightening away a big black cricket that was staring Teddy out
- of countenance.
- "Not half so good as yours, mother. Here it is, and we never can
- thank you enough for the patient sowing and reaping you have done,"
- cried Jo, with the loving impetuosity which she never could outgrow.
- "I hope there will be more wheat and fewer tares every year," said
- Amy softly.
- "A large sheaf, but I know there's room in your heart for it, Marmee
- dear," added Meg's tender voice.
- Touched to the heart, Mrs. March could only stretch out her arms, as
- if to gather children and grandchildren to herself, and say, with face
- and voice full of motherly love, gratitude, and humility-
- "O my girls, however long you may live, I never can wish you a
- greater happiness than this!"
-
- THE END
-